non-lucid

Morning of March 27, 2018. Tuesday.



I am in Cubitis, but my old home is gone. On one level, it feels somewhat strange for me to be there and see the flat ground extending over what used to be a living area. Still, my dream becomes so abstract, only the basics can be relayed in text. The orange grove is still present. (In real life, the house is still there, but the orange grove is gone, thus this dream is of opposite implications.)

There is the common ambiguous awareness of being indoors and outdoors at the same time (even though the house or its carport is not yet present).

A backstory begins to form. An unfamiliar elderly lady is going to live in a new house where mine used to be. I decide that I will build it, or at least begin to build it. Curiously, I am somewhat aware of Zsuzsanna being in my life, but in my dream, there is little else of my conscious self identity present.

An unfamiliar young girl and boy come from the north as I am “building the house”. So far, I only have one corner with two bottoms of walls, only a few inches high, yet I am also now aware of a part of the carport floor. Eventually, there is an argument relating to a new piece I am adding to the house. The piece is like a long narrow section of concrete with equadistant small spheres illogically attached. The girl makes the claim that a couple of the spheres are cracked as well as part of the concrete, but I see no such feature. I do not yet add it to the house, and I get very annoyed. The scenario makes no sense at all, though is not as wholly abstract as other dreams. The carport as in waking life seems to be present and yet not present (until the last part of this dream segment). I am thinking of how others will come in and complete the house, yet there is still the ambiguous focus that I will do it, though by mental will.

I soon notice a cinder block wall behind the work I have so far done, oriented to the east. This seems problematic, because the house needs to take up the entire original area and there is otherwise not much room for the building. I consider if the house should be exactly like the original was, or if the unknown woman will need that much space.

I go over to the gray wall, and after a little effort, push it over. It lands flat and even with the edge of the incomplete carport floor and I consider, and am satisfied, that this fallen wall will now serve as part of the carport surface. I move my hands over the area with an enhanced sense of touch and a clearer awareness, as the act of pushing the wall down vivified my dream (due to the fact that a wall is a liminal space divider between different levels of unconsciousness and in-dream perception).

From here, as a result of having pushed over this in-dream “divider”, I wander off into a different dream state (though sometimes a wall as such is a more defined division between the distorted dream self identity and true conscious self identity).

The rest is a meandering mess. I go into my teenage years mode for a short time, wandering about, then into an unfamiliar kitchen setting where one man seems somehow stuck under a table with his leg somehow caught around a chair leg. He is lying on his side on the floor, halfway out from under the table, and another male is trying to help him up. The man on the floor is someone I had only talked with once years ago in Clayfield (I think his surname was Papadopoulos and this is the first time he has ever appeared in a dream as far as I remember). Zsuzsanna is present. I walk around to another part of the room. As I shift into a different dream setting, I am attempting to read some sort of listings in a newspaper as I wake.

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The man on the floor is my emergent consciousness factor (the other unknown male, the preconscious personification), the typical distorted precursory autosymbolism for waking and getting up out of bed. The act of reading in the last scene validates this, as this signifies my thinking skills beginning to emerge as I wake. As dreams are autosymbolic, not symbolic of waking life or with nebulous “interpretations” as such (as literal prescience and autosymbolic waking life factors are far more obvious and discernible), there is nothing here that is new or unusual to me in the dreaming sense.

In life, I will never stop dreaming about my Cubitis home in infinite unique forms, or in fact, of any place I have ever lived or been, or unique fictitious settings either. There is not a waking life reason for this; it just is what it is, the nature of unconsciousness.

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I'm trying to get home from about Mason's house to KC but there are people from the mob coming to kill me. I'm looking on the street and seeing different houses around the main guy's house and wondering why anyone would want to live near the mob since it would be a lot of pressure to have to go to events you were invited to. Trying to get home, the street with the big hill is blocked by 4 or 5 mobsters running up the street at me. I run right towards Owen's but it's blocked that way too. Before they can come kill me I decided I want to wake up and do so.

The dream scene was getting off of a boat. I think I'm now in a different country in Africa. The boat unloads us onto a dock with a shop attached to it. I'm looking around at various items looking for a Coca Cola bottle. There are a few soda bottles but I don't end up purchasing one. I remember I wanted to find a local that would show me the best places to get dinner and thought maybe a hostel owner would know.

