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4.15.14

Last night bed at 8:45 pm - 1:50am

I had to be at work at 3am, hence the early bed time.

DR 1

Woke up at 11pm from a DILD.

I'm in an unknown hallway with my dad. I'm telling him we are dreaming. We were doing something fun, but now he is like "what else is there to do in a dream"? So I say we can go and slide on a big yellow inflatable raft. Thank got this boring part ends here.

Now I'm at some other place. It's night. I feel like doing it and there are 2 girls. Somebody takes one of them. I'm thinking "oh great, I'm left with the chubby one". But I also dont care, hehe. I push her down and she giggles, and I remember Ophelia talking about having her way with girls, when she changes into a guy in her dreams. I'm not sure I changed into a guy, but I just knew, that none of those tiny details will make any difference with me completing my plan. Not sure what happened after.

But now I'm in a room that looks like wooden cottage, like wild west type of a building. Someone walks in, a guy this time. I lock the door and we do it. Happy ending iz all I'll say. Thank you, come again, hehe.


DR 2

I'm in my homeland, on some kind of a trip with foreigners. We walk down into the river and water is reaaaaly low. At some place I kneel down and touch the ground. There is just less then 1/4 of an inch of water. Just enough to make a wet sound. Rest is sandy.

I look ahead and the river is missing all the water. It must be a drought. I tell them we have go and explore, because this happens like only once in 20 years.


DR 3

I'm walking through a street fair or some other fair. I look for some candy. I see lollipop glasses made from blue sugar. I buy one and taste it and it's the best flawor I ever had. I want to buy more, but the lady is out. So I keep looking at similar things, maybe I'll find them, or they will taste the same, or other vendors will have them. But the lady says, after I ask her, that she doesn't have any more of them. I really want to buy some for my family, who is also there at the fair, but walking separately.


DR 4

I just glanced at the title of an entry 2 post below mine, and from "suspenders" I recalled this dream.

I'm in my childhood room. I have these mans suspenders on. Everytime I pull on them on the top on my shoulders, they levitate me up. My mom is standing in my door and I'm showing her this and saying, that changing lightbulbs and cleaning the light fixtures will be so easy this way. She faints.

I can sooo clearly feel the gravity being 0 and me just levitaning upwards so easily and effortlessly. Such a freeing feeling.

I was in a high school with a group of people I knew. I was on a team for soccerball (basketball / soccer) It’s a game that you play with a ball you toss it around and you kick it into the goal but the ball can never touch the ground and you can’t move with the ball. My team was doing good as I called out different plays and movements and they listened. After the game I got away as there was some drama. I left and was driving down a highway and as I was driving this man was talking to me. He said he was going to try and send me something and would be sending it near a tank I tell him I would try and look for the item he is sending but I don’t see the ball he said he was sending. I go down a 2 track and look for the ball and go driving around the tight corners. After a few minutes of not finding it I think to myself that I should probably turn around as it couldn’t of gone this far. I turn back around and pull out onto a main road and head towards a lake. I stop at a red light and see this lady across from me at the light and she seems to be my mother. She is sad and upset and won’t stop crying and I realize it’s because she feels alone and her cancer is going to try and kill her. I tell her that everything is going to be okay and that I am here for her and I know her pains because if it wasn’t for people I wouldn’t be alive as I would feel alone in the world. She takes off still crying as the light turns green and I get upset and drive the car into the lake. I get out and see my fiancé is there with me I begin to get upset with her and ask her why she drove the jeep into the lake. She didn’t have an answer because I was the one driving and I decided I would just try and build a ramp and drive the jeep out as it was barely in the water. I swam around in the crystal clear water and pick up several rocks and put them on top of each other making a ramp like thing and then I begin to grab clay from the bottom water and I patch it between the rocks. I turned around and saw that the jeep was now sinking as it rolled further into the lake. I looked out and saw my mom and dad in their yellow jeep but saw they were also trying to help somebody else. I started to swim towards my jeep and I heard a splash and saw my dad dive under towards my jeep. I looked up and saw two helicopters pull up ahead and lowered two cables towards me. I grabbed them and took a deep breath and went under water I swam and swam opening my eyes to see where I was going. Finally in the distance I could see my jeep and my dad next to it waiting for the cable. I hand him a cable and we put them onto the jeep one on the front one on the back. We surface and signal to the helicopters to lift and they did. They pulled the jeep to dry land and then as I was unhooking one of the cables I noticed that one cable was wrapped around and stuck in the back propeller of one of the helicopters. I waved and pointed and signaled that I was going to pull the cable and try and get it unstuck and wrapped around the tail end. The Pilot cut the engine and it began to fall towards me as I pulled and pulled on the cable I got it to loop around but it was still stuck. I signaled to pulled back up and try it again he started up again and got higher and then cut the power again as he began to fall I pulled and pulled but it was coming off. At the last second I pulled one last time harder than before and the cable came loose and came flying off. The pilot quickly tried to start the engine again and powered up the propellers and took off just as he was hitting the water. I signaled good job to them and then a giant robotic arm machine came flying at me and hit me on both sides of my chest. I could feel the pressure of it as it shoved me into the water and holding me there. I got away and swam in the water and noticed something strange ahead. There was some kind of museum and there was a bunch of wax looking statues under water but there was air bubbles coming from their nose and mouths. It was a bunch of famous you tubers. I swam around them bubbles of air coming from my mouth as well as I looked at each one of them to see if they were real.


