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Lucidity: 6/10
Vividness: 7/10
Length: ~8 Min.

OK, I can't remember much of this one. But I know that it was really long.

I remember when I became lucid though. And parts after that. I remember that I was a pirate and we landed on an Island, it was very big and was almost completely covered in water.

For some reason I was in a castle and there were three other people with me, I followed them for a minute and then they went through a window and I looked down and when I did it was like 30Ft. down, then I became lucid. When I did, I got the idea of just floating down there. And when I looked down there again there was some sort of wall there. But I kinda floated by it and landed safely. When I walked towards those guys that I saw. Some hot broad was like flashing at me and she wanted me to take her for a ride (sex). But I just ignored her and walked away. Then I found a tree that was all weird and I ran towards it and I started to fly, it was really cool. Then people were walking towards me and saying. "He did it, he settled a tree. My boy, you deserve a promotion." Or something like that. Then I was trying to be Spider-Man by shooting webs out of my wrists, but it kept shooting out all over the place. And for some reason I had a lazy eye like in real life. That's how used to it I am. So I finally gave it up after trying for like 3 minutes and just followed some people that I saw. The next thing I knew I was walking in a big hall way and some guy was forcing me to go down the hall way. When I did I saw three girls in front of me and they were strip dancing. And below them was some guy that I can't recall very well. And to my left was a door. I went in the door and there was a bath tub in the room. I was like "what the fuck. I'm leaving, or maybe I could stay a while." Some broad appeared out of nowhere and started to talk to me. She wanted to have sex with me. I didn't really want to, but if I don't wake up there's not a problem. I went out the door and picked up a hooker and she turned into a bottle? So I told the guy that was sitting there that I would take this one and he could take the other two. He was like "OK." After I went inside I put some of that stuff in my mouth. She said it was for oral sex. Then I looked away and looked back and guess what, she disappeared. That's such a surprise (not really), but I tried to make her appear nothing happened. I tried making little spinner things in the bath tub and it worked, but a human being wont. That sucks. Anyways, I found her in a little Hamitic to my left and she was sleeping. So I woke her up and the next thing I knew I was walking around outside. I was in a small city, like Carson City. With a bunch of stores. So she said that Oral sex was illegal and I said "In this city or in my mind" or something like that. She didn't respond but for some reason my teeth were hurting a lot. I tried to ignore it but it didn't work. The next thing I knew was that I was trying to hump her doggy style and it didn't work. So we walked back and it got dark and I saw some broad that looked OK. So I asked her if she would give me a blow job and she said OK. So I told her to stay there and kept walking. Then it got pitch black and we looked in a store window, it kinda looked like a diner. That was completely lit up. And a bunch of guys in glowing blue masks looked at us. It was really scary. So we started to walk back again and when we made it to her store it was a relief. Then the sun started to come out and the dream faded into real life. This one is my favorite one so far. This just keeps getting better and better.

These dreams happened over 4 sleep cycles but it's difficult to separate when they happened

Flying back and forth for a job interview, staying in a hotel. S,R,L and W are there, something about a TV.

Get the new job arguing with my dad about God and miracles. Find out about troubled person Q. Have a new beach house on a golf estate - WOHOO!! Quad bikes riding around, house was Q's.

i'm engaged in some sordid online chat thing C and R are also on but they don;t know that I am. SV is complaining about cleaning the FS team office carpet. More sordid chat.

M and me were in an accident, he is in hospital in critical condition. Bubba is a DR - lol and looks at x-rays and gives his opinion, M's body is there and B cuts his hospital gown made of lycra with a scalpel to look underneath at his stomach. I explain our injuries. Later I'm comforting M's mom and the operation begins while we sit a a board room table.

I'm at dad's business in kimberley upstairs, there is a n axel for my mom's car, I am extremely tired form M's ordeal (he died). and grab an energy sachet from a bag that belongs to my dad, it feels like I'm stealing it. We go down a car ramp and then C is gonna pull me somewhere on like a rickshaw thing but she can't. We have a discussion with a street kid...

