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10.05.2010

Re-run (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Another one where I don't remember becoming lucid, or doing a reality-check.

Strangely, this dream took place in the same school gym as the "Get Psyched" dream. The setting helped me remember it was a dream, since it's a place I haven't been in several years in real life. I started humming, and found myself singing Muse's version of "Feeling Good". I went on for a few minutes, but then realised I was just singing the same part over and over.

The lucidity was very clear. There was a definite feeling of being in complete control of my own body which I always remember from high-quality lucids. I thought about doing the task of the month- "jump off a skyscraper". I decided the best way to get to the top of a skyscraper would be to try and use my version of DEILD from within the dream. I closed my eyes to block out the gym, and visualised the roof of the skyscraper from The Matrix. I bent down and "felt" the concrete, but then the whole thing seemed to dissolve. My surroundings were gone, including the gym, and I wasn't quite sure what was going on. It felt like my head was fizzing. I quickly reminded myself to do a reality-check in the event that I woke up.



The next thing I remember, I woke up in a bed in the gym. I didn't bother to do a reality-check. I have no idea why. It was like I had just been reset completely. I sat up to see beds all around me. Beside mine was a cage with a small white mouse in it. I spent a while playing with it.

06.05.2010

Very Lifelike (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I can't remember the start of this one, so I'm just going to assume it was a DILD.

I was standing in a residential street at night. It was raining very heavily. Thinking about it, I might have figured out I was dreaming from being "floaty". As in, gravity wasn't working how it should, and I was gliding a bit with every step. It's always a fun way to catch a dreamsign- "Hey I'm flying a bit! Oh, dream!" Anyway, I thought about doing the task of the year, and I really thought it was within my reach this time. It was a really stable dream, and I reckoned it would last a good while. I wondered about how to time travel. There were no DeLoreans in sight, and I couldn't be bothered asking random people if I could use their time machine again.



I ended up having a false awakening- in the very same street! I caught it, and started talking to a girl who sat down on the pavement beside me. I don't know what she said, but I remember thinking that her reactions and conversationalism were very lifelike -in a way which made me slightly doubt I was dreaming. How could a construct of my own mind seem to have independent thought? I kept trying to predict what she was going to say next, or figure out what part of me her words came from, but I couldn't make any sense of it.

It's a bit strange to me that people talking on their own fascinated me so much when they have always done it in my non-lucids and I've never wondered about it. I suppose being lucid opened my eyes to the curious nature of it.

03.05.2010

Sandscraper (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This just came back to me while I was flicking through the forums and saw the task of the month. I remember attempting it at some point during the night.

I was climbing out of a pool of water in the desert, holding on to a sandstone pillar. I started hauling myself up the side of it, thinking about the task of the month- to jump off a skyscraper. I hadn't looked up to see the top of this structure, so I thought if I kept going I'd get pretty high. I climbed for ages, and when I reached the top of the pillar, I jumped on to a larger one which went up farther. Unfortunately I have no idea what happened next, or if I completed the task. Real bummer.

PART 1 - CROCODILE DODGING WITH G

I'm walking through a water filled area with my friend G. I have to swim from one platform to another to stay above. When I get there, G informs me there are crocodiles in the water.

A bit further, walking along, a crocodile lunges out of a small puddle at me, about three times... but it's kind of moving in slow motion, and isn't coming at me full force, almost as if it's "pulling its punch."

I tell G that, "I need to get my old narcissism back, become A (old nickname from HS), I've become too understanding."

ANALYSIS

The crocodiles "pulling their punch" makes me think of a sheltered environment, being coddled, not exposed to "the real."

The narcissism bit seems literal. I actually do think that sometimes.

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PART 2 - CAPTURED

I'm walking home, turning a corner just down the street, it's dark... a shady character starts coming right my direction from the other side of the street.

When he gets close, I say, "you lookin'?" referring to drugs, to make him think I might be useful somehow, so he won't attack.

He says, "what you got?" I hesitate, wanting to leave options open, making sure he thinks I have something he wants so he won't attack. "Uh, could be anything..."

He realizes I'm lying and decides to mug me. I take out some money and say I'll leave it on the ground for him to pick up once he backs up a certain distance, to ensure I can escape.

He goes along with it at first and gets close anyway and holds me down. I'm held captive, and taken to his group's apartment. I look around for anyone who might sympathize with my plight, but no one shows any sign.

In the light I see the original attacker guy is buff, bulky, with a buzz cut. I remember one other guy, skinny, wife beater, tattoos. There were others, sort of a party atmosphere.