I was in a western place as the landscape was that of a desert. There was a giant metal structure in front of me and the group of people I was with. We were savaging around looking for different items to take with us that we could possibly use. The few people in our group grabbed these two giant yellow beams that had black cameras on it. I looked around and looked to see if we could take the ladder type object that was bolted to the frame but didn’t have the right tools with me so I couldn’t pry them off. I looked around at the ground and saw a big unfolded cardboard box and thought I should take that with us because we might have some kind of use for it. I picked it up and my hands got all wet as I noticed the box was all soggy. I pulled the box up and stuck it under my arm and then looked around some more. I noticed a giant granola bar that had chocolate chips in it and different kinds of nuts. I grabbed it and began to look around some more. I came across a pile of shoes around 6 in total all different styles and looking very old and dirty. But in the state we were in anything could be of use. I picked them up putting the ropes around my shoulder. As I was picking up the last few pairs a man came up and began to talk to me. He had a thick head of white hair and a white mustache. He had lots of wrinkles over his face and was not the to big or to small in weight. He pulled his cigar out of his mouth while puffing a small white cloud of smoke. Hey do you mind if I take those bottles of v8 and ketchup? I look over to my left and notice the bottles. No you can have them. Are you sure you don’t want them? No its okay I don’t really want those you can have them you could even make yourself some bloody Mary’s with it. He smirked and put his cigar back into his mouth and said thank you. He puffed another cloud of smoke and grabbed the containers. Say you better hurry up don’t you think? You might not be able to find your group if you don’t hurry. I’m not too worried I think I know where they are going. Oh? So are you a pretty good guesser then? I’m one of the best guessers. I grabbed the last shoe and turned around and began to run off into the direction my group went. I arrive at the town I was heading to and as I got closer I saw a basketball come bouncing my way I quickly stopped it and rolled it back to the person playing and went under a glass garage door that he had opened. I stood up and brushed off and looked around it was a team of people that looked like they were practicing for a movie / show where they were going to sing and dance while playing basketball. I walked past them and got closer to some other random Dc’s and found myself conversing with them. But as I did the scene became different as I was now in a third person view. A girl began talking to the dc that was me and ask if I am this celebrity person and I tell her no no that cant be me. She then said I was him because of my voice and how it matched perfectly. My person went through a portal and ended up on top of a the big stone wall that was next to them and was now on a unicorn. He walked about on the unicorn at the top of the ridge and headed off into the distance as he went towards a thick vegetation world. He got off the unicorn and jumped in and began eating different kinds of candy plants that were in there and began to transform. A voice began talking to me and telling me how I have to be careful as I don’t want to overdose on the items otherwise I wont be able to get out. He then sent me an image of Winnie the pooh as he was floating around dipping his hand in some honey and eating it. He then told me how there has only been two people to get out that have eaten the amount I have so far and that I need to get out quick as im at 20% consumption and nobody has gotten out past 22% . The dream shifted and I was now at a house I could tell it was my buddies house and went upstairs to try and settle in. As I did I looked across the hall and saw a mustard stain on some metal that was on his parents room floor below the door. I pushed the door open and thought wow they never cleaned that stain from me before? I went down stairs and then went back up and was about to clean the stain when a maid began to harass me asking me what I was doing. She pulled out a gun and motioned for me to go back down stairs I told her I was looking for a phone charger and she began to explain how there was one downstairs and I said no I’m looking for my charger I left it up here. She didn’t believe the story and pointed the gun at me more aggressively. I went down stairs and she brought me to the door. But as I was about to leave the door opened and my friend came in with 5 or so other people. The maid backed off after he explained my charger was upstairs in his room on his desk.

