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Journal Entry non-lucid #14 Dream, Lucid Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background:

Dream fragment 1 from 8:40pm-2:12am" Most Powerful Man in World": This man had conflict with his friend. The man was said to be the most powerful person in the world. He had all sorts of power which I don't remember very clearly but I remember that he can transform at will and cut through dimensions. He used his power to get even with his friend I woke up but I didn't record it upon awakening.

Dream fragment 2 from 8:40pm-2:12am" Samuel L. Jackson chased by Police": I was looking out the window of my kitchen. I see this purple car speeding and cops were after it. He parked his car and changed the color to dark orange. I looked at the driver and it was Samuel L. Jackson from pulp fiction, he had the hair and everythingI got up and recorded what I could here

I read Stephan LaBerge's book. I wrote down notes furiously taking it as serious as a classroom. After writing to the amount I already read. I continued to read and highlight important information. After about 1:30 I ate food then meditated before going to sleep. I felt very feverish so I put the bed sheets all the way up and gave myself a little space to breath from. I kept saying, "next time I am dreaming I will realize I am dreaming and I kept imaging myself doing reality checks.

Dream fragment 3 from 4:34am-6:11am " A Quick Lucid Dream caused by suffocation": I was asking this man about dream yoga. Not just anybody though, he is a Tibetan and has been practicing Dream Yoga for a long time, his name or title is Geshe Tenzin Wangyal Rinpoche. I found him on YouTube and watched some of his videos. So, I went and I asked him if he can give me tips about dream yoga or lucid dreaming he told me, "I know the 11th step to yoga". He looked very confused, as if he didn't know dream yoga. I started gasping for air and I asked him what is going on. He looked at me still confused. I realized I was dreaming and I tried to control my breathing, but I couldn't. I tried again and again, then I thought what if it was my waking body that is suffocating. so I decided to wake up . The bed sheet was on top of me and it completely covered me. I moved it and went back to sleep.

Dream fragment 4 from 4:34am-6:11am " True Nature of Reality (False Awakening #2)": I saw TO in my house. I told him about the short little lucid dream that I had but got ruined by the suffocation. He asked me in return, "what was your 1st dream?". I thought, "Why would he want to know that, does he want to know if he was in my dream or something". I tried to remember, but I couldn't. I took out my dream journal and it said that my first dream was about turning as large as the Earth. I thought "really?" but accepted it. He then told me that he was leaving. I remembered that it was Tuesday and remembered I don't have to go to class until later on. I asked if he wants some breakfast. He said no and offered me a ride. I looked outside and I saw 2 red dark wine colored cars parked next to each other.
I saw that the fence to my house was broken. I went over to pick it up and I tried to take it to my house. When I got there I realized there is a door already there. I turn back around my house changed and their is a fountain with statues, and it looked elegant. I jumped from my house door to the bottom of the stair case which led to the fountain and the statues. It was about a 15 ft jump up for a distance of 70 ft. Apparently the walk way to the statues and fountain connects our neighbors, and my neighbors never saw me before until today. I was jumping all over the place wrecking all the garden roses and flowers. I was running back and forth. I saw a dog as I zipped past it. The dog became very excited, so the owner pulled the collar. I though to myself it would be so cool if I had a bunch of dogs running with me, and I laughed at that thought. The dog got angry and bit me. I felt the pain on my hand but it didn't last long. As I was running away I told the guy if he let's his dog free I will kill the dog. Then I thought I could sue him for that. He put the dog in this garden metal thing that transports dirt. As we were walking this man said let the dog go. I became angry but explained the situation calmly to him. Then they calmed down the dog and let it free. It turned into some hippie hipster guy with shades on. He looked mad. I laughed and said that is not our guy. Then we looked for the dog and the dog was gone. So, I turned to see where the hipster went. It has now changed into my old middle school. I was told that I have a detention to serve, so I was looking for the room. I saw CT, and I asked him if he knows where the room is. A lot of people were passing by so he got distracted and told me no and left. I was thinking at this point what if this is a dream.
Then I woke up. I picked up the dream journal beside my bed and put on the light for it. I started writing my dreams down. I reflected on what happened and I was laughing. I was thinking to myself wow I nearly had a full lucid dream. I started hearing people walk around my house. It sounded like my cousin and her friends. She came to my door calling my name and asked me what I was doing in there I tried to ignore her and kept on writing my dream. She slipped through the door and I saw her. I remembered that the door is locked so she can't get in. With that realization, she popped right back out, I ran to the door and I opened it wide open. I yelled, "how did you just do that ?" She replied jokingly," oops phantom slip!" I said, "that is not good enough". I think I believed it because of quantum physics video I watched long time ago. It was explaining particles in term of a ball. It was something like if you bounce a ball on top of a table infinite times at some point it will pass through table. Then I did a reality check to make sure. I looked at my hands. IT FAILED. I didn't continue my normal routine R.C. though. I turned and the light in my room was now on. I go to get my dream journal. My dreams were now written on separate piece of paper. I thought this will take some time to copy over. My grandmother walks in to tell me she has food for me. My mother walks in to see my room. I looked around the room with suspicion, for I felt this weird oddity about the nature of my experience. I saw the elegant letter "A" in Tibetan on my wall just like I have in waking life. I also saw my vows right underneath that. I thought maybe that is what the Tibetans meant by when they say try to comprehend the true nature of reality. I thought maybe reality is just a dream and we are waiting to be awoken. when I said that I woke up immediately. I don't have a fence to my house or a fountain with statues. R.C still failing, but I only did one.

