non-lucid

Opening Statements
Now, my journal begins! Though, unfortunatly, it has just occured to me that I am absolutely terrible at recall!
Which, actually, is why I started this in the first place! So, let's begin.

Legend
Black = Dreaming
Blue = Aware That I'm Dreaming
Green = Lucid

Entry
Fragment: I was at my aunts cabin by the lake, sitting with a couple of friends.

Ending Comments
Wasn't that just the most detailed thing you've ever read? well yes, that was my first entry, thank you for reading, cheers!

Im in this church and there planing somthing for me im sopost to go on a mission for them .get this girl somwhere. so I go outside and start to run at this girl I jump and tackle her in the air I hold on to her and fly us into the air I fly realy fast and some how now where to go we get to the party and I think about how to land I stop in the air and hover then just drop and land on my legs I set the girl down and she fixes her dress.

I take off again and start to glide like fly around then I start to run in the air like im on a invisible platform I see some drunk DC out the corner of my eye and there yelling at me and saying he proubly thinks he god we should shoot him I fly faster im fly back to my house I live in a apartment I feel like people would come after me if they new were I live

Supplement Dose: 10 mg Melatonin, 50 mg Zinc, 250 mg Choline, 100 mg Vitamin B6

#1 - Hyperdimensional Tentacled Alien Reality Factory [Non-Lucid]

This dream was fairly long if I remember correctly, but as it was early in the night and has a significant ending I've forgotten much of the beginning. My old friend D and I were back at our middle school, though we were still our same ages as now and didn't seem to think much of it. We got in my car, which was parked right in front of the school (in the parking lot), and we drove probably less than 100 feet, parked in a different spot, and got out and started walking back to my house instead. The park in between the school and my house seemed odd; the layouts of everything were arranged incorrectly and there was a ridiculous amount of very confusing construction going on. It seemed that in every direction there were lines of constantly moving shapes and out-of-place colors and textures (which is kind of hard to describe). The trees in the forest also took a very different path than they actually do. Of course none of this tipped me off to anything, I just turned to D and said something along the lines of "Wait, why are we walking? We could just go back to the car and drive there." We went back and got in and slowly got on the road in line with the other constantly-moving vehicles, though we had to drive on the sidewalk over lots of construction to do it, and we became part of the Escheresque conveyer belt just like everything else. As we approached the area where there was normally a bridge that crosses through the foresty part of the park, instead we were carried (because the road dropped, so we were more like floating now but it was more of a telekinetic pulling sensation) through what I can really only describe as some kind of yellowish-beige hyperdimensional caverns that also appeared to be some sort of fantasy town filled with enormous (like, their heads were bigger than my car) tentacled but vaguely humanoid alien monsters that emitted an aura of being some kind of hyperspatial entities with various astral powers. As we were pulled further into this it became clear that all of this was actually just part of a gigantic plane of perception that existed as a singular object which was simply modifying its own structure but was still just one thing.... And then my recall fades out and soon I woke up. X)

#2 - New Phantasy Star Dungeons [Non-Lucid]

I was hanging out with N, R, and J, and R and J had been playing Phantasy Star Universe apparently and N was showing me how we could use our PSPs to connect our Phantasy Star Online (which is not even a PSP game) files to their Universe files and together we could all play on brand new maps, including an insanely detailed forest where we fought a boss that I can't remember now, and sort of a Star Ocean-like medieval town that was in a circular shape and caved in to a sewage drain in the middle where we battled some kind huge red robot monster that was designed to have these really curvy claws and body structures.... Also hard to describe, but I thought it looked cool. >w< However, R and J had passed out for most of it, and N was slipping in and out of consciousness, so for the most part it was either him and I or just me playing. Near the end, N commented about how we need to "slow down on the rum" for some reason, but then I woke up.

Dream Fragment - I don't think this dream ever fully formed, it really was a legitimate framgent. What I do remember is that I'm pretty sure Linkzelda was there and we were talking about schizophrenia, and I vaguely recall either putting on or already wearing a two-piece bathing suit that releases dopamine, which sounds insanely awesome. XD

#3 - Karaoke Game [Non-Lucid]

My cousin K and some friend of hers had left a karaoke game at my house and I played it with her friend since K had already left I suppose, but I didn't really know any of the few songs they had already unlocked so I wasn't doing very well. Later the girl just kind of vanished and I went to turn off the game, originally thinking it was in my GameCube but then realizing that it actually had its own system set up next to it. I looked through the menus a bit more and noticed that it was a Disney game and the characters were all kids and moms. I specifically remember seeing a little boy based on Mickey and a tall, completely black-and-shiny-skinned voluptuous woman based on Minnie. o.o I turned the game off and wandered into the kitchen and started getting really nauseous for some reason. I looked at the clock and noticed that it was almost 11:30 AM, and I thought to myself that it must be because of all the dream aids I took. () I went to grab a cookie to eat to try to make the nausea pass, but then I woke up, thankfully not nauseous for real.

