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Okay first let me say that I've had a lucid dream before, and I want to have one again. I have created a dream journal that I write in (Its actually just a piece of paper :D) and I wrote my first entry last night. I've have been trying to lucid dream, but some weird things have been happening. First thing is when I "TRY" to lucid dream my arms feel like their becoming heavy and I start to feel dizzy or kind of like i'm floating (this is like after 20 minutes of just lying there). Then I start to feel like i'm not on my bed. It feels like my body is asleep, but I feel like i'm awake, and when I close my eyes even for extensive amounts of times I still feel like i'm making no progress. After an hour I just stop and forced myself to get up. I went to the rest room, but while I was looking in the mirror it felt like I was in a dream, and I felt literally insane. That was probably just some side effects , but I really want to lucid dream, and I want to know what i'm doing wrong. Thank you.
(Sorry for the long read, this is my first post and I needed to find a place to post this.)

Well, I dont remember very much. I dreamed that I was sitting on my couch, watching a movie. In that movie, Nicholas Cage and Sean William Scott fell into a trash compactor, and it was very graphic. Then I woke up. O_o

I was playing some.futuristic version of call of duty before it came out. The classes had orange backrounds. I was switching between this game and the "real world" repeatedly because I was also at a social gathering in the dream, at my house.( ait seemed as if the game was in my head and I was able to play anywhere because it was installed in my head somehow.) It reminded me of S.V.E.R. from the game MAG, another first person shooter. The layout system for classes made it so you couldn't have the same kind of gun in a class more than once. I talked to some friends at the gathering in my house, a specific friend was talking to me about how hard it was and how happy he was to get a girlfriend who he couldn't stop talking about. He kept bragging about how he was able to put his arm around her. Another was sleeping on a few game cases as a pillow, quite comfortably.

Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid
April 16, 2012:

I am walking up stairs to my bedroom. It is my old bedroom in my parents' house. I go into the bathroom with toothpaste and a toothbrush. I have a big glob of toothpaste in my mouth. I spit in the sink, but there is still thick stuff in my mouth. In the mirror I see green stuff in my teeth. I start to pull something long out from my mouth. I look in the mirror and say "I must be dreaming." It sounds muffled from the thing in my mouth.

The scene fades and I re-enter a new scene, in church. I know I am dreaming. I touch the walls with both hands. I find my girlfriend and another girl. I kiss them both on the lips and on the belly.

The scene fades again and I am in one of the small back classrooms with the brick walls. There are other people sitting in chairs around the room. We face someone in the center of the room who looks like Abed from Community. I tell myself that the class is part of a conspiracy.
Abed talks softly and I can't understand him. I say "What? Speak up!" He mumbles something again. My stomach growls and I know I am physically hungry. I hope it doesn't hinder my lucid dream.

Then I remember my first task to summon an object. I reach into my pocket and say I want a spoon. I feel nothing. I remember that I wanted to summon a fruit. Still, I feel nothing in my pocket.
I see apples placed around the room and wonder if that counts. I pick up one of the apples to feel it, then take a bite and toss it aside.
I reach into my pocket again and pull out the same apple, with the bite taken from it. I say "There's that fucking apple! But I'm not sure if this should count..."
I am referring to Mat87's Competition and whether I should whether I should get the points or not.

I walk outside, through the back door and start to fly a few feet off the ground. I remember my second task, element manipulation. I put my hands out and make the wind start blowing towards me. Then I change the direction of the wind to blow from behind me really hard.
The wind pushes me as I float in the air. I aim the wind at the ground so it pushes dirt and pebbles around. I stir up some dust into the air. I try to control the dirt directly, but it is not effective. There is gravel I try to make move, but it doesn't work either.

The dream fades and I go right back into it again. This time it is a bright sunny day. I remember my third task, advanced flying. I float into the air and notice some dark clouds. I consider controlling water, but continue with the flying.
I fly pretty fast down the gravel road, seeing the trees go by quickly as I pass them. Then I fly up. It is hard to get up very high at first. But then I watch the ground beneath me get further away and smaller until I can see the tops of trees and entire woods, or forests and lakes. I rub my hands together to stabilize so the dream doesn't end yet.
I see an earth-like world with continents and oceans, but it is also kind of alien and not shaped like earth. I start to see the round edge of the world. The sun is still bright.
Space is not dark or starry but white, and is getting brighter. Everything goes white and I wake up.

