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Dreams
I am pursuing enlightenment and different states of consciousness with Spock from Star Trek. There is a scene I incubate and it would appear and I would know I was making some kindof progress. I was very scared and I was at a table with a Spock action figure talking about it with him. I could feel changes happening to me, and I tried to snap out of whatever change I thought was going on.

I am at Albert Einsteins house and I look up at the ceiling. It is made of wood and the upper floor is filled with water. It is buckling the roof above me and there is a huge bulge where the water is about to leak out. For some reason it feels very significant. It has something to do with the secrets of Einstein. I am sitting down somewhere in a different building and I look to the right, there is a glass window and some art exhibit below outside. In front of me is more glass with some of my profs sitting behind it. I start talking to one of them but the glass prevents any sound from travelling so we try and read eachothers lips. Another prof beside this one thinks that I am talking to her, so she starts speaking as well. They both seem really into me. I think the profs are part of another exhibit and some of the ppl behind the glass might have been dolls.

I was in some building not a prisoner but I couldn't really leave. There was a cute girl on the phone and she was asking me directions about the streets around the area. My sister? is outside the doorway and I ask her these questions and relay them to the cute girl but she hears the answers directly from my sis. The girl is ordering french food and I ask her how much it is, I'd like to have some french ood too. My sister comes over and is like "really? you just ate -blank- and pie as well and are still hungry?" "I didn't have any pie." I say.

Earlier I was at an art Gallery and Tristan was sitting on a bench sleeping so I woke him up. He denied that he was sleeping. I went and looked at some jewelry that was part of some art on the floor. I'm on a bus at night with KZ and I am very disturbed about the whole Spock thing. We are going far past my house so I ask kz if he wants to get out and start walking now, but he says we should wait. Somebody takes a picture of me with a really bright flash. It was Leslie, kz says. I take a picture of him with a flash but its not leslie anymore its conner. Am I dreaming? I look around and seriously consider it and get a little creeped out at the possibility. Kz goes "woohoo!" or something and I wake up.

-I wake up kindof disturbed and fall asleep a little later. Just fragments of the next dreams.-

Dreams
I wanted to go study in Paris but somebody didn't want me to go. King Joffrey from A game of thrones is at the front of a lecture theatre and some game is going on. He tells his guards to bring him my head, but some people object. I am afraid. There is some gunfight in a hallway related to going to Paris. I remember running into my grandfather and having a brief conversation with him.

04.20.2012

fOrceez and melanieb PM (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm PMing f0rceez about something, same thing with melanieb.


For f0rceez, all I remember was just talking about how I'm going to do a WBTB after we talked about something that I can't remember.

I don't know what I'm PMing melanieb about.

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04.20.2012

Handstand 69 (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Spoiler for 18+....Kind of...:

I'm inside an apartment most likely, it kind of looks like mine format-wise. Me, this blonde female, and some guy were naked. I'm not sure if the other guy was having sex with another chick, but I'm occupied with the blonde female.

I think me and the blonde started to do a Handstand 69. She was pretty fit, she had six pack abs, and her legs where so shiny and smooth, and she was sweating a bit too, which made everything even better.

I'm pulling her legs all the way up so I can eat her, and before I go all the way, I believe I was crouching down and up a few times for some odd reason.

I look to the guy to the right who is most likely having sex with another female. He climaxes so hard, that I wonder if I climaxed as well when I was looking down on my penis.

(Oh my god, I see my penis for once in a dream!!! )

Nope, it was still hard, so I presume the guy's sperm landed on us, I was kind of irritated, and I wiped it off my underwear and other regions.

It seemed I tucked my penis through the gaps of the front of the underwear I'm wearing.

I only remember looking at my penis that was still hard after wiping the sperm off.....ugh.

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04.20.2012

MLP Pinkie Pie Humiliation (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm not really proud about this dream, but I might as well put it down anyway.....

Spoiler for 18+....I think?:

I think this is a dream shift from the Handstand 69, because I still feel like I'm in the same apartment. Pinkie Pie has her front hooves on the bed, opening her private parts to me.

I'm seeing myself in third person perspective, at least, I think that's me who is near Pinkie Pie because of the underwear and my skin color.

I don't see actual penetration, just things from up front. Pinkie Pie was begging me not to do it, and that it was too big for her.

I'll leave it at that.

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04.20.2012

Large Katara and Little Aang (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Katara is like a giant compared to Aang. She has him on her hand, and she's using her fingers to roll him around like he's some kind of cute little animal or something, and it feels he's enjoying it too since he's rolling down the creases of her palm.

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04.20.2012

Trailer Food Areas (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm outside, having several fast food places around me. It's one of those areas where there's a busy traffic, and a lot of parking with a lot of places to go to.

I'm looking around some areas, tempted to go to them to get something to eat, but I end up not going to find something else more enticing.