I'm able to get a look out a window, but I see that the next building is too far away to jump to, we're too high up.

I either escape or am rescued, I don't remember. I'm now at the apartment of the "good guys." Similar party atmosphere, everyone is just chilling. They're into magic.

I see someone who looks like someone I work with, K. She is a "good person" and would fit into this culture. It turns out to be her twin sister, my hope for some type of familiarity is dashed.

Someone suggests I call the cops. I wonder why I hadn't thought of that.

I'm on the street (downtown somewhere). I see a cop, 50s, gray hair, mustache, cop hat... I tell him what happened. I don't remember his response. I don't remember at what point in the timeline this took place, it may have been later.

I'm back at the "good guys" place, and the "bad guys" break in - turns out they know magic too, except they're way more powerful than the good guys with it.

The original guy who attacked me is riding a flaming horse. I'm helpless, and think this is probably it for me.

ANALYSIS

This is the second time in a row there's been a shady character who I've tried to fool by leading them on with drugs associated with this same corner near my home! The previous time was on July 30th, before I started recording my dreams online.

"I'm walking down the street to work, it's dark, a shady Muslim dude (in full gear) heads in my direction presumably to mug me. I distract him by asking if he knows where I can find $1000 of weed to play on his self interest. He goes along with it, says we would have to leave the country. We drive the rest of the way and park outside my work. I ask how I would contact him in the future to make him think I was interested in the long term, so that he'll let me go for now. He knew I was lying all along, however, and became angry."

I feel like trying to "trick" the "attackers" is what got me sucked into the web (captured in last night's case)... like I was being punished for being deceptive. They both went along with it at first... like a test to see how deep I would dig my own hole.

This may link up with the message promoting sincerity from the "free beer" dream two days back. I feel this is applicable to me in that I tend to be hyper-aware of managing the impression others have of me, fundamentally out of fear that they won't like me.

The message that stands out, in essence: being deceptive out of fear is a trap that creates your own personal hell from which no one else can ever save you. This must be my "conscience."

I should focus on cultivating honesty; asking myself more in making decisions, "Do I feel good about doing this?"

Broken Teeth

Comment Dream Lucid

I was stood outside my room. Inside my room was a wood panelled room, Godfather-esque. Various shady dealings went on inside. Outside however I was left to my own devices with a mirror. My teeth kept falling out, the entire left side of my mouth collapsed and I was left, vividly, with a handful of broken teeth. I'd look in the mirror and was able to open my mouth as wide as a cat to see the damage. I was terrified, showing people the handful of broken teeth, looking at the carnage in my mouth. It felt so real. I woke up petrified about my teeth and went straight to the supermarket and spent a tenner on toothpaste, mouthwash and toothbrushes.

Comment Dream Lucid Dream

Oh, joy! I think I may have had my first LD this night in a long, long, time (8 years or so?). Before I went to bath I read about meditation on the internet yesterday. I then took a bath - which I normally never do - and relaxed. In the mirror I told myself why I would have a LD. Afterwards in bed, I spent some time on DVs (reviewing the my previous DJ entries, reading others', and rereading the chat log of the first MILD-1 lesson) and went to sleep. "I can Lucid Dream" must've been one of my thoughts. 'twasn't long, but it's a start:

I'm in my room at my mum's house (which I do sleep in atm) and for some reason realize I'm dreaming. I then see if I can float, which sort of works. I run to the attic, to the room of one of my two little brothers and fly out of the window to see how well I can fly. It is now that the vividness increases, but also that I can't remember what happened next. I'm not saying this was a full-blown lucid and entirely vivid, but I remember saying to myself: "I'm dreaming this" and making the decision to go the attic.

[EDIT]
I now remember I flew out the window, dived down and just before I crashed into the ground took up and flew about. I then thought about changing into a wolf (a thing I have done before in my dreams. I love the feeling of sprinting around, close to the ground with huge leaps). Couldn't really decide though whether I wanted to fly or run around, and my mind was still discussing whether it actually feels more like a wolf or a frog. I think the chaos is what made me lose control and ultimately lucidity.

