non-lucid

9/21/2016:
10:30 - 6:00 (wk at 12:44) (4?)
- office environment, setting up something at a
desk. Weird adapters, had someone get one for me
at a store. Cut to different scene with someone next
to me singing some kind of soul song really
well at a desk next to me, kind of embarrassing, but I was
curious to see the other people react. Cut to some
detailed walking around in a house (I think it
was where I lived.) Looked at strange white curtain, not
see through, but a lot of light came through it. I questioned
why houses so close together (like 5 feet) would have
such big windows facing each other, right about then
an alarm sounded and some guy was there for some
reason throwing something, with a bucket or something
similar. It seemed like that was okay, not sure, the alarm
was startling though and that was the end. Maybe I almost got lucid.

• weird plug type (FORM)
• abrupt scene change (CONTEXT)
• DC singing at strange time (ACTION)
• strange house layout (FORM)
• strange bailing action by DC (ACTION)
• out of place alarm (CONTEXT)

<break>
- Detailed indoor stuff, walking around, saw random
people. A mom with little kids and one of them kind
of straying. I let her know that her kid was running
off, and she got them corralled. Later saw them in a
library type thing, she kind of smiled when she saw me
like the little kid was going where we were going to be
anyway. Saw an old, brown leather book with a swoosh on it.
Saw a wooden book cart crammed with books, kinda like they
are at Powells.

• book with a swoosh (FORM)

- Working outside, worried about someone I worked with
who apparently got hurt. Asked about him, I guess he
was going to be okay

To start off, I'm going to transfer some DJ entries here, so there will be more than one day a lot of times, since they can be pretty light on info:

9/17/2016:
11:00 - 8:00
- motocross/something on track, no sound, floaty, reentered
same one with no vehicle for a short time

• driving with no vehicle (ACTION)

- Chicago police guy tries to get me to buy something for
hockey tickets while showing website, really vivid, scrolling
around. He said Red Wings tickets for some reason

• wrong team for the city (CONTEXT)

9/18/2016:
10:30 - 6:00 (wk at 2:37)
- heroes game, losing, new map
- tried DEILD after jolting awake, some HI, but tried to
RC too early I think. I did the nose pinch RC and just
was awake
<break>
- getting back to sleep took a while, lost attention and
just fell asleep, no chance to interact with transition


9/19/2016:
10:00 - 5:30 (wk at 2:15) (5 or 6)
- heroes type game, more vivid running around
- same, people mixed in

• Not an actual game that I know about (CONTEXT)

<break>
- kinda talking to people or something, a couple
sessions of that


9/20/2016:
10:00 - 4:15 (wk at sometime) (about 2)
7:30 - 10:30 (2)
- don't remember before the break
<break>
- pretty long, maybe SciFi salvage or something
at the end was eating something greasy and good
while being nagged about it by some female co worker

• Sci Fi job setting (CONTEXT)
• Felt the nagging pretty keenly (INNER AWARENESS)

<wake at 4ish>
- tried to avoid re-entering that last one to avoid
being nagged and ended up not being able to get
back to sleep mostly due to thinking about WL
<break>
- computer stuff of some kind. Something broke
that we pretty much knew was going to break
but didn't do anything about (had a deja vu later in the week)
- back to the same setting, don't remember what
happened, just slice of life I think

Amber said that she liked me a lot and told me exactly why. I remember having my shirt off huging her with a very sexy energy.

PE lesson

I was in my old school, I left changing room and went to sports hall. We had a new PE teacher. I was just about to enter the sports hall when I noticed that I don't have one of my shoes on, and the other had an enormous hole in it. I passed by students from other class and entered the hall. The teacher took some old shoes from a cardboard box and gave them to me. I took them on and started tying them.

Failed WBTB attempt

A favor

With two classmates we were in a city, wandering around blocks of flats. It was a sunny but cold day. We were going to a house of some girl one of classmates wanted to invite to a prom. We got outside her flat, there was some dark haired girl outside, standing with her mother. Classmate asked me to do him a favor and ask her mother if her daughter will go with him to a prom. I went to that mother and asked "Could your daugter go on a prom..." She cut in and asked me about her name. I didn't knew it and stood there in silence. After a while I explained "Well, I'm doing a favor for a friend who is too shy to ask her out." She said "I see..." I went back to these two dudes and suddenly we heard a voice shouting through megaphone. Her mother was angry at us.