Reflection: I woke up with a thought and that is, "most people live life thinking that they are awake so they live life asleep, but the ones live life thinking that they are asleep live life awake."

Me and my sister walk up to this houses doorstep I've never seen before, it's night out and kind of dark purple and orange in the sky. I smack the door instead of knocking or ringing the bell and instantly my cousin answers and lets us in. We go to the table and sit down. I realize it's a party and we're late and she gives me a bag of chocolates and I look to see what they are, a kiss filled with almond, a kiss filled with peanut butter, and a kiss filled with peppermint-bark, and eat the peanut butter one and instantly become nauseous. Then I get up to walk it off and when I return my cousin has my chocolates, and I become irate, but realize they made me sick so I grow to not care. Then I walk out the front door to get fresh air and I wake up.

Me and my sister are at the bottom of my grandparents driveway. This girl walks up to us and begins to whisper something into my sisters ear. I become paranoid because the look on my sisters faced turns fearful. Then the girl looks down and giggles and then run though the gate and I watch my sister chase her. I chase after my sister asking her what did the girl say, my sister seems to be angry now, and the end of the driveway goes to a dark river instead of the street, the girl runs on the water and makes a right, I see my sister get into a canoe and row hastily towards the girl, I tried to jump on the my sisters canoe but she went to fast and I fell into the water and it drug me away towards the girl and my sister, I see a yellow canoe by me in the water and I climb in and begin to row towards them yelling for them but I can't catch up, and now I see three of my cousins in canoes rowing beside me and all of us are trying to catch up to my sister and that girl.

I'm at my grandparents house, I want to leave right now but everyone else says they're going to leave the next day, so my grandpa says I can take his rv and head out now. I agree and get into the rv, I turn it on and its starts to roll backwards down the long ass driveway. The brakes don't work, but I think at least it's rolling backwards really slow, so i back it into the fence. Then this guy gets in and says lets start over and suddenly he's in the driver seat and drives the rv into the grass field next to the house and says he hopes there isn't shit in the grass, I think about the holes, but he speeds up to the top, and I see a perfect turn in but he doesn't take it and it irritates me, he keeps going and goes through the front yard gate, and then we go back down the drive way.

I'm walking into the house from being at my grandmas or something, like from a short vacation. When I walk in the house I see my dad walk in from the hallway. I instantly know he's been in my room. I become infuriated for my mom letting him in our house and he instantly tries to regain power of the house and us. I tell my mom to call the cops now I know he has no right but she acts like she's too afraid. So I go to my room and dig through stuff for some reason, then I hear him coming so I go to my door and shut it and lock it. He starts banging on the door, and brakes it in. Then he tries to make me back down, but I don't and tell him I'll steal everything right back. And I'll sell his shit as fast as he sells mine. He becomes enraged because he can't instill fear in me, so he pushed me on my bed and had this metal stick and stabbed it at my throat, i try to block it with my hands but it cuts my skin and he walks out of my room. I run out behind him and plea with my mom to step up again but she just stands there and smile, so I turn around and hear him digging in my room, then he walks out with some of my stuff and a stack of my money and he laughs at me telling me what he's going to do with it, but then I get up and grab the money and put it in my pocket and say the same things back.

