false awakening

A bit out of time this week, an actually not so brief update:

13 May

- Me and a group of 5 kids decide to create a business. We go to register it, and the start up costs are only 100. We talk to some lawyer who says its is excellent because we are all from different countries.

- I become upset and leave the house of a friend wearing slippers. It is very hard to walk with these but I don't find this unusual.

- In our old neighborhood, there are lots of new stores. I go in a supermarket where they are making fresh carrot juice, it is green in color, I wonder a bit about that, but conclude that green carrot juice is ok.

14 May

- In our old place, my mom keeps talking, while I want to go to sleep. I tell her that her talking activates my brain and I cannot fall asleep. It is early morning, still dark outside and snowing.

- I see Dr dre on the street, he is smoking and I want to join him. Before I do, he has finished with the stuff. A skater boy pushes him hard and I think how rude kids are nowadays. I follow Dre to a building, but the cops are all over the place. I have a micro second of lucidity, remembering I read a part of Xanos's dream from yesterday and know it this the cause for this one. I lose my lucidity a second later and try to leave the building.

- I am in jail which looks like a normal house, my belongings are also there. A woman calls me and I think they are finally letting me go. She informs me that she allows me to go out, so that I can find a woman called Connie Flowers or something similar. A friend from school is also accompanying me. We look for the place where Connie lives, but cannot find her. I have another second brief moment of clarity and high awareness, when I am climbing a fence, while looking for her. I continue following the dream but get the brilliant idea to ask some old ladies to show me the way to Connie's house. They all point in one direction and that excites me a lot. I am absorbed back by the dream and we go to the place the women were pointing at.

- A false awakening where I jot down key words from the previous dream. I write Connie Flowers on a piece of paper. Had it not been this FA, I probably would have forgotten the name. It was so realistic that I actually looked down and expected to see it written in my notebook, but nothing was there irl.

- On a street, thinking about last night's dreams. I look at the sky, and decide to star gaze. I have my blanket with me. I get interrupted by a machine washing the streets. My slippers get washed away...

Note: micro-lucids, not counting
Pretty busy this week, I wish my sleep could condense, so that I still get some nice REM moments.

Dream recall from today's naps.

I was in the bed, but in different location(I didn't noticed it until later), i keep having an HH(Or at least HH is the closest to how i can describe it, it was bizarre), that i was getting up but it lasted only a few seconds and i was back to normal, it repeated like 7 or 8 times and then i noticed that i was in different location in the bed, somebody entered the room but before i could look i woke up properly.

I had this dream in 2006. it is as vivid today as it was the day I had it, but I wrote it down in my journal then, and I'm copying it over here to share. this was the strongest dream I've ever had. I've always been a dreamer, but never anything quite like this.

I had a dream that I went to sleep. and in my dream I was floating over an intersection with a hill on one side and a school on the other. it was a very busy intersection. I could not hear what was going on, but men in hoodies stood on the hill, and they were chanting something I could not hear what, then all of a sudden they came out of the cover of the hill and started attacking the people on the street in front of the school, as I passed over I watched as people were being hacked to pieces, and I saw a stone that said Oxford. it was very vivid. then I woke up in my dream, but still dreaming.

I dreamed that I was moving to a yellow house with children in the yard, and an antiques business in back. we bought the house and moved in. and I went to sleep again. I dreamed again of the intersection but this time I could hear. there were rioting and yelling "Obama Nation of Desolation" they all had weapons. no guns, but hatchets and swords and sticks and such. and just like before they suddenly attacked in front of the school like before I floated above the scene and watched and this time heard the screams and horror of the scene.

I awoke fully. this time realized it was all a dream and went back to sleep.
when I went back to sleep I was in the same dream, it was continuing. I was dreaming I was at home in the yellow house and my mom called me on the phone. and said she and my brother had had the same dream of the hill and the massacre. we decided this was a call to gather. and that we were being warned and we should meet at grandma's house.

so I quickly gathered my 2 children and packed the car. my husband came with us. my daughter was adamant we bring her pillow so I did. we got on the road heading towards grandmas house. and the traffic was heavy. there was a feeling and atmosphere in the air like everyone had had the same dream, or everyone was fleeing to their refuges.