Waterslide DILD

I woke up in a bed in other room than usually, confused. I felt as if I wore a jacket, but when I moved my hand over my body but haven't felt any jacket. I started suspecting that this might be a dream and made a nose-plug RC. It confirmed that it was a lucid dream. I got out of the bed and moved towards doors. I used them to teleport outside. It was really early morning but it wasn't that dark. I was standing on the middle of the road, completely naked. Staring at the way the road led, I got an idea to make a waterslide. I jumped on the ground and created a wildly flowing stream of water flowing along the road. I slided across whole village, increasing or decreasing flow of water until I got close to my friends house. There was an enormous shopping mall in the middle of the road. It looked like it was just recently open for business. I entered it, it was really dark inside. In the darkness I could see all the clothes shops - there were only clothes shops with mannequins. I clapped my hands expecting the claps to turn lights on, but it wasn't working. I got a wild thought that these mannequins could turn alive and attack. I immediately got a feeling that I'm surrounded, that thousands of them stare at me at the same time, I felt lost. I managed to calm myself and stabilise the dream a bit, thinking "Wait, they can't even turn alive if I don't allow them to do so!" I continued along the shop. Suddenly I lost lucidity.

Mirror DILD

I woke up in a bed in another room again. Immediately I realised that it's a dream and made a nose-plug RC to confirm it. I got out of bed and moved to hallway, there was a huge mirror hanging on a wall. I waved my hand in attempt to telekinetically smash it, but it only made the dream much less stable. The reflection in the mirror showed the hallway in strong moonlight. I woke up.

What a strange one. It began at a clubhouse of sorts. I was hanging out with some friends of mine when Sophie Mccarthy showed up. We started talking and she guided me to her room in the house. We then had extremely vivid sex. One of the most present moments I've ever had without being lucid for sure.

The main part of the dream was much more strange. I was accompanying/guiding/controlling a team of super powered beings. They were kind of like overwatch, but they were people I knew. I realized after a while that some of them were honestly fighting crime while the head of the group, this girl called valkyrie, was simply using everyone for her own gain. When I came to realize it I left them to their own devices.

At the end of the dream, I was with a friend of mine outside. It was raining, and we were on a hill. For some strange reason, there were people on the street either shooting a movie or a youtube video because they were doing extreme horse acrobatics in the street. I'm not talking your average Olympic equestrian here either, this was some next level shit. This one extremely fat woman was riding the main horse, and man that thing was having a real tough time supporting her. It was wheezing heavily, and with the rain on the hill, it was struggling to keep its footing. Suddenly, she started backing the horse up the hill. She rode it backward up the hill, then turned right and went backward up a ramp! The ramp was a quarter pipe, so of course, it was completely vertical at the top. The magnificent beast made it 95% the way up there, almost getting on the platform before her massive frame caused his stature to snap, and he slammed into the ramp, sliding down it with tremendous speed and across the hill through traffic, impacting the curb on the other side of the road. He looked like a horse ragdoll. Why would you let such a fat lady ride a horse backward up a slope? Who would do this?

The horse lived, though. No way I would let that happen.

I finished reading the Lord of the Rings today.

Bed @ 2210
Woke @ 0000 /w a general feeling of restlessness

Hobbits
I'm observing the four hobbits in the last couple of years of Lord of the Rings, when the Shire is being rebuilt. They're all proud and siting on their ponies. Over and over, it's mentioned that these four are always doing things for each other; but it soon becomes clear that Frodo is almost always the recipient and almost never a giver. The other three know this and aren't bothered by it at all - they're more than happy to do what they can for Frodo, given what he's already done for them.

BTB @ 0015
Woke @ 0325

Fragment: I'm watching various hobbits - both named and anonymous - performing tasks to rebuild the Shire.

BTB @ 0340.
Woke @ 0730

Sneaking through a factory
I'm playing a 3rd person shooter of some sort. I'm trying to infiltrate some kind of industrial site. Guards are everywhere, and I'm sneaking as best I can, but eventually one of them sees me. I tense and get ready to run, but he just keeps walking as if nothing's wrong. I realize that, just like in "Hitman Go," I'm dressed in a disguise. I assume that the disguise will be blown the first time I touch an enemy, so I'm careful to stay away from them lest I touch one. At one point, I come to a hallway I need to go through, and I pause, unsure how to continue, because there's a guard standing in the middle of the hallway. I actually manage to squeeze by him without touching him and continue on my way.

