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03.10.2013

Lab Torture (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am a young girl, maybe 7 years old. I am locked in a laboratory where an evil man is performing cruel experiments on me and this boy who is a few years older than me.

The boy is thrown back into the lab after one of his tests. He says that he has been shot in the stomach and needs my help getting the bullets out. He hands me a pair of needle nosed pliars and starts to take off his shirt. I'm somewhat confused, because he has breasts like a girl, but he is a boy in every other aspect. I decide to not think about this.

He shows me where he had been shot, but the wounds are completely healed and are now just scars. He seems confused. I realize that he must have special healing powers, and I tell him this. He says it makes sense, because they injected him with something before his tests started.

I get an idea. "This might sound kind of gross," I begin, "but... Do you think that if I drank some of your blood, it could heal me?" I currently have a broken arm because the evil scientist became angry with me.

The boy says it couldn't hurt. He is just about to give me some of his blood when the scientist rushes in. He looks furious. "HOW DARE YOU TRY TO TAKE HIS BLOOD!?" he screams at me. I curse myself for not realizing we are being monitored.

He visciously breaks both of my legs until I am screaming and crying on the floor.

There was more to the dream after that, but I no longer remember.

Original entry dated Feb. 18th, 2002:

I dreamed that I woke up and pressed my hand against my forehead. My skin was moving. You know how it feels when goldfish (or any other sort of fish, except for maybe piranhas and oscars) nibble at your fingers? It felt like that - all over my forehead - dozens of tiny moist nibbles.

I got up and looked in the mirror. My forehead was covered in dozens of tiny red... mouth-things... only without teeth. Moist, cherry-red little mouths, each about the size of a pimple, gapping open and closed and each of them making tiny peeping sounds like baby chicks. I couldn't stand looking at them, or bringing my hands anywhere near my face - I just wanted to gouge them off...

...I went to the doctor, and they were apparently some sort of parasitic infection. I learned that, unfortunately, it spread really fast and through skin-contact. There was only one way to treat them, too. The doctor had to inject each mouth - individually - with an antibiotic ointment. It wasn't so much painful as disgusting. When they died, they shriveled up and fell out in tiny brown balls, leaving dozens of tiny, deep holes in my forehead.

I haven't updated my dream journal in ages, whoops.

Anyway, I FINALLY had another lucid dream last night!

It started out as a false awakening; I don't remember what made me realize I might be dreaming, but I remember I was standing in the kitchen at the time. I counted my fingers, and I was PRETTY sure I'd counted six. I wasn't entirely sure I'd counted correctly, though, so I decided to check my other hand just to make sure. However, before I could count my fingers, I noticed something else that was a dead giveaway - my Hylian crest ring (which I wear on the index finger of my left hand) had a different symbol on it, and a larger version of that symbol also appeared across my index, middle, and ring fingers (think like a henna tattoo, but golden and slightly illuminated).

My mom was in the kitchen, so I started talking to her, since I knew I had to try to keep talking or actively focusing on something (I wake up within moments otherwise). After a moment of talking, I suddenly said, "Did you know this is a dream? This is how I know." I showed her the ring and the image across my fingers, which changed each time I looked at it. The last time I looked at it, I remember that the ring had a picture of a tree, and on my fingers were the mountains behind it. It was actually really cool.

I knew I needed to come up with ideas of things I could only do in a dream, and I knew it would be best to start with simple dream control techniques as practice. I announced that I was going to try to phase through the door (a skill that might come in handy in a later dream, right?), only to end up slamming into the door and not passing through. Oh well, I tried.

I asked my mom if she had any other suggestions of things I could try, but she asked me to leave her alone for a moment because she was busy cooking. Normally, this would have been fine, but, since this was a dream, I had to find a way to keep myself in the dream in the meantime.

I remember chattering away to myself for a moment before stopping and accidentally waking up.

This bat looking creature, he only looks this way though if hes been touche by light, he looks human otherwise as long as he dousent get into the light. This creature man is on our side, till my brother betrays him, because my brother dousent want me with him, it almost kills my brother. Then the bat creature goes evil. We then begin to hunt this bat man down, i have these mind powers that are very wide, so i can do a lot of things. we then find a lead, where he is hiding under a tent similar to one you would see at someones wedding reception and we go in. Its dark under the tent but its daylight, so if anything goes bad the bat man cant hunt us. Suddenly the tent goes down, my brother and everyone's gets out but i get trapped. I begin to scream and cry as i can hear this thing coming towards me, hes not in his human form but the bat form. I begin to scream to him " i love you" and he begins to sniff around my head like a dog does when you playing with it, i cry horribly loud and cry deeply. He recognizes me and takes me to where he is hiding, while i continue to cry and realize im crying because i do love him but i cant handle this other form of him. Then my brother goes and hangs him from a tree but somehow he gets free and does it to my brother and now i have to go and save him.

And I promise. All without the aid of any "dream enhancer."

I'm pretty sure I know the hidden meanings, but I want to write it down anyway, cause parts of it are so darn weird.

