non-lucid

I am tossing softball with V in an unrecognized location (verdant, still a field). I leave for a bit, and walk around a trail found in real life at the research station. When I round a bend, I find that she's there, tossing softball with her IRL boyfriend. Her father is watching approvingly, and I feel rather betrayed.

A house from start to finish.

Before me is a hole in the ground, a basement that's just been dug in the middle of a field. On the other side of the basement are my mom and dad (who I work for), talking to a customer. I have to crawl under the sheets of poly to make it to the other side.

I'm in the same location, but it's shifted to become some sort of self-sufficient compound. I'm a new character, older. I feel a timer go off in my head, telling me it's time to begin classes. I'm a teacher.

Houses. Scare Factor: 1.

Its seems that I am getting more dreams every night and they are getting longer. I realized how to remember a lot of dreams by just not thinking when I wake up. I knew this in theory, but it is a lot easier said than done. Now that I think of it I had a FA with that... damn

Slopping mess:

This was during my first sleep cycle. What I like about this dream was I could see how the dream was coming into effect. Its like I became aware as the dream was being created and was watching REM do its thing.

Everything was dark but not dark at the same time. I was with Kara and three guys at some dark house. Kara was drunk and angry. Everything was not fully developed. They looked kind of melted and would slowly stabilize as the dream went on. I knew the guys did not like me and they seemed like they wanted to fight. Kara kept getting angry at me for no reason and ended up leaving the room with the three guys. I waited in the other room until she came storming out. She was mad at me for not coming with her and I told her I was waiting for her in an angry voice. She started crying and saying something, but the guy came up to her and said not to say anything.

End of the world:

This was a long one, but fell back asleep while thinking of the dream and ended up going back into it and forgetting the first half

A lot of stuff happened and I found out there was going to be a big attack on the world. I was on some boat with me ex gf Kalee. I was telling her about what was happening while she was helping me climb some big pole on the boat. My mom ended up helping me. I was hooking up with Kalee randomly throughout the whole dream until her friend grace came. She left me to and started hooking up with her randomly on the boat. I got off the boat and went to a house with an extra large pizza. I tried to climb the roof, but failed and ended up having to walk around the building. I met a man and started talking with him. As I was about to enter the house, the man turned into a woman and started yelling at me. She said I was stalking her.

Violin master:

I was in my room taking some adderal for a productive day. For some reason I ended up taking four 50mgs (I seem to love popping pills in my dreams lol) I realized I just took 200 mg and freaked out. That was enough to kill someone. I could feel my heart start beating super fast. It felt as if my heart was going to burst out of my chest. I called my mom and said just told me to calm down. I could not do anything that would stress or make me angry. I ended up sitting in meditative pose and trying to calm my heart down as much as I could. I kept doing this throughout the dream.

I had to go to school so I left the house. I stopped by a nearby bench and meditated for a while to help my heart. When I got to the school I started telling everyone about what happened. Someone ended up stressing me out a little by doing something. We ended up leaving school and going to this amazing beach. Walking around I realized my heart was just about better. We got in the car and went to some game place. We were ambushed by the opposing team in our car and they started attacking us with water balloons, paint balls, etc. We were trying our best to defend ourselves and our car but were losing the fight. The house above started to attack them with balloons and they ended up fleeing.
We decided to drive over to our friends house and just chill. We laid on a bed with this big black guy who was playing music on the bed. I kind of got bored so I took a girl with me and explored the house. We went into a room with a violin and I jokingly started playing it. It sounded horrible, but I kept playing. After a while it actually started to sound good and the girl said I was really good. It turned out I was holding the violin the wrong way so I turned it around and put it on my chin. What I played was one of the most amazing sounds I have ever heard. I felt my fingers perfectly hit the string and create this kind of chime that was out of this world. I don't even think a real violin can play that. I woke up smiling thinking how amazing that sound was.

pawn shop: I just remembered this dream
I was at Kara's pawn shop. You had to go through a little house and upstairs to an attic to get there. There was a tall black guy called Tod who worked there with her. I joked around with him a little and ended sitting on a big bench watching Kara work. I had some friends come over and we went over to a barber shop. I suddenly realized that this barber shop was dangerous. The people that worked there killed people for fun. We went in and saw the owner had one giant claw for a hand. He asked if we wanted a haircut and we declined. I just remember joking around with him and the two other guys that worked there for a bit.

