false awakening

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was updating GW forum game on different forum.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was on PC and there was something wrong with internet connection, then there was a weird beeping sound.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing warcraft 3 and interface was weird and looked like some kind of MMO, i was reading something about how to get additional units then went to some quest.
I woke up and was talking to someone about some numbers.
Then i wake up again and this time i realize that i am dreaming, i go for balcony, but each time i go through balcony door there's another one behind it. Eventually dream fades out.
I wake up again and somebody throws a pillow at me. Then i wake up again, this time properly.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was chatting with SilentEternity on Skype, about spiral knights and some jokes, at one point he was asking "Am i always being like that?" or something along this line.

Dream 2(fragments)

I was watching some let's play of some third person shooter, the action was happening in some desert.

Dream 3(fragments):

I wake up and i get confused since the body i feel is different from what i see, it takes a bit of time for me to get up and i look at hands, i notice they are weird but dream fades out before i realize it.

Dream 4(fragments):

There was some scene in grassland, knight in white armor and knight in black armor were talking, they realized during the talk that they are not really what they are, then they connected their hands, and in a very bright, almost blinding, glow, they turned into dragons.

Dream 1(fragments):

I am doing some stuff at home and then i decide to look at hands they were weird so i am dreaming, i go to balcony, rub hands. Then i take off and feel wings, as i fly i notice that background is like static texture, then dream fades out.

Dream 2:

There was story about space station and some spaceship docking there. The crew of the ship were secretly pirates and were trying to capture the station, also they were not humans but rather light-blue muscular humanoids in armor. There was some kid-engineer that was defending the station and he started talk with one of pirates and managed to talk them into going away. Then i was looking at some kind of ship log and there were some of nicknames that i used on internet logged. Then back to story, the ship flied out of hanger and there was some battle going on.
Then everything everything faded to some other place, in the skies, a dragon was flying away.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing some FPS game and the level was located in some ancient tomb place, i was discussing something with other player and we were talking about some science book.
Then i wake up and i realize that apparently i accidentally bit somebody and some stuff around while sleeping and there was some talk about that.

I had a dream where I was able to use one of the tips given to me from here. All I remember from the dream I had last night are flashes of memory but I remember the dream I had while napping today.

It started where I was hanging around this house that was made up of small buildings. I went in one building to have sex with this guy. I was laying down on a mattress on the floor and these wasps would fly around above me then land on me. I freaked out and smacked it off then noticed another. The guy got up to do something and I started concentrating on putting the blanket over my face before a wasp landed then crushed it without feeling like I was going to get harmed. After a bit, the guy laid back down then noticed my concentration with watching the wasps. Before I pulled the blanket up he grabbed it kept me from pulling it up, making me freak out. I explained why I had to do that when a wasp landed on my shoulder. I was freaking out, smacking it off. He laughed and after we had sex he left. I was reluctant to get up. I had an odd feeling. Thats when I noticed the wasp head was still on my shoulder. I had to pull it off and noticed it was hard to do that, like it was holding on. I noticed another and pulled it off too. Then I noticed a snail on my other shoulder. It was latched on, sucking my blood. I pulled it off but its head separated from its body and I had to pull it off too. I reluctantly got up then looked in a full mirror. I saw them all over my body, there were too many to count. I freaked out and started pulling them off one by one until I started to wake up. I stayed asleep however, and the dream reset.

