Notes: Should practice a stabilization technique maybe the theme about ID, or names is that I have trouble identifying who I am. drawing comic 2 guys and 1 girl were drawing some kind of comic. One of them was really good at drawing, an expert! *I think maybe I dreamt this because I was trying to draw stuff Exploring, Fusion Have trouble recalling dreams because my first thoughts upon awakenings were to go the bathroom and pee. I do recall exploring and people fusing into 1, was I part of the fusion? I don't think so. *I think the dream topic about fusion was inspired by DBZ Bad Area I was on the road on university. I think I was near that specific part of the road with 7-11 and an autoshop. I was walking down there and a black kid with dreads show up in front of me. He's pretty young, maybe 11? He throws something above me and my eyes follow the object by reflex and I already realized I screwed up. Part of me slightly aware. I knew the knife was coming after he caught my attention. And my thoughts did manifest immediately, he held his knife against my neck to the left and wanted my wallet. I told him that I'll give him whatever cash's in it but leave my IDs and stuff since they are such pain in the ass to reapply. I take a look inside the wallet and he takes it. He walks down the sidewalk and I remind him to leave my IDs! He drops my wallet to the side and leaves. I go and pick up my wallet and he didn't take anything really. There was everything in there and most of the money was there too. *Had pain in the butt renewing ID while wake I head down south to one of the house apartment I lived in university there. I am there and am greeted by some delinquent guys. They start beating me with sticks lol. And their senior or boss or something shows up in a moment. I beat them. ~Maybe an FA here I switch to a different body. I was in a brunette girl's body as I entered the house that appeared to be their home base. I decided to exact my revenge from not too long ago. I enter inside and- eventually end up in the backyard. I was planting some flowers and strawberries grew there and forgot about the revenge. I noticed sync - I don't know or forgot what this means, just a note. *I met the dreads kid before in another dream; he stabbed me in a dream that was in New york, also near a 7-11 where he stabbed me through under my left rib and got me there. I remember it felt hot, I was being robbed and I died not too long after. He didn't stab me this time though. *IDs and wallets theme continues from recent dreams *The did dream of the house there before. I think there was someone selling. More Fights Just more fights. Perhaps related to fights from previous dream. Library, Picking out names I was inside a library, or was my awareness was within the library. I forgot the earlier part of the dream atm, but eventually it's the library scene. There was a girl and 2 guys there sitting on a library table. They were facing eachother and discussing something. The girl there was apparently the protagonist of this particular story. She had long black hair and appeared to have a genuine set of eyes. Apparently she was also rich according to the plot. Anyways they were discussing and trying to come up with a name. What name? I don't know. My new name, or dream name. AP fails Failed some ap. I guess AP rather than wild, since it did not transition into a dream scene immediately. 2-3 times. Got some vibrations, tried to leave bed. I did leave the bed by the right side, but I didn't have vision. Just felt my legs touching the floor below as I walked. Back to body. I try again. To the left this time, before I get- Back to body I try once more, to the left this time. I was in some kind of apartment now and looked out the window. I had doubts whether the experience would last any long and I lost focus. DJing on TECH Train, president, flying ship It began in some kind of a large building. It had wide halls and there were some vips meeting there. I had a friend there, I forgot who it was. I'm just exploring the building and I met a lady who was a guide there. She was dressed like a stewardess. I am heading down the hall and in one of the smaller halls down there I meet some old man. He had short white hair and was a bit chubby but he carried a very friendly aura. I got the impression that he was an old US president or something similar. An already deceased one likely. I'm not sure who exactly though. I hit it off with Mr. President and we are just buddy buddy now. Head outside the room. I was suppose to meet up with my friend and pres somewhere. I looked for them and had a little trouble finding them. The building was like a dome, like a baseball dome or a stadium. I am walking and end up at the docks, at the very last and edge of the dock were the 2 I been looking for. I was greeted and then was invited by the president to ride on this ship. * I'll just call the president bill now, since he kind of looks like bill clinton but is kind of different but I'll do it for the sake of convenience for now. Anyways I look at Bill and he had a pretty wholesome amount of people around him. They were dressed like mechanics or blacksmiths kinda folks from the olden days and they were the crew of his ship. I wasn't really sure if I wanted to ride the ship since it would be a slow travel. The location I was currently in from how I felt, was in Japan. And to get back to home it would take forever, and we'd probably be visiting the nearby countries. But I thought why not... what do I have to lose anyways? So I take up on his offer. My friend is riding too. We set sail on the ship and it's dark now. It's been dark since the earlier scene. All the crews are there and forward we went. Eventually we end up somewhere in China. The ship! It flew. Bill had now explained to me it was a flying ship. and We ended up somewhere that felt like in the middle of the mountains or the country side, nowhere near the sea. I saw a beautiful scenery though. It looked more like Japan but the dream told me it was China. It was somewhere far from the city and the air was pretty nice. The sky was clear and not foggy- was the air clean and without smog here? There were bright lush green grass and beautiful white stone pavements on the ground. It was beautiful and I was in awe for a bit. Where was this really? We keep going forward and arrive at a train station. We were to ride the train here now. Pretty large train station. Looked like an airport inside. I head to the bathroom. I did that since I felt the urge to pee in waking. I find myself in a strange bathroom. I head inside and pee or something. A guy challenged me after I finished going to the bathroom. He thought I looked weak so he challenged me. I took up his challenge; I pushed him with ease against the wall and I won. It was a sort of gambling thing they did there and whoever that won would take the other's money. The atm or bank machine behind him spat out money for me to take. I was also taking a picture there since we needed to get an ID or visa here before we could ride the train. I also take that guy's pictures and stuff. I walk across some bridge. I needed to find my picture that I took earlier so I can proceed further. But I'd won so many times from previous events that my wallet or purse or whatever I'd carried was full of pictures. I took out the bunch of photos one by one but I had trouble finding mine. People around were looking at me. I guess I'd been too greedy. I wondered if Bill and my friend was still waiting for me at the train stop...