I'm looking at some kind of travel ad with a picture of a bridge and a quote calling it magical. A woman's complaining about the misuse of the quote - apparently it's a line from the end of a long poem about a more literal variety of magic, and the way the ad is using it is going completely against the spirit of the poem. She summarizes the poem, saying something along the lines of 'magic's one and only purpose: getting us outta here.'

As I think about what that means, I become lucid. I'm floating above the bridge from the image in that ad, high over a river, surrounded by trees; I fly along the road, over the trees, flying higher until I can see that this is an island, and I fly out over the water. It's all very beautiful, but I'm still thinking about what that woman had said, and I associate it with a quote from Tolkien in defense of escapism. (The quote: Why should a man be scorned if, finding himself in prison, he tries to get out and go home?) Thinking about Tolkien, I think that while I'm lucid, I'll go find some elves. But suddenly I feel a desperate need to, as the woman said, get outta here - rather than flying peacefully over the water, now I'm thinking of the sky as a barrier I have to break through; I'm very worked up about it. I fail completely.

When I stop trying to break through the sky, I find I'm now flying outside my IRL home. I land in a tree. My IRL neighbor's on the steps outside with some people I think of as her cousins, and she sees me. I feel embarrassed, a grown man climbing trees. The branch I'm sitting on breaks with a very loud crack, and although I don't fall very far at all, they run over to me. She scolds me for climbing trees when people are trying to sleep. We go inside. I'm still vaguely aware that I'm dreaming, but I'm thinking that I'll have to wait for these people to leave before I can do anything very interesting.

I 'wake up' on a bus. I think about the lucid dream I just had, but am distracted when Danica Patrick starts making out with the woman sitting next to me. (And yet it doesn't occur to me that I might still be dreaming...)

I'm in an office, talking to someone about the android I've been monitoring. The guy I'm talking to is the same model, and I'm asking him about some of the skills he was programmed with; I think there might be something wrong with the one I've been observing, she seems to have let some of her skills decay. He hints that maybe I've got an ulterior motive here, and he's right, but I insist I'm only concerned about my employer (their manufacturer)'s reputation. I'm thinking I'm going to have to download a training program so I can pose as a servant and infiltrate her owner's household.

(Woke up. Had an unusually difficult time getting back to sleep, I was up for at least an hour.)

There's two men sitting in front of a fireplace, a young man and an old one. The young man's saying, "Don't you want to help me?" There's a long pause. The young man isn't aware of it, but the person he's speaking to is his father-in-law; his wife, the old man's daughter, has recently passed away, and for some reason the old man thinks it's to his benefit to keep that connection secret. Now the old man says, "Your wife... Very sweet creature."

(Woke up. Back to sleep without difficulty this time.)

I'm on a train named after a greek goddess; I've just changed from a train called Autehna (which is meant to be Athena - my dreams have mixed up that name in a similar way before, again pronouncing it with a 't' instead of 'th'), and I'm thinking of the naming of the two trains as pleasantly symbolically appropriate. I'm writing in a journal. As I write, I see an image of what I'm writing about: a very powerful and morally dubious man offered me a position, and I turned him down, and I can't for the life of me figure out why. In the journal, I write that I must have learned in another life to refuse to get tangled up with the wicked and powerful.

Continuing as the same character from the train, I find my wife and children asleep around/under the Christmas tree.

Still the same character, I'm standing on a dock next to a rowboat full of men in red uniforms, casting off. I'm in the same uniform, as is the man beside me, but the two of us aren't going back to the ship with the rest. I'm thinking about that position I'd turned down, and the possible ill will resulting from that refusal, and I start to feel suspicious about the guy next to me. When I look at him, he takes off running down the dock, reaching for a rope. I reach for the weapon I've concealed in my false leg, and as I remove it I hear someone say "mon dieu!" I'm thinking about the various bits and pieces of myself that I've left behind.