My fiancées mom was visiting and she, some other person, and I were walking down the street over to the building where my dad worked and my fiancée was waiting for us, when I started to insult her. I kept saying one horrible thing after the other and she glared daggers at me. I knew she was getting very angry but I couldn't stop myself. She tried to hit me but I kept dodging. She got frustrated and ran up ahead then jumped in a car. I became amused and jumped out the way when she tried to run me over. She kept turning back around and coming at me again, but I kept jumping out of the way. I stayed amused the entire time, a smile on my face. It got to where she was coming at me too fast for me to jump away so quickly, when she came close enough, I kicked off from the hood of the car and did a flip over top and landed behind it. I did this a couple times before I ran to the house that we were heading too and escaped behind the fence. I was standing in the yard when I realized I shouldn't have been able to do this in real life, and that this area didn't exist in real life, and figured out I was dreaming. I tried to do some sideways flips around the yard as practice (I find it hard to do things that I wouldn't be able to do in real life by lucid means) and, of course, found it hard to do the flips. I kept telling myself that this was a dream and I can do whatever I want in my dreams, and it helped a little, but I decided that I had had enough practice for now and that it was time to get back to the dream. I went inside and upstairs to find my dad working. My finance was telling me how downstairs there was a metal workshop that I would like. I went down and into the room and was amazed by all the machines. The workshop manager saw me and I remembered that you weren't supposed to enter workshops without safety goggles and a hat so I went outside the door. The manager followed me and I apologized. He asked what a girl was doing in there and I told him how I loved building things with metal and how I had taken 5 years of Ag classes in high school. He was impressed and said he would set up an interview. I got excited and told my fiancée. He was happy and we went back upstairs.

We went into the chapel section and sat while people gathered around us, my family was sitting on the row behind us. My cousin was getting married to his boyfriend (he was gay in my dream even though he's married to a woman in real life) My fiancée threw a piece of paper under the row in front of us and I said loudly "How the f*** am I supposed to reach that??" I looked around and noticed people staring at me so I said "excuse my language" and people moved on. After the wedding I went back out to the main part and noticed my dad was gone. Someone told me that the business had shut down and I got upset because I had wanted to work here and was sad my dad was out of a job. I got a trash bag and started gathering things I found. I got a couple of crutches and found my brother looking out the window at my newly married cousin and his husband playing a DS. I asked what was wrong and he said that my cousin had taken his game and wouldn't give it back. The guy next to my brother had a contraption that allowed him to access game consoles, so he accessed my brothers and turned it off. My cousin left with it and I went after him with every intention of getting it back for my brother. I went outside to find the door my cousin used to get back inside, and along the way I picked up some long 2x4s that had broken off of the fence when my fiancées mom tried to ram her way inside. I picked up some more things that I can't remember until I found my cousin in his room in the living quarters. I peeked inside and saw him sleeping, the DS in his pocket. I was making a plan on how to get it back when his husband found me and woke my cousin up. He asked what I was doing and I told him. He laughed and said he would give me back the DS if I gave him something from my trash bag and held something of his. I held out my hand and he dropped a round, ripped in half, rubber thing in my hand. I noticed it was slimy then figured out it was his broken in half, used condom. I threw it and asked him why the crap would he make he hold that. He laughed and took out all 5 of the crutches from my bag and I asked if I could at least have one in case I needed it in the future. He let me have one and I put it back in. He looked at my 2x4s but didn't want them. He gave me the DS back and I was making my way to my brother when I woke up.

This nap lasted 2 hours. I fell asleep for another hour but didn't dream any that time.

I warn you now, this part is going to be kinda crazy. Here's the map of the layout of the house again for faster reference. Click the picture to make it bigger.

Spoiler for dream house layout:

I was freaking out and started pacing around the room, staring at the ring. I didn't know what to do, I didn't want to be married to the new guy, I wanted to be with the body guard. My mind was lost in thought when my best friend rushed into the room and ran straight to me. She put her hand in front of me, boasting about how the new guy just gave it to her and asked her to marry him. This news hadn't made me upset or mad, I knew he was going to ask them too, instead I started growing suspicious. I had a feeling that there was more to this guy then someone who liked to mess with the feelings of three innocent best friends. He was trying to do something else, something deeper, that I couldn't figure out. I sat my friend down and told her about my suspicions. She found it hard to believe and wanted proof. I showed her my ring and told her about he had just asked me to marry him also not too long ago. Her face became blank. She sat there staring at my ring with no emotion at all. It was just then that my normal princess outfit began changing into a married princess dress, my hair went from being worn up to hanging loose, and finally a crown appeared on my head. The deal had been complete, I was now officially the new guys wife. Almost on cue, he entered the room, his cloths had changed too. He was now wearing a red cape and a crown of his own with white spotted fur around the base. He said now that we were man and wife he had to leave and attend to some duties. On his way out, he said something to my other friend, who was standing outside the door to the room. I looked back at my best friend and she hadn't moved, she just sat there with a blank expression. I took my ring off and left the room.

