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Lucidity: 3/10
Vividness: 2/10
Length: ~2 Min.

OK, I can't remember how I became lucid. But it could have been a WILD. I remember waking up somewhere around
3:00 AM, took a piss, and lied there for only a few minutes. Very tired and not thinking very much. And fell asleep.

Also note that I was barely lucid in this one, so some things I did I could have done a lot better.

The first thing that I could remember was that I was facing a door and the first thing that was on my mind when I saw this was "hey let's summon a dream character" so I walked up to the door and I tried like three times, the first time I think I didn't even think of a reason why Toph would be there. I did it twice, then I realized that I wasn't thinking why she would be there. So I thought "Toph is on the other side of this door because she wants to know if I have some hot coco" and when I opened, she was there. It was amazing, instead of asking her to come in I followed her (that goes to show how lucid I am).

When I followed her I saw a queen sized bed to my left and in
front of it was a box of coco beans. And in front of the coco beans was a sleeping bag, the next time I saw Toph
her appearance changed. She had an almost bald head with a pale white face, so I closed my eyes and said
"when I open my eyes you will look more like Toph" or something like that, so I visualized what Toph would look
like and it was a lot more easier to imagine her in the dream than it was in real life, and when I opened my eyes.
She looked more like Toph, but not completely. Her hair changed and her face looked like hers, but she wasn't
as cartoon looking like in the show, but I didn't care. I took the coco beans and ate one and said "when I eat this
coco bean my dick will get larger" but it didn't do anything, I didn't even have an erection. But instead of trying
again I saw my brother and I said "Cameron I can't believe I'm dreaming" with a smile on my face. He didn't
respond and I went back to Toph. When I looked at her she was on the sleeping bag and some guy put his foot on
her and made her shrink half of the size she was, instead of making her go back to normal size, I picked up a coco
bean and said "when I eat this coco bean, I will become smaller" and I got smaller when I ate it. But not as small,
so I got another coco bean and tried it again. This time I said "when I eat this coco bean I will become as small as
Toph" and I did, so I went over there and I tried to take off her clothes. I was able to get her shirt off and she had
no boobs or nipples, she was also really bony. But I didn't even care, but right after that the dream changed. I think I might have been lucid for a few seconds but not for very long. The dream was only about a minute long and
when I woke up I sat there for a few minutes and I found out that I had a lucid dream, I will never forget this
experience of being in my mind. Thank god for this site and everyone who puts tutorials on it, without them. I'd be
going at a slower rate. The End

Type: regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

I was lying in bed, waiting for sleep paralysis to thrust me into a dream (even though I was already in a non-lucid dream!). I was able to curl my hands up into fists and wiggle my toes, which struck me as being slightly odd, but only in an interesting way and nothing else.

Even though my eyes were closed, I could see through them. I also had a second pair of eyes looking down on myself from above, near the ceiling.

I then heard a woman's voice begin to narrate, almost as if it was telling me what to expect in sleep paralysis. It was a slightly kind voice, as if in a commentary. It began by saying, "in sleep paralysis, remember that nothing is real. Everything is in your mind". The voice continued describing sensations as they happened. The last thing that happened was the covers at my feet being pulled away, and then the voice said, "you may also get the sensation that there's the shadow of something looming over you." At the same time, I actually got that sensation down by my feet.

I then found myself back in bed with no feelings of sleep paralysis anymore. My arms were also both at my sides again, and not under my pillow. I slowly got up, did the digital clock RC with my alarm clock, and it was negative: no dream. I did it a few times just to make sure, and also performed the nose-plug RC, but still no dream.

I used my normal routine last night, really hoping to become Lucid. Alas, no luck.

However, I stumbled across something. I created a 30 minute Isochronic beat track mixed with Pink noise. I started at waking frequency, and descended slowly to NREM frequency with a long stop at the REM frequency. The pink noise in the backround caused a beating sound similar to that of a helicopter, but softer. The purpose of this track was to put me to sleep in 30 minutes. But something amazing happened....

As I was listening, I found these "whooshing" sounds to be fascinating. I concentrated on them.

What I found was that I almost succeeded in WILDing!

As the frequency descended, I found myself in that state where you are on the brink of sleep, and your subconscious mind starts strange threads that make it up to your conscious mind. I think this is called "Transition". They seem strange, which caused me to recognize that I was beginning to dream. I could not fixate on that and turn it into a WILD, but I'm new at this, and feel that in the future, I certainly could.

I can't wait to try it again tonight! If anyone is interested, let me know, and I will post it. I would be curious to see if anyone gets the same results.

Non dream|nonlucid|lucid

It's just barely my birthday. I decided to take a short nap.

