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I was browsing YouTube when I came across this now-defunct collab YouTube channel by two guys from Groningen that was called BROERS (In my dream it was, the channel actually exists under a different name, but my memory couldn't place it) but because there's a really crazy Dutch podcast called BROERS, I went to check the channel to discover that it was now renamed BLIEP (Dutch for bleep), probably to prevent copyright troubles (funnily enough there's a phone company called bliep* as well) I check the YouTube channel and, to my surprise, it has the 2.0 channel layouf (beta channel as it used to be called in 2009) from 2009-2012 (or 2011 I forgot) before they came up with Cosmic Panda and every current ugly design that they have.
Confused (and excited) I try to figure out how these channels have the old layout again, I come across this account of a Dutch guy, then come across the channel of his girlfriend, who has an English speaking video where she talks about her boyfriend, who's nentaly ill, and her own mental health.
Next thing I know I'm walking past an industrial area with the couple, kinda similar to the IKEA area in Utrecht as well as the IKEA area in South Berlin (both 030) the boyfriend is walking steps ahead because they're on they're way to an isolation chamber for their mental health. Meanwhile I'm talking with his girlfriend in English, she tells me that she met her boyfriend abroad in the UK, I ask her where she's from and tells me that she's actually Dutch to which I reply with "Leip!" (which is Dutch "slang" for crazy)
We then arrive at the isolation chamber, which is a tiny gym room covered in mats. We sit on the mats while I'm still joking around with the girlfriend. The boyfriend angrily yells "You guys annoy me!" before walking to the door to let more people in.
Me, who suddenly realises that we're in the isolation chamber, tells the girlfriend I'm gonna wait outside so everyone can concentrate (and I also don't have the concentration myself to sit in a small room full of strangers in silence for lord knows how long)
I walk out the room into the hallway, the interior of the building is similar to that of a kindergarten, doctor's office, or just a local wellness center as the halls had dry beige walls, bookshelves witj this books, and benches. Kinda like the hallway of my old primary school when I studied there in the mid to late 2000s. I walk around and the hall is apparently also a sauna as a bunch of middle aged blonde Dutch women are sunbathing in their short, light yellow bikinis on the floor.
I'm trying to find a place where I can sit to wait for my friends, where I can still see them leave, but also make it not look like I'm peeking at the sunbathing women who are in the same area as the room I'm paying attention to.
I bump into a sauna going woman and she goes "Sorry, Cesar chocolate milk!" while giggling before introducing herself as "Elvira van der Voort" (Not a real person as far as I know, any person with that name is coincidental or how they say that in movie credits) I then introduce herself with my first and last name as well (which I rarely do unless necessary) she starts laughing and pointing at her teeth as she realises my name is actually Caesár. I then realise she may not have called me chocolate milk because I'm black as I suddenly have a flashback of me drinking chocolate milk before leaving the isolation chamber and the chocolate milk brand apparently being called Cesar. I try to check my teeth, but suddenly realize I have trouble physically opening my mouth, I then wake up as I had about seven hours of sleep.

I’m reading through profiles posted on a website. For one, I read, “My story does not begin or end and has no need to stop at these David’s bones.”

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I’m going to a gym or similar. Everybody there is trying to work out some cryptic puzzle. The phrase “traveling in the tail of a sound” is a hint.

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I’m attending a class in a floating city where all the buildings and such look like clouds – almost certainly as a person other than myself. It’s a group of a dozen or so students led by a teacher. There’s a nocturnal atmosphere. Up until this point, I’ve been behind the rest of the class, but something has clicked for me since the last time we met. All of us are supposed to race to find a certain ship (airship, really, although it wasn’t described that way). I start out strong and have a lead from the beginning, and I actually make it there first. (This part is sort of video game-ish.) We do a couple more rounds after that; I take even more efficient routes, having a better idea of the city’s layout, and again make it there first. The third time, which works a little differently, I make it to the ship so far ahead that I actually have time to untie it and bring it around to where the others are still struggling to get past a certain obstacle.

