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Well, I kind of screwed myself over last night as far as recall goes. I got the kids to bed early and all, but then ended up staying up until 2 am playing that Hakuoki game... I played all the way to the end, and couldn't help tearing up because it was so sweet but so sad! Then of course I had to wait for my brain to settle down before I could fall asleep, and my kids woke up early because they had gotten a good 4 hours head start on sleeping. I usually get around 10 hrs of sleep, last night I got maybe 6? I still have a full dream, and some fragments though so here goes

Dream One: I'm flying through the air with someone. I don't know if I was flying in a plane or just like dream flying myself. We're following what we're calling a plane but looks more like a spaceship (of the nasa variety, not the alien variety) The side parts of the space ship fall off (I know they're supposed to, they're like the boosters to help it out of the atmosphere in real life. Anyways, those parts fall off, and they start spiraling out of control like some kind of missiles. Then, the space ship turns and starts heading towards an airport for a landing. Suddenly I'm worried that those boosters are going to hurt someone, so me and the guy (I'm pretty sure the person with me was male all night, but my memory is fuzzy.) make a big lazy circle, then head down towards the airport to warn everyone about the space ships broken boosters. But, before we can get there, the boosters crash into the building and there's a big explosion. We're blown back by the blast, and then we decide to just go home and check on my family since there's nothing we can do now for the people we wanted to warn. When we get home, my grandma is getting ready for some sort of appointment, and she told us we had a family get together to attend. The person with me and myself go to the family get together. I remember there being snowmen decorations there. The next thing I know, I'm playing Hokuoki and I'm choosing the path I completed last night, but instead of getting a happily ever after ending I get a "They never saw each other again" ending. The first part of the dream was easy to remember because flying was awesome, the end of the dream, no so cool and I barely remember. Thank goodness for my notes!

Dream Two: I'm trying to get somewhere, but I have to follow this stone path that is up high in the air, like on top of aqueducts or something. I reach a point where I can see a city, but the bridge in front of me is made of what I can only describe as ghost stones. You can see them, but you can't touch them and I would fall right through if I tried to walk over them. There's someone with me, maybe the same person from the first dream, I don't know because the dreams were both so hazy. Some guy flies around and then lands beside me. He's cocky and stuck up, but he knows how to fix the bridge. He tells me he'll repair it for me, but he wants something in return but I can't remember what it is now. The person with me doesn't think it's worth it and tells me not to accept his offer, that we will figure something else out. I really need to get on the other side though, and I trust this arrogant guy for some reason, and I agree. He flies up into the air, the quickly flies through the ghost stones, and they glow green for a moment then they solidify. I start across the bridge, and wake up.

Dream Three (Fragment): I'm in a cave like place, and there's a cavern that's blocked off by iron bars like a dungeon cell. There's someone inside the cell, and I want to rescue him. In fact, I'm down right desperate to rescue him. He keeps telling me to go back, escape before I'm caught, and he's nearly in tears trying to get me to leave him, but I refuse. That's all I can really remember. I *THINK* I rescued him, but I don't remember how. I'm pretty sure I remember flying with him around the cave at some point, but maybe I'm just getting the first dream mixed up with this one, lol.

The non-lucid dream involved an old female friend of mine refusing to let me into a house. I guess I had told someone something about a couple who are mutual friends of mine and the DC. My alarm interupted this dream.
I then di a DEILD and soomthly entered the same scene lucid. My snooze on the phone I was using is only 5 minutes, so I had to hurry. I did not have time to stablize or anything, so I just decided to try and resolve the dream scenario. I summoned a gift out of my pocket and explained that what ever I said was an accident, and to please give them this gift. She opened the door and accepted the gift. Then the alarm went off again. Short and boring, but better than nothing. Dur~3 minutes.

1983/82
Non-lucid/partial lucidness Dream
Memorable
Vivid
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After my Grandma passed away, I was very disturbed by her leaving this world. One night, I lay in bed and tried to imagine what she might be feeling - how would it feel to be 'dead'. With these thoughts in my mind, I fell asleep. As the dream began, I found myself swimming. It was probably a typical swimming pool. I tried to come up for air and found a see-through barrier preventing me from getting to the surface. I swam left and right to no avail.

The dream shifted. I believe I became conscious. I wondered how would one feel if they were dead? I began shutting down each of my senses. I figured one wouldn't be able to hear and then I could not hear. One would not be able to see and then I could not see anything but black. One would not be able to feel....and this is where it changed again. I felt cut off and isolated. I was floating (seemingly) in this blackness - all alone - without sight, without hearing, without feeling. I did not exist. No one worried about me. I had no worries but I had no joys either. And then...I became terrified. I wanted to mean something to someone. I wanted to be remembered. I wanted to feel and see and hear. I woke up.

