non-lucid

Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

[This is a catch-up post. This dream is from the night of December 21-22, 2010.]

I'm at a ticket booth in a train station, trying to buy a round-trip train ticket from home to L.A., where I plan to spend the day. The train ticket costs $35 and change; when I receive my ticket, it's a plastic card with my picture on it.

I'm at a desk at a music studio, explaining that I'm there because I want to record a demo. The lady at the desk doesn't want to accept a demo from me, until I mention that it's for a contest. She takes out the CD she has of demos for the contest, puts it in her computer to see how much space is left, and sees that there's enough space on it for one more song: six minutes. She tells me I'm lucky, because I'll be the last person to enter a song in the contest.

I'm standing outside some building [the music studio? I'm not sure; I get the impression this may have been a different scene], near the side door, waiting to get in to do something. I realize I'm dreaming and turn away from the door, looking at the other buildings on the street around it. Again, the scene looks just as sharp and vivid as reality. I hesitate for a moment, deciding whether to go along with the dream plot or go off and do my own thing. I choose the latter and take off, flying away. All it takes is an act of thought and willpower and a very slight push off the ground with my legs and feet. I have no problem taking off, but I immediately find myself being pushed backward again, unable to fly forward. Then I realize that it's only the wind pushing me in a particular direction, and if I let it carry me instead of trying to fight it, I'll have an easier time of flying. So I let the wind push me along, and it is, indeed, much easier.

I'm flying over a town. I remark aloud, “And, of course, it's another beautiful, perfect, sunny day here in the dreamverse!” I'm complaining again about the lack of snow.

While flying, I happen to pass over the backyard of a gray building that might be an older apartment building, and I spot two duplicates of myself there. I land in the backyard to get a closer look, but I don't want them to see me, so I try to will myself to be invisible to them. I can't tell whether or not it works.

I wake up in my bed. I'm a little disappointed to be waking up so soon from a lucid dream. I can clearly see a single eyelash moving back and forth in front of one of my eyes as I open and close them. I'm lying on my right side. Looking across the room from this position, I can see my closet. I think, I can't see the closet when I'm lying on my right side in bed in the room I have now. This is my room in House #1. I'm still dreaming! This is just a false awakening!

So I walk out into the living room of House #1. I look around to see if there's anyone else around, but there isn't; I'm all alone in the house. Since there's no one around to see me do it, I decide to try to walk through a wall. The wall I choose this time is the one directly to the right of the front door (as I'm facing the front door from inside the house). This wall separates the living room from the kitchen. [This is exactly how that house is laid out in reality, too.] I say to myself, “I'm going to walk through this wall,” and start walking through it. It's not completely solid to me, but I do feel a slight resistance at first. I continue pressing forward, and feel something hard, but thin (like a very thin sheet of balsa wood) break under the pressure my body is exerting. I continue walking, and end up on the other side of the wall, standing in the kitchen. Looking back, I see that on this side, the section of wall I've just walked through is blank except for a couple of metal panels with doors in them, like the kind that cover circuit-breaker boxes. [In the real-life House #1, there are kitchen counters and cabinets attached to that section of wall. Go figure.] Said metal panels are on a flap of drywall that is now sticking out from the wall at an angle, like a door. My passage through the wall has left a big, rough-edged rectangular hole in the drywall, the same height as I am. I can see the inside of the wall, and how thick it is, because the hole goes all the way through. This wasn't what I had been expecting to happen, but nonetheless, I say aloud, “Hell yeah! I did it! I just walked through a wall!” I'm pretty proud of myself. [Actually, that does make sense. I've had enough experience helping to build houses and doing home improvement projects in real life that I have a very detailed and complete schema for what the inside of a wall is like. I'm not surprised that when I said, “I want to walk through a wall!”, my mind answered, “okay, but you know that means breaking a hole in the drywall.” Interestingly, though, there were no studs to be seen in the dream.]

After that, I go out onto the street that House #1 is on. I climb up on top of a car that is parked on the street in front of my house, just because I can do so with almost no effort (unlike in reality,) but I don't start flying again. I just climb down the other side and walk along the streets of my neighborhood, which are also laid out just like they are in reality. The dream starts to fade, but I focus my vision and attention on the environment around me, and successfully bring it back into focus. Then, off in the distance, I see several tall, scary-looking metal structures rising up above the houses. They're as tall and narrow as construction cranes, but they aren't construction cranes. I'm frightened, so I run off and hide in a nearby public restroom.

