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This is my first lucid dream in a few years, and decided to retroactively add it to my journal since I still remember it, but never wrote it down.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I was somewhere outside, I don't remember the events leading up to it, but I suddenly had the urge to do a reality check. My first call is to check my palms, which often leads to a huge burst of lucidity regardless of the success of the RC itself. However, in this case, the success of the RC was the sole reason, given my left hand now had 7 wavy fingers.. That familiar feeling of lucidity rushed in, and upon looking up and away from my wavy hands, I now found myself inside, in a corridor of a dimly lit house, surrounded by faceless mannequins. Usually, dream characters vanish instantly upon attaining lucidity, but this was a rare exception for me. My first thought was to remain calm, but given that it was my first LD in many years, and came totally out of nowhere, I failed to remember to perform the right stability techniques. I glanced at the mannequins, which were bent over, almost on all fours as if they were posing for an art piece or waiting to pounce on me the moment I looked away. Shortly after, I lost lucidity and either woke up or faded back into a regular dream.

This dream was totally natural, and came from an afternoon nap, which makes total sense given that I only got 5 hours of sleep during the night, and my REM cycle typically begins around 4.5 hours. Going back to bed under these conditions gives me extremely vivid dreams, and I suppose I can owe this to becoming lucid

Recurring dream elements:
-School? I think this is where the outside location was prior to the reality check
-Edit: My previous lucid dream 4 years prior also contained mannequins. Worth keeping in mind

Notes:
-This is the only LD I've had where dream characters didn't immediately vanish upon becoming lucid. It's much more interesting

My second dream since restarting a dream journal. I had a lot of trouble recalling this one, and almost gave up, but I managed to stitch together enough fragments

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

The dream seemed to begin on a dark, destroyed map from The Headliners, which gameplay elements from Monster Hunter. I somehow ended up in an office, talking to Herman Li (of DragonForce) about his upcoming tour. He suggested that I buy tickets online, and receive one ticket for a US show, and one for Japan for some reason. I agreed, and decided to head to the local supermarket for some snacks to take with me. I came across what looked like an energy drink in a hard plastic bottle, which was themed around the bugs in Monster Hunter. I revisited this shelf to buy several of the same drink. I then ended up in my Grandmother's old house from when I was a child, but I don't remember much here. I went back to the supermarket one last time, and found there was no stock of the drink I had bought multiple times. Instead, there was one drink on the shelf, also from the Monster Hunter theme, called "Flash Phosphor". I picked it up, and a woman behind me got angry that I had taken the final one, but I ignored her entirely and went off to pay at the self-checkout. I went back out to the destroyed road, where it was dark and quiet. I turn around, and I realize I am being followed by two Jawa-like creature, but they are not harmful. Suddenly, two hideous women on Seikrets from Monster Hunter ride out past me. I seemed to assume they were from Final Fantasy, and was annoyed at how terrible the character designs of the franchise had become. They were shaved bald, obese and covered in tattoos. I continued down the dark road, and came across an eerie reception, where I could see small creatures similar to the Jawas from before, only they now resembled small, sad robots. They were completely lifeless, sitting in place with a sad expression.

Hopefully tomorrow is more vivid

Recurring dream elements:
-Monster Hunter, twice in a row now
-The Headliners, a game I've been playing daily with my friends. I will perform reality checks on both games now
-Local supermarket, visited IRL yesterday

Notes:
-Recall was very difficult and dreams were not vivid

It's been almost 5 years since I updated my DJ here, but having had a recent LD during an afternoon nap for the first time in a few years, I wanted to start pursuing it again for fun

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I started in the street of a shopping centre, doing some kind of messy Monster Hunter fight, with creatures flying in the sky directly above. After that, I went to some kind of theme park nearby, and entered some kind of mini-game house. Inside, there was an artificial grass hill with fake trees decorating it, and seemed to resemble a shooting gallery of some sorts. Myself and a male dream character had to shoot balloons that were rolling down the hill with a water gun, which needed to be reloaded with a hose against the back wall. I asked the dream character to help me reload my gun, but decided to get up and walk into the next room. In that room, I met a girl with long black hair, possibly Asian or Latina, and felt like I was there on some romantic occasion. An old lady let us stay in this new building, and I decided to go into the bathroom to freshen up after dropping off my belongings in the bedroom (which was also the living room?). I went into the kitchen, where things got a bit spicy with the girl, until a guy came in and seemed to claim her as his own. I remember being a little angry, and I walked outside with this guy, back to the street with the Monster Hunter creatures, and he reminded me about the lore behind the first 5 creatures created, the second of which was called Hawk Tuah (???). He then continues to claim this girl, getting hands on with her and holding her hand as she looked miserable. I took my anger out on a bus stop and started doing insane Monster Hunter combos on a nearby bus stop, juggling it in the air. Suddenly, everyone's voices became distorted and robotic like Hatsune Miku, and I left to go on a rollercoaster with the girl. The ride had no safety harness, and leaped off the track into the air before barely landing on another track several feet away. After getting off the ride, I found myself back outside my house investigating a shooting threat that took place in the local forest I often dream about. The suspect was a horribly disfigured bald man, which ended up waking me up a few hours later with nothing I could recall between