*Afterthought: Looking back on this dream, I often wonder if I had not just gone to the void that I found after years of meditating? To a child, the void might seem terrifying especially if you don't know what it is. But when I found the void as an adult, it was peaceful. And because you are meditating and your focus is internal - not external - I don't hear anything, or feel anything, or think anything. I could have, if I'd wanted to. But the goal was to focus and clear the mind - clear them mind of all that is. Only after clearing the mind can one be able to hear other things and see other things. Before that you only hear what is yours to hear. ... your own noise. And if someone/something else was talking to you, you would never hear them above your own chatter. So, as a child, the void, if that is what I entered, was a nightmare. The unknown can be terrifying...

Meditation: Previous Experience from the years 2006-2009
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I don't know how I became interested in remote viewing, but when I did, I so enjoyed it. It began as a challenge and as a way to expand my own experience/knowledge. I was part of a group that did controlled experiments, so to speak. Just like this group here, so it was nothing formal.

Once I figured out ways to remote view, and trust me, my ways are mine, they do not work for everyone and many will say, that's not how you do it. So be it. I only know what I know.

This session was more of a curiosity tour. After my 'tour' on a UFO in a very lucid dream, many years after, I just couldn't resist spying. I can not recall if this was my 'first' or last time viewing them, I only know it was one of the times I viewed them. What they are - I don't know. Figments of a collective imagination? Alien life forms? Astral forms? Or none of the above...

When I RV'd, I would go in my golden form, looking like a wisp of golden silk. I would fly from my solar plexus area and to my target. I only did this after I had meditated and calmed my mind. Then, I would focus on my target, leave as golden, and see what I could find.

On this expedition, I came to what looked like a red desert. There was an opening to the cave and I went inside. I settled to the ground and began walking of floating. As I moved, I dragged my hand along the wall to my right. It felt sandy and rough, perhaps like sandstone. The cave walls were cool and the inside was very dark. But I kept following the wall.

When the wall ended, or perhaps I got bored and fast traveled, I came upon a room of sorts. It was dimly lit. There were what I can only call beds or gurneys in this room. And several "Grays" were lying around. They did not look like the typical bright-eyed, light skinned beings we see depicted on the cover of novels. These Grays were ashen and frail. Their mouths were mere slits but they had teeth I believe. They appeared in agony. There was so much pain and sadness.

At some point, I was discovered. I don't understand how. I just recall knowing someone other than these frail creatures became aware of me and sent me on my way with one heck of a headache. And yet, I continued to view them. In a way, I felt like I had turned the tables on them. And at points, they did not like it.

I had a dream that I was laying in bed, trying to WILD, and it worked. I watched everything fade to nothing, felt my body go limp, and watched as my mind tried to create a dream. Then I woke up.

April 13, 2012
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Last night, I wrote my affirmation: I remember my dreams vividly and recall them in detail when I wake.

Then, I drew a line beneath the affirmation, read for a while, and before I fell asleep I repeated the affirmation.

It seems I forgot to clue my subconscious in on a few things:

1. I need to actually write the dream down.
2. -or maybe this should be #1 - I need to stay awake long enough to do #1.

*sigh*

I woke several times during the night and I KNOW each time I woke it was because I had a dream. I remembered the dream when I woke .... BUT...I rolled right over and went back to sleep.

Tonight, I will adjust the affirmation to INCLUDE staying awake to record the dream.

I didn't have an LD, as far as I am aware, but I do recall a particularly long dream in quite a lot of detail!

As with most dreams, I have no clue how I got there, but I was at a party. A work party of some sort and Sarah Michelle Gellar was my boss. Because, why not. It was at this huge elaborate hotel. At one point I walk over to Sarah and she accuses me of being too drunk, and she says that she hopes I'm not as twisted when I take the exam (sub-con powwow as I actually have an exam 2moro!). I flip out and tell all of my workmates and then storm off. I settle down the near the kitchen and look at my reflection from the surface of a steel thingymabob, and this other guy catches my eye and we decide to get out of there.

When we leave and go outside, we're suddenly in some kind of ancient, Uncharted-esq territory, and I'm not bothered by any of it cos im with this guy and i fancy him a hell of a lot! I wait on a long set of stone steps while he takes a piss around the corner, and these tourists suddenly appear and i jokingly scare them off but then call them back cos i felt bad.

We decided to leave-leave and so we hop on a bus. The terrain has changed and everything is completely covered in snow and there's a giant iceberg across the road. I remember breaking away from my concentration of the guy to stare in awe of the ginormous iceberg but then he pulls me back by telling me his backstory. OH AND I JUST REMEMBERED, before we left-left the hotel, Sarah and her bodyguards checked our arms to see if we hadn't cut our wrists! WEIRD. He tells me he has fake tatoos of scares that he puts on his wrist, but he wouldn't tell me why.

We finally arrive NEAR my house, and where the park usually is, now lies a swamp. And there was a family just lounging in the swamp, which didn't sit right with me. I noted that hippos and crocs could be in there and waddayaknow, they appeared. But the family barely flinched at the hippo and only decided to jump out when the crocs overcrowded! BUT THEN, velociraptors appear from the swamp and attack us! I get pretty cut up by a BLUE raptor!