Spoiler for Reflections:

Well, this was an interesting night. First of all, all of the dreams were extremely vivid, even the fragment as much as it possibly could be. There were multiple times throughout them where I had to read things off of various surfaces and it was all 100% clear and legible. Background details such as the placement of objects in my house were also highly accurate, and even included things like the container full of cookies that were only added to the environment within the last couple of days, and the GameCube in the living room that I've only used like once since moving it out there recently. As for the purpose of the experiment.... Are my dreams subconsciously forming the way I want them to? Yes, I would say so. (Especially the bathing suit that releases dopamine, ohmygod yes. ) There was definitely more of an alien quality to them, particularly the first two, and the way reality was pieced together in basically all of them matches ways that I would want to influence them (it's kind of hard put into words how, though). The first one was just amazing, it feels like it's been forever since I had a dream like that.... Take me back to the factory, oh magical tentacled overlords!

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Since my last DJ entry, I have been on holiday and rarely slept, or been so tired and drunk that I didn't write in my DJ. When I did write in it, it was just 1 or 2 words a night. I worried that by not writing in my DJ my recall would suffer, however after getting home, I had a nap or two, and then before sleeping I made sure I got to bed early, and taking Apple Juice and B6 really seemed to help, as my recall was back on form. This is just proof of how drinking and disrupted sleep can kill an otherwise great dream recall!

Date: 23/07/2012
Place: My bed
Time of getting into bed: 10.35pm
100mg B6 before bed

Waking thoughts in black
Non lucid dreams in blue
Lucid dreams in red

Dream 1 - non lucid

I am queuing for some sort of festival in a field. It takes a while to get through the queue, and while I'm there I spot a guy eyeing me up. He's tall and average looking. We talk, and once we get through the gates we go to find somewhere to have sex. We find the edge of some woods, where other couples are shagging, so decide to do it there. We get on the floor and get to it (I'll leave out the details, but it was fun ) Once we have finished, we agree to meet again and he leaves. For some reason I'm still hard, and want more sex, so I wander round in search of someone else willing to join in. I wander to the back of the field but it looks boring, some security guard tells me I can't walk around with my cock out, but I ignore him and walk off. I pass a group watching two people fight, its a guy and a young girl, but the girl is a professional boxer and she beats up the guy pretty bad, so he is bleeding and battered. I finally meet up with the same guy as before, and ask him if he wants to come back to my place. He does, so we go to a small room, which is like a waiting room, and try to ring a taxi. All the taxis are booked or busy, so we have to wait. While we are waiting, other people come and talk to us. Somehow we get back to my place, I don't know how, but it felt like a gap in the dream. However my mum and sister are at my home, and they are annoying and embarrassing me. My mum tells the guy I'm with that I nearly had sex with my sister when I was younger. WTF?! She then gets her boobs out and starts dancing while smiling like a mad women. I tell her to stop but she doesn't, I'm mega embarrassed. Why does my dream mum always ruin my sex dreams? Lol. The dream seems to skip again, I'm now alone in my room, and waiting for the guy to arrive so we can have sex. He arrives, and just as I let him in, a neighbor comes round to visit and I let her in too. I tell the guy she wasn't invited, and apologise for her being there but she overhears, and gets very angry and offended. I feel bad and try to make excuses but she is hurt. For some reason, I'm trying to post some bizarre egg-like things through the letterbox at my front door, but it is full and they won't squeeze in.

Dream 2 - non lucid

I am going to my friend's house and pass a clothes shop that my friend owns. I peer in, and see there is someone stocking shelves with new items, and they have left their bike outside. They look at me, as if to watch their bike but I walk on, I would never steal a bike like that. I soon meet up with the friend, and tell him that I saw his shop in a dream, and that I dreamt someone was stocking the shelves. I don't know why I suddenly decided that part was a dream. I wasn't lucid. I did fall asleep using the mantras 'I will know I am dreaming tonight.' which may have played a part. It was weird that my dream self thought that was a dream, when I'd just done it, but didn't realise the whole thing was a dream. The guy tells me he had the same dream, including the bike outside, and we think this is amazing for a bit. We go to call on another friend ready to go out and party. When we get to his house, he's already been out all day, and is ready for bed (he's drunk and in a mess) however we persuade him to join us. He is wearing a white shirt.

Dream 3 - non lucid
This next dream was sort of connected, but I did wake between the two so it was a separate dream.
I am at my mums house, getting ready to go out with my parents and my partner. My little brother (who is about 8 in the dream, he's 19 in RL) is sad that he has to stay at home, and is a little upset. The dog jumps up to lick his face and make him happier, but he cries when we leave.

