false awakening

In one of my confusing cycles of false awakenings, there was one that stood out from the rest.
I opened my eyes to see my room. I was lying on my back. Usually I sleep on my side with my legs drawn up near my stomach, almost in fetal position, while hugging a pillow under my head. But that's not what made me suspect it was a dream. My vision was blurry, I felt vibrations in the back of my head, I heard the sound of what could be my facial muscles tensing (try making a huge grin all the way to your ears, you will hear a kind of rumbling / underwater sound). I recognized all these three signs from past experiences with sleep paralysis (or dreams of sleep paralysis) and thought knew what was coming; a bit of noise, vibrating vision and colorful hallucinations. But what I got, was the terrifying experience many people talk about. I couldn't move, and I felt a presence by the side of my bed. I was scared and wanted it to end, but I couldn't do much before I knew if it was a dream, and I had to perform a reality check for that. My reality check of choice is to clench my nose and try to breathe. Problem is, how do you do that if you can't move your hands? I fought hard to lift my hand - it felt like there were concrete blocks attached to my arm, weighing it down - and eventually I got it up to my nose. I clenched it and I could breathe! Now the dream would end for sure, like all the other times I discovered I was dreaming in the past months. But it didn't. I tried to open my real eyes (or my eyes into the next dream, I'm not sure), but they too were weighed down by concrete blocks.
I woke up in my bed again, terrified. Thought maybe I should do a reality check to make sure I was awake this time, but it felt so real I didn't bother, and slipped away, either back into sleep or into the next dream. Right now, I am not sure if I was even awake.

Lately I've been having a lot of confusing dreams. They usually go like this: The dream starts and I find myself somewhere, often in my bed. Eventually I realize something's off and do a reality check. Seconds after I realize it's a dream, the dream puts me back in my bed and wakes me up - into a new dream. This cycle tends to go on 6 or more times, to the point where when I eventually wake up, I'm confused as hell and it takes me a minute to make sure I'm not still dreaming.

8/13/2013

Key:
Lucid Dream
Waken Up
Non-lucid Dream

I did a WBTB and partly a MILD for this. I also went to sleep upstate in an RV.

I woke up in my bed at home. I did a reality check by putting my hand up to the window to observe my hands. There wasn't enough light to see, so I tried to do something, and I ended up having my vision zoom in. I saw I was in a dream. Though I never stabilized the dream, and I wasn't very aware, it lasted for a pretty good amount of time. After realizing I was dreaming, I levitated out of bed and tried to fly out the window. For some reason, I couldn't get through. I had to really concentrate to make it through. Even then, I ended up teleporting to some warehouse. I found myself running to get to a portal at the other end of the warehouse. I was also shooting at people with a "hand" gun, and they were dying. :/ When I went through the portal, I got to my backyard on the other side of the window, right in front of the deck. I started petting my dog Ti, who was right next to me. At that point the dream faded, and I woke up in my bed at home again. I thought I was actually awake now, and thus didn't do a reality check. I actually think I went through a few false awakenings like that, before waking up for real.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some weird place and there was some spirituality related talk, then weird false awakening with some loud sound in my head and i was very dizzy, almost lucid, but i woke up before i could fully realize.

Dream 2(fragments):

Was playing some platformer that then turned out to be about sonic apparently, but was really weird, some levels were like unfinished and there was 'level skip' function, then later sonic was piloting some kind of mecha.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing spiral knights and was in guild hall, there were some problems we were trying to solve and discussions, there was some new function that apparently marked people as 'spy' when they said certain words in chat. Then the guild hall turned into old style guild hall and there are some players that are invisible, then i noticed the weirdness of game and realized that i am dreaming, i tried to chat with someone that was not in the game but then gaining no response i forgot about dreaming and continued with the game.
I went to run some gate clockworks and the rooms were connected rather interestingly, at first i thought i was solo but the invisible players were apparently there and were helping fighting enemies, also stuff was a bit glitchy. Then i found danger room gate and we entered it.

Another lucid, i was at a normal dream and BOOM i got lucid. there was 2 DC's there. i started to ask them things, i asked something about how they feel to be...
dahh... still got the problem that i can't remember very well when i wakeup. I think while i'm lucid, the shortmemory is turned on and when i wake up, it's not stored in the longmemory.

But i can remember that they were really smart. they answered thinks that i never could imagine. one answer i remember super well was:
"We are all individuals, but we are a part of your brain"
and i maybe asked something about it? i can remember something about that i asked how it's feel to be a part of my dream.

after this i got false awakenings and got normal dreams


normal dreams:

i was at a party in my summer cottage.. there was pretty many pll there, and i was going to take out my cross. suddenly did some persons arrive. it was some black peoples and a girl. (that wasn't black) (and oh, nothing racist about the black, but idk how to else explain it
when i thinking back, i get the feeling that she was looking at me with a smile, and when i first saw her in the dream i got the feeling that i have met her before?
she was like something special idk what.