Then I see one of those Trailers that sell food, and I go up to them, by this time, I think I was sitting on a white truck or something. So I get off it, and go up to them, then I turn back, and realize my wallet was stuck between the creases of the back of the truck.

I quickly grab it, go back to the trailer food area to see what they have, they said something, but that just makes me reject them as well. I look around to my left after I turn my back on them to see another area having a lot of heated food wrapped in aluminum foil.

It seems the employees were just waiting for customers to come in.

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04.20.2012

Elevator Settings (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm with a random group of people, and we're waiting for an elevator to come open to us. The settings were kind of weird, but I can't remember what exactly.

I end up talking to some female and declared what I think she really has, which was dementia, or something like that. It took her a while to admit it, but she gives up and decides to click the elevator button for people with dementia.

Too random for me to understand anything that went on in this dream.

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04.20.2012

Trap Spell (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I think I'm in a fast food area, and there's this entity in a cloak, probably black or dark brown, not too sure, and it appears they are after me.

I panic a little but I'm aware that I can defeat them easily, or at least delay their movements and escape by using some kind of spell. The reason why I know this is that it feels like I'm in a video game, and I'm seeing things in third person perspective.

There's a HUD displaying on the bottom right hand corner, and there's a "+" pad, like you would see on the Nintendo Wii Remote, and there's something on the right side of the pad on the screen.

It looked like some kind of brown container or coffin??

I feel myself selecting it, and it instantly traps the person in some weird container I can't even remember, and the container was fairly huge. I thought this was the time where I should start hitting the container to damage the entity in it, but it only is breaking it apart to help them get out.

Once they do, I escape through the door, and I think the dream resets to where the entity was there. I use the spell or whatever it is again, and I forget what I did after.

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04.20.2012

Bus 24 and Melanieb? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

There are a lot of shifts in this dream.

The room overall is different shades of blue and green, mostly turquoise,

I'm inside a lecture room, or something like that, and there's this person who appears to be a guest speaker, and he's asking the students what are the remaining three answers showing in red question marks.

I believe the question itself was asking what keeps organizations together. (Then I realized this dream was related to the Sociohorticulture class that I have, and how it's relating to a previous slide lecture I was at).

Some of the students answer, but they always ended up not knowing the last one, so they would try and say something that was said before. I think the max they could say were 3 words.

I raise my hand to say,

"Motivation to keep people in them........"

and two more things that I can't remember, but I do know that the last one was something that was repeated since it was easier than just sitting there looking dumbfounded.

The dream shifts to where I'm outside, and it seems I'm waiting for a University bus to arrive. I take my shirt off for some reason, and I see a bus coming near me.

I thought it would stop since I'm at the Bus Sign for it to pick and drop people off, but it passes me, and I'm wondering why. Then I realize it was Bus #25, so this wasn't the stop for it.

I think another bus was arriving after that, but I can't remember if it was #24.

The dream shifts again to where I'm standing near a curb, and I looked at a lawn sign


It said something about "Pornstar," or "Ex-Pornstar."

I felt as if this was referring to Melanieb, I don't know why, maybe it was during a dream shift, I probably experience something related to her, and presumed that this sign was some kind of association towards that.

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04.20.2012

Temple in Sephia (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

My recall for this was too hazy, but I'll still try to remember whatever I can.

I see a picture of a temple with some kind of orange barrier around it, and it was all in Sephia color.

04.20.2012

Class (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember sitting in class with someone that seemed familiar. The class color setting was dark brown overall.

So after sixty four hours of being awake I finally managed to collapse and sleep for about six hours without dreaming early Thursday morning. Last night though, no such luck on not dreaming. Had to go to bed as early as possible for an interview the next morning. The nightmares were back.

Was exactly the same. I was running through the halls and I managed to realized I was dreaming. I felt the weird sensation like I am being squeezed through a bottle neck and strange vibrations all over my body and then I had lucidity. Instead of continuing to run around naked, I sat down in the middle of the corridor and just took deep breaths and tried to relax.

Something different happened. The voice I usually heat towards the end of my dream shouted angrily at me to run or he would kill me. I didn't talk back to it or try to hold a conversation with it. I merely smiled and ignored it while I tried to stay calm and relaxed sitting on the floor. Didn't work for long. No Eyes showed up and the other corpses like No Eyes broke through the floor. But instead of hearing the voice's disembodied laughing while they mauled me, I saw a shadow at the in the hall that I knew the laughter was coming from. I couldn't give any proof that it was the shadow figure laughing beyond that I just knew. Perhaps this is progress?

I had the first "can't get back to sleep until I check the whole freaking house to make sure it's safe" nightmare of the year last night. It kind of messed up my sleep for the whole morning afterwards, but I got some short and fuzzy dreams, so here they are.

Dream One: I'm in a hospital. Someone's just had a baby, and I'm celebrating with a bunch of people (family and people I don't know) by having drinks in the hallway. Yup. Alcohol in the hospital, I'm pretty sure that's illegal in the waking world or something, lol.

