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March 6, 2013 - 4.5 hours in - 2 minutes or more - WBTB, SSILD, MILD

Woke via alarm after 3.5 hours and got in a comfortable chair and did about 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length. Afterward I did a mantra of "1, I'm dreaming, 2, I'm dreaming, 3..." while trying to visualize each digit up to 25, then went back to bed.

My hand passes through the computer monitor like it isn't even there. While my hand is in it, I feel it touch an edge, but I can keep passing through this. I touch a glass paperweight and it is solid. My steadily rising awareness becomes full lucidity around this time. I rub my hands and plug my nose and breathe.

After this I think to myself it has been 10 minutes already. However, I do not think this was actually the case, but perhaps I had been there 10 minutes pre-full-lucidity or this sensation of time passing was manufactured by the dream.

I ate a gummy fish that was sitting there, which is realistic but less chewy, and head upstairs. It is night and I try to look out the window in the front door, but for some reason it is too high. I try to jump, and with difficulty I do so and see large pine and regular trees which are not there in real life.

I head into the bedroom which is also dark and someone is watching TV. It shows a dark room which I think might be something creepy, but its actually just a guy who looks like T. coming in and talking to someone.

I wish i could have recalled start of dream 2 in better quality, other than that pretty good so far.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was in my room playing some video games and eating some weird food. I was surprised to find that in the latest patch there was new character added to the game i was playing. It looked like small dragon.

Dream 2:

Don't remember much of start of the dream, but there was some multiplayer game with classes(by that i mean player classes) about two teams fighting over some locations. There was number of various classes, including some 'monster' classes that i really wanted to try, but game was telling that they are pretty hard to play, and considering i was pretty new to it according to dream, i picked one of more normal classes. I was actually in the game instead of just playing it also. I can't recall much for a while but i think there was mostly just fight for points going on, i might have even played as one of the 'monster' classes.
Later on there was some virtual grid like area where i had to fight some sort of danmaku boss, i had number of problems dealing with it's attacks and had to retreat a few times but eventually i defeated it.
Then i was in my room and there was some dude that looked suspiciously like sniper from Team Fortress 2, we went to the balcony and we were talking about a bunch of things including some stuff about lucid dreaming, though i didn't got lucid.
I was again in the game and i was playing as one of the stronger classes with some sort of energy gun/cannon as a weapon, there were bunch of other players and we were in some cityscape. I took position at the bridge which had good overlook and shortly another boss appeared, it was some sort of big pterodactyl creature that was flying around and attacking from the sky, there was also bunch of other weaker enemies appearing around. It was pretty easy boss and our plan was to be sure to defeat as much of the cannonfodder enemies as possible before downing the boss, since whatever appearing next is quite more powerful and we didn't wanted to be distracted by weaker enemies at that point. I was kiting the boss while others were mostly dealing with stream of weaker enemies, i could easily dodge or block most of it's attacks, but apparently i was too strong and ended up killing it a little bit too early(there was 4 or so other enemies left).
Suddenly the cityscape started shaking and HUUUUGE turtle appeared(For reference buildings were 8-12 floors tall, turtle was at least twice as tall while it was moving on all four, really huge). It was destroying buildings with ease and was slowly coming for us. We were concentrating fire on it, but shortly turtle opened it's mouth and started firing huge yellow/orange beam at us. It was way off from my location but apparently, it was not a simple beam. Once it reached bridge we were mostly on, it got split to the left and the right with 90 degrees angle, almost hitting me. And if THAT's not enough the side beams started radiating some yellow lightning blasts that started hitting me, though since i was one of the strong classes it was not that much of damage and shortly i started dodging those blasts. Eventually we have defeated the boss.
I was back at the home balcony again, talking to that TF2 Sniper looking person. He called his two of friends and there was more of talk that i can't recall.
I and TF2 Sniper looking person went to some sort of training area, it was huge construction made of chains and platforms. He said i was not strong enough at parkour and in this area i was supposed to get as high as possible by hanging and quickly jumping from chain to chain. First few attempts were not much of success, i kept losing height on jumps. But later i managed to reach one of the goal areas, though TF2 Sniper person said that my timing on grabs is all wrong and that i need to practice more.
We were back at the balcony, though his friends were not there. I asked why his friends weren't there and he said that they were busy. Dream ended shortly.