Finally I was able to write down my dream, I'm taking it reaaaaaaal slow, its ok ill get to lucidity in time. I woke up at 3:30 like I always do naturally, I usually have a bong toke at this time, I didn't and just rested there with the intent to remember and write my dreams. I slept on the couch in order to not wake my boyF.
I remember only glimpses as of yet:

There were some extreme ski slopes (Im afraid of steep roads and the such) and I was on the ski lift cutting across it horizontally as if it were a tour. Then I was making my way through campus but of course it didn't really look like campus, that's just the closest thing I can compare it to. I was late. It was sort of like recess and there were cones were lines of cones all pointing to the same spot. My boyfriend was in it. I dont remember what role he played though. My hair was in braids all down my head and there were people everywhere. I had to make sure I hadn't gained weight because there were two teacher-like people (I recognized them in it) that were judging me or I was afraid they were.

I hope tonight I will be able to recall more. JUV

Packing up to leave to an airport.

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At a high school track, giant tank tries to aim and shoot me.

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Have an internship with the mythbusters. They set up a rig with a shotgun by the door. While sitting down and talking with them, I notice homeless people attempting to take a car and push it onto the train tracks to get hit by a train. When i go up to confront them about it they take out syringes and start injecting themselves with a substance, and then proceed to throw the empty syringes at me.

June 28, 2010 - Part Two
4:30p-9:30p
I had to do a night shift tonight, so I settled in for my nap at just after 4:30 this afternoon. Actually, it was probably closer to 5. I had decided to do a WILD attempt, since I read and got some instructions on two very neat-sounding techniques. Essentially, if one didn't work, the other might.

As a side note: I forgot to deprive myself from caffeine, so unfortunately, I didn't do a proper CWILD. But, I did find out that Tylenol Ultra has caffeine in it, but it's 65mg to 500mg of acetomenophine (spelling?). I remember reading that anything less than 120mg of caffeine wasn't really enough, but I didn't want to take 1000mg of acetomenophine, so... that's why my CWILD failed.

Note: CWILD is a technique I learned from another site. It stands for Caffeine Withrdrawl Induced Lucid Dream. It can be combo'd with any induction technique, including DILDs and has no direct relation to Wake Induced Lucid Dreams (other than it can be combo'd).

Anyways, so I settled in and got to work on relaxing each area of my body. I don't really have a set relaxation technique (like the 61-point. That is a brutal tech). I just focus on each area, like feet, calves, thighs, etc and imagine that with each exhale, there's energy floating out of my focused area. It works like a charm, for me). I felt good and relaxed and decided to work first on the "anchoring" technique.

The gist of the technique is to find something to anchor your consciousness/awareness (passively) as you're falling asleep. Normally, I would use my clock, because it ticks really loudly, but today, I was using earplugs. So, I twisted my fingers in a weird position. It... kind of worked. Not really as well as the tick-tock works. I talked myself into sleep and did notice that I was losing focus on my hand and becoming a little too involved in the dreamlets. I noted I was experiencing some visual hallucinations in the form of yellow swirly light playing across my eyelids, but I didn't really pay too much attention to it. Some dreamlets rolled in... again, noted, but not focused. I drifted like this for a bit. This was all set up to be a good start to the WILD.

Unfortunately, my throat was a huge distraction for me. I had ate a grilled cheese sandwich before sleeping, cos I was super hungry. So this made a horrible mucous-y feeling in the back of my throat, which, once I started drifting into the HI, got a bit easier to ignore. But, it certainly delayed the whole process; triggering my body's constant need to swallow. I found breathing through my nose helped bypass that, for some reason.

The other problem was that I'm a bit sick, so my throat started getting massively tickly. To the point where my body decided to say, "Fuck you, I'm coughing," and it wasn't something I could control or supress. It did this twice And wrecked my efforts, twice.

Rebuilding the SP wasn't too difficult, but I will note a few interesting sensations.

