false awakening

Had another lucid-for-a-few-moments-but-lost-it episode.

It started with a longer sequence for which I only remember some. I was with a few people whom I suspect were my parents (at least one of them was my dad) and we were in a car going to what was some kind of mall/fast food restaurant combination--it had a drive through window. We ordered and picked up...something, but we forgot to order something we needed so I got out to go into the store and get it while they circled back around to pick me up. When I came out, as I got into the car my dad asked, "Do you know what 'los loco lobos' means?" to which I replied, "The crazy dog."

Cut to me sitting in a theater watching some romance movie. It featured an Asian couple from New York City. The only part of the movie I can remember was a segment where the girl went into this long-winded monologue about how her boyfriend was so awesome because he had all these manly, rugged qualities because he was such a "Minnesota man", which I recall thinking was outrageously stupid because they were both from New York City.

Cut once more to me in bed; I would wake up, my wife would tell me something, and then I'd go back to sleep. This would happen over and over. At some point she woke me up and started reciting sappy lines from the romantic movie from before, and when she did so I thought, "Oh god, I'm in a nightmare now!" semi-jokingly, then did a nose pinch reality check which failed. Had a quick "Yeah!" moment, then got up quickly (thus far I'd been thinking my last lucid slipped away because I stayed laying down) to get to work. My wife was now babbling incoherently, trying to get my attention so I waved her away since I was planning to clear out my apartment as a start to environmental control practice. I started to head to the front door of my apartment to turn on the light (since it was still dark in the room), but the dream dissolved to awakening. Reality check passed; lost it again quickly unfortunately.

It's nice that I'm still getting lucids and that they seem to be occurring with a little more frequency, but I need to find some way to stabilize them.

30.08.2010

The elevator to the Atomic world (MILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

When I went to bed I was determined to have a decent night once and for all. I went tired due bad sleep previous night. I had almost instantly some HH and I drifted in and one from the dream realm while I was meditating, so I decided to get comfortable to sleep. I recorded three dreams. One long dream, one lucid (task for September) and one fragment.

Third:

I had a FA and I went ahead to write down my dreams. I took my journal and went to my kitchen table. I opened the microwave to get the light from it. I opened it and the light did not lit. I closed it and reopened it. Light did not work at all. I looked at my hands. They looked blurry but I think OK. I blamed being tired my blurry vision. I looked at the microwave unsatisfied and tried to jump. I jumped a first time, gravity was OK. I knew something wrong was going on. I jumped again and the jump looked a little different, but still not weird. I jumped a third time and I jumped a lot and levitated. I knew I was dreaming and I was wondering why the RC tried to keep me without lucidity... oh well, happens. I was floating now, I opened my door and left my home.

I started to fly to make my dream stable (again, I do not recommend this as a way to stable dreams) Everything was super blurry and super dark. While I was flying, I felt I was going to awake. I increased the speed and started to look around, focusing on things would pop out. The darkness decreased and I started to see stuff. The sky turned blue and it was sunny. The dream was not perfect still and the atmosphere was stale. I kept flying until I finally felt the wind on my face and engaged all five senses.

I remembered the Task of the Month for September. I started to look around for buildings, but I saw none. Only small houses. I told to my self that I was in a dream and a one story home could have a elevator... and if not, I would just summon one.
I landed and I was with a male dream character. We entered a small house which was a tourist attraction. I entered and there was grass inside the place. The receptionist called me and offered assistance. I started to talk some nonsense with her until I looked to the left and a saw a small elevator. I then unfocused from my conversation with the receptionist and I said, "yeah yeah, ok" I walked to the elevator and the doors closed. When I was in front of the elevator I knew the doors would open again.







And they did. The elevator was super tiny. It could only handle two people inside. The walls of the elevator were red and it was a small light. The panel of the elevator had only one button and two keys buttons (theses ones that need a key to be activated) The other DC entered with me as well.
Now, I was inside the elevator and the doors closed. Now the elevator was a lot bigger because the other DC was like four feet away from me. I looked again at the panel and I remembered that when I was a kid, the key buttons fascinated me because they would lead to cool places (I was a kid...) So I knew they could lead me to the Atomic World to complete the advanced.

I pushed the key button several times (without a key) and it worked. The elevator started to shrink and to go down. I started to jump inside the elevator. I knew it was going to mess it up even more. For every time I jumped I shouted "Atomic World!!!" The elevator shoke abruptly every time I jumped until it stopped.

