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After few non-lucid fragments (one interesting one involving a woman and a mythical being something like a bird and something like a qilin, and his 'missing part', which is in the form of another person this woman knows; otherwise dull), my memory picks up in a scene where I'm already semi-lucid (I'm controlling my surroundings and aware that this control is due to it being a dream, but otherwise have fairly low awareness and mostly go along with the dream storyline). I'm walking through a park with another man, while watching someone I think of as a killer, and I mentally push him toward his next target. However, at the moment I expect him to take out a knife, instead he puts his arm around his target's shoulders and hands him a cigarette.

The killer, the target, and the man I'm walking with are all smoking. I take the cigarette from the man I'm walking with, intending to smoke it myself, but I find the dream won't allow it: first I'm holding nothing, it's back in that man's hand; then when I focus I find I can put it to my mouth and feel the physical pressure of it, but it doesn't resemble smoking. I've had similar problems before, when I deliberately focus on improving the realism of some complex physical sensation, and instead only wind up feeling the sense of pressure accurately, nothing else. I then focus on breath instead of on the cigarette itself, and something interesting happens. I have the impression I can control my surroundings far more easily by working in rhythm with my breathing.

My memory's vague for the next two scenes, while I was focusing on breath - I saw this as a great development. (Dream logic inspired by meditation, maybe. There's no reason I should be breathing in a dream at all. I wonder whether I was actually in the same rhythm as my sleeping body's breath or not.) First I saw something like a shadow play, where the figures moved in rhythm with my breathing, under my control. Then I was walking through halls and passing people who appear to be from America of about 200 years ago, all of whom I find vaguely unpleasant; I still had the impression that I was successfully controlling something through breath in this scene.

I wound up in a room where several people are sitting around a round table, and they call me and someone with me to join them. I start to sit down and an old woman stops me, points me to a different chair. To my left is a man holding what I think at first is a young boy. When I get another look at it, it has the face of an old man, and one of his eyes is that of a cat. This is all very unpleasant. I recognize him as my own cat, S., and I believe he's somehow sick. (S. died a long time ago, but I didn't remember this at the time.) We put him on the table, now in the form of a human-sized cat, and I chant a healing spell over him, mentioning a goddess, exerting dream control. Objects rise off the table and hover in the air, and the other people around the table join in, though by just chanting 'heal!' over and over again. I woke up while listening to them chant.

Dream
Lucidity
False Awakening


I was having a firefight with some terrorists and I was killing them with a desert eagle that had a laser on it. I remember doing parkour and fighting some hobo calling me a fag before that. I was then with C. Alexander and some black girls watching something on world war 2. I remember saying Germany was not as bad as Japan. Alexander and I then laid together and her grandma got mad so I grabbed my stuff and left for the airport to catch my flight. I missed the exit so I took the next one. I was on a hill and there were a lot of buildings and roads that curved a lot. I got mad because the layout of the parking lot was stupid so I woke up. I had a false awakening. I couldn't move my head and when I tried, I could only move it a little bit. I told myself to wake up again and I did, but it was another false awakening. I did a reality check of my hand and part of it was transparent and would appear and reappear and I went lucid. I got excited and noticed my dream ending. I tried to dream spin but couldn't. I woke up again. This time I was pretty sure it was a real awakening and was started to get scared but upon counting my fingers, I realized I wasn't and I became lucid again.
With my right arm, I grabbed my head and pulled it up, making it possible for me to move it again. As I was getting up, I felt as if my mind was rising, maybe I was having an OBE. I looked at the bed to see if my body was still there but it wasn't. Everything felt so real. My objective for my next lucid dream was to explore the dream scene. I was in my room and went to the kitchen, where a purple desk with a fluffly white and beige cat was sitting on. In the living room was a blue sofa and a white cat sitting on top of it. I was going to ask what they represented but then remembered my other objective: Ask my dream to show my dream guide. I faced the door and said "I want to see my dream guide." I turned around and noticed a radio. That couldn't be it. I turned around again and said "When I turn around, I went her, my dream guide, or him to be right behind me!" As I was saying it, I heard a female voice behind me. I turned around and there was a speaker and a vacuum. I was confused why I would have objects instead of a person. I also had a headphone hanging on my left shoulder. Static was coming through it. I knelt down and asked: "So which one of you is my dream guide?" I heard static and murmurs coming from my headphone. I asked again. "Which one of you is my dream guide?" Suddenly, I hear 2 or more girls say "You are!" at the same time. I know they're saying that I am my dream guide. I rose and repeated "I am..." to not forget what happened, I decided to wake up. I told myself "I need to wake up", and I woke up to the waking world.

