lucid

^^" Sorry if I made spelling errors. Also, I forgot my tree task goal.

Dream 1

I was walking down a path in the park thinking about how sunny it was. For some reason I was holding a scooter too and tried hurrying towards the down steps before a cyclist passed by. When I got on the steps I kind of hopped down slowly while paying attention to a woman trying to get her child to go down. She also had a son next to her. When I reached the bottom the scene changed and I was now sitting at a table with the woman, her very young daughter and her son. As we ate our dinner she began discussing a marriage contract with I and her son. I said okay wearily while I thought about how I didn't really want to marry him in the future but since the woman was older than me I thought I had no choice but to agree respectfully.

After that the scene changed again. I was now in a car with my family and my younger brother was trying to draw a picture of a anime guy with spiky hair with a red pencil. It looked too simple and kind of wonky. I told him we couldn't use it to get a free pass on the road. After taking the sketch pad I got an idea to draw a anime girl pointing at the sky happily and started with her hands. My brother complemented me as I drew which made me feel we had a good chance. But than the car shook and someone said it was too late and that we needed to head back.

Next thing I recall is I'm at my old home and my father tells me to hurry and Exit through the backyard door. I exit with sketchbook in hand and than look to my father who tells me the green robot suit is going to fly down from the sky and that I should board it after he goes around the house. When he left and it arrived I became aware that I was in a dream and ditched the robot suit.

Changing my outfit into a cute fluffy short dress than hopping onto the fence I saw the sunset btw my old house and the other."Pretty~" I said out loud than began running on top the fence till I reached the front porch than jumped onto another shorter fence. "I wonder if anyone like Eye will pop out of no where" I thought than turned to see people in the distance. Hopping onto the sidewalk, I ran towards the group of people. One woman began talking about a Barbie thing which confused me and than after someone else responded I became non lucid.

The woman shape shifted and became another woman who started talking about a 2 year old named Quataun. I watched as she handed the little boy to me. Thinking he couldn't walk I supported him and tried helping him balance but I almost let go because his weight felt heavier out of no where. After the woman took his hand a whole group of really young children began walking to a brown door, opened by a group of woman. Still holding Quataun who had a short blonde Bob hair , the other woman let go and I watch as Quataun walked out of the door. Someone else helped him at the last minute too. The scene than changed and I was looking at a pamphlet of dogs as a voice talked about a job for prestigious dogs.

Dream 2

I don't remember where this dream started but from what I remember I was non lucid laying on my bed in my current house, thinking about summoning someone or going to an interesting setting. As I thought on it I felt myself being pulled into a yellow void.
I became lucid and pondered about where it would take me. Soon I saw a white bright light at the end and ended up in a small home where a girl was holding me. After I stood up I asked her who she was but she was silent. Next I left to find myself in an unfamiliar spacious street filled with lots of different people. I thought the people would get pretty crazy there though. Mostly because there was a group of teenagers who seemed like they were going to ride a white jeep recklessly. Randomly trying to avoid them I jumped onto a stop sign and thought of what to do when the dream setting changed.

I was now in a building apartment and walked through the hall to enter a room where I saw a fox standing on a tree. The fox and tree than changed to a scene of an old man with his grand daughter. They were at the park along side some other people. Bored I got close to the window and shouted really loud "OmG!" to see if I would lose my voice. But I didn't and the dream remained stable. After that the granddaughter tried giving me a turtle from the window. I pushed it back and told her to keep it than left the room.

When I left I thought about how I wanted Dawn to appear again. He than came up from behind and pushed me to a room. He loses visibility though so I take a pillow and swing it where he was. It hits him and we play fight till I hear music coming out of no where. "I haven't really done much for the spellbee competition"I thought than grabbed Dawn's now visible self and began a simple dance with him. He than told me that he was 6'3 and that I wanted him there more than he wanted to be there. I let go tired of the dancing thing and after that woke up.

Notes-Ehh...How is it I keep summoning my old DG? Anyways I think my fav part of this dream was seeing the fox on the tree. Lol



Competition Points

Dild 10
2nd Dild 5
Interact With Dc 2
Unspecified Dream Control 5
(High Jump)
Practice Waking Life Hobby 5
(Dance)
Basic Summoning 10
(Dream guide)
Partial Transformation 5
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42 Points

I become lucid through WILD. The world is empty. I play my cello, and globules of colour come from the f holes. Suddenly, I am woken up by my alarm clock.

Nonlucid frag about running from some trucks.

