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This was a particularly interesting WILD-like experience, I unfortunately can't recall as good as I'd like to.
It was in the middle of the night and I was hovering between sleep and being awake and remember being in a swimming bath, underwater within the dream. I was pretty conscious about what was happening at that time and I was switching back and forth between being awake and sleeping. I tried to consciously get back into the dream, with some small success, everytime after a few seconds I could feel being in the water and I could breathe through my pinched nose, but I just couldn't open my eyes, everytime I tried I went back to seeing my room and (as expected) I couldn't breathe during the RC.

At some point I obviously had my eyes open within the dream as I did see the swimming bath, and I know that my awareness was a lot lower that time, but I don't know if that was before or after this experience, or both.


I've been watching the once absolutely tight border between the state of being awake and sleeping constantly weakening the more I got involved with lucid dreaming, and with this I guess soon I really will be able to start WILDing on purpose.

I had 3 dreams I could remember. All are a bit fuzzy so lets start with the most rememberable and work are way down.

My memory starts with me in Europe on my way to a concert. I'm stepping into a van through the front passenger door and I look into the back of the van. Inside is a U shaped couch with a few people sitting about. I notice 3 people but I think there were 1 or 2 more. One of them offers me a "piece" and I gladly except thinking him for the generous gift. I take a hit and pass it on and take a seat in the back of this van. My already incontinent reasoning for this whole adventure practically crumbles at this point. Being high does that though. I break in time and I find myself talking to my friend James. I'm not sure if I have him on the phone or what but I'm trying to figure out were I am and were I'm going. That's about all I cant remember form this one. Not to interesting but I enjoyed it because for once there was some talking in my dream.

Next up I remember a fight. The moments leading up to it are a bit hard to remember. I think I was dreaming of Peter from the show Heroes. Then I was him. Then I guess I was me. Stuff like this happens in my dreams a lot. Anyway, Peter/Me is upset with this guy who is our friend. Who ever he is, he has a sort of criminal look to him and so does his fancy condo. We get into it and I end up stabbing him, lightly. Don't want to kill my friend but I need to make my point. After this I end up finding my self on the floor with a swift kick to my neck/back. I lay there knowing that for stabbing this guy I have let him kick my ass. It seems fair in my dream. This is when he pull out a gun. This is not good. He's angrier than I would like for him to be pointing a gun at me. He starts waving the gun at me. Going from my head to a limb. I close my eyes and bang. I don't know if I'm shot or not but I'm not dead. I curse like a mopho who thinks has been shot however. This just leaves my friend a little annoyed who then want me up and to stop my bitching. And that's were that one ends. Pretty fuzzy but it was cool to actually hurt my opponent, normally there just indestructible in my dreams. Though it was sort of Peter who did the stabbing, I kinda took control for the ass wooping.

Last up I had my first WILD
It started with me just thinking about walking. The idea just sorta was in my head at the time. I started to concentrate a little and try to imagine more of the experience. Sure enough, my limbs start to become visible, then surroundings start to form and then I was in my house. My dream wasn't stable at all though and it breaks down in only a few moments. Its a shame it ended as soon as it started but since I've done it once I'm sure I can do it again now.

By the way, I used the SSLID method for this night. http://www.dreamviews.com/f12/senses...-ssild-129734/

Tuesday 4/10/12 5/HTP 10:37pm Bed 11:30
WBTB 2:47 - 3:35 GM 4mg + Choline 3:14am
WILD
I'm in a classroom with my friends. It feels like end of school year, because we don't have classes, instead we are reading geography magazines. I borrow one from a classmate and lend my magazine to someone else. I remember pushing my head down over my desk and having headrush into lucid dream. The image is something unpleasant and I don't really want to enter this dream, but I know I can change it once I enter, so I say 'I am there'. I immediately touch corner of the white wall to stabilize. I shout, clap my hands, but I guess, it didn't help a lot, because the whole 7 min dream was low awareness.
I'm walking on a sidewalk with bunch of DCs. Some girl tells her hommies to grab me. They take me to their 'club house'. Rest is explicit. Quite vivid, not much awareness though. This dream makes me wonder, if some dreams are not just in my head but controlled by someone else who created that reality.

