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Morning of November 26, 2014. Wednesday.



This is a dream more-so of a theme from several years back regarding the end of the human race and my family and I “moving on” to a better existence. It is typical to where I eventually have full control over my dream (as a “writer” and “director”) for the most part yet am not remotely lucid or even in a more vivid or defined state.

In my vaguer dream state, I am unsettled at the severe lack of intelligence on one dream “interpretation” site. I had actually joined the site recently, but do not plan on being much of an active part of it. One main “interpreter” (with about 20,000 posts) and another with 3,000 posts seem to have never correctly remembered any dreams in their lifetime or even know what dreams are. This is actually far worse than what I read when growing up and not wanting to have anything to do with dream dictionaries and such. Even though I am not aware I am dreaming, I ponder the two bizarre characters on that site and my proportional focus of being entirely “alien” by comparison. (This focus is what eventually builds the main dream itself, I think.)

One of the posters believes that all dreams are functions to wake up a person - sometimes because they are tired (which makes no sense at all - if you are tired you need more sleep or rest not less) - or in many cases, caused by a pain in the neck or arm in a certain position. He continuously claims all dreams are solely for waking you up and never have any meaning at all and that lucid dreaming is not possible. There are around 3,000 posts of this nature - all evidence the “interpreter” has never remembered a dream themselves or know what they are. The posts are so bizarre, I cannot help but have residual “alien” associations. While it is true certain types of dreams are influenced by the environment or physical body or sometimes produce scenarios to deliberately wake someone up, that is certainly not the main cause or purpose of all dreams. The other “interpreter” with the near-20,000 posts interprets almost everything as either “a thief” (and making references to serfs and pages/page boys and many other long-outdated social scenarios as if he is from another century) or “getting a money” - and yet people reference this poster when asking for “interpretations” on that site as if I am still living in the ancient Middle East. It is a strange world still.

Obviously, there are far worse things than the general lack of intelligence and valid information regarding dream work. The overwhelming corruption of authority comes into focus again.

At one point, there is a war between two groups of people. Apparently I actually am an “alien” as it is the “only” explanation for my perspective of society as it is. Oddly, though, other (unfamiliar) people that are seemingly average are also “alien”. There does not seem to be different DNA (other than human) to “explain” this. I am the leader of a group that is moving to a planet that is very close to Earth (which of course would not be possible in reality - planets cannot exist within a short distance of each other). However, before we can be fully free, we need to destroy the infrastructure of Earth so the governments will not corrupt the new planet. Mostly, miniature airplanes (about the size of a person with their arms spread out) that look like Fokkers (from World War I) fly around and destroy everything but without killing people. At times, I seem to be flying over various landscapes seeing what needs to be done. I see people running around in chaos and fear, but again, I do not see anyone being killed (unlike similar dreams of the past).

Over time, I am aware of the American president (Obama) agreeing to meet with two or three people from my group as well as me (it is extremely rare for me to dream of presidents in any context). After this meeting and shaking of hands at a public venue (after most infrastructure has been destroyed), my group and I walk down a sidewalk and begin to prepare to eventually travel to the other planet - and all our clothes change color - for us to elude other people (for example, snipers) who know what we had been wearing at that meeting. Still, I sense betrayal for the most part, and at any rate, we need to “begin again” on the other planet.

I mentally set off a huge atomic bomb of potentially worldwide destruction, or so it seems at first. It is not even that far away from where we are and I can see it towering into the sky in the distance, reminding me of a sunset in some ways. However, the explosion and mushroom cloud is slightly “frozen” yet moving in extremely slow motion. (This being similar to dreams where I control tsunamis to “freeze” their location or reduce their force or “play with their energies” sometimes experiencing ecstasy.) I casually walk along, and eventually decide to also remove the nuclear fallout potential from the event before I bring the event back to normal speed after we get to the other planet - there will still be all the otherwise healthy humans of Earth but without a means to reach us at this point, until they rebuild, I suppose…

no' much

sitting on the floor in my kitchen. My son sitting to my right, a man I never looked at standing to my left. I had a Lego game or something. I poured it onto the floor, there was a bunch of white bricks in a pile to my left. The man said 'You'd be better to bag those ones up just now' I said it was OK. I then turned to some more lego meaning to build something, and was slightly confuse that there was already a black Lego boat sitting there...

Two TV dreams

Watching a man swimming under water to a door

A narrator saying 'And then the viewers got a surprise', there was a black and white still of a lassie wearing unusual clothes.

Done.