We leave and i lead the way, going to a random house that I see down the street, I'm not sure what my intentions were, but I certainly wasn't invited to this house and I don't intend to knock, I just push open the door. My parents and partner shout words of warnings as the door just falls because it is not attached to the wall, it nearly lands on a man inside the house, who looks up angrily. I apologise, but still waltz right into the house, where 2 men are laying a carpet. I feel guilty for barging in, and so I start helping them, they carry on, annoyed but not about to do anything. I rip up the old carpets (brown, cheap carpets) and start bagging up the rubbish. My family sort of watch, and the 2 working men realise I'm quite helpful and are thankful. At some point, my mum asks me to check on my little sister who we left at home in bed. Yes, for some reason my little brother turned into my little sister, who was also a young child in the dream, and she is 23 now. I use my phone to access hidden cameras in her bedroom, and see she is still fast asleep in bed. The bed has an old-lady style flowery pattern on it. I show my mum and my mum is concerned because there is white foam all around her mouth. She thinks my sister has a mouth disease, because she didn't clean her mouth properly.

Dream 4 - non lucid

Me and my partner are outside the main hall of my little school from when I was a young child. However I am my real life age. My partner goes in the hall and I stay outside with lots of chocolate bars, I go in, but I have done something wrong and get sent out again.

Dream 5 - non lucid

I am in a kitchen making dessert. I have made a sponge cake base for each of us, and I am now melting berries to pour on top. The berries melt down to a purple sticky liquid, and I pour it over each dessert. We try to eat it but it is scalding hot, I burn my mouth Before bed, I ate a pizza that was too hot and burnt my mouth. I woke up with a blister. (ouch) [COLOR="#00bfff"] While we are doing this we are watching a TV, which is showing the news that someone has gone missing, suspected killed. I am a few friends know about the murder, because we covered it up and hid the body. However we are keeping it a secret. Some girl who is par of our group that knows, accidentally lets slip about the cover up, and I feel she will be murdered next. 2 of my friends run away to a different country where they have great fun doing things like white water rafting etc.

Dream 6 - non lucid

Me and my friend go shopping, because my mum asked us to pop out and get her some wine. In the supermarket, it takes me a lot of time to find the right bottles of wine, and I take care not to drop and break them. My friend disappears. I then get a trolley full of sweets and chocolate for myself. This is quite normal for my shopping trips! I also go and pick up some prescriptions from the shop's pharmacy. When I get there they won't give me one of the prescriptions because it is not in my name, we argue for a bit and then they give in and let me have it. I am angry at them questioning me so I walk out of the shop with my trolley full of goods, and don't pay. It is now dark outside, and there are gangs of youths hanging around on the streets, and some dodgy looking women. One street I avoid because I know a gang will attack me down there, but I approach a dirty, thin women who tries to fight with me. I pull out a baseball bat and beat her away, she also pulls out a baseball bat but I grab hers and use both of them to hit her until she leaves.

Dream 7 - non lucid - 12.30am

In this dream, I am a policeman. I am going through some of my assessments with a supervisor because they feel my work is starting to slip and they want to help me. They find out my wife and children died not long ago but I still think they are alive. they follow me, to a place where I think my daughter is, she doesn't exsist but I see her, and talk to her. They try to tell me that she died, and this makes me cry. I know they are dead really but can't cope so I pretend they are alive. The 'imaginary' daughter tries to convince me to commit suicide. My supervisor helps me leave and I am in tears.

07.24.2012

Burnt Toast (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I see my Uncle and older cousin again. They were talking about something, and throughout the whole dream, I smell slightly burnt toast.

(I didn't know what there was actually a burnt toast smell spreading around the house I'm at for vacation in Florida as yet).

My older cousin is cooking two pieces of bread, and he has another pan to the left that's heating up some butter that's already in the liquid phase (I'm assuming he took a block of butter in the fridge and let it simmer a bit until it melted).

The same pan he's melting the butter in, I believe it is tilted to the left, so that all the butter would be allocated in one spot, probably so he can poor the butter with ease, without having to worry too much on grease that might accumulate on the pan.

While he's waiting, I notice he looks kind of tired, or maybe he looks depressed. His facial composition is slightly droopy in all areas, and he doesn't look too happy that he has to put some toast on a skillet. My uncle then shows up finally to sit next to my older cousin.

My uncle queried my cousin about something related to the toast, but I couldn't remember.

The burnt toast smell gets stronger and stronger, and my eyes immediately open, and I really DO SMELL BURNT TOAST IN THE HOUSE.

I realize that I haven't been burned alive as yet, so I calmed down. I look at the timer I had for the alarm, and I woke up 25 minutes before it actually rings.


Hahahaha, interesting dream, thanks subconscious, for telling me there was burnt toast.