I'm at the beach, standing up on a hill beyond the sand. Lots of people are down on the beach proper. Beyond the beach, I can see the blue ocean; on the beach is a scattering of palm trees.

B wants a bear dog, and we've decided to get one. It's big, with curly black hair, and thinner than I expected it to be.

I'm down on the beach with Ron. He's driving his son's massive old car - it's a big black sedan of some sort. It's ancient and falling apart. I think it only has 2 doors. Ron's got the car because his son is coming to live at home again.

I get the dog loaded in the back seat then get into the front passenger seat - Ron is driving. As we're driving, I'm trying to get my seat belt buckled, but it's not working. I look down at the buckle and can see loose springs and trash inside it. Ron is disgusted. I really want a working seat belt, so I climb into the back with the dog; unfortunately, the buckle back there has the same problem. I get each arm through a belt (5 point harness?) and hope we don't crash. Now, Frank is in the front seat where I'd been sitting.

We arrive at Ron's house - it's huge. While Ron takes the dog inside, I take the broken mower out of the trunk and take it out back, leaving it near a huge tree. There's some lawn debris piled up nearby.

I go inside the house and find Ron dealing with repair and mortgage people. If his son can get the car and mower into the repair place by Monday, then he can roll the repair costs into his new mortgage.

B says something about the dog having puppies. I'm surprised - I thought the dog had been spayed/neutered and ask about it, but she doesn't respond.

I'm in a large outdoor common area. The ground is paved somehow, and there are large brick "planters" scattered around. I'm walking with at least one other person. As we're walking, I see someone in a very strange outfit. I comment to my companion that the other guy reminded me of a movie [can't remember which one], but he disagrees, saying it was a different movie.

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I'm in the kids' bedroom. I'm helping one of the kids put a few knick-knacks in a box to use as a pillow. KJ's little orange ball bounces out; one of us gets it and puts it back in the box.

I start talking with Chris about Tree of Life. I thought I had smelled it before, and I remembered that it was a strong smell, spicy, both pleasant and unpleasant at the same time. I'm surprised I can't smell it now. I tell him that I must be right on the edge of the age where it starts to affect you.

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I'm replacing one thing (method?) with another. Both old and new are very complicated.

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B wanted our bedroom to be clean, so she took all my clothes off of the window seat and packed them in a box.

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Something about the left and right sides of blocks.

While sitting down at a wooden table at a restaurant with my girlfriend, she decides she would like a frozen lemonade. I nod my head, and I walk into the kitchen and start using a machine to make the frozen lemonade. As I'm walking out of the kitchen, what seems to be the manager of the restaurant asks "How are you doing on your first day on the job?" I respond "It's going great." She realizes I am looking for the lids, and points me towards them. I say thanks, and walk out of to give my girlfriend her drink, but I'm no longer in the restaurant and appear to be in a small café.

I am slightly confused by the scene change, but continue to walk through the long lines to get to the door. I look down at the drink and realize it's only about 1/4 full. I'm rather disappointed in myself that I managed to screw this up. I get out of the café and I appear at the corner of the intersection right outside my neighborhood, and I start running home for some reason. I seem to be going really fast, as if I'm gliding through the air. I start doing crazy parkour stunts around obstacles such as walls and cars.

As I get down to my street, I land a jump while noticing two girls walk past me on the sidewalk. They don't look back, and continue walking. As I go and land another jump and turn around, I see three girls now, peeking around some trees, smiling. I return a smile, and sprint away as they chase after me. I end up passing my house, not thinking and jump over a neighbor's fence. As I got to the other side, I start to think "It's fine, I'll be right out, I won't get in trouble." a cat that I cannot see, meows "Hope. Hope. Hope."

I ignore it at the time, but end up at a dead end in the back porch, surrounded by windows to the house. As I think of what to do, a woman opens the blinds, and says "Really? Is this a circus?" She is behind the window, but I can hear her perfectly clear. Scared, I respond "Sorry ma'am, I'm l-leaving right n-now." as I stumble and run out to go jump over the fence I came from. As I am climbing to fence, I see the cat in the corner, licking its paws.