[At this point, the dream transitioned from a lucid dream to a long, elaborate non-lucid dream that I don't remember much of now, so I'll summarize:] I'm watching a sci-fi story unfold from third-person perspective, like watching a movie. In it, people are punished for using long words. My dad is one of the people being punished.

When I woke up, I discovered that I actually had managed to fall asleep while lying on my right side in reality, corresponding to my position in my false awakening. I also realized: It's my dream. I don't have to be scared of anything I see in a dream - I can make it go away, by ignoring it, if nothing else. I can also transition to new scenes at will, and could find some snow that way. I just need to learn that these things are true.

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Side notes:

I had this dream the night after I had had a small, private celebration of lucid dreaming, as I'd announced in this thread. I was so proud of myself that I'd not only had a lucid dream that night, but had accomplished one of my lucid goals in it!

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4.1.2011

Eval (Non-Lucid)

★★★☆☆

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Originally Posted by Mzzkc

I drift and roll, consumed by bliss, by care free wonder, as my thoughts, my life, my being are evaluated true, false, back to true, on and on until I soar too high; the weight of my consciousness brings me crashing down into an empty, concrete pool.

I finally had an LD for the first time in a very long time!!!
This was also a potential shared dream with GMoney, but he doesn't recall any dreams from last night. We'll have to try it again. For now, here's what went down last night.

Dream
LD

It started out with me at my family's house. Everything was vivid and clear. I had just purchased a new smoking apparatus that involved crystals and had something to do with dreaming. I opened the box in the downstairs bathroom, which was covered in my dirty clothes (it is in waking life too, haha ). I left the box in the bathroom, then went to go smoke some pot. I was high, and didn't care that my parents probably knew. I think I did this a few times, sneaking around to get high then returning, then I had to go take care of a neighbor's dog. So I got on my bike-scooter thing, it was almost kinda like a Segway, and rode down the street, high as a kite. I crashed into a short wire fence, and hit the soft, green grass. It didn't hurt at all. An older woman with a curly gray perm approached me and asked me if I was alright. I told her I was fine. She asked if I needed a ride, and I told her no, I could walk since my house was right down the street. I went into the neighbor's house, which looked like a cabin on the inside. There were a couple of other people there. I think I got high again, then I left the house. Now, I remember being in my car in my family's driveway. I was still high. I couldn't get it to start properly. It would start very slowly, then I'd drive forward and backward in the driveway, never really parking.

This is where I became lucid. I don't know what triggered my lucidity, but nonetheless, I was excited. I examined my hands so I wouldn't get too excited, then I started messing around, floating through ceilings and stuff. There were so many things I wanted to do! I hadn't been lucid in so long. At one point, I tried to make my ex, A, appear, so I could ask him some things, but quickly got distracted. I knew there was something I had to do, but I couldn't remember what. I was floating up through a ceiling, and the scene was very strange. I was inside, but only the bottom half of eveyrthing was inside. The top half of the dreamscape was outside, and I saw rolling green hills under a clear blue sky. It was beautiful.

Then, I remembered the goal I had set: To share a dream with GMoney. Before I went to bed, I read Man of Shred's shared dreaming tutorial, then wrote down my goal, and how I was going to achieve it by creating a portal to GMoney's dream. I had also come up with a password, 'cheeseburger' is what I picked. This had all been discussed in the Research forum, except for what the password was. That I had to come up with on my own. Now, I'm in the cabin again, and I was with NS, whom I hadn't seen in a very long time in waking life. I created the portal by saying "Portal, APPEAR!", and sticking my hand out in front of me and concentrating. Lo and behold, a shimmering purple portal appeared in front of me, accompanied by ambient music. I asked NS if he wanted to go with me, and he didn't respond, so I took his hand and jumped into the portal. I kept my focus on my hands so I wouldn't wake up. There was a shimmering purple mist surrounding my hands, it was so vivid. We floated in the purple hazy darkness for awhile, when I realized that it wouldn't work because NS couldn't come with me.

