non-lucid

Dream - Lucid

I MILDed again!

I just used my mantra of "I will become lucid" and also said "I will reality check" a couple of times. Yay! I'm glad I found a method that works. Thanks, Matte!

I was at my house. Some mini leprechaun guy, I think it was supposed to be a guy I know in waking life named Jonni, killed my friend/coworker Virginia in her sleep at her apartment. He was very smart, so there's no way she or anyone could elude him, even if the attack was known about in advance. I was terrified this would happen to me, and my parents were at a movie. I was home alone, and it was getting late. I tried to call my mom and she said they'd be home soon. I fell asleep and woke up quite a few times, each time with a wave of terror upon waking. I called my mom a few more times. I fell asleep and woke up again, and my mom was home, working in her office. It was midnight. I went over to her and told her how scared I was. She seemed annoyed and told me she could just give me a Xanax and lay there with me until I fell asleep, but she truthfully hated doing that for my dad. She said if I didn't fall asleep, she wouldn't do it. I got excited and told her I promised I'd fall asleep. I thought to myself even if I didn't fall asleep, I could pretend so she wouldn't leave.

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I had another dream, but I swore I'd remember it and didn't write it down. Guess what? I forgot it. I fell asleep and woke up again, and decided to MILD. I did my mantras until I fell asleep.

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I was in an episode of Family Guy. The story was about how one of the characters met his wife. It wasn't a very funny episode though. We were on a bus going to basic training for the military. I was sitting with a younger version of Peter. He pulled out a bag of pot mixed with cocaine, and said we could just do the coke off our fingers. I really didn't want to do that. He had just pulled it out, opened it, and stared at it for awhile.

We got to basic training. It was nighttime outside. We walked through the grass to a screened-in shed that had many seats in front of a stage-type thing with a podium on it for a speaker. We were supposed to listen to someone talk, but they weren't there yet. I smoked a cigarette with Peter. We saw the girl that one of the characters was supposed to meet. She was a cartoon with long, brown, wavy hair and she was dressed all in blue. She smiled flirtatiously as she flipped her hair. Peter's voice came on in the background to say something like "And there she was.".

The speaker finally came, a big black woman, and we all sat in the chairs. We listened to her talk, and she told us that we had to get up at 5 A.M. every day because one of the people in charge had to get up that early. I thought that was a little ridiculous, but it was the military, so I didn't argue. We were dismissed. I took Peter's hand and he offered me a cigarette. I took one, and he lit mine off of his. We walked past this little area where there were big rocks surrounding a tree in a semi circle. Morrie from Tuesdays With Morrie was there, all cartoonified. Him and Peter made some sort of joke, and we kept walking. We went into another little screened-in shed. There was a big banner lying on a table to welcome us. A big rainbow appeared on the banner. I thought it was very sarcastic sounding, since it was welcoming us to the military.

Wait what? Rainbows don't just appear on banners. I was dreaming! I knew the dream was almost over, but I examined my hands anyway to induce clarity. Things kept fading, but I finally stabilized them a bit. I did an RC. There was a chalkboard/marker board in the room. It had an orange spiral drawn on it with text inside of it. There were little stick people drawn off to the side. I glanced away and looked back. The text had changed, and the spiral was smaller. I floated up through the ceiling and ended up inside my family's bonus room. I could feel that I was going to wake up any minute, so I quickly thought of something I could do in a short amount of time. I decided to fly through space, if only for a minute. I took off through the ceiling and I was in space! It was beautiful. There were purpleish-blue stars everywhere, and I saw an orange galaxy off in the distance. It was amazing. It only lasted a few seconds though, before it started to fade to black.

"Each time we face our fear, we gain strength, courage, and confidence in the doing."
Anonymous