We finnaaally make it home, but the door is open and all of my family members are with me now. I go inside with a mop and find my aunt sitting in the kitchen with a new haircut! We all catch up and I explain that raptors had survived the meteor and simply evolved to breathe underwater. I brought in the guy and introduced him to my family - they loved him. And I'm pretty sure I did too at this stage hehe.

And, er, the end?

1: I was on dreamviews and they decided to start paying members $5 a week, it didn't seem like they had any reason to do it but nobody argued. Then my sister knocked me off the computer to videochat with friends. They were in some club with knitting and assassination, etc. Somehow I ended up with them on a mission to kill a group of terrorists. While in the small building I found a fish who said he was my father, I said that if anybody here is a father it's probably me. We argued for awhile and ended up in a chef's kitchen barbecuing and not arguing over who was who's father.

I'm driving in my car in my school's parking lot. There was a lot more to it but I can't remember ><

I'm walking around in an anime convention looking at stuff. This particular convention has shown up in my dreams repeatedly, but I've never been there irl. I don't even know if it's a real con.
I don't remember much except that one of my irl friends was actually being all happy and stuff towards me like she used to be, even though in real life she really doesn't like me ._.

I set a series of alarms last night to wake me up in order for me to practice WILDing, but each time I just fell asleep like normal. The only dream I can recall was I was in a building trying to get to the sixth floor, but everyone was evacuating it.

Dream fragment: I was looking at 8 of the apollo astronaughts in their space suits during the year 1967.

Next dream I was searching the rooms in my house trying to find a woodpecker. It was making noise, pecking on something. I finally find it in this one room, but I can't get to it. It flies to a couple different rooms and I follow. It finally goes into a smaller room, almost like a closet. I'm thinking I can trap it there, only there is no door. I reach for a large towel to block its escape, only the woodpecker flies out of the room before I can put up the towel. The bird is flying toward me, and I drop the towel and flail my hands at it as it comes toward my head.

I wake up and actually hear a woodpecker outside beating on a telephone pole.

Although the vividness of my recall isn't getting massively better, I think my consistency is improving. Though I didn't remember anything after 4 1/2 hours of sleep when I woke myself up, I did remember this after falling asleep again (maybe it was the apple juice I drank).

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12/4/12

I'm watching a televised run, in which only 5 or 6 people are left. The losers of the pack, they're all extremely tired and struggling to stand, and it's quite painful to watch. In the lead is a man dressed as Sonic, while someone in a Robotnik costume trails a few people behind.

Towards the end of the track, Robotnik gains a sudden burst of pace and overtakes everyone in front of him, much to the excitement of the commentators. However, while approaching the final straight, Sonic whips it out the bag to regain his position in first place and win (though dozens have already finished long before him). While celebrating, a wall falls on Sonic, causing the commentators to go berzerk. Fortunately, it later turns out to be a couple of fans that have jumped the barrier to congratulate their favourite hedgehog.

I know I haven't updated in about a week. I've been almost too lazy to record my dreams. :/

The Past
I remember only parts of this dream. I was upstairs in a small library. This room seemed familiar for some reason. I found a cupboard full of past drawings I had drawn when I was little, and other scraps of paper.

I decided to move all these somewhere else. I took each stack inside the cupboard to a table. I think I was going to sort them or something.

By now, someone was with me. I don’t really know why they were there, though. I just remember them running downstairs and coming back up to tell me something important.

Fragment 2
This dream took place in what looked like a mixture of my two parents’ houses. This dream was blurry and fragmented, so I don’t really know what everything looked like. I remember going up to my little brother and asking him something in an upstairs room.

This dream appeared to have no real discernable location. I remember feeling under threat in some kind of biker-bar with my friend C..., I seemed to know that the huge man on the bar with Celtic crosses tattooed on each bicep was the villain of the piece and that he meant some harm to us. Suddenly, A.F appeared seemingly drunk and dressed in full pirate regalia to rescue us; I felt somewhat miffed at this as I believed myself to be perfectly capable of resolving the situation. I leapt out of the doorway and ran away, all the while humming the Game of Thrones theme tune.

I had travelled to Prague alone and checked into a hotel I believed to be named "The Royal Prague Station Hotel", however the man on the check-in desk corrected me, stating that it was in fact simply called "The Royal Prague Hotel". I "checked in" to this location using the Facebook app on my Ipod and then was led to my room which was somewhat unconventional. It seemed that my room was a kind of corridor space between several others and that people were quite free to look in and walk through as they pleased.

I found this something of an invasion of privacy but don't recall being too put off by it, I must have then decided to go and see the sights although I mistakenly checked out and left my room's keycard. After worrying about were I was going to spend the night I returned to the hotel and was able to rebuy my room for €10 through some kind of loophole. This was a stroke of luck as I knew that a stay at the hotel was usually in the thousands, despite having no real idea how I had found such money for my original booking.