Now, everything fades to black, and I'm in my family's driveway again. I repeat the portal process, and this time, a light green portal appears. I jump in, and focus on my hands again, which now have taken on a light green mist. It takes but a few seconds for me to reach my destination. The portal had taken me to another cabin-type room, with two twin-sized beds, a nightstand with a lamp softly illuminating the room between them, and a full-length mirror propped up against the wall, like the one I have in waking life. There are three teenage boys in the room, two are sitting on one of the beds, and the other is sitting on the edge of the other bed. I quickly pick the one on the end of the bed out as GMoney. He appeared to me as a 15 or so year-old-boy, with light brown skin, a black shirt with some kind of circular pattern in the middle, and very colorful, beaded sleeves.
"GMoney?", I said.
"Yes?", he replied.
"It's me, Krista from DV."
He beamed, and so did I. I approached him, and we stared for a few seconds, not able to wipe the smiles off our faces. I remembered that I had to tell him the password, and I stammered,
"The password...the password is 'cheeseburger'."
"Cheeseburger...", he said, dreamily.
We hugged for a long time, and it felt so warm. I was so excited to be having a potential shared dream!
"Thank you for welcoming me to DV.", I told him.
I put my forehead up against his, and we kept smiling, so excited about (possibly) sharing a dream. The two other boys in the room, one blonde and one with a buzz cut, did not notice us. One of them said
"Man, is he out?", in reference to GMoney. He was supposedly asleep on the bed in between them, but I didn't see his body.

Then, I started to ask GMoney about his clothing, and if it appeared to him like it did me. I started to describe the colors of his beaded sleeves, which were white, dark red, orange, and dark blue. He said I had it all wrong, and started to describe them as much different colors. I then asked what I was wearing. I thought I was in my work uniform. He told me I was wearing dark blue hoodies. I looked in the mirror, and I looked like I did when I was 14, before I had ever colored my hair or anything. It was its natural dark brown. I was also wearing a black hoodie, and I told GMoney this. I was wearing my very old work pants as well. I lifted up my hoodie to see the shirt underneath. It was black with pictures of photographs on it. Then, I noticed that the two other boys in the room were up, one was standing on the bed and watching me, the other was standing off to the side, behind the bed. The one on the bed said to the other,
"Dude, you're missing the best part!"
I then asked GMoney,
"How can they see me?", to which I received no reply.

Then, I knew I was going to wake up, and I did.

Then, I had a regular dream that I was at work, watching a lady with her young, blonde daughter. The daughter wanted all these things that we have that are made by local artists, and the mom said no, and started to leave. The daughter pitched a fit, and I thought to myself "This must been what it was like to raise me."

Props to you if you read this far. The LD/shared dream was extremely epic and vivid. I was so excited to have accomplished the goal I had set prior to falling asleep. Also, I've NEVER had the level of control in an LD that I had last night. I've NEVER created portals before, and I've NEVER even entertained the idea of sharing a dream. I was very proud of myself, and very excited. I even managed to stay in the dream, despite how excited I was. I kept a level head.

Thanks, DV! I couldn't have done this without you.

at school saw alan snow, he wanted my facebook for some reason?

phase 2: mansion of chaos, I was battling asian martial artists running from a dragon and kicking bombs back at it as i ran through corridors, then i was chilling in a fancy room.. all i remember was a piano.

dreamed i was in an area by a forest and after a gathering i sped off to the forest down a long path. I decided to come back very quick and i used my ipod flash lightat a person wearing an orange t shirt, he was bald. I then got to a crossing point and jumped to a broken bridge(glass) that didnt cross and was blocked by a fence a light was behind it facing me flashing light down upon the mini river. went on an island under me. bridge to my right covered in overgrowth that crosses all the way but too far away. i was either too stressed to jump back or i didnt want to swim or jump with my backpack on.

phase2: at moms store(she doesnt own one). she is a modern psychic and utilizes wrist bracelets with beads clip on and forsee the future. she would hang them on a pole infront of the door after use. I asked her about going to cross country and she said she didnt want me to go to practice because one of our sheets said some vulgar words on it.

I was playing real life cod on a city like map, but then the map became cold and I headed for a waterfall. I saw my highschool running coach then I was getting washed away by a wave in a neighborhood and saw my uncle surfing, and the twins just hanging around.

phase 2:at school parking lot in a minivan with Brian J, Druggies are outside the car a few spaces away in a circle and moshing air and stomping around randomly?

at a lake house playing a game, i was a pleisosaur and the enemy was a dolphin (we were really those creatures)and there was the animal kingdom tree at the center of the lake. I had slight control but i wasnt too lucid, I jumped up and down surging my aquatic body in and out of the water at high speeds it was quite fun., but then I was in a lakehouse and with my mom and brother she asked if i was going to the zoellers later. I apparently lost my bit o' lucidity.

phase 2: walk rand road empty at night on facebook via laptop?

phase 3: with a girl I apparently survived a ferris wheel of death... then the girl mentions twilight *facepalm*

It's night, but not necessarily too dark though. I was outside kicking zombie ass near a man made lake about the size of lake arlington in a more natural setting. I ran to the left side but realized i needed to activate a gate. so i ran back the path to the right side kickin zombie ass along the way. then i ran back after i did whatever to the left side passed through a grassy and natural area almost covering the nights sky, I headed toward a highway and saw a coyote come, i scared it a little, but it kept coming back more and more pissed. eventually i got bit, so i kicked it.

