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Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

So this morning I had a magical dream at last. I usually dream about school or non-magical dreams, but I felt this was one of the best I have had in a long time.

I was in a field, similar to the one near a pond in my area. I was walking through it and saw a tree a couple of meters near the lake. I somehow got into a fight with this tree, I was determined to beat this tree for some odd reason. I was slicing the tree with an orange chainsaw, branch by branch, avoiding the attacks it made. The tree was gradually moving away from the water so I ran away from it and reached a small hill with a decent spot to hide in. I think I remember a fragment about a guy hiding in this particular spot. It was like a small crack in the hill, but wide enough for me to sit in. I then ran back to the tree and continued attacking the tree with the chainsaw. I then retreated back to the spot and watch the tree transform into a large stump. I was scared to go near the stump incase it attacked me. I then decided to go up and stab the tree with the chainsaw, but ran back for the third time. I watched it transform again, but this time into a floating tree. It was almost as if it was hanging from something. It was just under a meter from the ground and was longer than it was wide, but still smaller than the last two forms. I then saw the tree fall to the ground and transform a fourth time. It was similar to the stump, but had a red haired girl half in it. She was wearing green clothes and was not moving. For the last time, the tree transformed again, but back to the first form. There was a beautiful blue-haired girl half in it. She seemed alive and was welcoming me to talk to her. I walked over to her and noticed she had scaled clothes on. They were coloured with all sorts of nice colours, like cyan, light green and purple. She also had some of these colours in her hair to match her clothing. She looked like she could be a goddess or something. She made the tree disappear and I walked with her to the lake, where we sat down in the shallow water and observed the lake. I asked her if we should build a bridge across the lake. I said something like "Shall we build a bridge across there, then to the platform?". She replied with a nod. We then changed the topic and noticed a McDonalds appear on the left hand side. It was flooded from the lake and there were a few woman sweeping the water away. By this point, a guy had appeared left of me, but he was quiet and I didn't pay attention to him. We were discussing about working at this McDonalds, then the dream faded.

I loved this dream, it had many wierd things happen in it. First it seemed like I had to tame the tree in order to talk to the water spirit. The water spirit seemed hard to get, but she eventually came to me. I sure hope she is my dream guide, so great to look at . I have always been interested in water anyway, so it'd be a bonus. The other weird thing that happened was when I went to the spot where some guy hid before. It seemed so familiar when I woke up. Maybe the guy by the lake was him? That'd be really wierd. I mentioned in my workbook that the blue haired lady (the water spirit) was someone that I wanted to know more about. So from now on, she remains 2 titles. The blue haired lady and the water spirit. I also think that the tree abducted her and the other red haired girl was the wood spirit or something. But either way, it was great to have met this woman.

I fly along pleasantly with the dream until I saw a girl.

It's been a while, and yes, I've been slacking off.

Anywho, this first dream occurred two nights back. It was certainly interesting, and certainly enjoyable. Water seemed to be the main theme of it. It began with me starting to play some online flash game of some sort. It was for three players, and each got to be Tom & Jerry-esque characters, either a dog, a cat, or a mouse. I was a mouse, and the other two were the cat and the dog. The person playing the cat's voice was strikingly familiar, though I can't recall who. It was a strange, yet fun game where we'd be zooming through streets on miscellaneous objects, flying through pipes and construction sites. Things in the like. The part I remember most vividly is when we were on a board attached to a boat that was going considerably fast. We got pushed underwater, and were still on the board and attached as well. I saw many creatures that concerned me, having a strong fear of going underwater in the ocean. There was a sea turtle that was much larger than us, and it tried snapping us as we passed by. I then closed my eyes, and waited for use to reach the surface again. I don't remember much after that, besides me leaving the game and walking around, only to find an apartment where I could hear people mumbling about where the mouse went. The next part was strange, but very relaxing. We were at a concert, one that was much like "Woodstock", except we weren't in a field or a forest or anything. Instead, we were in tree-huts that were stationed in tropical palms. We stayed in these for a couple of days. The stage wasn't far off from our huts, quite nice of a distance, really. Each one of our huts had a title of sorts. Mine had to do with lizards and my mom's, who's hut was right next to mine, had to do something with houses. My brother's was farther off, and he kept making fun of the names of our huts, though the insults weren't quite clever. He said things like "You hear of cats and dogs, but never lizards!" which, I didn't take much offense to, really. We stood over the ocean in the day, a good 100 feet over it, and it never seemed to be sunny, but only cloudy, which is my visualization of paradise; a cloudy beach. From a small window in my hut, I could see large and lavish hotels with pools and quality service. I kept saying "That's a beautiful home." for some reason. When we were to sleep, for some reason our huts would move lower towards the ocean. My hut had a bit of water flooding into it, but I could still sleep on the ground, though I kept waking up in fear of this leopard shark that seemed to wander near our area. I never did hear a single band play though.

