false awakening

juroara's dream

Note: I set my intention before falling asleep that I would be lucid and dream share

False Awakening Nightmare
I'm just trying to sleep, but I can't. My room is haunted. It feels like there's someone there, standing at the end of my bed. I try to sleep but the entity tugs at my sheets and startles me. I look but I don't see anyone. Again I go back to sleep, but now they grab my feet. I sit up, there's no one there.

It feels like this goes on for hours. I finally I get frustrated at the entity harassing me and I scream "FUCK OFF! LEAVE ME ALONE!!"

That's when I realize everything was wrong. My bed is facing the closet, which I hate. The window is behind my head, which feels weird. I have five cats running around my bedroom instead of one. And my sister is awake, its what 3am, and shes cooking? There are strangers in the living room. And its dark, and everything feels foggy.

Forget this, I can't sleep. I go for a drive. Even though it was dark and a bit creepy driving around town, it was nice. Fresh air, outside. Not like my bedroom, which just felt wrong. There are kids playing outside too, at this hour! They chase me home until their parents scold them.

I go back home and I walk into the living room with all the strange people, like hobos, sleeping in the dark corners. This makes no sense. This whole night makes no sense! Why is my sis cooking?

I'm dreaming! I levitate just to make sure. But being lucid didn't get rid of this foggy-ness. I fly outside into the dark. I didn't get very far.

Suddenly I was slammed back into my bed. I can't move. There's a dark entity standing over my bed, but I can't make out his face. He grabs my ankles, I can feel his grip. He pulls me towards him and all I sense from him is hate. I scream "HELP! HELP!" But my voice is muffled. Why can't I scream? I'm still dreaming!

I break free from his grip and fly out the window. The dream becomes a desperate chase dream.

Sunlight Saves Me
Now there are several dark entities after me. This dream is foggy, abstract and its so hard to move, its like trying to run in a pool. I do whatever I can to get away from them. They're right behind me. I thought about summoning lightning, but I was afraid my dream skill wouldn't work. Instead I ended up screaming "I summon the power - of everything!"

I finally run into a building that has lights on. But this place!! No windows. Rooms with no doors. There is something wrong with this place. I run into an office and I find my co-workers, blue as zombies. They were just staring off into space.

I run up to them "Help me!"

"Oh hi J"

"They're after me!"

"Who's harassing you?"

"Them!"

My zombie co-workers were happy to help and they hold back the entities buying me time. I run down a hallway which morphs into a tunnel sliding down to the next level below. The walls, the ceiling, everything was bleach white. A nurse was holding a baby pig and she tries to eat it live.

I run past her thinking this dream can't get anymore messed up "Really lady? What the fuck!"

Finally I see a door! And on the other side was sunlight. I run faster, they're right behind me. A lady is in my way so I leap out the doors window instead and crash land into a sunny spot.

"Im safe!"

The entities catch up and surround me. I can't move, I'm stuck, as though it was sleep paralysis.

"Oh, what's this?" said one of the entities

"She's escaping!"

"Then why isn't she moving?"

They're trying to intimidate me. But I know I'm safe. I ignore them and focus on the rising sun creating the most beautiful glow over the puffiest clouds. Fly. Fly. Fly!

Bam! In an instant I was up in the sunlit glowing clouds flying as fast as a jet, the nightmare was miles behind, I'm so happy! I wasn't really flying though. Some force was pulling me towards the sun at an incredible speed! It was amazing! The sun was so gorgeous!

And then just like that, I wake up. I'm tucked under my sheets, but I just know everything is right now. I can feel that my bed is facing the right direction, its facing the eastern window. I can feel a lump by my feet, my cat softly purring. Everything felt right. I remembered a similar nightmare I had a year ago when I tried to dreamshare. It had all the same elements. A dark entity grasping at my ankles. The dark-foggy dreamscape, and eventually, sunlight.

I knew I was safe, and that if I go back to sleep, I'm gonna be lucid and I'll have a good chance at dreamsharing.

Its Windy
I don't remember the beginning of this dream, I only remember that I just became lucid. The dream is bright, vivid, and colorful. There were so many DCs. It looks like I'm in the middle of a classroom, somewhere in the countryside.

I go outside and choose my target, Windy. "I now dreamshare with Windy!" My dream seems to shake, like its trying to morph into another dream. Then everything stabalizes again. Did it work? I look around me but I seem to be in exactly the same spot.

I thought that maybe I had to find Windy. So I try to tell the dream to take me to Windy. Instead the dream responds by making my dream literally windy. This isn't working!

I go back inside and harass the students. "Do you know that this is my dream?"

They look at me with blank faces. "I'm looking for another dreamer. Have you seen one?"

They're still confused. So I try to explain to them the difference between a dreamer and the DC.

One student replies "So this means, when you wake up, I'm going to die? That my entire life is only this moment?" Some students seemed disturbed, others seemed annoyed at my suggestion that they were just DCs.

"I dunno! You just go back into my head I think! But seriously, answer my question. Are you or are you not my DC? When I walk into the room, do you or do you not recognize me as the dreamer?"

They just look at me again.

"Well what's another dreamer like?" another student asks

"If there was another dreamer here, that person would be alien to you"

Then they draw my attention to their student work, a video project. I'm admiring the amazing details of the dream. I remember the glass pane of the computer screen. But watching the video made my dream unstable and I thought I was going to wake up. As soon as I stopped watching the dream stabilized and I continued my search for Windy, or any unusual DC.

I go outside and fly to a lake. There's a DC walking on water! How is he doing that? I try to walk on water too, something I've always wanted to do in a dream! But its not working. The water feels too real to walk on. I'm kinda jealous a DC can do something I can't.

"How are you doing that?"

But this DC teacher was the silent type, he just smiles and continues to walk on water.