1) At one point, the strongest point of the SP, my legs felt all hard and brittle. Like, if I moved them, they would break and crumble. I thought this was pretty neat. I decided to try wiggling my toes, and it took a lot of mental effort to do so.

2) It seemed like each time I "shifted" into a deeper phase of the SP, my heart would race. I had to do a little mental focusing to calm it back down. This was accompanied by my light hallucinations pitching me into complete blackness (each time I shifted). It actual resembled a light being shut off in the room (even though I wore a sleep mask).

3) I noticed some very subtle vibrations. Unfortunately, they were so subtle and weak, that it was difficult to use them of an indication of falling asleep.

So, once I hit that deep stage of leg-brittle, I decided this anchoring thing wasn't helping, nor did I seem to dive into a scene. I began to wonder if I had done the same thing in all my other WILDs... I'm already asleep, and trapped in a mental prison. I was chatting with someone about this a few days ago, who had the same problem as me. He'd get to this point and move, but he kept moving his real body. He said he had to learn how to separate his dream body.

So, I gave up on the anchoring, and I instead tried to activate my dream body's senses. This... pretty much didn't go very well at all. Not much to say other than I couldn't float out or move any dream part or anything. Ughhhhh.

Anyways, once I was wracked with my second bout of coughing, I decided maybe rolling over would help alleviate my throat. I rolled over, got myself all re-relaxed and passed out! I hadn't really intended to pass out. I'm not entirely sure what happened there, to be honest. I never consciously decided to give up and pass out. In fact, I was quite keen on being successful.

Anyways, so once again, I'm thwarted by the ever-elusive WILD.

Hospital Audit
I was in a doctor's office. They asked me to do an audit on the place, like ensuring the equipment was working and such. At this point, I was too tired to do the audit properly. I was half-assing it, walking around the building and not really paying too much attention. I decided to leave it for now and went for lunch.

[Lunch]
I was in a Safeway, which had a mall-like food court in it. But only the KFC was open. I didn't really want "Kentucky Fried Suicide," but seeing how my options were forcibly limited, I got some food.

[Back at the doctor's office]
I got lost in the building. Also, my clothes were now covered in some-foul smelling liquid and I had some dirty yellow stains on my clothes. This part is choppy, but I remember finding my way into a dark room, and watched a movie on the big TV in there.

I left the room when I remembered I was supposed to be auditing. I walked along hallways and wandered into a ward. It seemed to be a maternity ward. I felt like I was trespassing, and left before anyone saw me.

I continued to walk down the hallway and came upon these small cubby-like lockers. There were pink on one side and blue on the other. Then, some nurses appeared. They asked me why I'm covered in stained clothing. I don't remember what I told them.

I completed the audit and snuck out.

Game Show
I was competing against my mother in a game show. We each had to run these obstacle courses 5 times through. Although I didn't know which course would be the harder one, I was in the points lead, so I got to choose the course to run. I chose the one on the right. As our host was explaining the course, and what constituted as a win, I woke up.

I wanted to at least hear the rest of the instructions, or run through the course once. I started a DEILD and was near-successful at chaining back in, but I dragged myself out of it cos I really did have to get up and get ready for work

Dream Lucid In Dream Thoughts

I was standing in the shop down the road, looking in one of the isles at some food Man I wish I could get that. I turn around and my friend AM is standing right in my face "Yea?" I say confused
He doesn't reply and now I'm holding some candy bar, I open it and eat it Hmm, shouldn't this have a taste? I look down at the wrapper and it reads "Congratulations! You've won a trip to... THE MOON!" Meh, I don't really need this I hand the wrapper to AM "Here I don't want it"
"Holy shit, you sure?" he said as he turned and ran off
Excited much? I look back at some more chocolate and then wake up

I get hating myself for not becoming Lucid or RCing and why would I throw away a chance to go to the moon? Drink then back to sleep.

I'm back at the shop, looking at the chocolate again and I notice I already done this. I turn around and AM is back in my face "The moon is amazing, you should have gone"
"ahh well, to late now"
I walk out of the shop, the car park looks a little weird and the lighting is all screwed up and the wake up.

Once again, Drink and back to bed.

Fragments of watching the rocket ship fall apart to the main vessel.