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The next dream from that night is explicitly video game-like rather than implicitly. The dream involves the party going down to the underworld to rescue a comrade. This is a fairly routine occurrence, although enough of a bother to where it’s still better to avoid having to do it. This is the first time it’s happened in this game, so we get a special introduction to Fancrow, who is putting in a special appearance as lord of the dead. Fancrow is an older man, short, Caucasian, with white hair and a beard, wearing a blue uniform trimmed in yellow – just how he looked in the previous game. There are a number of little references to his role in that game, where he was a side character: there, you have to win a duel against him to get [handwriting illegible]. I’ve been given to understand that he just lets the dead person go the first time, and also the first time it happens after a solstice passes (which is yet another little reference). But nothing is happening. In addition to the action playing out, there are a number of interface elements visible, including one with a grayed-out sword. That means that we haven’t yet recruited the party member who would be really helpful in this situation.

It’s also possible for the deceased themselves to trigger their own release, and the dream then cuts to the PoV of the person we’re here for, who’s in the process of doing just that. She jumps onto a flying vehicle, which instantly plummets since it’s set to the gravity of the lower realms. As it goes down, a bad smell becomes more and more prominent – associated with the place itself.

The dream cuts back to the scene with Fancrow, where something is happening. He’s being hit with small objects in advance of the party member breaking through. Things are looking good now, but I’m still angry at Fancrow for taking my friend away, so I take advantage of his distraction to punch him. But he isn’t taken off guard. He just mirrors my action and grins. I know that now I’m going to be the next one to end up down here.

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To help RD, I go to a place that looks like an abandoned mall to complete some kind of puzzle that involves getting the air to flow into a certain place up high, which is necessary to accomplish something. There’s no place I can stand to get it there directly, so I have to use the extremely larger flowers growing high up on vines there to redirect it. This is a timed puzzle, but I manage to complete it quickly, mentally directing the air along the right path. RD is happy about this. We are part of a small group, and because of this, she will be able to provide the space for us to do something later on. Possibly related, although for reasons that are now unclear, later on, I'm running through mental projections of rat experiments, one after another, changing the conditions as certain aspects become clear so I can get another step closer to figuring out what I want to know. I do tens of thousands of them, although each one only seems to take instants to run start to finish. It seems as if all of this is necessary since I'm trying to actually figure out the causation of something rather than just navigating outcomes.

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I have, in connection with (dream-)siblings, made something that had gotten very popular. I'm getting invitations from people all over the world wanting me to have adventures with them. I could travel anywhere in an instant, but that somehow makes it seem less interesting. And what I really want to do is just to get back to the newest musical project I'm working on.

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I'm with a group of people in a small city, chasing after someone. We split into groups to surround them. Something will end when we catch this person, and I want it to be over really badly. I experience the landscape of the dream as having harmonic connotations – in the area where I am, specifically, ones indicating tension. There’s no audible music playing, just a sense of information being perceptible as part of my experience of the dream.

(July, mostly)

1. Dream Yoga Book (LD)
As I continue to circle back around the pillar with alcoves, I return to the Dream Yoga book I was surprised to see. At the second glance however, I notice that the color has changed to a light red color and text has changed, and I realize: oh this is a dream! I tell Bren, it's a dream and I'm lucid. I begin walking around the immediate area in the and explaining that you can do various actions in a dream. The dream isn't perfectly clear, so I think about teleporting. As it begins to fade, I begin thinking about The Village, and imagine it in a wintery setting. The dream begins to fade and I wake up.f

2. The Mirror (LD)
My friend continues to smell his own cologne, and then mine. I find it strange, and feel very awkward. I realize it's a dream and gain a lower level of lucidity I turn and head to the mirror, looking at my hands to study the difference in dream. As I do so, my lucidity raises, and I appreciate the 'ethereal' quality is has and make a point to process this visual quality. I head to the mirror, then toward the front of the house. The dream is a bit foggy and I worry about it fading, yet want to hold onto the dream and begin to imagine a dream scene I wake up.