Updated 10-28-2019 at 04:18 AM by 96162
#532- DILD Cutting through a field on foot. I'm looking for a fishing hole but I only have a shovel. I hear something like a lawn mower. I see a guy on a small riding mower doing the fence line. I don't want to be seen because I am trespassing. I turn another direction cut across open grass. My son is following me. I come to a barbwire fence. I have to move logs and random boards. I feel really strong. The ease of it makes me realize it's a dream. I realize the mower sound is probably the fan in the bedroom and my worry of getting caught dissolves. I decide to try flying but it's like my mind cant generate the view and I get stuck and come down. I around and see and old farm house. I decide jumping on top of the house would give me a good visual. When my feet hit the roof and push off again. I am able to Hoover a bit several yards above the house. I notice how the sun is glinting off metal parts of the drip edge and roof vents. I see a forest in the distance but I cant seem to control my flying. I settle back down on the roof. There is a girl in yard looking up at me. I tell her In flying. She just watches me. Then I see 3 girls at a lemonade stand. I jump down to the ground to investigate. I get a fun idea. I run full speed and drive into the girls and lemonade stand. Ice and water from the ice chest and lemonade from several pitchers explode all over the girls and myself. We all laugh. One of then runs to a large fridge that's sitting in the yard. She goes all the way in then comes out with a half full pitcher of pink lemonade. Shes going to pour on me but I wake up at that moment. [/COLOR]
I am in what appears to be an alleyway. It is kind of dark and dimly lit with street lights. I am here with about three other people. I am here with two strangers and my girlfriend in the dream named Kiara. Kiara is petite and of japanese descent. She has a bubbly and energetic personality. Anyway, the two other people and I have been informed that we have been accepted into medical school. We received a bag of supplies that we will need during our simulations in school. The bag was a black messenger bag with a vinyl case in which you can see the supplies that are within. There are a bunch of needles, bandages, and suture equipment, as well as several bottles that resemble vape juice bottles that contain various medicine like insulin. As we are all opening and inspecting our bags, we try on our uniforms. It comes with a sash, kind of like one you would see on a swat agent except it held medical supplies. A sense of awe came over me as I couldn't believe that I was here. My girlfriend then begins to rifle through the bag saying something about big money.
Notes: I'm going to add info if the dream triggers some memory. I think it helped a lot before so I'll do it again. I think I should do RC or something on each awakening. Should help. Ebay, root selling It was about some investors buying up p root farm and to make some cash. Their wives were taking care of the crop fields and they decided to lease the land out to someone else on month-to month basis but the renter decided to scam them by selling the land while they didn't notice. ~The land appeared to be somewhere in southern states or mexico. I remember being in that location before in a dream on a roadtrip dream. A journey to my ex's place or something in a farmland and I just hanged there for a couple of days. * Maybe I'd dreamed about ebay and the stuff since I've been looking at ebay. The dream about the crop field might be from a desire to own a durian farm. Ap I was on the bed. I got a very faint amount of noise or induced it myself, I forget which. I focused on the noise and decided to move my eyes around. It worked and I went outside. I wasn't too sure if I was awake or not; I looked around and it was snowing and there were some snow under my feet outside. I decided to do a handstand for some reason and I was pretty sure I was dreaming since I can't do handstands. I saw lights on a house to the right, was someone looking at me? *maybe saw snow since it's cold outside. Fail Back on bed. Noise. Tried again, moving eyes around but no cigar. Lucid a little, I was with my friend Y and Mike at the entrance of an amusement park where you'd buy tickets or they'd check for tickets. I lost my wallet and was looking around for it. There were some small tables and chairs outside like a cafe or a lunch place. I found my wallet on a chair, it was black. ~This was an old wallet I used years back. *I think I was looking for my wallet since I was looking for it 3 days ago. I found it but I guess the desire to find it carried on to this dream. I guess I found my old black wallet while looking for my wallet so maybe that's why it showed up in this dream. I went to grab my wallet and someone tries to grab the wallet as well. They claimed that the wallet was theirs but I said I know the name of the ID inside the wallet. I stated the name and we opened it up. It was weird and the wallet did have my info but IDs of other people as well. It was strange and an officer came over to check what was up. They were suspicious of me for some reason and began questioning me or something. I was on one of the outdoor lunch tables with Y and Steven. Waiting for it all to be over with. I was kind of suspicious of the environment though, wondered if I was dreaming or something. Somehow I kind of knew. I told Y and Steven that it was a dream and that I could prove it. I told them to hold my hand and I'd show them; I looked across the street on the other side. I wanted to teleport us somewhere and I thought it'd be easier to teleport where I could see. I couldn't see very far away into the dream so I decided to teleport to the street across, to the right. *The road was like a road down to a certain small plaza that had a bus stop. They grab my hand and I closed my eyes and believed that I can teleport. And we did. We were on that street and threaded further forward in the direction of that street. Steven was trying to be the first one so he ran a little to get into the front. I closed my eyes and teleported in front of him immediately though. We walk a little more and he tells me he's having trouble with women but I interject and argue how he's surrounded by girls though. *dream influenced by memory. I recall a memory of Y, telling me that Steven was a player, perhaps dream is a shadow of that memory. Perhaps an awakening here or scene just changes Festive temple We get to a some kind of Asian festival at a Japanese temple like place. It looked like Japanese temple but felt like a Chinese event at the moment of the dream. There's a high rise to the left and I enter it. I find my cousin living there on one of the upper floors. *may have visited this kind of temple in Japan She and I hang out and stuff. I look out the window and the area below was super crowded so I was wondering how I was going to get through. I decided to throw bombs down there like bomberman. It just displaced people by the force of explosion didn't hurt anyone really, not sure if it was a real bomb or just some kind of wind producing bomb. Streets got cleared a little and I thought I'd be able to get through now. *Haven't seen my cousin in a while. I do recall hearing about her so maybe. School fake Laptop I was in a classroom and there were some delinquents there. There was a kid there