Although I cannot remember exactly, I have been planning to get from UK to France.
Because somehow I was unable to fly or use a boat, the plan was to go in a truck. Some friend of mine had a father that could arrange that. The father was ill or disabled and would go too. I remember going to a boarder office somewhere at the harbour. I purchased some tickets and then returned to the loading bay where the truck was. Two builders were loading loads of bags with cement on the truck. There were bag everywhere.

Then I when we were just about to leave, the gather got stubborn and decided that he didn't want to go. Without him it would be impossible. I was sitting by the door, doing something, I have a feeling that it was somehow spying on him or plotting something to trick him.

thats all I know.

I was what seemed like in a bar. I remember a guy was smoking a cigarette. I got bad vibes from the place. I walked out.

Outside the gym, parking lot right up against woods. Park my car on the edge. Right off the edge the woods goes downhill into sort of a giant ditch. Nighttime. There are random pumpkins throughout the woods on the ground. Friend goes to check it out, breaks a pumpkin. There was a humanoid trapped in the pumpkin. Kind of like a fetus, but it would have never hatched if someone didn't break it out. Once broken out of the pumpkin humanoid was normal adult size. They look different though, kind of fluffy, more teeth, etc. I break more pumpkins, friend leaves at some point. They're heavy and difficult to break, it's hard work. Suddenly they start coming uphill on their own and breaking out on their own. I'm a bit scared, they just keep coming out. I'm not scared anymore, they're greatful to me. Government shows up and starts fighting them for some reason. We hide, I am their leader. Lots of running around the woods, etc.

Suddenly, I teleport to a different solar system. I fly over the outer planets (there are a few of them, then the two that are alike in color and size, then a small one near their sun. Their sun is a dull white color, as I fly into it, I become that star and I shine larger and more yellow (even though scientifically, the yellow is cooler, in the dream it feels warmer). Then I see from a 3rd person point of view, the sun and a moon hanging out in human form in a pool. They're in love, but for some reason it feels like it's wrong.

Fast forward to the center of the solar system, I, leader of humanoids control the team of robots. There used to only be 450 of them, now there is a team of 1800. They're like robots or mechas (think japanese anime), they can also terraform, activated by me with the code 06. I experiment moving the terrain.

I fall into an icy river, and race a polar bear to a floating ice berg. We both get there at once, and climb atop to get out of the water. Floating for a little while, we approach a large waterfall. I suspect there are lots of rocks at the bottom, so I jump to shore before falling over the edge. Several people run over the edge of it, telling me to do the same. It is really far to the bottom, so I can't tell if they made it safely or not. I decide it's too risky, and turn from the cliff. Walking uphill, a young lady is next to me, quite short, and I can't see her face. Suddenly, I recognize her, and she's my age it turns out. She climbs on my shoulders and I give her a ride to a small cottage. No one seems to be home, but she wants to check first before we go inside. I take in the beautiful warm night scenery around me as she checks. Not much light, just a dim glow to the grass, the ground, and the cottage. There are some trees in the distance that all blend together into one blob of shape and color. The whole dream seemed rather surreal, and very fluid.

I notice I am seeing myself from the 3rd person now, I am tied to a lawn chair on the beach, next to someone else who is also tied to a lawn chair. My head is strapped to a palm tree behind me, and I have a cut in my neck. It doesn't look good. I appear to be having my neck slowly cut open. I don't want to scream because of the hole in my neck, but it seems like I only have one chance to get help. I let out a huge yell (still watching in 3rd person as I do this), and blood spurts out of my airway that has been cut open, not making much noise. The man behind the tree then swings his heavy knife, and in a few whacks, severs my head from my body. I feel sick to my stomach. As soon as my head is severed, my body starts pissing freely into the sand, no longer under conscious control. A guy nearby laughs at me because I'm peeing myself. My killer sneaks up to him, and shoves my head right in front of his face. Scared greatly, he now realizes why my body was peeing.

My driver's pulling the car over. He apologizes for this - stopping here instead of taking me home. It's on "her" request. (He didn't literally use the word "her," we're speaking Korean.) He'll of course be here to drive me home afterwards, if I don't decide to throw him out and drive myself (which has happened before.) He's bracing himself for a bad reaction - which he probably would have gotten, I'm pissed off and want him to explain himself, but then I'm distracted by the people outside the car. Among all the people on the sidewalk with black umbrellas, there's one umbrella in dull red. I know the woman carrying it. I get out of the car.