we decided to take surface streets to avoid the freeway, and suddenly we are at THE intersection. I instantly knew what was about to happen and I through the pillow over my children. (I don't have any further knowledge of what happens to my children) and my husband and I get out of the car. we run through the massacre as its happening and a woman is bludgeoned to death in front of me. we hide under some school bleachers where a man in a hoodie approaches us.

he talks to us and my husband listens. he explains that the bible was changed. and it is not the righteous that will inherit the earth. and he opens a bible were many words are blacked out so that it reads that God loves the wicked and the righteous will burn as stubble. my husband listens and joins their group. I'm devastated, but I run away. , still trying to make it to my grandmas on foot. I stop at a minimart and find a group of people who are willing to give me a ride. we drive through side streets and all around is desolation. we get to my grandma's city and all seems normal. I'm relieved to get there. as I get near my grandma's house I see my parents and brother going into her house. I'm so happy I made it. but I notice an exterminator van outside her house. they are plugging some hoses to the vents in the house. I start screaming for my family to get out of the house but its too late I get out of the car and try running into the house to get them, but they are all dead. someone hits me over the head from behind and I black out.

when I awake from the black out, but still in my dream. I am in a building that looks like its been bombed out. and I can see the city around me is similarly destroyed. I'm on the ground, someone is beating me and asking me questions but I don't know what they were asking me. I find a paper and pen and write something on it and hide it beneath me. and then I'm killed.

when I awoke fully I was in an almost euphoric state. or a complete state of shock. I fully expected the news to show some massacre. but of course it didn't...

5/11/2013

I had my first lucid dream last night! using the DILD method i guess if you numbered your lucidity i was very low in the chart it was like i knew i was dreaming but didn't really have any control like i went along with what my sub-contiguous wanted. so here's the dream. So i was first in a party and the cast of vampire diaries were their(don't ask me!) and then i don't remember how but i was thrown out the window and bouncing off plastic terraces like you see outside small shops. that's when i realized i was dreaming. and became lucid then i don't remember what happened for a while and when i gained it again i was in the back on a van and on my way to high school(im only in middle school) Caroline from vampire diaries was driving. and then when we got to school we started to have a memorial service for someone in the gym. Then i had a false awaking and was with someone i don't know in real life and we were putting corn and pineapple in a van to be delivered somewhere then i woke up.

Lucid False Awakening

Last night was the worst sleep I've gotten in months, yet ironically it was my third and longest lucid, and I completed a Task of the Month!

I found myself in a gorgeous ski-lodge/ hotel, made completely with polished redwood and hardwood flooring. I was living there, alone, and my bedroom was bare save a neatly made bed that was only dipped on one side - a subtle hint that I no longer had, or had never had, a girlfriend in this dreamverse. I was a writer, and my study was cluttered with handwritten pages and crumpled failures. Surveying the seen in a relaxed yet depressed mood, I suddenly heard a hiss behind me.

Turning quickly, a found a dead and zombie-like little girl with a red headband hissing and coming towards me. Still calm, I thought, this couldn't really happen, and suddenly my mind fought to gain lucidity, reaching a hazy stabilization. In waking life I was asleep with a nightmask on, and that carried through to my lucidity, making a weird, half-blinded effect. I tried to wipe my eyes, and peel away the mask, but to no avail. The dream began to collapse around me and I woke up. Looking around I saw my girlfriend on the top bunk in a bunkbed next to me, sleep walking and threatening to tumble over the edge. I called out to her several times, yet she still carreened over the edge into my arms. Wait, we are sleeping in the same bed in waking life... This is a false awakening!

I was instantly sucked back into my previous dream, and this time the beautiful red wood lodge with its gorgeous support beams and white trim reappeared. The sensation of whooshing into lucidity was euphoric and unlike anything I've felt in a while. I heard a hiss, and turned to see the little girl back behind me. I told her I didn't have time for her, waved my hand dismissively, and she disappeared. I turned to hear yet another his, and this time it was a floating tiger head. I dismissed this as well, and turned to get my bearings.