with a laptop but it was fake or something. He was being bullied or something so I decided to help him out. * I recently got a chromebook and maybe the laptop but not laptop thing was a chromebook that manifested into this dream. Something else happens I think but I forget. The dream does go on longer. May have awoken Magical school, summoned Evil I am in a Magical school now. Maybe I was here the while time since before, but just figured it out now that it was a magical school. There was an evil force or something trying to take over here, some kind of necromancer or something summoning a monster of sorts. Just going around the school, exploring. There's lime a coming of age or initiating ceremony for newbies and I was suppose to attend that a little later with the other new students. There was an evil summoned being I had to defeat first though. I think it was kind of like a big eyeball with a kind of fuzzy trail that followed its directions. I grabbed a bunch of friends from this school to fight it. It did not die; I tried casting magic and it would split into more monsters. It split into thousands of bugs and whatnot as we cast spells on it. I told everyone else to get away as I was alone with the being in a narrow corridor. I cast some frost magic to freeze it temporarily. Did I defeat it? I forget. I remember it taking advantage by trying to attack me while I was preoccupied trying to save someone but it worked out OK. I think I remember finding some kind of ritual spot or summoning circle inside a cave and maybe that was the source of it. Trial, Fly I went outside the school. We are in some kind of empty garden or yard and there was a little girl there. I guess it's the school yard. I recall her dressed like a witch or something. I was suppose to go to that trial from earlier with her, so I grab her and we fly up the sky and towards the ceremony. Open skies maybe some big creature in the sky that we had to get past. * I think I flew because I had desires to fly the other day, the day before or the day before that. I just visualized flying for a few min. We get to the trial. It was in some kind of forest, there was a river there. We had to fight against others there as it was some sort of survival event and only the survivors would be worthy.
Updated 10-27-2019 at 02:20 AM by 96162
Wrote these in a thread so may as well paste here. Old dreams: I have had a bunch. I experience what seems to me to be actual travel to other realities. Figure this means, I believe I sometimes astral travel and run into DCs who I believe are real conscious entities. I mention this because my belief makes the events more frightening. In one I was held in place as if I was stuck to a wall with spider webs. Someone I felt was more than a DC started examining me closely. I tried to see past the visuals my mind provided to understand what the thing was. I kind of pierced some veil of illusion and the being looked right into my face and was clearly very alien and sci-fi looking. I struggled in fear and felt I had no choice but to wake my body as an escape. In another I was trying to navigate (decades ago when all this was new) and discovered the medium in which stable areas/realm were connected was visualized by me as water. I assumed treating it like water was a place to start. I had been in a set of caves and had just had my first experience of a long calm conversation with things that visually came across human, but could not grasp the meaning of what had been discussed. They had shown me the liquid in a kind of tube/pool. I dove in and planned on swimming, but was swept under and away. Lots of swirling helplessness until I surfaced in kind of a lake. It was in a giant cavern and I saw buildings on the shore. I left the liquid near the buildings. They were not normal structures but similar in a sense. Suddenly some sort of alarm and commotion starts. It becomes obvious I am the cause as small creepy aliens sort of like Star Wars Jahwas pour out of the buildings and surround me. They are hostile and I struggle to get away. I decide this sucks and attempt to change the scene through dream control but nothing I do mentally effects anything. I feel a intense presence coming through some building as if the thing radiated energy. I am effectively captured now. Around a corner comes something many times bigger than me, perhaps the size of a school bus. It was visualized by me as perhaps a robot monster. It has me now and I decide to end the dream. However, I am unable to end the dream. Luckily all it does is throw me back into the lake and I am swept under and away.
Foggy memory. Slept few hrs in the beginning was awake, felt body fall asleep but still just lay there and arms hurt from not moving, felt refreshed though. Vague memories of aliens and being molested or something. Was somewhat pleasant though. Happy birthday to me! omnilucidity!
woke up JUST in time time for fajr today after many days and plus had an interesting dream so i might as well write dream journal about it. so me and arham are just walking around school and then muminah start walking pretty close to us. arham and i go up to some toilets in which there is a drinking fountain. arham drinks water and finishes and then i go to drink. and then i see muminah is there in the toilets. i say "well well well look who it is, its muminah...in the boys toilets". then zakaria ali ibrahim(the somali one) shows up in the toilets aswell and well and then i start telling him how he had come in my dream yesterday. altho technically he had come in my dream day before yesterday on 23/10/19 in which my dream was that i was in the hall talking to muminah and arham was like to me to stop because i was taking the mick and then i started talking to zakaria from outside the assembly hall to end of school gates. anyways zakaria and muminah didnt seem interested in how i had dreamt about them "yesterday" and then just made weird faces and looked at me like i was a weirdo. then we started walking downstairs and at this points it started to look like we were in a mosque. and zakria had taken my 15 cm ruler. he thre it down a few stairs. i told him to go get it and he threw it down a few more and then i threatened him and he kept throwing it. unttil i got really pissed and then takedowns started. arham and zakaria started playing takedowns. then me and zakaria played. zakaria got absolutely demolishes and then we saw that some teacher is coming so we had to leg it upstairs. arham picked up zakaria who was absolutely demolishes and ssrated running up with him. i went to pick up my ruler and them muminah picked me up and started running up the stairs with me. and as we climed our second flight of stairs, maria came out of the thirs flight of stairs and we rushed maria into a a near by room and told her that she had seen nothing. i said it to her in some weird french accent. we were all laughing at the situation. then we went up and saw ther jamaat that was here, we had jessica, maria and some kid who looked exactely like gaurav. then maria turned very short and muminah held her of the top banister and i satretd screaming so much thinking she would fall so muminah pulled her back. maria was like 1 metre tall in my dream at this point. later i also dreamt i saw divdeep when i was walking past kings spice and i talked with him a little, he looked way older and he was getting home schooled.