Last night,

bed 10 pm
GPC 2:23 am
WBTB 3:22 am
GM 4 am
LD estimate: 45 min

I may have not slept long enough, because my dreams were almost empty. Whatever was in them was barely visible. Maybe a vision issue, not sure.

First long part, I was just walking through these cities at night. Tall buildings, modern, mostly empty streets.

I tried jumping, but only managed to hover a bit.
I remembered one of the goals I wrote down during WBTB. Just to stay still and observe. So I did that.

I got out of lucidity a few times, but every time I remembered that I am still "there" and continued with dreaming.

I spun 4-5 times to get to new dreamscape.

Plot of last part:
Military started rolling through the streets because of some kind of a curfew. They rounded up some young people, made them kneel, then set them on fire. (this is from watching a scene like that on TV last night). I figured I better don't get caught. Run up to a family house. Asked people sitting on a porch to give me refuge. They declined. On the right hand side, there was a woman and while looking at her, I realized it's capt. Janeway from Voyager. My longtime hero. I spoke to her, freaking out that I get to talk to her, while trying to stay cool and not show my excitement.

I ran up to another house, where people were getting inside in a haste, because of a curfew. The last man was closing the door, when I ran inside. I knew it's impolite, but at that point I would rather do that than die outside.

They let me stay, and told me about their habit. Since they are locked up in their houses every night, they pass time by having sex. I was like oh noooo : P So we all got busy, and praise be the curfew society. : D

After that, I went looking for more, coz why not.

EDIT:
I just remembered:
While standing on a sidewalk of a quiet city at night, I remembered my WILDing mantra - to express interest to learn more. So I looked up, and in a very clear and articulate voice I said:
"If you are my dream guide, I am ready to learn and progress." I repeated it twice, while admiring how clearly it sounded and how it made sense.

At some transition times, I tried opening my dream eyes, then closing them, couple of times. It didn't really work this time.

I’m on a Youtube gaming show where we play terrible video games. We’re trying to decide what game to play next, when we stumble across a Barbie-branded ripoff of Rocket League, that’s apparently so badly made that it will break your Wii if you try to save your game.

I’m apparently trying to make a chess board out of M&M’s to send to a friend in prison. My brother (a policeman IRL) comes in excited about getting a jury summons, because he knows the case that it’s for. He drives me and him down to the DMV so he can turn in some jury-related paperwork. It doesn’t take long, because apparently this DMV has a drive-thru.

I’m back at college. The main building for all the classes (which is notoriously known for having an incredibly confusing room numbering system) has been reorganized, so all the rooms are sorted into letter and color codes to find them easier. I’m walking with my mom, trying to help her find some classroom she’s looking for.

I’m riding in a car with a woman from my church, and just about everyone on the road seems to be swerving or generally driving recklessly. I look out the window and see the same woman in another car, with all of her family riding with her. “Strange, that seems like something that would happen in a dream.” We then start talking about lucid dreaming, and I say something along the lines of, “Yeah, if this was a dream, I’d know because this car would be driving in the grass or up a wall or something.” That’s when I finally realize that we are driving in the grass, and become fully lucid.

The car somehow just kind of dissolves, and I find myself walking in these ancient ruins that I seem to think are Roman architecture. I’m kind of being drawn into this dark temple-like building, but I stop myself, and realize that I’ve complained for a while about how not enough of my lucids are outdoors. So instead, I turn around and decide to explore my surroundings. I rub my hands to stabilize a bit, but already the dream is incredibly clear - possibly one of my clearest lucids in a long time. As I pass between some overturned pillars that had begun to sprout grass out of their cracks, I come across a bright golden statue of a knight on a pedestal in the middle of a clearing. As I approach it, it comes to life and extends its sword to hand it to me. I take it and try swinging it around - it feels very solid, but it’s about 6 feet long and awkward to control. “Got anything smaller?” I ask. Without saying a word, he takes his sword back and hands me smaller sword that’s much more manageable. He also hands me a shield, but it feels more like a pie tin in the shape of a shield - it doesn’t even have a handle to grab it, so I just kind of awkwardly hold it by the side.

This whole interaction with him seems incredibly symbolic, so I ask, “What exactly do you represent?” Just then, he gets into a fighting stance and starts attacking me. He slashes me once across the legs, which knocks me down at first. But after the initial sting goes away, I feel no pain and get back up again. We fight for a bit, until I finally get a swing it at his legs. He falls hard to the ground, writhing in pain. His helmet falls off from the impact, and I see him crying like a little kid as he starts throwing a tantrum (which I find somewhat humorous). I kind of lose lucidity at this point, and the dream turns into more of a movie. The character I was playing is apparently a teenager who was diagnosed with cancer, and because of his treatment was incredibly bedridden and unable to walk. Because of this, he uses lucid dreams to be able to walk again and experience that freedom. The knight is touched by his story, and mentions that he will grant him a fresh start. The main character then wakes up in his bed and suddenly realizes that he is 5 years younger - apparently back to the time the cancer began to develop, giving him a chance to get it treated in the early stages.