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I'm in the bus riding home and I think I've got a girl seduced. She has black hair and, obviously, looks rather nice. When I get home though, and fetch the drink I offered her, I find her and my other brother (not the attic one) happily humping along. Whore. I run away and sit in my room, feeling crap.
I decide though, I'm not going to give up that easily and at least tell them what traitors they are. Fortunately, when I re-enter their room, I see now what a monster the girl really is. She's fat and has tons of boobs and asses all over her body. Iew. (Wtf @ my mind) In a strange twist of fate I think it would be better if I just became a second Indiana Jones now (I'm not even a Jones fan) and start looking for secret caverns. After some time I find a huge labyrinth in a kitchen somewhere. By figuring out a poem I found somewhere, I know the exact way to traverse the maze (left, right, then crawl through a small hole). Later on I have to fight some monsters and at the end a giant Majin Buu. I'm not even into DBZ, and the monsters looked like this:

Spoiler for Image:

I dreamt of Minecraft, haha (I've been playing it heaps lately). I worked out how to make a bow (because I haven't been able to get online to find the recipe, and I couldn't work it out last night).
I was also able to load the worlds as bitmap images and view them in MSPaint.

I was walking somewhere in some city with my board game club. We had heard of some place where you could show that you had certain board games to get rewarded with some unique candy that you couldn't get elsewhere. After a while we entered a house. It was like one of those apartment block houses as seen in umeå. Next to a door into an apartment was a scanning thing where you were supposed to scan the bar code of the board games. It was only possible to get the candy reward if you scanned a type of game that no one had scanned before. Also, the stock of the candy was not unlimited so we felt that we probably wouldn't get any candy.

We scanned the first game which was a really common one. Despite this, it got approved! Tistou's name was shown on some electric device (spelled wrong, however.) and that meant that he should go behind the counter (yes, a counter had appeared with two girls standing behind it that was working there.). Since there was no way around the counter, he tried to climb over it but the staff complained and showed him a hole in it where he was supposed to crawl. He did.

Next up was another game that we scanned. It also got approval and the screen showed a name. We couldn't see who's name it was because of some disturbance but we guessed it was my name so I crawled inside as well.

In there was a kitchen with some random people in it. They showed me a nearly empty tube of chocolate sauce and a bunch of papers that was lying in the pantry. I did as I was supposed to, which was to grab a sheet of paper, tear a part from it and squeeze out some chocolate sauce onto it. Then I could lick the sauce from the paper. Apparently that was the unique candy, lol. I explored the area a bit and it had a very slacky feel to it. There were only young people there.

Somehow I was in a couch with some random dudes in front of a tv. A movie night was upcoming. On the screen they showed a commercial from a new pirates of the caribbean film that wasn't really a sequel since it had nothing to do with the old characters or plot. I think it seemed to be lame. A discussion started on which movie to watch and I jokingly said "lord of the rings!". One guy was like "Oh, yeah, good idea!!" and pulled forth vinyl discs with all three movies in the trilogy in extended version. The other persons were like "Oh, nooo! That one takes ages to watch! damn!".

Then I don't remember anything more.

#957:
Date: August 4th, 2010
Length: 3 minutes


I'm at a strange sort of Foo Fighters concert, and it seems I'm part of the band and on stage with them. The concert is set in a gigantic room, and the stage is surrounded by a massive pool, above which are many beams and platforms that form a sort of obstacle course. After a while, I end up on on the obstacle course, but fall off from one balance beam, into the pool.

I swim for a while, and the concert seems to end. The audience (there are seats outside the pool) cheers, and for some reason all the band members take off their clothes and jump into the pool. I end up chatting with Dave Grohl, and I feel a bit like I'm left out of the band, even though I'm supposedly a member. He hands me a bunch of books, which somehow remain dry despite the fact that we're still swimming, and I apparently have to return them to the library.


#958:
Date: August 5th, 2010
Length: 2 minutes

Unfortunately I'm having some trouble remembering this dream. Basically, I was back in middle school or high school. I found myself in late August, 2001, but I was aware of my life and events through 2010. Somehow, I had been sent back in the past (and, it seems, made younger too), and I was aware of it, at least partially. I was confused at how I got here, and kept wondering if this was real (but it did not occur to me that I was dreaming).

I was in a sort of courtyard near one of my old schools, and I decided that I should try to convince someone that I really had been sent back in the past, in hopes that they could help me. For some reason, the character of Gretchen from Donnie Darko was around, and I ended up talking to her about it, also wanting to go on a date with her at the same time. I explained my story (or at least, what I could make of it) to her, and told her that I'm aware of some events that will occur and that will prove I'm not making this up. I tell her about the 9/11 attacks that will occur soon, and I might have mentioned the war in Iraq. I don't remember much after that, except feeling confused and maybe "warping" to other places/times.