I was in the main lobby, with two giant glass skylights. Without thinking, I lifted off the ground and flew out one of them into the air, and landed in the untouched forest outside. My stabalization was still perfect, so I took a moment to remember the tasks of the month. I remembered laying an egg, but then I recalled Ophelia's story about thinking she had pooped herself and I decided to try a different one . As I remembered that the basic one was to tell a DC they were fake/ dreaming/ in a dream, a hefty latino woman came into view on a path that wound its way through the forest. I ran up to her, intent on telling her she was dreaming, but she began to undress.

"Uhm... Anyway, did you know that you're in a dream!"
"Oh shut up!" she grinned, removing more clothes.
"No really, you're a figment of my imagination!"

Still grinning, she ignored me and embraced me, now without pants on. She wasn't beautiful by any means, so I was a bit hesitant.

Luckily, my girlfriend bumped me awake as she turned on her side, and I woke up, totally euphoric, and wrote it all down.


WOOO! SO AMAZING!

Total sleep time: 5 hrs

Pre bed: 3 mg mel

WBTB1 natural: 2x peppermint oil tablets

WBTB2 alarm: 1/2 cup of green tea + analytical thoughts + noise = insomnia

Vividness: Extreme

Dream1: Me and my parents are in a hotel, I have just had some supplements and am preparing for sleep. I look at a graph with bar that shows progress towards lucidity that depends on the amount of menthol I took. The status bar is not completely full, about 70 percent to lucid, so I am contemplating whether I should take another tablet or just risk falling asleep and see what happens. I ask my mom if she plans to take a shower now, so that I can shower before her and go to bed. She is watching/listening to something and has three sets of headphones, two of which I identify as mine, and get a bit upset to see she has left a very realistically looking earwax on one of them.
mood: task oriented - become lucid

Fragment2: The toilet seat in grandma's place, and a big mess of poo. Will give no further descriptions, although I remember it in quite a detail. ( Sorry, this was very vivid so had to mention it,lol!)
mood: wondering

Fragment3: I am in a bus, and I am observing and being told the story of a man and a woman. They were supposed to meet here at that bus, be together, but one of them changes something, and the other one gets off the bus before this happens. I am thinking perhaps another time.
mood: interested, positive

Comments: Oh, well, went a bit over the edge here, but at least I stuck to my plan to do a WBTB. Lol!

i woke up in my bed really tired and after a while i went back to sleep while attempting w WILD i went through the hypnagogic state and fit felt like i was gonna succed but then i awakened once again in my room but this time i was so tired that my vision was all fucked up and blurry. for some reason i came to look at my hands and att first i couldnt even see them but as i focused they became clearer and clearer. this made me think hey what if this is a dream? and i did some reality checks and turns out i was dreaming. so i preceded to fly around a bit in kmy house and then I flew out of my balcony, but my balcony looked entirly different. as i flew i began to contemplate on how i should use this lucid dream, what i should do next. but the more i thought the more blurry the world around me became, to the point where i felt the dream was fading away and then i suddenly awoke once again my room, by the sound of my parents coming home. But since my parents had just left and werent gonna come home for a long while i thought that it might be a false awakening. I entered the bathroomstill not sure if it was a dream and i looked in the mirror. The clothes i was wearing in the mirror did not match what i was really wearing so it had to be a dream. i tried to enter the mirror but it didnt work it was still solid. disapointed i run to my living room, and fly outside where i atempt to punch the wall of my house to see how strong i am and found that my punches where supernaturally strong but not as strong as i would like. once again i began to think about what i am going to do next and once again the dream begins to fade away. I wake up in my room again and my parents are home. i preform a reality check and im still dreaming. i go to the living room where i find my friend. I tell him that i can fly. He says he knows and that he can do it io. I ask him why he doesnt and he says he is afraid of heights. i fly out to explore the surroundings, the immediate surrounding area is the same but after flying just a little while i find myself in some form of village or very small town. the climate is really hot and it seems like the village is in the desert. I get the feeling that there is something mysterious about this place. There is a house where a bunch of female mechanics are working on a car. i walk up to them and try to talk to them but they dont answer me. i see an old man in the corner drinking cofee, i go up to him and asks him who he is, what is this place and shit like that but he only answers in riddles that make no sense at all. Once again i begin to think about where i should go next and the same thing happens, i once again wake up in my room, i preform a reality check and its still a dream. i Fly the same way and the village is still there exactly how i left it. i explore a bit, then comes the thinking and i fynd myself back in my bed. This keeps happening over and over again for about 10 false awakenings, i explore a bit but wheenever i start to think to hard i ''respawn'' in my bed. after the last false awakening i find myself in the village outside the mechanics place. to the right there is a big phone booth and there is a woman and she is calling for me. At this point im starting to trip on the fact that i keep experiencing these false awakenings, it feels like im trapped in this dream, this unending cycle. as i walk up to to the woman i see that apart from the phone there is also a machine for buying train tickets. on the machine it says Alo katavana on one side and the name of my home town on the other, and there is a big button that says Escape. I press the escape button and i wake up in my bed but for real this time