Overall, this was a great effort at dream recall considering I hadn't done it for 5 years prior. I was lucky to have left out a notepad the night before to get some notes scribbled down quickly after recalling as much as I could

Recurring dream elements:
-Monster Hunter, played a lot of Wilds since it came out 2 weeks ago
-Local forest area, very common

Notes:
-First DJ entry in 5 years, strong recall ability

March has been pretty sketchy for dreams. But then i haven't made the proper time or space for them either.
I do need to add my lunar eclipse night dreams.

(pre eclipse)

Lunatics
The world winks black. Souls sense disaster. My lone heart mourns. I will miss this rusty moon. Shade windows. Lock doors. Search shadows on all floors. Calm babies. One sleeps west. One sleeps east. Arm myself with bouquets of blades. They glint out from between fingers. "Look at me. I'm Wolverine," attempt to jest. We are too tense. A movement on the porch. The lunatics are here. "Is someone at the door?" I whisper and slowly slink near.

Sky Strings
A slowly undulating sky is waves of blue and white. I am transfixed and attempt to decipher the shapes made by the shifting strings of shells.


(post eclipse)

Hell Run
Tires slosh and sludge through boggy field. Water stands too thick, too deep. Try to back out but our beast coughs and dies. Others roar and spin. Can not escape the mess and mud. Smoke bellows from rears. Fire flares from fronts. None will help slow with the threatening glow that flickers neath the hood. Snuff out the flame. Abandon the game. There are better hells than these.

Warped Space
We flee into the empty embrace of a new found space. We are frightened. We are free. Rejoice with nothing but the clothes on our backs and a few sock tucked bills. She chooses the largest room as her own. I choose the smallest, heart hoarding hopes of minimalist mornings. Her floor is warped. We measure and make plans for her crooked place. "Look at the windows, we can watch the eclipse from here," I mention then forget what we are fixing. The place becomes a jumble of odd tilts and obtuse angles. Can't even care as I obsess over the coming of the blood moon.

My recall has still been crappy. Maybe one flash or dream per night. I have weekly work in stettler now, our family is restoring one half is a motel. We stay for 5 days, then 2 days in Bowden. We rotate staying home to look after the animals. And it's 30 per hour per person. Could take a few months. At least I have work for now.

Dreams.

Justin

Random dream about our recently former PM. Justin Trudeau. I was in a room like our living room. On a table, I saw a cinnamon bun. No one was around so I ate it. A second later Justin came in and looked at the table. He looked dissapointed at something and left.

Well, I guess he had it coming.

Jamie

Just a flash of Jamie with Dexter. They were both killing someone.

Wal Mart?

I was walking around a Wal Mart. I had memories of working there with a red head girl. But I think it was Jamie in the dream. But she wasn't there. I saw the door greeter guy with glasses who use to be a cashier and he's been there like 15 years.. The lobby, vestibule was like the co-op in Innisfail.

I really hope to have more Jamie dreams. Kind of sad we don't hang out dreams much anymore.

We've been doing good in the voice lately. Except yesterday I had a bad emotional episode, which hasn't happened in quite a while. We got through it and we seem to be on the same page.

Well me and the Jamie voice seemed to have calmed down regarding whatever it was we were having trouble with. That's good. I can't believe it's been over a year already.

Jamie

Just a dream that she was following me in her car.

Note: I hardly left my house. Just a couple times to get coffee. Maybe had a drive by... Black SUV, dark hair and sunglasses, but I couldn't really see. The voice didn't say anything about it.


Jesus

Just a flash of Jesus watching me and Jamie. Or maybe he was with us? Can't remember the details.

I can't remember the other dreams I had. Something about being driven somewhere and arguing with my brother or something.