I had to find out what was going on. The new guy was up to something, I could feel it. I went to his corner and looked around in his trunk. I couldn't find anything incriminating and went to my room, The body guard was waiting for me. My heart tore, and I was expecting him to say he was done with me when he said he didn't care. He loved me and still wanted to see me and that he knew I didn't want to be married. I hugged him and a spark of hope grew in my chest. I spent some time looking around the house for anything suspicious, my best friend had gotten up and helped me look. Her emotions were harder to read then a book with invisible ink, but I could tell that she wanted to find out what was going on as well. My other best friend had become distant and had an aura of big headedness around her. The new guy hadn't asked her to marry him but she seemed so happy, even knowing that my best friend and I were both his wives. My best friends cloths had changed to a married womans dress, but unlike me she wore her ring. Whenever I took a break from searching I would spend time with the body guard, all my troubles went away when I was with him.

The new guy had been away for a few days before he returned. I was in the sitting room when he greeted me. He went into my other best friends room and closed the door. I sighed and walked around the house, thinking. I couldn't be sure what he was up to. I started to have suspicions that maybe he was after the kings title, but what would he do with it? Our kindgom was gone. I started making my way to the body guard to lose my thoughts in him when the new guy showed up and asked what I was doing. I answered nothing and he went away. I found the body guard near the front door in the sitting room. I grabbed his hand and pulled him outside on the front porch. I told him that the new guy was suspicious of us, and that we would have to be more discreet. I pulled him down the first set of stairs leading to the lake and pushed him in the corner then started making out with him. We made out for a bit before heading back to the front door while He went back inside through the side door. When I made it inside the door I found the new guy waiting for me. He looked at me with a serious look and asked if I had been with the body guard. I kept quiet and he smiled and said he wasn't mad because he was involved with my other best friend too. I rolled my eyes and walked past him. I already knew that and didn't care, I didn't even want to be married to him, he could have her.

It was the next day when the new guy called everyone in the house for a meeting in the meeting room. Everyone except my other friend sat on the right side of the table. The new guy was standing behind her with his hands behind his back. An evil aura was radiating around him. I knew that his plan was about to start and that we had been too late to figure it out and stop it. He announced that he was tired of pretending to be a good guy (ha good job of that) and he had plans of becoming the king. The only reason he wanted to marry me was to obtain that title, and he only wanted to marry my best friend so I wouldn't be alone when he took my other best friend as his main queen. I told him he'd never get away with it and he seemed smug then claimed I didn't have a choice. He was going to reclaim our homeland and had a plan for making people do what he wanted. I got up and started going around the table toward him so I could get in his face but he held his hand out and I stopped. He had a box with a red button in his hand and I watched as he pressed it. I felt something inside me turn on and I became mindless. I stood with a blank expression, my hands handing limp by my sides. It felt like my mind was trapped inside me. I could see what was happening but could do nothing to control my body. I herd the body guard demand what he had done to me and he answered that I was his puppet. He had put a mind control device inside my brain while I slept one night. He said he had gotten tired of the body guard being around and commanded me to kill him. My body moved behind the body guard and I placed my hands on his neck and started choking him. I tried with all my might to stop myself but I couldn't. I was screaming, trying anything to make it stop. Right before the body guard was about to pass out the new guy ordered me to cease. He laughed and said he didn't have any intention of killing him but he wouldn't let him be with me anymore. He had him locked away in a room then let me be myself again. The entire time, my best friend had sat in silent shock, unable to do anything. I stood still, feeling defeated. There was nothing I could do, if I tried to defy him he would just control me until I was broken. I probably already was. The new guy smiled then said he was going to take my best friend and I down to the lake to cheer us up.