---Alarm---

(False Awakening) I quickly right down a few trigger words, such as restaurant, manager, café, parkour, and cat. Then I turn off my alarm and go back asleep.

- - - - -

I knew this was sadly a false awakening, because I don't own an alarm, and when I looked at my journal, I had no triggers. Haha.

I'm in a hospital room with a young girl. The hospital room is fairly large and connects to a large hallway; there's no door. The bed is right in the center, and the girl is sitting on the bed. Somehow I know that she's being treated for cancer and that she's on a lot of pain medication.

She really enjoys playing with the bed's controls. She can raise herself high enough to touch the ceiling, but once she's up high she can't reach the controls to come back down. Somehow I lower the bed to its normal position.

Now I'm driving on a 2 lane road with houses and lots of trees around - it looks like [road]. I have my new bluetooth keyboard on my lap and I'm typing as I'm driving. I don't have to look at the keys. I'm driving with my left knee, only taking hold of the steering wheel for tighter turns.

Now I'm driving on a huge road. My side of the road has at least 5 or 6 lanes. I'm coming up to an intersection. Every lane has arrows painted; a couple are left turn only, my lane is left turn or straight ahead, and a couple more are straight ahead or turn right.

Now I'm back at the hospital looking at a GPS map of where I was driving. The track is all over the place, but it's generally going in the wrong direction from where I'd intended to go.

I'm using my computer, IMing with someone at work. There's a connection failure and the IM client disconnects. I start to check my hosts file; I have a number of aliases for the IM server because I need to log into it with multiple credentials, but the client is stupid and won't let me log into the same server more than once.

I'm at home, and I know that someone from work is going to be showing up at some point, but with the IM client down, I don't know when it'll be. I hope it's not too soon, since I'm not ready. I look out the window at my driveway and see Phil already getting out of his car. I'm still wearing pajamas, but I'm not really concerned; my coworkers are coming to my house, and they just need to accept things how they are.

My family room is a complete mess. The furniture is all pulled away from one wall; the ceiling above that wall is torn open because the ceiling lights are being worked on.

We start talking about the movie Ronin. I try to explain who the actors are (Boromir plus that short older guy, you know). Someone else remembers seeing Ronin, but he remembers different actors. We decide that the one I saw must have been a remake of an older movie.

Now the dream switches to the third person. I'm watching the very end of Ronin where the hero declares that he never left. The girl starts running across a field, but then she gets caught by guys and dragged into a car.

Still in the third person, I see a house, and I know that the Nazis used this place to test different ways of teaching children.

Back in the first person, I'm driving away from the house. I'm in a small town; it's run down and looks deserted.

Can't remember most of the dream, but I think I was in the living room with my sister, grandma, and someone else. We were organizing papers of some sort. All of a sudden I see cigarettes all of a sudden with a lighter out in front of me. I start freaking out because my grandma will see them and think their mine. I couldn't move to grab them for some reason, I just stay there seated and watch as my grandma sees them, picks them, and walks away without saying anything and my sister follows behind. Nothing really happens after and I just stay there seated and eventually wake up.

My 4th or 5th WBTB attempt of the night was successful. I had been watching HIs patiently while chanting the manta "Watch for the dream, ride a horse" The HIs suddenly were under my control and my physical body was gone. Score! Third LD in the night. I played wit the images trying to summon images that seemed like a dream I could enter. My recall is fuzzy as to which scene I finally decided to step into. I think it was a park or something with trees, but it is blurry now. I visualized my self with a complete dream body and walked into the scene. I took some extra time to stablize, but could have ddone better. I examined my hands and and counted my fingers. I like to force the hands to form properly with only 5 fingers. I moved and worked the hands in various positions. I got excited to try to do stuff for the competition and should have patiently did a more advanced stablizing, but that is how it goes.
I looked around for something to do. A man was standing nearby and he was feeding squirels or something. I decided that interact with a DC was something that the competition called for (it is so hard to remember the goals in the LD!) I walked over to him and said 'Hi' He looked up and did not say anything.
I decided that if there was only one DC it should be a hot woman. I actually completed my first of three dream goals with out thinking about it. That is Advanced Summoning. I made the man disappear like he was teleported and in his place I summoned a nice sweet and pretty young woman. She wrapped her arms around me and in the excitement I lost my lucidity. I should know better.
The dream went on for awhile but I went back and forth between non-lucid and semi-lucid. I never got lucid enough again to grab control and re-establish full lucidity. We went to her house and I interacted with her family in a few scenes that were vivid, until I could not find her or anyone, and I awoke. Dur of lucid parts ~4 minutes.