The dream opens up into this massive place of shops that looked like cabins and then a massive pool and amusement park as well. I was swimming in the pool and talking to some people I didn't really know. Then I'm around the pool deck. I'm wearing a full suit and do a side flip into the pool, accidentally kicking a girl which disappointed a girl I had talked to earlier.

I meet up with my friends, I think moo and kolby were there. We were walking down this path and on both sides we were passing these massive water slides that were gushing water out. We decide to go on this one ride. We walk into the room and it's filled with black padding and cushions. We're confused but then all of the sudden the floor below us just gives out and we're free falling down. People are hitting different obstacles made of cushion and everyone's laughing and having a good time. I don't hit any obstacles so I get down pretty quickly.

We go outside and look at more water slides. Looking up into the sky, there are two massive rides that were red and white. They must've been more than a mile up into the sky and stood straight up except for a slight curve in the middle. I got a little freaked out to the point where I couldn't even look at them, I thought they were really unsafe. We took a short ride up into the sky to get a better look at the massive rides but the little white ride hooked and then went back down.

On the ground we were back at the pool area. It looked more like someone's backyard or a hotel area. There's small townhouses made of wood and black/blue glass surrounding a small pool and hottub. I'm in the pool swimming back towards the main pool and shop area when I see johnny b with a very long nose which I thought was interesting. They come out to the main pool area with us and I'm seeing people from my high school swimming by. One is Celia and the dream ends as we're in the back of a car. I'm now watching myself third person having intercourse with her.

I should have posted sooner.

Ghost house.

Mainly remember being outside a house kind of in the country. I was in the backyard where all these walkways and bridges were. I went up to the back door and found that it was locked. A woman came to the window and said to go around front. She was outside suddenly while we walked to the front and said that the front area is where you hear all the ghost voices.

Exploring

I was hanging with A and we were trying to get into an abandoned area. We were in a townhouse complex at night. He motioned me to follow him across a parking lot. So I followed him. As I was running across the parking lot I noticed A wasn't there. But I saw him a few seconds later by an open door. I ran to the door and noticed that in the door was a change room. It was quite populated. I notice A looked really young in the dream.

Nightmare

I woke up on a couch in a locked room. I have false memories of being trapped there and tortured. In the room is my captor, a balding fat man in a wife beater. He says it's time to eat and pretends he's making food for me. I stand up on the couch and see a small window. I can't open any of them, one turns with a handle but there's a space open to small for me to crawl through. I sit back down for a second when the man comes to the couch. I realize one of his arms is like a deformed half arm and half wing. It's wing shaped but messed up and has 3 human like fingers sticking out of the side. I go to the window again when he turns away and hear a voice in my head say, " get out the window now.". I turn back to look at the man and for a second i wanna clobber him while his back is turned but i am too afraid. I go back and shut the window quick before he notices wind. The man then pulls out a rubber suit and tells me to get in...

More exploring

Brief dream of walking into some woods with people one guys says his spirit guide is with him and asks if I see him, he then points in the direction of where his guide is supposed to be. I look back and see nothing but wind blowing. We walk farther and I say be careful because there's wolves in these woods. My brother is also there and he says, "Yeah they have huge teeth like this," He opens his mouth and suddenly has huge wolf like fangs.

Driving

In this dream my dad is driving me into the country to visit Jamie. Or it could be her dad driving. I can't remember,

I have the flu, so my dreams have been weird or unsettling. This is a few nights' of dreams gathered into one entry.

The first night, when I was just coming down with the flu, I felt like garbage and had weird fever dreams where friends were inviting me to LuLaRoe (it's a garbage clothing MLM) parties and trying to sell me things. I kept waking up angry and wanting to be left alone, then falling back to sleep and having the same dream over again but with a different person. Why my brain was obsessed with people trying to sell me MLM shit, I have no idea, but that was all I dreamed about the entire night.

Last night, I dreamed about 3 different people who were dead, those dreams where you forget they're dead and they're alive again and then you wake up and realize they're dead. The first 2 were dead pets (a cat and a rabbit) and the third one was my stepfather. I woke up from the 3rd dream thinking "Wow it's been a while since I've seen stepfather, how come?" and then woke up a little bit more and remembered that it's because he's dead and started crying. The crying did not help my already-flu-congested face. On the other hand, at least I got to pet my dead rabbit for 15 dream minutes, and she was as soft as I remember.