As we walked down the porch stairs to the lake our cloths changed into bathing suits. He was telling us about how he came down here often to get his mind off things and do some test runs. I was wondering what he meant by that last part when we reached the lake. I stood looking with shock. He had tested his mind control on dozens upon dozens of dolphins (I DONT KNOW how or why dolphins live in our lake, its a dream) He had ordered them to all swim to the edges of the lake at the same time and pile up on the edges. I noticed that there was a lot of trash among them so my best friend and I went along picking it up to try and make things easier for them. I wasn't sure what he wanted with them and he wouldn't tell us. We worked our way around the edge, picking up trash. Every now and again a dolphin would hand us some with its mouth. Once I tripped and a dolphin helped me keep steady. I saw some trash on the water behind the dolphins so we climbed over them and got in the water to gather it. When we were done we swam to the cement shelter and climbed up the ladder to get out. We were standing still, looking out over the lake with the new guy watching us when I woke up.

I know this was long but I wanted to get the rest of it done. I hope you enjoyed reading my long crazy dream. It was crazier for me when I dreamed it. Thanks for reading

8/18/2013
10:00-6:00

Dream 1:

I remember something about a "John Oliver Show".

Dream 2:

I remember a river and a bunch of wooden water equipment, like a water wheel. I think the river flooded, too, and destroyed the equipment.

Dream 3:

I was dreaming about being a secret agent in a villa, trying to steal something. I was a woman, and I started dancing in a ballroom with some people. I was also running around on the roofs of the villa.

I woke up from that dream into ANOTHER dream. I guess I had a dream within a dream (or a false awakening, but I actually remembered the dream from before). I was in my house on Long Island, and I woke up in the dining room, on a chair at the dining table. The rest of my family went through the front door, with shopping bags. I guess they just got home from shopping. I told them about the dream I just had. I then remember going into one of the cabinets and taking finding a box of sesame stick packages, from the shopping my family just got home from. They looked like little raisin boxes, but with two packs of two sesame sticks each. I took one out and ate it. That's the end of the dream.

Dream recall from today's nap.

Dream 1:

I was playing spiral knights and there was some grassland place, it was filled with rare "soul jelly' type of enemies and they were partially invisible, i started messaging SilentEternity about it but i couldn't type quick enough without getting attacked. The edges of the place was also made from weird brown metallic blocks. It was also glitchy and stuff was flickering in and out, there were also a few crimsonite crystals, explosive boxes and some lichens including one giant one.
Done with that, i finished with gaming, talked to some people and was eating an apple. Then i suddenly thought that i might be dreaming and then started feeling it, i go to balcony door and jump through, but somehow get stuck in curtains behind door again and dream fades out.

Dream 2(fragments):

Was at home, distracted from nap, then i wake up and there's something with the door and my hands were a bit clawed.

On the day prior to this dream, I'd been on a bus and noticed an angry looking wasp in the window, which is my ultimate terror. Usually you can run away like a bitch hoping the wasp doesn't sting you, but on a 50 minute bus ride you just have to chill and fight the urge to scream like a little girl and hope the wasp doesn't put you on its shit-list.

So after a night of drinking I should have forgotten all about the wasp, but my dream went like this:
I woke up in my bed (like most of my other dreams have started lately) and behold, the area around my bed is full of wasps. Crawling on the walls, on the pillows, on the blankets, on my face, even on my lips. I wanted to die. I had a slight notion that I was dreaming, but I never have control until I perform my reality check, and with a wasp crawling around on my face, I'd rather try to wake myself up. I attempted forcing my real eyes open, which is like a layer outside of my dream eyes - not sure how to explain it, I'm not even sure I understand it.
So I woke up, and again I was in my bed with wasps around me. At this point I was fully convinced the wasps were actually there and it wasn't a dream, but for good measure I decided to perform a quick reality check. Clenched my nose and tried to breathe, and to my surprise, it actually was a dream. I threw my covers off of me and stormed out of the room. I tried to open the skylight window on the hallway, but it was stuck. I gave it a good punch that pushed it open. I crawled out and flew away to explore.

Dream recall from today's naps, pretty unstable lucidity prolly because i went to nap a bit too late.

Dream 1(fragments):

I am at home and there's some stuff going on, then i realize that i am dreaming, but dream shortly fades out. then i wake up and had to go to bathroom. and wake up again.