I'll try to be more consistent with these.

I've been lazy recently. I haven't done any reality checks and I'm just now getting back into doing dream recall (Along with my special dream listing method).

I have had a massive lack of DILDs and they have had poor lucidity. It doesn't even feel like a real lucid dream. I don't think this is what your average DILD is like, but that doesn't matter. I'd say it's time to move on to WILD.

I have done some weak attempts to do WILD, all of which failed. I'm usually a VERY patient person, but this seems to be an exception. I'm trying again tonight. I will have a WILD.

...I have a feeling tonight is going to be quite a WILD night.

Key:
{Curly brace & blue} .... Relevent waking life details before entry, if appropriate

Black .... Dream body/narative text

(Standard braces & dark green, bold) .... Dream notes, lucidity, time. method etc

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{This one is from last night.... 02 June 2012... Have posted an earlier fragment from same night}

(Lucid.... ??WILD with FA?? or WILD fail ---> DILD
Failed a WILD... I got to HI, visualised a scene of being at a fireworks display to have somewhere to goto
(Lots of the colour Orange and Yellow in the bonfire I imagined!!!)
but couldn't transition to full dream scene, gave up & went to sleep, ended up in DILD)

I’m in a mobile phone store (Orange), sat on a tall 'trendy stool' at a tall fake wood effect table.
The assistant (female, shoulder length natural blond) sat opposite me is pointing to important clause(s)
on the contract paperwork in front of me, and verbally stressing a few points
I'm not really reading the paperwork, instead I'm looking at the assistant, nodding my head, acknowledging what I'm being told... (shes pretty!! BTW)
I'm told the usual stuff about my talk plan.. Which I say I'm happy with, then ...
I'm told something about "blah blah blah section 921 of your agreement covers the Orange LUCIDITY subscription you've added, and how to access these services"
I said something like... "Yeah Yeah, I'm all OK with that... I think I know how it works, and what I'm doing..."
I laugh out load and say... "For all I know I could be dreaming right now"

I look down, and sign the paperwork... Then I try to REALLY read bits of it, but the words keep on 'evolving' and make no sense!! <LUCID>
(The feel of the stool I'm sat on, the table and the paper under my hands, and the warmth from the stores' pin-spot lights above me are my 'grounding points')
I look up again. The assistant doesn't acknowledge my 'I could be dreaming' comment, but instead tells me about
"ringing 921 from your handset for customer services"..
The assistant then gives me a copy of the paperwork and wishes me well in a "bye for now.. good luck" kind of way

I leave the store, and walk along the street a while. I walk along a normal street, then a tree lined avenue.
I find a bus stop, with four men and two women who are waiting at it...
... I decide it would be good to question them about dreams, and if they know they are in a dream...
... I talk to them for a while.. The different people have different 'individual' reactions...

A couple of them seemed hostile & annoyed that I suggested that "you are a figment of my imagination in a dream. You dont really exist"
... One tried changing the subject to his tropical fish?!?, the other hissed something about "Dealing with crazy people"
One of them blankly ignored me..
One of them thought it was funny, and laughed at it (but still evaded answering)
One of them acknowledged she was in a dream, but seemed more concerned what will happen to her when I wake..
One of them acknowledged he was in a dream, and he found it interesting... We engaged in a little conversation over it

I'm too busy chatting (& winding up) the DC's ... Soon it just goes fogs out to black