Dreams from March 2 to 26, 2018

I had some earlier dreams about people from high school. There was a lucid, dreaming lecture thing where someone thought they were still dreaming, and did something kind of crazy, thinking they had become lucid. There was this guy doing a Dave Matthews kind of song. And I got to have a good talk with a woman who I would have never thought smoked cigarettes. She was very understanding of how I felt about the smoke smell spreading and it was helpful. I woke up as she was saying, "Do you know about ____?"

Video Game Boss

The next dreams I dreamed of being in these video game boss battles. I forgot one of the boss battles. But then This big yellow thing was in this room. There were these blue bomb things I had to put in one corner of the room. When it went there, it got blown up.

Beast Wars
Megatron and a wolf Predacon were chasing Rattrap through the local arboretum. All in Beast Mode. Rattrap got away and then I was walking next to Optimus Primal. I was like, "Yeah, Megatron, you don't wanna come near us now!" I might have been Dinobot. Cheetor was ahead of us. We were all in Beast Mode.

Then I woke up and recorded those, and had another long dream. My recall was good tonight.

Diamond Games

I was in this locker room from my high school. There was a wolf attacking everyone but the wolf trusted me. Then the wolf tested how much I trusted him (or her). They became a human and came towards me. I felt fear but extended trust to the wolf spirit, now looking like a human. I think something healed there.

My Aunt kept trying to get me to play this diamond game. I was talking with my Aunt and my Cousin for a while.

I had a false awakening of trying to dream journal. I was glad it was just a dream because I dreamed that I forgot everything! Forgetting dreams is my worst night mare L O L. But maybe I can turn those night mares of forgetting the dreams into my best dreams of remembering my dreams, which will bring up my actual dream recall. So it is like an opportunity for when I am ready to catch it.

In the next dream I was talking to these people wearing really black clothes. Then telling someone else how I didn't feel inferior for not having as nice of clothes.

Then in the distance I saw people lined up to play the diamond game my Aunt had been mentioning. I felt like she had been mentioning it for ages and I just never listened.

I went over to it and a woman I was with got the girls ahead of us to let us play first. People kept coming by and dumping diamonds on us, "Making it Rain" as the dream called it. The woman kept telling me to keep collecting the diamonds that fell! So I did.

Then we had this big crate of diamonds and jewels. The girls behind us were mad because we had some of theirs. One tried to take some but some security guy stopped her. Another security guy took the woman I was with away so it was just me and the jewels and diamonds. Then I was on a dock and two men appeared at the end of the dock. I was supposed to ask them for guidance of what to do with the diamonds.

So I asked them and one pulled out this book. It said I had to think of the hardest thing to do with them, and do that. I was like, no way, I am definitely keeping them.

Cut scene of me walking around my old neighborhood, peeing as I walked. (L O L)

Then, I got to the people I was supposed to talk more with about the diamonds and jewels. I was talking to this spiritual guy who started showing me pages of a book. We heard a zip and it was a little kid behind me. He had un zipped my back pack and taken some diamonds.

I really didn't want the adults to be mad at the boy so I responded very positively. Kind of like, great job! You got them. And I gave him the diamonds he had taken. I said I could spare those, but I needed the rest, to pay my student loans.

Another man to the side said I should go earn the money to pay my loans. I said I did earn these diamonds. It made sense to me that I deserved the diamonds.

I woke up around then. I really liked the dreams tonight. I got all the details in my voice recorder and just typed this up as a shorter post.