The doors opened with a "tic" sound. I was in the same place were I took it, however, everything was enourmous. One single blade of glass was like a hundred times bigger than me. I could even see small circles forming a pattern and making a whole... they looked like atoms together forming the blade of grass. The other DC told me we were in the Atomic world. I did not find a single thing exciting about it. However, I was happy. I took the elevator and leaded me somewhere (basic passed) and now I was in the atomic world (advanced passed)

I decided to go back to the elevator and travel to another location and completed one of the tasks of the year, however, the elevator closed and did not open. Now I was bigger again, but not normal. I was about 3 inches tall. A little bigger than a grass blade, but I was still growing.
I walked towards the receptionist and requested her the elevator to work again. She told me, "Well, now its closed. Not even the Principle from this place will be able to use it. Its a tourist thing and its not working well now. You have been abusing the elevator and you broke it. And not only you, other people like Serenity from Dreamviews broke this elevator as well... so no more elevator for you guys." Dream vanished and I woke up.

Missed dream signs:
- None.

Spotted dream signs:
- Microwave malfunctioning.

Reality checks done:
- Hand Check (passed)
- Gravity Check (Passed)
- Gravity Check (Passed with suspiciously)
- Gravity Check (Failed. Turned lucid)

Oh yeah, I feel good about myself. this thing has been "Haunting" me or something like that for at least a week, where I couldn't remember my dreams, I think there might be some correlation, I had enough and decided to just try and beat him down.

I was in/on the biodome/moon. I was in a large white room. there where two doors right in front of me. but the only way I could tell they where doors was the fact that they where slightly grey. I remember Nomad and/or Raven's energy signature, but I don't actually remember anything about them.

False awakening.

I'm in my bed, I can hear sounds from super smash brothers and different assorted shooting games. My cousin yells up the stairs and asks to borrow my bag of games, I'm tired and yell at her.

I'm evidently back in high school again, trying out for the annual play. It's some Sherlock Holmes play directed by Mr. Lucas, much to my surprise I end up with the lead role (I should note now after the fact that the fact I knew it was directed by Lucas should have been a red flag, he would never put me in a decent role). It's early in the week but I seem to think that the play will debut that Thursday so we're already in dress rehearsal and somehow I already know most of my lines (or am completely improvising them). My costume, heavily unfinished, is mostly large pieces of wool cloth held together by pins. As we get to the end of the dress rehearsal I line up at the end for the curtain call, but they wave me up to the front since I'm the lead. I apologize making my way up through the tight space--I'm not used to not playing insignificant shit roles. After my exit (I note a curious lack of Watson hereabouts), I hopped off the stage and left, eager to tell my dad about Fargo North High School's production of Sherlock Holmes.

It seemed to cut to what was either me in bed at home; I suspect I may have gone there from the school in the previous dream but it feels more likely that it was a false awakening because I recognized that something wasn't right (I awoke in a strange room that was clearly not mine) and did a reality check. I was lucid for a moment, I closed my eyes and kept my nose pinched to try to collect focus but it dissolved back to my bed in real life--my hands had clearly dissolved back to my real hands which were nowhere near my nose and additional reality check confirmed it. I guess I'll add it to my lucid tally, but it was disappointingly short.

Okay so I was thinking about a person(let's call him Tom) before I went to sleep .

1.
My memory isn't 100% accurate since this is the first dream , but it was something like me and Tom were with our friends in a mall I think(or maybe school, can't remember) and there was some heavy flirting going on between me and him But then I also had a dream-boyfriend and I was about to break up with him . I think I did . So then me and Tom were talking and flirting at the same time when suddenly we started arguing about something stupid . I can't remember what that was . And then ,I think, my friends picked sides or something . I can't remember the rest of it.

2.
Then I had a false awakening and suddenly I was somewhere with my friend.We were drinking smoothies I think , and were in a mall(again) . And then we went outside and suddenly , we were on a field (it wasn't really a field , but it was very similar and it had all kinds of stingy plants and a forest around it) . There was a big heavy book on the ground so I picked it up . There was also a little house and then a waiter came out of the house and me and my friend tried to hide behind a bush, although he probably saw us.Then we stood up , I was still holding the book and decided to drop it because it was kinda heavy . Me and my friend started walking and before I realized I was in another field . This time with the two of my other friends . I was searching for something , like a flower maybe . And then a wasp was following me and I started to walk a little faster until I was out of the field and on a sidewalk and there was like an alley of trees that bordered the sidewalk . And we were walking there with my friends and they asked me if I had eaten the berries already and apparently I had (I had a bowl in my hands that was filled with berries that I had previously gathered) . Suddenly I was in my kitchen , and I wanted something to drink and decided to go with water . But for some reason I took milk instead of water and the milk was kind of warm too . Then out of the blue I start hearing a song in my head (the radio was on while I was sleeping and the song was Lady Antebellum - Need you now) and I start thinking that maybe I should write a song like that . Then I drink the milk and look myself in the mirror . I look normal except for a milk streak on my forehead . Then all of a sudden I hear an alarm going off . That's when I'm like ugh great it's nine am , gotta wake up . So I wake up .

