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Bed @ 10:15pm
Wake @ 5am
Bed @ 6:30am
Wake @ 8:50 am

(before wbtb)
400mcg Huperzine-a
4mg Nicotine gum
2 tabs Theanine Serene
1 Natra Sleep

When I woke up the first time I realized waking up so late was a mistake, but it was worth a try, and I'm surprised I had the success I did. It just took so loooong to get back to sleep, hence the extra supps to get to sleep.

I don't remember the first part when I first became aware, just that there were a lot of people around and I realized it was a waste of my dream time so I flew out through the ceiling. My intended task was to dialog w/my inner self about the pattern/habit of punishing and abusing myself for perceived mistakes, for being in pain, for being weak, etc. I was flew through the ceiling, asked the dream, "hey, dream, what's beyond this dream?" and
next I was in room with my dad. My dad was lying on a mattress on the floor to my left, head away from me. He seemed young, and we were talking really comfortably, with an affinity that I usually don't feel IWL (due to an abusive past). It seemed to me that he and I were "on assignment", and I was trying to wake him up to help him remember his true self. I felt so tender and loving toward him, it was a little awkward in the dream. I said something to him, and he said something like he was remembering, it was coming back to him.

He then held up his right hand and a green light was blinking from inside his wrist.."There's a transmitter" he said. I looked at his left hand, and saw a digital "10:44" shining through his wrist. I lifted his hand, surprised, and remarked on it, there was some kind of device under his hand that now showed a different time. (In the dream, it wasn't a clock or a watch.). Then I moved up by his head, and he turned on his right side and I asked myself, "What does he need?" and then I held him very tenderly. That also felt kind of weird to me, to be so close and so tender toward my father, but I knew I was dreaming and went with it.

There were some non-lucid snippets of being in a room lying on air mattresses with my ex, "T". I was unconsciously moving toward him to have sex with him and some other part of me kept reining myself in, saying "noo nooooo nooo, that's not what I want, remember? I don't want to have sex with him."

I became lucid again and flew again through the ceiling, and said, "Hey, dream, I want you to take me to a beautiful healing temple where I can be alone in a room and collect my thoughts." I began moving at warp speed through a light tunnel, I heard a chorus of beautiful voices that sounded like angels and I felt ecstatic and a little uneasy because I heard the voices singing, "Righteous.....righteous....righteous....righteous ....". It was beautiful and not like a taunt, it still made me wonder, though. I emerged in a plain beige room (yah, thanks so much subconscious) with a nerdy-looking older man wearing a beige suit, glasses, with brown hair and a brown beard.

His back was to me at first, I approached him and asked him, "What do you know about "righteous"?", thinking, my subC dumped me there so he could help. He said, "I can't say I "know" anything about it..."
Me: "Okay, what can you tell me about it?"
Him: "Well, it's complicated. It's a paradox."
I hear someone approaching, and he gives me a look like I better get out of there. I'm thinking, it's a dream, maybe I should face this...but the guy is directing me with his eyes to get out so I left.
There was a gap, next thing I know, I was kneeling by a window on the floor (like one of those basement windows, only it was inside) and a woman in a blue "prison" shirt with dark hair is trying to pull me in where she is, and a long line of women behind here are all holding each other like a conga line, all trying to pull me in together.
I'm pulling back, holding my own, and asking, "WHAT DO YOU NEEEEED????"
I don't remember if she said anything, I was a little frantic, and I said, "I send every one of you one hundred pieces of love..." (totally ganked from Robert Waggoner, lol).
They were still pulling on me, and I yelled out, "God give these women what they need!"

Not sure of the sequence of this part - I walked into a room, and had some big some kind of being stuck to my back. I thought of "monkey on my back", and also think I noticed there was a small hand and also thought it might be related to an experience from the past I'm not quite over yet. As soon as I walked into the room, I saw something that looked like a metallic red hair dryer (come to think of it, it would be more in function like a creme brulee torch) and I walked over to it, pressed the top that I knew would make a flame come out, and turned my back on it so the thing on my back would catch the heat from it. (I guess I was thinking it was like a tick...if you put a flame close to a tick it will detach itself and crawl away). I think it did come off but I'm not sure.