Fragments of watching the launch.

Fragments of seeing the moon.

I was driving this car , then this guy went in it and he was attacking me. Then i was gonna accelerate super fast and then brake to see if he would fly out the window, then i drive like into this little spanish town. And there was this restaurant. I remember passing next to it and inside i see ms.Pizarr0 with her blodish hair. Then i remmeber my parents saying that they wanted jamon serrano. Then we buy it and it costs 450 dollars.

Listened to mp3 from Ninja. Probably didn’t help that I started it at 11:00pm and got to bed at midnight. Have to wake up at 5:00

No response from subliminal – can’t say it’s a fair shot yet.

By 3:30 had nothing but a partial fragment of a dream – not even worth mentioning.

DJ 11 (0430)
Short dream – non lucid (but wasn’t skunked on dreams.

I’m in an office with a couple of workers. We’re looking over some paperwork. I don’t know what my function is in the office, but I for some reason know what the paperwork is about, and more explicitly than the other workers in the office.

Owner of the company comes in and starts getting in the other workers’ faces about the paperwork and why they don’t understand how the paperwork plays an important part of the companies future. He’s demanding to know why they don’t understand it. I do understand, but for some reason I’m not allowed to speak up.

Then he has some support staff come in to bring the workers up to speed. I lean over to one of the my co-workers and start sniping about the owners’ attitude and his (ermmm) overly attractive staff (I don’t think I was sniping about them).

During the presentation a start to hear an alarm go off. A couple of the other people in the office hear it as well, but they aren’t nearly annoyed at it as I am. I start searching the office for what’s making the alarm sound and find my alarm clock in a drawer. I immediately wake up at this point to find ‘my’ alarm going off. It’s 4:45, time to get up.

Well, at least I had something to take away from the evening/morning.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

My journey from ambitious underling to rival archangel.

I'm sitting at my desk, poring over some ancient text, but my mind is elsewhere. My team has just made a fascinating discovery, a book that could unlock ancient magics unknown even to the angels. Whomever can harness its power could go so far as to take over the world.

Unfortunately, we're working for Lucifer (from Supernatural). It's not by choice, I can assure you.


Sandman!Lucifer could kick your ass.

I hear the alarm go off. Immediately, I'm running down the stairs to our secret underground laboratory. The place is collapsing; dirt is streaming from the walls and rocks are falling around me. I run to the desk where Lucifer was working earlier, and grab the grimoire, the codex (decoder), and the journal that he was translating it into. Beside the books is a black LED keychain that's supposed to be a portkey. I pick it up, but nothing happens.

I'm running for the exit, not sure if I'm going to make it. I'm at the entrance hallway, but all of the main-level exits are blocked. An old man - possibly Amon - appears beside me. He says that there's a ladder I can use.

Sure enough, there is. I climb up the ladder - Amon is behind me - and we both make it out.

Lucifer is in the common area, sitting at a table with his head in his hands. He looks really mad - probably because the grimoire is lost. I try to turn down another hallway, but he sees me and the grimoire before I have the chance to leave. Suddenly, Lucifer seems very pleased.

Once we're out of sight, I turn around and smack Amon over the head, wondering why he had to take us directly past Lucifer. Comprehension dawns on his face, and he asks me if I was trying to betray our boss.

Yes! Obviously!

Amon wants to know if I really think I can get away with it, but I shrug and tell him I'm not worried.

Lucifer corners me later and asks why I'm not grateful that he brought me back to life.

What? Of course I would be... oh, I remember now. My character was really mad for some reason.

"Thanks for that, by the way," I say. I'm still taking over.

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I'm at some Misha Collins fan-thing. Everyone around me is all excited, but I have things to do. I go and try on jeans in a store. They don't fit, and I'm tired of clothes-shopping already.

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On a bus, I see Lucifer again. He's avoiding me. I try to unobtrusively sit beside him, but he switches seats when people get up to leave.

I see Sally, from school, is on the bus too. This can't end well.

Why am I not worried about myself, though?

Oh, right. I'm Michael. Duh.

I tell Sally that she has to get off the bus. People are turning into piles of maggots around us, and she has to leave before she does too.