Commentary
Non-Lucid
Lucid

Bedtime:9:30PM-5:30AM, 6:00AM-10:00AM

Well, we are all sick at my house. I think my wife and son got it the worst. I was mostly taking care of them all evening but we somehow managed to get to bed really decent. I was glad because I felt extremely exhausted and sickly myself. I had decided no WBTB or induction. I would just focus on dream recall. I used a mantra at bedtime to remember dreams. I woke and recorded several until I started getting sick myself. Then it because more difficult because the nausea was so bad. In spite of it all I still had some weak but interesting lucids.

11:00PM
I am riding on some skateboard with a handle to make a scooter. My wife and I rid though a mall and come out the other side. We do tricks and grind on some rails. My skateboard starts looking like a dustpan with a handle as I ride down.


3:02AM
All I remember is what I recorded. Supply run. Zombies.

4:26
I am a child or about 8 or 9 again. I am riding a school bus to go on a field trip. My old friends J and A are there. Even though, I am a child I am still in my current time frame although my awareness is not there. I treasure the moments of friendship and really try hard to be a really good friend to the too of them. I never mention that I was like a time traveler. I keep that to my self.

Later we are walking back to the bus. I am holding hands with my wife. She looks like a child as well. She says how she wishes the bus was empty because she wants to do a little something with me. Then she cracks some sexual joke about my sausage and grabs me. Just then my old supervisor SH walks by. I get embarrassed and hope we don't get in trouble. They act like they didn't hear.

I am feeling really nauseous now after each awakening and fail to record much until later

At some point I visualize healing energy into my body. I am not sure if its just HI or a LD but I see myself lying in bed with shimmering points of light. I am glowing a golden color. I will my immune system to attack any sickness and heal faster. I remember nothing else.

At some point I remember a OBE. I don't know if it was a low level lucid or just a dream about having a lucid. But I transition out of my body and walk into the dining room. The wall looks like an organic inside of a body. I see 4 thick cords running down from wall to floor. I know that if I cut them it will help me feel better. Some how I know that this represent sickness in my throat and will stop vomiting. I pull out a small sword that looks like Sting and cut the cords.

I remember another one much like that last but this time... I transition from OBE and find some other point the represented my bowels. I cut that cord with Sting as well.

Maybe this helped me and maybe this didn't. However, I am not nearly as sick as my wife is. Did I use dreams and visualization to aid healing? Who can tell?

I wake around 5:30am to feed my son. Luckily all went smooth and we both got back to sleep around 6:00am and slept a long time.

Time unknown
I am working on a foam board at work. I am back in PH's department. I have my Galaxy Player (GP) in my pocket listening to Pandora on the wifi. I see several of the women that work there sitting in a line at an adjacent form board. They are doing hand gestures as a sort of dance to the song. I realize the song is a stupid Kesha song and look at my GP. I wonder how they are listen to the same thing as me. Pandora is not an actual radio station. They are all looking at me so I motion to my GP and laugh.
*memory gap*
I use the dragon shout whirlwind sprint (same as focused flying) to zoom down the hallway at work and out the door. I see the colors and hear the sounds just like in Skyrim.

9:51AM
I have an FA and P from work is in my room. We call each other bad names and I tell him to just leave. I am trying to enter some dream on my GP.

I have another FA. I am lying with my eyes closed while listening to my parents talk. Something about they sold a cell phone and now the guy that bought it says its broken. The talk about which plug in to use. From some reason I think they are in the sun room. I want to tell them that one plug stopped working but feel too sick to move. Then my dad say, "I really need to learn to use theee......"

I feel I need to pee so I get out of bed. My mom says, "You need to learn to use the alarm clock." I become startled because her voice is directly behind me. I don't feel I can talk so I just put my hand on my heart and look at her. I can't see because it was dark but I can hear her laughing.

