side notes

I was at T's work with him and I had my son with me. They were getting really busy and he asked me to help out. I handed my son to one of the employees and they looked at me like I was crazy, lol. I went and put a headset on and realized they had changed to hand-head-sets, if that makes sense. I was putting the thing together and asked T why they changed. He said they were cheaper. Then I went to take an order and all of a sudden T's like, Ok, let's go. I take the set off and follow T out the door. He told me to get in the car with RB. The name was familiar, I knew a guy by reputation where I used to go to school, but he didn't look anything like him, so I figured they just had the same name. The guy was in a white pick up truck. It wasn't OLD, but it was probably a mid90's version. I'm bad with cars, by the way. The guy was either bald or just had a really short cut, his head was round and he had a goatee. He looked serious. I turned to T and asked him if he was going back in to get our son. He said we were going to leave him for a minute and go check on something. I asked him why we were leaving our car here and he said it got repossessed, assuming from a bill we haven't paid yet. I looked for where we had parked it and it was gone. I was getting worried. We drove to our house, only it was actually my mother's house. We checked the door to see if they had changed the locks on us, but we were able to get inside. Then we went back to his job to get our son. I don't remember much after that.

I had went to bed at 2am and had that dream and woke up at 3:55. I'm trying to record how quickly I fall into REM. I'm thinking I'm one of those people that can go right into REM, I was watching a documentary about it. After all this, I had a long dream but I can only remember bits and pieces of what it was about.

I had failed to do something and T and my sister had been there and some others. They were all sort of shunning me for it, and leaving me, including T. Somewhere in this dream I saw a work schedule with my name on it from a place I worked almost a year ago. I had seen my name on for night shift and was kind of upset because I lived an hour away (and do in WL) and my uncle knew I couldn't work those hours. I noticed that my hours got cut also and I was trying to leave but then these girls started showing up and they wanted to fight me. I was having a hard time trying to fight them and they were laughing at me. I remember crying really hard for a LONG time, I think I was sitting in a closet or in the doorway of a room. I was just crying and crying, and it felt so real, the sadness and just feeling abandoned and rejected. Then I got up and grabbed something and started REALLY trying to hurt these girls who were laughing at me. I remember yelling at them saying I know I may be a shitty fighter but I wasn't afraid to pick something up and go crazy with it. Which is what I did. Then all I can remember is fighting robots, they looked like children toys, plastic and colorful making little beeping noises. I keep getting vague flashbacks just out of reach of my memory and it's annoying. Hopefully I will remember.

I just feel like I dreamed the whole ten hours I got to sleep. Does anyone ever feel like that sometimes? I don't understand, I'll go a few days without hardly remembering anything and then to so many dreams that I cannot remember details. My head needs to work things out.

I don't remember
when, where, or how I became lucid, but I remember wandering around a dark room.

Dream Notes Lucid

Early DND Dream Fragment. I went to bed and woke up after six hours. This is what i remember. I played DND last night for the first time in 8 years.
Robbing a kobold. Fighting and getting a wand. Being in a desert clearing.

G+C DILD + DEILD
Eating in bedrooms
Hanging out in te guest bedroom at my dad's old place with my wife and eric comes in and sits on the bed with us. He is being overly friendly and flirty so I start getting angry. After i tell them to stop a few times, I realize that I am dreaming. I start slapping him in the face. He just looks solemn as I punch him over and over again. I imagine my hand catching fire, my hand starts glowing and burning and I hit him really hard.

I get up and leave the room. I hold my nose and take a breath as I walk through the hallway. I look at the wood panel really close and see almost like a computerized wood panel flame pattern that changed like whipping flames. I look away from the wall and see the pattern all over the house.

I take another dream breath and walk into the kitchen. A tall chubby blonde guy is eating cold french fries out of the fridge and I remember that I want to eat something. I ask him for a fry and he says no. I reach into his box and grab a fry and he laughs. I eat the fry and it's cold and starchy as an old french fry is. I start to walk outside and lose the dream.

I hold still and DEILD back into a dream. This time I am in a bedroom with double beds and on one a naked goth couple is making out on the other. I am totally lucid. I go over, easily separate them and give the girl a big hug. We start making out and the guy starts to protest. I say "freeze" and hold my palm up to him and he freezes completely still, brow furred, mouth open in protest, finger up and pointing.

She smiles at me and straddles me. We are making out and I sit her down on the edge of the bed and I sit on the floor. I see a small box of popeye's chicken tenders next to us and I think for a moment whether I would rather have sex with her or eat the chicken. I split the difference and decide to give her cunnilingus. Her pussy is small and pink and she tastes really good. I can hear her moan and as I eat I look into the sparse tuft of black pubic hair and watch as the hair dances. I float back into my body and wake up.