Dream Fragment. I was running on a path and cars were coming and going. It was all wet and slushy and the path got smaller as the mountain hill got steeper. I eventually got to a spot and I couldn’t go any further as it was private property. I went along the path the best I could and went past a couple. They began to try and question me why I was there what spot I owned because if I didn’t I didn’t belong there.

Dream fragment. I was in a hotel with a girl and we had sexy time. Eventually another guy came and slept in bed with us.
Dream Fragment. I was with different pro gamers and one of them was getting a hand job from a fan girl that had a big rack and was really good looking.
Dream Fragment. I was playing golf / baseball in a banquet room of a hotel but there was no gravity in the room. A person kept throwing balls to me and I would hit them back. There was person that came in with a group of people and she kept acting like she was 2 or three people by changing her voice and was answering her own voice. But eventually the voices were changing and didn’t match up anymore. So I asked her if she thought she was fooling us by trying to do that or what was going on.

I don't remember the first dream. All I remember is I was talking to a person in a room about something about dreams and it ended. I woke up at three thirty i think and went back to bed.
At that time I had a dream I was in my house but than suddenly it started to flood. So I ran out the house and appeared outside where there was stores and a big parking lot. To my side I could see a guy and a girl walking with a gun. So I ran all the way to the bus stop. There were people around and I asked a little girl which way was back. She told me to wait on the other side so i did.
I took the bus but when I got out i appeared in this room. There were two men standing and a lady in a pink performer costume balancing herself on the guys shoulders on a platform above. But part of the building began to collapse and they fell. Suddenly a guy with a gun came out. I guessed he was a bad guy so i tried to throw some small golden rocks i saw. But I missed and he shot me in the shoulder. I decided to try again and he shot me two times in the same spot...on my left shoulder and i fell onto the ground. It didn't hurt but i felt pretty stupid. That's when I woke up.
I thought about how those dreams sucked and tried to fall back to sleep. I did eventually and had a dream I was inside my house. I saw people playing a game like super smash bros brawl. I wanted to draw so i went to my brothers room and found a sketch pad and a sharpened pencil. But my brother yelled at me for taking his stuff. So I got mad and yelled at him and his friend. Than I left and saw my lil bro eating something. I got mad out of no where and started yelling about how i wanted food and that that was my food or something like that.[I've been having lots of dreams where i yell for food...I need to stop that...-w-]
Anyways I left the house and found myself outside. A pizza appeared in my hand and i took a few bites. A lady and her son who was a child came out and threw something in the garbage. I decided to throw the pizza away so i did. Than when I turned I saw a dark skinned old man walk out the back and walk past me. I asked the lady. Is that a ghost?[I don't believe in ghosts] She said no. I walked up to the open gate and closed it. After that i walked back to the lady. A random person walked up to us[I think it was the dark skinned old man] and said that people need to recycle more and need to start caring about what they do. Be more neat stuff like that. I was like yeah..Than I woke up. : P