I was at my school, and I was carrying my baby cousin. She was having a fit and completely freaking out, so I put her in her stroller.
Time skip.
I was in a hallway at the school, and my mother was there. She told me to go outside to the car to assist my father with carrying some things. I had my sweater on, so I knew I'd be warm enough. I walked over to the doors and was about to go outside to the parking lot, when I realized that I didn't have my shoes. I went back to where my mother was to get them, but she began to scold me for not helping, claiming that everything had been brought inside already. I angrily put on my shoes and went outside. I jumped on the ground and slid on the ice on my belly. It was jolly good fun, but I stopped because I didn't want to dirty my sweater.
I walked over to the car where my father was working on his computer. I began talking to him though the window.
"Can I help carry anything?" I asked. I noticed some gross-looking bugs on the outside of the car.
"Everything has been brought in except a couple things that Ill get."
"I'll carry them."
"Why?"
"Well, because I didn't help out earlier and I desired to make reparations for my lack of assistance, and THAT BUG IS CREEPING ME OUT!"
On the car was an ant and a "tomato spider," as I called it (see image below). They both had a bunch of little white grub-like things attached to them, parasites I expected. The ant was big, but worse was the tomato spider. It had a gross red body and long legs, and a fuzzy tail. It fell off the car and I jumped back. I began to stomp on it, but every time I tried to kill it, it didn't die. I stomped again and again, but it still lived.
I went into panic mode. I was freaking out. I hate bugs, and they are one of my biggest fears. I began to flail, and I almost hit a nice young lady in my panic. My father kept telling me to calm down, but I just couldn't. Now while that damn spider still lived. I stomped again, and again, and again. Finally, I threw a napkin on it and stomped again. Finally, I woke up.
This one scared the feces out of me. I am so afraid of bugs, for no reason. I think this one counted as more of a nightmare than the last one, because while roaches are just gross, big red spiders are frightening.

This thing is awful. Actual size.

I'm skating down the interstate on roller blades. There were a few motorcycles that I was keeping up with until I came to an exit. I got off and I was trying to find my way around this place. I ended up going across of railroad tracks. I think I was just looking for a good spot to skate. I ended up going trough a crap load of huge rose bushes, and some guy on skates was also following me.

I saw my two brothers, and one of them let me hold their fishing pole, and I started fishing at this ditch, and immediately had a few hits. On the third cast, I pulled up as soon as I felt a tug and started reeling it in. A crowd showed up, and they were trying to critique my technique. My brother was thinking that maybe it could have been a junk fish. I continued reeling, and eventually I pulled out this crystal clear looking bass. One of the random dc's held it up for a second and said that was the first fish he ever saw caught in person. I tossed it back, and we hopped in the car.

We were all smoking and my brother said something about how we were going to get 5000 for something we did. We ended up going to some part of town that seemed familiar, but now that I think about it, I don't know where it was, maybe a dream?


sidenote: starting to wake up after each of my dreams now.

Ninja9578 was asking me my opinion on Alex's DJ. I told him that it started out being just a regular journal, and then it became a journey into ones subconsciousness. I was looking at the DJ on paper in my house, but I don't know where they were...maybe on the internet.

12.01.2011

Odd meditation and healing facility (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Three dreams for today.

Third:

I arrived to a place, next to the beach were people was doing some weird meditation and healing. People were laying down on the ground and they were covered by water. After a while, they would loose consciousness due some weird gasses the water had. Then, the healing process started.

I though myself it was going to be a great place to Astral Project and I decided to sign up. After a while waiting, a guy told me to sign up and to get into a swimsuit. I started to search for a swimsuit in a bag, but I realized I already had one. I found some boxers inside my bag. One of them had music and hearts painted all around. I found a few dirty ones as well.

I laid down and the ground was wet. I asked the guy if this was a good Astral Projection aid. He told me it was not, that I only would archive blurry vision. I laid down again and tried to get comfortable, but there were some iron chairs on the way and I was not happy.

I had some sort of Christmas tree, but about one feet tall. I had to place that tree on my head, or at least it was what I thought. I asked a lady who was next to me. She told me I had to open the tree. I pushed a button and the tree inflated like a balloon. It said a noise something like, "wouldooooooo" I found some balloons by the tree and I had to remove them. After I while, I had a like a blue mat with holes. I was supposed to place those mats on me and they would soak up sun's energy and transfer it to my chakras.

I woke up.

Missed dream signs:
- The whole dream was odd.

12.01.2011

Two level soccer game. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Three dreams for today.

First:

I was playing soccer with my wife and four or five other dream characters. I was having a lot of fun and enjoying the game. I was playing as a goalkeeper but I made a few runs as well.

We were playing on pavement and I noticed a huge pothole that was filled with water. We were playing like in a two level field, it was hard to explain.

There was a moment that I grabbed the ball and ran to the opponent's goal. There were no one trying to steal the ball from me, so I scored a goal.

Missed dream signs:
- The soccer field was weird.