Some hotel I see one of the kids from work KL getting into the elevator, I got on the elevator with him and someone else I don’t know that was talking to me. Later I go to something like a fair, the parking guy was a dick, and spent the whole dream trying to find somewhere to park.

I'm at work the office is in a different place, I'm sitting on a couch and watching some small broken TV, my fingers feel like they have frostbite and they are a little blue (hmmm they looked pretty normal other than that), two girls sit next to me and start rolling a joint, and another person tell them this is not a good place to do that.

Lots of stressful images of transistors going through my head


poor door count

This is my second Dream Journal post.

This dream happened 4 days ago and when I woke up I wrote the topics about it so I could write them here. I don't recall much since they are very fragmented.

At first I was at a cinema that was a mixture of an old school amphitheater and a cinema I usually go to, nearby. I remember the place was abnormally big.
At the entrance there was a security guard that was giving each of us a microphone so we could talk to him, in case there was any sort of problem. Weird stuff.

I had my backpack with me, and had the sensation I was on a travel. There were a 5 of friends of mine that I don't want to enunciate here and an unknown woman. One of my friends, let's call her, Anna, got a little bit distant from us for no apparent reason.

The movie we were seeing talked about the life of baby Hawk's that leave in train lines. It looked like some sort of digital simulator or computer game because it was seen in the 3rd person with a fixed camera or something.

Suddenly I'm into the movie and I'm a Hawk, flying in those train lines and trying to get away from train's and train electric wires. I'am caught in one of those wires and get an electric shock. I didn't felt anything.

The next fragment is about beeing in a Hotel near the place I got electrocuted, but now I have my own body again. My group of friends is there again, but I don't recall any unknown girl.
I leave my hotel room and move forward to the Hotel courtyard to play tennis with a friend of mine that we are going to call Antonio. He sees a baby Hawk in a puddle of dirty water, injured. Probably it's the electrocuted one.
He's trying to grab him, but that makes me furious because I believe he's going to hurt the animal. We start to argue and than we start to punch each other badly.
There is great confusion and everyone is overwhelmed by our reaction.
Next, we spot the media coming with there cameras, microphones, vans and satellite dishes, which makes me kind of scared.

I go to the top basement of the hotel, which is strangely old. There is a bar there where all my friends and other people make presence, and everyone looks at me with a lot of despise duo to my radical reaction.

And that's it. One more step towards lucid.

(date unknown)
I had a dream I was watching a movie with Miho from Sin City. She was fighting some pirate covered in layers and layers of clothes. It was sword fight, and it was pretty epic. It ended up where both of them nearly fell off the cliff, and at the last second the pirate revealed himself to be Jackie Chan. I want to say my nieces were watching with me, but they were years younger than they are now.

(HH studying)

Came home and took a nap, and I was just mentally running all of my school work through my head vocally. I think I was really close to SP at one point, but I had this feeling that I needed to wake up so I don't throw off my sleeping schedule. Either way, I think it helped out with my medical terminology homework.

Non Lucid
Lucid

Well, at this point in time I don't remember much. Better than earlier - I didn't remember anything.

Well, it started I was in my house, waking up. Felt very early - the clock we recently received as a gift was one of the first things I noticed and viewing it, brought back a bit about the dream. I sat down, and remember thinking about a Black TV. I then remember looking down and spotting my hand. The second I spotted my hand I pulled them up, and bam. I know I'm Dreaming. I got excited, the dream started to fade. I rubbed my hands together, a bit skeptical at first, but it seemed to work. I felt a lot more connected to the dream, and I as if I was actually in full control. A way I'd explain it is by saying, think about smoke, think about it going away over time, that's what it felt like. I then rub my hands together a bit, and it all connects back together and forms a very strong smoke cloud.