I was going to drive cross with my friend, but he didn't come over, he just drove away xD
the last thing i remember before wakeup was that mom tried to do something with the other cross ..

The thing we can think about is this guy telling me: We are all individuals, but we are a part of your brain"
and to really understand what he meant with that. I thing that i asked something about "if they controll their self" or something similar. and this was the answer.
Let me know what you thing about it below

This morning, after coming back from a concert, I had a quite curious non-lucid dream.

Thing is, I went to bed at 4.30 am, more or less. I fell asleep and awoke at about 8 am, recalling very little of a dream I'd just had. I thought it was way too early and I still had time to have more dreams and pay attention to remember them. Then, I fell asleep again.

I "woke" a while afterwards. I was on my bed wearing my pyjamas (the same I was actually wearing). I had a look at my watch, it was 10.30 am. "Fair enough", I thought, "but I can still try to sleep more" (Side note: I always have trouble sleeping when I go to bed so late, I keep waking up many times). I looked around me and saw a couple of the friends who I had spent the night with, standing by my bed. One of them had a device which, he told me, was used to monitor the dreams to be able to retain more detail. I only needed to put two suction pads on my chest and just sleep. I thought it was a bit strange, but I followed his instructions.

It was then when I finally woke up. The first image my eyes caught was almost the same as the one I had when the dream started, apart from the fact that my friends weren't there. Again, I looked at my watch and was startled to realise it was 10.29 am. I did a RC to make sure it wasn't another false awakening, but this time I really was awake.

Dream recall from today's nap.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was at home and was talking to someone and he was saying something about that i should not think about something to have more chances for it to show up.

Dream 2(fragment):

Was some discussion in dragon forum chat.

Dream 3(fragment):

I am in my room i realize that i am dreaming but then i wake up, twice.

Dream 4(fragments):

I was searching some anime on some site and came across some warhammer 40k themed anime and then there was some other anime which for some reason was using very retro 3D graphics.

Dream 5(fragments):

I was at home and there was some talk about rain and that i apparently can predict future or something like that, then a red dragon appeared and started flying in the direction of my house, then some dude appeared and knocked him out somewhere out of view range, i got worried and shouted at that dude angrily and was about to go out and check, but then i noticed small cyan dragon in the distance, it was flying to here as well and then stopped at certain distance. Suddenly some anime characters appeared and there was discussion about something, then i noticed that that small dragon was already here, but strangely now his head was somewhat cat-like and he had fur.
Then some cutscene started showing completely different place, some dark forest and background voice explaining that many creatures that people think don't exists actually do exists, then cutscene zoomed in to some kind of base where a few huge and strong grey skinned humanoid creatures were walking around.

August 9, 2013 (Dream at Bedtime)

I was in the car driving to some remote location with my brother. I didn’t know where we were going, but once we got there I was shocked to discover that my brother owned a resort that he had not told me about. It was a huge, beautiful place. Once inside we had a bottle of campaign and he asked me if I would mind making a card for his x-wife to show her where he was and invite her to join him there. I said that I would and ended up making this really unique card with a map on the front.

The other thing I remember about my dream involves a person I haven’t seen or heard from in over 15 years. He was in pain and was looking under the medicine cabinet for some pills that he kept under there. He told me that they had been under there for years because he really doesn’t like the way they make him feel. He said he has to be desperate to ever take any and this was only the second time that he had done so. That’s was it, he took a couple of his pills and I woke up.

False awakening:

In my dream I woke up to tell my son about the dream I was having. I walked into our kitchen and he was sitting at the table. I began to explain my dream when it dawned on me that it was nighttime. I thought to myself: “Wow, its night and my son is actually in bed asleep. Come to think of it, so I am. I must be dreaming!” I got so excited that I woke up as soon as I realized I was dreaming.

Dream recall from today's nap. Starting to try out some random idea to fix up my dream control issues and change dream world overall by adding rules.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing Spiral Knights game.

Dream 2(fragments):

Some talk on skype.

Dream 3:

I wake up in my bed and i am very dizzy, i get up but can barely stand, i notice that some objects missing but it kinda fades out.
I wake up again and still dreaming, i try to get up but some force stops me and holds me in air, i have some really weird sensations and then dream fades out.

First pretty vivid LD.

So I experienced three false awakenings and all of them happened in my house.