Today while i was attempting a WILD, i slipped into a dream, but the dream was of me trying to fall asleep. UGH! Talk about a waste, i was dreaming that i was trying to go to sleep and i never even suspected it was a dream. The funny part is that i went to sleep in my dream, and had a dream within a dream. i have been doing this more since i found that chamomile tea triggers this effect for me.

Splitsecond lucid dreams that start at 8 o clock near the end of the night COUNT! They count! So yeah, another one this morning. Epic? No. My non-LDs were far more. Here they come, in the order I think they happened:

Another, more and more recurring dream with the girls at the Academy. This time they change counter completely and I hope they wont bother us anymore. But as time passes, I notice they do more and more stuff on our counter, until a lonely dude is the only thing left on theirs.

An epic quest full of crazy women, cafeteria food and kindergarten classes. This was a very long dream I dont really remember. I do recall going to find a crazy woman in a classroom twice, and thinking about it the second time. HUGE chunk missing here.

Im playing Combat Arms. My gun is stuck (like in real life) but gets unstuck at times. Those times I kickass and do multi kills like hell. The map is Death Room. I head up the stairs and find a weird orange cartoony character. He tells me he can mimic people and objects. Somehow I am one too, but a little different. We play around trying to shapeshift into various objects, reversing colors and stuff. More specifically a flower pot. I guess I needed to get that out of my system, but im not satisfied unless its lucid

Im Donkey Kong and me and my buddy Diddy have to climb a huge vine. In Donkey Kong Country, a similar one has to be climbed in the later ruin levels. But were not in the ruins; were in a huge, empty field. And the vine is HIGH. Very HIGH. We both start climbing until Diddy decides hes a wuss and wants me to be in front of him. Son of a bitch. I am also very scared, thinking about the incredible height and the fact that there is a baddie over our heads. In the next scene, I am looking at Diddy climbing while I am hanging out on the ground. He starts swinging furiously until regaining control is impossible. A voice (narrator?) tells him he may want to let go. He does and falls to the ground next to me. I rush to help him.

Heres the cheap LD: I have a False Awakening where I start to float away but hold on to my bed. Very smart to begin with. My eyes are closed, but as always I feel like if I open them I will open my real eyes, which I really dont want. So im still in my bed and I RC to find im dreaming, though the floating kinda confirmed that. Then, I do one of the dumbest ive ever done in an LD, I lye down. In my bed. What a way to forget your real body. Put yourself in the exact same position and ask yourself if its real. Of course I wake up (geez). But it counts anyway. Then I didnt move but couldnt DEILD

Nights left: 2

Non-Lucid Lucid

28-08-10 I was in my grandfathers house on the floor reading. There is a girl next to me, actually my mother is also there, but she quickly leaves and I put my head in the lab of the girl and start stroking her head, at first she finds it nice, but then say I should stop it, so I do. I am trying to go to sleep. At one point I see Djana (home town friend) and her sister standing outside the door I go to let them in, oh yes that is right it is New years eve, how could I forget, Don't be lame and spend it alone like last year! I go up to see what is making that noise in the kitchen it is my mum making coffee. We gather around the table for dinner I look out and I swear that I can see some sort of weird distorted daylight, I talk about this with my uncle who tells me it must have been lights from the car, “What, that somehow generate enough energy to illuminate the planet in daylight!?”

I am not sure if I wake up or there is just a shift in the dream..

Next dream I am watching Yes Man (haven't seen that film so pretty sure it is nothing like it). I see Jim Carrey come strolling in an office, he is stopped by his secretary who is completely naked, hang on is she actually really naked, I look again, closer yep she is naked small perky breasts and a neatly trimmed landing strip, nice! I follow Jim as he thinks nothing of this and continues in the office. He is talking to someone, he gets interrupted by his secretary, chess! Anyways I notice that people are somewhat out of phase and only Jim can see in both phases. There is a shift he is going somewhere to do some carpentry, now as Sam from True Blood, he is in the service of some lord, who likes having well built partially naked men around, Sam runs out and I follow.

same as before..

I was in a train, actually more like a subway train and was very suspicious that I was dreaming. I am escaping some terrorists led by John Travolta in the setting of that recent film I saw something about train 123. After the train is split in half and an explosion is tearing through the station I wonder why the windows of the train don't get damaged. I manage to get away and go through a door that leads upwards, but still look like the door that is connecting trains. I go up jump through a couple of windows. When I find that at the top of the stairs there is a last door that leads out through another moving train I decide that is RC enough, I am defo dreaming. I run upwards through more stairs and shoot some terrorists with the AK47 that I apparently have just received. I make sure I really use my vision and touch some bags on the way up to stabilise. I quickly grow bored of playing action movie, I have stuff to do! I fly upwards through the walls, ground everything, man I am so pleased I discovered how to do this! Oh oh.. now I have to think of a scenario where I want to reappear, I am bad at this (stupid idiot, you have just made sure you can't do it >.<). I come out in pretty much HH land loads of flickering lights and fragments. but I am still in a dream, the closest I come to an actual dream scenario is some grassy land in front of Taj Mahal, that seems drawn by a school girl. Can't handle this I wake up, hang on a minute.. wake up, this doesn't feel right. There is something on my sheet which is a picture of an old school no signal screen they used to put on at night time.. lets see if we can find one.. there..