Ok I figured I would give y'all a bit of info about my dreaming styles and habits so that some of this made sense I plan on using this journal to recall some of the past dreams in my life stuff that just stuck with me plus new dreams
characters
the native american spirit I am going to start calling him helpful spirit since he has never given me a name. he first started coming to me in the first post but he continues to help me out though sometimes he comes when I am wide awake obes but with out sleep I probably wont post them here since they where not dreams I was not asleep I just couldnt move or talk so the only out of bodies I will post are dream related ones but he has been in both and I believe his warnings have saved my life a few times ..
My dead friends I probably will just put their names and a D at the end almost every friend has come to me in a dream after they have died I have had alot of friends pass away I used to travel alot and have always had friends much older than me so over time things happen
Names that sound like they shouldnt be names will be in here alot
types of dreams
Possible shared dreams will be noted I havent figured out how I will note them yet maybe just a psd sometimes I feel as if it was a shared dream even if I do not know the person I seem to feel different when I wake up from these dreams I have had others confirmed in the past .
healingpsd The majority of my shared dreams is to help people I havent gone into anyones dreams in a very long time It seems only when someone needs me I am able to be there witch is fine with me usually these dreams are someone random needing emotional support or advice ..
soul hug its when I hug someone in a shared dream its a healing process of helping someone or connecting to their soul and it is awesome..
I have a series of dreams that happen that I then see in real life I know they are called deja vu but I have allways called them the right track since they always give me enough to chose the correct path in life they started when I was 13
and of course theres everything else the random dreams witch fill most of my dream time lucid or not when I am lucid I let the dream lead me where ever and just enjoy the ride
Places
theres a few landscapes i have that always reapear
Austin tx its home so my dreams seem to know it
colorado woods usually around nederlands I did spend some time there but the dream one is very different I usually have my hippies in the woods dreams in this place and its usually got a lot of houses thena few stores then woods alot closer than they really are in real life
The house of many rooms its a maze its got elevators its got tunnels and basements stairs that lead in weird ways and a tunnel at the top that leads to the really scarey part of the house theres a hospital and offices in it and a fun house I have no clue why but its an odd house and usually its a dream trying to find my way out of it
The healing center it first appeared a while ago but it has since come a few times it has a house and a big drive way but I have only been in the playground on looking a lake i think
The house from my childhood we all have those dontt we ? this one was a trailer not in the best of shape
my house I try to not have dreams in my place but sometimes it happens I live in a travel trailer so its small i prefer to have dreams elsewhere
Congrats you just read all of this wow you must think I am nuts well your right but thats besides the point its my birthday be nice

Let my body rest till 5pm, rested at night, bed at sunset.

Sore body, rested a lot. Classroom.

Lucid|Non-Lucid|Side-Notes/Awake

I was recently prescribed a new medicine "Topamax" (Topiramate) for my migraines. I have read several different things about this, and nothing real specific about dreams. I read some people saying it causes weird and vivid dreams, while others say it completely gets rid of your dream recall. One of the nearly universal side-effects are memory loss, and trouble recalling certain words. So it seems like it would make lucid dreaming harder if it hurts your memory... I start on the lowest dose 25mg, which causes the least side effects, so thats not so bad.

I went to go pick up my prescription at the local pharmacy, and I decided to get some supplements while I was there. I picked up melatonin with B6 and B6 by itself. At home I have B12 and these daily vitamins with extra vitamins for energy. I think these are generic brand of "One-A-Day Energy" Anyways, they have the B vitamins, and some other stuff but also extended-release caffeine, which I think really helps with lucid dreaming. I also have vitamin B2 and Magnesium, but I take these daily anyways for my migraines. I decided to take all of these last night, not sure why, I guess I'm kind of scared of losing my recall, but I can't rely on supplements forever. Maybe I always wanted to try this, not sure.

Anyways, I swallow
9mg of melatonin
100mg of B6
100mcg of B12
100mg of magnesium (unrelated?)
100 mg of Riboflavin (B2)
200 mg of caffeine (ER)
+whatever else was in the vitamin

Unfortunately I do not remember any of these dreams, and I did not record them, ha.. But I do Know I had dreams, vivid dreams too. I actually woke up several times throughout the night feeling really empathetic and warm. I kept waking up being extremely in awe of my dreams but going back to sleep to soon... :C I wonder if this could be because of too much melatonin? maybe I shouldn't have used the caffeine? I also woke up about every hour, and I had mini dreams throughout the entire night, even outside of REM sleep, these were more like daydreams and were observable outside of SP, Maybe I was just delusional, I definitely felt like my new medicine could be making me feel a little bit foggy as well. I'm going to repeat This next night to see if I can record this time. Is there anything I can do different?

So I've been slacking ass, lately. Sorry about that. Trying to get back on my game. It's going to be a little much, going back and writing out all the details of these notes, so I may just leave these here for not. Might expand on them later, but I have to move forward...

Spoiler for NOTES:

02-08-2012
- Walking around a crowded house with my robe open, barely giving a fuck.
- Tomb/treasure hunting with some friends (some of whom I don't really know, like two Asian guys named Kyo and Aiko). Found a few shallow entrances to the tomb, but could only go so far. Room with scary-looking hole/abyss. Knew we were supposed to go down there, but didn't want to. Dropped something down there and it showed up on an (out of place) tech screen, breaking down it's make-up and functionality. Knew the only way forward was down there, but weren't sure if the abyss would kill us. Back on the surface, found A and K after we thought they were dead. Celebrated and then something was coming. Saw huge [mirror-mask bird thingies with no skin) walking about, so we had to get out of sight. Moving down dusty road, looking for another way into tomb or out of area, ground began moving. Hands and (undead) people beginning to reach us to pull us down. Grabbed one of the asian kids and pulled him under. I was close enough toa motorcycle to grab it and move through the muck. Grabbed the girl, who might have been MJ and moved her around to safety. Could tell something huge was following. Went back to see if kid was still alive. Humanoids were too close and he was gone. Turned back around to get back to girl withthese things gaining on me. Huge hole in earth now, between girl and I. Drove over to the side and jumped off bike as it was swallowed. Landed on ledge and shimmied across hole. Celebrated with girl and another guy from our group.