Hey guys, it's me Math and I'm here for a reason. Hopefully this isn't a bannable reason? If it is... well it's quite autocratic isn't it.

Anyways yeah, I'll be updating this Journal every. single. day. Until I am able to have Lucid Sex Dreams about Emma Watson every single night without fail. I'll be doing anything in my power to achieve this! Yes, I am a horny teenager, leave me alone.

I have basically unlocked unlimited motivation.

I have got close to doing it in the past, but I would just get so excited and wake up... Which is SUPER fucking annoying. I really hope this thing only takes me like... 6 months?

I haven’t really been practicing lucid dreaming (LD) much these past few years. I still have random sleep paralysis (SP) episodes that are mostly unpleasant or creepy, but sometimes they get interesting.

Last night was not an SP night, but I was experimenting with grounded bed sheets because something has been causing poor sleep. It was a cheap option and worth a shot. I have no idea if my dreams last night were related to being grounded or if it was some sort of unexpected placebo, but it’s worth noting. That said, my sleep didn’t improve much, and I ended up taking a Xanax my doctor prescribed because he thinks my sleep issues are all anxiety-related. I’m not convinced.

Anyway, in the first few hours, I had a very long, confusing, but vivid dream. I think it stemmed from a mix of recent work travel and past events. Long story short, I was preparing for a flight to join the military (funny because I’m way too old), and my mom was there (RIP). I started to realize joining the military was a bad idea. I went to say goodbye to my wife, but she was my ex-wife, and then she morphed into a co-worker with the same first name. She looked confused and standoffish. Mom told her to say goodbye and enjoy our last moments. I said she never gave a shit anyway. I turned to the boarding ramp, and my anxiety kicked in with racing thoughts about how I didn’t want to do this.
I had periods of restlessness and ups and downs after that. My anxiety was still intense, so I took a Xanax.

Late in the morning, my alarm went off for my workout, but I was too exhausted to care, so I gave myself another hour of sleep. When the alarm rang again, I was sleeping so well that I hit snooze a ton. In between snoozes, I had multiple false awakenings that I caught onto. I even did a nose-plug reality check in one—it’s always so weird to blow through that. The lucid dreams were mostly low-quality, but I played a lot with morphing through objects. In one instance, I was looking at myself in the bathroom mirror, and my face morphed like Ponyo when she’s doing magic (we recently rewatched that movie). So, I morphed into the mirror—it was very Matrix-like. Other times, I did things like morph through the floor into the crawl space, only to find our three cats milling about down there. The rest was just passing through walls and floating around the house.

All of this is very interesting if it has anything to do with the grounding sheets. I don’t expect this to happen every night, but I’m hopeful and will definitely keep it in mind.

The sun hits hard outside while I walk on an empty square. I hold my chin up thinking no thoughts since nothing can possibly come to mind at this point. I continue walking, rubbing my chin as I do and wandering aimlessly for a solid 6 seconds or so. Turns out when one is doing a whole lot of nothing you'll naturally end up doing something up there in your head. Give me enough time to waste in-dream and I'll eventually figure things out.

I begin thinking.

Wait! This is a dream!

A sense of relief washes over me.

How long has it been?

I push forward and now it dawns on me this realization that I'm still here, alive in the dream.

I'm still dreaming.

There is no restriction in place, to my surprise. No restraint of this body. What's more, I bear no reference to my real body outside this place. No vibratory force is pulling me out of my dream tonight.

I run in circles one, two, three, four times even! I run around and smile from ear to ear the entire time. I stop suddenly and focus on the ground in front of me. Can I pull this off? A need to tear the terrain apart and open it up from each side, and push whatever is below to the sky and above. We're talking a small demonstration of power here. I hold still and stare at the spot where everything is about to happen.

Wait, what in God's name am I supposed to do here?!

I picture the events in my head and await the inevitable.

Nothing.

I lose grasp of myself in an instant. Everything turns dark all of a sudden and a force rushes in and strikes me all over. I know now what is actually going to happen.

The dream ends.

Had a panic moment when DV wasn't loading for a bit...

Jamie 1

Not pg 13... Me and Jamie were watching porn.... Jamie excitely pointed at the screen at something I won't mention.


Oh well. Weather we are being good or getting into trouble as long as "we're together".

Jamie 2

I'm not in the dream. Jamie is with some woman. They are... I won't mention. But jamie abruptly cuts the woman off and leaves quickly and angrily. I think the voice was telling me something like this.