I did a WBTB and then I attempted WILD but it failed. I was relaxed enough, so I performed a MILD mantra "I will lucid dream". Once I felt someone was kissing my head, but it wasn't my mom and neither my dad. Then I think I had a FA again, but I didn't do anything and fell asleep again. Then I experienced a FA again and woke up (it was like my subconscious wanting me to LD). However I didn't like the feeling because I was woken up by my mom and my dad's student. They were chatting and that made me furious. I went to bathroom, slammed door open and threw my iPhone to the ground too. Later I picked it up and surprisingly it didn't break. I sat on a toilet and suddenly wondered if this was a dream because it didn't feel right. I performed a RC (nose plug) and it was successful. I proceeded to do stabilization and I stood up and started exploring. It was my house and my dad was sleeping in my brother's room. I walked across the living room and I think my ping pong table was missing there, but I ddn't pay much attention.

I had some funny mistakes too. I tried changing the environment because before sleeping I thought if I could appear in the mall I had visualized before sleeping. I added a door with its supporting structure, but the door itself was missing. That didn't work and then I stumbled on some desks while somehow trying to walk through a wall. Lastly I closed a door leading to kitchen and expected to have a mall appear behind it, but when I reopened it it was the same kitchen. My mother was there and she wasn't happy. I instead just laughed and thought I need to expect more things. Then I woke up.

I was crawling into my room. I was halfway in, then I got stuck. Then I was unable to move. I then looked up at my computer. It was at this moment I relized I was dreaming. It was off. I then saw a force field hover over my body. Then I felt and saw strong vibrations throughout my body. Amazingly, being so new to this I was able to keep calm. As they increased, I then noticed my computer displaying images while still being off. I remember It was like history was literally flashing before my eyes. It stopped and then I began to levitate. By this time I was so stoked I woke up (not in real life). My brother accidentally kicked me as he was walking down the hall. Probably because I was only halfway in my room. Then, It took a great amount of effort, I truely woke up in real life. I was so happy! After almost 2 weeks of trial and error, I had my first official Lucid Dream. It feels great. I am now a true believer in Lucid Dreaming. Once I get the hang of this, I will move on to Astral Projection!

TECHNIQUES USED:
DILD & BINAURAL BEATS

i just suddenly asked myself "is this a dream?" then i did the nose pinch test and could breath,i checked again to make sure,then i tried pushing the fingers on my right hand through my left palm to see what would happen,it was kind of hard to do and the back if my hand started lighting up but eventually it worked (it was kind of a test to see what would happen) i decided to fly a bit although i didn't have much control,i was probably lucid for a few minuets before i had a false awakening to another dream scene

I am walking with my sister at night in this populated area, the ground is red brick and theres a large clearing of this surrounded by restaurants, a water fountain and shops. Suddenly something sucks me into the air, and I am put gently on this thing on the side of a building just in front of where we were walking, it's a sarcophagus of some sort. I realize that my clothes have been changed, I'm wearing egyption shit. I also find significance that the sarcophagus is rubbery feeling at top which I feel means it will be opened soon or used soon and this frightens me so I try to walk on it as carefully as possible, I walk forward and lean over the edge and yell for my sister. She yells to me what had happened? I tell her I don't know and that I will try to get down, but then suddenly my sister screams and points at this thing that appeared just above and in front of me. It is what appears to be a flying man with this black head piece over his head, looks like a falcon head almost. I freak out and try to back up on the thing but he comes at me and I don't know how to explain it I knew he was going to get me so I jumped off the edge knowing he wouldn't let me splat, but I just wanted to say goodbye to my sister for the last time. It's like I knew and then I floated into the air and then the guy carried me off way into the air and then back on top that thing I was on but it has changed a little bit, it is longer and more people are on it dressed like egyptions, we are lined up at the edge performing some sort of ritual, Then I suddenly seem to snap out of this trance and realize I don't want this fait, so I run to the edge of this sensitive structure and grab onto it and everybody slides to where I made it collapse a little, most of them get angry with me and tell me to stop now, but some of the girls have broken out of the spell from this and we line up again and we do it again but its more effective because more people and the thing begins to collapse, the falcon guy becomes enraged, and all the girls and I are awake and we run up the collapsing thing and make it to the solid roof of a building and then the thing crashes to the ground. Then the guy flies after us, and we race over top buildings and I run fast then leap as far as I can to the next building, it seems some of us don't make it and we turn on each other trying to make it, but some of us are pulling for each other. I make it to the last building then climb down and hide in all this tall green plants and bushes and trees.

A few dreams. First, I was at this old house and it was night. It was raining and I was in a bedroom with my dog. My dog really was my dog, but I had to take care lf him as if he were a baby.

Then, a woman who used to work for my family as a maid (like... ten years ago) entered the room. She looked at me and said "Sue (Sylvester, from Glee) and I were talking and we decided that I get you." and she showed me this big hook. I started asking her not to do this, but she just used it to kill me. I was bleeding and... well, dead.