02/09/2012
- Batman styled dream. Fighting a buch of dudes out near the water. All fell into water and were fighting down there. Realized that I could breathe underwater and was dreaming. Started getting upperhand on them and drowning them. Came to the surface and showed them they couldn't beat me and that I was dreaming by levitating on top of the water. One guy said that was impossible. Later. Face-off with Joker that was like Batman Beyond vs Joker where I was up in the rafters and fucking with his head.
- Battle against the scarecrow, where my identity as Wayne was basically being exposed by run-ins with demons from his/my past. Don't remember much of this one, though.

02/10/2012
- Death of Batman. This time I was one of the goons, and Batman was following us. He was tryin to be discrete, but we'd sometimes see his ears and cape poking out from behind objects. At the end, there was a bit of a fight. I was taken down, and Bats was leaning over me when the Joker came up behind him and shot him in the back of the head.

02/15/2012
- *Incubated with Skyrim* Was in a snowy, medeival area at first, and a town was being tormented by a witch/goddess of some kind. She was able to grow into a 50foot-ish colossus. Fight with her that, at first I didn't remember. Chased her/tracked her to a cliff where she disappeared beyond the whiteout of the blizard and would not come back into view to face us, obviously on the run. Finally, when she wouldn't come out, and beginning to get a bit of lucidity, I jumped into the flurry and fell/flew through the snow, uncertain, but unafraid of where I would end up. Emerged in a more modern building somehow. Had a one on one with her. I would be on the run through this glass corridors and walls, and she would just come smashing through them in her giant form, with her enormous sword. Regaining lucidity, the last thing I remember is catching her sword between my fingers (wondering whether or not it was going to hurt because I was dreaming) and snapping my hand down to one side, disarming her and slamming her sword down onto the ground. I was about to unleash on her when I woke up.

02/17/2012
- Playing what seemed like third wheel to a guy that was trying to hook up with some girl.

02/19/2012
- Hanging with MJ and we were at a job or something. Powerful lady walks in and tries to blackmail MJ with something. MJ made her look like a fool, though, and called in the person that was being spoken about and straightened things out. I might have been playing the part of a girlfriend of hers or something? I dunno.

02/22/2012
- Moving through haunted house with CJ and holding her. Escaping through sewer that ran under haunted house. Being chased by some group. Ran to military base to seek help. Like a campus. Later, was dealing with some bully by bullying back.
- Something about a dog that walked around on two legs.

02/23/2012
- Was hanging out with a bunch of friends and a chick on some lawn chairs. Ended up getting wasted and was told by the others that the girl and I had wild sex and had flipped over chairs and whatnot. Later, doing acrobatics off of a huge slide. I believe Geoff was there. Would run from a distance and up the front of the slide and then flip off with a trick. Told them I would be doing a flip with half twist.
- Dream about my cellphone having been sitting on the dining table and then having just jumped off by itself, when I was in the next room, and shattered on the ground. Then I was telling someone about it - maybe MJ - and she didn't believe that it just jumped off by itself. I felt like the house was haunted. (I also woke up to my phone malfunctioning.)
- Checking out a pic of someone online, while at work, and unintentionally pulling up porn.

02-25-2012
- Trifling bi0tch. Trying to get me pinned as bad father. Called her on it
she had a field day. In a classrooom with the others. Some beligerent
dude coming around to fight. We got into it and I took him out
Later, at Dan's house. CJ talking back to me sarcastically. Straightened
her out. More drama with the friend and Dan involved this time.

02-27-2012
- Hidden living area up in a tree.
- Cierra suggesting that she knew I smoked MJ, when I said I don't smoke anymore.

03/05/2012
- Standing up on passenger seat of convertible shooting energy blasts at pursuing monsters and mages.
- Cats attacking me and clawing and biting my hands, because I wouldn't pet them anymore. (B6)

03/06/2012
- Exploring house as a woman. House was haunted and had all types of ghouls coming after me. Lucid. Wasn't afraid of them, and made short work. Vampires I think, at one point? Remember impaling them with something as they stalked me.