I realize I am back in the house we lived in Luling, Texas. I am standing next to my parents bed. I walk to were my bathroom was and go in. The lighting is bright in here. I see my dad lying on his side in the bathtub staring at me. His throat looks slit and there is blood pooling. I notice he is using a pillow from my current bedset. Startled and annoyed I say, "Well I guess I'll use the other bathroom." When I reach my parents room again I pause and think about what I just saw. I say, "I am still dreaming." I do a nose plug and I think I blow through but it feels a little closed. I want to make sure so I do several more and the last one feels like a clean pass. I rush out of the house because I think of all the scary stuff that happened there. (Supposedly it was "haunted". Long story.) I go out the front door and begin to fly up. But I notice the dream is fading. I hover next to the old Birch tree in the front yard. I rub my hands vigorously and repeat, "I am still dreaming." It's helping some. I try my bicycle DEILD and touch my face some. All feels real. I rub my hands more while biking. Soon I feel like I am lying on my back and doing this in real life. I wonder if my wife is laughing at me yet. That thought was enough to shift my awareness to waking. I hear something and my eyes open.

I decided to take a nap because I am home and I can, and because I am still tired after my sickness.

Before going to nap, I had sent a friend request and a pm to gab.

As ai lay there, I decided to try to WILD since I have not really tried before, even though I before did not think I wanted to. Changed my mind.

I remember seeing some images: an art work vaguely reminiscent of the Mona Lisa, a very bright corridor, but at that point I was not sure yet whether I was dreaming or day dreaming - whether I had actually fallen asleep.

The first thing I saw when I was sure I was asleep already was that I had a Notification in dreamviews. Knowing it was a dream I clicked on it. Sure enough as expected it was a private message from gab. However, when I opened it, it was actually a message that I had previously gotten from gab and not a response to my friend request.

Then I woke up. Upon waking up before writing my dream journal entry, I checked dreamviews, and yes I had a message from gab replying to my friend request (she said yes). I then proceeded to write this dream journal entry and only once I had written a lot did it occur to me to check whether ai am still asleep (no I am not).

Yay, I did it! I had an LD! My first after many years.

Well, since I don't have many nightmares I figure I should post every one I have xD this is actually the first nightmare I've had in... about 4 years.

I was in this place that reminded me of a spa or a salon, but for some reason, they said they needed an x-ray of my feet. So I let them take their x-ray, and they say it didn't turn out. They say I have to put on this belt for it to work. I take the belt, and try to fasten it around my waist, but it is too short by an inch.

"I'm too fat," I say, and they give me a new one. I put on the belt, and they take another x-ray.

I am then talking to the woman who was doing the x-ray, and she is trying to explain to me how to keep your memory strong, but I'm not listening. Somehow, my mom is behind me, holding two lighters and the reflection is making the woman's eyes look creepy and demonic.

"Really, Mom?" I ask, and then the woman finally realizes what's going on.

"Oh, I see what you're doing," she says, then continues with her speech.

*Scene Change*

I'm standing in the same place, only I'm with two of my friends (they look different than in wl, but i know that one is my friend Abi, and the other is my friend Shale) we aren't talking, but Shale keeps disappearing and then reappearing to show off, and after about the 10th time, Abi gets angry, and decides to disappear just to prove that she can do it too. So I'm there alone for a moment, then Abi comes back. When Shale comes back, her eyes are red, and she is covered in blood, mostly around the neck area. She jumps at Abi and attacks her until it's pretty clear that she'd die soon. Shale ran out of the room, leaving me sitting there, and Abi gets up and runs. I see her running into a room, and telling everyone in it what happened, right before she falls and dies.

*Random Time Change*

I'm with my friends again, the same thing is happening, with Shale disappearing, and Abi getting mad and disappearing, except this time Shale comes back normal before Abi gets back.

"Hey, she actually did it!" Shale says before disappearing again.

Then she comes back again in the same way, red eyes, and covered with blood. This time, I was the only one there, so she jumps at me, and is tearing at my throat, but I only feel a weird tickling sensation (like I always do when I'm supposed to feel pain in a dream) when she continued to run out the door, I somehow keep my voice calm and ask her if I'm going to turn into whatever she was, too, and she said "No, I did something different" so I get up and run just as Abi had done before, and I wake up before getting to the room.

