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Drank a bit last night so recall is really crappy this morning...
Remember me and some guy trying to get somewhere... I notice a lot of my dreams are about trying to get somewhere, seems like I'm never where I want to be.

Yeah, that's all I got today.

Lucid|Non-Lucid|Side-Notes/Awake

I was recently prescribed a new medicine "Topamax" (Topiramate) for my migraines. I have read several different things about this, and nothing real specific about dreams. I read some people saying it causes weird and vivid dreams, while others say it completely gets rid of your dream recall. One of the nearly universal side-effects are memory loss, and trouble recalling certain words. So it seems like it would make lucid dreaming harder if it hurts your memory... I start on the lowest dose 25mg, which causes the least side effects, so thats not so bad.

I went to go pick up my prescription at the local pharmacy, and I decided to get some supplements while I was there. I picked up melatonin with B6 and B6 by itself. At home I have B12 and these daily vitamins with extra vitamins for energy. I think these are generic brand of "One-A-Day Energy" Anyways, they have the B vitamins, and some other stuff but also extended-release caffeine, which I think really helps with lucid dreaming. I also have vitamin B2 and Magnesium, but I take these daily anyways for my migraines. I decided to take all of these last night, not sure why, I guess I'm kind of scared of losing my recall, but I can't rely on supplements forever. Maybe I always wanted to try this, not sure.

Anyways, I swallow
9mg of melatonin
100mg of B6
100mcg of B12
100mg of magnesium (unrelated?)
100 mg of Riboflavin (B2)
200 mg of caffeine (ER)
+whatever else was in the vitamin

Unfortunately I do not remember any of these dreams, and I did not record them, ha.. But I do Know I had dreams, vivid dreams too. I actually woke up several times throughout the night feeling really empathetic and warm. I kept waking up being extremely in awe of my dreams but going back to sleep to soon... :C I wonder if this could be because of too much melatonin? maybe I shouldn't have used the caffeine? I also woke up about every hour, and I had mini dreams throughout the entire night, even outside of REM sleep, these were more like daydreams and were observable outside of SP, Maybe I was just delusional, I definitely felt like my new medicine could be making me feel a little bit foggy as well. I'm going to repeat This next night to see if I can record this time. Is there anything I can do different?

I can remember being somewhere I think in a room sitting on a bed and I done a reality check out of nowhere, I didn't ask myself if I was dreaming, then I became aware, but it felt like fake awareness like my conscious wasn't aware? Well then I knew that I could control the dream so I walked around this house I was in and then I suddenly went to a room and thought lets spawn somebody that I know then I did that and this girl walked through the door then she just went away. So then I decided to go outside and meet up with my friend, I ended up in a car and driving with a friend and he was complaining about something, I think I was losing control of the dream, then some weird shit happened, there was a mass crash of aload of cars and I got out and some fat kid on a bike tried taking a picture of me because he thought I did it and he was going to get me in trouble, so he managed to get a picture of me while I tried to block my face, but all that showed was my top, so I took it of and threw it at some guys window lol, he came out and he looked like a freekin assasin, I ran away and I had gun shots *I think he thought it was the fatkid so he shot him* so I ended up getting into some gardens and I hopped over a few fences and heard a very loud screech, he was behind me, then the dream was ending..

Pretty excited that I went semi-lucid!!

Fragment One: I'm practicing Glow sticking again. I'm using pink glow sticks, which is weird because everytime I practice my daughter ends up wanting the pink and my son wants the blue, so I'm stuck with green, orange or yellow. I haven't practiced with Pink in waking life yet.

Fragment Two: I'm in a crowd, and I see Snow from that latest Final Fantasy game (XIII?) from behind.
(and because I'm hot linking a google search and that pic might not show up, http://images.mmosite.com/answer/dic...431411b3b7.jpg ) I am aware enough to realize that It can't be the REAL Snow because he's just a video game character, so I'm assuming it's someone cosplaying. I can't get over how much his hair looks like Kurasawa. I start trying to make my way through the crowd towards him, but he is slipping through the crowd as well so I can never get closer. He looks back at me and smiles a few times, and I realize his face looks like Kurasawa's face, not like Snows face at all. (Bigger eyes, smaller nose, clean shaven... those are the most obvious differences, lol) I want to catch up to him and ask him if he is Kurasawa, but he keeps a very steady distance between us. At one point I stop and so does he, and he just watches me until I start to walk towards him again. Then he smiles playfully and keeps moving through the crowd. So frustrating!