I lay for a while, body starts twitching, vibrating all over. I start seeing random partial scenes, still unsure as to whether I'm 'far enough in yet' to start building. I try, just a little, to move my body. I'm in SP. Feel like my fingers weigh a ton. Okay, I think, so I'm good to go. I stare into the darkness. Ask myself what I should be doing. Show me something useful. Remind me what to do. Ah! A lightbulb comes over my head. I've never flown. I guess I'll try it. I'm not sure what else to do with myself. I've tried 'flying' before but I just ended up jumping really high, wasn't trying hard enough. Well, here goes. I stand straight and insist that I'm 'like a bullet fired up from the ground'.

Well, I flew alright- STRAIGHT UPWARD. I start SHOOTING into space, weaving between asteroids and past planets. I see Jupiter and Saturn go by. I start going faster and faster, and I'm starting to freak out because the speed is causing 'wind resistance' as I cut through friggen space, and the roaring of it is making my ears hurt really bad. (Wtf.) I say to myself hey, it doesn't matter. It's just a dream. It's not like my ears 'actually hurt'. I try to ignore it. The pain just ramps up.

I feel my head start lolling to the side, sliding down the pillow.

The pain has gotten intolerable. I sigh and stop, floating in space. The ROARing in my ears still continues like I've got the meanest invisible earbuds playing static on max volume. It's like some kind of glitch is happening and I'm still 'hearing wind resistance' even though I'm stationary- and what's worse, it's *in* my ears, not coming from somewhere else.

I feel my hand now also begin to slide off the couch. My body begins to follow it, slowly rolling down onto the floor.

I try to do my usual 'hand crank in the air to turn down the volume'. The volume won't go down. I begin to wonder if something in WL is causing this. The pain doesn't stop. I start to lose my concentration. I feel my center of gravity get all jacked up, like my body is being flipped over.

I hear the halfglass of water and box of tissues get knocked off the foot of the couch by my feet as I roll over and fall, on my back, onto the floor. I lay there for a while, completely still, wondering if I can just keep dreaming regardless. I keep my eyes closed and focus on the planets I'd just seen move by. No dice. I open my eyes and start trying to move, but I'm still coming out of sleep paralysis. (For me, trying to move during sleep paralysis feels BADONG and uncomfortable- like a turd going back up your ass when you're trying to pinch one off.) I lay there for a while with my eyes barely open, unmoving. I look over and see that I've somehow overturned the couch while falling. Sigh.

I wrench myself out of it and get up, to set the couch back upright again. I start clearing the table and cleaning the house like I should've been in the first place. I am grouchy now. The couch is heavier than I expected, I start putting all my weight into shoving it. HRRGHHH

Realize the 'HURGH' discomfort is coming from my body, still in SP, still trying to move. I see the livingroom light behind my eyelids now. I'm awake. I lay there for a while to make sure I'm out of it before I start moving. I get up. DRAT.

NOTES: In the FA, there were several things that should have indicated it wasn't WL, that I failed to notice: 1. I was in my exboyfriend's flannel robe. I went to sleep in a pair of shorts. 2. THE COUCH WAS SIDEWAYS. No matter how hard a 125lb person 'falls off' a 6foot couch, the couch does *not* 'flip over' from the sheer force of them falling off while sleeping. Wtf. 3. I ONLY 'fall off the bed' during FA's! I've only fallen off the bed 'for real' ONE TIME when I was a kid. How would I be 'sliding off the 'bed' during SP?! Derp. 4. The livingroom light was off, and the lamp was on- so it was dark. In WL I'd left all the lights on.

Okay, so I had one major goal last night, and that was finding my friend M. He complained that he has been having nightmares. I told him that he needed to focus on the Koi Pond in the bio-dome on the moon and that I would try to meet him there.


Finding M
I focused on the bio-dome. More importantly I focused on the Koi Pond. I was trying to find M. I could feel the dream fading. I focused it by rubbing my hands together. It helped. I walked over to the bench and sat down. I figured it might take M a while to get there as it was his first attempt at reaching the moon. It didn't even occur to me that I should go find him. I had confidence in his ability to get here.

I suddenly felt a presence standing over me. It was somewhat eerie and I stood and turned around. Standing there was M. I gave him a hug and told him we would see about his nightmare problem. He hugged me tightly saying it was good to see me again. I grab his hand and am getting ready to teleport us to his world when everything fades to black, and I don't mean the dream was lost. I mean there is a big black hole where the rest of it is supposed to be. It's not even a dream recall issue as I can usually recall small vibrations of the dream. Now, there is nothing. Not even a hint as to what happened. All I know is somewhere I lost him and my lucidity, but retained my goal. It is in the next segment.

Into the Old Life....
I am driving my dad's truck. We are in a parking lot. It is overly bright and I slide my sunglasses on. I am steering around other cars that are parked, and even being worked on. I narrowly avoid missing hitting someone that stepped right out in front of me. I cursed at the idiot that must have been trying to kill themselves. I finally make it home.