Dream 2(fragments):

I wake up at home there's some talk and some stuff going on then i wake up again and realize that i am dreaming, i go to balcony door while rubbing hands but dream still fades out.

Dream 3(fragments):

I am trying to nap but i get interrupted by some talk, then i wake up and and i feel my arms are in different positions than where i see them i realize that i am dreaming and get up, i go to balcony but dream starts fading again, i rub hands and jump off the balcony, but dream fades out completely and i wake up[/COLOR] twice.

Dream 4(fragments):

I was at home and there were zombies invading, there were two more people and one of them was apparently infected, we had a great idea that knocking him unconscious would stop infection(Dream logic!), but it didn't worked that well and later he fully turned into a zombie.

Dream 1: I'm taking a walk in my neighborhood. I walk past my old elementary school where kids are arriving for the first day. Then, I walk up a street situated on a hill. On my way up the street, I play on the crosswalk, experimenting in finger-snapping time travel (snap your fingers, rewind time). Later, I trip on the sidewalk and fall between a dumpster and a bunch of small trees and bushes. Even further up the street I come to a chainlink fence with a hole in the bottom, and a male lion (mane and all) on the other side. I turn around and walk the other way. A few seconds later I'm in a place that seems to be full of brown leaves (although that part is fuzzy)

Dream 2 (fragment): I'm in the downstairs kitchen. I grab a cinnamon roll from the stove. (It's the pillsbury kind). I guess this was a false awakening because I remember thinking "I woke up in the afternoon again?"

Dream recall from today's nap.

I am at home and some people are distracting me from my nap, there is some talk, i have to do something with some papers and then they leave. After that i notice some candles on table, and that one of them apparently slightly setting the wall on fire, i started thinking about informing someone and almost exited the room, but then "wait a second", i look at my hands and they are weird, so i am dreaming. I stop and recall some stuff to do then i go to balcony doors while rubbing hands on the way. Dream version of my room appears to be using old layout and there are apparently a couple of steps down on the way to balcony door, and also balcony itself has glass walls, some of them are open though.
I jump out and feel my wings, starting the flight. I fly around and soon i am above some other city, with high density of rather small buildings and some industrial buildings, all of them are mostly blocky and squarey. I fly above them while looking around, there are some weird reflective surfaces floating in the air. After a few minutes i spot square opening in the roof of one of buildings and fly inside. Place appears to have mostly metallic walls and some machinery, then as i look around it slowly turns into different room from my home part by part, and then dream fades out.
I wake up and i still feel that i am dreaming, and it's nighttime here this time, i get up and go to balcony, it appears to be same as before false awakening with those two steps and glassed walls, but this time closed, i get to glass, turn around and fall back, phasing through it. I feel wings and start the flight. Looking around, dreamscape appears to be more natural, there are some trees. I fly to the left and then i find some village, there appears to be some wooden water barrel thing, in the middle of it that immediately catches my attention, i have urge to destroy it. So i land and start tearing it apart, it appears to have some mechanisms on top and metallic parts, and it's insides are made of... bread??? As i tear it apart i also notice some DCs walking around. Then satisfied with that being done, i stand up and think about trying some of that bread, but dream shortly fades out shortly.

8/15/2013, 22:00-6:45

The dda-ld ("didn't-do-anything lucid dream") is a stupid dream where you suddenly have the realization that you're dreaming, but your brain is a d-bag and says, "You know what? Let's not have a lucid dream." and you end up waking yourself up, effectively screwing yourself out of having a lucid dream that you actually do something in, hence the dda-ld.

I have actually had many of these stupid dreams in the past. This is just the first one I've decided to post. So here it is, the dda-ld:

Key:
Lucid Dream
Non-lucid dream
Woken Up
Sleep Paralysis

Dream 1:

I remember a jellyfish. That is all.