Now in the dream there are loads of small coloured squares in the version I saw, and in fact there were loads of coloured squares all over the shop. So I quickly pay close attention and make sure I spot a red, blue and yellow. I jump out of bed, am I still dreaming? it is starting to feel very realistic! I look at my hand, oh that looks normal... wait.. is my index finger growing shorter? ARGH, that is some scary mumbo jumbo that is, stop looking at it and jump out the window, yes lets do the classic exit without breaking the glass stunt I have grown fond of. My friends are outside, quite impressed with the leaping through the window and me weakening gravity to land elegantly, what did I have to do again? BAH can't remember my personal goals, lets see if a noob like me can do a unicorn!

Hmm the last time I was on this street some crazy things happened if I looked to the left, Left it is! Oh would you look at that there are a couple of beige (can you describe a horse as beige?) horses. Unicorn I shout in a seductive shout (a tone that sounds a bit like if you were a large cat shouting for the mouse to come out from the hole in the wall). I fly around the corner and turn right, I see a gathering of horses and a lot of shops around. Damn it I don't want to make a unicorn, would be cheesy to copy Nomad's move, at least I think it was Nomad who slapped an Ice cone on the head of the horse. Bah, get practising Vester, I turn around and see two white horses coming out of the cinema, this will have to do. Right “Unicoooooorrnn!” Nothing is happening I shout again, Out comes a White glowy horse, with a purple mane and a horn on it head, chess! Damn though, you are going to look like an idiot on dreamviews for spawning something that looks like it came out of “my little pony” don't care, lets get to ride it, the unicorn goes behind a car and comes out in human form “DAMN YOU!” “actually you are one stunning red head!” I jump on her back, pretty sure that getting a piggy back ride from a unicorn in human form won't count(haven't even read up on if this is possible in mythology surrounding unicorns), screw it maybe I can trick her. “You are very beautiful, even in your horse form!”. She seems insulted being put in the same box as a petty mortal mammal used for transportation by humans and say “stop mocking me” “Oh sorry I meant Unicorn, you are a very beautiful Unicorn” She looks at me teasingly and I wake up.

Type: DILD.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

Notes:
I'm still having lower lucidity than I'd like...

I woke up in my bedroom to extremely dim conditions, almost no light available to see things with. It was the same bedroom I currently sleep in, but it was way smaller, probably only half the size. The walls were mint green with white molding, also not like my real bedroom. But the bed was the same; queen with a white comforter. It was very hard to see these details, but I managed.

After sitting up in bed but before getting up, I became lucid, looking at my small blue digital clock at my bedside. There was no time at all displayed on it; it probably wasn't even on. I quickly plugged my nose and then suddenly burst up out of my bed, ran out of my bedroom door into the dark hallway, and then ran to the front door. The whole time I was shouting "woohoo!" I usually exit through the front door of my house, especially on lower lucidity levels, but I'm not usually running blindly through the house like that.

I was now at the front door (and it was already open). I just walked outside a few steps and took off flying for the rest of the dream. And yes, I was flying in dimly lit conditions. I got up pretty high at one point and was now far away from my neighborhood. There was a single road with a few highway lights illuminating it with orange, and high above it were telephone poles. I had to fly even higher to avoid getting clipped by the wires and cables.

Most of my lucidity was gone at this point, because I was obviously lacking confidence in my ability to fly through fake f****** telephone wires.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was so exhausted yesterday that I knew I would not do much dream recall this night. I actually woke up in the middle of the night, with dreams floating in my mind, but I just couldn’t care less and turned to the other side to go back to sleep. In the morning I was feeling a bit more refreshed and wrote down a few, especially because they were one of a kind.


22:30 GMT - Sleep

1 wake up, recorded no dreams


5:00 GMT – 2nd wake up

Dentist waiting room and cinema
I’m with my mother on the waiting room of a doctor’s office (I think the dentist) and for some reason to have an appointment we need to have a key (?). My memory fails me a bit on this part, but I think for some reason they didn’t want to give us a key – maybe the key was the equivalent of making an appointment, maybe they didn’t want to give us one, because they had the agenda full? Anyway, I think my mother got to steal two keys without them noticing and we just left all happy with the achievement. Then she invites me to go somewhere, like the cinema, which I think is a great idea, but I am worried that my light summer clothes will be uncomfortable when we leave the cinema to the cold night.

