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NOthing interseting in these. Just the basic, hey this is a dream, weee I like flying, and some minor stuff like that. I have poor recall if anything interesting happened, I guess it could not have been 2 interesting. Dur of each 2-3 min.

I went to bed late, around 1am, because I stayed up watching underwater dinosaur videos on youtube (TOTMers will understand ). Anyway, I fell right to sleep, but I woke up at about 3:45am and couldn't get back to sleep. I was frustrated because I knew the alarm was going to go off at 6:30 for work. And the frustration was making me more awake. Finally, I heard Danny's daughter get up at about 5:15am, just as I was getting drowsy by going to my "happy place." I rolled over one last time in one of my prime positions for LDing, not intending to LD, but rather get comfortable so I could get at least one more hour of sleep After a few minutes, I got the vibrations. As usual, just a few cycles would wave over me, and I am getting better and better at focusing the vibrations. It's hard to explain, but sometimes I can control them and intensify them, which catalyzes the WILD. After the few cycles, I felt my body slide across the bed involuntarily, like I was being pulled gently across it. Then I opened my dream eyes slowly. I knew I was in a dream immediately because it looked just like the bedroom from our last apartment. The dream character version of Danny was lying next to me, and he got up to get ready to take me to work I'm guessing. I waited for him to leave before getting up myself. I was excited because I couldn't believe I could WILD on a work morning, especially after only a couple hours sleep and a 90 minute WBTB. Anyway, as soon as he left the room, I floated up out of the bed, and flew/floated around the room. I thought to fly all the way up and phase through the ceiling, but I lost momentum and just kinda bounced my hands off it. It's really amazing how I'm starting to copy some of the experiments I read about other LDers trying. Anyway, plan B, I decided to just phase through the wall, since I was always able to go through mirrors. I went through the wall just beside the window, and I remember seeing a layer of sheet-rock in my peripheral vision, then wooden lats, then about 4 inches of empty space, another layer of wood lats, then I was outside. The morning sun was just rising over what sorta looked like my old apartment complex, except I was high up, as if I came out of the 3rd or 4th floor. The grass was bright green and dewy, and the air was cool as I flew between the buildings. As I rounded a corner of one of the buildings, I looked down and saw a big blue and white beach ball. I aimed downward so I could get it and play with it (at no time did I think of the TOTMs, which was fine because I wasn't sure how soon the alarm would go off, and I was just going with it, ya know?). Anyway, I picked up the ball and flew up with it, but the ball got really blurry. I don't think my brain can process all those images at once sometimes lol, so I just dropped it. As I rounded another corner, it turned to night, and I could see downtown Dallas all lit up beautifully like it always is irl. I suddenly realized I was impossibly high up, about to pass over a cliff. It was a little scary at first, but I went for it. I floated easily over the cliff and looked down, there were tall buildings down below, waaaay deep down below.. like Grand Canyon deep. I didn't feel vertigo, just awe. A little way past the canyon was a large field studded with juniper trees. I decided to land and walk around. The grass was so cool and soft. I like being barefoot in my LDs, this is a product of becoming lucid in my sleep environment and pajamas, I think. I turned and looked about 90 degrees, and I saw something way up in the sky. I could never tell what it was because it was too dark, but I'll say this now, I swear it looked like the silhouette of Elliot and E.T. on the flying bicycle. I darted back up and started to fly after it, saying "E.T. phone hoooome" and giggling to myself. "They" kept slowly going higher and higher, and so did I, with one outstretched arm. But I couldn't get to it. Pretty soon I was struggling, and doing a kind of breaststroke to try and reach them (ALSO something I read in another journal..). I couldn't reach them, and I could feel my heart beating like crazy, and I wondered if it was beating that fast in real life, and if this would wake me up. After a few moments, I did wake up, but my heartbeat was totally normal. Isn't that trippy?!?!? That whole dream was maybe 5 minutes, but I felt like I had slept a whole hour.