I continue my search through a theater with rows of costumes, a lodge and restaurant. At some point I get a bottle of water and at some point I accidentally dropped into a river. A group of kids hanging out by the bridge scold at me for littering. I thought about flying down and picking it up, but then I think, its just a dream. I wake up shortly after.

NON DREAM DREAM LUCID

Wow...I haven't been on in forever. I'm so good at this "consistency" thing.

Anyways, I'm back, and I'll celebrate my return by posting a couple of recent dreams I've had!

I'm driving down the road with my mom, at an intersection that I recognize from real life. There are other people sitting in the back of my car, but I can't remember who they are (probably my brother and sister).

We're going on a trip to my best friend's aunt's house and staying there for the weekend (I've stayed at her aunt's house several times in real life, so nothing unusual here), but we can't find the place. After awkwardly driving around for a bit, I finally recognize our destination.

I point to the run down little house (looks absolutely nothing like my BFF's aunt's house in real life, but oh well) and say to mom, "Look! Right there!"

My mom kind of looks at the house questioningly and says, "That's her house? You sure?" I tell her that I am, and she drives the car onto their backyard.

I'm not sure exactly what happens in-between these two parts...it wasn't a dream switch, because pretty much the same story line was being followed, but I can't recall a lot of details. Anyways...

Somehow, a character from the show Supernatural named Dean Winchester (Jensen Ackles) shows up. There are giant flies inside the house, and they were gross. Dean explains to me that they're demon bugs set out to destroy humans.

Great.

Anyways, I guess somehow I'm Dean's assistant or something, or at least that's what it feels like. Dean seems really angry or upset the whole time he's trying to get rid of these bugs, but he won't tell me what's wrong.

He goes outside into the backyard to try and exterminate the last of the bugs, and I follow him outside to help. He sees that I'm following him, and he turns on me angrily.

"No. Back inside."

I shake my head no. I'm going to help him whether he likes it or not. He doesn't say anything else, just points towards the house and keeps giving me angry looks.

I refuse to leave, and he sighs. He knows I'm not going anywhere. That's when a random woman (don't know who she was, she had wavy red hair, though) ran outside, followed by another character, Sam Winchester (Jared Padalecki).

Now other people are walking around the house, and we're trying to keep the whole 'bug' things under wraps. People are watching us from the house, and we kind of all just awkwardly wave and give them the thumbs up to assure them that everything is fine. We just want them to leave us alone.

I don't think we ever even stopped the bugs...they just sort of left. The atmosphere changed and everything was happier, like we had succeeded. I specifically remember hanging out with a ton of people in the house and laughing and having a good time, and Dean was actually happy. I could tell he like the family environment.

I remember him saying, "This is nice, isn't it? Y'know...being around people and stuff."

Then I wake into a False Awakening...

I'm laying down in the same spot that I fell asleep in. In real life, I had spent the night at a friend's house along with a couple other people. As I'm laying in the bed, I notice that I'm holding a baby doll in my arms. It's really creepily realistic and acts just like a baby. I shrug and say, "Huh, must have gone shopping in my sleep again." My friend is sitting next to me and reaches out to touch the doll's face.

The doll starts crying and goes, "You slapped me! You slapped me!". My friend looks at it in panic, because she barely touched it, and she doesn't know what to do.

I wake up for real, and I feel like I should still have the doll with me...

This is probably the weirdest thing to have happened to me. I had been trying to WILD earlier but stopped because it had been around 40 minutes since I started. I rolled over and went back to sleep.

Then I woke up on the other side of my old bed (I was dreaming but I didn't know). At the time, I thought I was still in bed so I started another WILD attempt (kind of accidentally). I looked at an object on my floor. I closed my eyes but I could still see the object somewhat clearly behind my eyelids. It starts what you could say, "transitioning". I enter SP and soon I'm in a WILD dream inside my (I think) normal dream. Both dreams were really vivid, I don't know if I actually WILD into the first one subconsciously.

Everything is really blurry, and I can't move my arm inside the WILD. I try to stay still and let the dream progress before I try to mess around with it. I wait for about 5 seconds and I transistion back to the normal dream, and I went back into the WILD moments later. My bed was different in the WILD. I tried to stand up but I started to lose the dream. I waited. Then the WILD ended altogether. I wake up back in my old bed. I try to push my hand through my palm (reality check). It didn't work. I plugged my nose but I could still breathe! I didn't know what to think. The last thing I remember is sitting on the side of my bed.

Then I woke up. Back in my old bed. This time I was on the left side of the bed, compared to the previous where I was on the right. I thought about what just happened. I woke up again. In my old bed. I thought I was back in my real bed. I said "Screw it" and went back to sleep. I woke up in my real bed, on the left side of my bed (where I always sleep). I was actually awake this time.

It started out at the mail over the road from my house, I was shoping with my friend and when we got home there was dude standing in the door way trying to shot us, when I tryed to scream nothing came out that when I realized that I was dreaming, I got a bit over excited, I tryed spinning but that didn't work. I woke up and went out to the kitchen and my dad was there, I woke up again, that when I realized that was a FA

A lot of my memories for the night are really splotchy, my recall was pretty bad. Plus, I got really distracted for a while after waking up and didn't take the time to read over my dreams until now. As a result, some of this probably won't make much sense. :T Anything in quotation marks is just a direct quote from my notes, and something I couldn't really figure out.

#1 - New College Dorm [Non-Lucid]

"Looking for a new college dorm and seeing a lot of people in the process, getting ready to make an offer but afraid someone else might get out. While looking for someone to get out, somehow I accidentally set up a coke deal through O and he even has it for me by the time I wake up. Apparently I lived under some housing label before and never knew and the employees are shocked because normally everyone who does is close as family and I just never noticed before since I was such a loner, and they were gonna play hard ball but now it seems like they really want to give it to me."



#2 - Easy Money [Non-Lucid]

We opened a restaurant at my house, and I spent pretty much the entire dream taking peoples' money and credit card numbers but never actually brought any orders out.