I'm on the back of a pickup, dad is driving. He greats an old friend and then a dog chases us. We go into a bike store, I look at MX pants and then tires and then boots, all the boots are sucky...

It seems that the fish oil is working well. I am able to recall at least a fragment of a dream almost every night.

I am at a school of some type. Somehow, I've gotten into disfavor with the leadership of the school as well as some of the tough guys at the school. I am constantly threatened physically, but I buck up, and face it. I get into several fights, all of which are a blur, but I seem to do well. I have a hard time moving my arms to make a fist and punch, but my rhetoric seems to work just as well. I'm tagged as the bad boy, and put under house arrest. If I don't mend my ways, I'll end up in jail. Sorry, I don't take to bullies, so I continue. I push people to the edge, and attack my enemies with my fists.

The source of this dream is obvious to me. Yesterday I wrote a very passionate letter talking about the terrible state our country is in. I was extremely agitated as I wrote, pissed off by OBama, Pelosi, and Reed. The devil's triad. This dream is a representation of me fighting back against a government that is slowly but surely taking over every aspect of our lives, and ruining our country. This is my opinion, please don't rebut it. It has nothing to do with anything but to form the basis of my dream. If you disagree, so be it, but this is not the forum to argue.

Conditions:
Fell asleep: 1:00 am
2400 mg of Omega 3-6 Fish Oil

COMMENT LUCID NON LUCID DREAM SIGN

The earliest I can remember is trying to fit in and out of a "space station" thats on earth in astronaut gear and talking about how I'm gonna have a real problem with claustrophobia. Later I'm cave scuba diving with A, D and C. We have cool masks that enable us to talk and we're squeezing through these tight crevices with our oxygen tanks scraping and eventually we swim into a cavern where we can surface but it only has the one underwater entrance. The dream is amazingly vivid and despite my fear I'm really enjoying it. We swim back, the caves are lit with underwater lighting and the contrast and colors are awesome. We surface on a wooden jetty that is built for scuba divers. As we're leaving Ross and Nick are going in the opposite direction coming from a scuba class in a pool. They seem impressed that I was in the caves. Later I'm back in the caves with them (could have been a later dream cycle)

I wake up at 7am take the kids to school and go to have a nap at 8am since I'm really sick and off work today. I try to wild and get really close but I wake up every time my body does weird stuff (noises etc.) Eventually I fall asleep and dream about playing soccer at the italian club, apparently Sias from 5fm is gonna show up. One of the guys headers a ball and it looks unnatural so I realize I'm dreaming, I do a nose pinch and my consciousness shifts to my real body (I'm not counting this as it was too short)

This man called me on my cell phone and told me he wanted to hire me to shoot a commercial for him, I was excited and accepted thankfully. He said he would pay me $1500. Instantly I thought about bringing Dan and Rob on to help with audio and such. Since I was deploying this job would be a great and productive time killer until then. I thought about what else to ask the man and finally he went totally silent, I tried to talk to him but he was gone. I remember he was very concerned about the things in his expensive mansion.

I was in this dimly lit room and somehow I acquired this strange object, I didn't know what it was, but when I unfolded it I realized it was a large desk fan that was pinkish and very nice looking. I used it to cool my computer, it wouldn't fit inside the case so I had to just set it under my computer desk. I felt the rush of air it created. I was on the 2nd level of a building.

I fell asleep trying to AP around 8:30 pm. I was way too tired from bodysurfing. I woke up at 2:22 am. I can't remember shit.

I think the key to WILD's and AP is to fall asleep slowly.

I became lucid twice but woke up immediately

I'm travelling somewhere by elephant. Then we're walking on some narrow pathways. We're at the cave churches in Cairo and I'm giving a tour. G was there.