I then am riding my bike to school. It is high school and is like I have gone back in time. I don't think anything of this, but I just keep going on my way. There is construction all around town. I get to school, which is more of a warehouse. One of my teachers, Ms. S, is looking at soda. It is a big shipment. Several of us are joking around when someone hands out some fliers about going to Rwanda. I feel that there is something I need to be doing. I suddenly want to find my friend M. For some strange reason I feel he is in Rwanda. I volunteer to go. The flier updates itself and now reads that 25 people have signed up. I am getting my gear together when I hear my dad say... "Its time to get up."

I guess I will have to try and find him again tonight!

Note: These were just fuzzy dreams, I failed to write them down because they were so small. I am not sure what day I had these on, I'm not sure if those are even in the dates up above.

-WILD Camp-
I had this fuzzy clip I remembered after a day or two, which seemed to be a dream. I was in this room with a ton of DreamViews members, or so it seemed. Most of the people seemed unfamiliar. There was a bed in my line of vision. Someone was laying down on it, like attempting to WILD I'm guessing. Someone was bending over them; either whispering to them or examining them. The room was a little dim. A saw a few more beds behind the first one, but they were blurry.

-Dream FILDing-
I saw this image in my head a few hours later after waking up. It was like I was walking past a guy lying on his stomach in his bed. He had his right hand under his pillow, and it looked like it had made a small cave under it. He apparently was FILDing.

03.07.2010

July Double ToTM Completion (DEILD)

★★★☆☆

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Keeping still, I perform another WILD. . .

Success!

Without hesitation, I get out of bed and make my way outside. Oddly, there seems to be three doors hinged to my front doorway. Opening all of them, I'm greeted by a shining sun and people all about my court. I pass one guy with a shaved head and notice an orange armband.

"Humans vs. Zombies?" I ask him. He responds by putting his finger to his mouth and shushing me as he runs behind my house to hide. "Weirdo." I mutter when he's out of earshot. There are a bunch of other players scattered about my neighborhood including some of my friends, but I figured HvZ could wait a bit, I had some tasks to carry out.

Deciding to clone myself first, I walk to the middle of my court, do some random hand signs, and shout "Tajuu--Kage Bunshin no Jutsu!" I hear the familiar popping noise around me as hundreds of clones are created in a puff of grey smoke. I take a look at them, and sure enough, they're me. However, they're all wearing the same ugly orange blazer and a dirty green headband. Great. I've created a mass of egotistical, fashion-challenged, zombies. Might as well have some fun with them.

Using my mind and a tad of willpower, I force all of them to attack me at once. As they converge I punch the first to reach me in the face, while roundhouse kicking the clone on my other side. I use the the momentum I generate with that to drop to the ground and knock a few clones down by sweeping out their footing. "You're still a Zed now," one of the clones remarked.

"Crap! You're right!" I exclaim, beaten at my own game. Well, then this next bit is for the horde! I think excitedly, willing my hundreds of clones to disperse and tag all the remaining humans. The game was over in less than a minute, which left me time enough to do the basic task as well.

Digging into my pocket, I find my wallet, my car keys, and--there it is--my cell phone. Pulling it out, I open it up and hit send twice. The creepy phone lady informs me that this is not a phone number I'm calling, but some kind of app center. I end the call, and hit send again, scrolling through the list of available names. I notice one contact called 'a human' so I figured I'd go for that one. The phone rings a few times before someone picks up.

"Hello?" a muffled voice on the other end asks.

"Hi! Who is this?"

"It's me, RTN."

"Oh, didn't I see you playing in the game?"

"Yeah, I'm right over here, dummy."

Looking over to the main street I see RTN on his cell phone, accompanied by his girlfriend DTZ. I close my phone and wave over to him, but he's still upset by the shenanigans I had just pulled.

Entry from 4/30:

No recall today. Though it had something to do with family guy.

EDIT:might try a WILD tonight. Wish me luck!

It all started last night as I lay in bed with my mind wandering like a tumbleweed through an old ghost town. After a while I start focusing my mind into a point while relaxing my face, my jaw and the rest of my body.
I start sinking into deeper levels of relaxation. I become aware that I am in a hypnogogic state when I notice I am watching a pickup truck driving down a driveway, kicking up dust. So I focus on my dream task, which is to dreamshare with CNDR.

I am on the verge of WILDing and I sense many possible dreams to step into all swirling around me. I am invoking CNDR's energy and feeling for it. Then I see glimpses of her: her arm, her hair, her silhouette against the moonlight coming through the window. I smell her and her hair. I hear her saying "Is it working?" or "It is working!" Or something very similar. Keep in mind I am not in the dream, but trying to completely fall asleep and enter the dream. But my monkey-mind starts getting excited and I try to calm it but the swirling wheel of dreams recedes a little. I can no longer see or hear or smell my dreams but I can still feel CNDR with my feeling sense. But eventually my mind comes back and starts wandering as the dreamtime slips away.