#3 - Dream Journal [Non-Lucid]

I'm visiting some high school class and we're having some mid-day recess, and apparently I go there day after day because the days keep skipping while I'm outside. On the last day I actually go back inside and see the classroom for once, and the teacher puts on a movie. I pull out a yellow paper pad to doodle or something, and notice on it the words "Dream Journal". Obviously, I remain non-lucid.

Dream Fragment - "Something about Linkzelda41 and eating an orange?? So faint...."

#4 - Joking About Celebrities [Non-Lucid]

"Wandering around school, make friends with some of the girls in that class. D's there, and O. Something about celebrities, we joke about one of them going crazy and attacking the others in a story or movie or something. Then I head through the hallways with D (other D) thinking about what to do, I have class but I end up getting game guides to read instead."

False Awakening - "I think I must have went home, laid down in bed to read the game guides, and passed out early."

Terrible recall. >_< Maybe I should try drinking apple juice before bed or something!

A black panther was growling behind / under / beside my bed. He was very close and very angry. I was just waiting for him to attack.

In my dream, I was in bed and had been sleeping. I was now trying to open my eyes, but I couldn't.

Then, the panther was a cat. I still couldn't open my eyes, but the growling was now the purring of a cat. I could feel it's cool breath on my face.

I think there is some connection with FA's and becoming lucid. I felt close to lucidity in this dream, and I considered this an FA. I'll keep tabs on it.

(I wake up after some 4 hours of sleep, stay up for almost an hour and pop in Galantamine and Choline.... then just lay down in bed, not moving a hair... waiting while listening to binaural tones... I am pretty pumped up from the "wake up in your dream" seminar....)

Suddenly, I feel vibration wave going from my head to my chest.... and another one... somehow I understand what is going on.. and I just continue being still....

I wake up in bed in my grandmother's house, still attempting to fall asleep, not realising that it is a dream already. Then I do the "pull my finger" reality check that I was shown at the seminar. And at one point my finger stretches!! However, I am struggling to get up.

Then Karim enters the room, and he keep interrupting me. Next a small Colombian girl comes in, and I start to mess around with her a bit, taking off her top. Then I realise it is a dream, looking at my hands and finding my index fingers having a funny branch mini finger!!

It is a very high level of lucidity (4) as I remember so many things I want to do that I read about or heard of at the seminar. I am at the garden behind our house in Czech now. I want to fly different methods of flying. I want to try everything. I star waving my arms and it takes me up a little bit. Then I start kicking my legs, and I can feel much better acceleration, but its still very tough, and I think to myself "this is stupid, there must be a better way." So I just spread my arms and intend to fly, lean forward as I learned at the seminar... ... and to my surprise it works.... Then I just glide around over the top of the roofs and trees. At one point, I can see the roofs and antennas around our house.... gliding on them black and white trees. As I fly over the trees I can see a storm at the distance, I want to fly through, but I avoid it at the end. then I try to fly to the stars, but it is little boring as it seems like I am being still, since there are no objects around..... suddenly I notice red dots crossing the sky in different directions. I think to myself it must be satellites. I decide to fly back landing at our garden again.

I want to try door teleportation too. There is a family of 3-4 having a barbecue at our garden. I don't wonder about it, and sneak around them to the garage. It has nice white door. I walk through, but it is just dark in there (as I did not intend anything behind). I think, damn this doesn't work, so I walk back outside. Now there is a bench a bunch of teenagers, some of them girls. I have dirty thoughts again, but then I remember to try press ups. So I walk away a bit and start doing press ups. I goes tough, but i am not getting tired. Suddenly some of them teenagers start pressing on my back... so I stop.

Then I feel my hand is hurting. I know it is in reality as I remember falling asleep and having duvet held in that hand. I am thinking how to move my arm without waking up. Strangely I manage to merge these realities and a fix my arm to a better position.

Now, I am worried that it is too late and that I will not hear my alarm! I am running around trying to find working clock and my phone.... then I force myself up as I don't want to be late... waking up at 6:12 when my alarm is set to 6:15!!!

This was by far the most advanced and vivid lucid dream.

I was a busy girl this night! Four MILDs, one almost V-WILD, and one non-lucid, not to mention some shadow creatures at the beginning of the night. Intense!

Side Notes - So, as I was falling asleep there was suddenly some very vivid and weird blobby structure textured like blue jeans behind my eyelids, it twitched and morphed very quickly. This was not hypnagogic imagery (at least, not fully), it was a remnant of when I used to meditate while abusing anticholinergic deliriants, it moved in the exact same way. I open my eyes and say "Great, so I'm hallucinating now." There were dark clouds moving across my room and coming up to my face, I could feel an animal presence in each one, but I didn't allow them to form into anything. Across my ceiling moved a cloud that I always recognize as one of my delirium signs. Had I let it grow, it would've turned into a big white alien crab thing. I decided to just close my eyes and try to fall asleep quickly anyway while repeating my lucidity mantra.

#1 - Playing With The Weather [MILD]

The first few parts of this dream I only remember in flashes. I remember wishing some city was closer to us for some reason, I think I perceived it as some cool party area, then blur... then there's some spaceship ride at a theater or old house or something where we weren't supposed to be, but I got on the ride with a couple other people and it sent me into third-person mode in outer space, controlling some ship (a star destroyer from Star Wars, maybe?) as some commercial about it plays in the background (just the audio) and the ship gets continuously divided into smaller copies of itself by other ships around it. I think this phase is what caused me to become lucid... suddenly I was back in first-person and standing in front of my house. A big red bus was driving down the street and I tried to pull it toward me with telekinesis but it didn't work, probably too big of a task for a beginner. (I don't think I've used telekinesis since my second lucid ever.) So instead I lept up and blasted off into the sky at supersonic speeds, the wind felt so amazing rushing past my face. I even got to feel myself pass through clouds, which was awesome! I watched the ground streak by until I stopped over some really big field in a country area with one or two small farms. I was really high up, above the clouds, and I saw a tornado tearing through the countryside. (Though, aside from a couple storm clouds, it was bright and sunny outside. ) I gave my telekinesis another shot and managed to change its path by holding my hand out and pushing it in a different direction. Next I turned my attention to a storm cloud next to me and tried to make lightning strike the ground from it, but it wasn't really working too well, it was more like a mild flash that was just a glitch in my perception. I guess that one might take some waking life visualization first to do well. After that I transitioned into third-person again and lost lucidity, there was some kid breaking into a bank and some nasty old man with a shotgun (I think...) and his dog comes in and threatens him to leave and return what he stole or he's going to call this other old man and make him his pet. I woke up after that. There was a lot of dream leading up to the blurry part too, I remember experiencing it, just not what it was.... Though I do remember it involved Erii.