I was in an apartment with Desirae and kept arguing with her because she wouldn't clean the guns but instead would microwave the guns to clean them. I told her they probably don't work anymore and I checked the night sights of the P229. They still worked. I got on the computer and there was porn of girls with horse dicks and Desirae asked what it was. I told her I didn't know. I started playing a game where I was out on an island surviving with a group of people. I was exploring and suddenly started getting attacked by a helicopter. I got into a helicopter but as I was lifting off, I got shot down. I ejected and entered another helicopter. Same thing happened with that one so I got into some sort of tank and started shooting at the helicopter. I got mad because my mouse wasn't working and I kept pulling it. The cord was stuck on something. There were a lot of other vehicles driving and flying around. They had a box with their team color hovering above them. They were shooting at each other and the car that was teamed with the helicopter I destroyed tried to ram me into the water. I pushed my brakes and the car ended up in the water himself. This took place on the beach. I sped back to base which was in a sort of forest. My car looked like a camero or mustang and as I approached the gates to my base I remember thinking "They'd better be on their toes and open the gates. Especially since I'm out here" The gates opened as I drove towards them.

I was working the tower and inmates were being stupid like always so they were searching them early in the morning because they found something on one of them. After, I went down to some sort of restaurant or food court. I was talking to some people about a guy not eating his muffin. I got upset when he didn't eat it so when he got up I followed him and recorded a message on the beer bottle he had left on a table. I said "Look, motherfucker, you'd better start eating that shit or I swear I'll beat the shit out of you. I'll do it, bro" I felt mad but I made sure not to say I was gonna kill him. I put something down near the bottle, expecting it to be the muffin, but it was my phone. I went back to the table to get the muffin and saw some guy eating it to help out the other guy. He got scared when I walked towards him but I pretended I didn't see him. I grabbed the muffin and took it. The guy then started eating it sadly.

Imager rescue
I'm watching a group of Imagers descend into a strange place, some sort of alternate dimension. It's a "utopia," as clearly evidenced by the people all wearing the same identical flowing clothes and everything being spotlessly clean. The Imagers are here because they received a report that some of their members had been captured. Sure enough, in the main square they find a slaver selling four of their friends. The lead Imager pulls aside one of the junior members and instructs him to prepare a handful of poisoned coins (large silvery things), something that will take effect later in the day after they're long gone. He then starts to talk to the slaver to set the release conditions for the four. I start to talk to the captured Imagers to find out what happened. A young woman in the group tells me they were in the square and realized the best position had been taken, but no one was in it. Going over to investigate, someone had thrown bags over their heads, stopping them from fighting back, and here they are.


Curving fire
I'm standing outside with my wife and with Emily and her family on the grass near the end of "our" driveway. We're all admiring the neighbor's boat and jet ski. Emily's husband say that a jet ski is something they'd love to buy but they haven't been able to yet.

Now I'm setting up some kind of long rack with gas burners built into it. Now I'm carrying something that looks like a big scoop. It's the same width as the rack, two or maybe three feet. As I approach one end of the rack, the flames suddenly curve towards and into the scoop, even from the far end of the rack. It's quite a sight, and Emily is very impressed.