Part1) So, I was having a normal day and I met this guy Patrick. He also played csgo so decided to hang out with him. I later on went swimming with him and his friends but he couldnt make it so I was there with his friends. They thought I was there because of the pretty girl, I said I wasnt and went on.
Then I evesdropped them saying they were going to kill Patrick. I didn't want that so I saved Patrick and went to the sea-shore. He said that "The sailor" is there, he explained that "The sailor" the only one was who travelled to another country. It was a medium sized "ship". So we went on the ship and he seemed fine with it.
We went trough the mysterious cave. Were in the middle of the ocean now. For some reason I have magic and start to catch fish with it, just making them fly on the boat and also caught a flask holder. The sailor saw it and said that I shouldn't show my powers to anyone. I was okay with that. When we arrived at England we decided to go back since we didn't have any money or house there.
When we came back we were acused for hitting the guy that wanted to kill Patrick and sentenced to a lifetime prison. We quickly went back on the boat but someone said we shouldnt because this time of the year the phonemenon happened. We didnt care because we didnt want to go to prison so there we went.
When we came in the cave there was this purple glow that kept getting brighter and all of a sudden (creepy part 1) were in this saw like room. Only light was dark red, all blood on the walls, electronic dolls moving everywhere with a million screaming sounds. We hed to destroy all the dolls and so we did while being terrified.
When it was all over we were at the same shore and we couldnt go to England. We were brought to jail
Part2) The prison wasnt that big, only 20 cells which were really poorly protected by 1 lasrer about 5cm above the floor, not even a celldoor. Green laser meant everythin was fine, Orange meant that something was touching it, Red meant tresspassing. I was thrown in my cell, it was about 1 square meter. I was just writing and drawing stuff,
and my paper touched the laser, it turned red and a guard came storming into the room and aske dme what my problem was and when it was about to hit me I quickly said, " One of my papers! ". He stopped and walked back. When he walked back I quickly ran and stepped over (over it) the laser and so did Patrick. we ran into the woods for about 100 meters and then we got caught.
We thought this was the end but we just got put back in our cells. They said we'll be dead next time. Attempt 2, the guards are discussing what to do with a certaint child and we quitly but quickly went on the roof. But this 1 autistic anoying bastartd a of a female guard saw us and starting shooting. We ran towards the shore but we tripped. She said if we came back with her she would let
all prisoners free. We did that and she let all prisoners free exept me, Patrick and a random guy. The kid in the cell next to me started crying and saying he didnt have a home or family. That night something happened, I dont know what but I got free. I went home and never saw Patrick again. When I came home everyone acted like nothing had happened.
Part3) My brother was writing an essay and my parents doing stuff on their phone. I went to a building with some of my friends from school, talked a bit and went back home.
When I came home I put my calculator on a table downstairs. I went upstairs to take a shit but first went to my room to make my schoolbag.
(I just want to point out that this is my typical nightmare, when I was young I was very very paranoid alone upstairs and starte dmaking things up in my mind literally sprinting downstairs thinking something was chasing me.)
So, I went outside my room and there it was, my calculator on the floor. It clearly was a sign but I picked it up and went on the the bathroom. Right before entering the bathroom
(The most typical nightmare, Ive had this 10 times now and it never gets old) My mom, just standing like a statue in my parents chamber when I know she was downstairs and then screaming like a demon chasing me. I went to the bathroom like most times because it was a key and a lock. This time it caught up on me and I was to battle it pulling the door. Something different happened this time.
My parents never saw the thing as if it was invisible for them so. It had to be in my head. I started fighting it with my head and trying to get rid of it. And for a moment, it was gone. Because I was terrified I lost concentration and it cvame back. I started screaming and making sounds like always so my parents would come. The End.

I was with a group of people, one of them being Trump. I said something to him, but kind of said something else and ended up feeling stupid.

I interacted with an ex-colleague of mine, Mark (Arnouts). It was in an industrial area. He reeked of gasoline, so I told him this.

Date of Dream: MON 26 MAR - 2018


Dream No. 300 - Separated Sections

Dream 300 A - Voice Of The Raccoon In Melbourne
I don't remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I heard that Kevin Miller (the voice of Sly Cooper) was coming to Australia. Not only that, but he was coming to my house. I met him standing on the side of the Monash freeway at night and offered to drive him back. I forgot what happened in the second scene. All I know is that my whole family were at the house and they were interacting with Kevin.

The third scene took place in the garage and somehow, I now found out that Kevin had brought his dream children with him. The girl was called Minnie and she was Chinese, there was also a little boy with him, a Caucasian appearance, I'm not sure but I think his name was Becker. My parents were going to take a photo of me with Kevin and his dream kids. Kevin had an arm on one of my shoulders while jumping up and down and frantically waving. Meanwhile, there was me just being as still as a rock while smiling as best I could. I forgot what actions the dream kids were doing.

When my mum had put down the camera from its photo/video taking position, Kevin laughed and told me that my mum was taking video footage. As I soon as I found out, I was in a state of shock, grousing over how I just stood there, smiling like an idiot when I could have done much more. Kevin then suggested we actually take some photos as well so I have a good souvenir. First of all, some were taken on the big camera and then there were a couple taken on my phone as well as Kevin's phone and then Minnie's and Becker's phones. That's all I can remember for this dream.

Dream 300 B - The Priest Has Died (Lucid Dream 15)
The first part of the dream was lucid. I actually started the lucid segment from a period of being awake; so I am aware of my surroundings without doing a reality check. Now to start the dream; I am in this hot, lava room, like in one of the scenes of the 1st Incredibles movie. I feel that something isn't right but I can't quite put my finger on it. I end up calling for Dreamy WB and she appears straight away.