3. Tornado Meditation (LD)
I see the black cars pulling into the driveway and partially into the garage, with one or more male figures in each, all having a mischievous look. I feel threatened as they appear to be ready to harm me in some way. I suddenly realize I'm dreaming. I walk up to the figure in the driver's seat of the first car, going along with the current dream plot and punch him in the face, crushing his head midway into his skull. I then raise his entire body with one hand into the roof of the car. I begin to walk up to the next hostile character and punch him in the head as well. I realize this is one of the few lucid dreams I've had fights in and feel like I'm wasting time, and feel like I've been a bit violent so I head to the side of driveway and begin walk on the side of the house down down a grassy area. There are a few dream characters who appear to have been from the waking life zen sesshin I was at, and I begin following them. I suddenly decide to teleport to The Village and get excited about practicing element manipulation by summoning wind. I wave my right arm to the left, creating a tornado around me. I see the walls of the tornado forming around me, surging with leaves caught in the mix. I sit in a meditative posture and begin levitating off the ground within the vortex. As I begin to meditate, I close my eyes, and imagine a scene of The Village. I suddenly appear in a grassy area by The Dark Woods in The Meadow. At first I don't want to be there, but see that the scene is very pretty, so all of a sudden I don't mind. It's not quite as vivid as I want, so I begin shouting "clarity now!" several times, and the vividness ramps up. I see the house across from me lit up with all of it's interior lights through and area with no fence. I turn to my right and see that the fence is still missing in the area where I moved it in a non-lucid recently. I start heading in this direction to explore a section of The Meadow I haven't scene yet, but then decide I want to visit the Greek Temple area. I turn around and start heading in that direction and begin to realize it might take a little while to trek through that section of the neighboring yard. I wake up.

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~23:19, OOB: ~09:41, fitbit score: 81 (8:41 asleep, 1:41 awake, 1:45 deep, 1:23 REM), med right before bed
• Wakings:
  
  1. 00:58 b/r, no recall
  2. 03:25, b/r, no recall, basically awake until about 06:00?
  3. 06:30(?) woke from LD #191! brief but fairly clear and a bit amusing
  4. 09:41 final waking
• Drank a glass of wine in the evening with dinner. Definitely impacted sleep negatively. Long waking period, several hours, maybe dozed a bit here and there.
• all content from memory, no notes taken during the night or morning, written 20:00 the evening. Some of the details of the long near-epic have faded.

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W3: LUCIDD LD #191 Chinese Restaurant
I'm outside on a city sidewalk with a small group of colleagues, we're going to lunch, and several of them enter in to a restaurant. I follow them. Inside is a medium/large room filled with tables and people sitting at the tables eating. It is a Chinese restaurant. I'm looking for evidence that they have my favorite dishes. I'm looking at the plates on the tables, I see my colleagues sitting and eating. The food is all chopped sauteed meat with various sauces, notably red sauces. I'm walking among the tables, and I decide that the cuisine is not to my taste and I want to leave back to outside. I turn around, but there are people sitting at tables all around me, and there is no path back through the room. I'm blocked [DS!]. I try several times to squeeze past in between the chairs but there's just not room. I try several different paths and I can't find a way out. I move to the side of the room (left side with back to street entrance) along the wall where there's a couch. (I ask the staff to help me clear a path?). I half climb on the couch and I see on the ground where have to step next, two bathroom scales on top of each other. I think then that people will be able to see how much I weight and I'm a bit hesitant. I step on them and look down, one of them shows nothing notable, but the other one displays my correct waking name (slightly misspelled with graphics and rectangles in place of some letters), and I'm really surprised by this, how could this scale know my name? I get the idea it may be a dream, I do a nose pinch, and get lucid.
I'm very amused that the scale knew my name! and then I fade to awake in the same pose I fell asleep, with my arms around my wife. [Short lucid period, but I'm very strict about counting my lucids, there must be an explicit affirmation or firm knowledge of recognizing the dream state, so, "lucid is lucid!", and I'm counting it]