Performative arts camp
I enter a bus full of youngsters. We are on a trip to somewhere. I don’t know anybody. They are clearly from different countries and nationalities but not one looks welcoming to me. I look for an empty seat and I found one by the aisle by the side of two other girls (there’s 3 seats on each side of the corridor, like in an airplane). The chair in front is reclined and I have very little space to fit. I have a black backpack in my lap and it’s really cool because it has a flexible screen on it, showing continuously the Matrix code animation. That seems to attract some attention, but still, nobody gets friendly with me.
We all get out at some kind of camp and soon I realise it’s like an artistic camp. We have an auditorium and some kids are rehearsing a play, others sing and I just wonder what am I doing there, since I have no artistic talent. But I see other youngsters also looking a bit lost, so I chill, thinking I should not worry and should just watch and go with the flow.
Then a girl makes a dramatic entrance in the auditorium. It’s C.L., a friend from my childhood and my neighbour for many years. She was always a drama queen, so this suits her. She is wearing a very theatrical dress, like a wedding gown but with splashes of colour. She is singing and heads to the stage where she makes some theatrical show.

James Bond emotional
Then I have a strange dream that I am watching a James Bond movie (but the movie is like floating in the air, because there’s no TV). By my side is my dad sleeping – he always falls asleep watching movies. But in this James Bond instead of the action, sex and espionage, Bond is having a candid conversation with his father and it all gets very emotional. The even weirdest part is that meanwhile my father has awaken and is crying because of the movie. I feel doubly eerie with so much strangeness and this leads me to awake. I wake up in my bed and someone is by my side. But instead of my boyfriend it is still my father that is sleeping there. What? I take some time before I understand I’m still dreaming, then I really wake up (I hope).


6:30 GMT – 3rd waking

Toilet drama (again) and a fake enlightenment
I woke up, wrote down my dreams and apparently I’m still awake and I go to the toilet before going back to sleep. The toilet is totally different from the toilet in my (real) home, but I don’t notice that at all. I feel totally comfortable with this version of it, as if I have used it my entire life. I just notice after using it that the flushing is not working. I check the cistern and it’s dripping water. I try to discharge at least some water but it really isn’t working, so I try to take the cistern cap to check the mechanism and eventually fix it (did it many times), but the thing is seriously jammed and I stupidly put my foot on the toilet seat to push and I end up with my foot inside the toilet, with the water, urine and mushy toilet paper all around my foot. Yuck!!!
I am disgusted and I think to myself – “My god, the shit that happens in my dreams is starting to happen in RL!”
[Usually in my dreams I get lucid because I simply know that I’m having a dream - no need for dream signs or reality checks, it just happens. This time I had no idea I was having a dream. I was totally, absolutely convinced this was real.]
So then I thought “It’s a good opportunity to practice reality checking. This way in my dreams I will remember to do it every time I’m on a toilet again facing yucky situations like this, as it recurrently happens.”
So I decided to put my hand on the wall trying to go through it and I was absolutely amazed when my hand started to sink on the dissolving wall. I couldn’t believe it! It never actually occurred to me “After all, this is just a dream!” No! Instead I believed that I was actually manipulating real matter like in dreams – I was convinced I had had a little enlightenment! It felt awesome! It felt amazing! It felt... Ohhhh, now my face is also sinking in the wall! And all of a sudden I open my eyes and it’s just my hand and face sinking into the pillow... Oh, crap! What a disappointment... I really don't know if I should classify this as a lucid dream. It was more of a wrong-reality entrenchment, so I'll call it a reverse-lucid, but it had all the characteristics of a lucid dream. I was fully aware and conscious, I simply mistook that reality for this reality. Freaky.

Warm snow
I just had one more quick dream. It was early dawn, it was summer and I am at home. My father is staying there to. We both wake up because something strange is happening outside. I go to the window and I see snow falling and coming through the window. There are a few people on the street also amazed at it. Everybody is in summer clothes, it feels warm and even the snow is just at ambient temperature. How can that be? I just have a quick thought that even climate change cannot cause warm snow in summer and that there must be more to it, something more bizarre. I start having a bit of lucidity and that's when I wake up again.


7:30 GMT – Wake up

holy shit. that was crazy. i cannot believe it worked. i was lucid at the begining, and only semi lucid in the middle, non-lucid at the end. recall isn't great

i woke up maybe around 1230 or so but didn't look at the clock. i decided to try wild and just layed down and thought "I am going to remember I'm dreaming. I'm dreaming, im dreamng im dreaming" and day dreaming. It got foggy a few times but i was able to stay awake and then i started to hear one of the dogs in the kitchen but tried not to focus on it. it made me scared for some reason but i held on. then i started to tingle all over. it lasted maybe 15-30 seconds and i remembered this is part of it and got excited...i couldn't control my breathing and was starting to think i was snapping out of it. i didn't know it was a good sign, but my eyes started to move all over...it scared me and i woke up....i think it may have been a false awakening though.

jeremy rolled over after a few minutes and i aske dif he was awake. he was so i told him how close i was. he patted me and rolled over. i got the laptop out and read about WILD.