Now I'm in the lower levels of the factory. My disguise has been blown, though the guards in this area aren't on full alert yet, so my efforts at sneaking are redoubled. Now I'm close to my objective, but some high level guards have been alerted to my presence and are hunting me. It's turned into a race of sorts, to get there and <do something> before they catch me or get to it themselves.


College event
I'm walking around a college campus, attending some kind of large event. At the moment, everyone's been given the assignment of finding where the elephant is hiding. I'm no good at this kind of thing, but I can't just sit it out (as much as I'd like to), so I figure I'll wander around until someone else finds it. As I'm wandering, I find that I'm near some some snack tables and go to check them out. I'm disappointed that they're mostly empty, but at least there are still a few small cupcakes left. I think they're pumpkin-spice cake with vanilla frosting; not my favorite, but not bad. I take one.

Now I'm walking along a path towards a freestanding staircase which connects to a bridge high above. The staircase and bridge are both bright white. A truck with a trailer is parked next to the bridge, and an older man is hooking things up. Eventually, he turns it on, and I realize that the trailer is a generator. As it vrooms into life, a nearby fountain starts to shoot water into the air, and I feel a breeze of cold air. A passing man incredulously asks me if the truck is providing air conditioning to the place, and I confirm that it seems that it is, adding that it's also powering the fountain. I start to walk up the stairs - they're wide and white - and have to keep dodging people coming down them.

Now I'm at the top of some indoor stairs. I'm carrying my youngest child, and I'm pretty tired. I just want to find somewhere to sit down, and I don't want to see any more stairs.

Now I'm in a classroom with a handful of other people. A woman is walking us through some logic problems. Now we're finished with them - there were four total - and she's counting up score. I almost solved one of the problems, but I don't actually score any points. The woman oozes sympathy, which rather annoys me, and I let her know that, even though I may not have gotten any points right now, I got some earlier, thank-you-very-much.


Fragment: I'm in a room filled with boxes.


Work van
I'm approaching our work van. Despite appearing normal, there's a very special way to get into it. Now I'm inside looking out its windows. One of my team members is standing outside, and a very large man is approaching him. I'm a bit worried, but I know that it's part of the plan and that my team member knows how to deal with the risks. Now I'm standing outside the van, and the large man is approaching me. I'm not worried, because I know that he can't actually reach me. When he's a few feet away from me, he hits an invisible barrier. He's confused, and I laugh, explaining that, despite appearances, I'm actually still inside the van.

I dreamed that I was playing a Harry Potter video game. I control a party of characters, though excluding Harry everyone else wasn't a canon character. We stumble into a Death Eater in an underground dungeon who was forging something and can apparently deink and heal himself with molten metal. Approaching him result in a cutscene where he grabbed Harry and stuffed him into some cramped opening in the wall behind him, and everyone was magically required to answer his riddles or Harry would die. After we answered his riddles, the spell was broken and he lost his bargaining chip. He joked about it being a good time fro a Death Eater to panic before trying to attack us, but as he himself had expected we killed him quickly.

We then walked around with a Dark Souls-like perspective in what appeared to be a mix between a castle, a fine dining restaurant, a temple, a tower, and a convention center. I have some difficulty describing it, yes. I think the best way to say it is that you just have to imagine the Floating Garden of Babylon, except that there were no plants, and the ceilings are extremely high. It was very beautiful but minimalistic, our sightseeing a bit marred by people screaming and running away from the Death Eater's blood on our shoes, so we sought a fountain to clean the blood off.

My dream transitioned to me in a Team Fortress 2 match, except that it looked like real life. I was presumably the Pyro and the framing narrative was that I was in a VR, hence why I don't feel liek I'm in an asbestos suit or wearing a gas mask or holding a flamethrower. I have infiltrated the back lines of the map, and there was nobody around. I was going to go back to the front line to ambush the enemies but there were news reporters being filmed. The map looked like Upward, but the bit after the second spawn was replaced with the gate from Hollywood in Overwatch. The reporters didn't seem alarmed on seeing me. I try to edge my way past them without getting in the shot because I thought that'd be rude.