Dream Three: I'm with my friend A when the phone rings. It's my friend N, and she is telling me about some free ultrasounds place that will let you know if your pregnant or not. She wants me to meet her there because she's going to get a free ultrasound of her baby. A and I go to the free place, but when we get there, A says she's never had an ultrasound before as she's never been pregnant and she wonders what they're like. I convince her to get one of the free ultrasound pregnancy checks so she will get all the experience. She asks me if I want one, and I assure her that I don't need one. I had plenty of ultrasounds with both my kids, no more, thank you! So she fills out some papers, and a nurse leads her back to a room. I stay in the lobby and when my friend N shows up, she's already had her baby! I'm so happy for her, and coo over her beautiful little baby boy. I think her baby is really a girl in WL, lol. A comes back out of the back room, and I notice her belly looks funny and puffed out. I find this odd as she's really the skinniest chic I've ever met, like less than 100 pounds skinny. Turns out, she's preggo and didn't even know it! I'm worried because I'm pretty sure she never wanted kids even though her husband does. She seems happy about it though, and she talks ecstatically about it and shows off the pictures so I assume it's all good. Then we're leaving and have to walk through a crowded parking lot to get back to my car. The rest of the dream is kind of fuzzy. Something about my dad's girlfriend getting pregnant, and she's years younger than him in the dream though she's about his age in real life. I think my cousin also turns out to be preggo in the dream. I remember thinking it's a good thing I know I won't be pregnant for a long time or I'd be getting scared, lol.

Dream Four: I'm in a batman suit, about to zip line down from a building to a clearing in a graveyard. There's a woman with curly red hair standing on top of the building threatening to cut the zip line. I keep trying to tell her I'm not the guy she thinks I am, but she insist I'm a guy named Caleb who broke her heart. Finally I take a leap of faith and just zip line down hoping it'll take her longer to saw through the line than it'll take me to reach the bottom. When I land I'm in front of a Grave that says "Nancy" on it. No last name, no dates of birth or death, nothing but the word Nancy. A lady is standing behind me again, but it's a different woman. She's telling me that this is a false grave built to hide something so that I could find it one day. She tells me the real grave is by a road somewhere and gets no visitors. I wake up.

So I've been slacking ass, lately. Sorry about that. Trying to get back on my game. It's going to be a little much, going back and writing out all the details of these notes, so I may just leave these here for not. Might expand on them later, but I have to move forward...

Spoiler for NOTES:

02-08-2012
- Walking around a crowded house with my robe open, barely giving a fuck.
- Tomb/treasure hunting with some friends (some of whom I don't really know, like two Asian guys named Kyo and Aiko). Found a few shallow entrances to the tomb, but could only go so far. Room with scary-looking hole/abyss. Knew we were supposed to go down there, but didn't want to. Dropped something down there and it showed up on an (out of place) tech screen, breaking down it's make-up and functionality. Knew the only way forward was down there, but weren't sure if the abyss would kill us. Back on the surface, found A and K after we thought they were dead. Celebrated and then something was coming. Saw huge [mirror-mask bird thingies with no skin) walking about, so we had to get out of sight. Moving down dusty road, looking for another way into tomb or out of area, ground began moving. Hands and (undead) people beginning to reach us to pull us down. Grabbed one of the asian kids and pulled him under. I was close enough toa motorcycle to grab it and move through the muck. Grabbed the girl, who might have been MJ and moved her around to safety. Could tell something huge was following. Went back to see if kid was still alive. Humanoids were too close and he was gone. Turned back around to get back to girl withthese things gaining on me. Huge hole in earth now, between girl and I. Drove over to the side and jumped off bike as it was swallowed. Landed on ledge and shimmied across hole. Celebrated with girl and another guy from our group.

02/09/2012
- Batman styled dream. Fighting a buch of dudes out near the water. All fell into water and were fighting down there. Realized that I could breathe underwater and was dreaming. Started getting upperhand on them and drowning them. Came to the surface and showed them they couldn't beat me and that I was dreaming by levitating on top of the water. One guy said that was impossible. Later. Face-off with Joker that was like Batman Beyond vs Joker where I was up in the rafters and fucking with his head.
- Battle against the scarecrow, where my identity as Wayne was basically being exposed by run-ins with demons from his/my past. Don't remember much of this one, though.

02/10/2012
- Death of Batman. This time I was one of the goons, and Batman was following us. He was tryin to be discrete, but we'd sometimes see his ears and cape poking out from behind objects. At the end, there was a bit of a fight. I was taken down, and Bats was leaning over me when the Joker came up behind him and shot him in the back of the head.