I was with a bunch of people, everything was a bit purple and dimly lit. We were fighting a boss and the boss was pennywise. I was going to be going through the tough part of the fight while everyone was fighting as well. We're in this cube shaped room and the fight is about to begin. Pennywise is more of this thing warping, he warps next to me and explains what is about to happen and what I need to do, then the fight starts. The cube is bouncy and everyone is on the ground. My part in the fight is dodging pennywise as he morphs into these smaller little blobs of himself that are bouncing around the room. Every time a blob of him gets near me I'm supposed to dodge it, so I'm trying to time where I'm going to jump next to avoid the blobs, a few times they get really close to me but I dodge, at some point a blob starts to expand really close to me but contracts as it gets in my face. At some point I witness this guy decked out in gear killing pennywise's true form as he looked like some sort of demon. The dream turned to what seemed like the end of a movie involving pennywise. My view is flying in the air looking at this empty forest with hills and possibly a cave, I see pennywise's head in the forest and I wave towards him, his head slightly looks at me. There's no music involved but more of an ambient wind and I hear this faint laugh which meant pennywise was never killed. The movie was supposed to end but I felt like I was sort of trapped in that dream and what would happen next would be him returning so I was panicking to get out of the dream before that happened. Another scene was this free space where people could create things, there were these tall structures and someone was creating this rollercoaster or maybe a water slide.
Internal turmoil... Resolved? I want to be better at meditation. Thanks skipper. I want to be more loving and lucid. In both realities. I want to 'know'. Kindly nudge me awake if you see me sleeping in dream world. Be lucid now! Right now! Rough notes: Oct 22 Did not sleep too well. I was in old mansion with Jack's and my family. there's a tornado there's a tornado or something going on and we had inside a mansion . the first years and stuff starts to get blown away towards us and I'm blocking some of them. But Jack's mother gets hit in the head. She said she need to get somewhere. House breaking apart. Furnitures, big rectangular takes keep flying I'm blocking but house comes apart. We're sent flying in the air. I grab my mom and hug and cover her with my body. There are cars on the road driving, other houses were stripped bare by the wind . We're circling around and I don't let go. I land head first and felt my nose break and taste the blood through my nose, it keeps on rushing out of my head as I'm spun around. I'm dying. I accept my death and begin to let go of my life, I truly felt a sense of ease of death but I still hold on to my mother. Maybe she could still live. I keep getting pushed by the wind slowly losing my consciousness and hit my head against the pavement. My nose hurt even after I was wide awake. It hurt for a good 15 minutes until I decided to rub/crack it a little. Oct 23 Rich family raided by police shut in hot away some family died. On track to get family back. Some siblings spy.tapped house spider bots. Sister helping. Her seat to the secret room but raided by *minipool* squatters. Shot and other ppl come shoot. House. value down. Grandpa helping to rebuild family. Rival family trying to host dinner. Not as good. They may be culprit. Guy learning law to get back home. Words transform to pictures better learning then Transform to women spiral subliminal learning. Hanging with people they want to go to party. Girl didn't want to go. She was popular and others wanted her to go. I tell her I might give her a chance at making love if she comes and she decides to go. Orange vodka. Oct 24 Slept 1 hr
Updated 10-25-2019 at 03:35 AM by 96162
2019, 10-22 Skyrim: The Endless Loop Regular Dream - Video Game / Semi-lucid - Lucid Dream - Notes I am on my computer, sitting in my own living room. I am reading a web comic called Cookie and Rose by Cobi van Leeuwen which follows the adventures of two Pusheen sisters named Cookie and Rose and their friends and family. This episode starts out with the ladies entering into an Egyptian pyramid to explore. It is night and the headlights of their jeep provide the only light revealing the entrance. The ladies and a couple other Sheens enter the pyramid. One of them has a map showing the layout of an expansive series of passages and chambers in the pyramid. Shortly after they have entered the main corridor there is a loud noise and the ground disappears from underneath Cookie’s feet. Cookie drops out of sight along with the torch she is carrying. Everysheen gasps and Rose reaches for her sister, but it is too late. Cookie is gone and nosheen knows where to. This is where the episode ends. I leave a comment that says, “COOKIE! NO!” with a shocked emoji. Well that’s enough Facebook for now, I take out my VR headset and start up Skyrim VR. The game starts up and goes directly to the beginning sequence. I am back in the cart with Ralof, Lokir, and Ulfric. This stupid thing has looped again! I quietly curse at the Thalmor, who I blame for the loop. Then I find myself singing a song from Silent Hill 4 called Tender Sugar… “Not again, not again, not again, this dream I can't awake. What is real, what is real, what is real? It's getting hard for me to take. What I need, what I need, what I need, a little something I rely. And the white sugar gently hides me. Oh the sweet sugar saves me, it's the room that confines me…” The driver of the carriage calls back to stop that singing. I stop singing and I realize Ralof, Lokir, and Ulfric are all staring at me. Can they hear me? This game wasn’t supposed to have voice recognition… Ralof tells me to go ahead and keep singing… what are they going to do? Execute me twice? This sets Lokir off, he says it’s all Ralof’s and Ulfric’s fault that he got captured and if he had his way he would see both of them burned alive over a low fire so it would take a nice long time for them to die. Then he emphasizes that he doesn’t include me in that, he knows I’m no foul Stormcloak and… I tell him to cram it. He does a double take, but then for a wonder, he shuts up. We arrive in Helgen and go in. I see Elenwen on a horse not far off. I mutter to myself that I will definitely fus her straight to Oblivion this time. A fus, a ro, and a dah and she will go flying off of the highest cliff I can find into the endless abyss. Then I realize I’m thinking aloud and Ulfric is looking at me and I shut up. Now I am in front of the Imperial captain who orders my unjust execution and the lyrics of Metallica come out… “Die, die, die, my darling! Don't utter a single word! Die, die, die, my darling! Just shut your pretty mouth, I'll be seeing you again. I'll be seeing you in Hell!” Then General Tullius is giving his monologue. Ulfric is completely ignoring him and looking at me. This seems to frustrate Tullius a bit, his monologue seems less confident and he finally walks off. Ulfric keeps staring at me. Now Evanescence lyrics from the song Taking Over Me come out, I don’t seem to be able to stop myself… “You don't remember me, but I remember you. I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you. But who can decide what they dream? And dream I do…” The lyrics trail off as I ask if Ulfric somehow DOES remember me… no, that’s impossible. This is another loop. Everything goes normally from there. They try to have my head off and then Alduin attacks. I follow Ralof and the other Stormcloaks into the tower. But then it hits me