Last night bed 8:20pm - 3:25am

DR1:
I am with a family I used to know in LB. Walking down a sunny, dusty street, like in a new housing development area. She is saying that 500 is missing from her money and they kinda know that new housekeeper did it. She asks me about it too and she knows I'm telling the truth when I honetstly tell her that it would never be me.

Walking home, same area, through some dusty hills. A town fair is going to be opening tonight and they ar setting up the booths. We get into some dining hall. I pour honey into my tea cup then tea from a glass pitcher and watch the honey melt. The owner of the place and the fair comes in, we recognize him as a guy whom we passed on the way here and he gives us some survey papers, wanting us to fill them out. I know I'm not gonna.

Still same setting, same people.
One of the kids leaves friends house without telling us while we are all there. When we find him, he is in trouble and I'm telling him now I'm not taking him to the fair. He gets mad and tells on me.

DR2:

crosscountry running race, table with green tub w water, around - no through - butt wet, guy asks something, I push his hand he runs after, grabbs by throat, my fingers in his eyes, he is not letting go, blood in mouth, rinsing, ice

I'm in a cross-country running race. Running on a dirt path, small hills, seems like same setting as previous dream. There is a desk with green tub with water in it. I'm trying to squeeze by it, then I ask the official standing there if that's the way to go. She says, no, we have to go through the tub. So I climb up and she says we need to get our butts wet. So we do and keep running.

I think I'm second in place, running on a flat dusty path at the edge of a town. There are spectators and other people just walking around. On of them approaches me and with outstretched arm holding something asks me something. I push his hand away without slowing down. I'm sure he will know I'm in a race and can't stop.

I feel him running behind me, catching up, grabbing me by my throat. I try to think which fingers you are suppose to use when you pushing your fingers in someones eyes in self defence. He is still holding me from behind so it's hard to do, but I do jam my fingers in his eyes. I put them in pretty good. He is not letting go. I realize I should push not so hard, as to give him a chance to loosen his grip and let me go. Others come and I tell them to pull his arm off of me.

I go to a sink and I'm rinsing my mouth, spitting blood. Somehow he had his fingers in my mouth and cut me. I keep spitting out pink water and it's splashing all over the near wall. I ask for some ice.

Elderly couple own a castle, which they market as a resort of some kind. Have a general unpleasent air and look downright decrepid. They die and wind up in a void, filled with floating bits of land, as well as an upside down 1920s style car with a street light hanging from the bottom of it. They navigate this tiny unfinished world and discover at the end their graves. Come to a realisation that this is their final resting place , but it was discarded by the creator. Due to this, if they can "survive" (no idea what from, an infinite drop, maybe?), they wil eventually "drift" back into their mortal bodies.

Before they do, a voice from the void describes their adoption of a little girl as a "sham". My dream self (sometimes an observer, sometimes the oldman) considers to be a euphamism for a far worse fate they had in store for the girl. No specifics are given but it implies abuse cruelty. They eventually return to the normal world, only to almost immediately go back to the grave world, which now has a different layout of its mini landmasses. They begin the brief journey again.

Very chilling and eerie dream. The old couple resemble a realistic depiction of Victor's parents from Corpse Bride with a few more years on them.

This girl bent over my bed. I got on my knees an d entered her tight vigina.

1 pt non-lucid
2 pts wbtb
= 3 pts 3+ 114.5=117.5
3 Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 2 task Intermediate:
Put on a halloween costume and gain the powers/abilities of the costume.