The scene changed, I was flying again, and I said, in a voice that surprised me by how lyrical and strong and confident I sounded, "I want to experience being FREE!". Suddenly I was immersed in and swimming through ocean water that was deep blue and so beautiful. I was somehow in a building that reminded me of a church because it had dark wood frames and stained glass, yet I was still in the water. The building shrank and got smaller, while I was still in water, until I felt as if I were in a coffin. I felt slightly claustrophobic, and reached for a wall, wondering if I should try to break out, or try to wake up.

I reasoned that, I'm dreaming, I can breathe in the water, and I'm not going to die, so let's just see what happens.
I noticed the texture of the 'coffin' changing, to leathery, and a crack appearing above me. I thought "reptilian egg', and saw black filigree spine plates like a stegosaurus pass by the crack, and heard a roar. I was frightened at first, then wondered if I was one of them, if I was a dinosaur about to hatch, in which case I was one of them and belonged and it would be ok to hatch. I pecked at another part of the 'egg', and saw a hand reach through to pull a chunk off.

I thought, "oh, wow, I'm getting help!"
More pieces came off, and I found myself face to face with a muppet, who reminded me of one of the "yip-yips", only he was bright red, and was wearing a viking helmet. He had great big plastic saucer eyes.

I was like, "wtf? a muppet? whut tha wha?" and struggled to stay in the dream, but woke up. I was too awake to get back into it.

*I am at some construction place. It seems like there is some supermarket being build or so. At one point I can see thick metal wires going up from the ground and it could be some 30 meters high. Around each of them are spined two plastic, orange pipes with holes as if some DNA model. I return to the place later and those pipes are already drowned in concrete. The construction must have progressed greatly. I am there with someone else. I am not sure who it is, feels as an old friend. I am on the top of the concrete block and I can see the pairs of holes to the concrete where the pipes were. I think it must be some kind of ventilation system. We are thinking of throwing something in, but because we don’t know what is it for we don’t do it.
**I walk down a long street, and there are many small houses along the street. I don’t think I live in the house where I am going, but I go there because of some pictures or painting. I remember that I have been there once or twice before. There are two girls waiting for me there. It’s a nice modern house but for some reason it feels like it has been build really quickly. I walk up the stairs made of light wood which are turning 180 degrees. There is a huge sliding glass door leading to a kitchen. The kitchen is nice and bright with a wooden floor. I look right and see a small room at the end, some 15m away... so I walk towards it, I fell thats where I need to go. I enter the room, its small room looking like an atelier or so. There are the two girls. I always bring a few canvases and these two girls paint some painting on it for my flat. One of the girls is my sister. There is also some Brazilian girl living next door and she is making eyes on me, but my sister and the other girl say that she is pretty easy. She asks me to go for a coffee with her. She also says that she lives somewhere near Sheffield, which is near German borders. She says she will call me.
Then **I walk down a long street, and there are many small houses around the street. I don’t think I live in the house where I am going, but I go there because of some pictures or painting. I remember I have been there once or twice before. There are two girls waiting for me there. It’s a nice modern house. I walk up the stairs made of light wood which are turning 180 degrees. There is a huge sliding glass door leading to a kitchen. Then I turn right, which leads to a small room. The kitchen is nicely bright with wooden floor. Then I entre the small room and I always bring few canvases and these two girls paint some painting for my flat. One of the girls is my sister. There is some Brazilian girl living next door and she is making eyes on me, but my sister and the other girl say that she is pretty easy. She asks me to go for a coffee with her. She also says that she lives somewhere near Sheffield, which is near German borders. She says she will call me.
Then I am in my sister’s room in Zasada, but it is mine now. I think I am ill and my sister offers that she paints a picture for me. Then I go to sleep and when I wake up I see that she painted on the wall. I admire those paintings because it looks really well. On the left of the Window that faces our green house, there is a really good painting of a stylistic giraffe. It is partially like robot; with its head down as if through the window and its head is in between the window and radiator. I really admire how good it is. On the opposite wall there is some abstract painting. It is very colourful, yellow, orange, blue, and green. But then I think I go to sleep again or walk out of the room. When I wake up or come back to the room it’s all different and it surprises me greatly. So I do reality check, just in case, I look at my hands and both thumbs are to the right. So I realise it is a dream!!! And my mom walks in the room. And I am so excited that I tell my mum “Mom I am dreaming, I am dreaming!” ( I am very excited about it). I tell me sister to continue painting....and I wake up.
***I am at some area that reminds me of Berany. It’s a hill with a road running in serpentines up the hill and a running and cycling race is taking place there. There is my brother and my father with me. We tease each other about the race and my father suggests that one of us will race. We have to let the bike tune up and it takes approximately 30 min. When I come back, it looks like my dad is going to race as he already has a number on him. I say that I want to go too, so he says I need to go to register in the office. I walk there but the lady says that it’s too late now even for the run.
Next I am running up the hill so I can see the race, but there I see two men in some Viking suit running up and down the hill in a kind of fight. The one that is at the bottom of the slope throws his wide, undecorated sword at the other one but misses. Then the one high on the slope throws his sword at the bottom one and hits him in his ankle. I don’t think they notice me. As I run I pick up one of the swords but drop it a few meters later. The two warriors notice and run after me. I keep running and because I know the place I lose them. I am running very fast. As I run I also pick up a green blanket (???) but also drop it. When I return to the bottom of the hill, there is my dad without the number and he tells me that he raced already. He says that it was very difficult. We are going home, we live in a little house nearby and there are two huge stones in front of the house. I still have a feeling that those warriors are hunting me. I slide between the stones. I am wearing jeans and jacket and as I slide through there is something that looks like pea & ham and it messes my trousers. But I think its ok and it washes away easily.