I'm in a music shop, looking for a old vinyl disc of my dad.
My mother accidentally sold it and now I'm angry that I have to re-buy it double price.
As I'm still looking for it, a girl comes and I see she is interested in the disc I was looking for.
I approach her, but she hides the disc behind the back and she does not want to hear any reason, as she found it and the disc is hers!
I'm desperate and as last try I tell her that I have the first cd of Nirvana. She is a lot interested, but still does not want give me the beloved old disc.
St once she asks me to ask her out. I don't like her, but I do and she says 'okay, but you will pay my drinks'! I laugh.
We go out, without paying anything, and the owner of the shop closes it up and comes with us.
We go to a Nirvana concert but we sing U2 songs and everyone looks at us soooo weird! But we don't care at all.
I buy some tea drinks, but it tastes like milk and I wake up.

There are more dreams which were had this day but here are those that are shared here:

Prior to dreaming I was thinking of turning into Rainbow Dash.

I was seeing stuff in a river and was fishing for something, Something I was fishing for went by and then I went down the river where it went and swam back. Meanwhile I saw lava as if it was in Minecraft by the water, Making its hissing noise not turning into Obsidian but into something else.

I came back to the fishing area and there was green stuff on the river on top of the water and so the fishing area was not as big. Then (If looking at the river) I went to the right and looked up, Saw a room above me and used a grappling hook like in Zelda: OoT to get up there.

I went into a room (Minus walls and ceiling) and there were two gates on each side, That were doorways with iron bars that would come down to close them. They both closed with me inside and things or creatures came either inside through these closed doors or they came up to the doors and the room reset.

Bing! I was now Twilight Sparkle.

In the same room with the gates again (And there were computers in it) Princess Luna and Princess Celestia came up, One at each gate; Princess Luna came from the gate I came from which is now on my left and Princess Celestia from my right. Princess Luna said something like "Follow me and I'll give you fame/money/etc" and I (As if I were playing Team Fortress 2 on PC) hit a few buttons on the keyboard to say "No." I then faced Princess Celestia and she said "Find a way to escape the universe." And I said "Yes." The feeling is enlightening.

How does one escape the universe?

...

Later on I also dreamed of Kurt Cobain in a Sonic The Hedgehog costume in a building, Then he died and his body fell on its face and someone picked it up and tried to make it seem as if he wasn't dead but it just fell over again.

It's been a while since I last put a Dream Journal entry in, I've been out and about with friends playing music! I've been putting a lot of my focus on tantra also, since I had some sort of euphoric sensation overcome my entire body a couple of nights ago and I was wondering what on earth it was, it led me to tantra!

11th April -

Dream 1
Walking through a motorway type stone tunnel with a bunch of people, it turned into a busy stone hall but much tighter packed. I'm walking in the same direction as a lot of people, others are busily walking in our direction too. There was this guy who was walking next to me at the same time as this group of charity collectors pass me going the other way. The main collector asks me if I want to donate as he passes but I immediately tell him I have nothing to give, and he shoves me (I'm always charitable when I've got it, so this kind of behaviour annoys me). He keeps going, but the other guy who I mentioned was next to me says something offensive as a passive response to my having no money as to imply I'm tight, and I told him to fuck off or something long those lines. Further down the hall I'm walking into an open market type place, there are boxes of random toys and things on the floor and I have to step over them as I look around. Suddenly I turn around and the guy I told to fuck off before has the most insane keyboard in his hands, it's strapped on to him and he's holding it like a guitar, it was like a meter long black beast of an instrument, and he was playing some notes. He shouts to me that he's having it and there''s nothing I can do about it. Then the dream fades.

I was sleeping on a couch and woke up about 6 hours into my sleep and recalled that last dream. The light was coming through the living room window and there were buses loudly stopping and starting outside, it was quite noisy. I was quite uncomfortable too, the couch wasn't big enough to allow lying down fully stretched, so I was in the fetal position. It took me a while to get back asleep, my eyes were closed though, I was determined to get back to sleep even though I didn't feel too sleepy, and after 20 minutes I started to see some imagery appearing before me in the darkness, then I suddenly and very unexpectedly transitioned straight into a lucid dream, I was in a blurry room and it there was purple electricity flowing over half the stuff in the room. I didn't feel like I woke up in a dream and had to regain consciousness, I felt like I had literally just been lying on the couch trying to sleep and then all of a sudden I was in this room. I unfortunately came straight out of this dream anyway, and I was on the couch again.