The lucid part of this dream didn't last as long as I wanted it too, but it was so refreshing. The dream setting started out pretty interesting- this is an old T.V. show so I don't know if anyone will understand the reference. There was a Jackie Chan Adventures themed fight going on in my back yard that led to my lucidity this time. Before going to sleep, I was thinking a lot about that show hoping to maybe get to re-live some of my childhood dreams about it. Yesterday I looked it up and watched the final episode out of nostalgia. During this fight one of the main characters Tohru busted the brick wall around my house, but I didn't mind... because it was Tohru.
Anyways, a little time had past and I ran outside of my gate to see where the commotion had gone. I guessed that they had moved the battle to another part of the town. At that point I was put in a bad mood, I realized I didn't get to use any of the talismans or powers that were being traded off by the warriors- and all I was stuck with were the awed by-standers, and these two random school kids that kept on walking around asking if they could trade some coins for something. They had asked everyone around here multiple times throughout the dream, I have no idea what that was about. I decided to ask them what they were trying to buy off of everyone, they answered probably six times without saying the same answer once. The school kid's answers, mixed with the thought of wishing I would have used some of the Jackie Chan Adventures talismans instantly made me realize that I was in a dream. The kids were still trying to talk to me but I flew up and away, realizing it didn't matter. Just then I noticed I began to fly too fast, maybe I was too excited to start off without routing myself in the dream first. So I began to fall back down so I could calmly get used to dream realm without losing grip so quickly. That's where it went bad. I started losing control of where I could look and where I could move. I think that this could be attributed to the state of my sleep, sometimes when I'm dreaming- I begin to lose control and vividness if my physical body isn't feeling well. I got to the ground and found myself in a place that I now will always remember. I've been there countless times in other dreams, but I didn't notice how repeditive it was until now. It's a very beautiful and colorful forest with hundred-feet-tall trees that always(!) forms itself if I begin a flying dream near my house where I'm lacking in control still. Some green trees, some red trees, and some other small variations, it's beautiful. What's strange to me is this time, I flew down to the ground and the last thing I saw as the dream showed me my focus wasn't cutting it yet- in the forest was a submarine that I've seen there before. The last time I saw it, I had to look around quite a bit first- but there it was. Half submerged into the ground surrounded by shrubs and rocks. I thought it was so strange that I forgot this place. I guess it's my brains way of telling me goodbye. I have made it past that forest before, but it takes a lot and this dream wasn't up for it. I had one other noteably awesome dream after this one that I'll write down in a bit.

Dreamt that I went to my 6:15 a.m. conditioning class this morning, but I was unprepared and super self-conscious. I felt incompetent compared to the men's basketball team (who make up the majority of the class in reality), and I started emotionally beating up on myself for being "not good enough." I also felt self-conscious of my body, felt fat, and hated myself.
I think the main theme here is the belief of being not good enough. I have been struggling with that since arriving at college. I feel like I'm one of the only sober (due to my addiction/alcoholism) people on campus, and because of that I feel disconnected emotionally from much of the student body. This translates into me not feeling good enough, as well as feeling lonely. My "addict" tells me that I'm not good enough to be friends with most people here because my sobriety will get in the way of a relationship. I know that's not true with the logical side of my brain, however the emotional side of my brain is strong right now. When I don't feel good enough on the inside, I usually have crappy body image on the outside.

NLD Black
Side Notes Blue
Lucid Red

My wife woke me but about 4am. She asked me to change baby's diaper. He's been awake for some time and she's tired. I do it. I feel irritable but let it go. I decide this will be a good time to WBTB. I bring him back and we snuggle and all sleep. I do a little bit of MILD. I quickly set intention and mantra. This time I chose "I am dreaming." I find that it helps to change mantra so that it doesn't lose meaning. As I was laying there I remembered that I haven't looked at TOTM yet and have no clue. I almost got on the PC but I felt really tired. I wanted decide on what I wanted to do but decided I would just be happy if I got lucid. I figure I would just play in my environment and have some fun.

I have some non lucid dream about a laser beam showing on the wall in my kitchen. It freaks me out. I look over the wooden half blinds at my niehbors kitchen. (I can do this in real life...odd I know) I see the guy but he is totally oblivious to me. I get really creeped out for some reason and wake up scared and heart pounding.