that I’ve lost all of the progress I’d made in my previous game. This feels extremely depressing and I just drop to my knees under the weight of the depression. I ignore Ulfric when he says we need to move now, he’s not talking about me. Ralof tells me to get up the tower, but I ignore him, too. I say I think I’ll sit this one out. Ulfric asks what I’m waiting for. I look up, wondering why Ulfric would be addressing me when there are Stormcloaks who need to get away safely, including a wounded Stormcloak near me. I focus healing energy and he recovers. It must have been him Ulfric was talking to. I return to waiting to see what happens if I just sit here. Then someone is pulling me to my feet. I look and see Ulfric. He says he doesn’t know why I have decided to give up so easily… I say I have done this sooooo many times… Ulfric continues and says there’s no way the Dragonborn would give up, we’re leaving now. Then Ralof is also pulling me up. If I don’t go I’ll probably get Ralof and Ulfric killed… but how does Ulfric know I’m Dragonborn? That hasn’t been discovered yet… I get up and go along with Ulfric and Ralof. Aside from Ulfric being with us everything is following the normal course. I get separated for a bit and have to follow Hadvar until I find Ralof again. I don’t see Ulfric. Ralof says they got separated. The rest of the intro quest goes normally. I take too much pleasure in setting the Imperial captain on fire, the one who ordered my execution even though I wasn’t on the list. Ralof and I get out of Helgen just as Alduin is flying away. Ralof wants to get my promise that there will be no more talk of giving up. I realize my depression has lifted some and I no longer feel like giving this cycle up. I tell Ralof it was a passing depression, and it has passed now. I thank him for helping me. He says we are both safe, that’s what counts. We make our way to Riverwood before I wake up.
I decided to type out the dreams since I couldn't sleep and also because one of the dreams were way too cool for me at least. It deserved to be typed out. I'm also thinking of just recording DJs as an audio file. With just a few keywords typed as a way to sort it while going in details and expanding it in recordings. Oct 21,2019 Skeptical Jump It was right after I'd eaten dinner and I was very sleepy so I decided to head to bed. I had an urge to sleep in a different bed so I did so. I recall waking up a couple of times before a slightly stronger awakening. I could have woken but I decided to head back to sleep. I began to get very hot in the chest/solar plexus area but I just ignored it and was admant to get back to sleep. Not too long after I began to get some noise in my head and I began to focus on it. I was pretty persistent about it and after some time it became louder, then eventually began to vibrate. It was the familiar vibration stage if you will and I began to feel slight unease but I had experienced it many times before so I just simply told myself that "you enjoy this" because you know it's followed by very interesting experiences most of the times. So all the negativity just melted away as I braced myself for the next event. But alas nothing really happened and the sensations began to wane as I lay atop the bed. I was skeptical though, however, that I may have AP'ed or WILDed so I just imagined myself rolling out of the bed. Not much happened for some time but I kept going and I fell out of bed in the end. Sensations felt normal and it was dark, I still had doubts though; so I decided to head out the bedroom and things were still dark and normal so I thought I'd be able to tell if I'm dreaming if I head outside. I went outside to the backyard and jumped. I instantly reached max velocity and shot like a beam of light into the sky. I was certain now and completely lucid. Chinatown I was transported elsewhere after the jump though. I was now inside what looked like an Audi minivan or something similar. I was in the backseat and my dad was driving that car. I still maintained some lucidity from before but I wasn't certain if I was dreaming for sure. My thinking was that if I paid attention like the previous event I might get something to confirm my suspicions but this time I was wept up by the dream plot and lost lucidity eventually. Outside the car was what appeared to be an extravagant chinatown. Very interesting and lavish structures surrounded the main road and perhaps there was some festival going on. We pick up my mom in a little bit. As we keep driving down the road there was an asian girl there whom we picked up. I don't know who she was but she got on the car on the seat to the front left. Keep on driving down and eventually we come across some blockade or a something. It was like a border wall/gate that went into China I think. There were some chinese men there dressed like police. We stopped and got out, there was a glass wall that stopped us from progressing further and my dad pressed his passport against the glass. FA DJ I was on the bed and tried to DJ the previous dream but the phone acted weird. Well it acted pretty normal and I had trouble taking notes about the dream. I awoke then DJ'ed on the phone, it was just like that FA, had trouble with apps to DJ. University escalators I was in some university building it appears. It was structured like a mall and I remember riding many escalators. There were some unscrupulous girls there. There was ML, and Amy whom I consider to have disgusting personalities objectively speaking. There was a girl with glasses hanging out with them. I remember that we were eating sushi and dropped one to the ground. They got mad that I spilled the sushi and called the cops on me. I get away. I also met Mike on the way out. Large Dome Likely continuation of previous dream. I'm uncertain if they were 1 dream or were separated. It was the same university area and I was exploring the building. I was suppose to head to my dad's office or something and I found myself in a very large dome like structure at the right most part of the university campus. It was a futuristic structure with an elevator that was unlike ones we have now. It was a circle. A pretty big circle. If you went to the middle of the circle it would move up or down instantly. And there was another elevator on top that went sideways that helped you move across the campus with ease. I found my dad using the sideways elevator. I remember the glasses girl from the previous dream somewhere in the dream initially, don't recall her too much. ~I also remember being in this campus inside a dream before. It was a little different though but I am certain it's the same location. But it was before I went on DV I'm sure, so perhaps a dream from about a year ago. notes I might have missed about dream: Large dome building glass girl dad 7th floor elevator. Instant vertical elevator presence planet. Richard's dad's house I found myself in Richard's dad's house. It was mostly empty and boring and there appeared to be some BBQ or something going on. But there were barely any guests though. I just remember the house was much larger than how it was 'suppose' to be and I explored the house. The pool was much larger too, I suppose it was maybe half an acre sized pool, perhaps a little smaller. I ate some purple fermented food, likely beets. There was also diarrhea in the pool... Opening locked door I forget the contents. But I opened a locked door! IS THIS THE LOCKED DOOR THAT WERE IN MY LUCID NIGHTMARES? Slave girl A dream about a girl being enslaved. Just a short vision I think. Extravagant weapon Some kind of extravagant and golden weapon like a staff. It's similar to the chinatown theme from the first dream I think. A wooden