The DDA-LD:

I then woke up at probably around 3:00 in the morning, having to go to the bathroom. I got up, took a piss, stood around for a few seconds for the WBTB effect, then went back into bed. It was a bit cold, so I couldn't go to sleep right away. I was then laying there when suddenly I started feeling the rushing, vibrating, and the hypnagogic hallucinations of sleep paralysis. I remember some HH of me looking at porn on the computer () and then an icon suddenly appeared in the bottom right corner that I couldn't get rid of. I became scared I was gonna get found out. Then I suddenly woke up in my bed. I kind of knew I was dreaming, but I wasn't sure, so I tried to create something; a sound, an object, a smell, anything. Whenever I tried to create anything, all that would happen was the rushing sound and vibrations, which I was thinking were like me trying to concentrate on creating something. I then gave up on that and instead, my brain said "screw it" and tried to wake me up the same way I woke up in a prievious LD: by doing the nose plug reality check, and got too involved with the breathing of my physical body, that I wake myself up. That didn't work this time, so I just closed my eyes to connect with the physical body, and I woke myself up.


So that is my DDA-LD. Technically, I'd call it a DDA-WILD because of the sleep paralysis, but it still is a DDA-LD. Though, this isn't a total failure, since this actually is the first time I've had a WILD.

Last night I visited one of my dream places. I have many places that I tend to visit frequently in my dreams. Last night the place I visited was the small home business of the male veterinarian and his wife. This is the second time I have visited this place so it has officially become a dream place because I know I will visit it again in the future.

The dream was I was at a home (I say at A home because I was in a place where in my dream I lived but the place doesn't exist) my family lived their also, the person I remember mainly is my mom. I can't remember in detail what was happening before the main event of the dream happened, but the main event started out by me seeing my cat with its front leg broken in half. I was saddened by this but I went on with my life. It wasn't until a few days later (which passes by very fast in my dreams) when I saw my cat living its normal life with its broken leg that my heart strings finally tore. Seeing my cat has to use the broken end of its leg to walk on just to be able to get around made me panic and I started to look through a number book for a number to a vet. I called and the receptionist answered and told me to hold. She never returned and I hung up and called again. The continued to put me on hold until eventually when the phone was answered there was nobody on the other end. I kept calling a few more times until I remembered that the reason why they wouldn't take my call was because the vet I was calling and I were at very bad odds. That's when I remembered the other vet. I remembered him and I knew he was from another dream so I looked for his number and couldn't find it. So I got set out to go to his house, and after what seemed like a very long time of traveling along cliff side paths and treacherous obstacles I finally reached his house. I went in and found that he had aged decades and he was telling little kids stories that I can't recall. After a while he noticed me and I told him about my cat. He just kept smiling at me until I freaked out and asked "Is it possible to fix my cat, or not??" He just chuckled and said he could do it. He left the room and I stared at his wife until he returned. When he did return he was back to his original age, which is about 35 or so. I then realized I would need to go back and get my cat so I watched him walk around his house until I got woken up.

I slept 9 hours that dreaming session from 9 am to 6pm. I know other things happened during that dream, and I have flashes of memory of the events, but nothing discernible. The thing about the dream was I knew that I had seen this place before in another dream and that I was dreaming, at the end I was about to make my cat magically appear beside me using lucid dreaming so I wouldn't have to go back through all that, but I got woken up before I was able to.

YES! I really do think this was my first lucid dreamn. Wow, even writing this.. feels weird.. I know I'm awake right now, writing this.. but.. reality.. seems.. a bit odd... off.. after that one. Everything seems a bit... I don't know. just off. I feel a little disoriented. I am trying to pin this down so I remember.. don't forget.. (Wow.. still testing to see if I'm awake, I wasn't all convienced.) But I know I am. No dream is THIS real. I can feel, touch, smeel, look atound, did the time test on the computer clock. Everything is ringing alright.. but.. still.. everything just seems... really weird to me. I can't explain this.. My vision looks.. slightly askew. My thought proces... seems slightly muddled... or at least different. MY reaction time.. or... my perception... bah! I just can't put my finger on it! Everything just seems.. off. XD But.. damn it, this WAS a lucid dream I had. Let's focus on that, and get back to this later


I took a nap. Listened to this fun, relaxing, mentally stimulating mp3. I'll attatch it later.. Listened to it twice, as the first time I finished it, just as it was over, Brent had just gotten home, and he had startled me some as I had just finished listened to it. Felt myself a bit more alert than I wanted to be, so I listened to it again. Finished it off.. then went to sleep. I went to bed, saying many times that I was going to dream, and i was going to be aware. But.. Not more so than I usually do. Usually.. when my mind wonders, I do have to katch myself, and go back to my usual task. This time was no different. Though.. I didn't wader too much come to think of it.. I ca think of just a few times where I had to reassert my possition that I was going tobe dreaming soon, and would be aware.. THen.. it started to hapen...