Side scroller
I'm playing a side scroller. I have to throw bombs to open new passages, but I have to be careful not to get caught in the explosions. Now My character is in a large room with some blocks in the middle and at the bottom. The next thing I need to do is to break through the blocks at the bottom and get into a water area. There's an enemy in the room with me, and I need to deal with him before I can continue. He's small and good at hiding, only coming out to strike when I'm not paying attention, so this is taking a while.

There's something about legal torrents of old games ranging from five hundred to two thousand megabytes. Many of the "old games" are actually new efforts designed to look like old games. I think about how pixel art is popular with indie devs, and how much I can't stand it.

Now I'm at the far left end of the room. There are more blocks here, and they seem to be switching every few seconds. Some of them show a powerup icon for a few seconds, then fade as other blocks start to show powerup icons. I try to break the powerups open, but I have to get moving at a good clip to do so, and that means being off screen to get enough speed, and that means I can't see which blocks currently hove powerups. As I move off screen I realize there's a hidden key showing me the blocks and powerups, and I'm able to use it to aim my character to get the powerups. After I've gotten a bunch, a gate comes down blocking my access, and a giant spiky rod starts to come down from the ceiling. I don't move quickly enough and take some damage before I'm able to get to the main part of the room, but then I'm able to use my new powerups, especially some kind of melee weapon that looks like a long rod, to make short work of it.


Bathing man
I'm in a yellowish room watching a very large man get painted all over with oriental style patterns and figures, designed to scare off evil spirits. He then proceeds to lie in a "bath" with water just a few inches deep. I guess the designs were to scare off water spirits? But if he's bathing, shouldn't the paint wash off? Or if it doesn't, then how will he get it off later, and what's the point of bathing now?

Later, I'm talking with him and find out his name is Sm, pronounced Sem. I think that name is familiar and realize it's from one of the Final Fantasies - thirteen, I think. I ask him if he's familiar with those games, and he says he isn't. I consider explaining about them to him, but I decide that's more trouble than it's worth.


Messed up lights
I'm in my bedroom trying to turn on the lights, but something very strange is going on. We have a dual slider fan/light switch near the door, and I'm sure I'm using the light slider, but as I slide it up and down other lights in the room are turning on and off, leaving the fan's light off the whole time. I look more closely and am even more surprised to see that there are two sliders on the same track. I start moving them slowly up and down, trying to figure out the pattern. The first notch turns on my wife's bedstand light; the second notch turns on a light in the middle of the wall and turns her lamp to dim. Other positions do other things. Now someone else is in the room. He's familiar to me (though I don't know who he was). He says he saw something about this in the manual when he got one recently, and he'd be happy to let me borrow it. I thank him but say it probably wouldn't do much good, since each room is wired differently; but he politely disagrees, saying this is exactly what the manual talked about. I tell him I'd love to see it.


Fragments
Something about "medieval court posturing"

I look between two nice buildings to see a house behind them. It's rather run down, but there's a light on upstairs and it looks much more homely than the austere newer buildings.

I'm in a dimly lit hallway.

Barely remember anything of it now.

I am in some sort of spaceship just flying around. I'm in some vertical giant tube with what seems to be the bad guys of the movie. There's a girl below me trying to open a gate. I increase my body weight to 1000T and let my body fall, killing her. Okay, normal weight now. Now I'm just playing with other skills, changing the gravity, speed, etc. A friend of mine is in the other side playing hide-and-seek and I go through a conduit to scare her.

I am on my bed. There's a window which is not supposed to be there in real life. A giant white moon stands still there, up in the sky, when I see something flying, like a fridge or whatever, and I realize that it must be a dream. Reality check and confirm it is a dream. I get lucid.

I don't know what happens here, but I end up in other place, thinking that I need to try to go to the deeper levels of the dream world. It's like the thought has appeared by itself and that I am dreaming that I am lucid dreaming. At first it was not like that but it's just a feeling, so. I just let by body fall and I feel how my body cross the floor, followed by another floor. I keep falling before being 'normal' again and realizing that my parents are yelling at me for making that much noise. I go to bed as fast as I can and turn off the lights.