So I was in my old primary school hall and there were a lot of people there. I was with my guy friend and the 'competition' was about to start. I didn't know what to do and he told me to speak to ___ (i can't remember the name, it began with a 'D' or a 'G' I think). We had to pair ourselves up male and female and I didn't get a partner quick enough so there was only one person left for me. He had shortish bleach blonde hair with light brown roots showing. He was taller than me but not by much. Most of the others were on the floor and I asked him his name and he said it was the same as the one my guy friend had told me to speak to. Everybody else was doing it on the floor so i got on the floor and we did it. It was really emotionless as we were practically strangers. The whole thing was some kind of competition but I can't remember what for (wierd public lovemaking with strangers?)
Then my dream skipped and we were inside a massive shopping centre that I recognise but have never actually seen in real life. I think I was there with my mum and sister.
Then my dream skipped yet again and I was in some kind of computer room/office. The guy from before (bleach blonde hair guy) was there and his parents were confronting him with something. I was just observing this and didn't actually do anything but he basically said that what happened in the hall was 'a girlfriend that got out of hand'. Then I woke up
My granny stayed last night and she had to sleep in my room. She said I was shouting and crying in the night.

I am at home again living with my parents. I relieve a letter about one of the jobs i have applied for recently in waking life, i didnt read through it properly and was just excited that i got an offer so i rang them up and accepted. I got told to pack some stuff and the next thing i know im being picked up by a young girl who i later figure out is the lead rep. She takes me to an airport where we board a plane... I remember very little about the journey except me being very bored. All of a sudden we get off the plane and the young girl (around my age, 22. dark blonde hair tied back into a ponytail with a fringe, gorgeous figure, why thankyaaaa subconscious =P) exclaims "welcome to Thailand!! I am shocked, i think to myself, "Thailand, wtf!?"

She then explains to me that the job i applied for is a holiday rep in a woodland camping attraction in thailand, she is the lead rep and introduces me to other reps that have just arrived. We greet some new campers and explain some of the activities that are available, after this she comes over to me to fill out some paper-work, i try to explain to her that i had no idea i was heading here and what for, so i have no money no nothing... She smiles at me and says "check your pockets" so i do.... (i should of known as this was a task GAARGGGH!) i find my Driving license, a nationwide bank card and a halifax bank card, i look again at the nationwide card and think to myself, "hold on i dont even use this account anymore"

She moves forward suddenly and takes me to meet the other reps, we get to know each other a bit and i realise that my friend Keirnan is here (hes a mate in waking life) and also so is John Snow (ive been watching game of thrones alot) we go around together and are pretty much inseparable.

The camp is in the woods, it consists of a load of different tents selling strange items such as weapons, jewellery and food. I buy a small knife, it is silver, about the size of those mini rulers you used in school. There is a handle and then it is curvy, looks like to maximize damage. The knife itself doesnt way much at all and i think "i wish it was bigger" From this point on i find myself playing with this knife in my pocket and can feel its sharpness, i almost cut myself on more than one occasion.
The weapons tent does have some beautiful swords and knives, but this is all i can afford for now, until they pay me my first wage packet. The currency used is cold coins.