02/15/2012
- *Incubated with Skyrim* Was in a snowy, medeival area at first, and a town was being tormented by a witch/goddess of some kind. She was able to grow into a 50foot-ish colossus. Fight with her that, at first I didn't remember. Chased her/tracked her to a cliff where she disappeared beyond the whiteout of the blizard and would not come back into view to face us, obviously on the run. Finally, when she wouldn't come out, and beginning to get a bit of lucidity, I jumped into the flurry and fell/flew through the snow, uncertain, but unafraid of where I would end up. Emerged in a more modern building somehow. Had a one on one with her. I would be on the run through this glass corridors and walls, and she would just come smashing through them in her giant form, with her enormous sword. Regaining lucidity, the last thing I remember is catching her sword between my fingers (wondering whether or not it was going to hurt because I was dreaming) and snapping my hand down to one side, disarming her and slamming her sword down onto the ground. I was about to unleash on her when I woke up.

02/17/2012
- Playing what seemed like third wheel to a guy that was trying to hook up with some girl.

02/19/2012
- Hanging with MJ and we were at a job or something. Powerful lady walks in and tries to blackmail MJ with something. MJ made her look like a fool, though, and called in the person that was being spoken about and straightened things out. I might have been playing the part of a girlfriend of hers or something? I dunno.

02/22/2012
- Moving through haunted house with CJ and holding her. Escaping through sewer that ran under haunted house. Being chased by some group. Ran to military base to seek help. Like a campus. Later, was dealing with some bully by bullying back.
- Something about a dog that walked around on two legs.

02/23/2012
- Was hanging out with a bunch of friends and a chick on some lawn chairs. Ended up getting wasted and was told by the others that the girl and I had wild sex and had flipped over chairs and whatnot. Later, doing acrobatics off of a huge slide. I believe Geoff was there. Would run from a distance and up the front of the slide and then flip off with a trick. Told them I would be doing a flip with half twist.
- Dream about my cellphone having been sitting on the dining table and then having just jumped off by itself, when I was in the next room, and shattered on the ground. Then I was telling someone about it - maybe MJ - and she didn't believe that it just jumped off by itself. I felt like the house was haunted. (I also woke up to my phone malfunctioning.)
- Checking out a pic of someone online, while at work, and unintentionally pulling up porn.

02-25-2012
- Trifling bi0tch. Trying to get me pinned as bad father. Called her on it
she had a field day. In a classrooom with the others. Some beligerent
dude coming around to fight. We got into it and I took him out
Later, at Dan's house. CJ talking back to me sarcastically. Straightened
her out. More drama with the friend and Dan involved this time.

02-27-2012
- Hidden living area up in a tree.
- Cierra suggesting that she knew I smoked MJ, when I said I don't smoke anymore.

03/05/2012
- Standing up on passenger seat of convertible shooting energy blasts at pursuing monsters and mages.
- Cats attacking me and clawing and biting my hands, because I wouldn't pet them anymore. (B6)

03/06/2012
- Exploring house as a woman. House was haunted and had all types of ghouls coming after me. Lucid. Wasn't afraid of them, and made short work. Vampires I think, at one point? Remember impaling them with something as they stalked me.

03/11/2012
- I was Batman, and having a romantic episode with Talia. She was trying to convince me to quit being Batman. I'd gotten really fucked up during a fight, and she became upset when she hears of my injuries. With me out of the way, she set out to finish fighting.
- In my neighborhood, being chased by wrecker truck. Cornered me on a porch and I became lucid. Went out to confront driver and woke up.

03/12/2012
- Fun with some chick. Can't remember who. Also being chased down a hall by some huge creature with an aversion to certain sounds. Held him off with a tuning fork but had to jump out a window when he got too close.

03/13/2012
- Awesome race against Todd. Like SSX on foot in that there were different paths to take and we had wingsuits that could help us across gaps. Running through peoples' yards and on an El-Train.
- Homoerotic snippet of Jackie and Chris from Rush Hour about to spar each other and plopped on a couch taking their business suits off and staring into each others eyes, smiling. It was wierd. Was watching it with someone and we were both kind of WTF?
- Picking up CJ somewhere in mom's car, and she not noticing me at first.

03/14/2012
- Girl I knew was some kind of famous fighter. We ended up havin to fight wood-elves in a store of somekind, and I believe she was one of them. We had a war using slingshots against their arrows.

03/30/2012
- Battling giant robots with friends. Lucid. Finally dispatched one in blaze of fire. Then bigger robot came up out of the flames. Tried to hit my friend and I stepped in and blocked with a metallic hand of my own. Kamehameha at one of my enemies. Also race against other characters. Team race. Some people from work. I think weapons involved. I remember jumping over desks and whatnot to advance on the person I was chasing. Robot fight through movie theater or something as well.