(Woke up, once again couldn't get back to sleep and eventually gave up on it, even though I'd gotten only about 5 hours of sleep. Unusual.)

I entered a room with I think three friends of mine, but I did not recognise them after the dream. The room didn't really look that much like a room, but more like a prison cell. The floor was mossy / dirty and it just looked really shitty. I walked around a bit and mentioned that there was no way I'd be able to sleep normally in here. There were no windows of any description and there wasn't a shower either. All we had was a little basin to bathe in but that was full of moss and stuff as well.

Today i dreamt i was going to the cinema, i was on the cinema reception
there was a square glass separating me from viewing the person attending me.
i could see her face though, when i got there i said "good afternoon, i want a ticket for gran turismo movie and a pack of popcorn please"
I was happy because i was doing that by myself (i'm kinda shy so...) the lady said "There isn't any ticket for that movie"
and i said "I want a ticket for gran turismo movie please" she said "there isn't any ticket for that movie"
I looked up, to the movies board, i saw 2 same movies in different boards, they had a white cover and some scribbles on it.
i choosed that one, when i entered the cinema room, everything was dark, i just could see the TV light, and i thought to myself.
"Since she didn't asked me for a seat, i can sit wherever i want" so i was going to be back there, i pulled down the chair but then
i changed my mind and decided to go further front, i could see the movie better. i sitted and i saw there was a different movie
than i excepted, it was giving lacos de sangue (portuguese soap opera). i found it weird but i kept seeing it. then i found out
my geography teacher was sitted next to me.


Dream elements:

-cinema room
-geography teacher



Technique used: MILD


hours slept: 8 hours

This is going to be short because I forgot to write it down AGAIN!! ugh I am very disappointed with my self.

I was a police officer with others who had authority and we had to work together to complete a task. But my dad was drunk so he couldn't do it properly and it was very frustrating.

Two famous basketball players( I don't even like or watch basketball so I don't know who they could be) were raising money for charity. There were dogs and I ended up playing with the dogs with them.

Today i dreamt i was having a lunch with my dad and with beatriz silva.
I was so happy to spend my time with her, i had finish lunch, and my dad told
me yelling "Eat these meat!" i was kinda ashamed due to his bad behavior before
beatriz, i did what he told me, to not cause any more trouble or yelling. Beatriz got up
and my dad Yelled with her "Don't leave anything on the plate" she sitted down as well.
*Scenario changed*
This time the scenario was in the car, beatriz was driving, my brother was on the right
seat, my mom was on the left seat behind, and i was behind my brother, i was lying on the
car's "Sofa" but i was shrunken, i said "I will kill you" in japanese "shine obokurus" (i know it isn't)
but that was what i said, or something among this words. and beatriz started laughing out loud.
i was happy to make her laugh.


Dream elements:

-beatriz silva
-dad
-mom
-brother
-laying in car



Technique used: MILD


hours slept: 8 hours

today i dreamt i was in desert storm game, i was behind a rock, there was a sandstorm but me and my partners had to destroy
those 2 tanks. i tried to take a peek and they shooted a cannon bullet. i threw a smoke grenade so they couldn't see me.
i tried to sneak near them, when i got near them, i planted a c4 bomb, then i tried to go far away, keep throwing
smoke grenades, then i enabled the c4 bomb, and they both exploded. behind my mates there was a helicopter coming
above from that sand abyss, then my mates entered the helicopter.


Dream elements:

-Desert storm (game)



Technique used: ----------


hours slept: 7 hours

non lucid
*Me and my girlfriend flew in a car with by her sisters house.
*Roberto's mom kept saying his name when he wasn't around.
*Fell in love with a Japanese girl.
*My sister gave my brother an awesome CD we all listened to.
*Offering cake sincerely to all the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas.
*Exploring a random house in my old apartment complex.

Journal Entry non-lucid #9 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background:I slept late, and I woke up at 4am. I read some of Stephan Labergs book and went to sleep about 6:00am. The first dream was fueled by emotion because I was angry that day. Again 2nd dream I have no idea where it is coming from. I get celebrity appearances for some reason. Of course false awakening because I do reality checks when I wake up. I don't know where the "sign" dream came from.