D1: Walking to my car after shopping at a flea market. I make a wrong turn & so do a bunch of other ppl. We are all trying to walk to our cars where we are in the middle of a gun fight. There a gang of mean bikers. ( I should note that most all the bikers that I've ever met in my life were nice ppl who raise money in my town.) They are everywhere & haul us all back to their cabin where they make us all work for them. A man & his wife were running things but mostly they weren't seen together. This dream was really long. There were a lot of escape attempts that went bad & ppl got hurt in various ways. We started wearing padding under our clothes because of all of the bullets that were flying so often. These ppl holding us there were really violent. I kept having to gather intel to try & find a way out & to try & stay safe. I was informing the new ppl who had just arrived about the padding. I'm gritting my teeth & they break & chip off. I'm trying to convince the woman to ease up on us. This place was being attacked by another gang, hence the padding idea helped quite a bit. There was a horrible blood bath fight so I upped my search to find a way out. So when they took us to this water slide being made out of actual tunnels that were next to the cabin. It wasn't finished but I was told it would be the most expensive slide attraction in the world when it was done. I start my decent down the slide when Meesha Cat jumps on my head in real life & I freak the hell out! It was only 2 minutes until my wbtb alarm so I'll count that as this time.
wbtb
D2: I'm fishing in my parking lot for a living. You gotta love the dream world! Other ppl were fishing out fish & other odd things. My dream grandson was supposed to be watching a movie in a near by movie theater type place but it's supposed to be an elaborate daycare. It was really big, like an auditorium. There is a roller coaster in there & things are happening that is some what like a Harry Potter kind of theme of things that are magically happening. I try to call my daughter at work & some guy tells me that if I was a good mom she would be there but cuz I won't take care of her kids she has to stay home. I'm so mad but I don't say anything to correct him. I ask him if he is her boss & he says no. My alarm goes off & I get up.

Night 12

-If I remember I was with Tony the Tiger and Spellbee2 (portrayed as a full-size gray anthro cat wearing a green hoodie.) I think he carried a red device like a miniature laptop that also functioned as a cell phone. (I guess it was like the pokedex from that one version of his avatar.) We were all lost in the amazon rainforest. I remember the rainforest being very thick and impassable in some places, and in others, there were clearings full of a few short palm trees and tall grass.

Eventually, after some time skips and days and days of traveling we made our way to the edge of a city. Unfortunately, when we got there, we found out we had to cross a river to get to the city, and the only thing on our side of the river was a brick walkway.

The city had a guardian, a giant four-legged robot pod that would stride around over the buildings. It had very long legs and could walk through the river, and it carried us across. I then saw a whole bunch of dreamviews members in a big crowd watching someone that I did't recognize climbing up the side of a skyscraper. I think the dream became very focused on lucid dreaming and this might have been the portion where I got lucid, and I'm remembering things out of order.

-I was driving to Wal-Mart to get the Skyrim Special edition and for some reason taking my dad's van. I was somehow able to drive from the back seat of the van, but I decided while driving that I should climb over to the front seat so I could have better visibility and work the petals. There was some construction and lane changes coming up and while passing some equipment I struck a very old looking red van.

We pulled over into a parking lot. There was no damage to either of our cars except a wheel had come off of my dad's van. (Front driver side wheel.) I figured we didn't actually hit but the wheel came off and that was what felt like a crash.

Two people got out of the van. It was a tall middle age guy with long snow white hair slicked back and a shorter woman with curly white hair. The woman wanted to just stay calm since it clearly wasn't a bad accident but the man was ticked and he started yelling about how young drivers cause all the problems. I tried to get him to calm down saying there wasn't any damage to his car and he might as well get back on the road like nothing happened. But he just kept insulting me personally so I kicked him in the crotch. Then the guy wanted to fight me and tried to attack me, but he was bad at fighting and I beat him up. When the police did show up, the man's wife took my side and said she was going to divorce him if he kept acting so easily angered.

-+-

-I was trying to find the northernmost city in the world. It was some city built in Alaska. I wanted to drive there but someone said something about my car freezing. I got this vision of my car being buried in snow and that began to manifest itself as a dream, but I woke up.

-+-

-Whenever/wherever I got lucid, I was in an underground cavern with buildings built into the walls and ceiling, and a sort of paved floor with a fountain like a large plaza. I remember the first thing I did was fly. I flew around the cavern in a big circle, and landed back in my original place.

I then thought I could get more competition points by doing mind control. I looked at a little DC boy and pointed at him, and told him he would do a roundhouse kick. He obeyed and did one, but he almost kicked someone else by accident. His mom got mad at me and told me not to mind control him anymore. I said I wouldn't, and she walked off.

I for some reason then thought to do a reality check, I knew I could get points for it. So I did a really long nose pinch. Then Proceeded to stabilize by kneeling over and pounding on the stone floor tiles of the cavern with my fist.

...

I was at a modern looking house with a big swimming pool in the back of it, still lucid. Marcus was there.