staff adorned with much gold and colorful reds might be more accurate. Cheating in poker, caught. Inside a mall or something, similar or could be the campus area from previous dreams. I found some friends playing poker at the casino in the end of the hall. I saw Wolf there, I think it was Wolf with someone else. Maybe it wasn't Wolf, it was Carl. They were clearly cheating on poker as I watched them from the sides. I approached the table and began cheating as well; not out of will but it felt more liek a dream plot. The dealer caught me and we were chased out. Went outside the casino and still chased us. Something happens in the end I forget. Maybe I saw Mike there again. Quebec Border I was driving down the Quebec, and eventually get to a small office that was related to border office or employment. I somehow drove the car inside the small office and it was stuck there. People inside thought not much of it and proceeded to their activities. I looked up some job ads but someone to my left told me they were bad jobs (red light district sort of) and I saw visions of it and wanted to leave now. But my car was still stuck inside the office and there were people standing near the entrance so I wasn't sure how to get out of here. I had some small chocolate candy shaped like a ball so I gave it to people near the counter and asked them to help me. Then I gave some to the people near the entrance to ask them to move away for abit. They cooperate and I manage to get the car out the front entrance. Border topic related to the first dream. Frozen School I was inside a campus of a cool looking school. It was beautiful really and large. There were white buildings and a very large schoolyard adorned with beautiful white stones structures and pavements of some sort like the greek buildings with generous amounts of lush greenery and it was very cool. I get the impression that it was a highschool building but I am uncertain. There was something very... interesting about the place. I can't quite describe it. After spending some time in the school there was some calamity that freezes the whole school and the students within it. I head out to find a solution to the problem. House #34, Fairy Queen, Thrithe I was exploring to find a way to solve the previous predicament. Eventually I ended up in the area of the previous home, house #34. It wasn't exactly how I remembered it. It was the same street, that was for sure. The white asphalt sidewalks, I'm not exactly sure what that's made of but this particular sidewalk had a very clean white and a certain hue that wasn't in other streets. It appears to be the future, as I now see an apartment building where the house #34 used to be. It was maybe not exactly an apartment but more like a lot or whatever you call those things where artists and people often use as offices. Multi-storied building where there's only a single large room inside. I was approaching this apartment like building and I noticed some very strange plant-tree thing with many needles sticking out of it. The nedles were pretty long I say about a foot and a half, 20-30 cm long and 1/2 cm wide. The plants began to shoot these needles at me as I approached the building but I decided to go anyways. I was stabbed by quite a few of them before I got through the entrance. It was an empty first floor, a single square renovated hall that looked abandoned. I went up the stairs, one or a few flights before I found some signs of people. I was still injured and I was glad to find some people, perhaps they could help treat my injury or something. They were all female or at least female looking beings. I think that they were not human. Likely similar to elves but I'm pretty sure they weren't elves. I asked for their help and they gladly decided to help me after sensing that I appeared to have a good energy or something. They helped me out and decided to teach me about things. I guess about them. They walked me through the building and it was a sort of hideout or something. It was pretty big inside and eventually I come across some cages. They showed me some familiars, and wanted to teach me to summon them. They were behind these small cages, and some large cages and told me to call out it's name. ~I'll call them nymphs, instead of they now. Since I feel like it's closest understanding or idea of them I can conjure at the moment. I remember the first familiar I saw was a frost spirit of sorts. There were also faries there and the nymphs told me to try to summon them by calling out their name. I called out it's name and I managed to summon it through the cage. I forgot the name now though. What the nymphs have shown me so far were lesser familiars and as I kept threading deeper into the building I began to see more powerful familiars there. Those ones weren't really caged; well they were in cages but the impression that you got was that they were too lazy to get out of it or were pretty comfortable by how they were taken care of so they didn't bother escaping at all. Large golden bars. Behind them was the Fairy Queen. She was brightly shining in neon green that was slightly towards somewhere in the middle of green to yellow-green spectrum. Shaped like a butterfly. The nymphs weren't there. I began to feel the energy around it and emulated the same energy frequency within myself. Until our frequency was one. Just resonate in the same frequency and she'd come to help me. We'd connected and I managed to summon the Fairy Queen. She had taken a liking to me. I called out to her and she was now on the other side of the cage with me. There were some very tight ,square cages to the left of where I was now. They were serpentine beings. The nymphs tried to avoid them. I looked at the snakes there. I tried to call out to them by sound. I mimicked their sounds by going "thhh." The serpents all looked at me; they moved their head an followed their gazes to whichever directions I moved. I was intrigued for a moment but immediately one of them escapes the tiny cells by their own volition and power. It was one lively serpentine familiar. It appeared to have been attracted to my energy and came at me. It circled around me and for a moment. It wanted to form a bond or something and before I could respond another one had escaped. This one was, much much more powerful. It was dry-dirt brown colored serpent familiar and it wanted to drive away the previous one. I was a little nervous for a moment but I calmed down as I sensed no hostility towards me, apparently I had good compatibility with serpentine familiars. I communicated with the brown one with my energy to calm down. It decided to listen to me and it's energy coiled around my right arm, meanwhile the previous green-ish serpent decided to take the left side. I was wearing the 2 familiar like a bracelet or an armlet. They decided to settle there. The brown serpent, it's name, was Thrithe. I tried calling out the familiars as a practice. First I called out the fairy queen and she proceeded to help me. Then I called out the serpents, Thrithe. Everything worked well. I was back at the frozen school now. And it began to unfreeze. People began to unfreeze. The icy snow-like surface melted and the students there began to question their surrounds. Why was it frozen/snowy here? The scene appeared to be near summertime as a context with very bright sun. But the rest of the ice and snow melted quickly after. Perhaps vaporized is a better word here and it left no traces of water, so I suppose they were maybe dry frozen like dry ice. It all happens very fast and everyone thought it must've been just their imagination. Their sense of doubt had evaporated, just like the ice that surrounded them merely a moment ago.