I remember DEILD. I hit SP. YES! I am so happy I know I am on my way to a lucid. NO! I tell myself to be calm. I do a calming meditation. SP subsides and I wonder if it is go time. I hesitate and them I just get out of bed. It feels so real but I am pretty sure its a dream. I can't see anything. I feel my way out of the room. I think about the mirror on the way out but it feels too solid so I let it pass. I remain calm and try to imagine the dining/living room. I can see for a few seconds and then its black. I feel my way outside. I leap off the porch and float up and now I can see. The night sky is full of bright stars. I brush past tree branches. I just sort of float and feel a rush of euphoria. The wind blows and I am carried away at high speeds. I can feel something like G forces and I am exhilaration and let out a screech of excitement. I feel like I can hear my real voice and wonder if my wife can hear me. My voice sounds muffled and strained. For a moment everything goes black again. I do a calming and relax. I float. I try to open my eyes but it feels like my real eyes. I can my own face like a reflection in glass with the stars and clouds behind it. I close my eyes and relax and just focus on making HI. I feel the exhilaration again and I can hear really loud SP noise. It sounds almost like high winds.

Suddenly I see two of my nephews. They are flying with me. I grab on to one and focus on feeling with my hands. I feel like the dream is fading again so I grab him close to me almost like we are spooning. It wasn't as weird as it sounds. I was just using whatever I had available to stabilize. I tell him to make a vortex because I wanted to go someplace else. I tell him over and over. I either close my eyes or I loose my vision.

Suddenly the three of us are standing in my kitchen. At this point I become aware that I have been repeating my mantra over and over but in the back of my mind and not as real internal dialogue. I note it and am pleased with myself. I look around and and was going to tell him to make a vortex again but realize there was no need. I say, "Oh never-mind. We are back." The dream shifts and we are in the sun room. I remember that I wanted to get used to talking to DCs so I ask my nephew a question. "What is you name?"
He replies, "Offers night."
"What?" I didn't understand him at first but as soon as I said 'what' it came clear. the rest of the conversation went like this. He would talk and as soon as I said 'what' it came to me before he could repeat himself. It was really odd. I ask him, "What does that mean?"
And he says, "I'll tell you later."

I suddenly remember my other nephew. I feel like he is standing behind me and I get an eerie feeling. I feel the same kind of fear as I did in the previous dream. At that point I lose all focus and the dream fades and I wake up.


I thought about DEILDing again but I really wanted to remember my LD and felt really excited about it. I look at the time. 4:40am. I note that I slept about 35min since WBTB

I later have some dream about trying to cut the head of my penis off with scissors. I get so far as to have a bloody ring around it and realize what the hell I am doing. I freak out. I realize that I thought it would just grow back but I have no idea why I am doing it. I feel like it hurts without real pain. Maybe I was just thinking about my son circumcision? Bleh.

Waking Thoughts/Dream/ Lucid

So it's another off day for me. I sorta stayed up too late and threw off my sleep schedule a bit. Not a lot recalled and got a bit lazy this morning and did not write much down. I'll fix that tomorrow.

I am in some sort of car lot with a few empty car shops scattered about. Not too sure what happened, but I recall complaining that we were not selling something... All I managed to write down last night at about 04:40 was: "Car lot and not sell cars?" Yeah, not a lot to go off of.

Later in the morning I am at a horse stable. Which in of itself is strange since I NEVER see any horses. I recall getting on one and riding it around for a little bit before waking up. Yeah, not the most eventful dreams. Tomorrow should be better since I will get back on my regular sleep schedule. Since I have been working on my recall, I was thinking it's about time to work on getting lucid. Will type more later.

05/09/12

Dream 1

I was outside my old primary school and I was with some of my friends, my brother, also some of his friends. One of my friends decided he was going to light up a spliff. It was a very very big one. However he dosen't smoke so he threw it away. The whole floor got set on fire, then the tree next to it got sent on fire too. It was havoc. A man came to help put the fire out but it didn't work so we ran. I was running with my brother he told me he breaks cars and paints them with his friends. I said 'you can't do that!' So i got a paintbrush and splatted a car to show him he was wrong!

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

Fun, but dangerous. Very, very dangerous .