03/11/2012
- I was Batman, and having a romantic episode with Talia. She was trying to convince me to quit being Batman. I'd gotten really fucked up during a fight, and she became upset when she hears of my injuries. With me out of the way, she set out to finish fighting.
- In my neighborhood, being chased by wrecker truck. Cornered me on a porch and I became lucid. Went out to confront driver and woke up.

03/12/2012
- Fun with some chick. Can't remember who. Also being chased down a hall by some huge creature with an aversion to certain sounds. Held him off with a tuning fork but had to jump out a window when he got too close.

03/13/2012
- Awesome race against Todd. Like SSX on foot in that there were different paths to take and we had wingsuits that could help us across gaps. Running through peoples' yards and on an El-Train.
- Homoerotic snippet of Jackie and Chris from Rush Hour about to spar each other and plopped on a couch taking their business suits off and staring into each others eyes, smiling. It was wierd. Was watching it with someone and we were both kind of WTF?
- Picking up CJ somewhere in mom's car, and she not noticing me at first.

03/14/2012
- Girl I knew was some kind of famous fighter. We ended up havin to fight wood-elves in a store of somekind, and I believe she was one of them. We had a war using slingshots against their arrows.

03/30/2012
- Battling giant robots with friends. Lucid. Finally dispatched one in blaze of fire. Then bigger robot came up out of the flames. Tried to hit my friend and I stepped in and blocked with a metallic hand of my own. Kamehameha at one of my enemies. Also race against other characters. Team race. Some people from work. I think weapons involved. I remember jumping over desks and whatnot to advance on the person I was chasing. Robot fight through movie theater or something as well.

04/11/2012
- Final destination type deaths. I remember being eaten alive by animals and having my chest blown open. Others were dying in similar fashion. One guy shot through streets as some kind of projectile and slammed up against a wall, killing him. Turned out to be some kind of conspiracy being controlled by some type of faction. I eventually became lucid and started taking them all on.

04/15/2012
- On a campus and running late for school/work. Kept checking the clock but it was moving really slowly. I was looking to change majors to psychology I believe.

04/19/2012
- Was with GV again I think. Something about Nazis, or a faction like them. I got lucid for a while. Huge war scene. I was firing from invisible rocket launcher and things. Giant creature attempting to eat me.By the end I had many of my enemies cheering me own to take down the syndicate.

04-24-2012
- Cj not listening to anything and being very defiant to the point of enraging me. Lying and refusing to do anything. Pinching her to get responses at times.
- Fighting guys on castle at night. Huge bird came in and devoured one just leaving endtrails. Fleeing enemy with sword. Forced off of balcony. Huge fall with pain but lived.

04-25-2012
- At Winn-Dixie with dad. Working on car or truck with hood up. Had bag of bud. Suddenly surprise sting operation by cops. Whole lot was locked down. Guns and all. Thought they were there for us because of weed. Had to hide it so they wouldn't find it. Dad passed to me and I rolled it up in a shirt, trying not to make the celophane too loud.

05-01-2012
- Event downtown or something. Friends and theme park atmosphere. Went around exploring. Later, crazy stuff happening. Scary section of park. Huge Bahamut dragon thing. Lucid and egged him on. Fought for a bit and jumped from cliff. Later, back around near scary castle or something. First, I fought someone in the street with fire blast, and then remember telling someone about it, later. Then, actually inside the castle, I was walking passed a door. I saw a friend get mesmirized and doubled back looked through hole again. Some sort of magic had taken hold, and I watched her age rapidly. I tried to pull away from the scene, but I felt and unseen force pulling me toward the room and toward her. I remember telling my friends the story later. Afterward, we went downtown, and it looked like the city was literally on fire. Come to find out, it was a theme park attraction to celebrate The Dark Knight Returns, and they had a prop city up that was burning.

05-05-2012
- Epic war. Powers and whatnot. Caught a missile and threw it at nearby enemy robot thing.Walking on water to get back over to ship. Fighting Darth Vader-like villain. Slight wall run. Flying with Hulk bounding up and down beside us.


05-08-2012
- Chased through gator infested, flooded slum. Something to do with
getting close to tribe leader's woman. Ran to entrance but was blocked
off in a cell. Later things were normal. A bit calmer as I was bargained
for by people (the woman I think). She as beautiful and fun.