I recognize where we are now - there are stone steps set into the white stone wall that runs alongside the road, leading up to a cemetery at the top of the hill. Someone I knew was buried there not too long ago. There are several people here with the woman with the red umbrella - they're dressed trendily, and I think of them as very young though I'm only a few years older than them. They're acting like they're going to a celebration, loud and upbeat. The woman with the red umbrella hangs back and takes my arm, watching my reaction to them. They're a part of the life of the person who was buried in that cemetery, but it's a part of his life that's completely foreign to me, something I never saw when he was alive.

I was at the beach with a friend, it was on the shore of a large river and it looked like we were in san Francisco because we could see the golden gate from there. We were casually talking about stuff, I remember him talking about going camping with a bunch of friends which I didn't know, but I said yeah why not, suddenly while I was looking In the distance I saw this HUGE meteor fall from the sky and hit the water pretty near us, there was an incredibly big explosion after, I could see the ground crack up and coming quickly at us, everyone panicked and started running, and so did I. Ditching my friend I ran for my life while everything was falling apart, after some time running I remember ending up in a forest or some kind of post apocalyptic forest, the landscape absolutely gorgeous, it was very green and we could still see some old building under the green carpet that the nature did over time, it felt like I was in a completely new timeline, but I knew I had to build a shelter or something. There was a waterfall with crystal clear water so I decided to build a camp near it. At this point one of my friend found me and decided to strand with me, I debated with whether or not we should fill our water bottle with the water, I insisted and he gave in.

We decided to go back to ground zero for some inspection and to assess the situation. While we were on our way we stumble on an old internet friend, when he saw me he was pretty happy and he showed me his real name Benoit Garneau, which is my grand dad name, that was weird but I was pretty excited about it for some reason, he joined us on our way to ground zero.

When we were at Ground Zero I remember that beautiful sight of the HUGE meteor which created a perfectly round mountain with some rigdes around and surrounded by water and with the devasted Golden gate jsut like in movies. There was now a retierement home being built with a water park across the street, I recall asking myself how much time was I in the forest.

That's pretty much what I remember.

I remember going to an interview for Activision for some game testing, once I was there I rushed to the men's restroom where I started to take a piss in the urinal. The place weirdly structured and it made me completely exposed if someone came in, someone did and it was a beautiful redhead, medium height with a cunning smile on her face, as I watched her come in I managed to miss a shot and splash her a bit with my piss (lol), I didn't notice at first but she looked at me and said something like, you know you could be fired for what you just did, and I said, did I just pee on you, she nodded. I was embarrassed, but she said it wasn't so bad and looked at my junk and said that it was quite decent then left the place. I was confused.

I'm not sure what happened next but I was in a classroom with her and some other guy, we were chatting as far as I remember. At this point we were in a MMO which looked just like real life, I remember finding out I was on an OCE server and told her I wish she'd come on US East, then I asked her where she lived, she was in New Brunswick, I asked her why'd she choose to be on OCE servers and she told me she had no clue. She started chatting with the other guy who looked like a huge orc in WoW and I just laid down and started to let my mind drift away. (The fact that she said she lived in NB kinda shocked me since I just ended a relationship of 4y because my ex-gf moved there and I decided I didn't want to follow, I remember being sad in my dream because of this) Once I was done drifting away I asked them if we should go get some ice cream, we all agreed and started to move.

(Note that I was strongly atracted to that girl but nothing actually happened yet, beside us being pretty at ease with each other and her calling out my junk earlier)

We were eating ice cream now and she started to be flirty with me, I kinda played back and then as I took the last bite of my ice cream she asked if she could taste it, I said sure and we just straight up make out, it was awesome (this is a scene from Oliver, stoned. Where the girl smokes weed for the first time, its a cheesy movie but I watched it the day before, now that I think about it the girl had a similar figure has the girl from the movie)

Anyway sometimes after that we started getting chased by some NPCs which we fought and and as we ran away, we "farmed & explored" in the MMo until I woke up.

I don't remember her telling me her name but when I woke up I remember writing it down and it was Evelynn, I have no acquaintances with that name and I felt pretty shitty when I woke up because I felt like I lost someone I had very strong feelings toward, it was just some sincere and unconditional love towards her even though we just met.

Some more from the past. Undated, Early August 2014:
We were reborn as children (5-6? yrs old) like in that movie, but there were somehow 3 of us instead of 2 (bf and I). The other me? didn't want to continue being with us, and said so and left. Just as I was about to tell bf (I still did later), our video connection got cut off on the laptop and the vehicle (a boat?) stopped suddenly, flinging me across the floor, with my laptop & white russian (drink) in hand. The drink fell overboard but me and the laptop got caught on the rails, and my new dad went over to console me.