Organic Mechanic
I go hang out with a musician friend of mine (Greg) and a friend of his at a hotel lobby. Greg's friend wants us to stay and watch Emerson, Lake, and Palmer play a show. I don't think that I will stay, it costs to much and I am not a fan. But Palmer is a good drummer.
I notice that Greg's friend is vacuuming my car. He is vacuuming pieces of broken glass and I notice my windshield has a hole in it. Damn! He tells me he saw some shady guy break into it. I take the car to an auto body shop and ask them how much it will cost to fix it.
Mechanic: "What happened here?"
ME: "Some asshole broke my windshield"
Mechanic: "Don't worry about it. We'll take care of it. There's no charge"
They started working on my car. Hey that is very nice of them to fix my windshield for free! I am going to recommend this place to my friends. But how can they afford to fix it for free. Surely they will have to charge me for at least the cost of the new windshield. I get the bill back and it is $500! I start talking to the guy and he says:
Mechanic: "This is how much it would have cost if I had charged you. This is for my hourly rate, as well as the hourly rate of the guy who made the windshield and the guy who delivered the windshield and the guy who made the glass for the windshield. You see, when you pay for something you pay for everybody who had anything to do with it, and they are all taking advantage of you because they are motivated by profit. But if they all realized like me that there is no such thing as money, the world would be a great place."
Me: "Hey, thank you! I will definitely recommend you to my friends"
Mechanic: "I am the Organic Mechanic

KAUA'I DREAMING

I am in Kaua'i swimming in the ocean! The beautiful tropical sun is tanning my body and the sea breeze is filling my lungs. I hear the sounds of surf and the smell of coconut and guava. The white sand beaches are brightly reflecting the sun. I am kayaking around the island with Kayak Kaua'i (In Waking Life I used to Work for Kayak Kauai). We are out on the part of the ocean that goes around the corner of the Kalalau valley into the Polihale.

Kalalau:


Polihale:


The current is strong here and the fish are gathering. I become lucid. The owner's son, who is one of the guys with us, is a real asshole, and has always been an asshole to me just because he thinks he is the shit because his Dad owns Kayak Kauai. So I summon a shark to get him. A shark comes and heads for his kayak. He starts screaming and I am laughing. But then I remember to love my DCs so I decide to turn the shark into a dolphin. Now we have dolphins all around our kayaks out there in the ocean. But I am feeling a little mischevious so I turn the dolphin back into a shark and the guy freaks out agian. Then I cahnge it back into a dolphin and the guy relaxes. But he had lost his oar! He couldn't paddle his kayak and he starts drifting out on the riptide. I throw him my oar and I use mind power to power my kayak. It is like a motorboat or a jet ski, but all mind power! I get very involved with flying through the ocean on my kayak with the dolphins all jumping and spinning and racing me! I love dreaming!

Pickle Frog Song

A little while later, I am back on land in some Hawaiian town hanging out on the lawn in front of some grocery store. This is not lucid. There is a little boy singing a song and picking his nose. The song goes:
"Pickle Packle Peek-a-boo, Pickle Packle Peek-a-boo"
but maybe it sounds more like "Picko Packo Pee-a-Boo"
I really like the song. CNDR comes up and I say "He is singing about his pet frog!" And CNDR starts laughing and we are both laughing joyously. The kid is very cute, picking his nose while he sings. His sister comes up and they both are chanting "Pickle Packle Peek-a-boo"
CNDR and I go into the store to buy some pickles but the owner tells us that they are all sold out since those kids started singing that song.

Note: I have been having absolutely no luck with my WILD's lately. Mzzkc gave me a few pointers on how to improve my chances for a WILD… and I used that advice last night. I was successful in having a WILD! My goals included contacting L to see if there is a way to get him to back off and leave Asuka alone (), figure out how to dilate time (), have a shared DDO dream with Tigress (), open that locked book ()… I got so much done today! I am very pleased with that. I used my light / sound machine and for the first time in a long time I successfully slipped into a WILD…

I was in MoSh's inner world, and I was lucid. I looked around. I was in the living room of MoSh's new house. MoSh and Asuka were sitting there on the couch. There were glowing white crystals, gems, jewelry, and other such objects positioned all over the room. The room had a bright white glow due to the energy being emitted from the various gems and crystals. Asuka was staying right next to MoSh. MoSh said Asuka still seemed to be not well. I looked at all the light energy around us. I wondered how Asuka could not be feeling well… I thought maybe she could be getting too much light energy, it seems like too much of anything can end up being a bad thing… my goal here should be to balance Asuka's energy out. I focused a healing spell on Asuka, focusing on bringing balance to her energy. Not necessarily on adding still more light energy, but restoring balance. The energy that flowed through Asuka was still golden energy, and that energy felt very relaxing and stabilizing. After the song was done, I gathered up some of the light energy sources and placed it in an interdimensional pocket so Q could put them where they belonged. I left a couple of white shards there with Asuka and MoSh.

