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non-dream - non-lucid - lucid

03-07-11 I slid out of bed during WILD attempt and knew I was dreaming as I never lost consciousness. When I feel a tingle down my right arm I recognise it as paralysis. I start experimenting. I start off by being able to move a phantom arm outside my normal arm and then things pick up speed as I rotate within my body. After this I slide out of the bed somewhat falling somewhat levitating.

My room had a wall where the windows normally are and there were two tellies. Another difference is that there is a guitar hanging above the computer table accompanied by some strange decorations. I start falling through the floor and my breathing is impaired, which frightens me a bit. Although I am fully separated from my physical body location wise I can still feel my breathing and I draw in a deep breath. I decide to brave it and although the image is fading I shout out “I want to remain lucid” (I actually scream this in English though it is a second language). At first my voice is blurry and I am having trouble getting the words out. This isn't new to me however so I scream it again and again. Might do it 4 times in total. As the dream stabilise a bit I notice it is sunny outside so I go towards the window intending to find Mitzu (to clarify if that yellow eyed man eater is actually my dream guide). I start calling her name and start flying through the window. For a brief second I expect problems with the window, but to my surprise I manage to go through it with no issues, however it is as if I am looking from inside the glass for a substantial amount of time, which distorts my vision a bit blurring things. My flight is working fine and as I look down I notice a lot of clutter on the terrace below, some of it is plants the rest I don't figure out in time as the dream ends.

Notes: This was an unintentional WILD. I had tried for an hour before with no success after 2-3 hours of pre-sleep. Think I was too caught up in awareness when I compare the first try with this. Second time I kept sorta singing the Hakuna Matata (LK-WILD FTW!! ^^) mantra as I really wanted to rest, seeing I am ill and all. There were some few spontaneous breath focusing when I saw HHs, but very limited awareness compared to the almost meditative states I experienced before. This mini-awareness was enough for me to recognise though when SP kicked in and I just went for it.

I decided to try a real WILD while the kid was napping. I used reverse blinking to help me relax and focused on my breathing, repeating the mantra, "I am lucid, The world is vivid." I could feel my body twitching but I don't remember transitioning into the dream. I was suddenly aware that I was showing my hubby an online video of some cute little babies. There were three babies and they were playing, then I realized that they were in a house that looked a lot like mine. I thought maybe they just live in a similar trailer (I mean mobile homes mostly have the same layout). Then I noticed the couch in the video was the EXACT same. I was starting to freak out a little, thinking I had been sent a video from the future. I started to awaken and before I opened my eyes realized that I was just tricked by the dream.

I opened my eyes for just a sec and closed them again, hoping to DEILD, if that's the right term for it. Soon after I was in another dream and I was sitting on the floor by the bookshelf. My son was asleep and my inlaws were at my house. They were acting strange towards me and I realized I had no shirt on, only my shorts and my bra. I felt embarassed and told them sorry over and over that I hadn't realized I had taken my shirt off. They laughed at me and again I started to wake up and realized I was dreaming when it was too late. =/

Then my son woke up, lol.

I dreamt about waking up at 11:45 (and had to be at my work at 12:00) so I panicced around, trying to make someone take my shift, but couldn't. I couldn't get on the bus in time either.
Today I actually had to go to work at 12:00, but I woke up in time luckily :-)

Then later i dreamt about finding a maggot infested body in the woods. Not sure if it's a part of the other dream.
More detailed; I walked on a trampled path in a field of tall grass, showing a person where the body was. We moved some planks with nettles, and found a supposed old, rotten and dead woman with a coat on and a massive bulge on her back. Maggots, flies and leeches were crawling all over her. The person I showed her to, lifted her up and walked away with her.



Side notes: It seems that lately, I've been dreaming about stuff that could happen/go wrong the next day if I've been nervous about it.
Another example is that the day before my oral english exam, I dreamt that I went through alot of awkward trouble and turned up 15 minutes late for it. Very related to this. I should start doing reality checks every time something goes wrong (I'm clumsy).

I'm back, and hopefully for a while! With the difficulties of school and busy schedules, I think I lost interest in lucid dreaming last year, but I was thinking the summer would be the perfect opportunity to build up recall and maybe start having lucid dreams again! Anyhow, I read through my dream journal last night, and did a sorta WBTB, and ended up having a couple fairly vivid dreams, the latter of which SHOULD have been lucid, had I been paying enough attention. Also, I failed to write my first dream down, so now I barely remember any of it. Oh well, you win some and lose some.