4 NLDs - 4
WBTB - 2
DILD - 10
Stabilize - 1
Interact w/ DC - 2

Night Total - 19 pts

Conditions:

Meditated two times earlier that day.

Laid down while meditating at about 8:00 PM, after about 30 minutes I became tired and fell asleep.

Supplements:

Turmeric (plus black pepper)

D-Phenylalanine (amino-acid)

L-theanine (amino-acid)

Yerba mate tea (In morning)

Green Tea (right before laying down)

Methods:

Breath and then open meditation.

Energy work, i.e. Poor breathing, Micro-cosmic orbit, etc, with emphasis on Ajna chakra.

Rope method and imagining self raise from body.

Experience:

I enter the dream state soon after falling asleep, which was relatively surprising due to the fact it was so close to my normal sleeping time. I find myself in my old room, where I find an attractive female. This part went on for a few minutes. At the end of the encounter something occurred, which was very odd, the girl held up a magazine and pointed at a picture, which I am not sure what of, but the implication was she wanted me to purchase something and then completely dissipated in front of my eyes.

Either there is a full transition or I left out the window, but I recall flying and landing near what looked to be a construction sight. There were various building supplies laying about. Recalling the dream views contest I decide to start checking activities off my list.

I start moving stuff around with my mind, first a few pallets of wood, and then a large air compressor.
At the apex of this event, I had, I believe four objects moving at one time, 3 bundles of wood, and one large air compressor. Attempt at mass telekinesis.

Next in the same location I decide to create a sphere of light. This was much easier than moving multiple large objects around. I looked at my hands and then willed a sphere to appear. Wisps of smoke-light emerged out of my hands and formed between them, something near a sphere, a bit bumpy, close enough I say.

Next I fly some distance and come across a house or small building. Recalling building a pyramid was another part of the contest I attempt to form it into one. It takes some working, the building would expand and then fall back in on itself a bit, this went on for a few seconds, until a decent step pyramid was built and held its shape for several seconds. Not perfect, but not bad either.

I become lucid in a fantasy world. I reality check to make sure I am dreaming. I passively lucid dream with a DC flying around. I sip a coffee when I teleport away.

In this scenario, I had to chase bad guys in a car or bike. They had a car. I retried the same mission multiple times, but I could never catch them. I always lost at the same place--a section of freeway that caused my tires to slide. It was daytime, btw. The chase started at night, shortly after they left a store. One o them said, "He tracked us all the way back. How'd he do that?" after finding out a couple things on their laptop. My younger sister was with me too, both in the car whenever I was in the car, and next to me whenever it was a video game.
[New Scene]
I became lucid in a carpeted room with stalls that spawned and dropped pizza. For some reason, I felt that I couldn't finish my routine until at least half the pizza had dropped on the floor. Stupid. Also delicious.
Time: 20-30 seconds

So today (last night more accurately.) I began actual formal meditations again. Seeing as in my dream journal I use an orange-blue scale with the color gradation in-between representing different phases between lucidity and non lucidity, it seems logical that meditation is more lucid than a lucid dream or any regular thoughts. Therefore I a considering that on any chance I include my meditated thoughts with my dream journals, something I may begin to do, along with the star rankings. I will probably not post a lot of meditations as I think those are personal. (The same reason I don't post all my dreams. ) But when I do, I will spoiler tag meditations since most people probably won't care to read them.

Spoiler for Meditation 3:

Well they say insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting that you will get a different result. Well I guess I'm insane then because I'm retrying meditation even though last time it resulted in me losing dream recall and dropping my lucidity rate rather than increasing it like I expected. But meditation helps me to get my thoughts in order and keeps me from feeling scatterbrained. So I'm getting back into it anyway, if not for the sake of lucid dreaming, then at the very least I can get my ducks in a row in waking life.

It's final exams week and arguably an extremely bad time to try and kick of any sort of serious lucid dreaming routine even if I do keep the stress low by properly studying and the likes, so I shouldn't consider anything serious until after that is over. But at the very least I can begin dream journaling and building up my dream recall a little more. After all recalling nonlucid dreams is a lot better and if I do come up with a motivating idea or way that I might want to try and approach this, I wont have to worry about recall and can just hit the ground running.