I decided to try again. this time focusing on lying still and counting 1 im dreaming 2 im dreamking...etc. i got frustrated a few times when jeremy would roll over and touch me or the dogs would get loud(they make more noise at night than i thought) and eventually got up to go to the bathroom. i was frightened then for some reason but tried to ignore that.

I finally settled in and faded out a few times. finally, i could feel myself falling out of bed. i wanted to catch myself, but knew this could be it. i could hear jeremy trying to wake me up, telling me i was falling! i don't catch myself but i end up straight in bed 2 or 3 times and start the falling over(false awakenings?) finally, i fall so much that i know i MUST be on the floor. i feel around and i am in bed. i figure i must be dreaming but feel really silly. its too real, nothing is wrong. but then i look at my hand and it's funny...i don't remember what's wrong with them now though.

i know i am alseep, and try not to laugh too much. i turn to jeremy and say holy shit, this is so funny. he wont wake up...he mummbles and bats my hands away. I still don't quite believe it and am having trouble functioning. eventually i go to the bathroom and look at my hands again...there are 6 fingers, then 4, then 2 sets of 2 fingers on my right hand are stuck together at the base and flare out at the top...i KNOW i am dreaming. I decide to try to get to Marc. i put my hand to the mirror and push. sure enough, i go through. i end up in darkness, but i know i am in the bedroom, on top of a table with a black table cloth covering it. i count my moves forward so i can get out of the darkness if i need to. i go around the table/blackness finding nothing...so i go back. i exit in the bedroom. there is an old volkswagon van and marc is there. i don't think he says much to me. his hair is long and he is sitting in the van as if he is at a drive through watching something in front of him.

i remember worrying about waking jeremy up. i try to call out with him from my own body and even try waking up...i am scared for a minute.

i think i have a false awakening too...jeremy is shaking me telling me to wake up, i am half on the bed, with a goofy smile on my face and drooling.

still in the bedroom-cats, 1 with mange at least 3 of them, 1 older mostly black, 2 kittens black and white. jeremy is there, i tell him they are cute and grab for one of the kittens and cuddle it while it tries to squirm away from me. it has bad mange and a few sores on its back that i look at closely, then i put it down.

now in the livingroom and dining room-mister fighting adalie, not in a playful way lola is also there. they are following me around the house. i am trying to get outside to try flying. i think i do it? and am somewhat unimpressed with flying.

lucidity starts getting choppy...but this part is very vivid still. running outside at night...near some sort of school or warehouse. poeple are sitting around watching something in the sky. fireworks? shooting stars? i don't know. the people around are making fun of me...i guess i was naked or did something imbaressing like peed in front of them? i grabbed a plate thing...was very pretty and sparkly. greens, blacks and blue. was my sister's work, matched a pitcher. the man bought it but i wanted it. i dropped it as he chased me and the end broke so i told him he could havfe it. i flew over to the area where the craft show was to pay but don't think i got there.

marc came over to a hosue, not quite my house but close. i was home alone, there were clothes all over the place. he comes in and smiles, i look at him in amazement...wondering if its real marc or a dream character. he can see my amazment and says,"sorry for the old clothes, i wanted to come right over after ----something?---. . he asks if i wanna play borderlands or another game. his hair is super short and he is wearing a heather blue shit with bleach stains all over it. at this point i know it's not really marc *lucidity is almost gone i think*i try to tell him i don't want to play a game but i have a huge wad of gum in my mouth. i try to pull it all out but its all stuck and there's just tons of it.

there are 2 agents who go to an old womans house on a call. the old woman says that her son is keeping 2 kids in confinement. we/they go downstairs and find a chubby little boy and a little girl who is slightly older. i think they are hispanic or just have really dark hair. they are playing with baby toys and quickly turn around when we/they go downstairs. the room is carpetted and has a glass door leading to a yard, even though this is a basement. one of the walls is lined in mirrors but i don't look in the mirror(d'oh!) they dont recognize us and at first the girl yells "daddy! grandmas got us in confinment and..." and she trails off as she realizes we aren't her daddy. the female agent asks the kids if they have a phone number(presumably for their dad?) and they play a recording from a keyboard it goes "charlie, we have the alpha...something something...

i wake up

i will work on this journal when it's not 330 am on a work night. this was remarkable though...can't believe it! i feel very well rested, but know i need to go back to bed.