Extra notes at the bottom:

• We remembered everything from past life
• What was that song?
• Cartoony angels at some point
• Woke up crying

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August 18th, 2014:
Virtual reality goggles, bunny rabbit as a pet

Undated:
Winter. Saw someone breaking into cars parked outside. I quickly hid behind the curtains but I was not fast enough. He saw, started walking around the apartment building, looking inside windows. We started turning off lights, triple-checking door locks, closing curtains.

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Later that night:
Some kind of pretty vial, said to contain LSD. We come from another dimension and brought it with us.

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August 4th, 2014: (word for word from paper)
Several dreams, do not remember them all. One of them was lucid, involved, being given shots for being 'crazy' because I had trouble talking, not sure if this was toward the beginning or the end. Floated around to maintain lucidity when started to lose it, gripped a metal object. Felt it, it was so real, cold, etc. Woke up at 3:40AM. Laying in bed until after bf left for work. Fell asleep again around 7ish, in and out. Saw a taxi from the sky, it drove into a river. Then I woke up inside a taxi driving on the road (snow covering everything in both scenes). I asked "Where am I?" and a voice out of nowhere said "[Friend's Name Here]'s House." and I opened my eyes to my bed. Vibrations/being pulled into wild. (I guess I got lazy at this point because that was the end of the page and no more notes)

I found myself near a school and was on the campus. I was looking at this rock that seem to have written my birthday on it. I got up closer to it because it seem odd and then I notice that the number 6 change in to an 8. That is when I notice that below the rock was the person name in honor. I turn my head and could see a few students coming this way. I decided to begin walking on the side walk passing by them and continue to follow the other departing students. That's when I heard one student call my name from behind me. I turn my head around to see it was a girl in a black hoodie sitting on a bench. I wave my hand and continue to walk on the side walk. On the other side to me I could see other participants taking a test outside. I then had to make a turn to continue walking and then went down another road in till I enter the back entrance of the school. I was still with the other group students that I thought were also leaving. That's when I notice one teacher blocking the next path way to the door. I lean against the door and observe the other students to see what they'll say. Randomly one student decided to go berserk and bash his way through and began panicking. I ask him what was the problem that got him work up? He seem like he was almost going to pass out due to hyperventilating. I can't remember what he exactly said but he did try to assure me that he was alright. We began walking through the hall ways as he stated he never felt more alive right now. He began spinning and doing flips to express his joy. Eventually the dream began to fade and I had a false awakening. I woke up and check my fingers but it was a bit blurry. Since I felt dizzy I figure it must be a dream. That's when I could see around the corners of the room that the dream was breaking down. I turn around and could faintly hear my father voice. A blue spark with yellow lines quickly pass over my eyes and that's when I lost lucidity. Lucidity Time: 5 seconds

I'm no' sure whats wrong with my recall...

I fragment.

Behind my counter at the shop. One of my employees came in. She was wearing a rather fetching grey tweed coat. She said 'Hello, its me' and stood and stared at me with a half smile.

that's it!

I'm walking around with featureless faces. Some black, some white. There's a distant song playing. I think it's the whole reason why I'm here, so I continue to let it pull me. I remember me wondering why am I following the song, but no answer comes. Suddenly the music stops and I do too. Then I hear a screeching noise. Then I see a face of someone I see at school. He just stands there, staring. I sense he's giving me a message but why won't he just talk. I ignore it and continue to wonder why the music abruptly stopped. Somehow I'm moving without it and after this I'm drifted into another dream-state of mind.
I'm walking the hall and I see my cousin. I go over and speak to her and she smiles and grabs my hand. She asks me what i'm doing here and I don"t remember responding. We come in contact with the student body of my school and we start running away from them. I shout "IT'S A STAMPEDE!" and we (my cousin, some guy, and I) start to sprint down the hall and I fall and reach out my hand for help but they keep running and I'm left in total abandonment. I look behind me and see hundreds of students running towards me. I close my eyes and open them and see some guy giving me his hand. I take it and we run.
I'm suddenly near more students but this time I'm alone and have tons of confidence. I walk into this round-about and reach some steps and walk down them. There I am accompanied by a weird sensational silence and as I start to leave the steps behind me collapse to nothingness. After that I cannot recall very much more.

I'm loading books into my locker and look to my left and see a guy looking at me. He stares with such wonder and promise and I look away in nervousness realizing it's the guy I like.