Non lucid fragments:

1. Katie had pictures of her from her old job where she owned a bakery that failed miserably. And I told her that the reason she's always kept her weight down was because she was so spastic all the time.
2. Chris and I were putting up xmas decorations all over this town that was covered in snow. Everything was so sparkly and snowflakey and Christmasy and glittery. The tree was the best. It was tall and completely silver. With a star made of diamonds.
3. I had one of those little vacuum things that runs around the floor by itself, cleaning the floor. It looked like a tea kettle. It accidentally sucked up some bacon grease so I had to clean it out. Icky.
4. Something with The Smurfs.

I had been attempting my 2nd WILD try, then lost awareness and suddenly found myself lucid. It may be a WILD but as I am reporting on the competion thread, I want to be very fair. I lost all awareness prior to this so I will just call it a DELD which is worth less points. I became aware that i was totally disembodied and floating in a void. I casually checked to see if I was awake. No awareness what ever of my body, so I was asleep. I realize this is the blank slate kind of LD like the white training area in the matrix. I rotate my feild of vision 360 but nothing is there other than maybe slight variations of grey. I attempt to form a body. I bring my arms up and it is trippy.The blur into existance and it is bazaar suddenly being only a pair of arms. I never goot farther, because a loud vehical was warming up some where out side and I woke up. Dur~2 minutes.

I worked myself up trying to get back into serious LDing for the competition thread. Neither of my LDs from last night are very special, but it is a good start. The first one was my 3rd attempt last night for a WBTB WILD. I kept chanting internally "Watch for the dream. Ride a horse" I want to summon a pegusus for the task of the month, but plan on starting out with a normal horse first.
All of a sudden the HIs which had been swirling around formed all sorts of horse images, mostly horse heads in profile. I attempted to form a dream body and almost messed up the WILD. It was to soon, so I relaxed and kept the mantra going and just watched. After a minute it settled down into a sceeninside my house. I stablized by clappingand carefully observing the details while gently rotating in a full circle. I noticed something out of place for the house. The bathroom vanity was in my front room. I decided that looking into a mirror is fun and challenging, so I tried it. The mirror on the wall wanted to shift at angles that did not reflect me so I dream controlled it into place. I looked into it. At first the image was way back like i was a long ways away and my image had a big glowing star on my fore head that created rays like a cross. I brought it closer, and remembered someone on DV saying you always look different in a mirror. I personallyy have not found this. I was looking into the mirror at a reasonably good copy of myself. I should have been less fixated and remembered to do a better stabilization.
I lost lucidity at this point and the dream went on, but the details aall get blurred. Dur~3 minutes.

Hunting

A colleque from my workplace, in the dream a teacher, is missing. She has either been kidnapped or escaped with some guerrilla group. We are following her. We get to a dock, where there are a couple of thugs. There is some martial arts display and I start flying towards the ship. I'm not flying very well, and one of the thugs notices. He says that my legs are tired and my flying is almost as bad as his. He starts following me.

Canoes

I'm walking with a few people. There's snow around the road. We come to a river that is only partially frozen. There are two canoes and we use them to get across. The ice floating on the river is making it harder keep the canoe straight. I fall of the canoe once, landing on a piece of ice.

Sleeping in the Snow

I'm camping in a forest with some friends. There is a small building and I go in there. It turns into a 2D game-like thing. I'm looking for a weapon and find a fire flower like in Super Mario. I get out and go to where the others are should be setting a camp. Instead, they have decided to sleep in the snow. They have dug themselves into the snow with their sleeping bags.