Maybe now I can float above shark infested waters, and doze off a bit, and trust that my mind is going to help me wake up and realize I should get the hell out of those waters....hahahahaha.

I feel like I'm laughing at myself sometimes.

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07.24.2012

Sonic and Knuckles? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember either Sonic or Knuckles carry the other while flying....without Tails being the one holding them up like in Sonic Heroes.

That was weird...

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07.24.2012

Train Station Security (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember going through some security after getting off a train stop. I take the time to make sure I'm going through the right place to get scanned, and I think I went to the wrong section.

The security man simply told me that I needed to go back, and I quickly complied with his order and wait there for a few seconds to pass through with no worries.

I remembered this dream after breakfast but had not the time to write it down. This is my first long dream since years...

I was on a trip with my class (in rl this would be on monday). We were in a shopping mall, but after going down on the moving stairs I suddendly was in a swimming pool. I swam around some minutes, then a teacher(who isn't in this school anymore) said to me I had to go to the bus already. So I took a car, drove around and damaged some cars, then I saw the bus.

-The Problem With Driving-

This dream's origin is seemingly lacking in my inner-most memory, though what I do remember is being high up in the mountains. It was dry up there, little plant life and mostly rock and dirt, some grass here and thee. The sky was purple and somewhat cloudy, though it was not the kind of purple one might see at a late sunset hour. It was fantastic, strange and perplexing, yet so informal in my vision. I also hated it. I hated the feeling around me. To add to my hatred of such an area, my dad forced me to drive up there with his car. We were ment to be going to somre museum or observatory or something, something in the mountains. Once we arrived, it was a picnic area. Kids played around on a grassy little field with a picnic table in the center. He told me to drive home. With my lack of experience, I was shooting in the wind now. So, I drove down. I kept trying to dodge small poles along a sort of pathway that I was required to go down to get home, but this pathway wasn't even on the road. In due time, I hit one of the poles and left a nervingly sized dent in the side door. I went down into a tunnel, nervous my dad would find out, and speak of the devil he was suddenly sitting right next to me in the car. I snapped, then said I'll get home myself. I got out, the tunnel being a orange-purple hue of light. In my hands, I suddenly had a scooter, and I hate scooters, but I was masterful at riding them in this dream. I took a final look back at the car, the black scion with a dent of a white color on the right side of the car. I scooted off, and that was how it ended.

Notes: This reminds me of situation not long back where I had to drive up a hill with many turnpikes.

We were at the property of our old rental house but inside a different house. I screamed at my mom telling her that I hate how I look now, my face is oily and my hair is too short. I went in to the bathroom, stood in front of the sink and mirror. I turned to my right and saw a shelf with four bottles, telling by the picture, they were Lavender, Coconut, Brown Sugar and the other was something I've never seen before. I found out that they were lotions by reading the labels. I picked up the brown sugar one and used it like a scrub, it worked like one too! My family saw me through the open door (it was closed before) and made fun of me telling me that it won't change me. I snapped back that I'm just cleaning the oil off my face cause it's uncomfortable. --- I was at a pool party, right outside of my house. I was inside of a smaller pool with my friend (DC) while others were at the main pool. A blue haired girl (DC) was at the center of our pool, she floated in and out of water, playing around. We were then naked for some reason, I was suprisingly not embarrassed about it. I started to think of how the landlady's younger son used to live in my current house. I looked in the direction of my house and realized that he lives right next to my old house, he never once lived in my current house (he lives with his family in RL). The front door of his house was open so I took a peek, there were two bedrooms, and I thought to myself "Do he even use the other bedroom?" (I saw the inside of his house while still being at the pool). The host/landlady (had a HUGE fight with my mom in RL) came out to announce something with her back facing me so I turned my face to hope that she won't notice me if she look around. I quietly got out the water, still naked and ran toward a room. I grabbed my swimsuit and ran inside the bathroom and changed. I got to the gate of the house and found my mom waiting for me in a car across the street. I went up to the car and found my stepdad and his sisters in the car too. I stood by the window asking them questions. I saw the landlady standing near the gate so I got in the car quickly but before I can even close the door, she noticed us. My mom got out to greet her and they were really nice to each other. --- We were on the road with the older sister driving us (she can't drive in RL). We went down a hill really fast and I held the back of my seat in panic. (I hate even the slightest track bump in RL, so imagine the hill)

07/23/2012
12AM-10AM

• One dream where easter was ALL fucked up: not enough bees apparently, so the spring flowers were a bit trim all around. There was also an easter candy shortage which just pissed me right the hell off
• Then me and Danny had a stupid fight (which should have made me lucid because we never fight irl, not like that), and then he gradually morphed into my first husband. I remember thinking at that moment, how unusually mature my first husband was behaving (which was because he was still Danny on the inside I'm guessing).
• A quick peak at the space jockeys from Prometheus and Alien. I also have the distinct feeling that one tried to have sex with me, but was having trouble with his aim (because in his world, they had engineered the women into oblivion, and only males existed. They created more males in labs, but there was no more sex because there were no more women. Until they met me. And there must have been some kind of hyper-awareness on their part, because they could sense my pheromones on a really high level, which switched back on their natural desire to reproduce. I apparently didn't mind lol. I admit I'm connecting the dots a bit here, I just remember briefly having this knowledge in the brief moment that I was with one them. I remember specifically having to angle my hips a little because his aim was slightly to the left. He had no idea where he was going. I'm ready for this advanced TOTM already. So much to teach them ).