"Ask the bus driver to open the door." I say.

She points to the bus driver, who's a pile of bugs covering all the controls.

I run over to the front of the bus. I plunge my hands into the squirming mass of maggots (and I can feel them wriggling all over my skin), and pull the lever for the door to open. Sally gets off the bus and starts running.

All of the maggots on the bus are streaming towards Lucifer, somehow going to power him. He looks weak right now, though. He's lying down on one of the seats, and I go over to him.

He asks me if I'm going to give one of those good-guy speeches about love an acceptance. I tell him that just because I turned out to be an angel (again) doesn't mean I'm one of the good guys.

I call up a small amount of light energy to cleanse the pile of bugs. It starts off tiny, and gets bigger and bigger...

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I'm in a dark hallway with the same LED keychain from earlier. The small flashlight doesn't actually create light, though. When I click it once, the lights go on. When I click it again, the lights go off. Every second time I click it, something scary happens in the hallway, and if I'm in the hallway when it happens... who knows?

Holly, from high school, shows up, talking about Sailor Moon. I'm at the top of the staircase, and I think she's one of my enemies. When she's almost at the top, I telekinetically blast her down the stairs.

She gets up and informs me that it wasn't very nice to do that. I shrug and apologize, sheepish. Apparently she actually is on my side.

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I'm watching clips of a cartoon. It's about animals running farms. I think this is ironic, and the cows suddenly start acting strange.

There's a little yellow chick trapped in a flipped-over bus that's about to explode. The other animals are trying to figure out how to rescue him.

One of the adults holds up a diagram of a kite, which the people inside the bus can hold onto and fly out the door with.

I'm flying with the kite over a sea-side city. I'm just over power lines, and I don't want to hit them. I'm on top of a marina. I have to make it past the cruise ships, out to sea so I can fall into the water.

The Devil You Don't. Scare Factor: 4.

I had a girl sleeping over so I did not record my dreams in the middle of the night like I usually do.

Girlfriend stealer:

I was with my best friend and one of his girlfriends (he had two) We kept looking at each other in that flirting way. Later Michael left and it was just her and I. We confessed our love for each other and started making out. I later went and bought her a wallet that she loved. The dream suddenly switched to us being in my living room and Michael buying her a purse. I was a little upset, but tried not to show it. His girlfriend did not like his purse and kept whispering that she liked mine better. It switched scenes to me and this other girl he is seeing. We were laying on a bed on the floor and flirting. We started fooling around and Michael called her cell. He did not know that I was there and we were too nervous to tell him. I told her that he wouldn't care and that we should tell him at some point. She said she wanted to give me head and then we could switch so I went to the bathroom to get ready.

Flipping out on mother:

I came home and found my speakers on the floor downstairs. I went upstairs and found my newly cleaned room a mess. My mom borrowed my speakers and messed up my room trying to take them out. I started yelling at her at the top of my lungs and punching walls telling her that she needed to put them back. I had Kara upstairs and felt that she was really uncomfortable so I made a joke saying that I was going to throw away her lipstick if she did not put it away. I could hear Kara laugh upstairs.
I went back upstairs and saw Lindsey and two guys up there talking about drugs. They were all talking about how to stay cool when getting caught by the police while on drugs. They were acting out scenes on what to do if you are pulled over by a cop. It was really funny and the dream ended with me laughing.

11:30p-10:00a
Scott's twin
I was in a relationship with Scott (guy from work, name changed ) but it wasn't going very well. Actually, it was already over, and I had unintentionally struck up a relationship with his twin brother (who, for the remainder of the dream, we'll call Benton, cos he never actually had a name). Benton had warned me that his brother was on the way out. He was a bit of a playboy and wanted some hot young thing. Benton, however, was the opposite. Caring, nurturing and seemed to really like me for me. We agreed that we would keep our relationship a secret from Scott for a while.

[Weigh scale]
I was in this room with some other girls. We were all in our swim suits and lined up, weighing each other on this scale that was actually at the edge of a diving board (I mean, the "diving board" was the scale). Everyone was getting some pretty average numbers (130-150 range). I stepped on, and I hit 150 (which was rather disappointing, since I don't weigh that much!).