In my dream my family and I where going to Toronto Canada and I though about the movie Scott Pilgrim and then I thought I was going to Ramona Flowers house and I did. then we where sitting on a side walk wall like thing. And she said something about it being like a dream. I then realized that it was and I grabbed by her shoulders saying it was a dream. she said so? I then said "No. That means that if I wake up..." I wake up to apparently having dinner with my family and her I forgot what happened after that but I woke up for real soon afterwords.
It was pretty cool.

i was in my home town walking around in my back yard. i was trying to realize what i was doing outside. i went to my neighbors house and saw an older woman in bed sleeping so i left. i walked outside and there was a little girl just standing in the grass staring at me(she might have been the older woman's daughter). i stopped and we stared at each other. I started to feel more vivid and almost guilty(maybe for trespassing into her house). i realized i had to go to work so i ran across the street and entered an old rickety house, which resembles nothing of where i work. i opened the back door and saw some of my co-workers(trevor & others). i talked to them for a short while. then everyone stopped working and the building became my friend's(heather) house(although this building looks nothing like her house). it had the basement of where i went to pre-school(in the basement of a church), and 2 stories. there were 3 sets of stairs. i was looking around in drawers for something, but cant remember. i entered a small study room(looked abandoned with stacked boxes and an old desk) there was a very narrow door i peaked through and saw the hallway. i could hear my co-workers talking downstairs. i went to the bathroom and had to pee(luckily i did not piss in my bed). after i finished i was washing my hands in the sink(with no mirror to see myself) and something made me question whether i was dreaming or not. i did a RC(pinched my nose) and i couldnt breath which i thought was odd. i stopped and just started thinking because before my RC i was pretty confident i was dreaming, but then i just gave up and continued my non-lucid dreaming. i walked out of the bathroom and met a very attractive blond. she started flirting with me and lead me into her room, where "the obvious" happened. i woke up right after we finished.

i had around 6 dreams that night, but this was my last. i dont think i even did a RC in my others(i can only recall the last 2 dreams). this was the first time i tried a RC so im hoping the next time i go to sleep i will do another reality check. the past week ive been trying to WILD, WBTB, and DEILD. but this night i just wanted to get some sleep and wasnt trying any kind of method on purpose. i kept waking up because it was the time i usually wake up on my own and i have a sore throat which is very irritating. i was really surprised to see any progress on a night like this. my RCing is starting to become more of a habit.


my previous dream before this:

I had a false awakening. i was in my room, although it looked more narrow. there was a candle on my dresser very close to the wall. the wall started to catch on fire and the flames reached the ceiling. smoke was getting thicker, i started choking, and i passed out(probly had something to do with my soar throat). thats when i actually woke up and checked what time it was. then i went back to sleep and had my last dream.

side notes:
i was sick(soar throat)
i did NOT take any vitamin b6 supplements that day(i had taken b6[200mg] the previous 4 days)
i was not planning on being lucid this night
this was almost a DILD(never tried to DILD before)
reality checking is starting to become a stronger habit
im questioning my dreams

August 25th 2010,


Note to reader: I tried the wake induced lucid dream technique and I just fell asleep. It was strange how quickly it happened. Anyways, as I tried staying still this morning at 5 AM, I repeated to myself, "I am sleeping, I am in a lucid dream." That way when I entered my dream, I would know that I was sleeping. Funny thing is; It didn't quite turn out that way.



First Dream (Non-lucid):

Like any other dream I had, this one had a story to it. It took place where I live, but also parts of it took place in the middle of nowhere. For example my house was very very far away from where I normally live. It was the first day of school, and I went to my regular high school. I was going into all my classes and I saw one of my real life friends Hugh, several times in my "classes". In real life I have no classes with him this year, I know this because we recieve our schedules 2 weeks before school starts. Anyways my mind made up another dream character named Ashley, and she was very good looking. So I remember going to all my classes, then going to lunch, then for some reason during lunch I noticed I was wearing shin guards and high socks..then I looked back down and I was wearing cleats too. AND I DIDN'T REALIZE IT WAS A DREAM?? So before I went to my next class me and my friend Hugh went to the lockerroom. In my school, the lockerroom is several hallways away from the lunch room. But in my dream it was across from the lunch room. We went in and I asked hugh and one of my friends Marcos who was there in the lockerroom,"Should I do soccer this year?". No response. I went to my gym class and there again was Hugh and Ashley. Both of them were in my gym class too. The gym teacher was my gym teacher from 5th grade. And she told everyone to go outside. They all went outside, including the teacher. Suddenly I felt extremely strange..and I fainted.

Second Dream (Non-lucid):

The perspective was 3rd person. I was watching myself. Weirdly enough, I wasn't myself. I was some other guy that I had seen on a YouTube video last night before going to bed. And usually in every dream I have a power..but in this dream there was something wrong with me. I woke back up in the gym/locker room. The same one I had fainted in, from my previous dream. I teleported outside to see if I missed the bus home, because I expected that I had fainted and stayed unconcious all the way through school. I missed the bus. I started teleporting, closer and closer to my house in real life, then I changed route for some reason. I kept teleporting then I just started walking. All of the sudden an old man in a car asked me, "Hey do you need a ride?" I turned around and kept walking. He started following me. And then I started running. I got home and my mother wasn't my mother. I fainted again.