So I tried again, I rested patiently for about 20 minutes, this time it seemed a lot longer to happen and I was getting a little disappointed until the imagery started appearing, then I knew it was game on. By imagery I'm talking about colourful neon type patterns swirling, which sometimes briefly transform into vivid objects. I've been practising dream schemas, thinking about what the patterns I'm seeing look most like, and therefore convincing my brain that that is what I'm seeing.

Anyway I went back into a new room, it was the same again - a transition with no loss of consciousness. This time I was sat on a bed and knew instantly I was dreaming, and I was calm. I looked around the room and it was more vivid than any lucidity I've had so far. There was a washing line sort of thing hung across the room with a football attached to it, and as soon as I looked at it I calmly thought about how I could change it into something. I decided to change it to a star, but looking at it and thinking I wanted it to change to a star did nothing. I looked away and repeated the thought, I wanted the ball to become a star, and when I looked back it was still a football. Then I woke up again.

With the two lucids I was trying to "open" my eyes as the imagery started coming to me. By open them I was not actually trying to physically open my eyes whilst keeping them closed, rather it was more of an embrace of all the imagery, as if I was accepting I was in a 3 dimensional space.


So that was annoying, that I couldn't change the football into a star. How will I fly if I can't even do that? I think the problem was that I was only thinking I wanted it to change, with little expectation of it actually happening. I didn't visualize it happening, I just wanted it to happen. Next time I'll have to "see" it change, and maybe it will.


13th April -

Dream 1
I was in a religion class with some old friends, they were all sitting about and smoking joints/playing games. The religion classroom transitioned into a bedroom without me noticing. I remember talking to a friend who used to body build but he looked really young again, like he did before his body-building days, and we talked about how it's a waste of time if you can't afford a good diet.

Dream 2
My dream log simply says "Dan spelling cat and" (I must have been very tired). I can vaguely remember a funny situation where my friend Dan was in a position of spelling something, and I was taking the piss out of him spelling the simple words cat and dog for him in a patronizing (but banterish) way.

Dream 3
I don't know what happened in this dream, except I know that there was a scene where I vividly heard words inside a dream for the first time. I was lazy in my logging efforts and have now forgotten them, in fact if I wasn't so sure right now about how I felt after I woke up that I heard vivid voices, then I would be convinced that I just feel like I have. Anyway this was unusual for me, usually I can remember being part of conversations in dreams but not actually hearing the words clearly, rather just remembering them. This time it was different, but I've forgotten the words so basically it doesn't even matter now haha.

The other sensation I felt in a dream for the first time was physical pain. I was unwrapping a bandage that was around my wrist, I think I had burned it or something, and I can vividly remember the feeling of the bandage being peeled off my raw skin and the stringing sensation of it. I hope it isn't possible to feel super physical pain in dreams, because if that happened to me with the mind I've got, I'd be fucked.

Work Dream - Fear

Was at work on a Regal roller with Digger and a few others. It went out of control and almost bucked some of us off. I tried to cut the engine off but it didn't stop. We are in reverse now Digger shifted it forward down a boulevard. I see Hontoon walking almost out in front of it and it looks like we are gonna hit him. Okay, thank God he got out of the way. I feel fear. Now my dream is shifted to where I am in a room off of a conference room working on a piece off of the roller. Tim comes in and say it's 6am, we are on the clock. And I get pissed and say, "I am on the clock." I walk out of the room through the conference room and out the door. I remember my stocking cap getting caught in the double door and I just keep on walking. I felt fear. Later in the dream I was sitting in a class and Tim asks me in front of everyone where is Asphalt in the book. I look for what seems to be minutes then give the pages out loud. Such and such a page to this page. He then corrects me by saying I'm in the wrong book. I feel fear. Later in the dream Hontoon was on his roller and pushed it up againt the lowboy. It was pushing the lowboy forward and this freaked me out. He then stopped. I asked him if he saw that he was almost hit. He said yes. Then it came to me that it was in a dream and I asked him if he saw it in his dream. He said yes too that. This really excited me.