#2 - Outmatched [MILD]

I was back in middle school but in a class with a guy I didn't meet until high school, and the environment was somewhat fused with my community college. I have two electric guitars made of rubber, and they really work but they also aren't stable and bend and flop around a lot. Apparently one of them is broken and the other is a replica of the broken one, and my teacher gets mad at me for having them so I ask if I can take them to a different classroom. She says sure, so I get up and start walking through the halls and swing them like crazy on my way, they bend so much that they made that *wop-wop-wop* spinning blade sound but with a cool little electric guitar noise. While walking through the hall I become lucid, and somehow I went from the second floor to the first floor. I look up a massive staircase and see someone who I don't remember, but I flew up to him and asked him where Mason was. (This guy I had a class with in high school, I don't know why I thought of him but I was basically just trying to keep a dream plot going.) He didn't know so I flew off to the cafeteria (first floor) and there were several rows of tables with computers set up there for some reason. I just had fun walking through the rows and seeing tons of old people I went to middle school with, including D and C, working on some projects. I walked to one of the stairwells and sat down next to it and pulled out my phone to start texting (I think I almost lost lucidity here), and O walked by me and said that I'd better be careful because he had just gotten in trouble for doing that, and I was like oh snap, I'm supposed to be in class! I walk up the stairs next to these two random DC girls and tell them about the guitars and they laugh, and I'm like "I know, fuckin' dreams." Upstairs we walk to a section where there's a large gap in between two sections of the floor that you can see the first floor through, with a bridge off to the right of where I am. Directly across from me is a room with a bunch of people standing out front, so I jump across the gap myself and walk into the room. It's small and nearly empty, with another even smaller room (like closet-sized) connected to the side of it. There's a random girl standing next to the window looking out of it, and she looks over at me. Suddenly she runs over to me at LIGHTNING speed, like leaving a blurry trail behind her and everything, and stands right in front of me with this serious face. I freak out and try to kick her away, but with her super speed she just jumps to right behind my foot. She just stares at me and then reaches out to grab my leg. O_O And I'm basically terrified at this point, but then I wake up.

I need to master that level of super speed as a power!!

#3 - Walking On Water [MILD]

O and I are leaving our middle school to go to In-N-Out for lunch but we accidentally use an exit door that has an alarm on it. I figured this out after we used it but O didn't, so I just wanted to get out of there so I don't get in trouble. We almost left, but O started seeing everyones' reactions to the alarm going off and starts having a panic attack, so I put aside my worries to keep him calm. It jumps forward to me right up next to some window blinds, like literally they're all I see, with individual ones having information printed on them about how I have to sit in this timeout class all day for being in trouble, and it specifically stated that one of the school admins was ninja9578. Eventually I back away from the blinds and see that this class is in a tiny building in front of the school, in the parking lot. This one guy in somewhat fancy black clothes is there and asks me what I'm there for after talking to the teacher about something, but I became lucid around this point. I just tell him I'm getting out of there, and I fly up and phase through the wall and into the sky. I look back and see him smiling and looking encouragingly at me, and he says "This is a dream!" or something like that, and I just smile at him and fly off. I start off down the road toward my house, but then I decided to ground myself and hoof it this time to make sure I didn't get too much of an adrenaline rush. I run down the path, and normally there's a bridge and on the left side of it you see my old elementary school, but instead this time right at the edge of the bridge was a beach with a long stretch of water going out from it. :O I decided that walking on water would be a cool thing to do, so I just ran out on to it. There are waves forming and breaking beneath me and it feels so cool, I try to jump over the waves as they come just for the fun of it. That went on for a short amount of time, then the dream ended.

False Awakening - I had a false awakening here where I intended to start writing that dream down, but it wasn't really significant. Luckily it didn't mess with my memory of it, but it did make me think I had woken up between the alarm part and the getting in trouble briefly when I actually hadn't.

#4 - Sleepwalking Scare [MILD]

I was briefly lucid, I can't remember much other than that the plot of the dream seemed really unstable and ill-formed, like the DCs were actually invisible. They were definitely there in a third eye kind of way, but they vanished easily, and I was afraid that I was actually lucid sleepwalking or something because I was standing naked in my bathroom, and if I closed my eyes and walked around I felt myself moving and all, but when I would open them I'd still be in the same spot. However, when I actually woke up I was still in bed.

Side Notes - After this I wasn't really intending to fall back asleep, but I didn't feel like getting up either. I stayed in bed and started thinking about giving myself a breast massage, but I was so lazy that I didn't even actually feel like lifting my arms to do it, so I started visualizing it instead. To my surprise, the visualization was incredibly strong, and I felt like it was actually happening. A scene started forming around me too, I was walking Target and looking at DVDs while doing this. It definitely felt like it was about to completely take over and suck me into a V-WILD several times, but it was never able to fully do it. Maybe if I'd done this method before I would've known how to push it all the way, but as it is I just don't think I was tired enough to fall into it. After I gave up with that it took me another fifteen or twenty minutes to fall asleep again.