I fall asleep one more time but this time I am not having a lucid dream. I am walking through a mostly empty banquet hall and see a pictures on a table on a stage at the front of the room there is a picture of my cat next to a picture of a cat that I don't recognize. My wife comes up and hands me two wallets. She says one was given to me by her, one was given to me by my ex girlfriend. I ask her which is which and she laughs "that's the question isn't it?"

I say "HMM" and stare at the wallets. One is bulky and ornate and has a strange picture frame connected to it, the other is very light and slim and has a made at summer camp cowboy leather motif. I tell my wife that because this cowboy wallet is very practical and I could actually use it, this one probably came from her.

She says "good choice." I start emptying my current wallet Receipts, Id's, Trash, Discount cards to stores I have never heard of. Then I pull out the photo insert and it extends like a comically long accordian and the stuff that is being pulled out of the wallet is absurd. Industrial sized bottles of cleaning products, tools, dog toys etc. I am confused but before I can attain lucidity I wake up.

Lucidity: 8/10
Vividness: 8/10
Length: ~6 Min.

I was in this dungeon like place and a girl was in this nasty water, so I water bended her out and got the water off. She looked very nice so I lead her outside and we attempted to, but obviously I woke up. I attempted to DEILD and failed.

Can't recall all that much since I woke up this morning, but I remember driving around the west side of town and I was driving along country club road. I can't remember why I was driving over there but I know I was killing time while I was waiting so I started to drive towards 14th when I saw two huge flashes of lightning. I looked to my right and there was some kind of force field of bluish purple. It was the edge of the storm, is what I remember thinking. This part was vivid, but that's all I can recall.

The night before last I was with someone who had a pet tiger and panther. They were being held by a normal fence, they didn't seem aggressive but I told the person who owned them that I doubted that fence could keep them. Sure enough, right when I said it the animals jumped over the fence, I was scared for a second, but I remembered to not run, the panther came up to me and bit me on the hand playfully. I led both of them by the collar and into the house, they acted like dogs. Once they were inside, I felt safe.

Dream Notes

the first dream i remember very few things.
Memory spore cloud, fringe,

At some point in this next dream I wake up for a second and go back to sleep. I close my eyes and concentrate the world back into existence. Then I held my thought and the world grew sharper and more solid. Then I imagined waving my hand in front of my face. Then I fell out of lucidity back into the dream.

I am a member of a gang of three. We are at my father's house which is being terrorized by a large brown bear. The bear has locked itself in my old bedroom. We have no weapons and I am carrying a table lamp like a crude club.

I hear a loud snap and a familiar meow from over in the dining room. I find my cat oscar trapped in a very large mouse trap with a slice of american cheese. I set Oscar free of the trap and make sure he's not too badly hurt. I hold him up in front of me under the cat armpits and tell him not to play with mouse traps. He meows at me. I set him down and he scampers away.

I am startled by the sound of a gunshot. One of my team now has a double barreled shot gun. I ask him where he got it and he just looks at me funny.

My father comes in the room to tell me that the UPS man has come and is outside. I go outside and see two men in brown suits rooting through a UPS truck. I tell them that I am fighting a bear in the house and ask them if they have a weapon or a gun they can spare me. The guy says sure and gives me what I think at first is a hand gun but when I look at it again I see that it's some kind of cattle prod shock stick. It's a shiny metal black stick about 2 and a half feet long with an orange rubber grip near the middle and a dull rubber handle with a white button. I push the button and hear the crackle of a stun gun. I say thank you and head back inside the house.

My dad and the rest of the team are sitting around the kitchen table drinking cups of coffee. I ask them what the hell is going on and what happened to the bear. They respond that the bear is still in my room. I show them the stun gun, say grab the shot gun and we all move over to where the bear is. I kick the door to my room open and hit the bear with the shocker. The bear roars and I scream and I am being shocked too. I look at my hands and see that I'm not holding the orange safety grip but rather the front of the gun. I can't stop shooting the thing because if I do the bear will get me.

I move my left hand firmly onto the orange safety grip and lead the bear out into the living room. I yell "Shoot the fucking thing!" The guys and my father are sitting around the coffee table, drinking coffee and eating small cookies. I freak out. "what the fuck is going on?! Kill the goddamn bear!"

They look really surprised. One guy reaches for his shotgun and when he fires it, the safety is on. He turns the safety off and fires again. The gun is unloaded. The bear hits me in the face and runs down the hallway through my dad's bathroom into his bedroom.