It started out, with me being about 4-5 years old. My mother even had her 70's hairstyle and she was young again It was night time and I had a twin sister (IRL I dont even have a sibling, let alone a twin). Somehow I found out when I was 5 that I had my right leg cut off just below the hip (mid thigh say), I was walking around on a prosthetic leg (ugly plastic barbie doll leg made for "5 year old me"). Then I was healed - suddenly my natural leg was back under me, and no one wanted to tell me that I had once even lost my leg or worn a prosthetic - it was like "pretend it never happened", but somehow I learned that this whole thing had happened, I had a moment of lucid realization (wow, shocker to hear that at a lucid dreaming forum), and suddenly I was filled with exhilaration because I knew about this, and I knew I wasn't supposed to know about it. For some reason, the "missing leg" also included a "missing twin sister", they were somehow connected. Dream changes.

I'm in a strange little dress shop, filled with ORANGE, and in-your-face colorful clothes that I wouldn't be caught dead in. A friend of mine named Ace was there, and he had something in his hand, looked like a tiny galaxy but it was a tiny black hole/vortex that was sucking everything, even light, he was catching these things, they were quite a few of them hidden in the clothing of this shop, and we were going around finding them. I was cautioning him about touching them, saying "You might lose a leg doing that so be careful" and I'm telling him my story about how I had to wear a prosthetic leg as a child (YEH, mind fucked me, the dream from before was now a back story to this one and whats hilarious is that in this segment of the dream, I was aware that my story was from the previous dream).

Dream switched and we were hiding in a huge building, like a school, only we were hiding in a stairway that went UP, and DOWN, and you couldn't see the ceiling or floor. There was a window so you could see outside, and the weather was rainy. There was fog all around, sometimes even in the stairway. I felt like I had to get something, so I woke up.

Prosthetic leg/losing a leg

• not having a leg to stand on
• feeling crippled
• losing my partner, watching him die makes me feel alone and I'm scared
• losing part of myself
• my mom being gone
• feeling like i cant make it on my own

Tiny black holes

• living life with no hope for tomorrow
• playing with fire
• feeling out of control
• feeling like I can't stop it
• fighting to control an unstoppable force of nature

Colorful clothing

• having to "put on" a persona in order to survive
• spiritual armor

hiding in the stairway with no end to up or down in sight

• its the best thing to do when you cant move or do anything
• waiting for a direction so i can move with it

I didn't write up anything yesterday when I had some recalls. So I do it now.

Location: gf

Bedtime: 00:05
First wakeup: 07:06
Final wakeup: 10:05

Notes before bed: I dreaming


Apartment (fragment)
I was in a cool apartment that was owned by some kind of work/company I had.
I were emptying the dishing machine there.
Then before I went to bed I talked with my gf over Skype.

White trash (dream)
I were in my dads parents house. At first I was in the bathroom, but then I went out to the kitchen.
I knew the people I refer to white trashes, was living there too. I went to the freezer and I was wondering if my food were left.
I had a look and discovered a 1/2 bite of one of the 2 pizza bottoms I had in the freezer, was like ripped of and gone.
I got very angry and shouted/scremed at the white trash people who were in the living room watching TV.
They were about 6+ people there, and they shouted back at me and said they hadn't done any wrong.

Soccer elite (fragment)
I was in a soccer field with a team of players. It was the elite I played with, it was training, no match yet.




That's it.

i woke up and understood that its a dream, because picture was bad. I went to the entrance and near the lift saw several boxes with the different tools - hammers, spanners and so on. I desided to break some of them, but couldn't. The tools bent but didn't break. I heard the sound of coming lift, afraid of something, went through the door into my flat and awoke.

tonight i appeared in my brother's dream talking about LD . he decided to RC ( fingers through palm ) and became lucid. he tried to fly ( never did it in regular dreams ) and it faded quickly

i'm so happy for him, he's only 13. now he had a glimpse of it so i don't need to keep on telling him how fun it is unless he can't get lucid again

So in this dream, me and some friends were at some kind of convention, and not much was really happening, however, eventually we heard news that somewhere nearby was going to be nuked, so everyone started to panic and I decided to get as far away as possible. I eventually got separated from my friends and stole a car. I ended up getting the car stuck on some train tracks, so I left and continued on foot. Eventually I arrived at this town and the nuke happened. Luckily I was far away enough for it to not have much of an effect on me. This town was kind of ruined, and I found a friend hiding there. We found another car and decided to see if it was working. While in the car, in that same town, we saw a zombie! We quickly got out of there and headed back to where we live. Once at my hometown, we were reunited with our other friends, and it turns out there's a zombie apocalypse going on. We saw one of my neighbours on his roof, because he thought staying on his roof was the best idea. We didn't see any zombies for a while, however, while I was with some people who were planning to protect the town from zombies, we got told that 7 zombies have been sighted, and then everyone ran off to deal with the problem, except for me, I hid. Then, a zombie came out of a vent and into the room that I was in, but suddenly a group of zombies opened the door and they somehow started communicating and all left. I headed back to my house and found UV lights around every possible entrance. It turned out that the zombies apparently don't like them, so the best way to protect yourself from them was with some UV lights.
And then I woke up

My dreaming mind wants to know why bother with dream fragments. My waking self is shocked that this is not clear.