One last fragment, I had a dream where I was with a bunch of people from my old high school class, and we were in some kind of PE class where we had to bike around a park. I somehow found a way to "air-bike" -- I was just floating/sitting in mid-air, as if on a bike, and pedalling, and I would go forward with great speed. It was quite a fun experience, and for some reason I wouldn't get tired no matter how hard I pedaled.

I was inside this big gym, like the gym at school. Not a gym as much as a big open space for playing basketball. I don't remember much, but I remember asking if I could pee. There was beer on tap, and we played some strange game. Something was being choreographed. I don't have good recall from this.

Lights out at 1:35AM. At 4:13 the cat woke me up and I wrote this:

A train. Packing. Fear. Playing something on the computer. Train goes between states off consciousness? Maybe. Can't remember. I'm a little girl and I'm scared. I'm all the DC's. Or at least two. The little girl's afraid of me. Should she be? Maybe. Where am I taking her on the train? Have to hurry--the road closes at night. Levels. Of what?

At 8:38 the other cat woke me and I wrote this: Drinking with Lloyd in Mtown, then driving to Dad's along the river in my old convertible. Stopped at a playground along the way. The slide was made of wood. Dad's house was different. Much bigger. Sharon had something painted on the back of her brown dress. It was for work. I felt anxious and wanted to be alone. I ran through the house to the back room and shut the door. But Lloyd followed me. He was trying to convince me to come out and socialize and he got ever more condescending about it. He just wouldn't stop. Eventually I was in tears and though the cat *was* trying to get my attention what woke me was the sound of my own voice when I yelled aloud, "Just leave me alone!"

06.08.2010

Zombies in the parking lot (MILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

My wife's "lovely" bosses sent her one of their usual "Lovely" emails at night, which pissed her off before going to bed. That annoyed me as well and I did not focus on anything. I woke up at 5am with a short fragment, at 6:20 am with another fragment that I was able to recover into an almost full dream. I said to my self I so not wanted to come only with crappy dreams, having a lucid dream was a MUST to make the night at least a little decent. I fell asleep determined and had a lucid. Total of three dreams:

Third:

I was online browsing the DV boards. There was a section for fan art. People would request to have a personalized Pokemon face. I could see the images of different pictures of Pokemon, with their tongue outside like Next I could see their real photo. I found out it was a good idea and I would like one of those as well. I realized it would be nice to have a blend of a Gengar and a Ball Lightning (this second one is not a Pokemon but a Magic The Gathering card) I realized I could do it by myself. I wanted something like this:







I realized I had to do some arraingements so I closed up my computer, grabbed my car and drove. I got to a indoors parking lot. It was packed with cars, but I found a parking spot, so I did park my car there. I exited my car and I saw two female DC walking by. I was walking towards the store and I felt really lazy. I said to myself, "I hope I was dreaming... It would be cool and I would not need to do the arrangement"

Then I turned lucid. I did not do any reality check, but I found out I was indeed in a lucid dream. I walked by a wall, there were no cars parked here. I tryed to open a void. I did not intend to travel to a particular place and I neither put a lot of effort on my task. The portal did not open and I did not insisted. I realized I was lucid with little control over the dream. It did not bother me, I was not looking for any particular goal on this dream. I walked by two huge elevators. On one of them there were two DC and the other one was empty. The light of this elevators did not work, so they were totally dark.

I considered in getting inside one of them. I new it would be very cool. However, I remember that I suggested a similar task of the month for September, so I passed to spoil the fun if it gets selected. I kept walking around the parking lot.

A few small kids (about two feet tall) appeared. They had really sharp claws. They started to attack me. I saw myself bleeding but it did not hurt. I realized they were zombies by the look of their face.

They looked like this. If you are very sensitive, do not open the spoiler, it has a little gore:

Spoiler for Zombie Kid:

I tried to blast the kids. They were a few of them, but I was not able. I lost the imaginery of the dream entirely. I realized I was about to wake up. I wanted to kill the zombies first so I started to spin very fast and recovered the dream. I attempted another blast with success and destroyed all these zombie kids.

I found a small gun. I grabbed it and put it into my pocket. I saw five DCs. Three male and two female. The male ones had some blood on their shirt, so I figured they were zombies. I tried to save the female ones, they looked OK. I shot right in the chest on the male DCs. The gun did not work, however, the guys that I tried to kill did not realize it. I grabbed one of the females DC and started to run. The dream faded.