Then, she looked at my dog and said "you're Sue's, but since I'm here, I might as well take care of you too!" but I out my arm in front of him. She looked surprised and I laughed. I said "I'm dead now, so you can't hurt me anymore! And you're not going to hurt Jimmy (my dog)!"

I started punching her. Funny thing, she wasn't there. I mean, in theory, she was, But I was really just punching the air. This is common in my dreams. Having to play pretend.

Anyway, then I kiled her (even though I couldn't see her). I threw her imaginary body out of the room and shut the door. Shutting the door was really hard (I often fail at doing that in my dreams, someone usuaally stops me). I looked around the room. It was dark and raining. I knew my dad was at the hospital, nothing serious. I wanted to call my mum, but I knew she needed to rest. I was really scared.

Second dream, I don't remember much. I needed to pee, I went to the bedroom. When I was a kid, I had a dream like this and I woke up to a very wet bed, so ot's like a trauma. So I decided to check if I was dreaming. At first, it seemed all right, but I checked again and I had six fingers.

I woke up... except that it was a FA. I didn't notice it. Don't remember what happened next.

Finally, my last dream. It's a bit confusing. I was in a sort of bar, but Iwas friends with the woman who worked there. She was telling me that we needed Harry and Hermione's help. I said I could talk to Hermione, since they were right in front of us, taking a test. I got close to her and she was mad at me. I startedkissing her neck and then she kissed me a little. She forgave me for whatever it was that I had done.

Then, I had to talk to Tyrion Lannister. He also worked at the bar, so I walked toward him and we tlked a little. He said he was going to help, of course, since we were doing whatever we were doing for his son.

I walked with Tyrion back to the part of the bar where the others were. I had flashbacks of someone betraying a group of people (many were killed). The survivors thught I was the one who betrayed them. This was somehow linked to what we had to do.

Then, we got to the that place in the bar. Abed from Community was there and he was apologising to the woman. He said "I know you got upset when I said I wouldn't come here today. I am here. And I promise I'll come here everyday. I honestly don't know whyI said that."

And that was it.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was doing some stuff at home and then i decided to nap and i had dream where i was on sofa floating in space and there were lots of pokemons around playing some game with a ball, most of them were not from actual series though, including two huge red and blue dragon-like ones. Then some dude appears near as well, watching too. Then i wake up and there's some problem with cactuses and something gets stuck in my finger.
Then i wake up again and look at hands, they are kinda weird, so i am dreaming. I get up and rub hands, balcony door is apparently blocked by bed and some garbage so i jump through window. I go through glass just fine but i get stuck in curtains, dream destabilizes. I wake up and have very vivid HH where i look through window and buildings are moving and transforming that lasts a good half of minute.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was switching between playing and discussing some zombie games with someone, which looked like oldschool Resident Evil games. Then there was something about the nest of some queen, which made weird organic pod things, which hypnotized people that looked at them and turned them into zombies on touch. Then i was continuing with zombie games and i was thinking about choice that affected the ending.

Dream 3:

I was playing some shmup and i was on some stage where i was going through some kind of abstract place, with various shapes and abstract enemies as well. The weapon of my ship was somewhat similar to Fossil Maiden from Hellsinker, at least, frontal and sword attack were the same, but different directions activated some different firing modes, backwards activated double homing missiles. At the end of the stage there was some forest and some metal plates were falling from the top of the screen like in Solid State Survivor right before boss.
Then boss battle started and background switched to some tech complex. Boss looked like some mecha-bee thing, probably inspired by Hachi from Dodonpachi, it had various attack patterns that were synced to the music, can"t recall most of them sadly, but i remembered that i fought it before(It was not fake memory i am sure, but maybe actually different dream that i forgot), and i remembered most of his attacks, so i knew good spots where to dodge them and where to safespot, i was doing really well considering attacks were really hard and was not getting hit and was thinking that i should record it, then i remembered that there's replay feature and stopped worrying. Boss started using lots of blue lasers and fight started becoming more 3D, then i was actually in the game. Boss activated pattern where he was sweeping lots of blue lasers across the arena along with lots of projectiles all around, i went for really dangerous semi-safespot behind the boss and barely managed to not get hit. Then boss activated pattern with homing missiles and i realized that i don't know how to deal with this pattern using this playership. But then i switched to my own homing missiles and they started intercepting boss's homing missiles on the way. Boss was on very low hp and i was going to do perfect run through all attacks, so i tried to use missiles as little as possible to not do too much damage. Then as boss reached 0 HP, dream ended.

Very very rough pic of the boss that i made after waking up: http://i.imgur.com/bI8ymqP.png