Dream Two: I'm on a boat in the middle of a small river through a city. It reminds me of when I went to Vegas forever ago and saw people riding the gondolas in front of that hotel, the Versaille? I can't remember what hotel it was, lol. Anyways, in the dream I'm on the phone with a friend, C, and I see a GIANT billboard advertising a new Otome game. It was like a dating sim game for girls, and the possible love interests in the game were actual anime characters like Sebastian from Black Butler and Setsuna from Gundam 00. I remember getting all excited, and telling my friend the game looked AWESOME! She agrees it sounds great, even though that friend doesn't watch anime or play video games o.O I go on about how I'm not a fan of Setsuna, and I wonder if it'll have any other Gundam pilots in it? But the game was worth buying to hear Sebastian's voice seducing you anyways.

Dream Three (Nightmare): I'm walking out of the kitchen behind my son when I notice something move under his feet. It's a Copperhead, IN THE HOUSE! I try to tell my son to stop before he steps on it, but he doesn't listen and comes millimeters from stepping on it. I rush forwards and grab him and stand him up on a chair, but the snake slithers under the chair after him. I tell him not to move, thinking the snake can't climb the chair I guess, and run to the basement to get a shovel to cut the things head off because there's no way I'm letting a poisonous snake who knows how to get in my house free so he can come back in again! (Non poisonous, it wouldn't have been a big deal. We actually have a HUGE black snake living in our attic/basement and I refuse to let my husband kill him because he's not hurting anything.) I can't find a shovel, but I see a ho, so I grab that and run upstairs. My kid has gotten off the chair, and I'm freaking out at him that he could have been bit, then ask him if he knows where the snake went. He points to my feet, and I'm almost standing on it! I jump, then start trying to hit it with my ho. It tried to escape in the basement, but I get him on the stairs. Then he transforms into my cat Lilly, and my cat Lilly runs up at the same time so there's two Lillys and I can't tell which is the snake. I wake up TERRIFIED. I actually made my husband check the house for copperheads when he got up for work before I could fall back asleep! The rest of my dreams reflect this anxiety as well.

Dream Four: I'm trying to park my car in our driveway in the nighttime. I notice my neighbors black dog is laying in the driveway, and he won't move. The dog is supposed to be in a dog kennel anyways, so I get out of my car and try to call the dog to put him in his dog lot for the neighbor. The dog runs off, and I get frustrated. I call him a few more times, and the neighbor apparently heard me and sent his kid out to catch his dog. Just as the kid is coming up to help I hear a noise in the woods. At first I think it's the dog, but then I see the moon reflecting off an eye, and I know it's too tall to be the dog, it's got to be a dear. I get in the car and holler at the neighbors kid to watch out for the deer, he wouldn't want to get trampled if it gets spooked. As soon as I say this, the deer starts flat out attacking the kid. It's a doe, so there are no horns, but it keeps headbutting the kid knocking him down and trampling him! I back the car up and shine the headlights at the deer, this causes it to get scared and run away. I check the neighbors kid, he's bleeding, but he says he's ok. I tell him he needs to go get a rabies shot because I don't think sane deer would attack a person like that. Then I park my car and wake up when I get out again.

Dream Five: I'm talking to my husband about my son starting Kindergarten this year. Apparently he starts in a week, and his doctors appointment for his kindergarten shots is on the first day of school. I'm flipping out that he can't miss his first day of school to get his shots, we need to get the shots this week and see if the doctors office will just let us come in for shots really quick and do the actual check up part on a another day. My husband tells me that won't work because my son needs X-rays this year? I wake up, momentarily freaking out, then realizing it's only April and school won't start until August, we got time