This is another dream from this morning, I may have woken up briefly, or falsely, then went back to dreaming.

In my dream before I thought I awoke, I was lucid, and this continued. I was able to summon a DC woman who was good looking and wished to have sex with me. We started and she took her shirt off, letting me caress her breasts.

Then I had another false awakening, but I knew I wasn't awake yet. So I repeated the process of summoning a good looking DC woman.

This time she had long black hair and very sexy looking, before it was a blond. She too, was willing and let me touch her breasts. As I did, she started sticking her fingers in my ears, and she had long fingernails. Sure she had her fingernails all done up nice with red polish, but they were scraping inside my ear. I had to grasp her wrists and tell her to stop. She was like but I have to do this, and I'm like, "but I don't like it, stop". I removed my hands to continue but she kept poking her fingernails at and around my ears. I figured this just isn't going to work out, so I just kind of willed her away. Then I woke up.

My first WILD this morning!

I slept about 5 hours, from 11 to 4 am. After I got up, I spent some time on DreamViews, especially studying Mzzkc's Comprehensive WILD Guide.

Around 6:15 I felt sleepy and decided to lay down and try what I'd learned.

I'm already well-practiced at the 61-point relaxation technique from extensive yoga nidra practice over the last several years. So I began with that, then chose my breath as a passive anchor. I just allowed myself to drift toward sleep. I stumbled a few times around the sleep paralysis stage but I tried to apply what I learned here.

After about 10 minutes, I found myself in a dream - and I knew I was dreaming!

There was no sense of excitement, and the dream was poor quality, it only lasted a few moments, and I had no control ... but it was definitely lucid.

I find myself looking at a wall of bookshelves, full of multi-colored books of many shapes and sizes. The book titles are blurry and out of focus.

I think "This dream is out of focus. I'd better put my glasses on."

I put my glasses on, and the books come - slowly - into focus. "How interesting!" I think. "These glasses work even in my dream!"

I remove the glasses and put them on again several times, just observing the interesting fact that they work in a dream.

Then the dream faded away and I emerged into semi-consciousness. I tried to re-enter the dream state several times but was not successful.

I woke up and went back to bed in an attempt to WILD.

I had trouble falling back asleep so I got out of bed and reality checked but no luck. I gave up and went back to bed and let my thoughts wonder and fell asleep. When I woke up, these people are around me and I'm in a hospital bed! They said I was better now and I could leave when I wanted to. I thought how long was I asleep? I looked at my clothes and they were rags. I looked like a hermit or poor helpless hobo. I walked out of the room and then I remembered I was going to bed before this and was wondering what was real and what was a dream. I decided to reality check. I looked around and everything was crystal clear, no flaws anywhere. My hands were fine. Signs didn't change when I looked away and looked again.

So I looked at a small clock on a reception desk in the hospital and reached out toward it and it started shaking. I stopped and saw two people staring at me, "how did you do that?" I ignored them and started lifting pencil cups, papers and other small things. I then reached for a bench and I couldn't lift it. I then focused on one of the two people and tried to lift them but couldn't. I can't figure out why this is. I reach for the pencil cup again and it floats flawlessly. I give up and run down the hospital hallways and come across a big open basketball court. I practice flying around in it and then leave the hospital.

I go out of the hospital and into these city streets and fly up above it and observe. I see this massive city and the site is awesome. I then get an idea and fly back down to the ground, get a car, and drive it and try to pull the steering wheel up and it starts flying! I am now flying a car around the city at incredible speeds. I crash land back in the city and go to a theater. There is nothing going on but there is a lot of people there. I find these punk rock college students and they invite me to hang out with them and I decide to go since I was tired of flying anyway.