Me keirnan and John Snow go for a walk, we arrive at this huge water slide, it has many different sections, e.g. The first is really high up, you go down the slide to a pool section where you can chill, then theres a slide to another lower section etc etc we use a sledge to go down, which is weird. Each drop is pretty steep and it takes the best part of a day to go around it all, there are a lot of different types of fish and birds swimming around in the water. Each time we go down one of the slides, as it is so steep we have to use our body weight so we land in the water the right way. We have quite a lot of fun scaring John Snow by tipping it forward until the last second before we land and shifting our weight to the back. He gets quite angry, me and keirnan are laughing.

We go over many drops, the slide stops sometimes. like sort of breaks down so there are a lot of people just chilling out until it starts again and we chat to a few random DC's.

There is a leader of this little get-away, not many people like her, she is quite strict. She is a middle aged woman and wears robes and has a staff and also a weird type of spikey headgear, it leads me to believe she is some sort of priestess.

We finish on the slide and walk around the camp-site, i am eager to show keirnan and John Snow the weapons tent as some of the stuff in there is just SO awesome!! John snow buys a huge 2 handed sword and so does keirnan. I still cant afford anything else yet so i decide to talk to the shopkeeper, he assures me he has what i want. I tell the shop-keep "oh but im not like the others, my weapons of choice would be dual wielding a short-sword and a dagger." He looks quite surprised and says very slowly " i see." I then tell him "I'll come back when i have the money for them" he smiles at me and nods.

For some reason we decide to go on the slide again, on the way John and Keirnan are swinging their new swords about, im a little jealous. I decide to get out my little silver knife and play with it a little, its really cold and i forget how sharp it was and almost slice my hand by accident, i put it away.

We are in the queue for this water slide, me and keirnan are talking and suddenly realise John is missing, We look around the immediate area and see that he has gone round the corner, we can see his face, he looks horrified, he is staring at something. We walk over to him to see what he is looking at. In the mirror an image flashes, almost in and out of existence, it is a demonic figure. This scares me quite a bit but before i can react the priestess appears as if out of no-where. "WHAT HAVE YOU DONE!?" she shouts. We are confused.

She takes us away and explains that what we saw was a demon and that is how they gain entry to our world, through that mirror. We weren't suppose to find it. She goes on to tell us that the demons escape their world and use US to live in this world. We stop following her and take a look at each other, it is obvious something is different. We all have a weird reddish glow radiating from us, we also have scales and horns. We freak out BIG-TIME!!

We catch up with the priestess, we are walking past a fountain, heading towards some huge building... Almost medieval looking. I look up and see figures in blue appear along the roof of the building. I point up and one of them fires something at me, i dodge and shout "priestess, what do we do!?".... "KILL THEM" she replies.
The priestess runs for cover and i watch as the blue figures prepare to attack. All of a sudden its like i know what to do i become really calm. I raise my arms as though i am holding a long-bow and i can feel energy pulsing through and down my arms into my hands. I pause and count my targets, there is 8 of them. I bring my arm back as if i am going to fire and then let go. 4 bolts of dark purple energy fly towards my enemies, i watch them, each one hits a target... But they do not fly straight, its like i am controlling them, the 4 that i just hit fall off the roof but disappear on the way down . I see projectiles coming towards me, they are returning fire. I was so caught up in actually hitting the guys that i forgot they were trying to kill us. I dive to my right, john runs forward firing in the same manner i did. And keirnan goes to guard the priestess. i doge the attacks and roll, to come up in the same position, as if im holding a long-bow ready to fire. I let fly again and 4 more bolts fly off and hit my targets. They burst into flames.

The priestess is suddenly in front of me. "thank you" she says smiling.

The dream fades and i wake up.

Ok so I know there was more to this dream but this is really all I completely remember.

I was going to someone's house in a zombie apocalypse. It was our family friends house. I got inside and talked to them and kinda relaxed for a bit. I think my friend Cole was there. We were there and I remember that there was another zombie outbreak, it was near this house. (This house was actually a ground level apartment). We all ran into the back room and were gonna hide. My friend Cole and I grabbed blankets and hid behind the bed. The others seemed to hide behind doors and in closets. My friend seemed mad at me.