Last night was a potpourri of lots and lots of unstable little WILDs and DEILDs. Very very confusing night, but I was glad that I managed to tough it out and keep spooling up more dreams.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #92: DEILDs and Demigods

The WILD sticks me into a hazy, insubstantial scene. I have a dream body, but I can't tell where I am. I try to Hulk jump to someplace new and upon landing, I wake up...

I hold still for DEILD, repeating "here and now" and "I'm dreaming". Everything's still dark, but at some point, I feel like I'm dreaming. I mentally move my right hand to my face, pinch my nose shut, and try to breathe, blowing right through. I get out of bed, fall through the floor, and have a false awakening back in bed.

I'm still suspicious, so I hit the nose pinch again and confirm that I'm still dreaming. This instability has rattled me a bit, so I wait for a dream scene to form, temporarily forgetting how to handle myself in the void. Rather than take me anyplace, the dream fades out and I wake up for real.

Come on. Stay in there. I try not to worry too much about this, but I'm a little rattled. I stay still, working for DEILD, and finally a scene starts forming that looks like the inside of a cave. I try rubbing my hands on the floor of the cavern and it feels real -- I'm in.

I'm crouched on a long downward slope in a cavern of red rock. The tunnel is large and well-lit and a number of DCs in street clothes are watching me, seemingly anticipating that I'll do something. I decide to put on a little show, hopping into the air, floating gently along the slope for about 25 feet. There are gasps of astonishment and a crowd starts to gather.

"I'm dreaming all of this," I explain to the crowd.

Murmurs of disagreement from the crowd. One man walks up and says, "No. I've done lucid dreaming myself, and this is totally different." The people in the crowd start trying to convince me that I'm a demigod demonstrating my powers. I half-heartedly object, but they are unanimous, convincing, and very persistent. Eventually I'm persuaded and lose lucidity. I perform various dream control stunts like telekenesis and producing lightning. The whole time I think that they're god powers, even gratefully noting that lucid dreaming was great practice for becoming a "demigod". I do this for a while, shamelessly enjoying the adoration.

I wake up, slightly annoyed at my own stupidity. Quick bathroom trip, back to bed for a second WILD. I emerge on a street scene with several eye-catching female DCs walking by in different directions. I realize that I'm totally staring, think briefly about menthol, and then wake up.

I DEILD back into the void. I imagine that I'm swinging a gladius for a bit and eventually I find myself in a kitchen that looks a bit like my own. I'm muttering something about "sulbutiamine" (a drug I'd read a mention of recently.) An Asian woman in a business suit gives me an unfriendly look. "I've taken sulbutiamine," she says. Her demeanor darkens and her eyes turn completely black. "And I've taken drugs that made it so I never rotted in my coffin." Her face has grown pallid and vaguely zombie-like, and she advances slowly toward me.

I'm very creeped out by her but mostly I'm annoyed that she's trying to inject this nightmare nonsense into what was planned to be my cool lucid dream. I turn away and decide to just think about something else so she'll fade out. I walk over to the window and look out into the night. The dream fades and I wake up.

I go for DEILD once more... I'm on a street scene, standing next to a cute, tall-ish redhead. She's smiling warmly, and she has her arms open like she wants to hug. I feel exhausted and grateful, and I gladly hug her. She nibbles my ear and I respond by kissing her neck, coming close to losing lucidity. I shake it off, though, thinking that I need to ask her to help me back on the right track with this crazy sequence of dreams. I'm struggling to find the words, but she seems to understand, pulling away and somehow drawing up even taller. Now she's truly a giant, about nine feet tall. She reaches down, places a hand on the back of my head, and guides me toward a huge television.