Dream Six: I'm in the bedroom in my dead grandparents house where both my grandma died and my grandpa took his own life. Its a pretty creepy place to think about now that I'm awake, but in the dream I had no negative feelings about it. I'm sitting next to the bed, Ciel Phantomhive from Black Butler is on my left, and K is to my right. There's a guy who looks like the pig riding guy from the early Bleach Episodes there as well, sitting across from me at the bed. Ciel is ordering Pig guy to do something, and pig guy gets up and stomps off. I hear muttering coming from the hallways, and get up to see what it's about. K and Ciel are playing poker and talking about some sort of plot against us, but I'm not worried. I trust K to handle it all, and don't feel like I really have the experience needed to keep us safe but he probably does. In the hallway, I see pig man is lighting a bunch of candles and sitting them right under papers that will catch fire and burn really easily. He's muttering something like, "Burn in hell you little demons (devils?)" I yell out at him, "Hey, stop!"and he drops his book of matches and a lit candle and runs away. I go through trying to blow out all the candles before they can start a fire. K and Ciel come out of the bedroom and K is saying, "Well Phantomhive, it looks like you've been betrayed by your own man." to which Ciel replies that he knew it would happen, and we'd use the escaped traitor to lead our enemies to us where we can catch them in our own trap. I'm freaking out that we've got to get out of here before he tried to set fire to the outside. I'm trying to gather things that are important to me, extra shoes, a stuffed horse my grandfather gave to me, a pillow pet for my kids to lay their heads on (doesn't cross my mind they're not here in the dream, lol) and I'm trying to find more of the kids stuff. K just sits at the kitchen table playing cards with Ciel again. I'm getting upset, I feel like we need to leave now! K tells me to just relax, everything's under control. But I just can't relax, I'm freaking out! K asks me where I think we're going to escape to, that we have no where to go. I tell him we could go to his parents house, and he sighs and says Ok, if I'm so upset we can go there if it'll make me feel better. He sighs and throws his cards down on the table obviously agitated and I take this as a personal attack because I'm so on edge. I start shouting at him, "Just because you're an undying doesn't mean the rest of us can't die you know! You may be happy sitting here and being burnt or blown up because you'll regenerate, but I won't!" (An Undying is from the book series Kieli, I have often thought the main character Harvey reminds me of K because they both have that quiet and unintentionally harsh around people personality. Apparently this comparison was bleeding over into my dreams to make him fit in with all the anime characters, lol) He looks at me kind of stunned and confused by this outburst, and then my son wakes me up because he's worked the fitted sheet off his bed turning in his sleep. I'm glad that K showed up in this dream, because it put me at ease enough that my last dream was not a nightmare and I woke up in a good mood after all.

Dream Seven: I'm inside of a store, at first I thought it was Walmart. I'm looking at video games, checking out what they have for the PSP because I'm really enjoying Hakuoki and wander if there are any other visual novels for the PSP. A store clerk comes up, and asks if he can help me find anything. I tell him I'm just looking, thanks. Then he asks me what my name is, so I actually turn and look at him instead of half ignoring him (yeah I know, ignoring people is a bad habbit... but my social skills are so inept it's usually a lot better than trying to talk to them and getting overly stressed out, lol) I notice he's the guy from best buy the other night. I remember that My husband was the one who was trying to talk to the guy and ask him about some video game stuff, but the guy kept looking at me when he was talking to my husband. I was very flattered at the time, especially since he looked a lot like a guy I had a crush on in College, just with shorter hair. I even wondered if he was the same guy, but his name tag had a different name on it so I was pretty sure it wasn't. Anyways, in the dream I tell him my name and he smiles really big and cutely, and I smile back. Then I decide to ask him if he knows of any other visual novels on the psp. He has no clue what I'm talking about and apologizes like crazy. I tell him it's ok, and grab a game off the shelf and tell him I'll just try that game. The I checkout and leave. I feel like I'm being watched, and I turn around to see him and someone else watching me out the stores glass windows as I leave. I turn around and smile and wave to let them know they're being too obvious, then get in the car where my husband and kids are waiting. My daughter wakes me up this time, and it's time to get up.


And of course, because the copperhead dream had me so freaked out, I wouldn't let the kids get up until I could check the house again myself, then told them to watch where they step. We've not had a snake in the main part of the house before, but since we've had mice come up from the basement and down from the attic before, I know it's possible, it just hasn't happened yet.

Dream 1
A. and I are wizards in the Harry Potter universe and on a mission to destroy Voldemort. A. has a pet cat named Russ, which does not exist in real life. Furthermore, in a nice display of intertextuality from my dreaming mind it appears that Voldemort had teamed up with the villains from A Game of Thrones. I really need to stop dreaming about this show/book but it's turning out to be something of a dream sign!

Dream 2

I am sat in my Rebels, Rakes and Partisans seminar with H. absent. SM comes over and ask me if she is not enjoying the course

Dream 3
I am at an airport with A. I am wrongfully arrested by some kind of detective who seemingly mistakes me for some kind of maniac. We leave the room and see the person he was looking for having sex with somebody in a room with M.B and others I don't recognise

Crazy stuff!

I am an observer, a floating consciousness.

There is a red haired man who has his facial hair trimmed to a neckbeard. He is riding a horse, leading a large number of people through what appears to be a desert, at night. Elizabeth from persona 3 is riding on a horse next to him in her blue velvet attire.


the man turns around and sees massive doorways peaking up over the dunes, they appear to have been following him. One depicts a catastrophic event within it's frame, full of orange lightning stemming out of a singular point in the frame, the others appear to be ends, but not nearly as spectacular, I didn't get a good look at them though.

The people have disappeared by now, leaving the man and Elizabeth alone on their horses. She informs him that it is time to choose his (destiny? end? mission? goal?) referring to the doorways. He grins madly, as if he has finally found what he has been searching for for a long time. "I choose a mission that is neither incredibly easy, nor ludicrously difficult!" he declares. "So it shall be" Elizabeth declares. The stage is set.

I see Igor, miles away in an orange-lit house does something at a wall I cannot see because his back is to me before I wake up.

I've taken my Prozosin for the last 2 nights, and I've barely recalled any dreams.