So here is a minor side note. In this dream (it was actually pretty lengthy) It felt like it was really long. I wanted desperately for this to be a dream and just for me to wake up and be having a normal life. Because literally this felt like real life. It was a long dream. I had never wanted to wake up so much in my life, the constant horror of my worst fear made this a pretty bad nightmare.

Class and Securing the Hill

I was in a class, but don't know what I was learning. We all chose net-books for the day. They were all unique.
One computer had a problem.

Dream skip?

I went to a grassy hill and was going to fight some machines. Everyone in my unit or on my team had a vehicle
that served as protection. I chose a place on the hill that offered protection from ahead and from behind.

These dreams repeated. When I went to class again, I knew one of the computers had a problem. I got the same
computer I had had before because I knew that one worked.

I saw some meat that had been flattened and salted. It was raw. I ate some and realized some how, not by the taste,
that the meat had been poisoned. I started to spit out the meat. Every time I spit, I had a lot more spit to spit out. I
spit enough to fill a baggie half way. I left the class.

I was on the hill again. Someone had a boa constrictor--possibly a red tail boa. It was about 8 feet long. They were letting it get very close to me. It was trying to bite me. Eventually I was trying to hold it anyway. I tried to get it behind the head, but being tired in waking life (I guess), I couldn't focus on it much. I ended up holding it by the tail and letting it crawl on the ground.

Then I was positioned on the hill again. My spot was now vulnerable from the rear. I didn't like that at all. I had a premonition that we would be attacked from the rear. I ended up in some kind of a room that was walled by tough, nylon strapping material. I had a machine gun. It was like a cross between an AK-47 and an AR-15. I liked having it. I shot about 15 bullets and then thought I should stop in case I hit someone. I wanted to get out of the room, so I started pulling the strapping and it was coming loose. Eventually I guess I did get loose with someone else who was in the room with me.

Then I was in a military aircraft. I was never in the military. We were preparing for something. I was trying to get my machine gun it a case because I didn't want to leave it, and I didn't want to walk around wherever I was going with an open machine gun.

One of the other guys with me, a superior I think, threw a jacket out of the plane. I was upset because I think it was my jacket. It was as though I wasn't supposed to keep the military property (including the gun). I quickly put on another jacket so as to claim it. That meant the jacket thrown out was someone elses.

OGF

I met a girl who looked like someone I used to date. I was my current age--she was the age I met her. I approached her nervous of how she would respond to what I wanted to tell her. I told her that I know I am much older, but I just wanted to tell her that she looked like an ogf. She looked exactly like her. I was in love.

Later, she responded more to my liking, and I became semi lucid, or at least controlled my dream. I started holding her. I was taking my time to go up her shirt because I was enjoying being with her, but I realized I may wake up soon, so I started going further up her shirt. I got so far as to feel where her breast started. I didn't go further because I wanted to save some of the enjoyment. I never got to feel her breast, but I was enjoying looking at her face too much.

Went to bed 1230
Goals teleport
Woke up at 4:30 and could not sleep again until 6-630
7:OO I rem considering what i would be like for words to suddenly appear in my first person view about my progress, like in a game. When i consider this it makes me think of what a great way it would be to go lucid.

*I rem being at an amusemnt park and we with jessica, possibly others, and we are riding a ride like the scream. I rem there was no seatbelts or anything to strap you in though. At one point jessica gets off the ride but she stilll waits in the general area, not having to get out of the way. I rem thinking about how i had been riding the ride over and over again without stopping. I considered whether i would get sick as well as whether or not i was annoying jessica. I rem one time when it starts again, i half leaned outside of it and for a moment felt like i was gonna fall all of the way down. It was quite scary and prevented me from doing that again.

*I vaguely rem being at school and getting ready to go to a class i hadnt been to in a long time.

*Vaguely rem some kind of battle or conflict, outdoors and sunny, stone walkways and buildings.

*I vaguely rem being at a friends house, im thinkink with alexis cause i kind of rem seeing his dad. They are not in the room and i am looking at their dog. It looks like a golden retriever but for some reason in the dream i think of it as a donkee. I rem noticing it had like a saddle strapped to its back but it was very small and fluffy, i think pink in color. It looked like it was for a smaller animal to sit on the dog/
donkeys back.