Within the lava scenery, she appears as usual, wearing all black but the lighting also made her skin and hair look extremely dark. I spoke to her for a while but I forgot what about. Then she spreads her arms out for a hug. As she's hugging me, the scene blurs out on me, changing itself and that's when I lose lucidity.

I am then on the nature track near my house but I forgot specifically what was happening. I end up at this cafe, roaming the outside courtyard of it. Sitting at one of the benches, I see someone who claims to be Fr. M's son who looked half like Fr. M and half like GC but had short, black, curly hair on the top of his. I don't remember everything that he said to me but information was revealed that Fr. M had died. I questioned him and said that the death was actually in 2014.

The scene then plays at my house, just next to the entrance hallway on the upper floor. My brother comes up the stairs and he looks about down. He tells me that Fr. M's son spoke to him and that he revealed something “not very nice”. I said to my brother, “I know, he's dead”. That's when my brother broke out into tears and walked off, slamming the door of his bedroom behind him. That's all I can remember about this dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None



300 A:
Type of Dream: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

300 B:
Type of Dream: 1/2 Lucid, 1/2 Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: Dreamy WB
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

Points:
Full Non-Lucid Dream - 300 A (1.0)
WBTB Successful (2.0)
Aware In Lucid Section (10.0)
Summon DC (5.0) Dream Guide = +5 ---> (10.0)
Interact With DC (2.0)
Non-Lucid Fragment - 300 B (0.5)

Total Points:
25.5

Gross Total Points:
42.5

Scene: On a hill at night with a lone house on the ridge, walking downhill on the winding driveway.
My younger sister and I had one hour to find and complete something involving random video games. We had to walk from the house to some building a quarter-mile away. The building had a carpeted floor.

I was in a bar with some friends. I turned around and saw a beautiful young woman with blonde hair, sitting at a table about 5 feet away and she was looking at me. I locked eyes with her.
I could tell she wanted me to come and talk to her (which is weird because in waking life, I am terrible at recognizing flirtations) so I walked up to her.
She looked at me all seductive like, and said, "So... wanna get out of here and..."
I scanned my mind for the best way to say "yes", but nothing came to mind. Instead, I softly touched her leg which was dressed in black mesh tights. She smiled, so I knew I hadn't stepped out of line.
I continued to stroke her leg and I leaned in for a kiss. We kissed. It was so good.

I woke up. I really wanted to jump back into the dream, perhaps with DEILD, especially since I was conscious enough that I hadn't moved or opened my eyes.
But I wanted to test out my "WBTB Lucid Dream Reminder Track" that I created, which has my own voice reminding me "this is a dream" over and over. So I picked up my phone, switched on the unlisted YouTube video on my phone, and laid back down.
It took me a while to get back to sleep, but I remained still because I knew I would fall back asleep.

Next thing I know, I'm driving my old, first car (black Ford Ka, little dinky thing). I had some of my old school friends (Craig, Alan and Ben) in the car with me.
We drove into this big car park for what looked like some sort of shopping center.
However it was not a shopping center. It was a big building full of games.
We chose a time to meet back at the car, then we went in and we were each given a circular badge (I think with our names on them).

The first game I remember playing was half indoors and half outdoors. We were running round some sort of cool obstacle course. There was more details to the game but I can't remember.

The next thing I remember is finding an indoor game, held in what seemed a bit like a Gym hall from school. I stood and watched while people were split into teams, each team with a different colour vest. And it seemed the game had something to do with pushing trolleys about.

I decided I wanted to give it a go, so I walked in and the yellow team claimed me. I got given a yellow vest and was pointed towards the yellow team.
I was trying to speak, but it felt like I was clenching my jaw so tightly that I couldn't speak. This was definitely REM ationia shining through.
I grabbed a trolley, and I met a young woman with blonde hair in my team (but not the same girl from the previous dream).
I played the game, but I cannot remember how it went.

Next thing I remember is being back in the main bit of the huge building, again it felt like a shopping center.
I met the blonde girl again. I can't remember how it happened, but we ended up kissing. Again, so good.
Then we ended up split apart, but we were still talking, through our badges which had a microphone and speaker in them.
We met again a few times, each time we would start kissing, and each time it was amazing.

The way we were talking, it felt like we were going to end up in a relationship.