Alaska Cruise (Fragment)

At 6:00 AM, I'm pretty sure I could have gotten a good couple of paragraphs out of this one, but by now... not so much. Basically, I was on a cruise from Vancouver up the coast of Canada and to Alaska with my family. I think I was looking for someone, or exploring the ship for some reason quite a bit, but other than that, I don't recall much.

Pulled Over

This one was a little more bizarre in some ways, and I really should have realized it was a dream. I was at a party, and decided to go ahead and go home early. After saying goodbye to my parents, I started to drive back. After leaving the house, which now that I think about it was more like a small mansion, I began to drive past a small suburb in a valley. The road was one way only (or at least without any yellow lines) and was built into the side of a steep hill. To the left was a decently sized group of houses, small stores, and other assorted buildings. As I drove, I was talking to my dad on the phone (talking on the phone while driving being something I'm sort of uncomfortable with still) who was telling me to come back to the party and help clean up. I told him I needed to pay attention to the road and would call him back, before I broke through a fence into a small industrial/factory area.

This is where it gets a little weird. It's a decent drop, maybe 6 feet or so, but it feels longer, and a lot bumpier. I try to regain control after landing, swerving a few times and dropping down some other small hills, before finally turning myself around and pulling the car back onto the road. At the same time, I find a gun in my car and decide to reload it (???), and when I notice a lever outside the factory I pull that too. No idea what it actually did, though. Anyways, as I pull up onto the road, a cop is driving by, and I accidentally run into them. Predictably, they pull me over, but somehow the scene shifts back to my bedroom.

At this point, the cop is interrogating me about why I had a gun (no idea), why I was driving so crazily (talking on the phone), and why I would decide to pull a random lever on the side of the road. At this point, I express the thought that I might even be dreaming, and ask the cop to hit me to make sure. He does, and then I slap my own hand, but I think I feel pain so I decide it isn't a dream. (Stupid stupid reality test! I know better than that! >_<). My dad walks into the room at this point, and says something along the lines of, "What have you done?" I explain that I was pulled over, then the scene shifts again.

Finally, we end up in the hallway outside of my bedroom. The cop is testing me to see if I've learned my lesson. He places a red, then a green lever in front of me. When I refuse to pull them, he seems satisfied, because I shouldn't pull a lever unless I know what it does. He turns the green lever around, and tells me that if I had pulled it I would have contracted a deadly Elephant STD. (Crazy brain. ) At this point, the dream ends.

I woke up, and was all, "See, I knew it was a dream!" I was more relieved that it wasn't real than disappointed in myself for not realizing that it wasn't.

NOTE: this is not actually a dream, this is what happened to me as I was falling asleep last night, so I guess the closest It would be would be hypogogaic (spelling?) imagery.

While I was falling asleep, I felt as if I had some energy blockages that would prevent me from reaching the town of Denn in my dreams, so I decided to investigate. I turned my mind's eye inward to examine the source. there appeared to be a relatively large monster blocking a portal or an opening of some kind. It realized I had noticed it and took a combative stance. I was in reploid form, because I had planned on visiting Denn. I charged in and slew it with a bit of effort with my energy blade. Then, seemingly out of nowhere, smaller enemies started appearing, they seemed to be shadows of some kind. again, I attempted to slay them with my energy blade, but their wounds would regenerate instantaneously, and there were a lot of them. they begun clinging to me, latching on with some sort of bear hug. I carved and slashed, but it was ineffective. I returned my attention to my physical body, still vaguely aware of the internal struggle. then I got an idea. I focused some energy, and siphoned it to my mind's eye body (i guess that's what you would call it). I used the energy to create a ball of light above me before they were able to suck the new energy out. they turned to ash. I tried eating the ash, but it was tasteless and dry... gross. I spat it out and willed it into the portal/hole thing in the wall that was being guarded. I immediately regretted this decision, as I felt it run down my spine, it was a very creepy sensation.

Unfortunately I have no dream recall from last night, so I'm not sure if I actually was able to visit and defend Denn or not.