I was in a plane, that was flying very low. Maybe about 30 feet from the floor. We were flying over the beach that appeared in the previous 2 dreams. Ahead, I could see a countryside, with a road and a few trees. The captain of the plane was JoeyBelgier, and he decided that we land in a narrow path surround by trees. Nice one Joey. We were just about to land, then the ground turned into a small slope. We landed later than we expected, but we finally felt that bump. As we landed, we were still going very fast, trying to stay on the narrow track. We turned around a corner, my stomach left my body and I held on for life. After turning that corner, we had to turn again, but slower this time. We saw some people under the wing. Finally, there were steps, which I was bracing for. I thought we would bump down these steps, but we gracefully floated down . There were another set of steps and Joey told me we would be fine.

Hope you enjoyed . September 3rd was crazy.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

A very cool dream! It's a replica of what I imagine when I'm at the beach.

I started off in a house, with the blue haired girl that I see often. She seemed to be teamed up with me to find some African kids. Inside this broken house, were a family of young African kids. They were reading books and talking to each other. Didn't look too bad, but the house did. It looked more like an abandoned hut. We both went outside onto the same beach that I ate the kebab on. I looked out at the ocean and noticed that the tide was completely out. I looked closer and noticed the tide was coming back it at a fast speed. I looked to the left and saw a load of people being evacuated from the wave that was coming on. The wave was only about 5 inches high, but it still scared us all. I looked back to where the house was, but instead was a wall of pebbles and stones. The blue haired girl was gone, too. Just me and a lot of people. I walked over to the wall and attempted to climb it by struggling my feet over the pebbles. I got pretty high but it crumbled below me and I fell, about 2 meters. I tried again and managed to get to the top (probably about 3 meters high). I ran further forward and everything changed into minecraft graphics. The beach was still real life, but everything else was minecraft. Apparently I was meant to be gathering supplies to survive this tiny wave. I was with 2 other people, who were in the wooden hut (NOTE: everything is minecraft) at the end of the grass patch. To the right was a large hedge and to the left was a huge empty field. I was told to go and gather seeds, so I ran back to the beach, but along the way, I saw a small little farm area. There were 5 blocks of moist soil, each planted with something. Opposite these blocks, were 5 moist blocks but with nothing planted. I planted tomatoes, a huge seed and something else. You can't obtain these in the game, but I did . The dream then faded quickly.

This is the second out of the three dreams I had, which took place somewhere near that one beach shore.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

This dream would probably seem more messed up to you, but I enjoyed it a little...

I started off walking on the beach shore (It explains why I had 2 other dreams here). I found a house located north of the sea, so I went in. I was greeted by Freddy Krueger. He was sat down frying bread on a barbecue. He offered me a piece and I ate it. Tasted nice! . He told me...more like forced me to follow him. I followed him and he gave me a kebab, the ones where you put different food on a stick. I started to eat the "chicken". Tasted fine, but then I suddenly knew that it was made of my own, cooked flesh. I looked at my stomach but it was fine, I'm not sure where my flesh was taken from. I then moved on to the mushrooms, which tasted exactly like them. I sure hope they were not my balls or something. Everything tasted nice, so the joke was on Freddy. He saw that I was fine, so he took me back to the bread and gave me another piece. I'm not sure what the bread made from .

As messed up as you thought? Probably.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

It's great to end August with a Lucid Dream, although it wasn't the best. Still good to have one!

I started off, non-lucid in a car park. It seemed like the car park outside the hospital, but the hospital was actually a night club. There was a group of people going inside the door. It was very dark, so the door was the only light source for where I was. I was with two of my friends and this old Indian lady. Apparently I had spoken to her in a disrespectful way, although I never said anything. Naturally, I ran away at a fast pace. The woman sent her daughter to chase after me. I ran in and out of the cars, until I reached, what looked like, and pub. I hid behind a chair, and gazed out across an ocean (which isn't even near my house...). There were other chairs, which looked like the metal ones that are placed outside of a cafe or something. It only took a few seconds before the girl noticed me, then proceeded to chase me again. I got up and ran to the right, towards the ocean. I ended up at my street, but it was day time and I couldn't see the girl. I ran to the end of the street then turned right, into a dead end street. I nose plugged and it worked a little. Not that well, but it got me lucid. I was not completely aware that I was dreaming, but I looked around for things that should not be here. I turned around, expecting to see the girl, but instead I saw a woman watering a tree. The tree started to fall, causing me to say "See, that's not normal, I must be dreaming...". I didn't even flinch, but it hit the floor really hard, about 2-3 meters away from me. I felt the dream fade into grey and I woke up.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