Ok… time for the next goal. I told MoSh I would open the portal to get to L's inner world. MoSh followed me through. On the other side we were standing near the pool and house that I have come to recognize as L's inner world. There were bimbos in the pool again… apparently L had not spared any time in getting his bimbo DCs back after Walms had torn them to pieces. L looked over at us when we entered. He didn't look pleased. He came over to us and asked what we were there for this time. MoSh said he was there to tell L to leave Asuka alone. L got right in MoSh's face. He said MoSh should make him. He then immediately said that there was nothing MoSh could do to stop him. He said Asuka was his, the only thing left to happen was to claim her. He laughed. MoSh told me that I should try to find him a girlfriend. I wondered if such a woman even existed. I focused on opening a portal… focused on finding a woman who would actually be willing to put up with L. Now that portal was not quick to form. I focused for a bit longer, got somewhat of a headache, but then a portal opened. MoSh and I went through…

On the other side MoSh and I were in what looked like a luxury resort. There were both men and women all around, talking, drinking various drinks, eating, etc. I wondered if there was a woman there who would want to meet L. I focused on finding the person who had led me there. I got a feeling of where to go. I followed that feeling and found a woman who looked similar to Asuka, although they clearly are not the same person. She was wearing a really pretty kimono and was sitting at a table with a man… um… wouldn't it be better if the woman were single? I was still watching when the woman stood up, threw her drink all over the man, said she should have known he had an ulterior motive for wanting to meet with her… after all, the only time he ever wanted to meet with her was if he wanted something… and then stormed away from him in our direction. She stopped when she saw we were looking at her. She asked what we were looking at. Not knowing what else to say, I asked if she was ok after that incident. She said yes, she was, that was just her freeloading brother trying to get money off of her again. She started to walk away, and I stopped her.

I said there was something I wanted to ask her. She looked and asked what it was. I found I couldn't make myself say any more. MoSh said there was a guy looking to meet a woman like her… she asked if this man was a mooch like her brother. MoSh hesitated and then said no. MoSh said not all men are mooches, and I think he was going to say something else, but the woman interrupted and said yes, she knows that, it's only the ones that come around her, she was sure most men were fine. She said she was looking to meet someone, so sure she would meet with our friend. She stood there while I was still hesitant. It felt like I was setting this woman up to be executed or something… it didn't feel right to me at all. The woman got a bit impatient and asked where this friend was. She said she would make no guarantees that she would like this man, but she would actually have to meet him first. I stood there a bit longer until MoSh finally elbowed me in the arm. MoSh said to open a portal. I focused on opening a portal back to L's inner world, and it opened. The woman looked at the portal with an excited look on her face.

"You mean this friend of yours is extradimensional?" she asked, "I have always wanted to see other worlds!" She went through the portal before either MoSh or I could get to it. We followed her right away, and the portal closed behind us.

We were back at L's pool, next to the house. The woman looked around, surveying the pool and the assortment of bimbos swimming in it. She commented that the pool was contaminated… someone should clean it out. She waved her hand and all of the DC bimbos vanished. She said those weren't even real… they were just illusions. She asked where the man was that she had come to meet. L was staring at his pool where the DC's had just disappeared. He seemed a bit perplexed. MoSh called his name, causing L to turn towards us and he saw there were now three of us. He came over and looked at the woman, then commented that she wasn't his Asuka. The woman said no, her name wasn't Asuka, her name was Kanmuri. L didn't seem to be paying any more attention to Kanmuri. He looked back at MoSh and me. He said MoSh could bring all the women he wanted, that would never change the fact Asuka wants to be with him. I told him Asuka does NOT want to be with him, but that doesn't mean there aren't women who do. L looked at me, eyeing me very closely. He asked if I was by chance referring to me wanting to be with him… I thought I might be sick when he said that.

Kanmuri apparently was getting a bit bored of being ignored. She said while we all worked things out, she was going to take a look around. She went over to the pool and put one hand in the water, then she splashed some water on her face. She went over to the patio where there was a table full of refreshments. She tasted a couple of things she found there and seemed pleased with what she had found. She picked up what looked like a margarita and started sipping it. She also seemed pleased with that. She went into the house, apparently inviting herself to take a look around, and L either didn't care or he didn't even notice. He was still looking at me. He said if I really wanted him to leave Asuka alone, I would volunteer to spend some time with him. Um… yuck… gross… I have absolutely no interest in L… L got closer to MoSh and said something… I didn't hear all of it, but it had something to do with me having sex with him and leaving Asuka alone… He moved away from MoSh and said to MoSh that if his friend (me) would be a bit more cooperative… he got closer to me and tried to cop a feel! He placed one hand on my breast! My reaction was rather instant… I grabbed his wrist and flipped him over onto the ground, pinning him there with my foot on his neck. He seemed quite surprised at the speed of my response.