We go into the bathroom and there is an FBI agent sitting fully clothed in a Full Tub of warm water. He tells me to calm down, that everything is under control. The bear is Roaring in the next room. I am pissed off. I ask him why hasn't law enforcement done anything about this bear.

He tells me to watch my mouth before he starts checking into my record.

I say, oh great, you are going to check my record instead of helping me get this fucking bear.

Then I wake up.

I do not remember many of the details of this dream, but here goes:

Gotta get down to the busstop, I see my friend! (A DC that I don't know who is. This is probably how Rebecca Black got the idea for Friday!)
My friend was using a nose-clenching trick to stop time. I tried to do the same, and it worked. There was this guy at the busstop but I don't remember what he did wrong. We got in a fight and I stopped time to fight him. The funny part about this dream is that I actually felt the hurt in my chest after holding my breath for too long. And I couldn't breathe with my nose pinched.
I also had this insanity trick. I could stare someone in the eye in a freaky way, and their facial expression would be as if their mind turned blank. I could then leave them to do mindless stuff, or control their minds! I made the tough guy hurt himself while I went to grab a paddle and beat him. I ended the insanity by making a 'meow' sound.
There were still people trying to beat my friend, but we walked down the sidewalk and I suggested that we should "rob a bank and take a flight to..". I had New York in mind but tried to find a better example. My friend - the DC then completed my sentence with "New York!" and I agreed.
Then as we broke through a window, into a bank, I realised it was a dream.
I didn't know what I wanted to do, so I concentrated hard on deciding something. Then this hot chick showed up and tried to attack my friend. Suddenly I knew what I wanted to do.
I did the insanity trick on her and made her bend over. Then I had some fun.. until I felt myself in my awake body. I tried to hold on to the dream for as long as possible, but my mind slipped into wake-state.

Talking with a girl bout bisexuality. She has a girlfriend i know that . And i asked her if she's a lesbian or if she goes both ways. She answered something but i forgot. I got kind of comfortable with her and i sat close to her so we touched a little bit. (i mean we touched out arms !! i do . ) i liked ^^, as close as im gonna get with her, cus she's lesbian and all.
She said something about the sex being difficult. Because one is doing all the work while the other one is just lying down. That's always so unfair and we fight about who'se turn it is now. haha.

I almost forgot to write notes down about this dream but i'm glad i did. I just can not for the life of me imagine i'm talking to a lifeless dream character in dreams like this. Such a personality and cleverness in her just like she is normally, she has to be more than just a DC. She is a recurring character in my dreams and i like having her in my dreams. I think these are either shared dreams or she is a VERY GOOD representation of herself in real life. Since i don't really talk to her that much i've gotten to know her real well just by dreaming of her. More than i could ever know....

About forty-five minutes after falling asleep I woke up after having a little dream. I'm not sure if it was a hallucination because I was trying a WILD, but in the dream I was going to bed. T was sitting in our chair and he was playing video games, I think. But the chair was sitting diagonally in front of the door. I went to say goodnight, and I kissed him. Then I thought he had said, do you want to dance? I was like what. And he said do you want to live or die? I realized that I had mistaken dance for die. Then I laughed because he seemed so serious, like I had irritated him somehow. I said don't fuck with me right now I'm drunk. I ran to the bedroom but it was kind of like bouncing, I was scared but laughing hoping it was a joke. When I got to the bedroom, I jumped in the air to land on the bed on my belly, but I didn't land. I started falling through the bed and I think I had made myself wake up. Like I was somehow conscious but I never thought about it. Then I had a false awakening, but that's all I remember about that.

After I had a long dream, but by now I only remember parts. I was with an old friend and something about a dress she didn't want anymore that I wanted to give away. But she wanted me to hold on to it so that she could wear it again sometime. I went to what I had called in the dream JC Penney and I went it but it was kind of like a small town DMV office. So I was waiting and I was on the phone and lit a cigarette. There was a guy trying to tell me to not smoke and finally I realized they had changed the smoking policy. So I apologized and was going to go outside but I didn't want to so I finished the cigarette real quck. Then I was sitting in a chair and I remember telling someone something and I was very direct about it but I can't remembe what I was saying. There was a guy sitting next to that person who I had went to school with a long time ago but he looked older. I could tell he was trying to picture this new me and that's what I had been thinking about when I was talking. Very confusing. I'll just end it here.