...

I was back at the cavern location, but I remember it feeling brighter. I summoned Manei and I saw a random girl in the crowd twitch, drop what she was doing and turn and come to me. She looked nothing like the dream guide I know, at least on the outside. Apparently she had decided to try taking over another DC instead.

I asked her if she could now shape-shift to something close to her usual appearance. She seemed reluctant to do so, but when she tried, she made a loud noise like computer static and I saw her become translucent, and her body parts detached and jumped to different positions before reforming sans the right leg, that was just a skin-covered stump. She fell over. Then her right arm became translucent, her fingers, palm of her hand, and elbow detached. Each one transformed into a black dice with white dots that fell to the ground.

She said she had made a mistake. Marcus said something about how you should never try to take over someone's body and try to shapeshift since normal dream characters' bodies can't shapeshift it will cause problems and destabilize them. Manei said there was a magical focal point 3000 feet to the north that I could use to repair her.

"Compass Now!"

I stomped on the ground and splintered the concrete floor of the cavern with cracks radiating in the cardinal directions. About 10 or 15 feet out the cracks turned 90 degrees and formed a circle with the NESW directions represented with their usual letter. I saw north was directly ahead through a door and picked her up.

I ran through a door and was in the hallway of my high school. It was crowded and I turned on my zero friction skates. I was able to skate along the side of the wall (ignoring standard physics) to avoid the crowd. I then went through a gymnasium. I got to the magical focal point that was inside of a small bathroom on the far side of the gym, and I got to the bathroom just before someone else did.

When I got in there I flushed the toilet and a purple beam of light shot out of it. I saw a white eyeball in the light. It was Ateria, the spirit guardian of one of my original characters in the dream. Manei said that I was fast enough for her to return to her form but not fast enough for the dream to not destabilize. I saw things get dark. She told me to come back soon and I lost the dream.

Night 12:

NLD x3=1
DILD x1=10
RC x1=1
DC interact x1=2
Fly =5
Mind Control =5
(Okay I'm putting the summon down as DC changing for 10. Figures Manei would find a way to make scoring murky.) =5+5 for DG 'summon'
Unspecified Dream Control (compass creation) =5
Super Speed =5

Night 13

I recall being lucid. I was in what looked like the doctors room you wake up in in the beginning of Fallout New Vegas. Manei came in carrying beers and she said that she wanted me to kill her father because he dressed up like a cowboy and she didn't like cowboys. I replied pretty annoyed saying (exact words I believe) "Im not killing someone for such a stupid reason." But I was thinking through what she was requesting. I've interacted with her mother at least one time that I can recall, but it was long long ago, and I think she also has twin younger brothers, but this is the first time I've heard of her father.

I didn't like the implication of killing someone supposedly related to my dream guide even though I was thinking deeply about lucidity and recognized that as a dream guide, she is just an aspect of me and therefore shouldn't technically have a family at all, but the dream can still symbolize it as such.

Apparently it wound up being one of her dream guide tests of character and I passed. Also the beers wound up being filled with water and she wasn't actually drunk. I also remember seeing her father (wearing the cowboy outfit nonetheless) come into the room. I don't remember too much of what he looked like outside of he was a huge man, but friendly.

I honestly don't see how these make any sense anymore. Since she is really just an aspect of me, I'm telling myself. No more dream guide tests. Ever. Unless I ask for more.

DILD x1=10
DC interact x1=2

Dream

I was in a city with group of classmates. It was a cold and rainy day, people were wearing warm clothing. I drove my car and parked it a bit clumsily on a little parking. I went out of the car and moved on with the group, when we heard some man in some uniform. The man took a road cone and placed it on the middle of the road then said "According to new rules, people have to park at least 500 metres from a sidewalk!". I went back to check on my car and noticed a better parking place. I went towards the car.

Failed WBTB attempt

Fragment

I was driving my car through some forest and city roads.