Late morning nap:

I went to have a nap with the intention of trying to WILD. I lay still for more than an hour - no SP . Eventually I just went to sleep. I dreamt that I heard my wife coming home with the kids from school. My daughter came into the room to wake me for lunch. I pretended to sleep and she was pinching my face and stuff. I woke up for real. I did the FILD technique and literally felt something happen in my mouth when I transitioned. I slowly did a nose RC with my dream eyes closed and I could breathe I lay still for awhile trying to calm down. Eventually I slid out of bed there was a moment when I almost lost it cause I could feel my real legs. I remembered the TOTM and immediately went over to the dresser and started looking for colorful objects. I picked up a small bottle with it's lid painted red (I think it was a lip stick bottle) and two female deodorant cans one with a blue lid and one with a yellow lid. I was super happy but when I looked at my objects the yellow lid had turned to green and I panicked. I rummaged through all the items on the dresser and found a glass bowl with a yellow glass lid that was slightly transparent. Happy with that I headed over to the window to either teleport or just go outside, I was planning to find some unicorns. As I approached the window I started loosing the dream. I spun around slowly and felt the wooden cupboard door. It helped and I decided not to go outside but to go and see what my family DCs were up to as I got to my bedroom door I woke up.

12/08

Something about the fundraisers I'm organizing for a trip some young people are going on. Phone call with pastor from Bikers Church about details of fundraiser.

Something about a guy coming for biltong

Dads birthday. Beer and biltong ( google it ) Grandpa - cricket. Sharks are playing rugby against Griquas. Jean Deysel and Juan Smith and Kabamba Floors are in the house. I try to speak to Jean but can't speak (something to do with breathing). Meagan is in the dream.

13/08

I'm travelling of the Kimberley yacht club road with Janet. She is having financial problems and is basically asking me for money. I tell her I can't help her. I'm showering next to the road (in a shower that just happens to be there). P and a lady are walking on the other side. I get out the shower and I'm suddenly looking for a place to get dressed, I go in a cave and suddenly it turns into a warehouse - there are lots of teenagers there we're planning on camping there. There is a trampoline and tents. Piet is in a small office working on a PC. Their are broken forklifts in the warehouse and some working ones. A giant crane/machine comes to life and at first is just randomly dangerous but then it tries to kill us by spinning stuff that we have to jump over and dodge. It turns in to a person and I try to explain that we have permission to be here.

14/08

Walking over a bridge at night
Golf balls in the mud

15/08

Running an event. B and co involved. Event involves dancing and music. B and co supposed to be helping. D is also involved and organises some expensive socks to give away - I get a pink pair . i go to P in an old bathroom attached to a theatre like room. B and co are there I call them down to talk to them and try to finnish p'ing before they get there (I didn't wet the bed which is always a good thing). I eventually get to talk to them and some lady who has higher authority than me is backing me up.

This is bad. Again today I didnt manage to keep still after waking up one single time at seven. My excuse this time is that my cycle was messed up and I was both excited and tired, of course because of Adam Lambert. But as im running out of excuses and my previous success is slowly fading away, I am staying positive. I truly believe DEILD is my key to becoming a dream god, as it fits me so well. But until I manage to keep still in the morning, results will be close to none. What scares me is when I try to focus on a technique like this one, my recall is completely crushed. In fact, the only thing I remember from last night is how Alex sent me a message about what he could put in his luggage. I look on my cell to find out that message was imaginary. Deceptive? Yes. But im keeping my hopes up. I thought that maybe by putting a sleep mask I could control my eyes being closed and focus on movement. But that would include revealing my LD attempts to my parents while putting my hopes in a technique that is far from proven. If only I could recall while practicing at least I would feel satisfied when waking up. That is not the case, however. Using MP3s looks very attractive, as well as vitamin B6 and 12. But until I become a full fledged, dream every night oneironaut pro kickass master, lucid dreaming will be kept far from anyone excluding me. The final countdown has begun. I have only 15 nights ahead of me before school begins again, and until then I must fly. Thats my goal. Until I reach that goal, I will double my efforts and literally LIVE THE DREAM. I will combine all the techniques I have learned and my hard work will prove successful. It has to. Otherwise it will just get harder after school begins. That is why I will put all the chances on my side by doing both DILD and DEILD. No time for WILD and I cant do MILD since I must keep my mantra for stayin still. Whats left? Hope is all thats left.