Dream fragment 1 from 11:00pm-4:00am" Racist Black Guy": I was in a classroom, and my old math teacher from Calc II was passing back grades. Everybody was happy about their grades, I was also. My math teacher walked to me and said something funny then left. We were just sitting there waiting for something to happen. This girl, teacher's assistant, from Chem 120 walked in and told us to get to a chair. We all sat on same table. I sat next to, TO, he got up and asked me if I can hold his seat for him. As soon as he got up this black guy steals the seat, and he says, " I ain't even about to give back to him". He looked like a basketball player, way taller than me. I got mad after he said that, and I told him to get up from the seat. He started backing out with the seat because it was a rolling chair. He got up and he said," For real! you ain't going to stick with your own kind?" I told him that it is not about color or race. He got mad and said," You dark ass n*gga". I looked at my skin color, and then his. I started laughing because he was darker than me, and I thought he was joking. I then told him, " I love him for that" (for the joke). Despite my change of attitude towards him, he didn't change, he was still angry. He murmured something before he went in a different class room that got me mad. I went to this wall, they had little advertisement nailed to the wall. I picked out the nail, it was about the size of my fingers. I put them in between my fingers. I was now very angry. I didn't do anything though because he went inside the classroom. I carried this negative energy when I went back into the classroom. I tried to find the movable chair for my friend, but he already was already sitting down. I then put the nails next to him and sat down. The teacher's assistant then kept blabbering about how I am going to get a bad grade in class if I do that again. She told me what do you do everyday? do you waste your time? I got up and I wanted to brag about my grades, but I reminded myself very briefly that showing off is not for me and success is defined by me.

Dream fragment 2 from 6:15am-8:11am" Mr. White's Hit list": I was at a gas station with Walter White from breaking bad. He wanted to kill this man because their was a hit on him. The man was heavily surrounded by private security guards. When we got their, me and a couple of other people convinced Mr. white to leave. It seemed at first that he would listen, but instead he became desperate and tried to run him over. The security guards immediately took him inside a building. After being a little shaken by the incident, he backed up the car and parked a block away. He wasn't deterred by failing. We wanted to leave. The man with the hit on his head tried to scramble to a car. While his security guards were rushing to get going this man shows up to the car and smashes the mans face with a piece of plank. His head was torn off. It looked gruesome because it was blood and stuff mean just gushing out, but it wasn't "accurate". In waking life the skull would have been fractured and stuff like that. Instead it was like he didn't have any bone on him. White wanted to make sure he was dead, he grabbed his gun and walked out the car. He walked very slowly and very calmly, while his face looks furious. The private security guards blame his and started opening fire on us.

Dream fragment 3 from 6:15am-8:11am " False awakening": I woke up from my dream and started writing my dream in my dream journal. My sister shows up and starts talking to me about something. I wasn't listening, but instead trying to remember my dream. Then I woke up.

Dream fragment 4 from 6:15am-8:11am " Sign": I was with my dad inside a car. I started having this nasty cough. I felt it to my bone. I told him I am going to need medicine. He advised me not to take any type of medicine. I was trying to get a very light cough medicine. We arrived at our house while I was asking him. The neighborhood looked very dark at first. It looked like sun was setting. People were running back and forth. I saw this sign outside of my house, on the side walk. I think it read "Here is proof for actual claim to this property" (I assume it was talking about the sidewalk). I then questioned why it would be there. I rationalized it by saying that my uncle must have put it there. I forgot that my uncle has moved out about a couple of months ago. I then tried to remove and realized that I wasn't strong enough and I went to my garage door. Incredible details in this dream, very clear, and I actually felt more connected to this dream.

There's a man coming down from his room to breakfast at an inn, somewhere expensive and in the mountains, there's snow visible outside, the place looks like a ski lodge. The woman he checked in with is sitting at a table, and he's surprised to see that she's still here, he half expected her to have left during the night. He goes and sits down with her, starts talking with her, but he's distracted, noticing that the innkeeper and his husband are watching them, not being at all subtle about it. This woman is someone in the public eye, and she's married or engaged to someone else, and the innkeeper looked a little scandalized when they checked in together last night.