We go back to a place that looks like the hospital I was in and we talk about stuff and I show off my telekenesis. Then I found a ball and I started throwing it at some of them and then curving it with my powers and then they caught on and we all started throwing it at each other but when someone threw it at me I would make it stop in front of me and they would get mad at me and we would laugh, reminded me of that movie Chronicle . Woke up shortly after.

2/28/2012

I had my second WILD this morning! I found myself in SP and remembered to slowly relax (because the more you relax, the more powerful the vibrational sensations become, so if I relax too quickly the sensations will wake me up). I could hear my mother turn the hairdryer on in the other room (in real life- confirmed) while in SP. Awesome. I sort of experimented with my facial muscles again (tried to close my jaw until my teeth touched which worked and tried to open my eyes wide which didn't) before deciding to close my eyes and slip into the "drawing board stage." I thought about which scene to create. Star Wars? Nah. Under the ocean? Another time. I had made my decision. Earlier in the night I had dreamt about wanting pancakes, so I tried to make an IHOP personal buffet scene. Weirdly enough, I found myself in a fancy restaurant with my parents. We were all seated at a table and had some sort of mini buffet set up for us. I first observed this bowl of what apparently was pancake-flavored gelatto. I looked around at the beautiful restaurant. I looked at the window at the other side of the room and there was a tropical blue-green ocean shore outside. After picking up a spoon and eating some of the tasty gelatto, I remembered something I've been wanting to try. I demanded out loud, "Clarity Now!" Suddenly, I felt an amazing wind-like sensation as the entire dreamscape around me turned sharp and vivid and colorful and life-like! Beforehand, everything was dull, unclear, fuzzy, and unstable. It worked. Unfortunately, these WILD's only last a few minute since they occur in the morning, and I woke up instantly as I heard my mother open the door. I suddenly opened my eyes and was laying in my bed, the absence of vibrations leaving me with a strange sensation. At first, I thought I might still be in SP, but quickly learned I was fully awake and could move. During the middle of SP I again had a hypnogogic hallucination that my father tried to wake me up and thought I was joking about being in SP.

3/27/2012

I just had my first successful WILD attempt!!! I discovered and learned so much. See, I woke up around 11:50 or 12 and I observed that I had the ability to slip into sleep paralysis (because of the vibrations). I gently slipped into the state and took myself out of it a few times to get ready I guess (kind of like dipping your toes into a pool before jumping in), and then bravely allowed myself to become paralyzed (after thinking I turned onto my back, when to my surprise I found myself in the same side position as when I originally woke up when I opened my eyes through the sleep paralysis). So, here I was, paralyzed. There was no turning back now. After a while, I was brave enough to be able to let go and relax myself deeper into the powerful vibrations of sleep paralysis. At one point, I began to panic, trying to move, but then I told myself in my mind, "Okay, you've read about this.. you need to relax, you're not in danger." Or something alike that. Luckily, I listened to my own advice and finally let myself slip all the way into complete relaxation. After a while, I began to visualize myself in a dreamscape room and before I knew it, the room and the objects I was visualizing became real. I could hear the sound of the doorhandle and felt it as I turned it (I could see it, but with a lack of vividness since I didn't get to submerge completely into the dream and make it stable). In the newfound lucid dream I spoke to myself, kind of narrating what I wanted to do and what I wanted to exist in the scene. I naturally slipped out of it and managed to re-create the scene again. See, what I learned, is that the SP state is actually like a drawing board for lucid dreams. Whatever you're thinking about or imagining, your brain begins to form into a dream. You go through this muscular atonia every night, except this time, YOU guide the creation of dreams instead of it happening by random. I discovered that once you fully relax past the powerful vibrational sensations of SP, those sensations become more gentle and relaxing, like a deep meditation. Thoughts drift, which is exactly what happened to me. I accidentally found myself thinking about Star Wars, and found myself in a brief non-lucid dreamscape about Second Life roleplay. I drifted out of it though. Overall, this experience has been mind-opening for me. It was INCREDIBLE. Time to make use of the SP I often get.