Next thing I remember is I had two badges, and I stuck them on my ears. In one badge, I was talking to the girl. In the other badge, I was talking to a school friend so I wouldn't forget that I have people to give a ride home.

Next thing I remember is being inside the building, near the front entrance, and I went into a section which seemed like a hospital. I got lost trying to get back out, and the doctors and nurses were complaining about my presence. Eventually I found my way out.

Then I remember getting a slush puppy and meeting the blonde girl again. We kissed some more. Then split up again.
I was pretty excited that I had met a girl. But I kept reminding myself that I've got friends here and they need a lift home soon.

I went outside to see if anyone was at the car yet. As soon as I walked outside I saw two people from my school (but not the ones who came with me). In real life, these two have been an item since high school and they are still together and doing well. So what I saw really surprised me. They were shouting and balling at each other.

I walked past them, feeling quite awkward, and I saw other people from school watching them.

I don't remember what happened next, the next thing I remember is finding out that the girl I had been kissing, is not going to have a relationship with me.
I remember walking out of the center with my friends, and beside me was Bernadette from Big Bang Theory (except she was my age, it felt like she was an old school friend).
Bernadette said, "Sorry it didn't work out..."
I replied, "Ach it's fine. I've dropped the whole idea of getting a girlfriend so things like this don't hurt me anymore."

Then I remember me and my friends, and a whole bunch of other people, running out of the building and down the side of the car park. It felt like Mario Kart, it was so chaotic.
We reached this big mound of grass, like a small hill. We ran up the mound and flew off it, as if we just jumped a ramp in a car. It was really fun, flying through the air, then crashing into the ground and people were toppling on top of each other. Then we got up and started running back the way and continued the "race".

And I think that is the point I woke up.
My phone has this stupid Whatsapp reminder that pops up and it causes YouTube to stop playing before my voice even kicks in, so I now know why this damn "Reminder Track" hasn't been working.

I was semi lucid during this part of the dream. I was in a room that was merged with an outside scenery, talking to a girl when suddenly Dawn came by and said he brought me a present. It was a big wooden connected ring that was made up of small wooden cubes that came in distinct colorful patterns. I thanked him for it but thinking it was supposed to be a bracelet i put it around my wrist. It was too big though so I took it apart, detaching it and putting it back together as a smaller ring.

It was still pretty big though and i couldn't keep the cubes attached to eachother because of dream gravity. A big chunk of it fell apart. In order to save it i used dream control to put it back together. It worked well. After that when i saw him come closer i apologized for messing with it but told him i was only fixing it so that it would fit.He said it was okay.

I than walked around and was looking for a green macaw female parrot that i felt was supposed to be present. I couldn't find her though. "Where is the green parrot that use to be here?" I asked Dawn
We sat down and he told me "she died at four years old because she was only surrounded by indoor lighting and she needed natural sunlight" and something about them living less. I felt sad that she was gone but accepted that it was what happened.

Notes:In this dream Dawn made me realize that i need to pay attention to my bird's getting the light they need more. The gift didn't need to be an accessory to be important either. I should have left it as it was instead of making it into what i wanted it to be.

I tried painting the patterns but it's not coming out right, my memory is also failing me so I'll just leave it like this. I think its okay enough to give you idea of what it was.

Day 37:

Fell asleep at: 11:30 PM

Woke up at: 7:10 AM


Dream 45: Scarlet Red Dress

I'm touring the streets of some sort of rustic, European city; though it definitely reminded me of Spain more than anything. Walking the cobblestone streets, I find a beautiful girl coming out of some nondescript boutique. She had black, curly hair, slightly tannish skin, and was wearing a red dress.

As if straight out of a schmaltzy romance flick, I immediately pull her aside and start dancing. We were dancing for about 5 minutes straight, and I gotta admit, it was pretty fun (And, well, you know...). The dream then shifts to something I wish to forget.


Dream 46: Monkey Business

My sister and I are, again, caught in another perilous driving situation. She's driving a really big truck, about the size of a schoolbus (and twice as wide), while driving on an incredibly narrow street.

Through this colonia, my sister finds a way to make things worse. There's a schoolbus right in front of us, but we were too late to stop ourselves from crashing into it. Instead of students, however, a flurry of chimps are pouring out of the bus. The noise they make is so shrill and so loud that it wakes me up entirely. Turns out it was the fire alarm that was making that horrible noise.