NORMAL DREAM - Please forgive the cap on almost every word, my computer did it and will take a long time to undo

I was in my Dads houses Bathroom Where I Brushed My Teeth with Toothpaste That I noticed Contains Sodium Fluoride Then the scene Changed To At my Mums house and It Was Dark and the Cats Were About and one was sitting on a cupboard. I had to help my sisters get Into the Attic. I Had to Let Light into the House without letting light Get outside by Putting Blankets Up. I Also Has To Pull a Bed Sheet around a certain entire house Then Take It Back to Our House, the bed sheet was huge and orange. Then One Time I Went Around The Wrong House And There Was Barbed Wire Over The Floor And This Child Came And Stood On The Wires And Complained About Something. I Took Him off The Floor, I also Took A Piece of Wire and Went to the Gym.

I Went Through The Double Doors And Talked To People I Met At Enrolment Day. We Walked Down By a River (which looked quite calm but not dry) and I Finally Decided to Discard It (the barbed wire). As It Will "Do More Harm Than Good". But I Did Not Want It To Ping Back So I Looped It Into A Fence And Told Nobody To Get It. Then We Were On A Rollercoaster By The River And I Kept Looking Into The River, there was grass growing in the river and around it. Then We Went up Big Hills (on the rollercoaster) Then arrived At a flat Platform Were We Played a rhythmic Clapping Game. To See If Clapping At The Same Time Would Do Something To The Track And Kart. We Then Went To This Other Rollercoaster Which Was Further Away But When We Went On It, Appeared To Be In The Same Place. But It Had No Bumps and At the End and Had A Different Game. The Rollercoaster Fell Off The Track Twice. Went Back And Forth.

We Then Got Given Cards like a thank you card at The End with Drawings Inside as gifts/certificates. One Got A Picture Of A Fat Man. Some Others Seemed Upset By Theirs. One Guy Got A Great Shaded Drawing And He Appeared To Have Others Just Like It But Two People Fishing As The First. We Were Then On Some Staircase Where The Rollercoaster Man Gave Me A Card After Me Just Talking About The Other Rollercoaster. He Thought I Was Complaining. The Card Was a Picture of a Person Crying and something along the Lines Of, “I Liked the Fairy Ride Better” written on the card. The quote was meant to be insulting. I Saw A Guy Crying And He Said To This Other Person He Got About 3 Stars, 7 A Stars And a U.

Then I Looked up and the Setting Changed Into my brothers Bedroom at my mother’s house, Two French teachers were in my brothers bed Marking English Coursework. When I Got My Report I Planned Not To Read It Until A Later Time. Then one of the teachers took something from the Bedpost Where It Said the Number38 in a Ball Type Font, She Then Said 38 As If It Was Significant.
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INTERPRETATION - (from the internet (Dreammoods) and might not be accurate )

Brushing teeth - "Your struggles and your aggressiveness. You need to look out for yourself and your own interest. Perhaps, you feel that your position is shaky."

Blanket + House - Adding security to self, or covering up true self.

Roller coaster - Ups and downs

Well, last night was certainly interesting. I had one lucid dream, (that dragged on and may have been followed by a second dream with moments of lucidity -- I'm not sure if there was a split or the two were the same dream). I had another dream which was not lucid, but had a strong emotional impact on me, one of the stronger ones I've felt in what dreams I can think of.


#1004:
Date: June 20th, 2011
Length: 8 minutes

I was downstairs in my house. It was dark, very early morning (say, 2 AM or so). I was near the kitchen, and my mom was also there, though I don't recall what she was doing really. After a few moments of idling about, I recognized one of my strong dream signs -- darkness. This caused me to do the ever-reliable nose plugging reality check: as usual, I was able to breathe through my nose even though it was plugged.

It took me a few moments to realize that I could actually breathe and that it meant I must be dreaming, but I became lucid. I had intended the day before to have dream sex, so I won't go into the details, but needless to say it happened: I don't quite remember how I got to the place where I found the person I was looking for, something with a phonecall.

After the sex I did not wake up, but instead went along with another woman to some strange room which slowly morphed into a movie theater. Before entering, she shot out a camera on the ceiling with a gun.

(Lucidity around this point was tenuous, kind of came and went as far as I recall, so I'm switching colors) A bunch of people walked into the room, apparently to see the movie. The woman I was with suddenly turned hostile, and tried to stab me with a bizarre syringe that contained a sort of liquefied or powdered metal alloy. I pushed her away, and left the theater.

Here the dream, and my recall, becomes blurry. I think everything went black, but eventually I found myself outside in a dark, snowy place. I think I was lucid at this point, and I tried to stabilize the dream. Eventually a sort of city formed around me. I remember trying to experience the whole environment, focusing on things like trees and the snow to really make the dream as vivid as possible. Soon people were gathering around me, and my brother was also there. I think a sort of plaza with a statue was created around me, or at least I ended up there. I unfortunately don't recall much more than that, I think I woke up around that point.