"Hey, L!" Kanmuri said as she came out of the house. She was now wearing a shiny necklace and matching earrings that looked like they were worth a fortune. "L, I found these in your house, and thought I'd try them on. What do you think? I like them. You've got a great place here. A woman could… um… did you bring me here to meet someone and now you're going to turn around and kill him?"

"No," I said, "I am not interested in killing him. He put his hands where they don't belong." I removed my foot and let L up. L gave me a dirty look. Kanmuri was interested in getting L's attention back on her. She went over to him and was clearly flirting. She asked again what he thought of the jewelry she was wearing. She said she had found it in the house, which she would say again that L has a very nice place. L said that it was as simple as that. If MoSh wanted him to leave Asuka alone then MoSh would have to convince me to make love to him, wild passionate love. I thought I might actually throw up. Kanmuri said if L was looking for a lover, she… L interrupted and said he would have Asuka, and bringing random women around wouldn't work. He stormed into the house and slammed the door behind him.

I looked at Kanmuri, not sure what to say. I said I would open a portal to send her home. She immediately refused. She said no way, she was going to stick around here for a while. The fact that L was hung up on a woman he couldn't have didn't deter her. She said it was just a matter of time before he realized that the woman right here in front of him is worth a dozen women he could never hope to have. She winked at us. Her clothes transformed into a bikini, and she went to the pool and dived in. She was underwater for a bit before she surfaced, then swam to the other side. She seemed to be enjoying herself. Well, there was nothing more to be done there… so I figured to open a portal to get MoSh and myself back to my inner world… where he said he would take a look at the locked book from the Akashic records to see if he could help me get it open… (Continued in next entry…)

As promised.

BONUS ENTRY OF DOOM!™

??.??.2010

Shadow Monster: Origins (WILD)

★★★★☆

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID







There's that familiar transition.

I open my eyes. Cold white light is streaming in from my bedroom window, as the thin brown curtains fail to do their job. Lifting myself out of bed, I notice something odd on the ceiling. The shadows on the dirty eggshell-colored drywall. . . They're moving! At that revelation, the shadows--an Aztec-esque shaman and a blocky curled snaked--broke themselves off from the wall, joined together into one formless mass, and shot out into the hallway.

Weird.

Making my way through the house, toward the front door, I wonder what that was all about. Closing my hand around the gold painted doorknob, I open the large metal door before me, revealing my sun-soaked court. But something is off with the lighting. Everything seems. . . lifeless. It's as if all warmth had left my neighborhood long ago. I didn't know what to make of it.

Lifting myself off the ground, I fly to the center of my court, contemplating what I want to accomplish. With no goals lined up, I figure I'll just try to crash someone's dream world. That's when I hear it. A visceral scream tears through my court, originating from a neighbor's house across the ways. Turning my head, I look just in time to see the woman who had screamed smash against her front window. As she drops out of sight, I know behind that blood drenched glass lurks the Monster from before.

Reaching out with my TK, I try to pull it from the house, but I can't get a lock. Yet, despite my failure, the Shadow Monster doesn't take long to exit the house of its own accord. Smoothly flowing through the air above me, it pay me no mind as it makes its way back toward my residence. Like hell I'm letting that slide. Let's see how this thing likes a little bit of pure energy blasted through its core.

Taking a stance, I position my hands by my side, preparing to let loose a Kamehameha Wave. Not wanting to tip it off, I say the chant internally, feeling the charge building between my hands. Unfortunately, when I go to release it all in a throat wrenching shout, nothing happens. The Shadow Monster stops dead in its tracks, and speedily reverses direction, darting straight at me. Fully enveloping me in darkness, I realize there's nothing I can do to this. . . thing. Panic washes over me, but before everything fades to black I let loose a piercing cry for assistance that echoes not just through my city, but around the world and, I can't help but think, beyond.

No one came to my aid.

My recall is only beginning to rebound, so I still have very little. I do remember, however, trying each time I woke up in the night to slip straight back into the dreams. Now, either I nearly managed to WILD or I dreamt I did. Either way, the experience felt first as if I way lying in bed, disappointed that nothing was happening. I then felt a strange sensation all over my body in a way that I can’t remember well enough to explain. It was just as it has been in the past, except this time I recognized what it was and didn’t get as frightened. I then heard a voice, what to me sounded like my fiancée, who sleeps in the same bed I do. She was crying out or something, I’m not sure if it was in pain anymore, but it may have been. The noise kept repeating for a few moments, and then I felt sure that I must have been dreaming by then. I “rolled” up and into my room, intending to do a RC but not managing to. I was definitely dreaming at this point, but unfortunately I was concerned about the voice I had heard and immediately asked dream fiancée about it. She told me she had been talking in her sleep and that she was fine. It’s possible that I even told her that I was dreaming then, but I can’t remember for sure.
I remember only one other dream, which is even now, twenty minutes later, is heavily fragmented. It had something to do with a baby that was wandering around. I somehow helped him by holding him up to an ATM or something.