04/11/2012
- Final destination type deaths. I remember being eaten alive by animals and having my chest blown open. Others were dying in similar fashion. One guy shot through streets as some kind of projectile and slammed up against a wall, killing him. Turned out to be some kind of conspiracy being controlled by some type of faction. I eventually became lucid and started taking them all on.

04/15/2012
- On a campus and running late for school/work. Kept checking the clock but it was moving really slowly. I was looking to change majors to psychology I believe.

04/19/2012
- Was with GV again I think. Something about Nazis, or a faction like them. I got lucid for a while. Huge war scene. I was firing from invisible rocket launcher and things. Giant creature attempting to eat me.By the end I had many of my enemies cheering me own to take down the syndicate.

04-24-2012
- Cj not listening to anything and being very defiant to the point of enraging me. Lying and refusing to do anything. Pinching her to get responses at times.
- Fighting guys on castle at night. Huge bird came in and devoured one just leaving endtrails. Fleeing enemy with sword. Forced off of balcony. Huge fall with pain but lived.

04-25-2012
- At Winn-Dixie with dad. Working on car or truck with hood up. Had bag of bud. Suddenly surprise sting operation by cops. Whole lot was locked down. Guns and all. Thought they were there for us because of weed. Had to hide it so they wouldn't find it. Dad passed to me and I rolled it up in a shirt, trying not to make the celophane too loud.

05-01-2012
- Event downtown or something. Friends and theme park atmosphere. Went around exploring. Later, crazy stuff happening. Scary section of park. Huge Bahamut dragon thing. Lucid and egged him on. Fought for a bit and jumped from cliff. Later, back around near scary castle or something. First, I fought someone in the street with fire blast, and then remember telling someone about it, later. Then, actually inside the castle, I was walking passed a door. I saw a friend get mesmirized and doubled back looked through hole again. Some sort of magic had taken hold, and I watched her age rapidly. I tried to pull away from the scene, but I felt and unseen force pulling me toward the room and toward her. I remember telling my friends the story later. Afterward, we went downtown, and it looked like the city was literally on fire. Come to find out, it was a theme park attraction to celebrate The Dark Knight Returns, and they had a prop city up that was burning.

05-05-2012
- Epic war. Powers and whatnot. Caught a missile and threw it at nearby enemy robot thing.Walking on water to get back over to ship. Fighting Darth Vader-like villain. Slight wall run. Flying with Hulk bounding up and down beside us.


05-08-2012
- Chased through gator infested, flooded slum. Something to do with
getting close to tribe leader's woman. Ran to entrance but was blocked
off in a cell. Later things were normal. A bit calmer as I was bargained
for by people (the woman I think). She as beautiful and fun.

05-09-2012
House full of family and kids. Drinking and had to work on roof (to find 'animal' that had ben running around up there). Kids watching me. one seemed infatuated. MJ was there. I was asking about her birthday. She was coming onto me because I cared. Told me to hook up later. Went to sleep. Woke up nude and kids in room trying to pull my blanket off. Ran them out and parents came in accusing me of messing with them. Aunt P got biblical on me and one of the mom's came in and we went back and forth while I pleaded to her that I have no idea what she's talking about.

05-11-2012
Real close with GV. Sex I believe. Went to theme park afterward. Riding rail type of ride. Saw guy dive across a passing coaster with a baby in his hand, fallng down to a lower level but saving both of them. After that, everything started malfunctioning - rail cars running into each other; flamethrower on passing car; people falling; etc. Crash at the end where we rolled out as car crashed. Later, in field with armed guards. Forcing us to chew something like tobacco and then they were going to take us somewhere as some kind of experiment or something. Walking toward a tornado in the background, by their orders.

05-20-2012
Superman teamed up with the Avengers. He was extremely over-powerful and badass. I remember being him at one point. In outer space. Slinging punches at these asteroid type things that were coming in from all directions. Would hit them and then would see the ghostly face of some huge, cosmic creature wince in pain with each hit.

[Edit: I think I may also use this post for new notes that I haven't expanded yet, just as a placeholder so I can move my notes back and forth online a bit easier.

Spoiler for New, to-be-expanded notes:

07-11-2012 - Trapped in some sort of 'time distorting' cabin, with someone I'm not too sure I was friends with. The longer we stayed in there (usually arguing or fighting) the more days and weeks passed by in real life, where we were starving and constantly injuring ourselves. Basically dying. Finally figured it out and was able to break the 'spell', just before we were completely dead. Escaped.

05.31.2012

5/31/12 No Dream Recall (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

No dream recall. DAMN IT.