I have two paintings on the back wall. I stood up, looked at them and tried to pic them up. For some reason I couldn't, so I tried again, just thinking about it moving. That's what worked, after doing so, I closed my eyes and tried imagining the painting duplicate. It didn't work. So I tried again, but putting my mind to it a lot more. The item became two. At this point it was still dark, and that's how I know this came first. Aswell as having problems remembering it a lot more than remembering the most recent parts. I remember becoming VERY excited again, I was very happy and very excited. I tried another object, a red and a black box behind the sofa? I believe that's what it was. I then tried duplicating this item. To my surprise, it worked! My excitement levels increased, making the dream become fading smoke once again. I put my hands together and rubbed. It didn't work as well, but it did somewhat. The next thing I remember is a TV, but at this point it's light outside, and not just becoming light, but very light. Around 12:00ish, I remember picking up the TV, and increasing the TV's size, aswell as duplicating it, and placing it where my Christmas Tree had been.

I must have got carried away, because the next thing I remember is sitting down on the Sofa and getting ready to eat. Just as the Kitchen door was about to open, I woke up.

My second Lucid. I'm very happy, and I believe my Dream Recall is a lot better. Sadly once again, that's all I remember, I'm sure a lot more happened in the dream however.

Feeling much better. Over the last couple of days, I've had some rather interesting elements.

At one point I flew a couple of miles straight up in the air (Not so good at actually traveling, but I like to hover. This was non-lucid.) at night. I saw stars dancing and flying around in formation, coming towards me. I got disturbed, thinking it was possibly divine in some way and not wanting to really interact with them. I made a troop of them disappear in a flash, simply by willpower. It was as if I wasn't supposed to be up there, and they wanted to catch me for it. I let myself drop, both to mischievously spite the dancing stars and to just enjoy the falling feeling. It's not the first time I've flown high simply to ride the freefall. But this time, instead of hitting the ground, the ground simply opened up beneath me and I kept falling into the hotter layers of the Earth. Like the "divinity" was crossing my escape by sending me southward (if you know what I mean...). I thought "No." to myself, and suddenly kicked awake into reality.

Another time, well, I was ovulating for the first time in years (Off the Pill) and the downstairs neighbors have a baby who's either teething or has an infected ear. The poor thing screams and cries nonstop, which combined with my hormones meant that I dreamed of a baby. I was a teenager, and we had a new baby brother (never in reality, though), but I wasn't "good enough" in my mother's mind to care for him. My younger sister was given the job, and I was told not to mess with the baby. But I heard the crying outside, and learned that my more "responsible" sister had gotten distracted and left the baby outside in early January. I rescued the baby, still crying, and gave it to Mom. I told her that the responsible one had left my brother in the cold, and Mom chewed me out for messing with the baby when I wasn't supposed to. The younger sister was never in trouble, and told to keep taking care of the baby.

I remember another time, dreaming of a woman I knew several years ago. I don't remember what she was up to, but that I saw her.

Took a nap with the intent to WILD, but not having done it for a long time, didn't work. Plus, I think I finally figured out that you can't just WILD when you want, but have to time it with a REM cycle (right?). Anyway... I'm sure there was a little more before I actually start writing, but I couldn't remember anything of it. Oh well

1/3. Nap. 230. 330. Working at some fab shop. Building a buggy? Of of the guys is Rick from Pawn Stars. For some reason, step over the front of the buggy instead of going around. Get some stuff (papers), and step over front again to put stuff in pass seat. Then I’m with the other guys (about 4 guys sitting in front of me). Someone asks, “How much do you want to get paid?” I say, “Uh, 10 (or maybe I said 60) from my last job, so that?” Rick chuckles and says, “No,” and someone turns me around and there’s a bunch of tools, grinders, drill press (red, no base?), screws (blue) (and some other small things). Xxxxx there. I can’t believe it. I’m at a loss for words (literally, can’t find a word to say). Start to drool over all the tools. Wake up drooling a bit, haha

Glad I was able to remember some of the talking, coz I rarely recall conversations

(an excerpt from some day 2010)

As I open my eyes I find my self kneeling hands down on cold, mossy slate. As I look around the rain is pouring down thunder and lightning and I see my self on a roof top high up in New York City with no reccolection of how I got there or any realisation that I'm dreaming. The sky is dark and the city is worn, the slate is cracked and the buildings are made of brown, chalky brick. As I'm kneeling there I can feel my self slipping with nothing to hold on to, no where to climb to and a long, long way down, to far down to see, to far to survive the fall. I continue to slip further and further down the slate, as I look around in 3rd person space I can see my self lying there. I'm stuck and as I realise my helplessness I bein to scream "HEEELP! HEEEEEELP!" No one answers, no one comes to my rescue. I fall. I wake up.