#5 - Chao Raising [Non-Lucid]

I was raising chao (from Sonic Adventure) with K, and then my memory gets blurry.... I wrote down "find a way back to the beginning of an obstacle course which takes me back to the beginning of it all and causes me to hatch from one of his eggs?" I remember before this he was at my house writing a trip report for some cannabinoid smoking blend we had both tried, and then he was leaving but I said I wanted to go with him and he said I needed to hurry, so I went to change clothes and somehow it launched into that. Afterwards he asked me what I was going to do with the new chao and I told him I might go for one beauty-based (?) because until then I'd been looking at Erii as the figure of beauty. (??) Then I woke up lol.

I was at some kind of an airport or something. I ended up seeing this short-haired blonde. Something about her wasn't that attractive, but something about her was very attractive. I think she was in my mind from someone I met at a Publix the other day.

She ended up leaning into me. My face was it her hair and by her neck. I was so close to her neck with my lips for so long. I was nervous to kiss her, or to even touch her neck with my lips, but she stayed right there. I got a little closer. Her neck was right there at my mouth.

I finally just barely touched her neck with my lips. It was wonderful. Then my grandparents were looking down from a window high up in the wall. My grandfather said something. I said, "Yes sir" hoping my respect would instill mercy for being "naughty" or whatever.


I was then outside at my friends house. I realized I was dreaming. I was with a beautiful woman, though I couldn't see her face. I started makinglove to her. I slapped her in the face as an RC. I continued making love to her. I looked down at her, which I never do in my lucids. I wanted to stabilize, so I slapped her again. I should have just rubbed my hands together.

Soon the International Police were buzzing around and they were after my friend. He stayed in his garage. I couldn't believe they were after him. I asked him, "This is real isn't it." It was in fact an FA. He said, "Yes, this is real."

I ended up trying to imagine myself making love again, but I thought I was awake and couldn't get back into the dream. RRRRR.

My recall's starting to get pretty poor, I think I need to start reading up on some ways to increase it, and also some lucid stabilization guides. I had two lucids, but it seems like every time I have one that lasts more than a few seconds it's spent fighting the dream to keep it alive, and often failing, and I don't get to focus on anything like finding Linkzelda41 or exploring powers. :T Hmm.... (Though, I guess I did get to briefly attempt one thing that would be useful for that this time, but it didn't really work.)

Fragment - "K, tripping, freak out fan on/off, zombies, his phone too warm."

Fragment - "Giant valley filled with water, pink Star Fox fighter battle, on DS. Water level dropped at end."

#1 - Fight To Survive [MILD]

I'm in high school with O and D, a history class I think, and our teacher is giving us a lesson along with some humongous white snake with no eyes that still somehow stares into your soul. Some guy in class was browsing the internet (on his laptop I guess, kind of hard to remember) instead of paying attention, so the snake caused him to become a cartoon and switch bodies with a female anthropomorphic bunny. o_o After class we're getting ready to leave as if class was totally normal, and I became lucid after talking to them about the snake. O walks through a door with some girl on the way out (like literally, they phased right through it) and I follow him (phasing through the door as well, the first lucid power I actually had to work to get good at, and can now do flawlessly ) to try to get him to come back but he still walks off. I decide to open the door to change where it leads to, and it kind of works but not really, it just leads me to a different school hallway. The dream starts to fade so I start rubbing my hands together and feeling the walls and looking all over the place for new input but it's not really working, so I jump forward and start licking the wall as well, three senses stimulated! It doesn't taste as bad as I would have imagined, just sort of neutral. I start walking down the wall (never removing my hands or tongue from it) trying to find something to do, and the dream clearly doesn't want to last. My limbs are slowly failing as if I'd been fatally poisoned or something. Finally I see one of those little bins they had at stores with different ice cream cones and bars in them, and I run over there and just grab a regular vanilla ice cream cone. I started eating it and it actually tasted pretty good, but then I woke up. I guess it wasn't a total waste.

#2 - False False Awakening? [MILD]

I was talking to K about some politics related to lucid dreaming (mostly gibberish I think, but something about how some politician was claiming that lucid dreaming was equivalent to passing through the gates of hell ), and then I get a... well, it's odd because I can't remember far enough back in the dream to know if this was actually true or not, and I want to say it's not, but suddenly I had a feeling of clarity and said "Oh, this is a false awakening." and that made me lucid. I just looked at K and said "You're not even going to remember this conversation." And he smiled at me, then I woke up. On to the couch in my den, which seemed perfectly normal. I thought the conversation we were having was funny so I wrote it down to tell K about it later, but once I finished I actually woke up in bed, and I don't really remember much about the conversation now.

NOTICE: this is the last dream journal entry I made before leaving Dreamviews for an 11-year hiatus. Newer dream journal entries will have a markedly different writing quality and narrative style.

Type: DILD.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

Notes:
This semi-lucid bugged the hell out of me. I was in my room upstairs, lying in bed, and then I heard my dad screaming from downstairs in a terrifying manner. I became semi-lucid, so I just decided to jump out the window and fly away, but I got stuck mid-air. Then I was suddenly in my bed again, with my dad still screaming, but this time from down the hallway outside my room! I flipped out and took a running jump out the window, in an effort to get past my dad. Once again I tried to fly, once again I got stuck, and once again I ended up in my bed, and at that point, I could feel my dad's presence right there in the bedroom. I felt something, presumably my dad, move beside me as I jumped out the window a third and final time.

When I woke up in my bed after the third time, I was scared that I was experiencing another repeat.

This was a total of three false awakenings, which were probably all part of the same dream because of the similar contents.

It was early in the morning; my guess is that the time was around 7:00 AM. I was lying in my bed with my eyes closed; the unusually light and airy duvet cover was up to a little below my chin, and the bedroom was pitch-black. No light whatsoever was coming in from the single window on the wall, which was on the wall opposite of where I was facing: I was on my stomach, my head half-sunk into my pillow but turned towards the door of my room. The door was open, which led to a hallway adjacent to the entrance of my room; if you were to turn left, walk a few feet and turn right, the stairs were right there. They led downstairs to the main level of the house. There was a very, very faint yellow light coming from the hallway, most likely from downstairs, although there was no apparent light source - it was just a faded wash of a slight lighting over the entire room.