05-09-2012
House full of family and kids. Drinking and had to work on roof (to find 'animal' that had ben running around up there). Kids watching me. one seemed infatuated. MJ was there. I was asking about her birthday. She was coming onto me because I cared. Told me to hook up later. Went to sleep. Woke up nude and kids in room trying to pull my blanket off. Ran them out and parents came in accusing me of messing with them. Aunt P got biblical on me and one of the mom's came in and we went back and forth while I pleaded to her that I have no idea what she's talking about.

05-11-2012
Real close with GV. Sex I believe. Went to theme park afterward. Riding rail type of ride. Saw guy dive across a passing coaster with a baby in his hand, fallng down to a lower level but saving both of them. After that, everything started malfunctioning - rail cars running into each other; flamethrower on passing car; people falling; etc. Crash at the end where we rolled out as car crashed. Later, in field with armed guards. Forcing us to chew something like tobacco and then they were going to take us somewhere as some kind of experiment or something. Walking toward a tornado in the background, by their orders.

05-20-2012
Superman teamed up with the Avengers. He was extremely over-powerful and badass. I remember being him at one point. In outer space. Slinging punches at these asteroid type things that were coming in from all directions. Would hit them and then would see the ghostly face of some huge, cosmic creature wince in pain with each hit.

[Edit: I think I may also use this post for new notes that I haven't expanded yet, just as a placeholder so I can move my notes back and forth online a bit easier.

Spoiler for New, to-be-expanded notes:

07-11-2012 - Trapped in some sort of 'time distorting' cabin, with someone I'm not too sure I was friends with. The longer we stayed in there (usually arguing or fighting) the more days and weeks passed by in real life, where we were starving and constantly injuring ourselves. Basically dying. Finally figured it out and was able to break the 'spell', just before we were completely dead. Escaped.

I'm walking on the street to some sort of ball or festival dance or something. My best friend is with me. I notice that all the girls around us are wearing long pretty dresses, but my BFF is wearing dress pants and I'm wearing a mini skirt and tank top. We don't fit in at all. To make it even more obvious that we don't fit in, all the other girls are wearing these bright neon pins in the shapes of butterflies and dragon flies on big bows. I decide I want one of those pins because the tank top I'm wearing is white with neon colored butterflies. I Pull my BFF to this little store beside the road where I think I can buy them. The store is up on a hill, so we had to walk up the driveway/parking lot to get to it. I walk in and start holding bows with butterflies up to my dress to see how they look. I settle on a pretty pink one, and then discover that it's not a pin, but a hair bow on a clip. At first I try to clip it to my spaghetti strap, but then I decide to put it in my hair where it belongs. I turn around and there's a long mirror behind us so I start trying to put it in my hair. I start marveling over how pretty and long my hair is. It's straight and halfway down my back. In real life my hair is short and very naturally curly, when it's as long as half down my back it curls so much that it barely grazes my shoulder. Anyways, I start wondering why I didn't grow my hair out this long sooner, then I remember that I've been trying to grow my hair out. It's just that my hair doesn't grow that fast! This has to be a dream! I immediately drop the hair bow and walk out the door. My bff follows me and asks what's wrong. I tell her I'm dreaming, and I'm lucid right now! I tell her to call Kurasawa for me and tell him to meet me in a little gypsy like tent nearby that looks like something a palm reader would be working out of. Then I walk off and leave her b/c dream character Ambies isn't the real thing and I didn't want to waste my time with her. I walk over to the tent, and find that it's got a fire inside of it, and it's not really a tent at all, but some sort of decorative fireplace that only looked like a tent from the distance. I feel kind of disappointed, but there's a building nearby and I think I can go in there to wait. At this point I lose my lucidity though I see my husband inside and he wants me to go somewhere or do something, and I tell him I can't because I'm waiting for Kurasawa. He gets all mad and jealous about the fact that I'm waiting for some other guy, and then I can't remember the rest of what happened.

Yay for lucidity though! lol I'm noticing I can't stand being inside when I find that I'm lucid. I guess since that second lucid I had where I was trapped inside and couldn't open doors because I was afraid they would be locked. Now I feel like every time I'm lucid I have to go outside to do anything, or else I'll be trapped inside in a "normal" world. Every lucid I've had in the last month has been like, "Yay! I'm dreaming!" *walk to the door* I might make it a goal to stay INSIDE during a lucid to break that habit and train myself to be comfortable with my lucidity where ever I am.

Black means non lucid
Orange means semi lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream characters talking
Purple means possible shared dreaming person
Green means notes


Got it? Great! Now enjoy reading my dreams.


Ok, now it seems that i've gotten back into the swing of things with this dream of mine. Although, if i get called on a new job opportunity soon, that may reduce my chances of dreaming like i use too. Soo, what i am going to do is, try and do weekend dreaming.