The only things I recall from last night are:
A REALLY tall horse. He was HUGE. And he didn't want me passing him to go inside some building. His size was ultimately his undoing because I pretended to run one way but quickly veered my course and he couldn't catch me- though he still tried to bite me.

I vaguely recall flying. It was a building with a cathedral ceiling and I was staying high and admiring the light fixtures.

I also vaguely recall being in a room filled with e-cig vapors lol

Tick or no tick, I fell asleep in my bed at 4:30 AM. I set a "thunder storm" alarm clock on my computer for 10:30 and I slept through it until 11 lol

Lately I've been thinking a lot about how activating or deactivating various receptors in the brain brings us closer to the dream state, and what that implies for using hallucinogens in respect to various dream phenomena like signs and guides, understanding the way dreams work on a more basic level, and beliefs like shared dreaming. To study this relationship and see if I can come to any conclusions, I've decided to use side note DJ entries to track any experiences I have which enter the hallucinogenic realm, no matter how small.

Exploring Nature, and the Dream-like Qualities of THC [Trip Report]
Cannabis
Date: April 19th, 2012

Dose:
T+0:00: 1/2 bowl, smoked, Cannabis
T~1:30: 1/2 joint, smoked, Cannabis

After getting a few errands done for the day, K and I decided to go walking through a forest and smoke some weed since we hadn't done so in a long time. I went to pick him up and we smoked a small bowl before leaving his apartment, and then I drove us back to my house. I was already really high and could tell that the weed was pretty strong! My tolerance is not insanely high at this time either, but K's is and he was pretty stoned as well. We waited at my house for about half an hour and watched TV, then went walking around the park near here.

We picked a small opening in the side of the forest next to a big clearing and smoked the first half of the joint there. It's a pretty nice spot, but we decided to go somewhere more secluded and deeper into the forest for the other half. On the walk to the next area I was starting to become fairly stimulated but also dissociated, and I was beginning to ramble about whatever was on my mind, though I can't remember what those things were now. We stopped half way down a dense path and finished the joint, and then we kept following it as far as it went. My thoughts were starting to feel very associative and I went on a long rant about the difference in perception and stereotypes of the old and modern drug cultures.

When I finally ran out of thoughts I noticed that colors were becoming highly saturated. Everywhere I looked I was noticing patterns of leaves and things among the plant life, and my mind was connecting incorrect meaning to various shapes. For example, many trees suddenly looked like they were gigantic flames, and others that had long, slender leaves with pronged tips suddenly looked to me as if they were covered in snowflakes. What's interesting to me is that now, after my long break and my other drug experiences, I can come back to these weed experiences that normally die down a bit once tolerance sets in and look at them through enlightened eyes. This euphoric energy, analytical nature, color saturation, and psychedelic image association... it's all very reminiscent of my experiences with dopaminergic psychedelics. Is this the potential of THC's cannabinoid receptor-induced phenethylamine release? It certainly has the same feel as a phenethylamine psychedelic. In this case, the psychedelic effects would be coming mostly from the D2 receptor, which causes effects similar to NMDA receptor antagonists, among other things. This mechanism is the same that causes OBEs and is likely very important in dreams, and I wonder if that's where the associative thinking comes from - the same way that dreams are built off of our internal schemata and expectations, only whereas with dreams we have only the blackness behind our eyes to work with, instead here my schemata are applied to reality and my mind attempts to make sense (dream sense, anyway) of my surroundings.

Anyway, we returned to the small forest opening by the clearing where we had smoked originally, only this time I noticed a path that lead out behind where we were originally sitting and was amazed at what I saw. There were three stone benches where we were, cut in sort of a way that looks like if you were to divide a circle up into four even sections and then remove one of them. Behind, and juts a bit to the right, of the now middle section, there was a path made in the ground that led down a tiny hill and into a densely covered forest area. However, in the center of this, where the path directly led, there was just a, not huge but not small, patch of grass with no trees, and so the area itself looked like it had a large opening where you could see the sky, surrounding by a ring of tree tops. The patch was also just a very slight hill, and surrounding it on the edges of the circle was a constant low level of water. All of this was a few feet below all of the ground around it, enough to where it'd be difficult to get back out of this ditch if that path weren't there. The very first thing I thought when I saw all of this was "Holy crap, we're at a boss area!" I turned to K and started explaining. The clearing was the world map we had passed through to reach this tiny opening in the forest, and this is where the final space before the cutscene was. K even pointed out that the three benches with the two spaces in between them made perfectly for a save point and an item shop. Then, following the path would take you down into the ditch, and then the path would be closed off by rocks caving it in, or the trees moving to block it, or whatever fits the plot. You'd then be stuck in this tiny arena to fight the boss in, and they'd be situated on the hill whereas the ring of water on the edge of the map would be where you'd find things like rings in a Sonic the Hedgehog game or pots in a Legend of Zelda game. The forest scenery was definitely fit enough to support this epic battle, as it all had a very intense feel to it, even compared to the rest of the forest we'd been in. After a while the illusion became too much, and we left because we were tripping out.