W4: Long near epic
Escape from shooter

Outdoors, it's some sort of adventure/thriller plot, there are (3?) of us rushing through a city park-like walkway with some trees on it, we're in a rush, I feel semi-lucid, but I decide to go along with the plot. Half-realizing it's a dream, and hearing the sound of a helicopter flying nearby, I tell one of my cohorts to "call <some guy> in the helicopter to meet us and pick us up!". Then I'm alone and trying to dodge/avoid providing a free shot from a shooter who's stationed on about the 6th floor of a large/long ~10 story building. I move quickly to the base of a large building opposite his position, all the while hoping he won't shoot me. I make my way around the back of the building on the site away from the shooter, and am on a higher level now, on sort of a platform. I do the Clark Kent action "pull open your shirt with two hands to show the Superman Logo" and decide to take off flying and attack the shooter (?).

Ordering Food in the Stadium

[these mini-scenes may be out of dream order]. I'm in a steep stadium seating area, open rows are all around with people sitting down, with a central stairway leading down. At some point I place an order for food: tacos, pad thai, and something else [This is from an incubated plan to eat these things when lucid!]. Then later, I'm walking down the stairway, and I have the order in hand in a brown paper bag. I open the bag and look down into it: I see what looks like an order of nachos (tortilla chips with melted cheese), and some blob of food that I think is the pad thai. (I'm surprised they were able to fulfill the order?). Back down at our seating area, I think something may be missing from the order that I've already paid for. I ask a waiter to explain the bill to me. He mumbles something incoherently and walks away from me. I'm still confused about the order and follow him, calling out "Hey! Answer my question. HEY, WAITER!!!" he is not responding to me and I'm getting very upset. He doesn't want to deal with me, being a "problem customer." Then, I'm wanting to walk back up the stairway, but I have to first enter through a kind of turnstyle and take a different path.

Lose the dogs, memory wipe

I'm meeting my wife L, (she asks?) where are the dogs? I was walking them, and they're not here! I have absolutely no memory whatsoever of having walked them, and I'm very upset that I've both lost the dogs and have a totally blank memory about the situation. This goes on for a while with me being totally astounded and concerned at the blank period of memory. Then somebody holds up a mobile phone for me to see, it's playing a video that shows a man bouncing crazily out of control off of walls on buildings, and I can see that this is me! I have no memory of doing this. I'm very concerned. In another scene (?), I'm indoors and there's something about a game console (?). I think perhaps that there were people who used a device against me to wipe a portion of my memory? And got me to do something?

Pulling up to CD on the street

I'm driving in a car with a guy in the front passenger seat, and I see that ChrDw (company 3) is standing on the side of the road, at a point where parking is allowed again, but his car is in the way, and so I'm waiting for him to move his car so I can park there. But my passenger then gets out of the car and moves to CD and starts talking with him. I think that CD doesn't want to talk to me [hasn't for many years in waking], so I'm hesitant about this course of action. (I think CD may be involved in the plot that wiped a portion of my memory?

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~00:10 [too late!], OOB: ~07:46, fitbit score: 83 (6:48 asleep, 0:38 awake, 1:24 deep, 1:01 REM)
• Wakings:
  
  1. 02:18 b/r, no recall
  2. 05:28, b/r, recall,
  3. 07:46 OOB no recall
• Light recall, very short content, low vividness, presence not very high
• BTS at W2 took a while, but apparently did sleep eventually. Another victory, yay!

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W2: Naval battle
Mostly DO. Starting with an overhead view of a map, it shows the position of a naval battle (historical?), then real ships are sailing, and they are firing their cannons, the entire long broadside of one ship fires, I think that's a lot of canons. Afterwards, a team of scrappers arrive and their job is to dismantle the big ship in to parts (for sale?). We go to one end of the ship and they say that they have found objects including an old car hidden inside the structure of the ship using x-ray imagine. They give an estimate for the complete dismantling job.

W2: Bad check con
There are two people, a man and a woman, who run a bad check con. The woman is inside a store and I hear her talking with the owner, she has bought the entire inventory of the store and wants confirmation that everything there is hers now. The man is walking outside on the street.