22.06.2010

Dark Overtones (WILD)

★★★★☆

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The ringing and spinning cease.

I RC just to confirm it. Yeah, I'm dreaming. My room is about as messy as it is IWL. Why is everything so freaking dark? I slide out of bed, not really caring if I step on anything. As I do, I spot a dark shadow shoot across the corner of my eye. Goddammit, I think as I hurry downstairs, this isn't what I wanted to deal with. Luckily, whatever that was doesn't follow me. Unluckily, there are more in the house.

That fucking Shadow Monster has probably been having his way with this place since the last time I was here. . . Sure enough, as I exit my house and fly into my court, I am met with a disturbing sight. A heavy darkness fills the air, as I look upon that nightmarish sky. I cannot properly describe the hellish glow emanating from parts of the smooth, gigantic, wispy black cloud that covers the entire sky. It is almost as if the atmosphere is in a slow burn.

Flying to the center of my court, I start to freak out. She's got to check this out. There's no way this is normal. I call for Raven,but realize she's still awake at this hour. It is then I become aware of a presence behind me. I draw my blade, and flip around, but whatever it was follows my movements perfectly and remains behind me. I turn around, faster this time. Still no luck.

While I can't see whatever it is directly, I do manage to switch perspectives, and am now viewing the shadows on the ground. The thing behind me was clearly a human female, but gender doesn't mean anything to me. I calm myself, center my focus, and relax the tension in my muscles. Then, I close my dream eyes, still remaining watchful of the shadows on the asphalt below.

She hesitates for a moment, obviously surprised by the sudden change in my emotional state, but that only lasts a moment before she lunges for me in an animalistic fashion. Without turning, I bring my sword up over my body, twist over backwards, and with one hand thrust it into her, all faster than the human eye can see. Her primal cry echoes across the neighborhood.

From there, the dream progresses in an odd fashion. I find that the woman I had just injured has only come to see what kind of warrior I am. To some capacity, she claims to be real, and says she was sent by friends. I spent a good deal of time after that trying to heal her up. I'm not skilled enough to close the wounds well enough with energy alone, so I just sew them up with TK and some special stitching material I materialize on the spot. I wake up soon afterwards.

I DID IT!! I finally was able to WILD from a fully awakened state!

I went to bed last night at about 11:30pm. Woke up (due to awesome dreams about being in love with this incredible girl) at 5:47am and decided to try a WBTB and WILD so I could visit that girl again. I stayed up for about 10 minutes, fully awake. I even splashed water on my face. But at the same time, I stayed away from things that would make falling back asleep a difficult thing to do (i.e. screens).

After that, I lay down on my back on the floor with a t-shirt wrapped around my eyes and ears to encompass myself in total blackness and silence. I was very alert at this point, and concentration was easy. I consciously relaxed everything, starting from my toes and moving up to my head, and then counted down from 10, telling myself that I would be very close to lucid dreaming by the time I hit 1.

It almost worked. I felt that beginning sensation of disconnection with the conscious mind, and knew I was close. But I still needed some help. So I visualized a hand reaching down out of the blackness and pulling at the center of my brain. That went far better than expected. Instantly, the hand drew back, but the difference was, now I was moving along with it! My eyes started to move rapidly; I was entering REM, the place of lucid dreaming. Unfortunately, my heart rate increased very dramatically at the shocking success of the visualization, and it was like I fell from the height the hand was holding me back into my real body, and my eyes stopped moving so fast.

I tried to just go back through everything again right there, but somehow I just couldn't. The hand wouldn't pull me back with it anymore, my eyes would never move very fast...I didn't even see HI anymore.

So then I got up (or at least I attempted to; one of my legs had lost its circulation, so it was like rubber and I couldn't stand on it, so I had to pull myself into bed with just one usable leg ) and tried the same thing in my bed. By now it was 6:30. Time was running out. I thought the change of location might be enough to get me in. But after a couple minutes of no luck with that, I just thought: "How often do I fall asleep on my back? Almost never!" And then I just got into the most comfortable position I could, re-relaxed (which was a bit more difficult to concentrate on this time, but I did it) and then watched the oncoming HI and waited.

In a very short time, things started to shake, I felt myself slipping away, and next thing I knew...