Supplement Dose: 10 mg Melatonin, 50 mg Zinc

Spoiler for Why I Took These Supplements:

I've decided to start a new experimental regimen. I've been doing a lot of thinking about the connections between hallucinogens and dreaming, especially after doing a lot of research and testing with menthol, and what it's really brought me to is the relationship between dopamine and prolactin. As far as I can tell, dopamine is like the chemical of the subconscious.... It connects us to our thoughts and desires, brings our imaginations to life. Prolactin, on the other hand, controls how much desire we actually have, and I mean that on a rather deep, subconscious level. Dopamine and prolactin are normally inversely correlated, but they can both be active at the same time. My theory was that having both dopamine and prolactin going would make for a more general enhancement of a dream or hallucinatory experience, but it would also make them rather wild and uncontrollable, or at the very least impulsive. Dopamine, however, while it is very impulsive in its own right, would allow for an experience that more naturally formed around our desires when not inhibited by prolactin.

For example, I recently decided to do research into the pro- or anti-prolactinergic effects of various psychedelics. The well-known ones that I've experimented with that I was able to find information on include DMT, psilocin (from mushrooms), and LSD. DMT and psilocin each give me trips that are totally uncontrollable, and often are alien and bizarre. Psilocin gives me me a considerably more "connected" trip than DMT, and is often very sexual and shows me amazing visions that do reflect my subconscious, but overall it's more like I'm going along for the ride than anything. LSD is a totally different story. Whenever I'm on LSD, reality forms to my desires without me even having to do anything; the world simply bends and twists until it's reshaped itself to explore my every fantasy. It's not a conscious method of control like using powers in a lucid dream, it works on the subconscious level in the sense that the dream-like state itself is formed in exactly the way that you would form it if you were doing it manually, and since it's just happening for you and your subconscious is creating it it's even better than you could possibly create with your conscious mind. Unsurprisingly (to me, anyway), DMT and psilocin increase prolactin levels, while LSD decreases them.

So how does this apply to the supplements? Well, I got to thinking.... Menthol raises prolactin levels and potentiates D2 responses. This is why I believe it creates some of the same connection to desires as dopamine (like the sexual effects), but it also makes them more sensual than fiendish, and it adds lots of visual effects like RobStar commonly mentions. It also definitely does make me more impulsive while lucid, and there's certainly nothing wrong with this; the "pure" sexual feeling is one I've already grown quite fond of. However, I still have the desire to test my theories further and see what a high-dopamine/low-prolactin state of dreaming would be like. This is difficult to do normally.... Drugs that increase prolactin tend to increase REM (like menthol), whereas drugs that increase dopamine tend to decrease REM. However, that doesn't mean there's not a way around it. The plus side is that increased dopaminergic activity itself will decrease prolactin levels if unopposed, so all that's really required is to find a way to raise dopamine levels and increase REM at the same time.

That's where the supplements come in. Melatonin directly opposes the effects of dopamine, particularly at D2, to suppress REM and induce non-REM sleep. Therefore, the REM rebound effect it creates later is the result of a direct increase in the dopaminergic activity of dreams to make up for lost time. So that's how that works. Zinc is another cool one, I think. Zinc is an NMDA antagonist, and this alone may add something to it but it's not my main goal; however, it does mean that chronic use of zinc will upregulate D2 receptors, and that should make for more enhanced dreaming overall. In addition, zinc appears to be a positive allosteric modulator of dopamine receptors, especially D1 and D2. This means that it doesn't actually provide any effects by itself and will not create a dopaminergic response (i.e., it won't wake you up), but it will enhance the ability of agonists at the receptor such as dopamine to create their response. So in other words, it makes the dopamine at those receptors more effective. It's also known to decrease prolactin levels with continued use. Together, I believe these two supplements, especially in chronic use, may be able to give me the kinds of effects I'm looking for. I'm also planning to add new ones to the stack to increase the effect, such as vitamin B6 to increase the production of dopamine where the brain needs it, and vitamin E to further reduce prolactin levels. I'm also considering going on the no fap challenge during this (which is why I've listed the entry as "Day 0", as I'm already unable to officially start today) so that my dopamine receptors become more sensitive and my daily prolactin levels drop. Hopefully, this will turn out to be a very successful endeavor and give me dreams that are more tailored to my desires without me even having to intervene!