Type: Lucid, Fragment
Vivid: Short

Notes: I haven't been active for a while but now I guess I'm back

Fragment 1: I was standing outside my house with my friend and a gigant teddybear. I don't remember what I was doing but I remember that I suddenly thought; "Wait a minut, I had a dream about this teddybear before". So I checked if my hand looked normal, and noticed that my hand was kind of shimery. I was not sure what that meant, so I plugged my nose and tried to breath. I could feel the air running through my nose, and I started to scream; "I'm dreaming, I'm dreaming"! I wanted to try to teleport myself to another location, so I tried to think about the location

Fragment 2: I was in the location I thought about (I think.) Something happens but I dont remember what. I wake up

June 30th, 5:43 PM

So, I tried having a lucid again. I knew I would not be successful, as I can tell this takes a lot of hard work. But now after spending some time in the Newbie Zone, I learned HOW to make an entry to my dream journal (not this one, the one where I actually write stuff on paper)

Instead of: nothing Happened, I can say: I do not remember my dream today, but I feel awfully tired.

I need to say how I am feeling after, what I can remember or what the main subject was about (if I cant remember anything else). Even "cats" will do, according to the newbie zone helpers.

Anyways, Im probably going to bed not expecting to have a lucid, yet expecting to have a dream that I can still feel when I wake up. As some say, failure is better than no result at all.

#1: We were robbing the moon and putting it in a carboard box.

#2: I attempted to WILD, but I got caught out and lost awareness upon entry.

June 29, 9:44 PM

I have read many articles now about Lucid Dreaming, and I believe that will help me to have a lucid. I have many doubts on what I would do if i had a lucid, yet I must not give in to those doubts. I learned that you must stabilize your dream and do a reality check whenever you are in a new dream. I will try to appeal to all my senses before going around and see what I can do. I am very excited about this, because I have never had a lucid where I could remember my senses and how it felt when I woke up. I will make sure to write everything down after my dream, specially details and sensory details.

I hope I can have a lucid in less than 2 weeks, seeing I am excited as I could be. I will try many methods, but my first one will be DILD.

Wish me luck

Joseph

June 29, 2:28 PM

So I have tried to LD yesterday, with no luck. I have been going over what I did wrong, and I think I know what it is. First, I fapped twice that day (lmao). I also did not sleep in my regular schedule, instead of sleeping by 4 AM I slept at 1 AM, possibly making me not as tired. I was also confused whether to doe a MILD or a WILD, and I kind of went with both. I am still experimenting with both, and if I do not have a lucid dream in a month, I will confirm that I am not a person of dreams.

I had a mild dream, but not lucid. I was in a poll, kinda like in TV shows. I had a number 4 on my screen thing, and I was very sad. That is all I remember

Maybe I need to do more reality checks, or dream more relaxed/without fapping.

It is only day 1, but I am more excited than ever to make this work. I will keep trying and learn from my failures.

Peace

This is my lucid count since I started practicing lucid dreaming. It's not meant for bragging, but only so that I can see my own progress. Now if you guys want it to be anything at all, then see it as encouragement. This is proof that persistance and dedication pays off.

I took a whole month off last july and a few slacker months during that summer. It's not until late that it has picked up alot, and mostly it's because I'm starting to learn how to DEILD.

2010

January: 1 Day, 1 LD
February: 3 Days, 3 LD's
March: 3 Days, 3 LD's
April: 1 Day, 1 LD
May: 6 Days, 6 LD's
June: 3 Days, 3 LD's
July: 3 Days, 4 LD's
August : 2 Days, 4 LD's
September: 5 Days, 5 LD's - Joined DV
October: 4 Days, 4 LD's
November: 3 Days, 4 LD's
December: 5 Days, 6 LD's

Total 2010: 44 lucid dreams.

2011

January: 7 Days, 8 LD's
February: 6 Days, 6 LD's
March: 7 Days, 7 LD's
April: 7 Days, 11 LD's
May: 8 Days, 10 LD's
June: 9 Days, 13 LD's
July: 8 Days 9 LD's
August: 6 Days 7 LD's

Total 2011 so far: 71 lucid dreams. (30/08/2011)

These are all lucids I have on record. Most of them achieved by MILD but also DILD and DEILD. Only a few were WILD's.

I remebered no dreams last night

I slept from 10:00 - 2:00 & 4:00-7:00

The milkman drove past at 3:59.