W2: Observed by woman
I'm inside a room in a house/building talking with people. I see that there is a woman peeking at me around a slightly opened door. I want her to go away. (I push the door closed?). After the door closes I watch the gap underneath the door to see by the shadow/lighting if she is still standing there or not.

1. Sky Full of Moons (LD)
I'm in a dark downstairs area of a large home. I search my memory for the girlfriends in the dream scene, but nothing comes to mind...it doesn't make sense, and I become lucid. I'm in a dark room that resembles a large kitchen with a large set of cabinets against the far wall and a counter in front of me. I walk toward the laptop on the counter in front of me, and begin opening the screen. I consider looking something up, but decide I don't want to lose focus on that. I see an opened cabinet ahead of me, and consider searching for some food, but decide that's a distraction as well. I head to the front of the house toward the door and begin thinking about how long the dream could last. I walk into the door, and my vision goes black as I phase into it. I begin imagining the scene of the The Village. I suddenly appear on a driveway with a black SUV to my left. It's the middle of the night, and as I look up, I see two small moons, and think of Woue. I look around the sky to see if I can find the large planet with the ring surround it. Suddenly, the entire night sky fills with large crescent moons, hundreds of them glowing in yellow and filling the entire sky. It's an awesome scene, and I continue to gaze across the sky. The song 'A sky full of stars' pops into my head, and begins to play in the dream. I think of my nephew getting excited about the song and find it funny. A couple purple portals begin appearing in the sky above me, followed by black webbing soon after, which stretches further across the sky. I wake up

2. The Cargo Hold (LD)
I'm in a large area which resembles a cargo hold of some sort. It appears to be an elevated area within some large vehicle - possibly a flying fortress of sorts. The situation doesn't make sense to me, so I quickly nose plug and I become lucid. I drop below to the ground through an opening on the floor of the room. As I hit the ground, my vision darkens. I begin spinning, and wind starts to form around me . I think of element manipulation, and flick my left hand counterclockwise, trying to summon a tornado around me. Wind starts to surge around me in a vortex, and I see the walls of it churning. I'm picked up off the ground, but the dream fades.

3. Intro Screen (LD)
I'm in a large dark first floor room and I'm instantly lucid .In front of me, a computer monitor sits on a desk in the middle of the room. I watch the screen and it seems to be loading an RPG of some sort and I think it could be Diablo. It seems like an intro scene, and has a dark center with a gold border. I continue to wait for an interesting scene to load so I can possibly phase into it, but it seems like the same image and sound keeps repeating. I decide to ignore it, and explore the scene a bit more by exploring further ahead into the room. I enter a hallway, and consider heading to The Village, but it's very dark and I don't feel like losing the dream stability or teleporting from that location. I head to the front of the house, and there are blinds like in Serrano, which I pass through to enter an outdoor lanai area with a pool. I continue further, expecting The Village beyond. I end up on a stretch of pavement which seems to be on a campus that extends down the side of a stadium area. I black trucks appears to my left as I continue walking and my neck starts hurting. I try to alleviate it, but realize it's probably my real body's neck. I start hoping that it doesn't interfere with the dream, and actually think it would be annoying to be in that pain for the entire dream. I start thinking of some dream goals, but the dream fades and I wake up.

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~23:55, OOB: ~07:37, fitbit score: 83 (6:39 asleep, 1:03 awake, 0:41 deep, 1:25 REM), med right before bed
• Wakings:
  
  1. 01:16 b/r, no recall
  2. 05:18, b/r, recall, brief MILD. << check it out, 4 hours of sleep in a row! Look maw, no wakings/pee trips!
  3. 07:37 OOB
• Long time initially falling asleep at BT as wife was reading on her phone and then settled down to sleep, sort of keeping me awake
• After a bit of recall and quick recording at waking #2, I felt drowsy enough still to fall asleep quickly. I focused quickly on relaxing completely. Did just a bit of MILD. Fell asleep pretty quickly! Fitbit shows awake only 17 min (including b/r, and summary recording in journal)
• wrote two dreams on top of each other! One is completely illegible/lost it looks like... ah, a later phrase brought one back. I remember thinking there were 3 dreams.