#1 - Latex And Superpowers [Non-Lucid]

There was a lot going in this dream leading up to this point, but where my memory really comes in was at a cafeteria on a college campus. I was really late for lunch so even though I looked around a bit I didn't really get to eat anything. At one point I went and waited by a doorway for M who was apparently on the other side of the wall but being held up by something, and it randomly occurred to me that I was wearing something like this:

Though, I can't remember if it was those colors exactly; I didn't pay much attention to myself. Two other girls walked up also wearing latex outfits and heels and I recognized them as more friends of M. Eventually the three of us decided to go see what was taking M so long and "get her out of trouble". (I wrote that in my notes, followed by "(they thought she was too young)", but I'm not exactly sure what it means now.) After a short talk I guess I forgot about M, and my friend J walked up and tried to kiss me on the cheek, which really weirded me out considering that it was coming from him. Our mutual friend S who was a grade below us in school was there too, and she claimed that she decided to get "happy and drunk". I randomly jumped up on her back so she was giving me a piggyback ride, and I told her that with me there we'd be able to phase through walls so she didn't have to worry about that. We started walking through walls randomly and talking about college, but around that time the dream was starting to become unstable, and soon I woke up.

Visualization came extremely easily after this dream. I probably could've done a WILD if I wanted to, but I was sort of focused on something when I woke up.

#2 - The Amazing Future Smeargle [Non-Lucid]

This entire dream took place in third-person, and thus a lot of it is hard to recall now. I had the feeling that I was playing some new Pokémon game, but it was just that the screen was taking up my entire perception. Essentially, the plot was about some insanely powerful Smeargle who was completely dominating all of the Pokémon in the world in the future, and so the legendary beasts sent it back in time to get rid of it, but as a result others followed it to continue trying to beat it while certain organizations were trying to capture it for themselves. By this point in the game I already had it on my team, along with a few other fully-trained Pokémon, but I can't really remember what they were now (but I do remember something about fighting the legendary beasts). The Smeargle really was kicking ass; I'm pretty sure its moves were Fire Blast, SolarBeam, I want to say maybe Earthquake, and something else I don't quite recall now.... A terrible spread, but it was doing pretty well in-game. X) Not long after a battle ended, I woke up.

Also, thanks for the idea for this, RobStar. It's going to come in handy.

Spoiler for Preliminary Reflections:

Alright, so day 0.... The first dream interests me the most, though the second one is worth noting too. I haven't really had third-person dreams of that caliber in a while now, and I have to wonder if that was related to increased D2 activity. Melatonin has definitely given me some OBE-like dreams before. But, like I said, it's the first dream that I find really significant. First of all, this is the second time recently where I've felt that consequences weren't quite so important and just jumped on someone's back. However, in the first one I was trying to be playful, even if I was doing so in sort of an odd way, and I had reason to believe that nothing mattered because I was "back in time". In this one I just totally didn't care at all, and I knew that we'd be able to phase through walls easily. The rules of reality definitely didn't apply to me in this dream, and I was aware of it somehow. At no point did I become lucid, at least not fully if this counts at all. It was more of a... "this is my reality" type of feeling. Furthermore, there's the matter of the latex outfits.... It's entirely possible that this is just incubation from the sexy hawt females thread, but nothing of that sort has ever really happened to me before. I can say for sure that the incidence of myself and other girls wearing those outfits increasing definitely correlates with what I would expect from increased dopamine and decreased prolactin (and it in fact extremely accurately reflects some of my LSD experiences ).

So, of course, this is only the very first trial, and it's far too early to say anything yet. However, those are my current thoughts. I can't wait to see what kind of dreams I have tonight!

I am on the computer in the process of buying something from someone over the internet. i use my moms E-mail to communicate with them while i also try to hide it from my mom. when the seller asks "whats your credit info" i decide not to buy it and i then delete all the messages and close the window. on my i-pod i tell the seller not to email me anymore and he replies "i just sent another E-mail." (this dream fades out and another begins) i now find myself in an indoor area with my friend Dillan. the walls are made of cement and on my hand i wear a gantlet (that i recently made in waking life) we are surrounded by large unknown creatures. we run to a door way and are stopped by two very large snake / worm like creatures, one low to the ground like a sleeping bag, pulsing in color (mainly red and green) and the other white, more tube like than the other. i pull out a incredibly short bow and begin firing at the red and green one as they both slither and inch towards me. Dillan yells "stop shooting at the green one look at the white one!" i run through the doorway and close the door, but it has a open space above it. and i shoot at whatever comes through (we eventually escape these two creatures although i do not recall how) He then tells me "the senra stole my cloth" i walk away and with my gantlet i punch a tall white to clear humanoid creature in the leg as hard as i can, the leg comes off and the creature falls over as well. i then pick up the leg, throw it over my shoulder and give it to my friend. (*this dream now fades and and a third comes into focus) all i can remember is someone at my house useing my I-pod because they are board.