In bed I felt very tired, like a stone. I didn't want to get up but I knew that it was time for school, so I slowly pushed the covers back; they bunched up like an accordion - I usually fold them back, but I didn't catch onto the fact that I was dreaming quite yet. It was when I actually stood up that I suddenly became aware enough to question if I was in a dream. I didn't do an RC, but I simply knew that I was asleep at a fairly low level of awareness. I looked at my night table, which was right next to my bed (and therefore beside me once I got out of bed), and noticed I didn't have an alarm clock at all there, even though there should've been one.

I didn't say anything, though.

Moments later, once I was out of bed, I heard my dad in the lower level of the house shouting at me in a very stern, tense voice to "get downstairs!"

This terrified me, and I had this creeping feeling that the dream was going to become a nightmare if I just stood there. So I opened the door of my room a bit more to go through it, and I took a running leap into the hallway. The hallway was adjacent to my bedroom, with the wall opposite of the door only being a half-wall. Past that, if you were to look down, you'd be seeing the first floor. On the wall past this half-wall was a big window, and this is where I jumped into. I leaped onto the half-wall with a big jump and then glided right into the glass; however, I didn't smash it; I merely went through it like a ghost.

It was very dark outside so I couldn't see practically anything, but I was beginning to lose lucidity anyways. I flapped my arms and kicked my legs once I got three or four feet outside the window, which didn't do much - I didn't pick up speed or even move forward that much. I was just suspended.

I woke up in my bed.

Or, did I?

In actuality, I had just entered a false awakening, and it was the same scenario as before. This time, however, my dad's voice didn't come from downstairs, but in the hallway, quite a few feet away from the door of my room. I ran and jumped through the window again, still slightly conscious, but met the same predicament where I was floating, getting nowhere.

I woke up one more time into the dream but this time, my dad's voice was coming from inside my room, which was very dark like before. It was a whisper this time, situated behind me (I was lying on my side facing my room's door again) - I didn't waste any time bolting out of bed and making a total beeline for the window. The same thing happened and at this point, I had just enough awareness left to start freaking out, wondering this time if my dad would be able to reach through the window and grab my foot, pulling me back in...

Then I woke up for real.

I did many reality checks after that P.O.S. dream.

Two more lucids! The first one was fun, the second one was really interesting but short. Since I've started telling myself to look for Linkzelda41 when going to bed I've also been adding in things like "I will remember my dreams." and "I will become lucid.", so I guess that means I'm not allowed to list them as DILDs anymore. Time to start working up my MILD counter.

#1 - Experimental Drugs [Non-Lucid]

This one was short, but interesting. My parents were going out to a party so I'd have the house to myself for the night, and my dad decided to synthesize some brand new psychedelics for me to try while they were gone. :O He managed to sneak me three different drugs, which were named "Kaomea", "Kaomea's lucid", and "carousel". My mom almost caught him doing it though and seemed suspicious for the rest of the dream, during which I was pretty much just waiting for them to leave. I remember that at least one of the drugs looked like a big rock covered in gemstones.... How am I supposed to take that?

#2 - Lucid Nature Walk [MILD]

I was at a store looking at Yu-Gi-Oh! cards with D and we meet up with some kid, and I don't remember why but they end up going outside to do a duel to the death (with guns, not a Yu-Gi-Oh! duel lol). The store is also a restaurant run by my old European history AP teacher, so I go over and pay her for the food (which I don't think we had any of...) and also a card I wanted to buy because it had a 5 at the end of one of its stats. :3 (I can't remember if it was ATK or DEF, but no monsters have stats like that.) I went out into the parking lot to watch their duel, and as they were talking I became lucid and the kid became this guy J who I haven't seen since around middle school. I take the card out of my pocket knowing it'll have changed to see what it is now, and it has a 2 at the end of its ATK stat and a 3 at the end of its DEF stat, and it's now an orange. The image on the card is literally just the inside of an orange, and the border of the card looked like the outside of an orange. I laugh and throw it down, and then tell D and J that I wish there were more DCs to talk to. There's a small forest on the edge of the parking lot, so I tell them we're going to go walk through a trail I see. I start yelling commands to become more lucid and have the dream be more vivid, but they kept coming out wrong and confusing me, like one I yelled was "I'm aware that I'm dreaming, but I do not have control." Though, after I said that one it kind of felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I sat down on the dirt and squeezed it to feel it run through my fingers, it felt awesome. And then I had a great idea! I stripped naked and laid down in the dirt. I knew it was going to be terrible to do this, but I closed my eyes too. It was fun and felt so comfortable. When I opened my eyes I was in a false awakening (and still didn't do a RC! ) where I was still naked and walked into a room where N was sleeping and K was inviting him to go get frozen yogurt with him and S. I told them I'd be coming too as soon as I got dressed, and N started telling me about a dream he was having, then I woke up.