Updated 10-22-2019 at 12:50 PM by 96162
Jamie dreams First dream I think I was making out with her, only i don't think I was me... hmm. Second dream was a FA, I was looking at a wall and I saw writing from Jamie that said, "I've loved you." Good to hear. Crazy vivid dream Started out with I was in a big apartment building and ran into Jaas and Haley from didsbury... Haley had a black eye. I just sort of passed and waved at them. Later I was with a group of people and i forget a sequence of events.. but I trapped some bad guy inside a piece of paper. don't really understand it myself but i did. Dream logic i guess. Next part I'm going through a building like a motel. but it looks under construction and a bunch of homeless looking people are there. I'm handed a key to my room and I go through hallways made of plywood. My room doesn't even lock and it's also a thin door made of ply wood. I decide not to stay in it. I get back with the group of people. I somehow let the guy out of the piece of paper. I'm hiding in parts of the room and he starts killing people with a buzz saw. I get behind him and perform a chokehold on him. I hold him there for quite some time and he looks passed out. He gets up right after i let him go and i leave the room with a bunch of people...
In this dream I was playing a game that had some form of AI in it. It tried to generate and ocean-based Zelda game but since it didn't know how to program NPCs there were just a bunch of dead mermaid Links at the bottom of the ocean. I then woke up and went to the kitchen. It was early in the morning (likely 5PM or before) and my grandma wasn't in a good emotional state. I hugged her for a little while, which resulted in her telling me that she was calling the cops. When I asked why, her only reply was "suicidal war rites". She grabbed a petri dish with remnants of some kind of brown substance while I was begging her not to kill herself. She was about to get something else from the cabinet where we put our cereal until she finally snapped and screamed at me to shut the fuck up.
Friday, 18 October 2019 Reading time: 3 min 20 sec. Here, I will explain the essential decoding of entries that will eventually include “bird resurrection” in the title. The original entries will remain in my online journal. Something coming to life, reviving, or waking from sleep in the last part of a dream is simply the subliminal, liminal, or supraliminal anticipatory autosymbolism of waking up, the preconscious precursor of gaining control of the physical body and the emergence of consciousness and valid personal identity. That is what most final dream segments include (more so with instinctual and lucid modulation), though with an infinite variety of content. Ultimately, the most common indicator of this process for me is a bird of any number of species from dream to dream. The foundation of this process has occurred every sleep cycle since early childhood, though I have only thus far included some of the more interesting dreaming experiences online. Qebehsenuef Canopic Jar (October 18, 2019). A mummified parrot in an Egyptian falcon canopic jar (Qebehsenuef) comes to life, and the bird vibrates in my hands with pleasing sensations. The most recent mental activity before this had been in slow-wave sleep (virtual mummification). I am lucidly modulating liminal space (anticipating the drop, but it does not occur). I had intestinal pain before (and during) sleep. (A Qebehsenuef canopic jar holds the intestines.) Note that any container typically represents how the dream self cannot arouse the physical body until consciousness emergence. Decayed Fence and Strange Weather (July 7, 2015). At the end of this dream, Ava Gardner is in a lacey black dress. She is on the floor near a couch on her elbows, with her knees up. As I grab her heels, she transforms into a Tweety Bird foil balloon of about three feet in length. I strike it against the floor while holding the bottom edge, but it remains as it is. (It was similar to “Unconvincing Resurrection” from October 18, 2016, when I tried to resurrect a dream character from his skull in a bucket of water, but out came a novelty balloon with a skeleton print.) That dream segment (the last part of a much longer dream) is probably more ridiculous than most other examples. Balloons and birds both correlate with drop anticipation, though balloons additionally relate to a subliminal, liminal, or supraliminal focus on breathing while sleeping. One Quail into Three (September 26, 2014). There is a tall thin paper sack with a rectangular bottom that contains a sickly quail on its side. There is a vivid vibration as I hold the paper bag. Eventually, there are inexplicably three quail in it, two healthy, one sickly. Zsuzsanna is about to sell the sack of quail to an unknown woman who arrives at our door (lesser wall mediation with doorway waking autosymbolism). I wake as she talks to her. That dream indicates the same process and with the same modulation as the first example, though instinctually rather than lucidly. However, enigmatic space (not a dreaming process) also became a factor here. Years later, in real life, our oldest daughter took an interest in raising quail (with Zsuzsanna helping her). When selling a few in town, the buyer complained about one of them being unhealthy, though it was not; it only had one feather out of place. Thus, my dream’s scenario was also literal, but years before real-life correlation. (One quail of a small hatching as here died in another instance.) Baby Bird (May 4, 2014). We have a baby bird (possibly a wild finch) that fell out of its nest and is living inside my makeshift terrarium outside. It is weak and sickly, seemingly injured. By feeding it small pieces of rubber cut from a bicycle inner tube, it grows and becomes healthier in a short time. Later, after feeding it potato chips, it ceases to exist. That dream might seem bizarre to people who do not understand the co-occurrence of dreaming and waking processes. Bicycles are a more grounded form of vestibular correlation anticipation than flight is (with less expectation of the drop), so this is instinctual modulation to correlate emerging physical preparedness as much dream content is. Next, come potato chips. As they crumble easily, I associate them with the dream state losing cohesion (and the bird and anticipatory factors dissipate as a result). The Hummingbird Power (January 2, 2007). In this dream, a hummingbird had gotten into our house, and I do not want it to become weak over time or injure itself. Holding it creates an extreme sense of compressed weight as well as pleasing powerful vibrations. Although it seems to have gotten squashed when I absentmindedly close our front door, it seems invulnerable and flies back into our house for a time. Ceramic Chicken (from 1963) is one of my oldest validated dreams from before I could write. A statue coming to life is the anticipation of waking (cortical arousal). Hopefully, this entry should serve as a partial foundation for idiot-proofing my online dream journal when it comes to this type of content.