This was an okay Lucid. I managed to have a little control over the dreamscape. My nose plug worked incredibly well, too.

I started off lucid, right as the dream appeared. It felt really weird, the dream faded in from a grey background with silver flying patterns. As the dreamscape "loaded" I was looking down at the floor. I was in my house on the upper floor outside my bathroom. I pinched my nose, not expecting anything, then suddenly...I could breathe! It was very shocking because I did not expect a huge gust of air to blow out of my nose. I then looked around, then at my sister's bedroom. I noticed the window was wide open, so I thought about jumping out and flying. As I walked over to the window, I stabilized and reality checked again, just to keep myself from waking up. I decided not to jump out of the window, instead, I jumped up into the sky, straight through the ceiling not expecting anything to change. As I exited the roof, I saw a HUGE city just like London at it's old times. The buildings were brown, the sky was almost dark, the stars were appearing and the sun was setting. The sun was not very big though, neither was the orange glow around it. I still thought it looked nice though. On my way back down to the houses, I quickly teleported to a road, in the daylight. I thought about flying there. I think it was the hospital car park that I was in, but it had a road going through it. I jumped into the air, not very high, only about 2 meters. The dream faded quickly as I fell back down.

It was quite long - longer than most of my lucids already. It was great that I got lucid right at the start as well.

Michael and I were wrestling and practising special moves on another. He was telling me his troubles with ruby.

There was some people looking like they were being tortured near my moms house so I called the police. The l police said it was an act. They came over and asked if I would like to join the act with kara. I accepted. The act was for them to whip me while kara gave me head. I refused and quit the show. I was later craving head and accepted the show if they whipped me lightly. I had sex with kara after type show.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #14: The Kid Is Not My Son

Wife and I are attending a class led by my neighbor K, who is for some reason now a history professor. He's giving an interesting lecture on the early 20th century and every student in the class is captivated by his talk.

One very attractive student (who identifies herself as "Melinda") is shamelessly flirting with him. I lean over to Wife and whisper this to her but she insists that she hasn't noticed it.

I look to my right and notice that there's a mirror running the length of the wall. I see myself in this mirror except slightly from the back. Also apparent from my reflection is that I have chosen to attend class wearing no shirt. The combination of these two oddities brings me into lucidity.

My hair is cut short just like waking life but my physique is leaner and more muscular than in reality. I rub my hands together and my beefcake reflection does a perfect replica. Clarity is very, very high. I remark out loud that, "This lucidity is just incredible." Wife verbally agrees, "It really is! But quit checking yourself out in the mirror." I laugh because she totally caught me.

All of the students and Professor K are looking at me now. I see that Melinda is now wearing a Baby Bjorn that contains a squirming little blonde baby. Melinda looks Asian or half-Asian so the blonde hair is a bit of a surprise. A bigger surprise still is when Melinda says, "It's yours."

I'm left shocked and stammering for a response/denial/whimper. Melinda laughs, saying, "Not him! He's mine. She's yours." She points to my left. A nurse in scrubs and a surgical mask walks up to me and hands me a brown-haired little girl of about one. The little girl reaches for my nose and smiles up at me. I'm about to look for Wife's response to all of this but I wake up.

Me and some friends are riding in a taxi van in Minneapolis. We take a backroad to an abandoned house. When we get to the house I immediately go to the upstairs room to find it filled with stuff like someone lives there. on the immediate left there is a secret room, crush by the intersecting wall. I nudge my way through it into a secret room. there is a PS3 a bed, jewelry, guns, nice apolstry, and a dope bottle that has tea in it. Most likely from india.

Thats all for now