(Nap)
I met Mariah Carey in my dream. The song "Touch My Body" was in the backround. o.O! She was very, very nice. We talked alot and she made me laugh. [ Fragment ]
Dream #1, Nap
Our school is doing the Baby Think It Over program. (A baby simulator) and I chose the alternative assignment, in real life (the research paper, five pages!) But like in real life, in the dream I really, really wanted the baby, but it was too embarassing to carry around all day. Mrs. Smith showed us a a new "baby" she got and it was sooooo adorable. I fell in love with her. She was a white, little girl with big, brown eyes and a pink/white outfit. Her body was soooo small but cute. "Mrs. Smith, can I take home the baby, instead?" I asked as she said yes. "Yay! Can I have another copy of the permission slip, too since I lost it?" She said yes, but I knew she lost it because I turned it in, already! -__-
Then, we were schedueling the baby and I woke up.

I had a bunch of dreams last night, but I can hardly remember those. Well, here is 1 I remember.


(Non-Lucid)
I was at my grandma's house. I was sitting on her couch and I had some sort of candy bar. It had chocolate and caramel. (NOMNOM) I sat it on the couch and it melted. My grandma told me to clean it up so I started to wash my forehead(?!?!?!). Then she said thanks and I woke up....................

Oh, here is a fragment from a few days ago:
I was with some mystical cat-like creatures. That's it.

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1/11/11
Nonlucid
I was waking up in a hotel bed. I didn’t know where I was but I was still sleepy and maybe I just needed to wake up a bit. I noticed a woman was in the room with me but was not seen. I looked outside the wide balcony window and saw a large beach. The beach was unusually wide from the shore back to the hotel where I was. It was so wide I could not see the waves for the bump of the beach’s overall shape. I saw a tall tower on the beach that looked like a scaffold covered in black clothe. There was a horn blast from the area like an air horn. I focused on the area more and my vision zoomed to the area much closer. There was another horn blast and a silver fireworks stream shot up into the sky not too high. The firework did a circle in the sky and then fell to the ground, several fireworks circled or spiraled up into the air like this as I watched. I remember hoping no one was hit by the falling still sparkling fireworks but they always fell between people.

I see a hand facing palm forward. The hand’s fingertips elongate until the bones of the fingers pierce the skin and continue to grow. The figure who’s hand this belongs to screams in agony. All the bones extend to the point the figure’s skin sheds entirely, ripped from his body. The bony arms lengthen and the torso thickens… the bony feet take hold in the soil and wrap into the earth until the skeleton man now resembles a gigantic skeleton tree. A bone acorn drops from the tree and falls at the foot of a child who decides to climb the skeleton tree. As the child inches across the branch of an arm, it snaps, and the child falls to the ground. The child has broken his arm, and lies in a near-lifeless heap as bony roots pop out of the earth to wrap the child and bring him down unto its depths underground.

My older brother and I enter a gray 3/4 level parking garage, The parking garage is located right on a narrow path cliff and water lurks a good 20 feet or more down. the sky is beautiful covered by clouds partly with sun glimmering through the majority of the sky. We went to the top level of the garage somehow. I then ended in an office with family the office was messy and the lighting had a bluish tinge to it.

Im not going to attempt anything tonight, im just going to get a good nights sleep and wake at 6 in the morning.. hopefully something differs.. for the better.

Date: 13/1/11
Lucid
Non-Lucid
*sigh* Yet another fruitless night
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I was in my grandfather's car, in the passenger seat. It was a pretty cool car - shiny, grey, without a roof. "I'll be back in a moment," he said and hopped out. We were parked in a car park. Suddenly the car began to roll backwards. I quickly jumped up and hopped into drivers seat and put my foot on the brake. Despite that the car kept rolling backwards although slower than before. I reached for the hand brake and pulled that but it didn't change and the car continued to roll backwards.

Suddenly my Grandfather arrived. "What are you doing?" he said.
"The car was rolling backwards," I said.
"You only needed to press the brake," he said.
I jumped back into my seat as he hopped into the drivers side.
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My Grandfather was driving me and my sister somewhere when he suddenly pulled over to the side of the road. "I think I'll go now," he said.
"But who will drive us back?" I asked.
"Your sister can drive!" (She doesn't have a license)
Then he disappeared. Laura pulled the car out and was doing a pretty good job at driving. Suddenly I noticed a 60 year old guy behind us with a camera trying to get a picture of the license plate. I threw myself at him and grabbed the camera. Then he pulled out another camera and I got that one as well. I jumped back into the car as he ran after us. For some reason I jumped back out of the car again. "Up here!" my sister called. She turned the car towards a cliff face and began driving on an extrely narrow road up it.