I was sitting up in bed. I didn't really need to RC; I knew where I was. But I didn't want to take any chances, so I did a check and found myself to be dreaming. I jumped down from bed and started going around the room slowly. I felt the walls, I looked out the window, I looked down and could see myself standing there...it was all incredibly realistic. I ran all over the house, then calling out for this girl, hoping to find her around a corner. But I never did.

BLACKNESS!

I was back in bed, wondering if I had woken up. Did a reality check, and tested to still be dreaming. This time I flew outside, doing a corkscrew simply to see if the dream world would continue to function realistically if I were upside down. To my amazement, it did. Once outside, and with my orientation corrected, I hovered in the air, looking around me. I laughed with pleasure when I saw how realistic everything was...there was even a road construction crew out in the distance, just like in real life. I was going to fly off to the girl's house, then, but...

BLACKNESS!

I was back in bed, and wanted to get back to work, so I did an RC as I threw myself over the edge of the bed and on to the floor. I remember thinking: "The people on DV are going to have a fit when I tell them my reality check was throwing myself on the floor to see if I fell through!" I did fall through, however, and attempted to teleport as my body passed through.

Where I ended up was not at all what I had intended. It was some kind of restaurant with old-looking wooden rooms. Many of my friends were there, and even some family members. One of them was asking me to go fill up three drinks. For some reason, this temporarily caused me to lose lucidity. I tried to get the drinks for them, but the soda fountain was made from obsolete equipment, the cups were difficult to find, and the method of payment was so strange I never did figure it out. It was something like this: you'd put a couple coins into a slot on the desk, and then there was this tube with rings around it. You'd slide all the tubes to the right to correspond with how much money you paid, even though it wasn't sufficient to cover the cost of the drinks. Everyone around me said that was all I had to do; they never compensated for the extra cost. I got annoyed with them for not understanding my point that it was a bad system, and for their annoyance with me for not being able to figure it out.

BLACKNESS!

Back in bed, lucid once again. Threw myself on the ground as a reality check. This time I ended up teleporting to some farm where two pirates were standing in front of me. They were threatening in graphic terms to tear me apart and kill me. I just smiled at them the whole time, and then used descriptive commands to transform them into girls about my age. "Shorter. Skinnier. A bit younger." With each command, they would automatically be transformed. (This is, by the way, a method of dream control I've used ever since I was 4, when I had my first lucid dream) It took a couple minutes to get them both looking right, but the results looked like they'd be good.

BLACKNESS!

Now I was getting a bit ticked off at my frequent blackouts and false awakenings. I did one solid reality check and then tried once again to stop all the nonsense and find the girl I'd come into the dream to find. I looked all over the house, tried to call her on a phone, but I just couldn't get her to show up anywhere! So again, I tried teleporting.

This time was very different, though. Rather than be presented with a new, weird location, all I saw in front of me was a panel of buttons. There was one for each location I'd been so far. I pushed the button for the farm and was dropped there immediately. The pirates were still girls, now also in normal clothes instead of the pirate stuff they had had before. And for some reason, one of them had aged about ten years, while the other remained exactly the same. I invited them to come to the restaurant with me. I'm not sure why, but I just had this feeling that they'd help me find this girl that I was looking for.

"No thanks." The younger one said. "I kind of like it here. So peaceful and quiet. Especially at the lake! I think I'll go there right now. See you later!"

The older one was fine with coming, though. "Good enough," I thought. I put a hand on her back and prepared to teleport...

BLACKNESS!

There was the restaurant...we were there.

BLACKNESS!

There was a static image of several dream characters.

BLACKNESS!

I was in bed, I did a reality check. I could still breath through my nose, but it was partially blocked now.

BLACKNESS!

Then I sat up in bed for real. It was 7:30am now...I'd been in a dream for nearly an hour.

The blackouts sure were annoying, but I'm really glad I've found a way that I can WILD from being fully awake! This could even work in the afternoons...which would be really awesome indeed! Then I'd have a couple chances for LDs every day!

I'd say WILD has now become my focus once again. Wish me luck! I'll keep you guys posted on what happens

From a Nap filled with 3 WILDs:

29.03.2010

March Basic ToTM Completion (DEILD)

★★☆☆☆

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Still holding onto my lucidity, I rack my brains trying to decide what to do next. With no goals in mind, I figure I'll just take a shot at one of the Tasks of the Month. What were they again? Oh yeah, "Taste the Rainbow." I look up, and sure enough, a dim rainbow stretched itself along the inside of the concrete archway above me. Flying up to the arch casually, I grab onto the rainbow, tearing a piece away. Surprisingly, it's somewhat elastic, just like a Fruit Roll Up.

Not wasting any time, I pop the piece into my mouth. Yuck! Indeed, it does have the texture of a Fruit Roll Up, yet it tastes like stale popcorn. Utterly disgusting. Slightly displeased, I drop back down to the ground. . .