Bed @ 2245
Woke @ 0120.
Attempted BTB @ 0145 /w MILD & SSILD
Meditated, got up, went back to bed, got up, had a drink, listened to a book, back to bed, etc. Fell asleep past 4.
Woke @ 0440

Meeting with my boss
I'm in my (old)boss's office for my every-other-weekly meeting. She's finishing something up and has a few papers on her desk. They're up-side-down, but I can see long lines of highlighter on them. I have a brief thought that maybe it's paperwork for a raise, but I squash that - I got one recently from "my other boss." I have a moment of confusion, since I just had a one-on-one with "my other boss," but "remember" that he's actually her boss and I meet with both of them. She's listening to some really weird music that's making it hard to think, and I hope she'll turn it off. I see her move what looks like an ipod, but I have the odd feeling that the music isn't actually coming from it. She starts saying something about duct tape, how tempting it is, how it needs to be controlled, and I'm really confused. I think I must have missed her opening sentence and that, if I'd caught it, then everything would make sense.

She keeps going about the duct tape, and I suddenly I realize that none of this makes sense and that I must be dreaming. I do a confirmation nose-pinch and am able to breathe. I have almost no "did I do it right?" hesitation and am extremely confident that this is a dream, and I have no qualms about doing weird stuff in "my boss' office." I stand up and walk over to the wall trying to decide what to do - I consider trying to phase through it, but I know that that's a good way to get somewhere totally random, and I don't want to lose lucidity in the transition. As I'm considering, I notice that my head is closer to the ceiling than it should be. I decide to see if I can grow further, and I do - I actually get my head within a hair's-breadth of the ceiling. Everything in the room looks a bit smaller, a bit further away. I remember a task of the month, to reach into my pockets and pull out whatever's there. I do so and find only my usual setup: my right pocket has my keys and Swiss Army knife, and my left pocket is empty.

Now I recall my 3-step goal. I've done steps 1 and 2 in a previous dream, and I kick myself for not posting a new step 3 - I've never successfully banished something from a dream, and I'd intended to update it to something simpler. Oh well, I'll give it a shot. I look around for a good candidate and see some baby toys on my boss's desk, including a small blue tower filled with marble-sized balls and a couple of plastic keyrings. I decide to banish one of the keyrings. I turn around, concentrate hard on making it disappear, then turn back. They're still there, though I have the feeling the contents of the desk shifted slightly. I decide that trying to remove something when there are two of them is a bad idea. I decide to do the little tower instead, but I don't want clutter around it in case that makes it harder. I walk over and rearrange things, moving the tower to the center of her desk and leaving a large space around it. I face the wall, focus on making the tower disappear, and turn back. It's now a tiny fraction of its original size, but it's still there. I decide that if doing the behind-the-back trick won't work. I'll just forcibly will it out of existence. I stare at it, willing it to vanish, and it starts vibrating madly; then I wake up. I check for an FA, but I'm back in reality.


BTB @ 0445
Woke @ 0630 /w alarm


Fiddling with a Steam Controller
I've just received my new Steam Controller and I'm showing it off to my kids. I'd heard it was large, but it's much larger than I expected. I'm also a bit disappointed by its appearance: in photos, it was always a dark shiny black, but it's actually a kind of matte light gray. I take note of each of the inputs, noting that something right in the middle also seems off, though I can't put my finger on what's not right. To the left is the fake D-pad - I try it out, and it feels like a normal D-pad. I look again, and it's not circular but is actually D-pad shaped, and that confuses me. Right in the middle of the pad is a tiny clickable Steam button. There's a circular pad on the right and another one in the lower-right, partly on the grip. A trigger button just to the right of the D-pad surprises me - I have no idea how you could press it without really contorting your hand. Triggers are all over the back, both on the main body and on the grips. Now the D-pad has changed, and it's a large layout of tiny red thumbsticks laid out in a three-tiered pattern: the outer tier has them in up/down/left/right positions, the middle tier has them for diagonal movement, and the inner tier is back to up/down/left/right. I note something in the software controls which allows each thumbstick to function independently, or you can lock each one to send only the direction corresponding to its position (so the left stick could only send 'left,' no matter which way it was being pushed). So far, I haven't actually plugged the controller into my computer, but I do so now so that I can finish its configuration and give it a shot in a game.


Watching a skilled player
I'm watching someone playing a game. Right now, he's in some kind of top down view of what I assume to be the game's galaxy, showing many planets, solar systems, and other astral objects. His ship is just a tiny dot currently orbiting a planet. Now he's received a mission to deliver something quickly to another planet which is on the other side of the galaxy, and I'm curious to see how he'll manage it, whether he'll try to use any kind of subspace gate or some-such or whether he'll just fly there without using any shortcuts. There's a lot of movement of the planets and systems, and he brilliantly uses gravity assist after gravity assist to fling himself to the other side of the map faster than I ever thought possible.