On the walk back I mostly noticed more associative imagery. The trip dwindled a bit after that, and I was merely extremely stoned for the rest of the day. I was also feeling a bit sick by the end of it (as I had been for the past few days as well), so I knocked out after dropping K off and coming back home. All I can really say about this experience is that it was a fun reminder of what a psychedelic state of mind is like. It's nice being able to observe these mental processes from an outsider's view this time, and to be able to compare it to phenomena in the dream state. I will certainly be remembering this one for future reference.

I had a dream where you could use magic by blowing air into some kind of paper in a ticket form, forming a bubble, and then using a wand of some sort to release it. I didn't really like this dream for the fact that I sucked at doing this magic!!! I was new and could only do spells every once in a while. We were taking to this like "dream" place by force and everyone was fighting against each other except for me and my friends. We start to flee but I can't remember what happens after that.

Yay ! Lucid!
I was running away from something, or for something, I don't remember which. I was in a parking lot I can not remember from real life, but suddenly I stopped and realized;
Hey. I thought it felt a bit like.. air. Why am I doing this? This is ..a. dream. I shouldn't have to run.
I got the satisfactory feeling of realizing this just like that, but started feeling my body in bed. I resisted, trying float back into the dream, and luckily managed.
I then set running after what had been chasing me, and I generally remember having fun before I lost my lucidity again. No big deal, I'll make it stay longer next time

Um okay, I'll just note here that I had been focusing on living in the present, and I had been drawing a lot, the day before. Drawing sometimes work a little bit like meditation. So I think that daily focus is key. Notice your surroundings.

"You can't live on a breath in the future, nor from the past. You have to breathe now." I just love that quote. A man on TV said it yesterday. (Yesterday was a really great day, and this is starting to look like a blog post. I better shut my trap. Have fun )

yes…Yes, I know…. I don't write my DJ often but for the record, I have good reason. I suffer from a horrible disorder called L.A.S… also known as Lazy Ass Syndrome. Needless to say, I feel the effects of this crippling disorder everyday & I’m sure you all can sympathize. But anyways, I digress…
This DJ entry is consists of my dreams from the other night. It was one long continuous dream which is out of the ordinary for me. As always, my thoughts during the dream are italicized. Also, moments of lucidity are usually specified.

Kaomea & The Lingerie Thief
I’m sitting on a big round comfy beige couch in a penthouse apartment. I recognize the place. Kaomea & I often meet here in dreams but this thought doesn’t bring lucidity. I’m watching Dog the Bounty Hunter on a huge flat screen that’s mounted in front of one of several waterfalls flowing throughout our rooftop penthouse. I have a feast of food laid out on the couch in front of me and I'm grubbing down like a starving Ethiopian child… mumbling snide remarks about the bounty hunter in between bites.
God, if only people knew what a douche he & his wife are in real life…
I wish there was another show I could watch to see footage of home…
Damn, this fried chicken is bomb-

Kaomea: “tsk… tsk… tsk…”

I look over mid bite to see Kaomea leaning against a pillar by the front door smirking at me with her arms crossed. I try to keep from laughing with a mouth full of food.

Me: “What? What’d I do?” I give her a silly innocent look.
Kaomea: “What if I was some hot maintenance guy here to fix the garbage disposal or something? Huh?”
Me (mouth full of food): “Ok, first off… the garbage disposal is working fine… I think. Second, you’re not a hot maintenance guy and third, I think he’d let my less than graceful demeanor slide once I offered to let him lick some of this gravy off my nipple… so ha. In yo face.”
Kaomea: “oh eww! Gravy? Com’on Gypsy… Seriously?” She playfully shivers & pretends to gag.
Me: “Hey… don't judge me… besides, you haven’t tasted this gravy… It… like… welcomes you to flavor country with every bite…”

I blissfully lick some gravy off my finger. She rolls her eyes & walks towards the back bedrooms laughing to herself. I turn my attention back to my food feast; take a couple more bites & start cleaning up. I'm making room in the fridge for leftovers when I hear some drawers slam. I can hear Kaomea mumble grumbling from the bedroom.

Kaomea: “Seriously? What the faaawk!”
Me: "Everything alright in there, buddy?” I mockingly ask.

I start to walk towards the back from the kitchen to see what she’s fussing about. She walks out of one of the rooms and meets me in the hallway with two fist full’s of bras. My bras…

Me: “uh…” I stare blankly at her. Totally confused.
Kaomea: “ok…so, I have a favor to ask…”
Me: “…o…k….” we both start giggling at this point.
Kaomea: “umm, so…. Is it cool if I borrow… a bra?”
Me: “…should I even ask where yours are?”
Kaomea: “I was gonna ask you….”
Me: “pssh, don't look at me bro…” I give her a raised brow.
Kaomea (laughing): “nah man, I'm serious! I have no idea where they are! I went to change & all my bras were gone! Just my bras…. Nothing else. This makes no sense.”

we both start cracking up again and I jokingly tell her that she can borrow a bra as long as she puts the rest back safely. I follow her back into the room to help her try and find her own bras to no avail.