#1005:
Date: June 20th, 2011
Length: 6 minutes

I was at a party which was basically a meeting of a lot of old friends of mine. At the beginning of the dream I was sitting on some kind of bench, looking in the distance as most of my old friends were getting food at a barbeque and caught up. I was, for some reason or another, anxious to actually go see them and say hello after a long time of not having seen them.

Finally everyone sort of dispersed, and I went to the barbeque to get a hot dog. There was a girl there, and at first I thought she was someone I vaguely knew as a freshman in high school. Looking fairly neutral at first, she offered me a hot dog, and I took it. After a few moments, though, I sat down and we began an intense conversation. I was apprehensive and unsure of myself, while she seemed fairly upset, at least at first.

She told me that she had only two questions for me. The first was why I had never really reached out to her after we went our separate ways. She was obviously hurt and a little angry about this. Trying to be compassionate but also puzzled by how she was acting, I explained to her that I didn't feel like I ever really knew her that well, and so I didn't feel the need to continue talking when we weren't in the same school anymore. She seemed really surprised by my response, and I suddenly realized that she was not the person I thought she was (I think her appearance in fact changed between the two people as the dream went on).

She was not some vague acquaintance from high school, but a good friend from before that. I felt terrible, apologized and explained that I had confused her for someone else. I then tried to explain, and figure out for myself, why I hadn't tried to get back into contact with her. The conversation continued like this for quite a while, and over time we seemed to rekindle that old friendship and I started feeling true compassion for her, and regretted not having talked with her for this long. On her side, she seemed less angry than before, and more understanding.

Finally, with most bridges mended, she reached her second question: something along the lines of "Would you consider going out with me?" This sort of blew me out of the water. It was unexpected and surprising, especially with how the conversation had started and how we didn't "really" know each other anymore. But I realized we were actually quite similar, she attracted me, and I felt a connection with her. At the same time, this was all really sudden, and feelings aside, did we really know each other anymore?

She sensed my hesitation, but I didn't want her to think I was rejecting her, because I didn't want to. I think I said something along the lines of: "Well, I would definitely not say 'no.'" This was my way of saying that I definitely felt something between us, but was sort of confused at the whole situation and how quickly it all happened. She seemed pretty satisfied with the response, and we continued talking until it was clear we would at least give a shot at some sort of relationship. I took her hand and my mind raced as I thought of what was happening, and how she somehow seemed to be the perfect fit for me. It seemed too good to be true, but I was firmly decided on at least giving it a shot. Despite my few doubts, I felt an overall sense of immense peace and hopefulness.


What it all means I suppose is for me to decide: I think I will remember this dream for a long time though. It is really sort of a plain/mundane dream in content or plot and may seem kind of cheesy on the surface, but I felt so many strong, genuine and varied emotions throughout it. Truly amazing what the dreaming mind can do.

Been pretty sick lately and my dream recall hasn't been very good.
I had quite a few dreams, some lucid, but the lack of details made them feel unworthy of posting.

I'm walking on the promenade in Haven on Teraluna.
Enjoying the fresh air, I walk towards one of the main streets on my way to Yuya's place.
On the main street I go up a level, ending up one level below the topmost one, with all the houses and apartments.
This level features mostly shops and restaurants, I sometimes come here with Yuya for dinner.
It's dusk, so the city is quite lively.

I pass a shop that sells flowers and I wonder if I should buy some for Yuya.
They're all on display outside, so I wander a bit around having a look at the different kinds of flowers.
Some don't look like flowers at all, and some are clearly alive.
They're all very beautiful and they have a distinct smell.
I suddenly realize that I have no money, how am I going to pay for these?

Wait, what? WTF! I'm on Teraluna! How did I not notice that I'm dreaming?
This surprises me quite a bit and it takes me a few seconds to settle down.
The dream feels very stable and vivid, but I still rub my hands and try to feel the presence of my surroundings to make
that the dream remains perfectly stable.

Looking back at the flowers I see one that is immensely beautiful.
The colors somewhat match those of Yuya's eyes, I feel they would be an appropriate gift.
I ask the lady selling the flowers:

"Would you be willing to trade something for these flowers?"
"Haha, of course young man, what did you have in mind?"

I summon my phoenix wings on my left arm and remove one of the smaller colorful feathers from it.
They fall out occasionally, it'll grow back.
I hand it to the lady.

"How beautiful! Please, take the flowers, thank you!"

That went well.
I take the flowers and continue walking towards Yuya's place.
I think about how this dream started on Teraluna, even though I was non-lucid.
Then I realize I'm wasting time.
I can see a bridge crossing from this street to another one on the level above me, I'll be able to see Yuya's place from there.
I blink on top of it, and from there I blink to Yuya's place.