#3 - The Monkey Loop [MILD]

After school, D and I are in a cul-de-sac when my car breaks down and we don't have a spare tire. There are some kids goofing around there that don't like us at first but we bond in a weird way (though I don't remember exactly how) and we find a spare tire by the road, but it turns out to be a bike tire. I try calling my dad to come pick us up but my phone never works correctly or he doesn't answer his, and we eventually decide to call the cops as backup to get us home. In the meantime, we see a big house and D accidentally breaks through the front door somehow. That part is hazy. We go inside and I say oh snap, this is S's house! (Even if it was, which it wasn't, the following reaction doesn't make much sense.) We all ran out of the house trying to get away before the cops we called show up, and at some point a gigantic monkey had arrived for one of us to ride, and now a lion was arriving for the other. I grabbed the monkey's reins and jumped on his back and D jumped on the lion, and we said goodbye to the kids and rode off. Suddenly I was riding the monkey through my parents' bedroom, and I became lucid. We went straight from one end of the room to the other and walked through the mirror behind my parents' bed. As soon as we did it looped back to the other end of the room and we got stuck in this infinitely looping cycle. It was really intense at the time, and I started noticing that depending on how I focused my eyes, despite the fact that the mirror was not really in my line of sight, things would repeat infinitely. First I had my eyes focused near me and the monkey's skin and fur was growing closer and closer to me and I was afraid that the dream was going to end, so I focused my eyes away and saw my reflection below, I watched my face multiplying and getting further and further away. That caused the dream to end into a false awakening where D and I realized we had fallen asleep in study hall and school wasn't even over yet. That was quite a ride!

03.01.2012

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Finding Alyzarin's Garden, False Awakenings, School with setting of a Mall(WILD)
I woke up after 3-4 hours of sleep, went on Dream Views to see some things for a while, convinced myself that I will meet the location for me and Alyzarin to interact with one another in our shared dreaming.

I intended to just do a MILD with a visualization of our location that we picked, but I ended up doing a WILD instead. I was laying in bed for a while, counting in my head, thinking that everything was taking too long, but it all happened within an hour.

I keep laying down, saying that I will become lucid, and decided to lose consciousness like in Spyguy's guide on retaining consciousness and losing it, while knowing that you already have the awareness, and that you are willing to give it up. So thanks a lot on the tip Spyguy! This really helped! I actually told myself silent that I would lose consciousness for a while, and go back to remembering to do a MILD that ended up being a WILD

This dream mostly consisted of False Awakenenings, and the last one, I thought was real because I felt I couldn't breathe through my nose when I did an RC, and the ones before, I had to double check.

Again, I was fooled by my mind because I really thought it was the end lol when I opened my apartment door to check outside. But damn, this thing is getting REALLY easy to do now. After rolling back and forth on the bed for a while to find a good position, I finally got that "pull" sensation in a WILD combined with random images.

Anyway, I lay down and toss and turn for a while, and after doing that, I leaned my head to the left sleeping, and I started to see random images flash, and I see a speedometer that has a green aura to it, and it is rapidly increase, I remain calm and let the images come to me while seeing this speedometer.



Then the vibrations started to stop, and I'm still laying in bed.Then I asked if I am dreaming while keeping my eyes closed.

I do a nose plug RC to check if I can still breathe, and become lucid. I am being very careful at this point, keeping my eyes closed and just feeling myself walk. Then I'm convinced that I'm really dreaming, but I still keep my eyes closed a little bit.

I tried to put my hands out, in hopes that I could see Alyzarin's energy in front of me. From what I remembered before opening my eyes, I saw a red and orange type of energy, I felt like something was forming, but my eyes opened.

I do a few nose plug RCs, and then I go near this door in my altered apartment complex. I tell myself that before I open this door, I believe I said that I will meet at the garden that me and Alyzarin planned to meet. I really convince myself that this will happen because of personal reasons that me and Alyzarin have.


I open the door quickly without hesitation, and I put my feet on some blue painted ground I believe. It looks like it's probably around 10 AM or close to noon in this dream, even though I had this dream around 4AM-5:15 AM or so.

There's this huge backyard, it is mostly just grass. There are brown fences that border it, and a few plots of plants on the sides of the backyard.



I'm still quite in a rush here, and then I see someone on the other side of the long and brown picket fence, and it looks like it's an older lady.

I forgot what exactly I asked her, but she said something related to Alyzarin most likely since my mentality in this dream is shifted towards her, so I just let the feelings operate without question. The words that I could pick up from this older female DC on the other side was talking about Alyzarin's mother and father.

I believe she said that Alyzarin's father wouldn't mind if me and her met, but her mother would be concerned.

To me, this was funny, since I usually think that the father would be more overprotective of their daughters and mothers would be overprotective of their sons, but I didn't let the thought linger in my mind for too long, it was just something natural in me that occurred less than a nanosecond.

I turn my back to the door again, and I swore I saw a black and white cat somewhere looking at me passively, it was just sitting very comfortably with it's legs spread open while leaning on its side somewhere, probably on a table or eye-level since I didn't really look down much in this dream.



It also looked like it was going to sleep, or maybe it was just being aware of my presence. I think it was just being chilled and everything, and looking at me just to make sure I wouldn't make a sudden move at it. (I find that behavior a lot in cats, can't really describe it, it's like they try to look chilled and relax, but are ready to get the heck out when something rapid happens that scares them).

I'm still barely inside this room when I turn back to the open door again. I think I saw some Rice Krispies on a table somewhere for a while before having the dream fade out on me.



I'm somewhere, I don't know where the hell I am, but I think I woke up again somewhere, so another false awakening. I do another nose plug RC (lol I'm actually doing RCs frequently for once).

I knew I was dreaming, but RCing just verified that I can still be free to do what I can do.

I decided that since I'm lucid again, and that I encountered being in her garden, I figured I used a technique to instantly flash there. (I'm not sure if it really was her garden/backyard, but I guess it's up to her to see this and verify if the details I saw relates to her place).

I'm outside somewhere, it looks like my college, but it's so mixed with so many other things that it feels almost like one of those malls that have that city feel to it.

I tried doing the Flying Thunder God Technique, since I already made a mental mark of how Alyzarin's Garden might look like. (though I should've used a physical object and place it in a certain spot to actually stay true to the technique...eh oh well).

This is what I mean by Flying Thunder God Technique:

http://naruto.wikia.com/wiki/Flying_..._God_Technique

Or you could watch this video of it :



I running really really fast, and I barely feel any kind burden or pain on my legs, and I was glad that I could finally run fast without worrying about stabilizing before I do so.