The Visitor
I return to the kitchen, finish cleaning up, then go to change my clothes. I start to fall into autopilot as I throw on my signature “dream adventure time” outfit (Lol). I slip on my slacks, suspenders, wife beater, weapons, & hat... I stare at myself & out the window behind me through the mirror… I start to slip into foggy thoughts….
what's with the clouds rolling in?
Why so anxious?
Where’s the sunlight?
Why am I putting this on?
Haven’t worn this since… a dream.
Cloudy days are for napping…
cloudy days are for dreaming…
Dreaming gypsies…
gypsy is dreaming…
this is a dream.


I “fall” back into myself with my reflection. I am lucid. And of course as usual, I start to feel the dream destabilize because of my excitement of being aware.
Chill the fuck out…
Don't fuck it up…
Hold onto it…
Hold…
Relax…
Flow…

I take a slow breath & the scene relaxes a lil’ bit. I decide it’d be best to do something mundane until I can calm down a bit more because I really don't want to lose the dream. I walk back into the living room & plop myself on the couch leaning over the back. There’s floor to ceiling windows everywhere. This penthouse is magnificent. With water flowing in the walls and underneath the floors from waterfalls all over the room to random pools of water scattered throughout with luscious plants & vines. The glass windows open up to a rooftop pool lounge area… Beautiful. I admire the architecture but its short lived. I see those same clouds in the distance rolling in… swiftly getting closer. The air is suddenly quiet, dark, & cold…Time feels still. I hear Kaomea playing some music in one of the back rooms & I lose myself in the overcast…
Those clouds…
They’re for me…
I can feel it…
how do I know?


The doorbell rings.
It startles me and the dream begins to “melt”. I stand and use slooowww… steady steps to pull the dream back as I walk towards the door. I realize I'm starting to feel… strange…
like I’m being pulled… lured… by an unknown essence…
My emotions begin to stir… I can’t place why and I grow more uncomfortable with every step.
I’m fighting with my thoughts at this point…
There’s someone at the door…
answer it…
No, something’s not right…
Open it…
but it’s not safe…
Open it…
No, Don’t….
No, Gypsy…
Stay in control…
But… I just wanna let them in…

I reach the door and notice the bracelet (weapon) on my left wrist glowing dimly. I put my left hand on the door and place my lips lightly on the crease that separates the door from the frame. I have no idea why I'm doing this but the soft draft seeping between my slightly parted lips feels so good… my breath shallows. I close my eyes…
fight it, Gypsy…

A wave of fear washes over me… I know I'm slowly losing control but the instinctual alarms within me are fading into a whisper.
The doorbell rings again. I am not startled.

Me: “who is it…”

Silence.
Answer me…

Me: “tell me your name…”

Silence.
I just wanna hear your voice…

I can taste their energy through the door…. spilling in with the draft onto my lips. I lick them… I just can’t help it. A mixture of curiosity, fear, & lust collide in my conscious. The doorbell rings again & I force myself to step back from the pull of the door. I can’t take it anymore.
They’re waiting…
Let them in…

I roll my bracelet into my hand from my wrist with one last drop of self preservation & control. Feeling the weight of my chain manifest & drop… I brace myself as I grab the doorknob with my right hand & pull. It flies open with a powerful force that makes me cover my face & step back….
I open my eyes and stare into the foyer.
It’s empty.
No…
Please…

I step past the door and scan the area with my breath heavy & heart racing. The silence is deafening. There are no other doors…. just a couple of windows to my sides and elevators in front of me.
My eyes start to water out of anger, fear, & confusion.
No…
I’m sorry…
Come back…
Please….
Please don't do this to me…

I whip my chain towards the ground out of frustration & the sound echoes through the entranceway like thunder.
Why do I feel like this?...
What did you do to me?
It isn’t fair…
I don't understand…
How could you just leave?

Kaomea: “WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?!?!”

I jump at the sound of her voice and spin around, wiping tears from my eyes… I meet her gaze. She’s standing at the door… soaking wet in a towel with a look of pure bewilderment in her eyes. She sees the tears in mine and I can hear her in my head frantically asking if I'm hurt….
The room starts to spin… I try to walk towards her but I lose my footing & fall, cracking my head on the marble floor. I feel an intense pain rip through my head. I close my eyes to try and stabilize. I open them slowly….
and to be honest, I don't think I’ve been so happy to see the dull white walls of my bedroom in awhile.
Fin.