And I took 15 tablets of 3mg of Melatonin too.

Man......LOL, probably screwed my dream recall.

I'm still feeling a little sleepy, so I tried a WBTB+WILD attempt, and you know what? FORGET IT....ugh...

I swear, just WILDing alone makes me imagine that I have to balance a 2 ton weight that's heated at 600 degrees Celsius on my head, and still find a way to drift into sleep and still maintain a small awareness.

Just.... SCFNMgkjhnbjgnbfjn GHODgosdfhikgjgf

Sigh...


I'm literally going crazy and having spasms on how piss poor I am in inducing lucid dreams. I could make fun of the major techniques like WILD, DILD, MILD, WBTB, DEILD, etc....but that's only going to make me even more depressed because I'll just be hiding my own incompetence for not even being able to do them right.

Ugh.

I had 2 dreams last night, but I forgot to write the second one down when I woke up around 4, so I did not remember it. I did, however, remember one dream decently well.

31.05.2012

Dumbass Truck (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in my mom's house and it was nighttime. There was a truck. The truck was elongated, and it was maroon in color. The truck was stealing stuff. First, it stole a big boat, by pulling it by the ball and hitch. Me and my mom saw it drive by the house. Next the truck tried to steal a very very long garbage truck. It was huge. Me and my mom kept hearing the garbage truck's breaks pumping outside. My mom kept complaining about it. My mom went outside to look at it. I looked out the window, to see the truck stopped in front of our house with the giant garbage truck. I remember saying, "Holy shit!" and laughing. My mom walked back towards the house, and I looked out the window further, and saw a police car had stopped the truck. I then said, "Yeah he's caught, he's caught." Me and my mom were planning on going to ALDI. We went outside, and the house looked nothing like it does in real life. The entrance was on the left hand side. The dream skipped and we got back home, it was 9PM, and we were supposedly going back out to ALDI. ALDI closes at 8, wtf?? I carried groceries into the house, and as I was by the front entrance, I asked if Angel(my girlfriend) could come over. I don't remember what my mom replied. I went inside to carry to groceries in, and I saw a big rat flee under the couch. I carried the groceries into the kitchen, and that's all I remember. I probably woke up around here.

Bedtime: 2:10 am
First wakeup: 9:40 am (by alarm I can't remember)
Final wakeup: 10:40 am

Supplement: 50mg L-theanine (for first time)


UFO ATTACK! dream:

My friend (Mattias) asked me to join him and many others for a party outside near a forest. I was unsure from beginnng but then I said alright.
We went there, I'd bringed my systemcamera with me that I'd put in my backpack.
The people there was from my previous schools. I met the old buddy Björn and we 3 (björn, mattias and me) walked around the place.

Then suddenly my mum called me on the phone, at first I wanted to ignore it but she didn't stop call so I answered. She asked how it's going and what we're doing and about when I will get home, also about what clothes I'm wearing. I told her I don't know when we'll be home and that I'm wearing my t-shirt and shorts, told her also that it's not so cold outside.
A moment later I told her that I wanna take a picture of the sky, as I saw something very beautiful. I told Mattias to look up in the sky and take pictures, so he did. I told mum bye and kiss to not be rude by the rush of ending call. Then I used my phones camera to take pictures of the sky. What was so beautiful in the sky, the sun was behind clouds and made nice colors BUT it also looked like ice crystals to the right of it.

Well, after taking a few pictures with our phone we were gonna move on. But a few seconds later people started to stop UFO's. Probably about 30 UFO's had arrived in the air circuling around. I was chocked, and so was other people too, because those UFO's was exactly like all the youtube video, it made the exact sound and looked the same. They'd a white and transparent look somehow.
People started to run to the forest and so did we. The weather started to change very sudden, it became dark and windy. People was laying and sitting in the grass. Myself was total laying in the grass trying to connect my phone so I could upload the photo and also write that we're seeing UFO's.
Then after a while of trying but no success I got up from my laying position and walked to most of the other people that had setup their laptops. But they seemed to have problem with connection too, and some did just sit there with their computer turned off.
There was also a road near the place, so people took their cars and drove home. Me, Mattias, Björn and other people were still left and didn't know where to go, as we suddenly didn't have any car.

And there somewhere it ends.



Fragment:

I was at my GF's place around appartments and there was a crazy guy that was shooting at us. No idea why he did, but he wanted us gone.

I know it's a bit late, but I wanted to share this dream anyways, because I have finally completet a task. My lucid dream was really long, so I want to skip to the part, where I did the basic task.