I had a false awakening in my room. I started to talk with my wife about the dream I just had. I suddenly saw my wife in this parking lot. I was a viewer now. I explained to my wife what happened. Suddenly, I heard the noise of a shotgun loading. My wife laughed and told me, "You nuts! What you were doing!" I laughed and realized that I had no shotgun but a regular small gun. I woke up for real.

Missed dream signs:
- None

Noticed dream signs:
- Hopping I was in a dream.

Reality check performed:
- Turned lucid without them.

06.08.2010

At the beach with dad. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

My wife's "lovely" bosses sent her one of their usual "Lovely" emails at night, which pissed her off before going to bed. That annoyed me as well and I did not focus on anything. I woke up at 5am with a short fragment, at 6:20 am with another fragment that I was able to recover into an almost full dream. I said to my self I so not wanted to come only with crappy dreams, having a lucid dream was a MUST to make the night at least a little decent. I fell asleep determined and had a lucid. Total of three dreams:

Second:

I was going with my dad to the pool. For some reason I could not drive, so he did. We got to a small forest that was next to a very small beach. I saw some female DC walking by. This beach was like a small lake, but it was sea water. It was one of those tiny beaches that have the water warmer because it does not flow as much as the regular beach.







I told him that it was cool that we went to such a small beach instead of the pool, specially being so small and quiet. I put my swimsuit on. I could see the bigger beach far away and it was crowed. I saw another two female DC. One of them had oddities on her breast (something impossible in waking) We talked with them about swimsuits and looking good on the beach.

Missed dream Signs:
- My dad.
- The breasts of the DC.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Head for a ToTY.

06.08.2010

Unhappy DC (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

My wife's "lovely" bosses sent her one of their usual "Lovely" emails at night, which pissed her off before going to bed. That annoyed me as well and I did not focus on anything. I woke up at 5am with a short fragment, at 6:20 am with another fragment that I was able to recover into an almost full dream. I said to my self I so not wanted to come only with crappy dreams, having a lucid dream was a MUST to make the night at least a little decent. I fell asleep determined and had a lucid. Total of three dreams:

First:

- 12 colors.
- DC.
- Talking about the colors.
- Indoors.
- He was not happy.
- Informed him that was not a happy request on dad (no idea about this)

Missed dream Signs:
- Unknwon.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Unknown.

dream lucid not part of the dream, but talking about it.

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Dream #1

My Mom has a favor for me to do - take some stuff over to Ms. Norma's apartment. I took the box and walked over to her apartment, although it looked more like a house. They showed me around and it reminded me a little of Mrs. McBee's house. I looked out the window (somehow the scenery had changed, and I was looking out at a kind of swampy-woodsy-wood walkway type thing instead of a street. After I talked Mrs. Norma and took a tour of their house/apartment I started walking home.

The next thing I knew I was in a van with four people - two men leering at me and I'm scared. I managed to get out of the van and I start running. I find a restaurant/bar I know and go in, and start asking around, determined and becoming a bit like hardboiled noir detective. I'm starting to get some information when my Mom comes into the restaurant. She and I start to walk home (... no, don't know why) and I admire the woods as we walk.

I point out to my mom that there is a wolf looking at us. Then I notice there are two. Three, four, five... There's a pack of wolves around us.

They're talking wolves. My Mom and I start to talk to them - it looks more like a pack of dogs being led by a wolf than anything. At the least they don't look like full-bred wolves. They walk us home and I scritch them a little, amused by some of the less shy ones.

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Dream #2

I am in the aisle seat of a bus, which I hate. It looks like a school bus, and I'm going off to college. We're cutting through what looks like a mall - there's a thriftshop, a jewelry store, a few other things. The bus stops eventually and I get out, nervous and going into the library when I can. This is also the site of my first class, being taught by my old economics teacher, Mr. Davidson.

Within a few minutes of the class I have to pee. The teacher has already told us that we can't leave the class. I start to squirm and a man asks me what the problem is. I say, utterly embarassed, that I have to pee. The man leaves and I sit there, trying to focus on the lesson.

The man comes back and says "You've got ten seconds. Hurry up." and I quickly thank him and rush off, searching for a bathroom. For some reason there aren't any 'male/female' signs on the doors, and when I figure that out, I go in and discover there are no stalls. More than one toilet, but no stalls. I find some people in them and, startled and embarassed, rush out.

I find a room with a single toilet and take care of business. I ended up leaving the room and trying to find my way back to the classroom, but before I could, I woke up.