8:49 I rem being at school in a classroom. I cant rem what class it was specifically but i rem my creative writ teacher teaching it. At first he is talking to the entire class, but more on the other side of the room, about some politics; i rem he mentions hawaii. I rem talking to some dude who works at gamestop about what classes he signed up for next semester. He tells me all of his classes, names four of them i think spanish was one, and then reveals he only plans to take the finals for them. He talks about one class he is signing up for a second time, he didnt finish the first time and complains he never got a chance to meet his classmates.

At one point i think he changes into a girl but not sure. I almost forgot, he had a lady with him who was like doing his finances or something. I rem at one point he is standing and she next to him, they both say something at the same time like they planned it and they make a hand gesture like throwing away money. I rem thinking it was pretty cheesy in the dream but he seemed proud of himself.

MY cre writ teacher comes over to my side of the room and now im sitting in the front row of class with a few people on each side but its like he is talking to a select group from the class. He starts talking about fox news, it was really funny. He starts by saying something like its that time again, when the one party is ready to cause trouble or something like that. He describes them as the ones who... and then he acts out what he is saying. I cant rem exactly what he said but i know in the dream he was making fun of glenn beck and others on fox news. I rem him mocking one of the women, he turned around and started shaking his ass, it was funny but wierd becasuse he kind of shifted into a woman when he did this. I rem all of a sudden he had a womens lower body and was wearing a green skirt. Cant rem much else.

10:44 Had a dream, cant rem how it gets to this point but, i rem walking with a long white stick with black writing on it. In the dream i know it has something to do with the police. Im in like a mall or something and there is a huge crowd of people. I walk into the group with my stick and the dream shifts into like a highschool graduation. The stick is now like my diploma and the line turns into just me and a few others. We are walking through a room with a bunch of people in suits and dresses.

The diploma is now like a military baton and everyone is holding theres like the military holds the rifle at their side. I rem walking in this way, or marching and being really sillly with it. I was over acting my march until i realized so many people in the room were watching. It seems like people on the left of the line were sitting and standing on the right. As i leave this room i see my dad and i think some of his family standing there in a suit and he is holding up a camera like it is on record.

We move into the next room and all head to our seats. Before i sit down i pass rachelle. When i do she says that she ran for first place or something like that, i make a really strange face, but im meaning to congratulate her, then i walk off. The room we are in has all of the graduating class and its poorly lit. the whole dream feels grey. They were calling us up just a few at a time, as my group sits down this black dude from my group says something llike, man i only got six. He said something else and in the dream i knew he was complaining about how many people cheered for him. He pulled out a plastic bag with a number written on it with a black sharpie. I do the same and say something similar, but i got even less cheers. A couple people around me see this and start laughing, i sit down at first a little self conscious but then stop caring. Cant rem much else. (I didnt go to my real hs graduation, so this is an interesting dream...)

Nondream - Lucid - Nonlucid

WILD!
I actually wasnt planning on doing a WILD, It wasnt even a WBTB, it just randomly happened while I was just trying to get to sleep.
So I went straight to bed at around 11 like I usually do, not even thinking about lucid dreaming.
and somehow, as soon as I hit SP, my mind just 'woke up' and I knew what was happening.
Sweet, I just took all the hard work out of WILDing

It was SP but I wasnt just hearing random stuff this time,
I was listening to my dad lecture me, cool stuff.
I reminded myself to stay as calm as possible, and ofcourse..
My heartbeat starts going Nuts.

My heart starts beating extremely fast, i mean like machine gun fast. Its never even beat this fast in real life.
Crap. I was gonna wake up for sure.
Wellllllll, I DIDNT wake up, I guess it was just some prank,
Good game subconscious, good game.

I finally felt the dream coming, and that familiar buzzing feeling of finally entering it.

Im standing in my room, funny how most of my lucids always start in here.
I remember to stabilize, and stabilize I did.
I made sure to use all my senses, I looked around at my room, I rubbed my hands together,
I sniffed the air a few times, though I did forget about sound, but there wasnt anything to really listen to anyways.
I let myself become more aware of my surroundings.
It worked, amazingly. I actually felt the dreams stability, and even my vision was decent.
Then it hit me, how should I say this, I really really really wanted to try um, Lucid.. 'Love making'
Im not a perv I swear, I was just curious yknow :)

I stepped through my window, it felt natural by now,
And found myself flying through the side of a hotel, there were a bunch of balconys,
but I ofcourse was dodging them all like a boss.
I was flying pretty fast too, or at least faster then I usually do, but I wasnt really thinking much of it.
It was a nice sunny day, there were some interesting figures standing on each of the balconys I passed,
unfortunately I cant remember any details.