I look at the location in front of me, and I try to prepare to do the transport technique by opening and widening my eyes, trying to feel how it would feel like to pop into the garden again.

But I failed, so instead of worrying about it, I keep up my momentum and run around this compact city that had a mix of my University's brick wall setting along with some elements I wasn't too sure of.

I believe I did another stabilization technique by rubbing my hands, and telling myself that I am dreaming to prevent becoming non-lucid.

I see all sorts of DCs, some where familiar, some were not, but I didn't really care since I wanted to find Alyzarin. (I remember in a dream she had where she was in a school that had the setting of a mall I believe, and this environment looked almost like that, at least what my perception of what she thinks of it would be).

I don't know why, but I feel like I'm rushing myself in this dream, but I am having amazing control in stabilizing it despite my abnormal speed and sporadic nature. I was jumping from one point to another, and I believe I jumped on the side of a bus that looks like the ones at my University.

I think where it was headed, being on the side of it was not a good thing since it was close to the walls of the building, and I didn't want to come in contact and get my body grazed with the brick layering of this environment.

I think I also saw some random meeting of DCs, and one Caucasian guy told another Black guy a joke on something that had a hint of racism, but not enough to be concerned about since the guy was really just joking. I think I heard the number '89' or something like that.

I quickly ignore that event, and I forget what I did after that.

I phased out most likely in the dream.

I wake up again and find myself near the door to leave my apartment. I check outside to see how the weather would feel like. I did another Nose plug RC, but it didn't work for me, but that was because I didn't try to breath hard enough.

And instead of doing other RCs, I just assume I'm back in waking life and was disappointed.

It's morning time outside the area, with the sky still being a little gray. I close the door and after a while, I wake up.

GOD DANG IT LOL!!! I could've had another lucid if I just breath hard enough with the nose plug RC.

I hope Alyzarin will see this (she probably will), and I hope that the details I described about your place might be accurate, especially with the cat and the Rice Krispies, and an old lady that lives to the right or left of you (depending on where the backdoor is to your house).

Now I sound like a creeper, but whatever, we agreed to find each other, so no worries.

Urgh, I'm so fried right now. -.-;; I ended up drinking again last night with my friend M, I really need to take a break now.... But anyway, I had one dream, and it ended with what may be a false awakening, but honestly I'm starting to think I may have actually woken up but just been hallucinating for a minute before my brain fully woke up. Before I went back to sleep again after that (though I don't remember any more dreams) I was able to make myself hallucinate some things by focusing on them so I'm pretty sure this was the case, actually.

#1 - King Of The Jungle [Non-Lucid]

The first thing I remember is trying to follow M to some strip mall restaurant, but on the way there there was a large space between the two of us and a bunch of old guys kept walking in my way really slowly and annoyingly. But I finally got there and ran into C, a kid I haven't seen since right after high school, but who I've known since the day care I went to before I started elementary school. I think I got caught up with him a little while we were standing in line waiting for food, but then it jumped forward to me being in the jungle. I got stuck in some kind of loop here.... I would wander through the jungle a bit until I ran into King Kong () And there would be some big smoke explosion or something (it's really hard to remember) that would make it hard to see him, and I'd walk off on some path extending directly outward in the direction he was facing. After a while the path would curve to the right and I'd just continue down it. Then it would start over again, and it happened at least three or four times, possibly more. I remember telling myself that this was just part of my daily routine, it was what I did every day before lunch. So on the last time I exit the foresty area and end up in a big open meadow. And I get a text from Linkzelda41! I don't remember the exact wording of the first couple texts, but he invites me to go to lunch with him and OpheliaBlue. I think to myself that I just came from eating with OpheliaBlue, but I could eat again. I ask him what they're getting and he responds with "It's a Mediterranean cuisine." I text back "Mmm. Where at?", but after that the dream ended.

Here's where the false awakening/hallucinations thing happened.... I woke up in M's apartment, sleeping on the couch. This was all EXTREMELY vivid. Way more vivid than any false awakening I've ever had, it was basically exactly like real life. Every single detail was correct, despite the fact that it was only my second time ever being there and my first time ever being there in the morning. When I actually fully woke up, the lighting coming in through the windows and everything was still exactly the same, and there was no lapse in consciousness between this part and when I was awake, it just switched. So I'm pretty sure I just physically woke up but was still dreaming.... Anyway, so I woke up. M was walking around the apartment holding a Gatorade bottle filled with what looked like marinara or pizza sauce. She looked at me and said "Hey, you up?" to which I looked around slowly and then responded with "I think I'm awake...." Though, this is also a sign for me because I've never noticed anything was up in a false awakening before, even the incredibly bizarre ones. So she holds out the bottle to me and says "At least we've got mozzarella wine! " I looked at her confused and she started talking about how she'd gone to a class already (she had class in a few hours) and some guy kept farting the whole time, and the other people in the class were picking on him and calling him some mean nickname, though I don't remember what it was. I laid my head back down on the pillow and closed my eyes while saying "That's rude." :< M hesitates for a second and then says "What?" and I open my eyes ready to say that I was talking about how they were making fun of the guy, but when I do she's not there. Everything else is the same. And I realize that I'm awake. o_o

I woke up around 2 or 3 A.M. this morning, got something to drink, and went back to bed. I laid down and closed my eyes for just a few seconds. I was not even asleep.

Then, all of a sudden, I'm watching a dream where Super-Man (in his Super-Man attire) walks into a Pizza Hut, stops right as he steps into the place, uses his super speed to create strong wind currents which in turn creates chaos with paper flying all over the place and people screaming, then he stops right at the counter, spins and transforms into a cartoon version of Ted Williams who is known as the "homeless man with a golden voice, lol." And he's just standing there grinning and looking at the Pizza Hut girl who is looking back at him in utter disbelief. Her partner is also stunned and is staring at the guy with her mouth wide open.

I immediately burst out laughing in bed... It was the strangest thing I've ever seen and it was freakishly funny to me.