Yuya greets me, telling me that I'm right on time. Did we set a meeting?
I hand her the flowers.

"They're for you."

She seems extremely happy. I am yet again surprised by the way she shows her emotions.
She simply doesn't hold back at all. It feels so pure, I've never seen anyone with such a happy expression in waking life.
Yuya puts the flowers in some sort of vase.
I notice that the dream doesn't feel as stable anymore, and I attempt to re-stabilize which succeeds.

"Alright, I promised you we'd visit the library, let's go!"

The library? Did we talk about this in a previous dream?
Maybe a dream that I cannot remember?
Clearly, I can't recall such a dream, but I am convinced that we did indeed decide to visit a library somewhere on Teraluna.
It must have been a lucid dream I do not remember.
I get ready to draw my wings but Yuya interrupts me.

"Let's fly there! We shouldn't teleport into the library, we might disturb someone."
"Sure, lead the way!"

I take off and fly next to Yuya, trying to keep up.
She's accelerating fast, I can't keep up without summoning my wings.
I remember that in my last big fight I managed to summon my phoenix wings on my back, in full size.
I wonder if I can do that again and use them for fast flight, just the way I've been using my dragon fire wings until now.

I try to accumulate some of that pure energy and manage to draw the wings on my back.
They're very beautiful and very large. They feel somewhat oversized for my body.
It is VERY easy to fly at high speed with them, much easier than with the dragon wings.
We quickly break the sound barrier and everything becomes very calm.

This is the first time I'm really exploring other parts of Teraluna, usually I just stay in Haven.
It is beautiful!
There are very high and complex trees growing directly out of the sea.
They must be over a kilometer high each.
We slow down and fly down, through the crowns of the trees.
It is difficult to navigate them due to their complexity.

There are waterfalls in the crowns as well, I wonder where they come from, are the trees emitting water?
We go lower and lower and finally fly through a maze of waterfalls leading to a spectacular entrance.
The entrance is absolutely huge. Fortunately it opens by itself.
Inside there are the same angel statues as in the entrance to Haven.
As I pass under them I feel myself passing through a forcefield.
Makes sense, the library must be protected as well.

I enter the library in amazement, the bookshelves reach into all eternity.
There is literally no end to them. Even zooming in they seem to go on forever.
The library is very well lit, everything is very bright and white.
The shelves are mostly made out of glass.
Materials feel very modern, but some shapes remind me of the Victorian era.

Yuya explains what the different kinds of books are and we wander around a bit.
She shows me quite a few things which I unfortunately cannot quite remember.
Then we come to a rather special shelf.
Yuya tells me there's 1001 books in this shelf.
They all seem very old, and they are huge.
Nearly 1 meter high and very thick, probably 1000 pages each.

They feel very special, there's is something about them that really intrigues me.

"Are we allowed to touch them?"
"Of course, just be gentle, they are very old."

I pick the first of them, it's very heavy.
I gently deposit it on a reading table and open the first page.
The pages are so old... they feel like papyrus, and you can actually see how the paper was weaved.
Everything in them is hand written and hand drawn. They are not printed copies.
It feels sort of amazing touching such an old book, plus the smell is very nice.
The title of the first page is in a language I do not know.
The letters are formed by geometric shapes, but somehow I am able to understand it.

This book is about the beginning... the beginning of... everything?
They all are! Those 1001 books, is this the story of this universe?
The story of the dream plane?

"Yes, they are, are you able to read it?"
"I'm not sure. I cannot understand the individual words or letters, but somehow I understand some of it."

I randomly try to read the first few lines at the beginning of some chapters.
The first one talks about there being nothing but energy.
Some chapters further they talk about the first gods.
I honestly have no idea how I'm understanding any of this.
The numerous images and illustrations help though.

The language used to write these is very powerful though.
A single word carries much more meaning than any languages in waking life.
Considering this, needing 1001 books to describe the history of the dream plane...
it just feels impossible like any single person could ever know the whole story.

"True, but it's not finished yet."
"Not all books have been written yet, after all we're still living the story written in these books."
"Then why are there exactly 1001 books?"
"Because exactly 1001 books are needed to tell the story."
"But, does that mean the dream plane will end once you reach the 1001st book?"
"Not only the dream plane, the planes cannot exist on their own, they all exist together."

I'm very surprised, it is known when existence will end?

"Hyu... the dream plane has existed for eternities, long before Earth was created, long before your universe was formed."
"That being said, we've barely filled 400 books."
"We cannot even comprehend for how long things have existed until now, so there is no reason to worry about any ending."
"True..."