Too groggy now to type.

EDIT:
This dream fragment indicates that my subconscious mind is becoming impatient with dream journal and dream recall, and would like to cut some corners. My conscious mind says "No!" First of all right now most of the dreams I remember are dream fragments, and it's still way too early to take dream recall for granted and not to work on it as hard as I can. Also a lot of my dream fragments have been gems in my opinion: I greatly enjoy and treasure them, so not focusing on recalling and writing down all dream fragments would be a bad idea.

3rd of March:
I was casually going through what seemed to be a rather large science center with all sorts of weird stuff for ages, then just a little bit before it became lucid, I was using some weird sink that was invisible, but when water touched it, it became like a mirror for a bit, and within a minute after that I suddenly decided that I was having a dream, and so I went and [well, I'll leave this part out, involves two people, let's leave it at that ] and while I was doing what I was doing... my senses(touch anyway) started blending in with real life, so I could begin to feel my bed in real life, the excact was I was sleeping on it, and in the middle but towards the end of that, same thing, but with sight, and boom, end of dream.


4th of March:
Went to sleep as per normal(outside of the dream), woke up at about 3:30AM to get a drink as my mouth was really dry. As I went back to bed, I realised I forgot to set my alarm so I did, went to sleep while saying to myself that I was dreaming, and weirdly enough I started slipping into the dream straight away, and it lasted for about... less than a minute or two. Woke up again, did the same thing and went to sleep again, same results. Woke up one last time, took forever to get to sleep, and no more lucid dream
Also, I know that I actually did wake up and go back go sleep otherwise I would have been late for my class...


Just a random note: On the 3rd of march, Inception was on tv, and I watched it on my computer but only got half way through(had to go to bed). Coincidence much?

I started out in my dream at my mother’s house. It was night time. I was apparently in bed. I, my mother, and my brother woke up to bombs roaring in the distance. Outside, our house was on a hill in the desert. I looked out of a bedroom window and saw the bombs lighting up the night. It wasn’t lightning. There was some sort of alien cruiser dropping bombs on a city. The skyscrapers were futuristic looking. There were fires on the side of the buildings. It was really dark, so you couldn’t see anything except when the bombs light up the sky. Now this cruiser wasn’t Covenant, UNSC, or Forerunner from halo. I play halo a lot, and know what their ships look like. It wasn’t from any movie I have seen. I could only see a glimpse of the ship’s shape, and I couldn’t tell what color it was because of night time. It kept shooting burst of electric balls down on the city. This was their bombs. Then I knew it was time to gear up. I opened the closet. There was camouflage and tactical gear in the closet. There were assault rifles called SCAR/MK 16 in there too. It was awesome. Soon as we were geared up, we decided to get out of the house and get away from there. Right before we were about to go outside, the US army is running past our house, shooting back at something. They were shooting at 8 feet tall aliens in metal armored suits. They had helmets and really strong armor on. Then an M1A1 Abrams come out from behind the house and killed the alien. We quickly ran out of the house and joined up with the army. The dream then faded. This concludes my dream.

Last night I had a dream that I was with all of the characters from the show "Shameless". We were in some kind of dirt cave digging something up. I distinctly remember the main character, Fiona. At one point in this dream I was also in a public restroom somewhere. I remember not being able to "go" because some other woman was in there washing her hands and there were no stalls - just a toilet and a sink and lots of space....

Recall from naps also stabilization suddenly does not works?

Nap #1:
Dream 1:

I wake up, take off headphones, can still hear binaurals. I do some stabilization, rubbing hands. As i go towards balcony dream just fades out.
I wake up for a short period of time.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was at home watching some anime and dad suddenly entered room and started talking that he hates that certain dude from that anime. He explained it that they were in the same bath house(somehow), and anime dude was the only one not naked and was laughing at him.

Dream 3(fragment):

I was browsing some stuff on my PC and writing DJ entry, then i got to change chair and as i got into different chair i got paralyzed and dream faded out.

Nap #2:
Dream 1:

I wake up, take off headphones, can still hear binaurals. I do some stabilization, touching bed with hands and rubbing hands. As i go towards balcony dream just fades out again.
I wake up for a short period of time.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was helping friend with anime translation or something and we were not able to find meaning of 'Hakuda'. We had idea that it had something to do with ice(Apparently not).

Date: March 9, 2013 ||| Time Block: 10:00 AM to 11:45 PM ||| Length: 2 minutes. ||| Lucidity: level 2. ||| Entry Type: DILD ||| Major Methods: WBTB

Methods: stayed in bed to continue sleeping since I was still tired.

Summary: had a number of short dream clips in which I was lucid; I don't feel like writing them right now. (it was accidental lucidity, since I haven't been focusing on lucid dreaming for a while now) Well, I'll just quickly mention that one part was my waking up, walking into my parents' room, suspecting I was dreaming, knowing this once I saw the rooms were off, and then supposedly 'waking up' after fall-jumping onto their bed, although I think I actually woke up into a non-lucid dream.