Inner Awareness
melancholy
time speed
Feeling of rejection
Feeling of Separation
Depression
quest/mission


Action
flying
hostage
physical attack
Fight (I rarely do)
Magic - 2
Quest (my life is far less exciting than that right now)
Train (rarely see those here)
Parachute and paraglide (never see those here, LOL)
Hazy - 2
S is sarcastic
Speed of time - 2
quarrel


Form
transparency
person disappeared
place transformed into a forest
dragon
miner's hat
potato guy
tiny people
demi-human 2
wooden boat
huge tiles
parallel worlds
imps
dark
change face

Context
absence of people
college
Integrated School
potentially sexual encounter with a highly unusual person
executive
on stage
Monique - 2
chase - 3
strange place with mom
Reggie (haven't seen him for more than a year, and he lives elsewhere)
Rob (haven't seen him for over a year, and he swore never to go to Bcd anymore)
Mike P and Rob together
Clown store
SA8 in public
Clowns (a rare sight)
Old dormitory (haven't been there for years)
War - 2
Tanks
Restaurant
Cruise
robots
Mom's suggestion of carrying the sack of rice with the help of an artist (yeah, he'll paint all the way home)
On a roof (I don't climb on roofs. Or at least not lately)
Don Bosco (it's been years since I've been there)
Sir Ted and class (we're not in the same school)
School in College (I'm not in school right now)
Needed to pay rent (I'm not renting anything)
Strange place - 3
Helicopter
Wall climbing
Beds outside the house -2
Wide "doorway"
Location is different from the actual boarding house location
S is sarcastic
Repetition (this is based on what happened last week, where I went to S's boarding house)
Wide "doorway"
Location is different from the actual boarding house location
Repetition (this is based on what happened last week, where I went to S's boarding house)
strange perspective
ryan f
dark
sword
strange bed

June 29, 1:07 AM

I have tried relaxing with the dreamviews suggestions on how to lucid dream. It took me a while to enter a serious state. It felt amazing to block out everything around you, sound, light, even thoughts that humans have every day. I am so amazed by how complex, and I believe we will never be able to get the full potential of it.

I bet that by tomorrow I am going to forget a lot of this, and I will just say " screw this ". I really hope that does not happen, and will do everything in my willpower to stop that. I want to dream, to understand, to remember.

Also, I have been thinking about total control of the brain, where your free will determines on what your brain does. I believe that is IMPOSSIBLE, is like a gun trying to shoot itself.

Anyways, Im off to read some more, play a video game to block out some stuff that happened today, read fiction, then just try to set up a habit for future lucid dreaming days. Also, no fapping (lol)

Dream Journal, June 29, 12:36 AM

So, I was talking to one of my friends about Lucid Dreaming. He says he yearns for lucid dreaming almost every night, and he had 4 lucid dreams in a month. I want to believe everything dreamviews say. I want to lucid dream, the fact to do whatever you want with no restrictions, to see how your brain works in the most awkward positions and times. I want to understand my dreams, remember them and possibly share them with everyone around me. I have read up about Lucid dreaming, and have begun doing reality checks very often. I have downloaded music to see if I will be able to at least relax. I am not planning on having a lucid dreaming today, I am planning to set up a habit to make it easier on me, to remember the most exciting dreams. I have faith, and I really wish I have mind control and sleeping habits. As this is my first entry, and not a dream entry, I want to set up a road for me. Consider this an experiment on myself, and I will post all my results here. I hope to update this every night, if my brain allows me to remember this kind of information. Since I usually wake up often in the night (for no reason) I decided to try WBTB, and see what happens. I also want to have a mixture of MILD's and WILD's and see which one works best. I believe the MILD will be easier for me, but I must remember to not move, as it is essential for my brain to recognize my muscles as idle muscles.

So anyway guys, this is just my first entry, my reality checks are the breathing when your nose and mouth are closed, and when I try to use a hand to go through my other hand. if any of you are reading this, please let me know any tips or tutorials on what I should do to enhance my dreams

Also, the main reason I am doing this is to have no limits, no awkwardness with the actions I do, and just be able to be me. I also want to try Lucid Sex (sorry if this sounds so perverted, but I must try it), but I believe it will be very hard to achieve such state of Lucid Sex.

I am out, I am going to spend another hour reading up on some more of this, then I will probably go do something that relaxes my brain (read, but I hope no electronics)

Regards,
Joseph (Andy)