I'll just save my dreams onto my computer file, and post them whenever i can. Been doing more reality checks with my totem too, so it has appeared quite a few times in my dream i had. Looks like im back on board...for now that is.

Lol, ok enough talking..here are my dreams!


Dream #1 Making moves.

Spoiler for Theme Of The Dream:

Im in my 2nd home packing up some items in my suitcase. I notice that i see my hawk coin totem on the kitchen counter and put it in my pocket. (What a missed reality check there) I go to the den and start putting some clothes in the suitcase, and trying to hurry up. I go back into my room and my celphone rings and its Natalia. She tells me..

(Natalia talking)

"Don't forget to stop at your 1st home, we need those files."
I tell her ok, and start looking around to see if im forgetting anything. I hear a cab blowing outside of my house, and head out the door with my suitcase.


Dream #2 How to take care of business.

Im in a hotel projected as Natalie Raitano for some reason. Its night time, and im holding a guy off of the edge of a balcony telling him to give me all of the information, or else i will drop him. The guy is screaming and yelling as im holding him by his ankles. I notice Blaze is with me too. She says something about we can always moniter his calls or something like that.

"Oh yea, that is true huh?"
We pull the man up and i grab him by his collar and tell him to make the call now. He starts calling someone, and thats all i remember there.



Dream #3 Getting closer.

Im still projected as Natalie Raitano, and im creeping thru a long hallway.

There are corners that i stop at, and peep around while holding a silencer. I see a few men waiting by different doors and i shoot at each one of them. I now make my way thru one of the doors, and find a huge table with a list of names on it. I become lucid right here though only briefly, a man enters the door and asks me if i can help him search for someone. I told him who was it, and he mentioned his daughter. I leave the room and ended up walking with this old man, and started losing lucidity here. The man starts talking about how he wishes he could go fishing, or some shit like that..and i ended up waking up because of that.


Dream #4 Top Secret.

Im in a room with this dude in a dim lit room, and he starts telling me stuff about the goverment is out to get him. I try and tell him to relax and not be so paranoid, but he says that it is true and wants to show me something. We head downstairs to this basement and there are a bunch of people in capsules, and people hooked up to machines and shit.
I become lucid seeing all of this, and reach in my pocket staring at everthing and rubbing my hawk coin totem. I asked the guy what was his name and he told me he wishes to remain anonymous due to potential possiblities of him being watched or something like that. I then ask him..

"So how did we find eachother?"

"Na bro, you found me!"
I start becoming even more lucid to the point i began talking with him about stuff like wars, and poverty, and religion. He starts telling me that its all a set up from the jump or something like that, and that he only wishes that more people would wake up. I asked him how can i find him again and he says..

"Shit, you the dream navigator. I don't know how to navigate dreams like that man."
"How did you know that about me?"
"Cause they told me about you."
"Who?"

The door upstairs is kicked in and he starts talking to me in code, and giving me certain numbers if i ever need to look for him again or something like that. I try and repeat the numbers, but he insists that we will meet again. He tells me to keep teaching people thru their dreams so we can build our nation back to the way it use to be and to be safe. He sits in a chair, and straps himself in with a device hooked up to him, and dissapears.
I hear men upstairs talking and footsteps coming towards the upstairs basement door.
I start running thru the basement looking for a way out, but find no exit. I decide to fall backwards.



False awakening


I wake up in my 2nd home on the basement couch, and trying to remember the last dream i had. It hits me..I don't live here anymore, ans i better wake up before i forget the rest of the dream. I wake up for real, and record the dream.



Final dream. Building a team.

Im in my 2nd home in the basement talking to a bunch of different people about dreams. (Don't become semi lucid or lucid) I start handed out totems to everybody and giving each of them a homework assignment on reality checks with their totems. Thats all i remember and wake up.

I went to bed around 12am. I was slightly sleep deprived from previous night. Last meal was at 7pm

Last Dream before waking. Around 9:40 am.
I was around a market area and zombies were roaming. I had to find a car to drive so we searched for proper cars to use. I think a dude from school was there and some more people. I noticed I was dreaming so I looked at my feet to increase lucidity. I remembered some of my dream goals so I accomplished two on the spot. I levitated and teleported a short distance within my view.