I have been lucid in a while, at the time, and then i remembered the basic task. I talked with my friends, and I got the idea to posses one of them. First I tried to walk into the person, but without any luck. Suddenly I remembered something i saw from a cartoon once, where they jumped head to head into the victim. I tried, and this time with succes. My friends stared at me, and I asked them if I really were succesfull... My body didn't look different, but I felt it worked, and they said it worked well.

I hope it wasn't really too late, because I really wanted to share this with you. Happy lucid dreaming!

- WBTB WILD

got into SP after lying for a bit. I waited for it to slowly go away, till I felt like I could move again. I opened my eyes to find myself lying on my bed, I thought it probably worked and I was actually dreaming, so I did the nose plug RC to make sure. Yep I was dreaming instead of stabilizing like i should have, I just floated off the ground went down my hallway to my front door, and took off down the street flying. Woke up shortly after, gotta work on making my dreams longer :p

- WBTB DILD

During a dream, I was with a friend at a nearby street. Out of nowhere I just realized I was in a dream and got super excited. I Climbed up to the top of a street light and jumped off flapping my arms like wings (the same way I always fly in non-lucids) I flew over a few houses eventually landing on a roof, and that is when I woke up.

Notes Dream Lucid

Dream 1 I was in this mansion with some dudes that looked like they came straight out from Hogwarts. We were running through the house and for some reason. After a while we came into an elevator and suddenly a monster appeard for a split second and screamed. Everyone except me got so scared that they started to puke.

We were running to some room again. The monster popped out of nowhere and tried to scare us, but someone threw a magic spell at him and he dissaperd.

Dream 2 I was sitting next to my sister, as she was talking to a stranger. She tried to convince him that if, he watched the movie, then she automaticly would learn french

I first started out in a desert someone around a destroyed city. I've seen this desert before, or at least felt I have. I was standing on a dirt road, making my way towards the city. It was a little dangerous to try and leave the desert I was in, as there were people who would punish me for leaving. On my way, I found a boy in a wheel chair. I never questioned why he was in one, but I decided to help him make it in to the city. I grabbed on to the handles of the wheelchair and made our way towards the city in front of us. At first, it didn't make since. From a far view, the city looked a lot like a destroyed city filled with trash and dirt flying over the city. The scenario changed. Before I knew it, I made it in to a school. And the weather also changed. It was raining and the clouds were covering the high skies. I was standing in front of the high school hallways. If I had to guess, I'd say it was my old high school. Pacific. People were walking around the classrooms and through the hallways as they would in reality. I was still in charge to help this kid in the wheelchair make his way to where he had to go. I was taking him down the hallways until something strange happened. I kept a good eye on the students all around me to identify familiar faces. I didn't see too many at the time. But I did see one. However, it wasn't one whom looked like the one who they looked like in reality. But I never did get a chance to remember her face after all this time. Her name was Stephanie. It was a girl I like in 8th grade, when it took me a while to get over her. Once I saw her, I knew I had another chance at meeting a beautiful girl. I do like another in reality but seeing Stephanie's face again gave me some hope. But this wasn't the only the time I saw her in this dream. I'm not sure why but, after seeing her the first time and making my way through a few more passageways, I saw Stephanie again. I'm guessing I really miss her. Anyways, this is where things start to get more different. Me and the kid finally made our way to an open area. It look so familiar and so unfamiliar. I left the kid there and continued making my way to my classroom. I was on my own on this one. I did have something in my hand though. I had some kind of metal pipe in my right hand and a smaller one in my left. I'm not sure what they were used for, but I never bothered throwing them on to the ground. I walked towards the corner of a hallway in front of me and continued walking down the hallways until I reached the front of the school. Once I finally reached the front, I turned over to my right and walked towards the last classroom. I also noticed that the time changed. It was now night time. I'm guessing it was D-3. I'm not sure. The numbers on the doors were too faded to see. I didn't see anyone there. There was a unoccupied area there. Right next to it was a wall of ground where people were able to sit down and wait for the teachers to announce that the session is ready to begin. I looked down at the wall of ground and tried to find a number that relates to the classroom number. I walked too far. I did hear a teacher yell out a class number. It was Mrs. Kelly, one of the old teachers I had in high school. The classroom was about 2-3 classrooms before this one. I was a little embarassed and walked back a few steps to the classroom. When I finally found the classroom I sat down on the wall of ground, put down the stick of poles, and waited there until the teacher allowed us to go in. I saw an old friend sitting right next to me. It was one whom I had known since the 6th grade. I forgot what I had told him though. For a few seconds more, someone behind me told me that the class session has started. I got up and turned around and walked in to the classroom. I was walking in to Mrs. Kellys' class. It was a bright classroom. And the tables looked the same as they would in real life. I sat in a corner right next to the teachers desk. There were a couple more kids sitting to my left too. I think I knew them for some reason. They seemed to be friendly around me. The class was to fold a piece of blank paper in half and make some kind of definition chart. I think I had a little trouble trying to make one. I was new to the class, so I wasn't sure how to finish up the project. A boy to my right was also new, but he was the one who was trying to help me out. I didn't know this, I sort of felt it. The teacher also helped me. She was sitting in front of me as she was working with some papers she had in front of her. She looked busy as usual. I've always liked this teacher as a person and the way she handled the classroom. She also looked at me differently in this dream. Because I was always shy around her in reality, I feel like I've changed a lot ever since I last had a talk with her. I never bothered to turn around to see her facial expression as I was working really hard on this project. There was a word that really pointed out to me. Some of the words were so clearly written. But there was only one word I could read. It was on the left side of the folded paper and it said, "Availability." It was a pretty nice dream seeing my best 12th grade science teacher again!