Date:3-6-13
Total sleep: 8+ hours
Daytime Techniques: rc's
Lucid Techniques: tried MILD "I will recall my dreams and realize I am dreaming"
Recall Techniques: see above. also I wrote in my dream journal after waking after the first dream

~DREAM 1
Fell Asleep: 11:30
Dream Title: The cold beach
Dream: I am in my room and it is the way it was back when I had a desk. On my desk are some horror movies. One of them was called “slender” (how original) My dad calls me. I see he is watching one of the movies on his new tv. It is about a cursed sword that forces you to eat colors and cats in a dementor like fashion. Although this is ridiculous, I find it absolutely terrifying, and I get angry at him for showing it to me. I go back into my room, and my sister is with a laptop. She asks me how to make a youtube account, and I tell her that she needs to hook up to an Ethernet cable that nobody has used before. (I don’t even…) I now go to my brother’s room, that for some reason is on the wrong side of the house. He is there with some kid. I don’t know who it is, but the dream me can’t stand him. After some smart-assery from them both, I start to beat them with a random plastic coathanger. (I am not abusive IWL.) they cry and my mom tells me off for it and I have to go get ready because we are going to the beach. Car ride is long and full of mom fussing at me. We get to the beach and it is winter. We don’t want to go in the water, so we just sit there on the beach. Some other stuff happens that I cant remember, then I wake up.
Awake: 5:00
Vividness: 8 (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness)
Awareness: 1 (1-10; or lucid)
Length: 3 hours
Emotions: fear, anger
Dream Signs: my desk was back. My brother’s room misplaced. Room had Ethernet jacks.

~DREAM 2
(went on dreamviews and read about WILDing. But then I didn’t try to wild. ~Facepalm~ So I had a non-lucid fragment…)
Fell Asleep: 5:40
Dream Title: The attic
Dream: I was at some family’s house in their attic that had many windows and was painted white. I don’t remember what we did there, but my brother did it wrong and I had to redo it. That’s all.
Awake: 9:00
Vividness: IDK (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness)
Awareness: 1 (1-10; or lucid)
Length:~ Shrug~(how long it felt like! Because that matters)
Emotions: frustration
Dream Signs: none

California is indeed strange.

I was driving my son to see my dad in the San Francisco Bay Area, coming from Texas. The highway stretches out in front of me with little on either side, but ahead of me is Los Angeles. The sky is clear above me but ahead dark clouds loom over the city, appearing like angry storms. I attribute this to normal California fog.

L.A. is just a stop in California before we turn north, a place to get some food and stretch our legs. We decide to go to a multi-level shopping mall with wide open spaces and skylights that keep the place well lit.

I don't recall all of the details but I know a food-court was present and even some of my son's friends from scouts. I know I felt odd about that seeing as we were in California.

[B]When we headed out we had to go down an escalator and running down it caused me to become lucid. I knew it felt oddly out-of-place and looking down I decided it would be better if the escalator was sloped instead of having steps I could trip on. The escalator took on the appearance of a moving sidewalk similar to ones in airports all over the world, except with a downwards slope. (I realize as I write this that I've been on a sloped moving sidewalk before at a grocery store in Oakland)

Reaching the end of the sloped sidewalk I knew my movement would carry me too far over and I would fall, so I picked up my feet to hover my way to the doors of the mall. I've flown many times, or floated, but never before have I done it in a fully up-right standing position while moving horizontally. It was a neat feeling, as though solid ground was beneath my feet so I had purchase yet being propelled along with no effort and no ground-contact.[/B]

After that I went to my dad's house, used the toilet and wrapped my nude body around the backside of the toilet while lying on the floor, staring up at one of my dad's friends. Honestly that part wasn't really interesting so we'll just leave it at that. ;)

FUCK......I refreshed the page.....

Anyways, I had a dream where vampires were holding a group of us hostage, and I gained the powers of the Belmont clan, and we laid waste to them. After that, I was watching surveillance footage of my friend A, and it looked like he got turned into one, so I was thinking about killing him too.

took:
- no 5-HTP before going to sleep
- no galantamine + choline
- no Piracetam when I got up
lucid dreaming: 0 lucid experiences
note:
Working on getting into the routine before starting galantamine again

I was driving along highway 16, away from Langham on the way to Collin's house to jam out. He tells me there is a guy who will be showing up whose name is "Maiden Zebra" (Maiden might have been from Iron Maiden) who will show us some cool stuff on guitar. I start driving along the backroads now, to his place, and at one point, I got his name wrong.