Countdown to school: 15 Nights

I am in my old childhood neighborhood in England. I am driving correctly on the left side of the road and realize that the road I am on has been changed since I was last there. There is a filter to go left but I want to go straight ahead. As I am in the filter lane, I illegally go straight ahead and am stopped by a female cop.

I am out of my car talking to the policewoman and thinking about how I can get myself out of getting a ticket. I look closely at her uniform and realize that it is strange looking. All the badges are very faded. It suddenly occurs to me that this is a fake cop and I walk away while she is talking and get in my car and drive away.

I should have known I was dreaming when I realized it was a fake cop.

I remember two, probably related, segments, but my memory of them is a little limited so we'll see how much I can remember as I start here.

The earlier segment I can only seem to remember a few random image of. It was like some kind of futurey sandbox FPS scenario. I remember it was night for the duration of this segment, but it was that kind of movie or video game style night where it isn't really night but everything has kind of a dark blue filter over it (except where there's lighting). I remember seeing gray metal husks of tanks and fires all over streets. I was moving from place to place, destroying vehicles or robots or whatever I perceived as an opponent I guess. I'm not sure what my motivation was or what I was trying to do. I remember at one point I discovered a new way to take out some vehicles and was trying to describe it to an outpost of humans/allies but they were refusing to listen so I left them. I remember a segment where I was moving down a large bridge, with vehicle wrecks everywhere, sorta vaguely L4D2 style (only at night and no zombies).

The second segment was similar. There were two outposts of human survivors whose outposts were on an upper level. These two groups made up two Team Fortress 2 teams, the one I was with had a yellow outpost (and appeared on the minimap in the lower right corner of my vision as yellow), which was just kind of a crowded camp with people wearing mostly yellow clothes, and must have been the blue team since my opponents on the lower level were mostly wearing red. Everything on the minimap was represented by small, colored triangles, yellow and green for the outpost bases and control points, and gray for uncaptured control points. The other team had a green outpost (and was correspondingly green on the minimap) and was apparently the red team. On the lower level was kind of a Doom-style research outpost where most of the action took place. There was three objective locations arranged in kind of a triangle formation on the map that we were fighting over. In place of the usual TF2 characters, it was real-looking people just pretending to be the classes. I was a spy, and playing decent, but being constantly frustrated that my backstab was rarely working. I didn't have an actual spy's knife in my hands but I did the backstab animation with my fist and it would only work occasionally. There were a handful of players, both men and women. I remember there was a spy-girl with the spy's mask and blonde pigtails who would spawn and I'd keep following her and killing her because she wasn't very good. There was a larger guy with a red shirt on who was apparently a heavy. He was running around doing stuff and ignoring me as I tried to kill him. I backstabbed him and he said, "Okay, that's one." and I apparently understood I needed to do it twice to kill him but the second stab refused to work. Towards the end I somehow got to see the green outpost and I remember thinking it looked way cooler than the yellow one; for one it was green, there were light green lights everywhere and the people there looked like a cult, in green robes worshiping a triangle or pyramid thingy that was hovering a little ways up made out of the light green light. I remember a little ways before it ended it transitioned into what seemed like some kind of preview trailer for this little dream game where two people were discussing features; the one that one of them highlighted was how sometimes a third team would enter the game, something that was represented by another team (though I seem to remember it was the same color of green) popped up on the minimap and a line moved from their base to the outposts.

A lot of triangle imagery in the second segment.