Surfing

I saw monster wave. It was hundreds of feet long and a couple stories tall. I found where I could approach it and not already be in the tube. I never saw my surf board. It may have been a make-shift surf board.

I approached the wave and ended up behind it so I could catch up and ride it. I rode it for a second, though it wasn't really vivid. I didn't get to enjoy it so much.

I rode the wave in a little. Now someone was with me. We were riding the wave where it took us which was not exactly to shore. It took us to where water was coming from another direction as a river. The two waterways merged and we just had to keep our balance. The water was muddy like the Colorado.

Cable

We bought a $50 cable package and we had such a variety of shows to watch, but I was concerned about the money we'd be spending. I saw the program listings, not any shows.

I have no desire to get cable iwl.

Ron J.

I was in some kind of resort and Ron J. was there. I asked for his autograph. I found out he did water colors and asked if he would make a watercolor painting for me. He said they were all just water colors or something like that. I told him that's what water colors ARE. I asked if he would do one for me and sign it. Then I would have a painting and an autograph.

He said "I might just do a parallelogram or something. Maybe some other shape." I was a little disappointed, but I figured, if that's what he does, then so be it.

Dream One (Fragment): I'm with a bunch of people in some sort of storm. We're taking cover around a bridge or building with columns or something. I'm lucky that I survive the storm, and then go to try and find survivors to help.

Dream Two (Fragment): All I can remember is seeing an ex-boyfriend with some chic. The chic and I are talking, and she's very suspicious of me and doesn't want me to talk to him because she has no idea who I am. I tell her she doesn't have to worry, I don't want anything to do with him because I dated him once and he was an asshole.

Dream Three: I'm outside a city gate, it reminds me of Venice in Assassins Creed II, everything is old and there's water everywhere. For some reason I know I'm banned from this city, but I want back in. I have my kids with me. I tell them to stay put behind a small house, and I go about trying to figure out how to sneak into the city. I find a tower, and start to climb it, but then see guards coming, so I shimmy around tot he back of the tower, then climb up and back down. On the tower I saw that I could hop across some poles in the water to get back into the city. I make my way back to my kids to tell them, and I see my husbands ex-fiance there with her kids and husband. She stops me and asks me why I'm there since I'm banned from the city. I tell her I was just looking around trying to figure out how to get my things that are left in the city. She offers to help, but I decline saying I'll figure it out. Then I tell the kids about the poles, and we hop across the river and make our way to our home in the city avoiding guards surprisingly easy as we go.

Dream Four: I'm in a car with my kids and there is a man driving. He has long dark hair and facial hair, and I'm pretty sure he's supposed to be Ezio. He's telling me that as long as the men who are hunting me are alive, there's no where my kids and I can be safe except by his side. He drives onto the interstate, then rams into the back of a limo causing the limo to swerve, then tip over and roll a few times. He quickly exits off a ramp to the right that curves under the interstate, and parks the car under the bridge. Then He tells us we're going to go finish him. We follow him at a distance as he walks up the embankment and makes like a concerned citizen and acts like he's helping the dude out of the limo, but instead he shoots the man and then we get back in the car. We drive to a college, and get out. Ezio seems to think the next target is a professor in the building. We go inside, and then Ezio slips into a classroom and my kids and I stand against a wall and try to look like we belong there. After a while, I realize it's taking Ezio a long time and something must be wrong. I don't hear any shouts or screaming so I know there's nothing bad going down, but I wonder if he needs a way out, so I peek my head into the classroom and motion to him. He comes out and grabs my little little girl and pics her up and asks her if she missed him, acting like a father would. We move away from the classroom and to a bench, and he thanks us for giving him an excuse to escape and giving him cover by making him look like a family man and not an assassin. He believes that his target has figured him out. He kisses the top of my forehead and thanks me for coming to his aid. People are walking all around us at this point, but ignoring us completely. There's a table nearby with a bunch of men in suits talking, and a couple of skinny chics in flight attendant outfits walk by. Then I see a guy with dress pants and a pink button up shirt with a tie walking with another man. I know the pink shirt guy is the target, and he's got a folder open and showing it to the other man. He's telling the other man that he swears that the assassin walked into his classroom this morning and tried to kill him, he was lucky that the assassin was interrupted by the witch and her children pretending to be his family. The other man laughs at this idea, and tells him that assassins don't do jobs after they have settled into a family life, and that he probably just saw a man who looked like the assassin with his family. Ezio pushes me gently forwards on the bench, and I take that as my cue to get the kids and start moving. I walk right past the guy in the pink shirt, and am careful to catch his eye as I do so. He looks at me and turns pale then starts to say, "There she..." But he's cut off when he's shot by Ezio's secret gun. Everyone screams, and so do I, then I make like I'm trying to cover my children with my body to protect them from more shots, even though I know there will be no more. Ezio comes running and acts like the concerned husband, trying to block up from gun fire, asking if we're ok, and then finally telling us to run in case the shooter returns. We run a few hundred feet away to a bridge over the lower floor. We stand there close enough to still see where the target is laying dead, but far enough that we don't look like anything more than curious bystanders. Ezio starts to thank me for being a distraction and giving him his opening, but I wake up in mid-sentence.