There was more to it, but I forgot most of it when I woke.

This fragment asked the question: Is seasonal hunting cruel?
My dream answer: No.

So I continue my lessons in what is proper as I call them, or another way of looking at it is that my mind is struggling with issues of right and wrong, and checking what is right in my opinion. Not that I am ever going to do seasonal hunting myself, but I don't judge people who do. My mind wanted to verify that. Interesting.

I think I did the ToTM. After reading a dream from Canis Lucidus, I had a dream as said, "What is one thing you wish; I'll grant it" or "...I'll make it happen."

The Perfect Pecan, then The Perfect Goodmorning

I was with my dad. He was alive again. I told him that I wanted to talk to him as soon as he was done. I think he was performing or something. He said OK. I was so excited to finally tell him how much I miss him. It's the same dream I have of him every time, and it seems more real every time.

He eventually told me he had a virus. I thought, "Oh-h-h-h-h!." I knew it could kill him because of his weak condition.

I got a call from my brother's old room mate I Chin Tong. I answered the phone and he asked for me. I said it was me. He wanted a replacement of a green rug I had gotten him to design his home. I leaned back in my chair until I was lying down, told him I'd find him one with a psychedelic pattern, winked at this kid who I thought must think I was pretty cool, and then...

Dream Skip

My son and daughter are pulling out huge tomato plants. I'm disappointed that they are doing this, but it is for the owner of a house we are at. The plants are now Sweet Gum trees and I understand the motivation now.

I'm at E's house. I saw her so vividly. Then her husband came home which was weird because it was so early, he had just gotten to work! I was nervous he would suspect something for me being over there so early. Instead he went out on the back porch and asked if I wanted help with a project I'm working on. I went out, happy not to be nervous anymore.

Then he was talking to me about coaching a kids soccer team for 7 and 8 or 8 and 9 year olds' but we were outside somewhere else. I figured what grades that would be and told him his job would be getting the kids to work together more so than to win games. He said "Never mind then." I tried to convince him not to give up his idea. (This may have been residue from my idea last night to "put on a shirt" for the cub scouts and be a leader.

I then realized I was dreaming, and started looking for E again. I spent a moment looking for her and realized that I should try a better lucid goal. BrandonBoss inspired me to re-evaluate my dream goals on this point.

I decided to do my personal goal which was to enter my childhood nightmare. I found myself in a room with a bunch of people. I went to ask a guy with long hair and acne where...I didn't like this guy. I turned and there he was again...and again. What an annoying DC.

I found someone else--ah, it was a high school friend P. C., and asked, "Where can I find the Circle Demon." He looked at me weird and said, "The Circle Demon?" I said "Yea, The Circle Demon," repeating it more to stay focused than to be sarcastic back to him.

He told me "At the Perfect Pecan." I think I repeated that and said, is that upstairs?" I started going upstairs. There was a box from Hell Bound on his stairs and everything was kind of black. He said, "No, I'm in a band." I started getting frustrated. I said, "Where can I find it?" He said, "The Perfect Good Morning."

I decided to look for one of these places. I had trouble phasing through a wall (what is my problem phasing lately?" A DC chuckled at me for trying and then I got a boost of confidence and went through it with a thankful, "Hah!"

I flew and ended up in a food court. This was vivid. Nobody was there, then I saw a guy starting to set up his restaurant. I decided to go to another guy setting his place up. Then I decided to ask about a wish. I said, "What is one thing you wish. I'll grant it." Or, "...I'll make it happen." He just questioned me, "One wish? I don't know." I asked the other shop-keeper. He never said anything.

I walked to a patron and she said, "I'd like a box of Perfect Pancakes." I tried to conjure it by clapping my hands or something. I tried pulling the box of pancakes out of the floor with no luck. I thought of what Canis had said. "I still got this," though I didn't say that. I tried what he or Xanous had said about pulling it out of my pocket, but there was only a tissue. I felt bad, but I knew (that I thought) I had still fulfilled my obligation to ask and try to grant a DC one wish.