CRIPES!
Now I know what they mean by "you couldn't have a lucid and totally forget it if you don't keep a dream journal"!

I'm not sure if you'd call it a WILD or MILD, due to the ~20 minute gap between sleeping times, but when I did fall back asleep, it was like I was presented with some sort of messed-up (de-bug) version of the "Need for Speed II" track selection menu. The difference was that instead of "track 01", "track 02", and so on as one might expect (even though NFS2 doesn't have that in real life), instead it had "track 1a", "Track 2b", and so on.
bear with me, 'cause this is weird: to change to the normal tracks, you'd press up or down... which didn't exist because the visual was all that existed. I did anyways.
....okay.
But then by pressing right or left (again, how the heck was I doing that?), I could switch to tracks like 2a, 1c, 3a, 4e, etc.
I selected/loaded 2a (I think), which deposited me in a first-person shooter setting. I wandered around, knowing I was in a video game, and picked up a MASSIVE gun. Kind of like what Heavy uses in "Team Fortress II", but longer and more hi-tech. I hoisted it onto my shoulder and messed around with the keys (again, HOW the heck was I doing that?!?). After a minute of not figuring out what key to press to load it, I put it back down and wandered into a side room of the over-populated compound that was the setting.
Inside the room, there were maybe four or five people, and I went over and started to talk to the bored girl in the corner. She was... the girl from my previous dream!
Then I became (as I call it now) passively lucid. I was lucid, but I didn't start jumping around the place and freaking out.
To clarify, I had tried to WILD back into my previous dream by mentally repeating that I would "wake" back into the dream next to the girl so that I could punch the lights out of the hobo. Maybe that didn't happen, but I'm still happy to say that in a more MILD-ish sort of way, it worked.
Anyways, back to the dream.
As soon as I was lucid, I stopped having to control my dream-self by "pressing" the right "buttons", (thank goodness), and could function normally and fully.
I talked to the girl about nothing memorable, and I poked her on the nose. I didn't have to explain to her (but I'll explain to you) that it's a thing I do to close friends. Random quote that stuck with me: "You know, you would really be more fun to talk to if you were wearing clean underwear."
Okay, for one how did she know that? And for two, what the heck is that supposed to be? An awkward pickup line?
Anyways, after probably almost a half-hour, I got up and...
Crud. Gap in my dream recall.
Well, I do remember that I fought a little when the room got attacked, and when we moved to a different room (I was the last in) and I went to sit down by the girl and talk to her some more, there was her slightly possessive older brother there.
And... I woke up soon after.

BUT THE DEVIL HIMSELF CAN'T DENY THAT I WAS LUCID AND IT WAS CLEAR AS DAY WALKING AROUND THAT DREAM!!!

Friday, March 9, 2012
WBTB 5:54 - 6:27 GM4mg+300Choline
WILD
I'm looking at the inside of the bus. Lots of passengers, some are standing. One of them is Sean Connery. I say, OK, I could have this LD. I am there - and I'm standing on a busy street. Then my cat shifts position and wakes me up.

2/2/2012 GM 4mg + Choline at 5:55am
WBTB 5:40 - 6:20am
I had the intent to have a healing dream, or go to a healing place, or self-heal my aura.
WILD #11
I'm on a street next to a bombed out building in a war zone. I ran into a building and start running up the stairs, as I'm being chased. At the same time I start to recite the mantra to summon my aura. My eyes get covered by my hand. I can only see underneath my palm and some slivers of light through my fingers. I end up in a brightly lit room. I look around and I'm very surprised, that I don't see my aura. I'm worried my dream will end, so I quickly wish to be taken to a healing place. I find myself at the hospital reception and a nurse welcomes me.