My wife and kids are here playing some kind of video game and they happily invite me to join them. The interface is like a super-slick version of Steam. Soon there's a controller in my hands and we're playing a combination music and puzzle game. As I'm trying to learn how it works, I lose lucidity again, but still have a good time playing for a while. I keep thinking of great enhancements for the game and for this "Steam" interface and the ideas keep winding up in the game itself. I'm amazed by this. I feel impressed but sad that the developers "already thought of all my great ideas." We all play together for some time, and after that the dream fades to oblivion.

Ok so to start this off I'm going to post a LD induced by WILD, from a kind-of WBTB experience.

9th May 2013.

Went to bed after about 5.5 hours of sleep. Laid down on my side because I figured it would be the best position for WILDing. Closed my eyes, started repeating the mantra "relax". After some small feelings of numbness I started to get deconcentrated from repeating my mantra and slowly losing awareness and falling to some external dialogue. I cut it short by opening my eyes, since I'd figured I'd just fall asleep if I continued. Saw that the whole attempt took 15 minutes. After that I rolled over pretty frustrated that I can't mantain awareness. Kept on trying, until one moment a feeling of frustration crept over me. At the same time a surge of "energy" went through my body and I was suddenly pushed "into" my bed. I saw two people for a moment that seemed to push me into my bed. After that several more surges of energy went through, and I soon found myself in a kind of empty space. I was aware during the entire process and I knew I was entering a dream.

I tried to open my dream eyes but I felt my real eyes starting to open at the same time so I opted to keep them closed. Soon enough I managed to open my dream eyes and I saw a FA style dream "waking up" in my bedroom. I was lucid though, so I looked around and saw that the room was changed up a bit, didn't have any furniture present. I looked to the window and saw it was almost dark. I looked into my hands and they looked normal, although what I
saw was blurry. I remembered to use the spinning technique to stabilize the dream. The funny thing is while all this was happening I could hear my brother who was in the room while I was sleeping while being in the dream. I looked through the window and now it was nighttime. The scene changed and I don't remember what it looked like. I started talking to a dream character, a prostitute. I used her .. uhm.. services and convinced her to do it with no charge. After that the dream had faded black. I woke up in what is most likely a false awakening, being proud of myself for having a WILD. Met some friends, talked to them, and I don't remember anything else. Then I woke up for real, did a reality check, and checked the clock for time, because I always want to know when I woke up, which wasn't the case with that FA.

Expect an update in about 9 hours I'll attempt a WBTB WILD, it might be successful. Cheers!

I hear the phone ringing, and my pops bursts into my room and says it's for me. I pick up the phone and my cousin L is the voice on the other side. Odd....she never calls me. She asks if I was sleeping, and I tell her in a groggy voice "a little bit". Then I figure it's probably something important. "Why? what's up?", I say. She doesn't answer....finally I find myself sleeping in my bed wondering if I fell asleep while waiting on her reply, then I'm up in my bed.

Dream recall from today's naps. I dunno what's up with dream length recently, maybe just bad REM timing or something.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was doing something at home then i went to bed. After a while i suddenly start having weird sensation, i open the eyes but before i can do anything else i wake up.

Dream 2(fragment):

I wake up and i am thinking about something then i take off headphones, still hearing binaural beats, thus realizing that i am dreaming, but dream fades out.

Dream 3(fragment):

I wake up and take off headphones, binaural beats still playing so i am dreaming, i get up and rub hands but suddenly the view goes weird and i can't move, dream fades out.

Dream 4:

I was in my bed trying to fall asleep, but suddenly dad came into the room and started making alot of noise walking around and annoying me. I pretended to be asleep but he started trying to wake me up saying something about windows. He then left and i opened eyes, there were alot of windows in the room, all open. Then dream ended.

That which is written below was written at the time. I posted my recollection of my December 8th dream and December 9th dream in the same reply to a thread on a different forum.

(This is copied from a forum I frequent and the dreams from the night prior were posted in the same reply)

Dec. 8th - Dec. 9th

AAAGH I forgot parts and I had it fresh in my mind until I typed about the dreams I had yesterday! Anyway, At one point I realized I was dreaming and I think this may have been my first successful lucid dream! Anyway, Here's the parts I remember...