I turned and followed it. It should have been impossible for the car to get up but she was already up the top. I followed carefully, almost falling off the edge. Finally I reached the top.
I laughed, "Oh! We went up here because he's too old to get up here!" I said.
Then the guy at the bottom ran up at half the speed I had. I almost fell off and he grabbed my arm, "You right?" he asked. I nodded.

Funny one last night, I dreamed that I was playing fable 4, and you really could do anything in it. (Not joking) There was some random guy playing a new Zelda 3DS game with bad n64 graphics. I played it for like a minute and then I Took the guy hostage. I forced him to run with me down a hallway with a gun to his temple when a black agent in a suit began shooting at me, I used my hostage as a meat shield and shot the guy in the head dead. I then left the dead hostage and bolted it down the hallway and bumped into a blond lady with a white suit and demanded "Where the exit was?" Then my alarm clock woke me Up the end.

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Type: Regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

Notes:
There was a whole other dream before this one, but I seem to have forgotten it. Maybe I'll remember over the course of today and write it down, too.

I was in the center of a ground-level vehicle parkade, which had low ceilings and was made almost entirely of gray concrete. The parkade was situated in a vehicle-centric city, because I could hear many cars driving around outside, but the noises were very quiet and hollow-sounding. There were small pot lights in the ceiling, but most of the light came from the sunlight outside, because there was a fair amount of it pouring in from the open sides of the building.

I was standing right beside a silver Toyota Sienna, or at least it looked like one. It's difficult to tell in a dream unless you're lucid, and I wasn't paying much attention to it from the start. At this point, I knew my mother was outside the parkade, paying for a parking ticket. She had started up the van with her remote vehicle starter, and I was keeping an eye out for it in case someone decided to get inside and steal it. Anyone could just walk into the van and drive away because it was all ready to go. That's when I saw a man walking by me. He was wearing a purple hoodie which looked fairly large for him, and blue jeans.

He then stopped and turned to me, saying, "hello, what's up?"

I said, "just waiting for my mother to get back and drive us home."

"In that case," he said, looking at the van and starting to walk around to the driver's side, "I'll take it home myself." The words carried a hint of aloofness, like he didn't care what happened. But clearly he wanted to steal it.

I ran around the side of the van and grabbed one of the white drawstrings of his hoodie, the ones that came from inside the hood. I pulled on it, not thinking I could do anything else, and started to yank him away. I saw the other drawstring and grabbed it too; now I was pulling on both of them. I proceeded to yank him away from the van, despite his protests of "hey! What are you doing?" and other, more nonsensical phrases that I can't remember.

After waking up, I realized the man looked exactly like Kevin Spacey, and he spoke like him too. I also laughed because I realized how stupid I had looked, pulling on the strings of the guy's sweater to get him away from the van.

Additional note:
I had a WILD breakthrough last night. I tried my luck at WILDing to see if I could break my dryspell that's lasted for over a year. I listened to white noise this time, a static-like sound, and within about twenty minutes I was extremely relaxed and felt my thoughts going in strange directions, without me voluntarily thinking about anything. It was a strange feeling, but one I remembered from a while ago. I also started to see small dots of white flashing around, which I observed for a mere few seconds. I accidentally forgot to stay calm and woke myself out of it.

★★★★☆

01/12/11

Darth Vader is quite literally on ice, lying frozen in the bathtub. All part of your regular Wednesday morning kidnapping attempt. The plan is to free Vader from the control of the Emporer, and to take our chances with a renegade Sith Lord. (Large-scale mayhem is the most likely outcome, but to Parker, that might just be the most interesting one.)

I'm stripping the Stormtrooper uniform off of some poor, dead bastard when a man in a black flight suit rounds the corner. He freezes for a moment, processing me, half dressed as a Stormtrooper and the body half undressed... I shoot him in the head with a blaster pistol.

"Everything okay in there, Nate?" says a voice crackling through the earpiece.

"Everything's fine, Eliot." I reply, putting a hand to my ear. I scowl at the second, inconvenient body for a moment before a new plan starts to form in my mind.

"Parker, are you in position?" I say, pulling on the gloves of my uniform.

"Nate?" says Sophie, concern in her transmitted voice, "What are you thinking?"

I smile as I slip the Stormtrooper helmet over my head. "We're going to steal a Death Star."

Leverage. Scare Factor: 2.