Now the game has switched to 2D side-scrolling action. He's not strong enough to fight the enemies here, so he's just running to the right, jumping over enemies as he encounters them, never stopping his movement. Now he's reached the end of the level, and he's got quite the crowd of enemies following him. There's only one enemy left between him and his goal, and it instantly kills him. He's a bit disappointed, but he's not really concerned, saying he'll get it next time.


Mad scientists
I'm watching a scientist in a lab. He's recently been exposed to a mutagen and needs to focus to keep his body from 'pooling' - but despite his constant attention, his gut is still very distended. Now he's overheard a junior scientist talking about revealing what's going on to their superiors - who have been kept in the dark - so the scientist manages to expose him to the mutagen. His skin ends up turning red and bumpy all over, and another scientist starts to permanently close his mouth by fusing another mutagen-infected <something> onto his face. I'm horrified, but thankfully another scientist convinces him to pull it off before it's too late.


Another vacation
I'm strolling through a beach town with my family and in-laws.

Now we're at the vacation house. My father-in-law needs some kind of charger. I run through the list of what I have, and he says he's already got the right cable, so he just needs my charger with the standard female USB port.

Now we're watching video provided by our management company showing a family touring the duplex we have up for rent. I can't believe how much stuff is left over from the previous renters - we're going to have to get over there and deal with it ASAP. In particular, the living room is full of baby toys and baby furniture. Now I'm looking at an application from a lady who'd like to move in. It says that she's requesting assistance to pay the rent - I've never seen anything like that before, and I show it to my wife. Looking more closely, we see that she's requesting a 3rd party source to pay $90 of her monthly rent. As we continue to look at it, we realize that the listed monthly rent is wrong; it's currently listed at $600 which is way too low. I can't remember exactly what it should be, but I think it's somewhere in the $700 range. In fact, the management company controls the rent and recently bumped it up due to market conditions. I'm going to have to contact them to find out what's going on. I'm frustrated that we can't probably change it for people who have already put in applications, but they really need to fix it immediately before any more applications come in.


Watching kids
I'm helping watch some kids who are all fairly young; I don't know any of them. One of them in particular is poorly behaved and doesn't want to go to bed. We end up doing something weird with sofa cushions and his crib to make a bed that he's willing to sleep in, and we're very relieved when it actually works. Some of his siblings are in the same bedroom as he is, so it's important for him to sleep so that they can sleep too.

D1 - Staying in a vast room, it is the size of a warehouse with very heigh ceiling. The space is filled with mattresses, like minecraft blocks. I am most appropriately sleeping there.
I cannot get off to sleep however as there is a fox roaming about, also possibly some other creatures.
I decide I need to pee and get up and start climbing the mattresses to the other side, near the way in where I know there are some washing facilities.
Only trouble is when I get to the other side of the hill of mattresses I find a sharp slope, and I slip slide helplessly to a massive gap. A drop so far down , probably the equivalent of about five floors up but due to the fear invoked seems like bottomless.
I fall and fall and fall, I feel to my certain death. However my fall is broken by a metal grid to one side.
My leg is mashed and cut by the collision but my descent is slowed and I land in a crumpled heap unconscious.

WBTB

D2 - I am in a desert and am deciding what character I should be. I decide on a guy who is unshaven and wears a kind of a poncho, he is skilled in martial arts. I also need to collect a selection of people for my group. This process goes on and on as I make different selections.

D3 - I wake up in a sunny bedroom, the bedroom is shared with many children but is empty now. I move to the breakfast room, which has a massive (again lol) wooden table, filled with breakfast plates and bowls and loads of bacon and eggs and other foods. Only one child is there, she has blonde hair and wants me to eat but I am not hungry, in fact I feel nausea.
Outside in the garden, my father has a giant swimming pool and is filling it with water. In the dream my phobia of not being able to turn off water returns and I spend much time worried about this.

I thought my phobia had disappeared or weakened but it seems I may have somehow suppressed it?? Is that even possible with a phobia.