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W2: Call Center
I'm in a phone call center. Banks of operators on phones arrange in several wide parallel rows. I take a call from Nazi Germany. I do not speak German, but I am pretending to know how. There are a couple of women observing me, (one is my manager?) I'm saying and thinking words, trying to make sense, but the only thing I can think of are words in <foreign language not German>.

W2: Business meeting
I'm sitting in a large room, a man (our manager?) is standing at the front berating us (me?) for not getting out changes in on time. This goes on for a while, it's hard to get a word in, I'm finally able to blurt out "I got everything checked in yesterday!" (They say, "why not earlier"?)

W2: Girl on the couch
I'm lying on a couch with a girl who's apparently my girlfriend. The couch is located on an external corner (it "turns" around the corner) between two rooms. I want to have some private "fun" with my g/f, I grab her (ahem) from outside her clothing, and pull us both around the corner so we're out of view from the first room. She tells me she doesn't want any more wine (as a gift) because she has too much of it already. I say "yes, me too, but I was planning to share it with you!"

W3: Animals at night
I'm on my deck outside my house outside the city. I'm walking towards the door into the house, when I catch a glimpse of two little dots of light in the yard of the house across the path from the deck. I do a double take and bob my head around to get a bearing on them, and I decide they are animal eyes reflecting the light. I shine a spotlight and I see a large, orange cat standing there. The longer I look, the more animals appear, all dogs and cats. I think they're all local, not wild. Then a dog jumps the fence of that yard and easily sails over my fence to land in my own yard.

W3: LUCIDD LD #290 Massive LD
Flying at LHS

I'm outside on the path to the LHS parking lot from to gate spot where the asphalt ends and the dirt trail begins. I'm standing there looking down into the valley. There are now a lot out houses there, they are very colorful. They're arranged in a nice little neighborhood. I really want a closer look, so I lean out over the hill and take off flying/gliding. There's a guy, ClnCse (company 3, previously at company I) there on my left as I take off, he's walking towards the LHS parking lot. I know he doesn't approve of me flying, so I mischievously say S/L "Hey C, don't look at me!" while I fly out over the valley and look down to appreciate the view of the houses from above.

Get Lucid

[I forgot the part in between Flying at LHS and my first strong notion of lucidity]
I'm quite sure I'm dreaming, but I nose pinch to be sure, and while there is some resistance, the air is definitely moving, woohoo I'm dreaming!

Reflecting on vividness

In in the upper hallway of CH, facing the b/r, my room is to my right. There is a table with colorful objects on top of it there in the hallway, they look like pieces of art glass, with bright orange, red, brown colors. I decide to take a moment and really reflect/take a reading on the level of vividness of the dream, since there was discussion about this recently on reddit /r/LucidDreaming. I look closely at the art glass objects, and at the scene around me. I quickly conclude that yes, this dream has vividness and clarity easily equal to (or greater than) waking experiences. (I think I touch them as well, and the sense of touch is waking-like as well?).

Checking out "my package"

I move in to my sister's room, and recall that I sometimes like to checkout what I'm packing in my pants in the dream. I pull down my pants and take my (ahem) into my hand and look at it. It looks non-waking, not familiar shape. MEO. "Time for some goals!" I think. I feel like the dream has been really long, like an hour at least, and I look at a clock on the wall to confirm this.

Fun with the fairy, mom & dad tease

I move in to my room, and I am having a sexy time encounter with a little fairly (MEO). We're on the bed that is closer to the door.

Spoiler for sexy time:

it starts with oral on me and I move to intercourse with her.

Then I hear my parents coming up the stairs. I think that this is waking life sound manifesting into the dream, that my parents are coming up the stairs in waking life [false, impossible, don't live in CH, mom passed away], and that this is an interesting phenomenon. I don't want to be discovered so I turn away from the door with the fairy underneath me. Mom & dad both come into the room, dad (standing? getting on to?) the foot of the bed (don't see him), and my mom right in front of me, leaning over, getting right down in my face. I'm trying to fake sleeping. My mom finds the fairy and is teasing me about her, I'm trying to push my mom away from me and hoping she'll go away. My dad says "You're squishing her!" (the fairy).