I have stumbled upon the DEILD technique and I think it suits me very well. Though I didnt have results last night and messed up my recall because of it, I trust it will use both my extremely powerful biological clock while giving me close to nothing to do. I learned that the more a technique is demanding on my part, the smaller the results. In other words, I fuck it up every time. So a quick WILD looks like the right way to go, because DILD is too random. Even when I had my only two DILD, i feel like it was just a lucky shot and id rather induce my dreams. If I get any success with this it may also reconciliate me with the traditionnal slow WILD which has proven a complete failure so far. I also like how you get multiple attempts per night. Even though I have had no results yet, im unaware as of wether the problem is my ability to stay still when waking up or entering a dream. I guess light will shed on this mystery later on. And now, my only dream fragment of the night.

I am in Quebec in my family when I hear my Ipod ringing. I take it out of my pocket and answer. Its Shao but I dont know it. I ask who it is and he answers with something incomprehensible. I go: Ok...What do you want? He tells me to come at his place but im not even at home. I say I am in Quebec and I cant come. Whats funny is that my ipod is no phone, it cant ring!

So, often I have these memories from when I was little and I just can tell if they are real or fake. I think I might have gotten them mixed up with dreams that I've had but I can't be sure. They just seem so real that I believe them. I guess I'll never know for sure..

I'm not going to make these purple because I believe they actually happened..


Please! Don't Take Me Away!
I was really little, maybe even a baby, not really sure, and some stange man was taking me away from my mother and he put me in a black car. I kept screaming for my mom and wondering why she would do this to me. I don't remember where he took me. Once in awhile, I ask my mom about this happening and she's like "That never happened." but I don't really believe her..

Barney Peed in the Sandbox?!
I was watching Barney(just like all kids did!). He was outside at a playground or something and there was a sandbox. He just.. peed in it. Then some little kids came around and were like "Barney! You're not supposed to pee in the sandbox" or something like that. To this day I still believe that I saw that while I was watching tv.

My Favorite Episode of the Little Mermaid
I was wathing the Little Mermaid(tv series) when Ariel got sucked into this hole in the ground with Flounder and they had to try to find a way out but it was really hard to swim against the current that was keeping them in it. They eventually got out, but I don't remember how. This became my favorite episode, but when I recently looked it up, I found no such thing! But this couldn't be a dream, I remember it so clearly because it was my favorite episode!

So.... is it reality or just a dream?

Dream Recall
[]More than one dream a night.
[]Vivid, detailed dreams.
[]Identify a Dream Sign

Lucid Goals
[] First Lucid Dream
[] First Stable, lengthy lucid.
[] Decent, consistent control.
[] Complete Dream Control
[] Lucid Dream within a Dream
[] Fly
[] Explore Space
[] Teleport
[] Telekinesis - Small scale
[] Telekineses - Large Scale
[] Create a small animal
[] Create a large rideable animal.
[] Breathe Underwater
[] World Building
[] LD more than once a month
[] "" week
[] "" night

Last night I decided to forgo listening to the binaural beats WHILE I slept and instead listened to them and THEN went to sleep. I slept much better. In fact I think I was so tired from my lack of sleep the night before I probably missed most of my REM cycle. When I woke up for my WBTB method I couldn't remember any of my dreams. So I did my WBTB method (woke up for a few minutes, checked email, and then turned on binaural beats and laid back down) and listened to the beats for a good twenty minutes. I then took them off and went to sleep. I woke up a good 4 hours later (quarter to ten, waaay later than I normally get up) and had this jotted down:

My wife and I are on an airplane that apparently goes to space. I'm excited but nervous and am not sure how to react. The plane takes off and then just as quickly Leah and I warp to the airport (what they say about speedy traveling in Dreaming is true, eh?) and we are walking around. We are in a big airport that sort of looks like a giant mall. It's really white and really open. We see a line of people at the suitcase rack and decide to head over. Along the way I ask Leah how long we're on vacation for and she says 'Two days'. I'm instantly upset and go, 'What's the point of a two day vacation. Let's go for five.'. We reach the line of people for suitcases and watch as different people run over to a guy handing them out and open the bags up. Dogs keep jumping out.

I should be upset I didn''t remember much but, honestly, I'm just glad I got a good nights sleep. Two more days of Infinity. Knock on wood and let's hope for some developments.