My next flashes of vision where.. of me in bed.. still lying there, still concious that I was sleeping.. I then.. started having.. odd sensations. Weird... sensations... Like.. lying in a different possiotn in bed.. only to realize I hadn't really moved at all, feeling a wave of excitement push me back to solid awareness.. that I had just caught myself starting to dream, but every time I did, the excitement would push me back into that same sleeping position. Ireally do think I'll have to make sure I sleep in a very comfortable possition.. as the piossition I was in kept reasserting itself many times.. kept pulling me back into reality every time I realized I was dreaming.. the hand pressed up against my face, the odd angle of my neck.. but.. I didn't want to move.. as I didn't want my body to snap fully back into reality. And that.. I think.. is what lead to me having the lucid dream...


To continue.. I kept on trying.. quite hard.. to get myself into my dream. Snippets of me lying in bed.. brearthing oddly.. would flash into my feild of vission, replacing

dad coming in, saying he didn't like this, saying I was on something, wasn't able to move, was thinking of telling him I was trying to dream, but coldn't. Couldn't move, could do anything. Tried... not too hard.. but tried.. remember.. hearing his distant voice... as if I might still be asleep.. or that he had tried talkting to me.. tried waking me up, and he was upset I wasn't responding. it was then.. I realized I must have been dreaming.. as.. i realized dad couldn't be home. He'd still be at work. My alarm hadn't gone off.. I was.. dreaming still. I think I mayhave slipped back into reality once or twice there.. but I was slowly gaining lucidity.

But it was weird.. every time I tried to get myself into my dream.. it was as if the world was seen through a grey filmy senses.. were partially tied to my sleeping body. LMy vission.. wasn't clear... My thought process definitely wasn't right. I was.. trying hard to reassert myself back into my dream, by... testing the reality of my dream.. oh.. now THAT produced weird affects... of which I think made it harder to stay lucid in my dream.. either eventually slipping out of lucidty altogether, or pushing myself back into my bed from where I was, trying to LD. But.. Several times.. I ested myself.. breathed deeply through my mouth... Found that sensation overwhelmingly weird as I knew my mouth was closed in my real bed. A wave of excitement pushed me back to my bed.. but.. I didn't move.. I tried again.. a little later.. perhaps after a few more failed attemmpts... I remember.. just getting frusterated with it, and.. somehow, bizzarly, forced my dream self to get up out of bed, knowing my real body was still in bed.just wanting to get myself up, and try to explore my lucidity. THat.. seemed to work. I made it quickly downstairs. My dog was there, and I remember rubbing her belly some. I remember.. feeling her fur under my fingers.. I believe that wsent another wave of excitement, pushing me partailly back to my bed. All these different clues and reminders kept me from attaining true lucidy, as I said.. I just couldn't... see right.. everything had a dark tone to it.. more.. grey.. like.. I was seeing everything through my imagination, and I couldn't put solidity to it.. but whenever a sensation was damned real, felt it, experienced i.. it sent waves of excitement through me. Oh.. waves I couldn't ignore. Certain things just seemed.. damn real! Like breathing. I remember that.. chilling me some, in an exciting way. Openeing my mouth wide, and taking a deep breath.. knowing I felt it enter my mouth, expand my lungs... even though I was still lying in bed... Yeah.. the whole.. dual body thing.. is really REALLY weird.. and hard to put together in my head.. But.. I knew I was sleeping, asleep.. and awake at the same time. SOO bizzar....