I walked out of a door. I apparently just left my classroom. Someone was also with me, I don't know how, but I just knew she was a close friend. I couldn't remember her face though.

I slammed the classroom door shut behind us. I had the feeling that we were the last ones in the building. We started walking toward the stairs, but suddenly the door I just closed started to open by itself. I remember hearing the slow creaking sound too. "What's happening?", my friend asked. "I don't know, I closed it I swear!!", I replied. Wide-eyed, we looked at each other for a second, then dashed for the stairs. I shoved her aside so I could go down first (move b*tch! lol).

I'm pretty sure we were on the 4th floor. So I thought "Man, 3 more floors to go!". My friend had caught up with me by that time, so we went down together. We were still panicking because of the ghost opening the door upstairs.

We reached the first floor finally, and on our way out, I could see some of our other classmates waiting for us in the distance. My friend went ahead and ran to them. I was going to, but I noticed a little boy standing just outside the door. I went to him and told him to get out of there, because there was a ghost. He said it wasn't true, and that ghosts weren't real. I was flailing my arms at him, trying to get him to come with me. He wouldn't listen though, so I just left him and ran to my classmates.

When I arrived, they asked, "Who were you talking to?".

I said, "The boy won't listen to me! I told him to get away from there!".

Then they said the creepiest thing.

"What boy? There was nobody there. You were talking to yourself."

O___________O

I went to bed around midnight (kinda late for me) and woke up at some point during the night due to a thunderstorm. I fell back asleep not long after it passed and had the first dream I remember from last night. It was about the Doctor (the Eleventh Doctor, to be specific). I was watching in third-person, by the way. Anyway, he went into this weird, cartoon-like place. It became realistic fairly quickly, and then there was some epic battle I can barely recall between the Doctor and some guy I'm assuming was a bad guy.

I woke up again at 6:30 and decided to go back to sleep. This time, I dreamed that I WAS the Doctor... and I was just outside at my church. I went around to the side of the building (which is actually my friend's backyard; she's the pastor's daughter and lives next door to the church. Their backyard essentially doubles as church property) to find the TARDIS and Amy Pond. I found the TARDIS right where I expected and entered it. Unlike on the show, it was NOT bigger on the inside. Anyway, for some reason, I got mad at Amy (who had apparently been allowed to fly the TARDIS) for leaving it out in the rain (I'm not sure why; besides, it was barely even raining).

(It's not really surprising my mind would dream up something like that, seeing as I went to church yesterday and then watched Doctor Who later. Well, it is a bit odd that I was the Doctor, though... I'm almost ALWAYS myself in dreams.)

I woke up to find it was only 6:45. I drifted off to sleep yet again and woke up without recalling any dreams... or so I thought. I noticed a big Pikachu bead sprite on my wall and couldn't remember it ever being there, so I looked at my hand to see if I was dreaming. I counted five fingers, concluded that I wasn't dreaming, and picked up my iPod to check the time. Well, whatever the time was, it wasn't 103:53. Now, I knew I that I WAS dreaming after all. After the two attempts it took to unlock my iPod (it glitched up the first time), I noticed that I had some apps I don't have in real life as well as a different background. The background was bright orange. Upon closer inspection, I realized it had a picture with rather a lot of text over the top (also in orange, but in a different shade). I tried to read what it said but discovered that it was all in gibberish.

I put my iPod down and sat up, ready to try some dream control. Despite having full (or, at the very least, a lot of) control over myself, it didn't occur to me at the time that I had immediate LD goals (i.e., completing the TOTM and meeting my dream guide), so I just decided to do the first thing that came to mind. I closed my eyes. 'When I open my eyes, I will be in... Skyloft!' I thought to myself, naming the first fictional place that came to mind. I opened my eyes, a bit disappointed that I was still in my room.

I remembered that some people unintentionally wake up when they close their eyes, so I checked my iPod again to make sure I was still dreaming. It still said the time was 103:53. I was still dreaming. Being one who likes to sleep in in the mornings, I laid back down and closed my eyes, finding myself back in reality shortly after.