1/25/2012 Wednesday

WBTB 4:54-5:35 GM 4+Choline 600 5:17am
WILD#9 I intended to have a healing dream
I'm in a hospital in Russia. A lady walks by me and she hides in the restroom. I read the signs on doors and walk into the restroom. I want to sleep, I turn off the radio, why am I so sleepy? The room has white shiny tiles. Nurse knockes on the door. I open the door and she asks me if I need help. I say no and she leaves. She knocks again, I tell her I don't need help, I'm just sleepy. This time she pushes her way inside. I collapse on the floor. Now my perspective changes and I'm looking at my naked body on the floor from 3rd person view. She is doing something to me. As I watch myself, I direct healing energy to my body.
WILD#10
I find myself in dark room. (I just read IWL how to see - look at details of hands). I bring my hands up and focus my attention on seeing them. They slowly start to show and also I start to see around me.
I enter through a door into someones appartment. Right behind the door is a table set for a meal with food on it. On the other site of the table stand M's grandparents. (Iknow one of them had passed away). They are not saying anything, but they are invitingly smiling. They are asking me to join them for a meal. I walk towards the door on the other side of the room. I walk by opened door to another room, I think it's the kitchen. Two young man are already eating at the table. I enter the room at the end. This room is qiet, little darker, like a room in summer with curtains drawn. It has lots of older, dark brown, shiny furniture and white laced doilies. I walk around the room, my hand tracing the edges of furniture pieces. They don't want me to be there, because there is lots of gold in there.
There is a door to the bathroom. As I walk to it, I imagine a beach on the other side. But as I walk to the bathroom, there is just dark. I look at my hands until I can see.
I wrote these in DJ, but when I woke up, it was not there.
ALL THIS BEFORE 8am.

Saturday 1/21/12

WBTB 8:10 - 8:30 am, GM4mg+Choline300mgs 8:27am

WILD#5
I have HH about standing next to window in kitchen in NZ. My dad stands next to me. We are looking at the street. I see neighbours house, trees in his yard. I ask my dad how long it has been raining, because there are not just puddles on the street, but there are water plants growing in them. Skies are beautifull dark, everything is briliantly colored and clean from rain. Then I see a deer on the street and I ask my dad 'is that a deer'. Then we are looking out the bedroom window. It had stopped raining, sun is out and everything is crisp and clean. I see the little park, path to the river and tennis courts to the right. I wish myself there by saying 'I ...am....there'. And I feel being moved and now I'm hovering higher than trees. I look at my hands, they look completely normal and I wake up.
WILD#6
Again, I have HH standing by the window in living room in NZ. I see a UFO that's made out of clouds coming from the direction of tennis courts. It is laud like an airplane and flys over the house. I yell 'UFO, to the bedroom window' while running there. I look out and the UFO is taking off higher into the clouds. As I follow it with my eyes, I see the big, pale moon in shape of Antarctica. I say 'I...am...there' and I start moving towards the moon. I also wish to experience my higher self and thinking of my body wakes me up.
WILD#7
I see some HH and I wish to be there. I land in middle of the street of hillside residential community. Houses are typical SoCal, nice teracotta colors, front yards with lawns and bunch of flowers, white picket fences. I look to my left in the direction of the street and in the distance is a mountain range. The tallest mountain is half bare rock, half evergreens. I see it in such an incredible detail, much more clear and detailed than waking life. There must be an airport nearby, because i see huge airliners banking above the street. It's so gorgeous.
WILD#8
I watch old fashioned TV and there is an astronaut in a single person rocket that's lifting off. I wish to be there and in an instant I'm the astronaut. Unfortunatelly, I wake up.
Last dream of the night -
my mom is changing bandages on head of my classmate RB. She says, she'll change mine next.

Thursday, 1/19/12
WBTB 9am-9:15am
WILD and long dream after WBTB, before 11am.
WILD#4
I keep saying ‚Awareness' and 'now I experience my higher self'. I ask healing energy of the universe to heal me.
I have headrush, going down, I keep saying 'to my higher self', when flight changes direction to upwards. It's a beautifull sunny day, I still fly up by buildings, don't want to enter, so avoid them in flight automatically. Land on a very long slope. Sunny, bright, crisp, vivid. Under the slope is some town, on top is a tennis court with some players. I ask either for higher self or healing, but I wake up.