I made my way to an opening, It was a big area overlooking the ocean,
It was full of tables and chairs, like some restaurant had just set up near it.
There were plenty of people, this is perfect I thought, and landed from my flight.

My eyes were busy sweeping back and forth around the crowds, a smirk clearly stamped on my face,
I saw a girl my age, I knew her, I used to go to school with her, this was it.
The thing was though, she was surrounded by a group of guys, who I knew to be kids from their school, I walked up anyways.
I went straight to her, she looked up at me and smiled, I knew what had to be done.
I took her by the hand and carried her, and looked for a more private place, I didnt wanna do it out in the open..

Though looking back I guess I shouldve just done that, It was a dream after all.
I started walking away from the scene, carrying my prize in my arms,
and ofcourse, the guys she was with werent too happy I was walking away with their girl, and immediately started chasing after me.
Great. Well, I started running, why I didnt just blast them with some cool energy attack, or even just fly away, I will never know.

Up ahead I saw a bathroom, cool I'll hide in there..
I sprinted to the mens section, then realizing they could still follow me in here, I corrected myself and ran into the girls section,
And sure enough they stopped right outside the door, which was wide open by the way,
and started moaning and whining about how they couldnt follow me in, yay dream logic

The bathroom though was just Tiny.. And I was just some two inches from the open door,
where the douches were being held back by some invisible force field, but I knew my shield wouldnt last forever.
In front of me was a stall, this was the only way to get deeper into the bathroom, and finally get away from the guys chasing us,
And to finally 'get to know' this girl I'd been carrying the whole time.
I reached for the door handle, It was my time to shine

...

Locked.
SHIT. Why??!?!?!?!?!?! HOW could somebody be taking a piss at a time like This?!
The guys behind us had woken up and viciously grabbed and PULLED me out of the bathroom,
I fell backwards.. Falling, and landing on my bed, still mourning the loss of my prize..



Well, at least I had a lucid dream

Sunday, July 3rd

Couldn’t sleep last night until 5 a.m. When I finally did zonk out I was grateful enough just for the void that I remembered absolutely nothing upon waking.

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I was laying in bed trying to WILD and remembered that it has been awhile now and that I don't feel the change btween awake and dreaming. I did a reality test and realized i went into a lucid dream. I got out of bed and I couldn't see. I immagined what was in front of me and acted as if I was focussing intently on it, it then slowly came to be in front of my eyes. I walked over to my closet and decided to go to a frosty land. I opend the door after verbally stating I wanted to go to the cold north, I only saw my closet rearanged from what it normally is aranged. I closed it and tried again only to fail. The dream faded and I found myself in bed again, where all my WILDs start. I thought that this might not be a real awakening and I was right. I got up and tried again hopeing no zombie was in the closet. There was no zombie. The dream faded and I was in bed again. I got up and remembered what Yoshi told me about flying where you want to go. I got up and looked at everything focusing on very small details and the feelings I had to stable the dream. I then walked to my living room door and tried to run through it. I only stoped short of going through it many times. I then opend it and worried that my real body might be sleep walking and get hit by a car. I got on the edge of the porch and jumped off. While I was flying I looked at a map and went north. Suddenly it was snowy and I was joined by some gryphon riders from WoW. We said no pleasantrys. I started to fly higher into the sky near the clouds. I didn't want to lose control of flight do to no referance point. I figured out a new way to steer my self up and down while flying. I flew up to a cave with an Alliance banister from WoW besides it, there where 2 in fact anlong side a steam tonk. The dream ended.

Woot I learned a new way to get rid of dream blindness and to fly better.

After experiencing my mother going through a bipolar mode after I was being sarcastic with saying that chores were “Fun” (weird lol) from mad to trying to suck up to me for being angry at me, I see my father resting on his bed (he's not here at the moment, he's at some temporary vacation somewhere...I could've used that as a reality check! grrr!!!) Then another part of the dream came up where I was sitting down As I'm sitting down, my father is asking me if I got an e-mail from a college I'm going to this August (Texas A&M University at College Station). It's been something we've been looking on for a while on, personal things that will benefit me ;p.