I browse through some more pages in amazement.
Somehow I understand that this language is very ancient and was meant to be universal.
I think I am able to interpret some of it due to the divine phoenix powers, but I'm not sure.
I end up getting lost in thoughts and wake up...

NORMAL DREAM
LUCIDITY
NOT VERY VIVID
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At the beginning my mother was around and her car I think was there. Then I was in a petrol station and was stroking a horse’s fur; Horsepower , there were these other people there too, one of the women looked at me as I was stroking the horse’s fur. I would not really go near a horse in real life and to add that it was in a petrol station.

I then woke up lucidly so I decided to go outside. I went out the back door at dad’s house and outstretched my arms and started to fly. I did not need to flap my wings or anything; I did move my arms flexibly around however. I saw the sun and it was huge, there were massive sun spots too. The sun was at least 8 times the size of the moon.

I thought about it and then decided to teleport to the sun, I said "take me to the sun". I was almost immediately in the orbit of the sun. I got a bit excited and decided to get back on earth but I only got in its orbit looking down on it. The earth looked slightly electronic with glowing hexagons on the surface.

In between teleports it was like travelling through a wormhole with the dream space/time whipping around into a vortex. I decided to go on a mission, my lucidity faded here.

Other dream characters were telling me not to go. I came to a conclusion there was something wrong with the planet (earth) so I decided to teleport to another one that did not belong to humans. I took note that I could teleport into trouble. As in in-front of a being that would not friendly towards me. I decided to go to a lab as a spy, to change something I felt was needed. I affirmed, along the lines of: 'take me to the lab hidden from personnel with access to equipment.’ As if i was an infiltrator on a secret mission.

There were loads of people running around in this building with loads of stairs leading up and down. I decided to go down, because of other peoples opinions. People where running in both directions. The stairs were made of metal and there was lots of wire fencing so the people could not escape. The atmosphere was quite Eerie. The people had mixed opinions saying they were coming from the top or the bottom. A grenade appeared flying from apparently nowhere and destroyed some of the stair case. Loads of vermin where inside the stair case and a green wriggly tentacle were also there and were now visible as the grenade blew a hole in the stairs. I still decided to go down as the explosion exploded the adjacent wall so the aliens were no coming from below. I got to the bottom of the staircase and I saw a room with vermin and loads of pigeons, there were cages and wooden structures like shelves, it was very dark down there. A pigeon occasionally pooped, it's as if nobody really went there.
The scene changed, it was as if I was in a video game because I missed a ramp and my 6% below average turned to 12% below average, the percentage was shown on my dream like a HUD display on a video game. I was not in a car. It was kind of like monsters Inc. PS-one game. I thought I had to average well again to get my score back up.
My brother was around. My Brother/someone else commented and said that I have been dreaming for about 3 hours, I said I should wake up now. I looked at the time and decided to end my dream and wake up (it seems my lucidity fluidly came back). The hand positions on the clock read about 5 minutes to 11:00, but the numbers were messed up, the time numbers showed the time at around 2:00.

I falsely woke up and saw the time and the hands were positioned further anticlockwise, but each hand was the same distance from each other (I failed to notice the sign however). The clock was about 2 feet diameter and was outside by the way, to add to that, it was light outside and not dark. I then talked about how dream time must be faster than real life and I got people to help me write, I got a person to write whatever I say down, I was going to write key words. I said "right” (as in ‘Right, let’s get going’) and my scribe quickly jotted down a note.
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Symbols (http:\\dreammoods.com) :

Petrol Station - "You need to reenergize and revitalize yourself. You may be running low on energy and need to take time out to refuel. Your ability to convert outside resources and use it for your own needs. Alternatively, you need to reach out to others and offer your help."

Horse - "Strength, power, endurance, virility and sexual prowess. It also represents a strong, physical energy. You need to tame the wild forces within. You may also be "horsing around". Alternatively,you need to be less arrogant and "get off your high horse". "

Woman - "Nurturance, passivity, caring nature, and love."

Flying - "A sense of freedom where you had initially felt restricted and limited."

Sun - "Peace of mind, enlightenment, tranquility, fortune, goodwill, and insight. Radiant energy and divine power. Abnormalities and peculiarities to the sun's appearance represents some sort of pain or chaos occurring in your waking life.
+ Spots - imperfections, but OK.

Vortex - (I Don't know)

Electronic earth - "You need to be "grounded" and realistic. Perhaps your sense of stability and security is lacking. Consider the consistency of the earth for additional significance on how you are feeling (electronic - robustness). Wholeness and global consciousness. You are interconnected with the world."

Teleportation - "Your desires to escape your current situation or to move more faster and easier through it. You may be expressing some frustrations with how your waking life is proceeding and the slow speed that it is moving at."