Scott came up to me and said, "Whoa, you really let yourself go! See, that's why I moved on to Jenny," and on his arm was a blonde bimbo who looked about 18.

I retorted, "I'm dating your brother!" And turned away. He was totally stunned (and actually kind of hurt). The other girls congratulated me for putting the jerk in his place. I thought, "I should warn Benton that Scott knows."

[Back at the house]
I'm at the house, and my brother, Mike is also there. I can't remember the entirety of this scene, but I remember being on the phone with Benton and telling him what I said. He said that was alright, and said his twin was rude.

[At Dinner]
I arrived at a cafeteria and saw Mike, Amelia (his GF), and Scott at a table in the corner. "Why is he sitting with my family?" I thought. It was a buffet-style cafeteria, so I went to get my food first. There was only one bowl left and it had food dried onto the bottom. I remained in line with the bowl, and brought it up to the counter-help. I asked for a clean bowl and said I didn't need food from the counter, but there were no good bowls or plates left.

He gave me one and I got some perogies. I went back to my table and saw that it was actually Benton sitting with my brother. This made me happy.

So, this morning, I has a pretty awesome dream. I did in fact become lucid in it, for the first time in a long while.

The first I remember of the dream was that there was a bunch of DV members, and we were racing through the sky, flying. I know there was more before that lead up to this, but I just cannot remember. The people who I remember were definitely there, was Tyler and DuB, and I think ninja too. There was a load more, at least 5 or 6 more, but I don't remember who they were. So, we were flying in the sky, and below us was the weirdest sight ever. The ground was like made of huge 2D squares, some higher and some lower. So the ground wasn't all connected together, it was really weird. It was also kind of blue-ish. I think it was part sea, and part land. Very strange thing to see.

We came up to a wooden building in the sky, where we took a break (The race wasn't competitive, just a little bit of fun), and some of us were just playing around out side, flying around the building, etc. And then one of the DV members, possibly DuB pushed me, and I started to fall to the ground, and I couldn't fly back up.

Then, as I was falling, I had the strangest sudden realisation it was a dream. I just kinda went "wait, THIS IS A DREAM OMG" and then I instantly flew back up to the building where everyone was.
I started jumping around all excited. I'm surprised I didn't wake up, actually. But, I did actually say to myself while I was jumping about, "Ah, I'm gunna wake up at this rate", so I calmed it down a bit. I was still excited though. So I ran around happy, and I told everyone that it is a dream. I started flying around too, shouting at everyone, going "Guy's it's a fucking dream, do a fucking reality check"
Then one by one, each of them started to do their reality checks, and they all "became lucid" too.
At the time, I was slightly deluded, and I thought they were all the real people (i.e. Dream sharing) But I don't think it was a shared dream.

We all started to show off all our skills. One of them did a back flip or something while flying. Then I went "Hah, that's nothing", and I stood straight up, and the Iron Man suit (Iron Man suit is practically my signature style in LDs) started to go on me, like in Iron Man 2 where he puts the case down and stands on it, and the suit goes on him. Like this:

I felt so awesome while doing that. Then I flew up a bit, to show off my thrusters, etc. Then dropped back down. Then I think someone else put on an Iron Man suit.

My memory is getting a bit fuzzy at this point, but I know there wasn't much left of the dream before I woke up.
The little wooden building turned into a house, where we all lived. (I guess I lost control of the situation. But I was still lucid)
And I remember that Tyler was sick, or something, so he was lying in bed.

And that is really all I remember. Some other stuff happened in Tyler's room, like flying around or something, but I don't remember well enough to say.

I was walking home from a day of shenanigans. And then the bridge across the river comes up. It is filled with other kids I don't like. I hold on to the edges and shimmy my way over to the other side so the kids don't push me in. Cole is on the other side of the edge and I am scared so I push him. He then suddenly flies 100+ feet out into the river PLOP! I then go home..

In this dream I am the one to discover L's true name. L has his own bible like thing that he created. I decided it was some sort of code. So apparently I broke it down. The third book in his 'bible' is "awliet". I figured "L" and "awliet" must go together somehow. So I decided that his name was in fact "Lawliet"