I haven't been on lately. I haven't been able to set aside much time because of school. Now that I'm on spring break, I'm briefly returning from my hiatus.

On to the dream:

The only parts I could remember are me sitting next to the girl I like (this is a different girl, BTW). It was actually on two or three separate occasions in the dream. She was even completely fine with it when I asked her. The seats weren't very big, so we were sorta pressed up against each other, which felt very, very, very nice.

i tried deleting this but i cant.

One dream was, that a friend of mine invited me to come with her to a job, which would bring a lot of money, but it was something physical and outdoors and you had to dress warmly.
There were so many people at the gathering place - somebody said, our group would go somewhere else for another job.
This entailed sitting in the basement of a shopping-centre on long tables with a lot of other people - maybe even only women, not sure.

And it was handicraft - we were making/repairing Easter decorations - I had to fix new candles into some places, where old ones had burned down, which - typical dream - was pretty difficult.
In the end I switched and went about painting flowers - TOTM overspill, I'm pretty sure - so I painted unusual flowers on pieces of wood. Na well.

Then there is a fragment, where I'm with an ex-boyfriend from my youth at a frozen mountain lake.
He doesn't want me to go out - it's not completely safe, I could also see that.
But I went - bit also to daunt him - nothing happened, but I had to go back at one point, because cracks began to appear. No hectic or fear connected, though - I knew, I'd make it back safely.

Another fragment was being in my old childhood room, which I loved, and exactly at the right time, when the evening light would shine through my windows in a most beautiful golden way.
Bit more about me trying to get rid of some nasty furniture that had been stored there and properly moving back in.

When that dream ended - I had a mini-lucid moment, but no optics any more suddenly.
So I jumped in the air, like I usually do it, when lucid - and I had for a little moment the feeling of hovering. I stared into nothingness, hoping for a dream - but unfortunately I woke up then.

There was one more episode, where I went to university with two male friends of mine, and one of them said, women should undergo special tests before they enter - because most of them wouldn't actually do anything with their valuable (also financially) high education, but work as plaything manufacturers.
I swallowed - was after that job episode above..

I was with my younger son at a cabin of sort. There was a bookshelf of stuffier there, and I was told that almost all of them were regular stuffed toys except for the two eagles. At first I only saw one stuffie that was an eagle and it looked like nothing special to me. Then I saw the other one: it was actually made out of plaster, looked like a kid's art project, and it had a baby eagle with it. They actually looked more like owls, but everyone called them eagles. I was told the eagles were valuable and would soon be moved to the Smithsonian museum by curators who were trained physicists and thus very good.

When the curators came, the bookshelf was empty. I discovered that my son had a backpack full of stuffed animals, among others the stuffed eagle. I reprimanded him, but secretly thought how is a five year old supposed to know the difference between art and toy if this is art. He did not have the plaster eagle with baby eagle though. We discovered the plaster eagles in a bin full of blocks. They were in bad shape. The face banged up and no more mouth, nose, eyes. The curators who came to pick them up did not seem concerned though. Perhaps this could be fixed.

23:12 bedtime

00:00 Tuesday 2014-04-15

07:45

+ superhero flying/gliding/"spider" man. Flying/gliding down from parent's house. Some awesome high speed flying as approaching the city below, flying right through power lines I think I might hit some but know I'll make it through, land and ask about finding some place, there's a field of sand down the road.

Back at the house we're preparing the spider. My "power" is holding a very poisonous big (about the size of a fist) spider in a bag with me. I'm teaching my apprentice how to catch/lead the spider from their lair (in a bottle?) into the bag, leading it with some lure. The spider jumps on my right shoulder/face I feel it's claws digging in, I say get it in the bag! The apprentice grabs it using the bag and then squeezes/squishes the bag hard I say "No, you've killed it!" and the spider poison leaks out onto the ground forming a black pool.