I'm walking on the street to some sort of ball or festival dance or something. My best friend is with me. I notice that all the girls around us are wearing long pretty dresses, but my BFF is wearing dress pants and I'm wearing a mini skirt and tank top. We don't fit in at all. To make it even more obvious that we don't fit in, all the other girls are wearing these bright neon pins in the shapes of butterflies and dragon flies on big bows. I decide I want one of those pins because the tank top I'm wearing is white with neon colored butterflies. I Pull my BFF to this little store beside the road where I think I can buy them. The store is up on a hill, so we had to walk up the driveway/parking lot to get to it. I walk in and start holding bows with butterflies up to my dress to see how they look. I settle on a pretty pink one, and then discover that it's not a pin, but a hair bow on a clip. At first I try to clip it to my spaghetti strap, but then I decide to put it in my hair where it belongs. I turn around and there's a long mirror behind us so I start trying to put it in my hair. I start marveling over how pretty and long my hair is. It's straight and halfway down my back. In real life my hair is short and very naturally curly, when it's as long as half down my back it curls so much that it barely grazes my shoulder. Anyways, I start wondering why I didn't grow my hair out this long sooner, then I remember that I've been trying to grow my hair out. It's just that my hair doesn't grow that fast! This has to be a dream! I immediately drop the hair bow and walk out the door. My bff follows me and asks what's wrong. I tell her I'm dreaming, and I'm lucid right now! I tell her to call Kurasawa for me and tell him to meet me in a little gypsy like tent nearby that looks like something a palm reader would be working out of. Then I walk off and leave her b/c dream character Ambies isn't the real thing and I didn't want to waste my time with her. I walk over to the tent, and find that it's got a fire inside of it, and it's not really a tent at all, but some sort of decorative fireplace that only looked like a tent from the distance. I feel kind of disappointed, but there's a building nearby and I think I can go in there to wait. At this point I lose my lucidity though I see my husband inside and he wants me to go somewhere or do something, and I tell him I can't because I'm waiting for Kurasawa. He gets all mad and jealous about the fact that I'm waiting for some other guy, and then I can't remember the rest of what happened.

Yay for lucidity though! lol I'm noticing I can't stand being inside when I find that I'm lucid. I guess since that second lucid I had where I was trapped inside and couldn't open doors because I was afraid they would be locked. Now I feel like every time I'm lucid I have to go outside to do anything, or else I'll be trapped inside in a "normal" world. Every lucid I've had in the last month has been like, "Yay! I'm dreaming!" *walk to the door* I might make it a goal to stay INSIDE during a lucid to break that habit and train myself to be comfortable with my lucidity where ever I am.

5/30 - DILD followed by WILD

Last night I attempted WBTB after my 2nd REM cycle. At approx 3:30 I went on the computer for roughly a half hour. After going back to bed and attempting WILD I fell asleep missing the imagery. I found myself placed in a hallway. Initially I was not aware that I was dreaming but shortly after taking in my surroundings I pieced together that I was indeed dreaming.

As I started to realize I was dreaming I began running. I tried to run down the hallway as fast as possible and soon doors were flying by left and right so fast they were becoming blurry. As I reached the end of the hallway I stopped and In my mind it became very clear that I was dreaming. At this point excitement set in and my dream scape faded to black. As I was losing my dream I remembered to rub my hands together.
Oddly enough I began focusing and could feel the sensation of rubbing my hands together. I found this experience to be weird because within my dreams I never recalled having any type of dream body. When I decided in to rub my hands together in the blackness of my dream it just happened.