FA, fly through window

I wake up in the same bed in the same room from the last scene. I suspect I'm still dreaming. I do a nose pinch and I'm still dreaming, woohoo. I see my window in front of me, the blinds are closed and the room is dark-ish, but a lot of white light is coming through the window. I decide to fly / phase out through the window. I take a few steps back (do another nose pinch to confirm I'm dreaming?) then run at the window and launch myself at it horizontally arms out in front of me. I move through the window, but very slowly, like it's made of some think liquid. I come out the other side...

"FryingMan" bus, Red River Valley w/girl

... and I'm outside in daylight, there is a long white bus just in front of me, perpendicular to me, right its front to my right. There is blue/green-ish text along the side of the bus. It says "FryingMan <something something>", several times, and each time "FryingMan" is misspelled slightly, in a way that I find highly amusing and laugh out loud. Like, "FryingMauk" or "FryiAuMan", incorrect letters inserted into the middle of the word. I decide to board the bus. There are a couple of girls walking by and I take them along with me. We all sit down right next to the driver. I start singing "Red River Valley" with the girl closest to me. She's following my lead, as she doesn't know the words. I sing the raunchy "boy scout" version: "Then come sit on my face if you love me.....do not hasten to give me a screw....but remember the Red River Valley...and the cowboy who loved you so true." I'm watching her face while we're singing. I notice she has sharp little teeth, like a puppy. I'm "interacting" with the girl while we're singing (hand), there is a woman back behind us a bit to my left, she looks disapprovingly at the scene. I don't care and keep singing and "interacting".

The scene fades and I'm really happy that I've had a great, long LD, first like that in a long time.

Plan schedule is posted here: https://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/ilu...proving-95975/
With blue color I marked goals with "working in progress" status
With green color I marked reached goals
With red color I marked failed, missed or deleyed goals
G2g - Goal-to-goal
PoA - Point of Awarness
PoA' - Corrected Point of Awarness
(More about g2g and PoA here: https://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/ilu...warness-96103/)


Dream Recalling
In this two weeks I started writing down my dreams but I don't have many of them. Good news is my dreams are starting to be much more aware (but not lucid) and recalling is slighty better. I call this "High Aware Non-Lucid Dream" (HANLD)
Funny thing is once I was aware of my own snoring. Saddly it didn't make me lucid.

Recalling at beginning: 0-1 at good quality and/or 0-3 at any quality
Goal: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-6 at any quality
Month 1: 0-1 at good quality and/or 0-3 at any quality
Month 2: 1 at good quality and/or 1-3 at any quality
Month 3: 1-2 at good quality and/or 2-4 at any quality
Month 4: 2 at good quality and/or 3-5 at any quality
Month 5: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-5 at any quality
Month 6: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-6 at any quality

Meditation
Nothing special to report

Goals: 2x20 minutes
Month 1: 2x5 minutes
Month 2: 2x7minutes
Month 3: 2x10 minutes
Month 4: 2x12 minutes
Month 5: 2x15 minutes
Month 6: 2x20 minutes

Day awarness
My goal-to-goal system made me aware how difficult ADA is. It is not a problem with being disciplined nor motivated. The big deal is with awarness by it self. I can regulary come back to ADA but I can't keep my awarness more than 2-3 minutes. It really piss me off, but now I know where is my problem and that mean I can try to fix it.
Also I thought about g2g system and PoA and I think it is good system but I need to make correction factor to make PoA more accurate. More about goal-to-goal and Points of Awarness I will write in second DJ entry.


Goal: Reach “very high awarness” level
]Month 1: “Non-zero” (> 0 PoA)
Month 2: “Occasionally” (> 48 PoA)
Month 3: “Low awarness” (> 144 PoA)
Month 4: “Moderate awarness” (> 240 PoA)
Month 5: “High awarness” (> 336 PoA)
Month 6: “Very high awarness” (> 432 PoA)

To make everything in order and easy to read I decided to write seperate entry what "goal-to-goal" and "Point of Awarness" are. So if somebody start read my "6 month plan" entries in middle it is not nessesery to read every prev entry for better understanding.