This lucid is from the morning of 3/24/2014. Still going for Task of the Year!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #195: Indoor Gardening

I’m working in a busy office setting with my friend “Leroy”. The very popular manager of the office has just been fired and everyone’s gathered to hear a speech from some stuffed shirt corporate guy explaining why this was done.

“Losing a beloved manager is like losing a friend,” says the generic corporate guy.

Leroy farts loudly. I laugh, then turn to him and say, “I’m not sure how many friends you’ll have if you keep doing that.” He doesn’t seem to realize I’m joking and looks hurt. Now I feel sort of bad. I assume he’s sensitive because we just lost our manager.

As the corporate guy drones on and on, I start feeling very stressed. I realize that I’m late for an orchestra concert I’m supposed to be performing in. I sneak out of the meeting, looking for the auditorium. I walk down a long, carpeted hallway and find the auditorium doors on my left. When I step inside, I see that it looks more like a movie theater. I get a sense of how odd this all is and I’m enormously relieved when I realize that I’m dreaming.

The scene rapidly begins to fade, so I rub my hands together and run back and forth across the front of the theater. It takes a moment, but after maybe 3 or 4 trips from one end of the theater to the other, the visuals all come back.

The theater is large but there are only five seats right next to each other. I recognize one of the theatergoers as my friend “SKR”, but hers is the only familiar face. SKR seems to be looking for something under her seat so I decide not to just focus on tasks rather than trying to communicate.

I start going for Jack and the Beanstalk Task of the Year. I perform a behind-the-back summon of seeds, and my hand comes back with little nuggets attached to long wisps of cotton. I just go ahead like this is good enough and start digging into the floor. The concrete floor scoops easily aside, leaving a nice, shallow hole for the seeds. I stuff them into the dirt, cover it back over, and start looking for my beanstalk to grow.

The shoots start emerging, but when they get to be about 4-5 inches long, they flop over onto their side on the floor. I tug at them a bit but they just feel like limp, frayed green carpet. I give them a tug and try to imagine them shooting skyward, but I’m not able to get tons of energy behind this thought.

Now I see Wife walking in through the doors of the theater. There’s a sensation that’s sort of like waking up and then I find myself in my in-laws’ house. I “realize” that all of what I just experienced took place inside Unreal Engine 4 and I’ve now returned to the real world.

Wife gives me a stern look. “Do you have anything you should be telling me?”

I sheepishly admit that I skipped out on playing in my orchestra concert so that I could have a lucid dream. She gives a serious nod and walks away. I’m glad she’s not too pissed off about this. The dream ends...

Been a little bit since I recalled anything. Glad to see it back!
I was with both my family and some strangers. The strangers consisted of a woman, two children, and Woody Harrelson (I believe he was in here because of my latest obsession with the show True Detective). We hung out at this warped version of my house for a while, but soon, people started dying! We weren't sure why, but it seemed to be something paranormal. That was our guess anyway.
At one point I pretended to be a ghost, to the amusement of everyone else. In the midst of investigating, my aunt brought her dogs to the house, and I played with both them and the stranger kids.
Suddenly, the truth was starting to reveal itself. The woman I mentioned as one of the strangers ended up dying in Woody's room by unknown causes. When we all gathered in his room later on, Woody revealed that he had cameras throughout the house to record and capture paranormal activity due to his suspicions. Even so, for some reason, we didn't think to check the footage to see how the woman died. Eerily enough, when we looked at Woody's desk, his keys were gone. Everyone insisted that they didn't take them, and we even checked. It must have been the woman.
After all these crazy events, I was left feeling inspired, and felt like saying one thing to Woody and the gang.
"I wish I had a PS4..."
Cue fade to black. Many years pass (instantaneously of course, like a time skip in a movie or book), and the two kids are sitting around a dinner table, a lot older now (teenagers at least).