Third Dream (Non-lucid):

All of the sudden I wake up in my bed, in this strange new house of mine. the house looked kind of like my house now which is long horizontally, and is yellow. But in the dream it went up vertically and it was red.


Kind of like this except WAY taller.

Inside the house was also very different. It looked old..very old. All of the sudden the old man appeared infront of me. He told me why I was fainting. He told me that everytime I wake up and suspect that I am lucid dreaming, that I will fall asleep immediately. I walked out of my room. Now I was a monster.. I was a 3 headed moonkin from World of Warcraft.



I kept getting the feeling that I was going to faint. So everytime I did, I said to myself, "I am sleeping. I am in a lucid dream". And I said this without even knowing what I was saying, because I didn't know I was in a dream, I just knew that everytime I said that phrase, that the feeling that I was going to faint went away. Then the YouTube dream character from my previous dream appeared. He tried to kill me. We faught for about 5 minutes and we ended up in my basement. I forget how, but I defeated him. Then I fainted AGAIN!

Fourth Dream (Non-lucid):

Everyone in town had a nickname for me. I forget what it was now, but I was like the infamous monster of the town. And every once in a while I would remember what the old man said, so whenever I saw something scary I would say to myself "I am sleeping. I am in a lucid dream." and it would go away. The man I defeated showed up once but then I made him go away and I never saw him again. Now this time my dream took place in the Mage Tower of the game Dragon Age.



I was no longer a monster and now I was dreaming in 1st person. I was an apprentice spellcaster and the regular people were there (Hugh and Ashley, etc.). This time my friend Joey came up to me and he said, "You know how you said that Ashley girl likes you? Well I think she does because she's been staring at you all class and I saw it myself." and I said really? And I looked over at her. All of the sudden I was back at home on my facebook and Ashley commented on one of my statuses and she said "Oh Lucas, its so cute how you have your little lucid dreams." And yet again I fainted.

Fifth and Last Dream (Non-lucid):

I woke up again in the Mage Tower and then the Tower was under attack and my teacher who was an old woman told everyone to get ready for a fight. And that's all I remember. I woke up this morning at noon.

Conclusion:

Apparently all my dreams tonight were based off of lucid dreaming, but I didn't actually lucid dream ONCE the whole time. I think every time I began to realize that I was in a dream, I "fainted" like the old man in my dream told me. This has been my most vivid dream so far. Also somewhere in my dream I remember that I was holding a brand like for branding cows. And the brand said "Awakening" or "Awaken" and I was branding my pillow in the dream...I have no idea what this means. Awesome dreams tonight though. It was honestly amazing even though I wasn't lucid.

Oh yeah. Two nights. Two DILDs. Not DEILD like I would appreciate it, but two LDs nonetheless Not only that, in this one stuff HAPPENED! Not much, but STUFF! I dont remember much about my non-lucids, but who cares?

The DILD: It is unclear how I ended up in this dream. The time was 2:50, but I dunno if I checked my real or dream watch. Im unsure about wether I got up from a false awakening or woke up, fell asleep and THEN got up. Anyway, I get up, go in the living room. Gabriel is waiting for me there, on the couch. Apparently he stopped at our house on his bike. At 2:50. Ok. Then I suddenly realise that dreaming is pretty much over now. U can forget DEILD for today. I dont like that, and tell my mom that its 2:50. It is day outside though. We chat for awhile until he leaves to Gab's house with...an 8 year old version of me. Im kind of half aware that its me, but I still wonder about how I never met what appears to be my lil bro. I ask if I can go with them, and mom says yes. As I am walking in the hallway I go: Oh lemme guess this is a dream. Yup. I do various reality checks, like turning a light on and off. Then I try to fly thru my window, fail, and walk outside. Instantly its dark outside again. Damn it, I kinda wanted daylight. The cats stalking the door, but it doesnt matter.
Here is the place for lots of firsts. I encounter my first beautiful dreamscape. As I am walking outside, it starts to snow. Glowing, coloured snow. Its awesome. The trees are also covered and glitter in the night. If I could paint, I would paint it. Thats not my skill, though I am wearing a snow suit that seems to disappear and pop back up at times. I levitate for the first time. In the middle of the road, I do a backflip on my back and land floating two inches from the floor. Nice, but far from satisfying. Then as im floating I cant quite control it and get back on my feet a couple of times. So i give up and try the finger thru palm RC for the first time. I didnt know how it felt. So I remove my three pairs of gloves and push my finger. After a while, it pops right thru. Cool, but time's up. Already. I remember thinking: Awww, its over!

Other crap: FA where I push down a bunch of round candy thinking il pick them up in the morning.