THe last snippits of the lucid dream I remember, or being lucid that I remember.. was going outside to my back porch.. I.. was still.. testing things.. There was... a... yes.. a hotweels racetrack, fairly large sitting there.. I think that thing is what took away my lucidity.. because I think I remember waking up to that from my dream, no longer lucid.. as the rest of that is quite fuzzy... But I remember doing.. more tests using that.. long black race set... mI remember.. t had shifted.. to it being... one of those magnetic, electric controlled tracks.. the one where you pull a trigger on a controller, and the car goes down the track, two can be on two tracks.. though this one.. was impressive.. and.. it kind of presented itself like.. and advertisement to just how cool it was.. I think near that point, I lost lucidity.. I lost focus on reality.. as the last thing I remember in my lucidty.. was.. soring first person through that race track, very very small snippets of that image.. but I do recall that...

But.. yeah.. wow.. FIRST LUCID DREAM!*Smiles* Such.. bizzar sensation... such.. odd feelings.. Even unsure of my reality when first waking up (Though I'm 100% sure now) But.. just.. such odd feelings. Testing my reality so many times.. not to see if I was dreaming, but more to assert myself more into my dream... to pull away from the sleeping body I knew I was in, to mopre compltely put myself into the real dream. Nearly every attempt reminded me too much of my reality though, and pushed me back into my sleeping body. I need to figure out better testing. I should have remembered to focus more on detail, than my phical body and sensation. THe reality of those sensations always got me too excited. ^^;;; Pushed me back into reality.. but.. just.. wow were those sensation freakishly weird... and real.. Just.. weird because.. the moment I experienced them.. I'd get such an odd rush.. somehow.. also feeling my body back in bed at the same time I was experiencing everything else...

And the trip with dad.. THat.. seemed too damned real to.. to the point of me worrying.. if I had taken some kind of drug, which dad had thought I had.. because I tried moving about.. I couldn't. I couldn't open my eye, I couldn't talk. I don't know.. where I was then.. in my sleeping body, or in my dream.. but I didn't have control at that point.. or very little.. I remember.. other senstions.. like moving my arms or fingers, even though I hadbn't in real life.. I remember changing possiotns, even though I hadn't... I remember.. hearing dad's quieted, distant sounding voice, trying to get me up, trying to wake me.. the sound of his disaproval.. But all of that so soon faded when I realized my alarm never went off, than that I was still firmly asleep in my bed.

Oh man.. Woooooohooooo!! ^o^ First lucid dream ever! Not just one where I breath once, and snap quickly into reality the very instant I go lucid... No.. this one was prolonged. Got to explore, got to expreience.. Oh.. Much more is needed to be doooone!

And.. I really have that mp3 to thank. I'll attatch it in a bit though. That thing.. work.. WEIRD wonders to me. THe first time listeneing to it.. and.. to get... such instant results. Yeah.. I was damn tired for my nap, so I'm not surprised I fell asleep so quickly.. but.. to have.. well, everything else.. that was all so new! Woohoo!!!

I think.. I have everything covered that happened... I hop I'm not missing anything. If so.. I'll add it later.. but.. Yaaay! FIRST LUCID DREAM!!

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing Doom and roaming through some huge map. It was some kind of complex with outdoor areas at west and indoor areas at east, and also some ventilation system passages. It was pretty mazey and used alot of grey/white textures in places, but also brown ones in other places and green in outdoor area. There were some new enemies and something about player character was dragon-related(can't recall exactly what though).I realized that it's dream while viewing automap briefly and tried to memorize it. Then i lost lucidity.

Dream 2(fragments):

I've had chain of false awakenings during which i either was trying to deal with mosquito or was talking to someone about PC hardware. Then there's another false awakening, and this time some nice voice is asking something, i try to respond and eventually get up i feel that i am dreaming and i feel... quite more aware of surroundings than usually, there's some female DC, we talk about something for a bit and i end up following her and losing lucidity, there are three more DCs, i become aware of dreaming again while going downstairs but then talk continues and i lose lucidity again, i look around and think about reality checking, but end up talking with DCs again. They say that we are going to certain place and i didn't liked it so i went back.