After stabilizing my dream I found myself in outer space. I believe this was due to my lack of concentrating on a new dream scape. I saw dots and immediately assumed they were stars in the distance. I recall using a swimming motion to fly closer to the stars (this flying was accompanied by pure excitement and I even recall saying "weeeeeeee"). As I approached the stars began to split. When I got closer to them I began to think they looked like white doves. I flew around for a couple minutes and I do not recall why but soon after I woke up.


This DILD got me very excited and upon waking up I was filled with excitement and as a result I felt wide awake. After writing pages in my dream journal about every little detail I could remember I thought it would be a perfect time to attempt a WILD.
I put my sleep mask on and laid down. Soon sleep paralysis ensued followed by imagery. The transition into my WILD was quick and almost effortless. I recall struggling in my last WILD to enter my dream but last nigh my dream began quickly in a bang of white light.
I woke up inside my dream and found my self laying down on the passenger seat of my truck. I slowly raised my head to find that my truck was driving down the road without any one steering the wheel. After thinking about this for a second suddenly my mind drifted into the beautiful surroundings outside my my window. I looked out my driver side window and there waterfall after waterfall. Above the waterfalls was a perfect blue sky without a cloud in sight and I recall being encapsulated by the amount of detail I was observing.
The colors and images I experienced in my dream were more detailed, colorful and vivid than anything I've ever seen in my conscious life. Thinking about the detail I observed in this dream still amazes me as I am writing this.

After observing the waterfalls for quite some time the waterfalls began to repeat in a pattern of three. Every third waterfall would be the same and they would be separated by a passing tree. I decided that now would be a perfect time to attempt teleportation into a new dream scene. I closed my eyes and began thinking about where to teleport. During my waking life I had a planned dream scape but being in the dream my thought process wandered and I found myself wanting to teleport to my last vacation which was in Las Vegas.
After deciding I quickly said to myself "when I open my eyes I will be in Las Vegas" After saying these words I began a count down from 5 and upon reaching 3 I recall hearing the sounds of slot machines and people chattering. When I opened my eyes I recall seeing a floor pattern forming. The dream scape detail faded quite dramatically but the detail in my dream characters remained vivid. After the floor pattern formed my focus shifted from the flooring to a building I was placed inside. I recall thinking it resembled a college building.
There were a lot of glass windows filled with people and as I started walking I found myself mixed in with a group of three people. I do not know who these people were but they were following me. I decided to explore the building and recall entering a stairwell to get to other floors within the building. As I began climbing the stairs I recall seeing floor after floor of empty space. There were rooms but no people. I kept climbing searching for more places and eventually decided to try to teleport to Las Vegas again. I closed my eyes and repeated "when I open my eyes I will be in Las Vegas" I started a countdown and opened my eyes and found myself in a new area. This was outside and there was a large group of people. At this point I stopped trying to teleport to Las Vegas. I recall thinking about my dog and shortly after I saw her running by. I called her and she stayed with me for the rest of my dream. I recall beginning to walk and I was trying to think of things to do. One of the things that came to mind was a reality check. Even though I was completely aware of my surroundings I became excited at the thought of experiencing a reality check inside of a dream. I looked at my hand, which previously I've never seen in a dream and tried to push my finger through my hand. I focused on it and slowly watched my finger tip disappear and re appear on the other side of my hand. Soon after performing this reality check some kind of authority figure ran up to me and started an altercation. I began to lose my focus in my dream and decided I needed to perform a reality check to bring my awareness back to 100%. I looked down at my hand again and tried pushing my finger through my palm. After pushing for a second I found my finger just sitting in my palm. It would not push through and I recall becoming confused. I returned my focus to the authority figure and recall him bringing out a miniature bat shaped baton. After I saw him pull out a weapon I began thinking this is a dream I know I can push my finger through my hand. I attempted to push really hardly through my hand and after a second I was successful. After doing the reality check I gained confidence and grabbed the baton on the end. I remember squeezing it and my hand began sinking into the bat. I raised my view slightly and began staring at the officer and he slowly began drifting into the air. At this point I let go of the baton and walked away from him. I began thinking about what to do again within my dream and I remembered thinking about my dog and recalling how she just seemed to appear. I decided to attempt to summon my girlfriend into my dream. I closed my eyes and this time instead of saying things I just began visualizing her. My eyes remained closed for a short period of time and I opened then and my girlfriend was staring at me with a blank stare. The level of realism I experienced shocked me and woke me up instantly.

Tonight I will be attempting WBTB again and I am feeling confident about entering another WILD. The lack of effort that it took to enter my dream last night has given me an extreme confidence boost when attempting WILDs. I've noticed my attitude shifting away from conscious anxiousness and towards calm passive states.