I was then teleoported to a school area where I saw a lot of people who I at one point went to school with. I saw a room with some girls in it. I told everyone except one girl to leave. She did not want to stay but another girl who I could of hooked up with back in high school did. So I I grabbed her and we left the building. I asked her what she wanted to do. She said fly and so I grabbed her and we took flight. I could not fly that far so i eneded up decending to the ground. I took off again and this time we ended up in albercoucie new mexico. We went through a rich neighborhood/ school area. We explored a large building. After a bit, eventually I told her I had to leave her because I had to do some dream exploration on my own. I went into a back laundry room and tried to close the door. She wanted me to hug her before I left so I did and she was really sad. Then I closed the door again. This time I decided to accomplish another objective which was to hit up a previously decided building. I had somehthing in my hand and I used it to draw a portal on a door.I drew a portal and I wrote the name of the building which was my creation. I the walked through it newly created portal. There was a small transition period sort of like a click. I then ended up in the building which was modeled after my grand parents house. (Check notes at bottom for explanation of this.)
I awoke shortly after exploring the building.

****Side Notes
-From what I can see, my subby needed to create a building that had many rooms. My grandparents house was a house that had many rooms that I was familiar with. Hence my grandparents house was created.
-I will in the future create or find and familiarize myself with the appearance structure and lay out of buildings which I want to modify or use for a purpose beforehand so that they can better suit my needs.
-I should better assess and figure out my best time period for going lucid
+This morning it was about 9hrs after I went to bed


****Goals accomplished
-Go Lucid
-Hover
-Fly
-Teleport short distance(within site)
-Create a portal
-Visit a place of my choosing

Don't think I was lucid, rested well 10 hours.
I've been tiring with practice everyday, so not too much recall.

~~~~~~~~~~~~Game is at 6pm vs Blue~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(edit: ) We lost 6-10.

Black means non lucid
Orange means semi lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream characters talking
Purple means possible shared dreaming person
Green means notes
　
Got it? Great! Now enjoy reading my dreams.
　
Well i have not been dreaming my usual epicness like i use too. Soo i certainly can say that it is my own damn fault. I have not been doing any reality checks, work is starting to take a toll, and summer here in Michigan, is just making it more and more difficult for me to really focus on dreaming. I am not going to complain though, because anyone who knows me personally, knows i am not a complainer. So on that note, i have to start back reality checking more with my totem, and by doing more subconscious training thruout the day and nighttime hours too. I hope that you enjoy them anyway, even though they are not my usual epic dreams.
　
Dream #1 Naked and writing in my dream records.

Im in my current home, upstairs in my room writing something down in my dream records. I noticed that i am ass naked, but don't seem to reallly question anything about it at that paticular moment.
　


Dream #2 Kidnapped, by goons

Im in the back seat of a car riding with some arabs. A car pulls up and starts shooting at the windshield of this car im in. The driver, and the guy in the passenger seat get shot. The back door opens, and i am now fighting off these men. I get beat up pretty bad, and end up being dragged off into another car.
　


Dream #3 Tell us what you know!

Im handcuffed in a chair, in this room surrounded by a bunch of arab men wearing long robes and scarfs, and holding guns. And this Arab guy a walks up to me and grabs my face and looks directly in my eyes and says..

"Do you know who i am? Because i could kill you right now with the snap of my finger."

"Fuck you! And you will be sorry you ever.."

(He smacks me and is gripping my hair holding a knife to my throat)

Im breathing heavy at this point fearing what could happen to me. He starts asking me questions about missing people, and what do i know about a missing girl or something like that. Another guy nearby tries talking to him, and calming him down and telling him that maybe i really don't know anything, and he could possibly have the wrong person. So im now battered and brusied up, bleeding and just resting my chin near my chest. That dream ends, and i wake up to record it.
　


Dream #4 Talking about dreams with a woman in my bedroom.

Im laying in bed with this hot supermodel looking chick who reminds me of Gisele Bundchen.

We were not having sex or anything, we were just in bed cuddled up talking about dreams and stuff. She gets out of bed and walks over to the window and stares out the window glancing at the night skies. She mentions something to me about wanting to fly up to the moon one night when she becomes lucid. I mentioned to her that in dreams anything is possible, and she can surely do anthing once she truly believes in it. I don't really remember much here except me and her were downstairs trying to look for some tea that i had, that gives you lucid dreams.


Final Dream. The dancer who calls herself Rosa.

Im in a temple, surrounded by beautiful Gypsies, and belly dancers. This woman who had a look similiar to the woman in the picture, walked up to me and begin telling me that she would like to dance with me. I stand there just admiring her seductive look, and glancing at her piercing glowing shimmering cat like green eyes. She shakes her hips with the sounds of tambourines and tabla drums beating in the background. She is dancing barefoot, and is moving very erotic to me. I get closer to her as she grinds out of control on me! I literally was feeling closer to a climax, but kept cool and just enjoyed the dance from her.

Afterwards, she mentions if i ever want to come see her again, her name is Rosa.