Goal-to-goal - It mean I'm not trying to be aware all time on waking day. I splitted ADA for smaller parts - "from goal to goal". Every single activity have start and end. So if I decided to be aware during that activity I know how much time I was aware. And more importat - if I lose my awarness I can estimate when I lost it

Poit of Awarness (PoA) - It is Time of ADA Session multipling via Difficulty Factor
Difficulty Factor (D/F) is as follow:
Automatic activities (like walking, daydreaming or anything else that doesn't requires my attention so I can keep my mind clear) - 0.5
Regular activities (meditation, chit-chat with other people or anything that requires normal level of my attention) - 1.0
Distracting activities (Watching film, plying games, studying or any other distracting activities) - 1.5
During my ADA session I discovered that my awarness isn't "pure". I'm able to keep my attention for few minutes and after that my mind drift off for next few minutes. That mean my True Awarness isn't equal with ADA session. That forced me to create "Correction Factor"
Correction Factor (C/F)
It is estimenting twice per week (it will be monday and thuseday). In this time I will make accurate meansurment during series of very short (circa 5-10 minutes) ADA session. For example - If my series are:
6 minutes of aware per 10 min of session
3 minutes of aware per 10 min of session
5 minutes of aware per 10 min of session
4 minutes of aware per 10 min of session
4 minutes of aware per 10 min of session
5 minutes of aware per 10 min of session
That mean my correction is 0.45 (because 27/60)
Corrected Point of Awarness (PoA') - It is PoA multipling via Correction.
I think using C/F is a little bit to harsh on my level so I will use PoA and C/F as seperate values and seperate goals.

Why it is important to me?
Because it is much more easier for managment. I don't need to think "how much I was aware" and I don't need to be scary if my subjective feelings are accurate or not. Even if my calculation are not 100% accurate, I have fixed procedures and I can compare my results

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~23:55, OOB: ~07:20, no fitbit score
• Wakings:
  
  1. 02:30 b/r recall? chess position
  2. 06:24, b/r, main recall
  3. 06:59, brief recall, tried for sleeping until 07:30, didn't fall asleep, got up at 07:20
  4. 07:20 OOB
  
  
• Recall quality: weak, not high presence, details faded. But I woke initially with no recall at all, and the detail came back to me while I was resting quietly, so that seems like a success!
• I did manage to fall asleep somewhere between 06:30 and 07:00. The dream was super short, but "evidence" was that I was asleep briefly. A small but incremental success in BTS.

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W1?: Chess position
I'm analyzing a chess position, (trying to attract a piece into a fork?)

W2: Pizza Restaurant
Inside a restaurant, there are a number of different pizzas on display on a counter. I'm looking at them to see which one I'd like. They are small, individual-sized pizzas. There is a server there, and he is handing me a couple of the ones that looked really good to me, just the ones I wanted, I think this is a lucky coincidence. One was pepperoni(?), and one was a combination with Italian sausage

W2: Assassin drama
I get in trouble with a group of assassins, (by killing one of them?), and now they're coming for me. There was a long, intricate scheme of how to pull off a murder.

W2: Breakfast Crowd
DO daytime outside view of Shtck S in B at the intersection of Rs street (where the pharmacy and the Safeway are across from each other where Shtck street splits) facing South looking towards downtown. It's early morning, and I get the idea of going for a pasty in a nearby cafe. I go in, and there is a massive crowd. I think it's a bit strange for there to be such a large crowd at such an early hour, but then again it is a university town, so it makes sense.

W3: In CH dining room
I'm sitting down to a tiny desk/table (like 1 foot square) in the middle of the CH dining room. It's dark, like the only lights on are from the living room. My mom is in the living room and she's coming to help me with (some paperwork? my taxes?). I feel like I'm "at attention" and reach down to more comfortably adjust myself, and I do it quickly because I don't want my mom to see this.