So tonight was pretty interesting, first I became a TV character, then a model, and then I accidentally had my first WILD. I only wish I could remember more of the second dream, stupid false awakenings! And stupid me for not doing RCs!!

#1 - Possessing Penny [Non-Lucid]

I think there might have been a brief moment of lucidity in this one, but I'm going to list it as Non-Lucid because I'm not totally sure. It started out with me at a study group with Leonard and Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory and a couple random guys, we were individually doing these textbook assignments and obviously they were doing way better than me. I was embarrassed to be doing so badly so I put down my notepad and picked up my two (absolutely gigantic) binders and went to pick up a small pile of clothes I'd apparently brought with me as well, but I dropped them all because I was hurrying too much and ran out the front door (we were in some fancy house). Through the windows it had been nighttime outside, but on the outside it was daytime, and also I didn't notice this at the time but now that I think about it the second I got outside there was no sign of any house anywhere, we were by like my elementary school playground. Leonard followed me outside and at this point I became Penny! I was aware of the change, which I never am in normal dreams. Things got really vivid at this point, so I think I actually became lucid when I realized that was happening, but after that I went back to non-lucid but was still really excited about the transformation. Leonard started asking me what's wrong. He was crying and I started calling him Sheldon but I knew it was wrong, and then he corrected me saying it was Isaac. I gave him some excuse like I had a spirit trapped inside me or something, to get away with being Penny without having to know whatever she should know in that situation, and he asked me if I still knew that it was 1993, and I said yes, though I was still lying. (Also, 1993...?) I walked around people playing some sports and was just excited to be Penny, but after that I woke up.

#2 - You're My Angel [Non-Lucid]

I remember very little about this dream so it's basically a fragment, but only because of false awakenings. What I do remember is that I was some absolutely gorgeous and pretty tan woman, the way I thought of it at the time was I looked like a Victoria's Secret model. I was wearing some cute yellow bikini, and I was sitting at my computer warning people about the hacked DV. There was definitely more to it than that, but I had a false awakening where I wrote it down so I forgot some of the details, then ANOTHER false awakening where I wrote it down and forgot even more, so by the time I actually woke up that's all I had left.

#3 - Accidental First WILD [WILD]

I was lying in bed not really intending to fall back asleep after the last dream, so I stayed there awake for a bit but then I started to zone out and drift off a bit. Out of nowhere a dream scene formed around me almost instantaneously. There was a song playing somewhere in the background of my mind, and then I was in my parents' bedroom but there were a few tables set up by the bed that aren't normally there and some of my family members were walking around. Next to me were my cousins P and G, but they looked a few years younger than they are now. Everything was extremely vivid, basically indistinguishable from real life. I just thought to myself "Okay, this is interesting...." P and G were playing a game of Clue, I watched them for a minute and then P looked at me and said "Hey, how're you doing in the closet?" to which I responded "Good...?" I was a little caught off guard and didn't really try to stabilize or retain lucidity. I heard the song from the beginning start playing really loudly but still distantly again, and then the dream collapsed and I woke up into sleep paralysis. I didn't really realize what was going on though, I was hallucinating and my eyes were open so there was lots of confusing stimuli. I was getting a third-eye type visual of myself typing up the dream in my phone but I wasn't sure if I was actually doing it. Around my room I could see that my wall proportions were extremely distorted, the room looked almost triangular, and the light was quickly switching between nighttime and daytime. I could see one of my pillows hanging off the bed (which it actually wasn't) and it was covered in large piano keys. It was all incredibly weird, but then I woke up fully and realized I hadn't actually typed up the dream yet, so I got up and did that.

Hold on a sec.... If I had done a reality check when I was typing the dream in sleep paralysis, would I have been able to re-enter a lucid dream with my eyes open!?

But anyway, that's it for that night. Pretty interesting if I do say so myself, even if not incredibly detailed.