Day 38:

Fell asleep at: 12:00 AM

Woke up at: 10:00 AM


Dream 47: Kev' In Da' Shop

Well this came outta nowhere. In some random coffee shop, I'm sitting in my table alongside a couple of unidentifiable DCs, when Kevin Hart walks in through the door. I don't question it, though, and I stare at him blankly.

He walks over to the magazine rack and starts talking. I think he's doing a skit, but I can't quite remember what he was talking about. He was walking around, cracking jokes, and just generally having a good time.


Dream 48: Sun's Song

I'm in the living room, just minding my own business. My mom and dad are preparing to go to bed, so they both go into their room and leave me alone in the living room.

As I'm sitting on the couch, I notice something peculiar. The sun has already begun to rise. "That's weird." I say to myself. I go over to my room to ask my brother what time it was: 2 o' clock.

Immediately I rush outside, telling my brother to bring his phone. In the process of getting out of my house, the sun has risen and set in a matter of seconds.

Once I get there, I notice it is extremely windy. My brother brought my two puppies with him, too. They looked hilarious what with the wind blowing all the fur on their face to the side and them sticking their tongues out.


Dream 49: Hotel Construction

A timelapse of a beachfront hotel plays out. For about 5 minutes, I see the entire construction progress. Oddly enough, it was all done in Minecraft.

The perspective then switches to a first-person POV, my POV. I'm talking to my dad about something I can't quite remember, but I remember feeling a little bit down after that conversation. The sun was setting, and so I decided to walk into the hotel myself.

Inside, I spot my brother and my mom, and I also decide to chat with them. It wasn't exactly uplifting either, and I only wound up feeling a bit more melancholic after it.


Dream 50: Hot Demon Girl

Playing Doom 2016 when a cutscene pops up. There's this attractive looking lady, about in her 20s, in this gray and dusty hallway. She is slowly making her way towards me, and progressively getting more demon-like as she does so.

I pay particularly close attention to her eyes, a muted gray color, yet representative of her beauty and humanity. Even as she gets more, frankly, disgusting, her eyes remain quite nice. The dream ends with her transformation into a full-blown demon.

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Modding Dwarf Fortress.

Several WBTBs, during which I meditated. This allowed for very present dreams, just not lucid ones.

Dream 1 - Telekinesis Treats

The visuals were clear. I was working at my old job at the gas station. My former bosses and quite a few co-workers were there. That almost tipped me off to the state, but just almost. It did at least explain why I thoughtlessly practiced telekinesis to stock various things. This included hot food items, many of which were a lot more elaborate foods than you'd find in the place, including shish-kebabs. The dream ended shortly afterwards.

Dream 2 - Phantoms and Feasts

The visuals were a a bit dim. I was in a large basement, probably from an apartment building. Soon, dozens of spirits creeped out of the dark corners of the room, making nuisances of themselves, if not outright attacking. Of them, I could identify various kinds of fairies, and several Arachne (half women, half spiders) . An HUD revealed elemental variants of these creatures (ie Electric Fairy). Access to ritual magic allowed me to banish the sprites, and, depending on their species, to either bind or bargain with them. Those that would negotiate usually made requests of exorcising other spirits, especially those they disliked or were not of their own kind. I only took agreements which would have marks that were already hostile. Binds were more direct, but took a good deal of time to get in place.

As the number of invasive spirits diminished, a figure descended from the stairs, the ghost of a dark skinned woman with long, black hair. She was named after a famous alchemist (Paracelsus, I think), and, I sensed, was a powerful conjurer in her own right. This ghost was a bind-able, but, with all the other lingering spirits, it would've been unwise to try such at the moment. I then "recalled" just being there to finish some laundry. So, I requested a "time out", and bade the sprites come back after I finished my chores. Humorously, they abided.

I headed to the laundry area, which itself lead to a hallway. There, I spotted my sister, Almira, conversing with uncle Otto on a wireless home phone. She got bored of that, and passed the phone to me. My uncle asked of a party that was apparently going on there, particularly if there were any leftovers. He was still considering going there, given the long ride from central New Jersey to the Bronx (where I felt I was at the time). I guessed there might've been rice and peas, and maybe some cold food items. Still, I decided to verify.

Soon, I arrived in an outdoor dining area, the place arranged into a fancy banquet. Whole tables were occupied entirely with many-tiered platters of meats, of which included beef slices, Peking duck, and roast goat. There were also trays of pasties and fancy snack items which could be identified.

Unfortunately, before I could try anything, the dream ended.