Other random dreams I can't seem to recall much. One was work related. I was working with a ladder but the ladder went away? not sure.

I was hoping the more affectionate dreams can come back. Like hugging, hand holding, and kissing.

BTW everyone is working out of town but me until next week. If Jamie wants to do one of her drive by stuff on me... or even talk to me. These next few days are a great time. I'll be watching!!!

Let's try to be good from now on.

Last night’s lucid dream was insane! 😱 Here’s how it went down:

🕰 **Slept at 11:30 PM with the intention to wake up at 4 AM.**
⏰ **Woke up at 4:01 AM, stayed up till 4:06 AM, then did SSILD.**
⏳ **It took an hour, then I got up, went to the bathroom, did another SSILD cycle, and fell asleep in 10 minutes.**

💤 **DEILD Attempts:**
I woke up twice during the night and tried DEILD but moved my foot by mistake both times. 😭 Instead, I did a short SSILD cycle and fell asleep both times.

🌟 **Lucid Dream Begins:**
I was in front of my school with classmates when I randomly decided to do a reality check. 🏫👀 I pinched my nose and—BOOM—I was dreaming! 😲 But then, something in the dream started pulling my arms, trying to take away my lucidity. 😨 I resisted and yelled “FU!” 🤬 and suddenly, everything went black.

⚠ **False Awakening (FA) #1**
I expected an FA and woke up in an unfamiliar house, but the bed was mine. 🛏️ I stabilized by rubbing my hands and touching the ground—it felt *so real*! 🙌 Then, I explored the house:
🏡 **Lobby:** Plastic plants on a table.
📖 **Room:** A white room with an almirah near the entrance. On the top shelf were photo frames with quotes—one said *“positivity conscious.”* 🤔
📦 **Shelf Below:** Shoeboxes! I tried summoning an anime figure inside one, but lids kept appearing. After opening three lids, I found... useless trash. 😑

🚀 **Flying & the Void:**
I went outside and found myself in my street. I tried flying and—for the first time—felt the *wind* while flying! 🌬️ But it wasn’t as thrilling as I hoped since I had no fear of heights. Next time, I’ll try to *create* fear for a better experience! 😈 Eventually, I got pulled into the void.

⚠ **False Awakening (FA) #2**
I *chose* to have another FA and woke up in the same bed. But this time, I got scared because something *moved near my bed in the dark.* 😨 Instead of panicking, I tried **Inception-style dream-sleep** 🌀 by lying down to enter another dream. After 10 seconds of nothing happening, I gave up and went outside.

🌌 **Hyper-Realistic World & Dream Memory Confusion:**
- I looked at the stars and demanded *clarity.* The dream zoomed out, and I told my right eye to remove *just a little* blurriness. It worked! 👁️✨
- Another FA, but this time it was *daytime.* 🌞
- Everything looked **hyper-realistic.** The colors of the plants were insane! 🍃💚
- I floated to a house, and memories *flooded* my mind—I thought, *“Wow, this is where my relatives and I had a party!”* 🎉
- Inside, I saw *fake models* of my relatives sitting exactly as I remembered them. 😳 *But when I woke up, I realized... that party never happened!* It was just a dream I had *last year!* 🤯

⚠ **False Awakening (FA) #3**
This time, I was on a balcony, but my house was now in a market area. 🤷*♂️ A dream character below asked for the price of shirts. 👕 I jumped down and told him 350. 💰 We started arguing, and he *poked my chest*—I actually felt pain (about 50% of real life)! 😵 (I also felt pain earlier when flying into a thorny bush. &#127807

👀 **Weird Ending:**
The dream character and a girl started talking in gibberish. 🤪 I pulled the girl with me and *tried* having lucid x, but her skin felt like **cloth.** 🏴 It was too dark, which ruined my mood, so I *went back to the void* and tried waking up in a **helicopter** 🚁 but woke up IRL instead. 😅

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Overall, this dream was **crazy**—so much control, multiple FAs, hyper-realistic moments, and even pain! 😵*💫 Can’t wait for the next one!

March 1st

Bender
We mean to leap, just for the thrill, from a platform too tall and thin. A meaty man comes to stand at the top with us. The tower bends. Clench arms and legs round warped metal. We near slingshot off as the heavier one falls from the platform. Tower stands. Platform stills. Now comes our time to trust and leap, saved only by a bungee cord. Now, to the next thrill.

Swift Step Out
We are in line, for hours it seems. Step. Step. Step. Wait. This slow torment for a chance to enjoy a concert by Taylor Swift. Taylor Swift? Why am I here? Step out of line. Pass my ticket to a passer-by. Explore the streets of this strange city instead.