Spy - "Your mistrust of others and your tendency to be in everyone's business and affairs. Perhaps you have recently stumbled upon some information that was not meant for your eyes."

Going down stairs - "Your repressed thoughts. You are regressing back into your unconscious. setbacks that you are experiencing in your life."

explosion - "Your repressed anger. The rage that you have been holding in has come to the surface in a forceful and violent manner."

vermin - "sickness and trouble. You will be faced with many disappointments and obstacles. Alternatively, the dream refers to some dirty situation."

Darkness - "Failure in some work that you are attempting. Darkness is synonymous with ignorance, the unconscious, evil, death, and fear of the unknown."
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Interpretation:
You need to reenergize and revitalize yourself. You may be running low on energy and need to take time out to refuel. You need to reach out to others and offer your help and stop "Horsing around" and be less arrogant. You need to tame the wild forces within to become Strength, power, endurance, virility and sexual prowess and have a strong, physical energy, Nurturance, passivity, caring nature, and love, and to have a sense of freedom where you had initially felt restricted and limited.

Imperfections are covering the great Peace of mind, enlightenment, tranquility, fortune, goodwill, insight, Radiant energy and divine power. Perhaps your sense of stability and security is lacking. You are interconnected with a world which is modern and high tech Wholeness and global consciousness.. You need to be "grounded" and realistic. This is shown in Your desires to escape your current situation or to move more faster and easier through it. You may be expressing some frustrations with how your waking life is proceeding and the slow speed that it is moving at. Your mistrust of others and your tendency to be in everyone's business and affairs. Perhaps you have recently stumbled upon some information that was not meant for your eyes.

Your repressed thoughts and setbacks that you are experiencing in your life, and your repressed anger. The rage that you have been holding in has come to the surface in a forceful and violent manner. Which will cause sickness and trouble. You will be faced with many disappointments and obstacles or another dirty situation which could lead to Failure in some work that you are attempting, or ignorance, the unconscious, evil, and death.

Very assuring Hope you liked this. If you've got any improvements regarding the structure of my journal I will be willing to accept. Thanks.

Vague memory of dream fragments. I remember sitting with my father. He wanted to wear my socks. I thought it was weird cus my socks are dirty but he did take them on.

*fuzzy*

We have arrived at our grandmother's house with the car. There's some kind of party, we go inside and my granddad is sitting in his chair. The furniture was moved tho, the whole building looked different. it wasn't the real house. I kissed my granddad in the cheek and as i did that i realized... My grandfather is dead. This can't be, it's a dream. I try to pinch my nose not really sure if i could breathe. I COULD BREATHE!. Holy cow this is a dream. My heart starts pounding. I say to myself relax, don't get too excited just do what you have to do.
I want to go outside and i mentioned this. My neace wanted to go with me so i took her with me. We walked down the street and i thought i'd try to fly. I take a sprint and i lift off. I can barely fly, i floated a little but fell to the ground. My neace and passer-by's didn't seem at all suprised that i was able to fly. (barely)
We are riding a bike. My memory is vague but we arrived in my own town. There where loads of people going around their normal business. It was a busy street near the mall. I remember looking around and thinking. This is so real. This looks exactly like it does when awake. I wasn't even sure if i was really dreaming , nothing was really different than when i'm awake.
I remember i wanted to go to the moon. So i decided to try and draw a portal on the floor. I moved my nails and tried to make a circle. I was a little bit embaressed doing this in a public area because goddammit this was so real. All those peope that pass by must think i'm a lunatic. Well... no portal ever appeared. There was a drain in the middle of the circle. The one u find in cities. I thought maybe i can push it like a button and a portal will appear. Nothing. In retrospect maybe i should have opened it and went inside . how dumb.
I thought about my body lying in bed. I was suprised to be still dreaming. But i woke up.

Jumped out of my freaking bed to write this shit down. Loads to learn. But this was exactly what i needed. It was actually my birthday yesterday so i suppose this was the best birthday gift i could ever have. Saw my granddad AND i went lucid. WINNING!

I am having those strong ass feelings again. Like a magnetic pull, I know what it is. I just don't understand who it is. this guy keeps coming into my dreams. I can't help being drawn to him. I feel deep down inside that I should know him, very well! He is trying to explain things to me, why I feel the things that I do. what he says makes perfect sense to me, I can not REMEMBER what he tells me after I wake up. However, I feel part of me does remember. Almost like when I am asleep...I'm still me but I am surrounded by people my soul knows, I can't recall them after waking. The whole ordeal makes me feel incredibly homesick. I am getting frustrated...I don't understand why I am feeling so homesick when I am at home! Hopefully I can make some sense of all of this soon. peace