I woke up repeatedly throughout the night but not with eyes shut. Didn't have too much time to set my intention perhaps. After my initial successes, a part of me is also afraid of failure because this is a promising technique that I would like to work for me, and now I'm somehow expecting it as a result. But I will focus on the progress, the successes, and remember that it is about training over time. I will get this. I will try meditating for relaxation immediately prior to my next attempts, and see if this helps. A part of me suspects that confidence in success is a huge part of whether or not it actually works.

After a wake back to bed of 45 mins I try to WILD. I took an attitude of: anything that occurs is an experience happening to me, I don't control it, so I will just let it happen and observe whatever it is, even if that experience is me becoming too excited and things coming to a halt. I tried FILD on my back and became quite relaxed, body numb, and I noticed the swirls and blobs of light becoming more and more frequent. They became more intense than usual probably due to my mindset, and I felt my eyes starting to open automatically, and I struggled to keep them shut, but unfortunately they fluttered open a little bit. Switching to my front, I was on the brink of sleep and was sometimes forgetting what I was trying to do, and would then revert back to the FILD practice. I let myself forget about lucid dreaming, and just let myself sleep, but also remembering the finger practice without consciously thinking about the WILD attempt. Re-interpreting it as something I do to help me sleep normally, so that I wasn't so focused on lucid dreaming, which tends to keep me excited and too alert. I noticed rapidly flashing lights and the sensation that something had just happened to my body, like a heaviness or something. My alarm went off shortly.

Later noon attempt: body became very relaxed and numb, and there were swirls of light, but I was drifting off less often than earlier. The excitement/heart rate was high and I was having trouble mindfully/gently allowing thoughts and metacognition to come and go, returning attention the task. Mindful breathing did help somewhat but improvements and dedicated mindfulness practice may pay dividends.

Edit: Afternoon attempt (3pm): When had some HI and it felt like my view of it was zooming in, my eyes just automatically started to open. How frustrating!!

Dream (from night before waking)

I am in England with my girlfriend (I think), and am driving over what looks like a Scottish countryside road, replete with rolling hills overlooking beautiful small lakes. There are old stone buildings on the hill tops and elsewhere along the road, and the day is a cloud one, but still the scene is picturesque. I am sitting in an airport terminal with some people, KZ included. We discuss driving to Cape Cod (USA) before leaving England, because this is one of my favorite places and I would like to go. I think that KZ leaves today to go back to work, but he says that he is leaving in the morning and can go out on the town tonight.

I am at work now, and there is a toy remote control helicopter similar to the one my girlfriend's brother owns. I play with it and fly it around the office. I almost crash it a number of times but manage to salvage the mini flight. The lights are off in the other end of the office, because I decided to save power and only turn on the ones that I would need. I am completely alone here, nobody else is at work. I am disembodied and flying a helicopter in the third person now, and am hovering above three warehouses below me. There is someone in one of them, communicating with me via radio or walkie talkie when I am hovering about them directly. This is some sort of drug bust, and they are perhaps undercover.

*Messed up title. It was a plant but with no flowers.

I was non lucid at first but became lucid in my old room.There I looked at the window and hopped up to fly through it. However, when I managed to get through I felt myself turn upside down and I was now in the beach water.At first I heard zombie noises like moaning but than it stopped and I just enjoyed feeling the waves of the water passing around me and pushing back.For a bit I stayed like that and tried calling Dawn but than the ocean dissipated and became a mountainous area where I was attacked by not very visible lions and wild dogs. As I pushed them back and felt them bite me I thought about how prey animals feel when attacked. Eventually I decided to make them leave by calling Dawn. They ended up running away after I did.

When I got up I noticed I was now in a city that was becoming flooded. That's when a violet red book flew past me with japanese hiragana and kanji. I could read the hiragana which said "sakaru" and something else. Which is not a real word but I dismissed it and as I looked around it felt like I was going to wake up.

Standing in front of the old house bathroom mirror now I was doing my hair but kept aware of how I felt and the possibility that I was still dreaming.
That's when I remembered that I wasn't living there anymore and went into the room. Curious I looked through the window to see the yard and saw a lot of green plants with a huge white plant in the center. I felt like it represented something pure. It was nice to look at but than my thoughts ended up changing it into a carnivorous plant that growled. I looked away from it than thought of Dawn
Dawn didn't come but i began to be pulled away as the room darkened and thinking I would wake up, I woke up.


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