Our cat comes up and starts licking/drinking the poison. I say "you've killed our cat!" the cat starts going into noisy convulsions and dying, it does this for a while, I say "well call the <emergency?> and find out how to ease its suffering."

I'm shaking the big sack/bag because I think the spider is just inside at the top, I keep shaking it and looking to see if I shook it down to the bottom, I'm doing this for a while until I realize it must have gotten out of the bag. I see it scurrying away on the floor and hiding underneath furniture, etc, I'm going after it pulling the house items out of the way to expose it and trying to catch it.

I'm outside on the deck talking with a woman discussing flying strategy/plans what's the best route to take to fly down to the city.

+ See friend DD I'm very happy to see him, he sort of drifts away, he smiles I see his teeth, they're distorted and long with brown roots like horse teeth, I think "he's gone long in the tooth," I see TZ with a distorted weird head on a tiny body.

+ MS from work, we're in car, all of a sudden in a casino, I hear the "ching ching ching ching ching!" of a slot machine, he's asking me what game is best to make his money last the longest, I'm trying to clarify what his gaming goals are.

+ wine bottles in restaurant/winery, I'm talking to representative there, they already have an exclusive bottling deal, I say how about I buy barrels of wine from them and bottle it myself, I see, touch, hold, look at bottles of wine from the shelf of the place, reading the labels, some dry red, some dessert red, imaginary grape names? I think a bottle may hold white wine but it turns out is also red.

+ sailing, see mansion garden in the distance with two sailboats, each circling around in their own pond, one (both?) have red sails. I'm talking about sailing with someone, trying to get another person interested in sailing, I say just take them out and get the experience of running into the wind, it's very exciting, I imagine it, then "hoisting the main jib?" (was thinking of spinnaker but not all ships have those) and just relaxing and going with the wind (and eating a sandwich?).

+ falling asleep in morning: thinking about levels of chess ability, see hillside of mixed green and brown grasses, something about needing to get/see the green grass.

14.04.2014

Tranquilizer Gun Fails, or I'm a Lousy Shot (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I’m hiding behind a rock that’s probably 5 feet wide, and maybe 3-4 feet tall. I have a tranquilizer gun on me, and I believe I’m wearing a black tac suit as well. The environment resembles a jungle, and the ground itself had a color of white rock material that’s covered by all sorts of minerals, dirt, and grass.

The area’s pathway I’m on seems to be curved like a “C,” where if I were to reach the end, I would probably have to jump off from a pretty high elevation to get to the lower section of this area. I’m as the bottom end of the “C” shaped area, and there’s a soldier patrolling around the section farther away from me.

He looks kind of like a Panamanian guard that you would see in Splinter Cell: Chaos Theory, though I’m not sure if the design for the Gamecube version was different from the XBOX.

How I conceptualized the whole experience seemed to have involved me looking at my dream self through third person point of view, and occasionally feeling my dream body as well. I try to take my time to aim the tranquilizer gun at the guard, and it seems this experience in the dream had to be reset several times because I was either missing the shot completely, or I didn’t shoot him anywhere in the head to hopefully make him unconscious quickly.

One experience within the reset was that when I took a shot, and miss, some kind of random object launched its way over to the guard. The object was hard to see from afar, but I remember that it had a violet color with a slight overlay of blue. The guard turns around, looks alert, and isn’t hesitant in calling for backup.

I can visualize how said backup would arrive, and there’s soldiers wearing some kind of dark yellow camo outfit with brown spots spread around it, along with them wearing black masks where only their eyes are portrayed through a horizontal oval cut-out.

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14.04.2014

120 Subjects Learned? (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Apparently, I tell someone that I learned over 120 subjects in High School and at a University.

Words come out of my mouth like crazy, and I felt like it was just coming by naturally without any intention of having to cover anything up. I think I stated I learned 110 in High school, and the rest at a University.

Even though the dream didn't make any sense, it's kind of true of how you barely learn crap at a University, other than:

Spoiler for university/college logic:

I was climbing after a woman on a pole. She was in her bikini and on top of a pole and I was climbing up to her, because, you know... She was hot and in a bikini..