He says to the woman now, "That... Well, it wasn't an accident. And will you just leave?" By 'that', he's referring to something that happened between them at dinner last night that made it clear he wants her - but it's something small, like a touch on the cheek or the leg; they aren't having an affair, despite the impression they've been giving people. He stands up and as he leaves he gives her this sort of very slight bow, and says "Sleep tight, Sonja."

Tips: Today I don't have a video. But I have an amazing article I'm quite sure a bunch of people (including myself) could use! It's about setting dream intentions and unless you get everything you want to get done in your lucid dreams completed. Here's the link:5 Ways To Strengthen A Basic Lucid Dream Intention


Entry:

1) I'm a reindeer. (this is my first reindeer dream lol) I'm in a field type place with my reindeer brother and he's talking about flying and travelling. "We need to fly around! I wanna see the world!" I'm the grumpy reindeer. "No we don't, we just need to survive." Then a crazy witch comes in trying to catch us and kill us. We run away and get away from her. (Now my perspective has changed to that of a man in a car driving, I'm wearing a black suit and black glasses.) The grumpy reindeer is riding in my passengers side. I'm trying to take him to a safe place. The other reindeer is flying over a traffic light in plain view. He tells his brother "I'm going off to be with Santa." Then the witch sees him flying and she's in her car. The traffic isn't moving so he gets away. Then there is another reindeer in a car, she sees him and pursues him without him knowing. The driver speeds off towards the safe place.
We're at a swampy place, it's foggy and dark but I can see that the "water" is a deep green and mucky. I think I (the person) has to walk/swim through it while the grumpy reindeer flies over it. We're now in a white room and I'm the reindeer again. The man in the now clean again black suit is sitting in a black leather couch. I have a phone now and the man has changed into my mom, while I'm now myself. There is a small tv on a cart in front of us now. There is some explicit content playing on the tv. I feel awkward because my mom is just like sitting there ignoring it. Then it freezes on the most awkward picture. I walk around and look at my cheap phone. The same thing just popped up on my phone and I hit the exit button really fast. I look out of a window and the sun is rising and I think "Oh my gosh, it's sunrise and I still haven't WILDed! So I wake myself up.

2) I'm with a large group of people (around 20-30 people) and we're in a forest type place with a road, we're near a stop sign. I'm Billy from The Grim Adventures of Billy & Mandy ...lectedIndex=17 - Bing Images (The little boy with the hat on.) Some extra characters are here (Erwin and someone else). They tell me to take something from the thugs. They have something that looks like a ball of burgundy hair lying on the ground in front of them, it looks kinda personal though. I walk up to them and look at them and say "I'm not gonna steal your thing I just wanna see if I can take it." Then I do some crazy quick move, like swing my leg out and spin on the balanced one to kick the item into my hand. I smirk at them, and kind of taunt them. I guess they're angry now. So one of them tries to punch me but I block it and punch him at least five times before he can back away and he's kind of confused. His friend just looks at me. The other guy tries to punch me but I grab his arm, and throw him on the ground, grabbing his leg and stepping on his balls, not hard enough to hurt just a warning that if he moves then it's gonna end bad. His friend walks up to me and I see a card floating beside his head that's twice the size of his head. It says "Leaf Storm" a pokemon move, in my mind. I say "If you use that on me his balls are gone." I guess he thought I was bluffing and I saw him move to use it and I crush his friends testicles. The attack hits me but it doesn't hurt at all, it just stirs up a lot of leaves, and now I'm ready to kill him (this is happening more now) I walk out of it and look at him and his friend and say "Oh. Now you will feel my rage." This is where awesome murder scenes usually happen but this time it gets blurry and I remember walking over their limp bodies, I don't think I killed them I just beat them senseless and they've passed out, I mean they didn't even hurt me, they just pissed me off a little. I walk back to my personal group of Grim, Erwin, and some girl. Someone yells out that I should fight "Charla" and she looks like a black version of Mandy, the blonde in the picture, Charla has black hair and she's tan. But the girl in my group says "No, don't! I want you to exist!" then they pull out Mandy and she's heated! Like yelling and flailing, and I know how strong Mandy is so I decide to back down...



Goals!

- Remember something from IRL in a dream
- Succeed with WILD and learn more about the relaxation stage
- Meet Juroara and practice dream control

(I completed my second goal from yesterday!)