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No recall the last two nights, unfortunately, but it was my own fault. Tried to WILD last night but could not keep myself awake long enough. Did remember a small clip though:

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19/4/12
VITAMIN B6

I'm in some sort of cottage with some friends. We think the house might have been broken into, but after checking round, we decide it's all clear. All of us go out, with exception of one who stays behind. Not long after we leave, we get a call from him, saying he left the door unlocked and someone might be inside the house.

As we journey back to the house everyone thinks about which valuables they might have had stolen, but I'm safe in the knowledge that my expensive macbook is chained to the wall.

Once back, I enter the house with my dad, and suddenly realise I had taken my laptop off the chain very briefly recently. As I suspect, it's gone. I start shouting in anger, but it's my dad that flies into a huge unnecessary rage.

Once I've calmed down I half wake up, realising it was just a dream, before then waking up for real.

It was a wild night...

Fragments

First I had a dream about my brothers but I don't remember any of it. Then I had another one immediately afterwards involving me killing a bee for some people. Then another one where I was sitting at my desk and a girl I liked came up to me and gave me two red round bubble gums (already unwrapped).

When I awoke, I was about to go back to sleep when I began feeling this tingling sensation all over my body and heard a loud ringing in my left ear. I've discovered that every time that happens, it means there is an entity in the room with me. This has happened on numerous occasions (most undocumented).

The Old Black Flash

Back to sleep. I'm in some strange place and I'm doing work trying to earn some money. But it's not regular work. I began slacking off as I was sitting in front of a laptop doing something I don't remember. I turned around and there was a black dog sitting just behind me. Then this dog morphed into a hot girl. I immediately stripped her and started doing her. When I was done with her, I noticed another hot girl who was sitting nearby. So, I went over to her and did her as well, lol.

Then I found a solid gold bar. I decided that I wanted to take it with me to the real world. So, I tossed it up into the air and it kept going all the way up into the sky. A giant chest appeared just below the clouds and opened up as the solid gold bar neared it. Then it closed and vanished after the bar went into it. Then my dream began to fade. I closed my left eye and focused my right eye on a neon sign that had about five letters on it that were always changing. My dream began to stabilize.

Now, all of a sudden, I'm riding really fast down a highway on a bike and there's this old black guy running up behind me really, really fast! This Black Flash caught up to me and ran beside me. I looked at this guy like "WTF!" And I said to myself "am I dreaming?" But I didn't go lucid. Then I jumped off the bike and levitated in font of this guy until he stopped. I asked him "who am I?" And he said "Mogul Robinson." The last name he got right but the first I've never heard before. Then I woke up.

Strange Entity and Metallic Computerized Sounds

When I awoke, I opened my eyes but I didn't try to move. I was facing upward and my room was still kinda dark. Then I felt the presence of an entity standing right beside my bed. Then I heard a single metallic / mechanical beep sound. And I thought to myself "what was that?" I could literally feel that this entity was standing right by my bed and it was holding some kind of device, like a remote or something, in its hands. Then a few seconds later, the device made another metallic / mechanical sound. It sounded like this entity turned it off. Then this thing made a strange sound that sounded almost zombie-like! It sounded like "urrgggggh!" And it lunged at me and stopped right as it touched my legs. I felt it; I know I felt it! Then it faded away immediately afterwards. Only then did I throw back the covers to look around my room. I didn't do so earlier because I was scared as shit.

I remember being on some sort of small ship. My mom and I were sitting in what looked like a small boat on the ship, but we weren’t allowed to walk anywhere else. A man (the Captain) and a young boy (his son) were standing near us. The Captain was behind us controlling the small ship. From where we were, it looked like the small boat we were sitting in was in the water, and the ship was above us. It didn’t seem logical, but it didn’t trigger any lucidity.

All of a sudden the boat lurched to a start, nearly causing some water to come into the small boat. “I assure you it is safe.” said the captain.
The little boy came up to us to talk about safety rules. When he did, a little screen appeared in front of me that showed a Dr. Seuss-like ship about to tip over. Not only was it about to tip over, it looked like waves were fighting against the ship, so parts of it were breaking off. Among that ship were two passengers, running for their lives. They ran behind a building away from the camera’s view, so I couldn’t see what they did next.

The little boy told us that that was one of the things you should not do. You should stay calm, grab a life boat or something that can float, and just hang tight.

The dream sped forward. For some reason, we walked with the captain of the ship and his boy to their house. We walked inside, and I walked down the hall to see the rooms. I looked into one of the rooms and realized that my cousin lives here. Only, he doesn’t have a little brother. I didn’t think anything about it, though.

I went into his room and started looking at all of the stuff he had.

What looked like his smartphone was hooked up to these weird droid-like copper arm things. Whenever you moved the phone around in midair, the arms would follow it effortlessly, since they were attached to it.

I sat down at his desk, where his phone was. I held it and checked his Twitter. I don’t know why I did. I looked at his statuses, and other things. Then I heard the door open. I quickly shut the phone off and turned around.

It was my mom, telling me that we had to go. I breathed a sigh of relief and got up. Then I woke up.