Beta testing VR I found myself in an underground facility among many others. We were here to test out the new vr headset.I saw M. Zberg leading this project. We were testing a new VR game that was an MMORPG and I was finding some special items of sorts. We were just going through the tutorial section of it, digging our way through a large boulder with a modded weapon. The weapon was the first weapon we got and we crafted to make it resistant to being used as a shovel to dig through these boulders. I secretly custom crafted my own weapon, though I remember it not being so good. I guess the dream felt like 3 hours? Eating I was a house. Similar to home. I was eating with family and a maid. She had black I think short hair and she ate with us. She sat in front of me. Behind in Class I was in a classroom and I was just having trouble with the stuff they were teaching. Not sure if it was due to my own laziness or something. I just felt not so hot. But the good thing was that the teacher was nice. I remember she was pretty tall and had blonde hair, had kind eyes. She did her best to help me catch up. Fight by stairs I might have awoken a bit. I'm walking down the staircase in the same school from before. It felt like structurally built like the japanese school. I was just minding my own business when X comes along and tries to fight me. I'm fighting him off and get away. I was with a couple of friends here and I get lucid. I tell them to hold on to me so I can teleport us out of this mess. I hold their hands and close my eyes to mass teleport. *maybe a memory of X trying to push me down staircase. I balanced back and tried to push him back. He already ran away like a coward that he was, and there was only the door with the fortified windows. I broke through the windows with my palm. I remember feeling the metallic mesh that bent around my palm like butter and the annoying pain of shattered glass cutting my palm. I guess maybe this dream could be related to that memory. I guess the thing, or the lesson from the memory could be to trust my instincts. First impression of people were always right. University Exploding Lab, Jin I think it's continuation of last dream. We were teleported to somewhere else. I was in a car riding with my mom and some others. We were headed to the university lab to meet up for something. There was a guy that stood out here. He hair short black hair that shot up in the air and light brown skin. He was a young pretty good looking charismatic brown man. he had some special powers and were helping me out or following me for some reason. He wasn't human. I think he was a Djinn or something. Like a genie sort of being and he was just taking that form for now. Let's call him Jin for now then. Anyways we get to the university and inside the lab. Just walking around. There were some girls here that were from the previous dream that teleported with me while we were going to meet up with the others (around 4-5 of them). Why were we meeting up anyways? I remember a picnic scene. We head back. We're going to the same lab again, in the same car. After a while we get to the same university and we head into the lab. I am with Jin inside the lab. But this time the lab was getting flooded. There were water spurting from everywhere, perhaps the plumbing system was messed up. Got pretty worried about the safety of the place, with it getting flooded and all. It appeared to be a chemistry lab. I begin to talk to Jin to address my concerns regarding our safety here and before you know it- *BOOM* The entire place explodes. I see white light. I make it alive somehow but I was worried about the others. We were gathering in a spot where the casualties were being collected. They were put into tiny cells of structures that looked like beehives. I suppose beehive structure since it's the most efficient shape in terms of surface area of material being used to build this thing. I find a couple of companions from earlier here. A few were missing though, including my mom and Jin. I was a bit worried since I could cast revive to bring them back to life if they were dead, but how could I do that if their bodies couldn't be located? Perhaps I am lucid or somewhat lucid here. I see some kind of tablet like device playing a video though, it was a video call from my mom. She was visiting some relatives or friends earlier so she was away from the explosion as I saw her friends just casually talking to each other. I saw them in 3rd person for a second before I was back. I was relieved about that so I decided to head back to the scene of the explosion to find others. First I went back to the lab area. The lab was the right most unit that protruded out of the university building so I decided to head to the room or the hall ot the immediate left. There in among the beat up building I hear Jin's voice. He calls out to me but I can't see him. I look around and I find some kind of box. I wasn't exactly sure how to describe the long rectangular box so I googled it- optimum square prism. The box was black with bits of yellow along the edges. It had a wooden like texture. Jin was in there. He said that he was safe in there during the explosion. Like a real genie he put himself into some kind of container. I was just analyzing the situation and he got a bit upset, and told me to hurry up and get him out of the box. Notes I felt really bad on awakening before the ld. Felt like I wasn't progressing with LD, I realized that it was negative self talk eventually and dealt with it with shadow work/mindfulness.
Updated 10-18-2019 at 06:39 AM by 96162
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