Next dream, my phone notepad says this: "Someone is trying to steal my nephews face with a dog" I don't remember what that is about.

Next dream. Me, my aunt and her two daughters are all in seperate racecars racing each other. We stop somewhere because I want some iced cream, I wanted iced cream as big as a sandpit. My little brother is there. I see the lightning from a Devil May Cry demon around him and go beat it up using DMC skills. Later in the dream it he appears to be just a friendly dark-skinned man. We help a kid with something, I don't know what and he has a girlfriend.

Next dream. We are in a village in Turkey, the dream is blurry. I just came back from the city and I am hungry. I am walking with a friend and as I see the shop of another friend I say hi. My friend leaves and as I walk by another friends house, I see them eating and I join them.

These dreams are from the past week, I have some more but I don't feel like posting them. Journalling alright, it is pretty fun because when writing them you know that what you are doing will prevent the dream from being lost forever. But posting it in here for the second time is really useless and damn boring. I'll pust the rest of my journal/notes within a few days, probably

April 13, 2014: I am at a block party or outdoor gathering following some sort of contest or sporting event like a baseball game. I am happy with the outcome of the game, not so much because we won, but because of the poor performance of someone on the opposing team as his mistake(s) caused them to lose.

I leave the gathering to take a break from the party crowd and find myself negotiating/pushing my way down a crowded urban sidewalk, like 7th Avenue in NYC. I pass a movie theater. When I left the party, I did so without any money, phone or wallet, which, in my dream, I normally keep in some kind of wooden box on my person, as I did not expect to want to leave the party as I had done, nor did I expect to be gone for long.

I decide to go for a jog and end up on far eastern Long Island - Montauk Point. I run to a place on the edge of a body of water which is murky and crowded with reed grasses and bog-like plants typical of the edge of a wetland. As I stand there gazing into the water, what appears to be a large fish, perhaps 6 - 8 feet long, swims towards me, then, reaching a too-shallow spot, turns to its left and returns out of sight to deeper water. Before it is lost to view I can make out its large, plate-like scales and the mud-brown color of the fish. As it swims away I realize it is too big for a fish, and from the way it swims I realize it is an alligator. Although I see only the one, I know the water has many more of them in it.

In order to leave where I am standing, I must cross a decrepit, poorly maintained dock/bridge made out of pilings and planks, many of which are missing. The alligators appear to be aware of this and in my mind I strongly suspect that they are lurking beneath the dock waiting patiently and unseen in case I stumble and fall into the water. I run/jump competently and safely across the decrepit dock even though I am afraid and now I can continue my journey/quest which I now realize was to re-trace the final steps of a friend who had recently died.

I am far from home with no car, no money and no phone, so my only option is to continue jogging west towards home. I run through a series of ground-floor patios at what appears to be a cheap beach-side hotel/motel, passing underneath the balconies of the rooms on the second floor. The balconies are supported on their outer edges by what looks like raw, unpainted 6" X 6" wood studs. I jog leisurely past **** (name deleted-old girlfriend), who is talking with, and in the company of a man who is kind of young for her. I say something to him (which she can also hear) about her being unable to give love to him to discourage the relationship, because it seemed to me to be the truth. Neither of them seems particularly upset by my statement.

I keep jogging and encounter two women, one of which has a car. I ask her where she is going three separate times and she responds the same each time but I do not know/am not familiar with the town she specifies. I say “One more time?” and she says the name of the town one last time. This time I hear the name of the town but it does me no good because I do not recognize it or where it is in relation to ***(my home town), which is where I want to go. Since we are so far east, I conclude it is a virtual certainty that wherever she is headed has got to be generally west and will bring me closer to home no matter what, so I get in her car. In order to get in the car, I need to remove three sacks of what appear to be bags of concrete, which we leave on the side of the parking lot.

It is at this point that I realize that I have been jogging and visiting places trying to uncover the last movements of my friend before he died. When I exit the car, I meet with a man who was a mutual friend of the deceased who is also my friend as well. I begin to tell him about my efforts and journey and all that I learned about our mutual friend. He puts his arm across my shoulder as we walk and talk. I wake.