Date: 3/25/2014 (Mon)
Total sleep: 6.5 hrs
Daytime Techniques: Text Search, RCs, Visualization, Mantras
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Visualization
Recall Techniques: Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
Dream 1 Title: Michelle McFee
Dream 1: I am standing at the bottom of a wide (approx. 8 feet) flight of stone stairs that climb to a small platform about 10 feet up. At the bottom, on each side is a thick stone pillar about 4 feet tall. Stone railings are on both sides of the stair case. The steps are surrounded by a wooden structure on three sides, the side at the bottom of the steps is open. The structure is peaked with a shingled pyramid shaped roof. The building looks old. There is a road to my left, a pond to my right, and many pine trees in all directions. I recognize this place. My in-laws have a house on this pond, but it is about a mile away. In my dream the structure is familiar, but not in real life. Sitting on the stairs, close to the top is a woman. She is in her late 30’s to early 40’s with brown shoulder length hair. She is wearing a black leather jacket, a red shirt and blue jeans. In front of her is a small table with a laptop on it. She is talking to the laptop. I recognize her as Michelle MeFee; a local radio and new paper personality. (In real life she looks nothing like this woman, and her voice is completely different.) The scene shifts, and the structure has an opening underneath it, with a paved road running through it. I see a blue minivan drive under the structure. I recognize the driver as my ex-wife’s grandfather (who is dead in RL). **Jump** I am walking down Davis Road (a street from my old childhood neighborhood) with Michelle McFee. We are talking about her career as a radio personality. She tells me that she really enjoys the show. **Jump** We are back at the structure. She is back in the exact same place as before, but now I am sitting next to her. The laptop is open and I have a clear view of it, but don’t notice any text. I shift closer to her . She is looking at the computer and I look closely at the right side of her face. I can faintly see veins running across her cheek. I have the urge to kiss her and move closer. The dream fades and I awake.
Awake: 4:00 to 4:30 am, then reawoke at 5:00 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 10
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 7
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 10 min
Emotions: General happiness, desire
Dream Signs: Back in old neighborhood; Celebrity who I know; In my in-law’s neighborhood; Ex-Wife’s dead grandfather; No text where there should be text (laptop, on the street where we were waling there should have been a stop sign right in front of us plus other signs)
Notes: Took magnesium, B-5 & Chorin. Not a great night for dream recall. I woke up earlier in the night from a dream, but couldn’t recall anything before I dozed back off. I awoke from Dream 1 close to 4 am and had trouble falling back to sleep. I estimate I fell back to sleep at 4:30ish. I was dreaming when my alarm startled me awake at 5:00 am and erased all memory of it. I am sick of my alarm clock, which is having issues anyway (cd player no longer works & some buttons don’t work) so I ordered a new “La Crosse Technologies Mood Light LED Nature Alarm” clock. This clock can be set to that slowly brightening light comes on 10 min prior to the alarm, and the alarm can be set to nature noises (birds, forest, ocean, or rain). It also has a dimmable back lit face, so it won’t be very bright.
Text Search Experiment: I read a recent study about forming new habits. The study showed it can take between 20 and 254 days to form a new habit, depending on the complexity of the habit (Drinking a glass of water each morning was the simple habit which took 20 days on average) and the personality of the person who is trying to form the habit. Forming the habit of continuously searching for text in real life is more complicated because I need to be aware all the time. This morning I completely forgot to do a text check when I awoke, when I went to the bathroom and when I went to my basement to work out. It wasn’t until I was done with my workout that I remembered that I should be checking. I feel this habit will take a few months to become fully ingrained into my real life. I’m sure it will take longer for it to feed into my subconscious. I will have to be diligent and keep a positive attitude.

The OFFICIAL Foxrally Dream Textbook

Had a pretty enjoyable dream today, as weird as it is. I'm pretty sure it's based on a book i recently read, "Artemis Fowl" by Eoin Colfer.

Note - I noticed that I often view myself as another person/creature/race during dreams, sometimes even in third person, so this might be a dream sign?