The End

I had waken up before this dream and did one partial cycle for SSILD. I found myself in darkness which I tried to fly through per Canis. It worked. The timing of this dream may be a bit off.

The very first one was very boring. I was in a nursery room and not much happened. Only funny thing was my cd player, out of nowhere once every few minutes (or more) it started shooting bullets like a heavy machine gun. It sounded like the very heavy, not very fast ones, one that would take an airplane down but it wasn't as powerful, the bullets just bounced off the walls :P And after a few rounds it shot a grenade (also not very powerful) which exploded. Then I was in a village with Gintoki and some more characters of the Gintama anime and we were just walking around, nothing special. I enjoyed it though, since Gintoki was there :D

Then I lost my dream scene (not my lucidity) and thought I woke up but it was a false awakening. I tried to get back into the dream by RCing (ololol dream logic) and by imagining the scene back (which I do very often but never worked, seems like it DID help after all).

So I got back. I don't remember how I got here but I was in a slightly different planet. With an atmosphere like a clear night-sky and slightly lower gravity. I could also stick to the walls, I don't know if it were the shoes or some ability or just the planet itself. The rest was pretty much the same. At some point we (and Gintoki and I, I was following him everywhere in all of the dreams) were being chased. And somehow at some point the scenery changed (when we got outside of a building) into something pretty cool. The air was fresh and bright, some white clouds, lots of greenery, big walls and japanese styled houses. As we ran away Gintoki started jumping from roof to roof and I followed. Our jumps got bigger and bigger and as he started flying I followed.. We flew by just holding our bodies like an arrow, arms and feet flat against our bodies. Our enemy was still chasing us and growing bigger (I think at this point it was already a giant gollem). So we flew with massive engine power, we couldn't even control our power because as we tried to fly next to each other every change we made to directen, height, speeld was so big it only threw us off. I remember feeling the air a little bit and maybe some moist from the clouds but it wasn't very hyper-sensory as some described flying. I thought to myself, hey, if I become the winged flying creature from the lucid before and used the same energy wave attack (which I used by concentrating energy into a blue ball into my claws and the bigger the ball the stronger the wave), I can definitely 1 shot kill the bastard. Because the wave was pretty powerful. (It is almost identical to the wave Dante uses, the main character of an hack 'n slash game called Devil May Cry 4). I couldn't summon the wings, I tried the claws, didn't work either. I didn't really care, I just flew on. Then I saw water, an ocean with some big chunks of ice on the surface.

Then I woke up. As I woke up I remembered how awesome it felt to even see that ice on the water. I think I saw and felt a glimpse of what it is like to fly through amazing landscapes.

About the energy wave attack. It is pretty awesome to use it and I play the game (Devil May Cry 4) on which the attack is based quite often, so I am probably going to be using that attack quite a lot. And it is pretty strong even without much 'dream-energy', I can't wait to use it to tear buildings or even mountains apart for the monthly task, hehehh Maybe I'll even upgrade it somehow or get a sword that slashes those energy waves :D It is also identical to Ichigo's most powerful attack (the main character of the Bleach anime)

In this dream fragment I remember looking for non-catatonic fish in the petstore, but during the dream also thinking that fish may stand for dreams (!).

Note: This was not a lucid dream, but just another example of a dream about dreaming, which I have been having a lot of.

Also note that Fishkeeping is another hobby of mine, and looking for new fish is a regular occurrence right now (about once a month), since I am in the process of slowly stocking my aquarium. When looking for new fish, one looks for lively ones, and thus non-catotonic kind of makes sense for fish, though it is an odd choice of words.

However if fish stands for dreams, and the choose off odd word matters, here is an online definition of catatonic from word.com website:

"1 : of, relating to, being, resembling, or affected by schizophrenia characterized especially by a marked psychomotor disturbance that may involve stupor or mutism, negativism, rigidity, purposeless excitement, and inappropriate or bizarre posturing

2 : characterized by a marked lack of movement, activity, or expression"

It makes sense that I would look for dreams that are non-catatonic!

Running away on a train with some people (Mike W.) Also climbing steps. An open field tons of yellow transformer like air craft flying over head.