In a store of some sort, Some woman told me to go away and I told her something like "I'm the star of the show here, It's my dream!" And she ignored me.

Then, Later I was in an area with picnic tables with my parents (I think) And I had a Gibson Explorer Reverse guitar. Oddly though I was calling it a Firebird even though I know from the shape that it was an Explorer! (The two guitars are similar to one another) Then Phil X comes out of nowhere and I offer him the opportunity to play my guitar and he did, Then he starts talking about the guitar. That part was awesome.

Next, I think my parents were going on a trip and I was running alongside the van until it turned into a Team Fortress 2 Gravel Pit "A" style area and someone stopped me.

From there on it turned into more of a nightmare. I'm not sure of everything that happened, However I was still lucid dreaming to a point and I was in a prison like place. The people in cells were dead, dying or should have been dead. I remember at one part I went in a cell and someone was in a big box with an air hose. I opened the box to find a small skeleton that was similar to a lizard. I told him he should just die and so he did. Later, I thought I woke up because my mom woke me up going through the room but instead it was a false awakening. I went back to dreaming, I remember thinking that I wouldn't be able to lucid dream then but I may have kept on lucid dreaming. I'm not sure of the details from here on.

Anyway... I watched the Harry Potter Half Blood Prince movie yesterday so that may have had a bit of an effect on the last part...

Dream recall from today's naps. DILD and WILD.

Dream 1(fragment):

I wake up, sit on the bed and think about something for a while, then i realize that i forgot to do an reality check and as i take off headphones i can still hear binaural beats, so i am dreaming, but dream fades out shortly and i wake up.
I keep eyes closed and try to DEILD(but it takes some time to fall back asleep so i count this as WILD)
Dream 2:
I am still in the bed, but i feel something different. I try to open eyes but i can't see anything, i can move though and i take off headphones while still hearing binaural beats. Shortly i feel something move through the room, and shortly this something jumps onto me and i hear a growl of some kind. Then i wake up.

Note: Way to go after going through (almost)daily 'SP' threads, still an interesting experience though, i wish i could see what that creature was.

Dream recall from today's naps, barely managed to fall asleep but got minilucid out of it.

I was at the stairs location near the exit from my home, i was talking about transformation with someone and we were switching some portraits on some screen deciding who can come up with the best form to do for some event. At one point he asks me "Will you rather be ____ than ____?"(can't recall words), i respond "Why not?" and then he tells some joke and dream fades out.
I wake up and take off headphones, noticing that binaural beats are still playing, but shortly i...
Wake up again and i take off headphones again but then i wake up properly.

I've decided to really try to have more lucid dreams. A while back I had one where I jumped from my bedroom window and flew down my street and thought 'wow' so I googled it and found more about it, but then sort of forgot.

I watched Inception the other week and that reminded me, so I have been keeping a dream journal since then. I normally remember my dreams quite well, and can go into loads of detail about dreams that I had years ago. But I read that it can help to notice dream signs and other such things.

Anyway, the reason for me joining this site tonight is due to the (almost) lucid dream I had last night, out of nowhere. I had sort of forgotten about trying to have one until now.

What happened in the dream was that I was at some sort of prom/dance type event. Unfortunately I didn't write it down, so I don't really have all the details (I'll get back to that). In the end of the dream, I believe the host was fuming at me because I wore a purple and white dress, which I wasn't supposed to, since she was the only one allowed to wear that combination, and my dress was similar in pattern. Throughout the dream, if I ever saw myself in a reflective surface, I appeared as an old woman. I knew that no one else saw me this way (I don't know how I knew, but I did). At the end of the dream I went to a bathroom and caught sight of myself in a mirror again, looking old as ever when I thought "Hey, this isn't right. I'm not old. This must be a dream!" And then I looked at my left hand and my ring finger was missing. At this point I must have got excited, because everything started to spin and muddle up, and before my hand touched to rub them together I was lying awake in my bed. Well, I'm not actually sure I was awake. It may have been a false awakening. I checked, and all my fingers were there, but when I woke up for real it seemed a dream. Also, I thought I had written it down, but when I woke up properly, it wasn't in my notepad. Not sure what happened, but lets hope I have a real lucid dream sometime soon!