Normal dream:

I was relatively shorter and fatter, and I knew I was a gnome. I was walking around some weird underground HQ kind of place, and I was being guided by a winged elf sort of guy. He showed me around rooms the kitchen (I might have eaten something, because I tasted something in my mouth when I woke up). The place had a real "Clubhouse" feel to it, and there was a bunch of slides and ladders everywhere.

We climbed up to the roof, and there was a really angry lady "guarding" the room up there. The elf told me it's the bathroom. I looked inside and saw three other gnomes washing their hands looking disgusted by the water (even though it was perfectly normal).

The elf told me it's weird and he never saw them up here. He laughed and I told him "Yeah, I guess. Gnomes hate to be clean."

Then I woke up, probably due to my mom closing the door of our room.

i was at the airport. i knew that i had had this dream before. i was on the escalator, i ran into people that i knew when I was younger. there was a girl on the escalator next to mine. she was with someone who my friend said was the smartest man on the planet. very handsome, though the girl with him was even more beautiful. i shook hands with the man, he was unimpressed. i recognized the girl and her I. i told her I remembered meeting her before, she told me she did too [knowing that she understood I meant in another dream]. as we got off the escalator she started to get panicked. I asked her to come with me, she said she couldnt her parents were picking them up. the man was smiling the whole time, unconcerned. eventually she came with me, or did i go with her.. i can not remember. we were on a hill, not a grassy hill, a street, but there were beds. we were having sex, the other man, or another man, was also having sex with her. he left, we stopped having sex. it was not a sexual dream though, it did not feel like anything. we were lying in bed, things get hazy..

now my brother was with us. my brother, rob, suddenly started throwing up. I could tell she was feeling sick too, i cant recall if she threw up as well. we started to tell him to throw up in the street, not on the beds. In my dream I knew that this had happened before. I told them it must be from the pizza we ate, as that was what happened last time, although we had not eaten in this dream. I went up the hill to tell mom, asking her if she was sick, she looked sick, i told her to throw up and she would feel better. she told me she had been throwing up as had rob, she was coming out of a doorway that I assumed was a bathroom. I began to tell her that all this had happened before other, except last time there was a few minor differences [like last time there was no clean clothes to wear, I had the idea that I was naked although I was not. this time there were piles of clean laundry which I began to throw around as I explained to her that things were different this time]. when i turned back I saw my sister, jen, about to hit a brick wall with a sledge hammer. each time she touched the wall with the hammer it glowed red. i could almost see a cross in the brick wall. I ran down in a panic and told her not to, couldnt she see that the wall was turning red each time she touched it. I took the sledge hammer from her. as I did the wall, there was an old metal link on it, under the link were raised bricks, these bricks opened and closed like a door when I had the hammer. mom gasped and said ‘did you see that’. jen was confused as to why I didnt want her to hit the wall, she did not see that hidden door open. she and rob backed away and up the stairs, the wall this time was glowing red regardless of being touched. all of a sudden the floor beneath me started to shake and the air got very warm, it was hard to breathe. I started to back away, saying I could hardly breathe. they all said they felt the same way. then the ground burst open, like a trap door. I grabbed what appeared to be a frame with a door on it, I stood over the open ground which had fire beneath it and was very warm, hot air coming from beneath the hole. I started to say in a voice not my own, very deep and loud “get inside, get inside!” as if yelling at the bed energy to go through the door i was holding. suddenly mom started to laugh almost hysterically. i could feel energy passing from the hole in the ground, through the door i was holding and going back into the ground. i backed away, fearing that nothing productive was happening. suddenly, a face appeared in the hole in the ground, looking like a demon smiling. the face also looked like it was painted onto a piece of plastic. i suddenly got confused as if this was all a joke. then the face broke out of the hole. it was a small yellow balloon with a face painted on it with little legs, and it started to walk around. i ran down and attempted to stomp on it and missed. then i suddenly awoke. when I awpke I had an urge to cross myself.