Street Steaks
Snow stands high. Sister and I sleigh ride until we shiver. She sparks a fire in a giant pothole mid street. We gather round to warm. Suddenly sister is grilling steaks over the street hole. A Studebaker slows and circles every so often. Keep our eyes sharp as steaks sizzle.

Lake Blanket
Waken to the warmth of sun upon my face and the chill of water about my body. I sleep on the sand. Except for my head, my entire body is covered by a crystal sleek blanket of lake. I am rested, languid, naked. People pass. Some stretch their claws my way. With a pacific hiss remind them that my nakedness is not an invitation. They heed.

Flat Collapse
A wide, flat construction collapses. I see it with my dusty eyes. I feel it with my rusty soul. Far too many died. Try to out run the memory. Everywhere I go it follows me on television, on my phone, on the lips of morbid creatures.

Tri Job
Skittering again through familiar halls. Happy to return, dutifully I perform the tasks of my three jobs. Should be overwhelmed but oddly, I am not. A jumble of patterns smooths the madness.

Collapse
She flips her phone my way, "Look at this!" Upon the screen is a booming crash and broken screams. Turn my face away. "I dreamed that just last night. I'm afraid I'm starting to get precognitive dreams," comes the quietest of confessions. She thinks it's a great, god granted gift. It is not a gift if all such dreams are of future disasters.

i unfoutunately have not had and memorable dreams in like weeks

As if in response to my last entry, there was a couple nights I had a tough time talking to the voice. Her voice admitted to being distant and apologized. Lately we've both seemed to be mentally entertaining similar vices we have. Not physically at least, and I won't say what. Her voice asked for privacy in the matter. But last night we both seemed to agree that said vices threatens to keep us apart, and we are both addicted to the security of coming back together after mentally dipping our toes in danger.It's kind of like the couple that breaks up all the time to have make up sex. But it's not specifically that. Maybe it's a borderline thing, I dunno. I just hope IRL we can find better ways to keep the relationship exciting and safe. Having a stable relationship can be boring sometimes, but it's better for people like us in the long run

Dreams:

Fire

There was a tiny demon in Jamie's room laughing and setting fire to her room.

Jamie


Quick flash of me being on a dock at night. Jamie was there with me staring at me.

Last night was INSANE! I had one of my best lucid dreams so far, and I finally stabilized well enough to feel the dream world 100% accurately! Here’s how it went:

😴 WBTB & SSILD Attempt

I woke up at the same time for WBTB, but during SSILD, I kept getting distracted in the first few cycles.

I tried a 1-minute hyper-focus cycle, but still got distracted.

After a few minutes, I fell asleep and had a normal dream—but my awareness was slightly higher than usual.

💡 Low Lucidity Moment

Suddenly, I found myself in my room, looking at my dirty white shoes.

I knew it was a dream, but my lucidity was barely 1/10—super blurry vision, foggy thinking.

I realized if I didn’t act fast, the dream would take away my lucidity!

🔥 Boosting My Lucidity from 1/10 to 9/10!

I snapped my fingers, and my shoes instantly became clean (small dream control success!).

I got up and tried to move, but my vision was still messed up.

I randomly started dancing (lol, no idea why) to boost lucidity, but it didn’t work. 😆

Then I did finger counting (using math to increase logic), and it helped a little!

Finally, I rubbed my hands together—BOOM! My skin felt 100% real, and my lucidity jumped to 9/10!

I touched the ground, and for the first time ever, I could fully feel the texture of the tiles!

🌀 The Void & Dream Scene Change Attempt

I got excited and thought, "Should I spawn a girl?" but instead, my body started elongating weirdly.

I focused on the feeling of elongation, and suddenly, I was in the void—but I could still feel my fingers and the stretching sensation.

I tried to visualize a beach, but it just looked like a laptop wallpaper instead of a real dream. 😅

When the dream finally formed, I was inside Minecraft spectator mode, and then I found myself playing the game on my laptop!

My lucidity dropped a bit here, and instead of breaking out of the game, I tried to press the ESC key (lol, if I were more lucid, I’d have thrown my laptop away).

🚨 Woke Up Due to Overheating

I tried to close the game, but it didn’t work, and then I woke up, covered in sweat—probably because of too many blankets. 😆

Overall, this was an epic success! If I can get this level of lucidity once, I can definitely do it again! 💪🔥