Anyway, as he is questioning me, I see he points out something in a paper on a table to me, then he gets more aggressive for some reason and starts choking me. (end of dream) I get VERY SCARED, because I'm FEELING him CHOKING ME. I think I even tried to fake choking combined with that sound we make (like trying to gargle with no liquid inside our throat). When I made that sound, I woke up.

I, with my friend, was riding the subway back to Finch station, from somewhere around Union (or past). In this subway, each car was 10-15 feet across, and had two sets of doors, one set to let people in/out, and one set inside the car. The doors opened, and my friend said we should go inside the inner doors, in case of a flood. The doors opened again, and two cute girls walked in, as I slipped into the inner compartment with my friend. A moment later, one of the girls (a blonde) came in, looked at us a little weird, and leaned against the opposite wall; I gave her a smile and nod, and returned to talking to my friend, who promptly told me that after prom, he'd missed the subway (or it could've been plane) home, and so he'd been gone for two days instead of one. I followed up with "Yeah, I've had that. Whenever I miss the buses, I just stay at your place." The girl looked at us somewhat mockingly again, and I continued (in a voice implying really-are-you-an-idiot) "Oh, not like that."

At this point, we exited the subway and boarded the streetcar. I can only surmise that my subconscious has no idea what a streetcar is, because this was a chain of little erasers on rails. We rode for a while, and I made smalltalk with the blonde, and could tell she was somewhat interested. At this point, I did something stupid and my "streetcar" came off the rails. I had to jog as quickly as the streetcar and try and get it back on the rails, to void holding up the people in cars behind me. No use, I couldn't get it back on, and eventually, the streetcar sped to be much quicker than myself.

Fragments

I remember being in my bedroom with my sister, my brother, and my brother's friend, playing some kind of block game. I noticed that my laundry basket (which, in reality, I'd placed in front of my door, so I'd remember to do laundry in the morning) was askew, as though I'd opened the door and walked right by it.

I woke up at about 6am this morning..2 hours earlier than I planned to, so I figured it was too early to have passed an REM cycle. I got up, browsed some sites on the computer for a while, then went back to try a WILD at about 7am.

Green = non-lucid
Red = moment before lucidity
Sky Blue = lucid

First Attempt:

I knew I had nearly done it when I felt a huge tingle all over my body, which at some point just broke. It kind of feels like your body "disconnecting" if you were to describe it. Behind my lids, I was seeing some flashes of pictures in the distance, and I was attempting to focus on them. However, I feel like I got too excited at this new sensation, and the pictures soon went away and simply turned into blackness. I opened my eyes to find myself lying in bed.

Second Attempt:

Not willing to give up, I decided to try one more time. It was a strange mix of non-lucidity and brief lucidity, but I am getting there. I once again felt the telltale sign of that "disconnecting" feeling, and this time let it overtake me without trying to focus too hard. Unfortunately, I believe this thought of completely letting go caused me to lose consciousness and I fell into a non-lucid dream...

I was in some type of either spaceship with narrow corridors. I knew I was in danger, I believe I was also with my girlfriend. There were howling noises in the background like wolves, and we were hiding in this dark room, but still light enough to faintly see each other...we were on a chair and I remember hugging her..but for some reason we didn't care about the danger and well it was starting to become "feely."

At this point that dream fades out, and I open my eyes to find my room...or so I thought.

I "woke up" and lay in bed for a few seconds just looking out my window. But something didn't feel right. Outside the window was another building..with a gated fence in front of it. It was also at ground level, when I live on the top floor of an apartment building. At this moment I realized it was a dream.

It felt incredibly stable at first. I walked to the window and looked outside. The sky was dark, everything was shaded in gray, and I was at ground level, inside a black fenced enclosure that looks like one of those city parks with all cement. I felt scared like there was a sense this would be a nightmare, but realizing that I was dreaming, I braved it and stepped outside my window. I believe this is the moment I got ahead of myself: I walked for a bit, then immediately wanted to test the ability to create things. I looked at a spot on cement lot and imagined Holo(anime) standing there. It worked and it didn't. As I did this, it felt like I was focusing on my body lying in bed to work the imagination, rather than my dream body. I became aware of myself lying in bed and try as I might to get the dream to come back, it was too late.

I am definitely going to try more tomorrow however. Now that I know more or less what sleep paralysis feels like to me, I know what to expect and will be able to take things slower.

Nothing but birthing and dying fractals.