---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2/2/2020 Went to bed at 1AM. Woke up at 7AM, no recall, forgot to attempt FILD Woke up at 8:30AM, 3 tags written down. forgot to attempt FILD woke up at 10AM, with recall, fell back asleep. Had more dreams and wrote down 2 tags when I got up at 11 ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Dream1: I was at someone elses house. It was the house of a girl who I was interested in sexually. It was a big house with lots of cool things, but details are fuzzy. I need to write my DJ right after waking for better details. At one point, the woman I was interested in brought me up to her room with someone else, and she had a wire(hidden microphone)(That was a tag but I dont remember that part). Then she tried to seduce me, she had most of her clothes off and seeing her from behind reminded me of this one thumbnail pic I see on the internet. I thought that it was too risky because her whole family was home, just downstairs. Later, we took pictures with all of our two families together. Even some extended family of mine as there, david switched places with someone for the pic and maria was climbing on the big wooden fence to get a good spot for a photo. After the pics, the woman(she was no longer kim, it was someone who looked more like my cousin) wanted me to help her imagine a dam built onto a cliff right near her place. She manifested the dam there and it was made of very simple geometry like it was from a really low budget video game or something. A few of us went to the dam and later when we were leaving I did a flip out of the window at the top while everyone else went out the bottom entrance. I went back to do it again later but it seemed to hard and scary this time. When we all went back and it was time to leave the woman transformed into my cousin and I age her a hug goodbye. Dream2: I was at a club that reminded me of Stereo. I was the first in, saw the DJ and then went to get a table for my friends. They arrived quickly and people wanted to buy some drinks but I didnt. I felt as though the servers were not very happy that I wasnt drinking but I felt that they would not have kicked me out because my friends were drinking.
We had a bit of a tidy yesterday and I had somewhat strange sleep because of a supplement I took that I even forgot I had around; but I'd also forgotten why I'd stopped taking it. I had extremely vivid dreams but unable to really stay asleep. The first two fragments were from some of the awakenings and were actually really quite long and detailed dreams, just as the third, but I didn't memorise enough of them since I didn't write them down when I had them. Dream Fragment: Was in my old home area. For some reason I managed to get a job as a secretary for some important person (politician/businessman?) and I was being interviewed by a woman with tied up hair and glasses; very similar to the secretary in the original Deus Ex game, come to think of it. For whatever reason I was using an alias, a French name going just by "Sís", even though I was uncertain myself how I should pronounce it. I remember being asked about speaking French, and I said (roughly) in French that I could speak the language poorly. I remember the room I was in was office-like but sort of well decorated as I'd expect for my native region. Dream Fragment: I wasn't a character myself in this dream. It was more like watching something. It was in China or a place like it and I was seeing inside an office at a business skyscraper. Two men were discussing (in English) about how a brand new government law was going to make everyone's life hell, basically. They could see it being announced on a TV at their workplace. Everyone was becoming afraid of speaking to anyone else but most people were uncomfortably relaxed in a sense, seemingly they felt safe in this place anyway. I remember one of these two men making a comment saying "I don't even want to take anyone in my car with me anymore." Then there were some scenes outside, scenes of traffic and of dead vegetation/landscapes. It was a gloomy day-time throughout this dream. Dream Fragment: I am somewhere underground, at some kind of mixed restaurant/convenience store place. I'm with my family, and I'm making small talk with the shop lady. She's interested in my phone and asks if I can get her some extra ones of the same model. I say sure, but then question if it's worth it. I tell her that if I get them at a "brand new price" there's nothing in it for either of us. Before she can give me a reasonable idea of what the agreement would be, my phone "rings" (vibrates, more like, I think). It's an old friend, someone I haven't spoken to in over two years in waking reality. Da is calling me and I try to answer but somehow I tap something that says "delete contact" right under "accept call"! Feeling frustrated by the fact I just made such a mistake I try to get the number back somehow from the log and then try calling back. He answers and I try to speak but he can't hear me. I walk outside from this shop, still underground and take a left and then a right and go up some stairs. I'm outside now. I don't remember what it looked like exactly, but get the feeling of "arid". I speak again, and Da hears me now. I ask, "Hey, how are you? It's been a really long time." He says "I'm ok, I guess." He makes some sort of ironic and witty but also serious remark about how I hadn't been in contact. I try to explain that I did try communicating over the last two years, but that every time I did, I never heard anything back. We get into small talk and his behaviour over the phone seems more normal, less upset as it seemed like initially. I can hear he's playing something on a console. "Is that Tekken you're playing?" He doesn't answer immediately, concentrating and then says he'll be finished shortly and then we could do (whatever it was) that we were going to do. I quickly realise internally that it couldn't be a Tekken game. All the sounds are too sort of retro and synth-like. I remember pacing around outside while on the phone, something I do anywhere whilst on the phone. Everything feels vivid and somewhat real despite the fact that the place I'm at looks somewhat alien. The structure of this place on the outside is some sort of hard compacted sand and I'm on some kind of platform. There are metal beams or girders somewhere as part of the structure, but I forget the details now. It's kind of daytime, but there's a strange light. I don't remember anything else now but this fragment was only the second half of this dream. No notes for now.
Last night, I had the car dream again. My sisters breath reeked like it always does and she was invading my space trying to get me to talk with her while we waited for mom to get in. All I could do to try to avoid her breath was look at the empty tan driver seat and hope she would get the hint. She never did. The think I remember most from last nights dream was mom getting frustrated about the car being difficult to start. In earlier dreams, she was almost like a robot. She would get in the car, get the mirrors adjusted, and then focus her attention on stating the car. She had little if any conversations with us and didn't have any reaction when the car wouldn't start up. Last night, she was getting very frustrated that it was not starting. When she decided to get out and look under the hood, and I asked if I could get out she snapped at me that she was responsible for starting and driving the car and I needed to stay buckled in my seat. She also told me I needed to calm down because she would get the car started. I didn't think I was panicking or freaking-out, but she wanted me to be calmer. I find it interesting that mom keeps getting out to look under the hood in all of these dreams. In waking life, she is not very mechanical and has probably never looked under the hood of a car. It is kind of strange that she keeps looking under it in these dreams.
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