I've been thinking about what a chat user. (I believe it was MadMonkey) said to me, that all the really great lucid dreamers have two things in common; that they use (was it either DILD or ADA or something like that?) Maybe I can send him a PM... ; [Edit] That was Man of Shred and he said it in a comment and it was DILD [/edit] and they started young. I formally started lucid dreaming right around the time I turned 14. Not as young as some people, but at least I'm not trying to start NOW. Though it's fun to fantasize how things would have played out differently getting the presumably godlike head-start those of you who started when you were still in grade school have, I'll have to accept the fact that I can't really change that. But I suppose there's no real reason to attempt to unpack something one person said in chat so thoroughly, since I've gotten countless bits of advice on how to become a master LDer.

One thing that crosses my mind is an idea that I often put forward is how everyone's mind functions differently and techniques that work well for one person may not necessarily work well for others. Hence why everyone does things a little differently and I often take techniques with a grain of salt. Whether that also means I'm closing out particularly effective techniques simply because I decide they won't work for me is difficult to say, as I've always tried to give suggestions a fair trial.

-+-

There's something else on my mind. I've been considering how my dreams have changed lately, and I know I've talked about this before. Nonlucid dreams feel more lucid, like I'm always by default at layer 0. I've talked a lot about how a lot of really intense nonlucid dreams feel dulled out because I have a vauge awareness that what is happening is not really, but don't really break through and become lucid. In some sense I feel like after six years, even my scattered and non-unified efforts have had an effect on my dreams, shifting the entire spectrum of nonlucids a little bit lucid. Meanwhile, lucid dreams have become less clear and looking through my most recent few pages of DJ entries I can find quite a few places where the nonlucid lack of logic is infiltrating and intermingling with lucid logic, and a few places where I used the blue "Lucid color" where things should have actually been teal or green. It's almost as though nonlucid dreams are becoming more lucid and lucid dreams are becoming more nonlucid, and over the past few years the two have slowly become meshed together until now, like my past two entries, I'm semi lucid and constantly alternating my state between the two. This is what makes me feel like lucidity is a choice rather than a discovery. I sort of relate it to a space mission to colonize the moon. (In fact I relate lucid dreaming to space travel a lot.) The first time you do it, it's a big deal, and you're just happy to be there. But once you've been to the moon a couple times you want to start doing more with being there. You want to bring things with you, go to specific places and maybe establish your presence there. Getting to the moon is now no longer a question of "can I" but, how do we get the time, energy, and people to fly the rocket that we know works because we've done it two dozen times.

Okay maybe not a great example; I feel like I'm digressing. But it was this logic, that I need to just 'power up' these semi-lucids and layer 0's is what led me to want to meditate. If I can be more focused and alert, I can break through and become fully lucid in these situations, hence why meditation is key. But maybe I need to do more mindfulness oriented meditation and less subject oriented ones for it to work. Though it's that same logic that failed last time despite me having so much confidence in the idea.

Regardless, I have an insatiable itch to try my med and chart technique again even though it failed horribly last time. I'm keeping an open mind to possible changes I might make to my system, however.

But waking life should be my focus until exams are over. Doesn't mean I can't focus on LD at all, just I shouldn't get obsessed with it.

One other thing that I meditated on is Spellbee's comp going on. I used to be really adverse to lucid dreaming comps because I thought they were a sort of bastardization of lucid dreaming, turning a passive, relaxing and fun activity into a soulless game of efficiency of dream control feats and lucid chains. I always argued with myself that lucid dreaming should follow the philosophy of my Taekwondo studio, compete against yourself to be better than you were, and don't worry about others. But I suppose I can re-orient your way of thinking that to participating in a lucid dream comp and only focusing on how I improve relative to myself rather than making it into a big old dick measuring contest among my fellow lucid dreamers. I'm competing to see what I can accomplish, not how many people I can preform more dream control feats than. Though if that were the case then I could just score myself whenever I wanted and using my own system. (Given I have some qualms with the standard LD comp scoring system and it's heavy emphasis on dream control, offering only peanuts to NLDs and nothing for the waking work you do.) After all I still feel like I've accomplished something by doing meditation and RCs, even if no LD results from it, and I would like to feel like I've somehow 'won' just by doing all the work.

Yet I still feel driven to set a goal for myself; to build myself up and participate in the next competition. (They happen every 3 months so the next one will be in August.) So in some regard I must enjoy the slingshot of motivation that I get from competing against others, even though I recognize it's a philosophy I disagree with. (I suppose it can't be that harmful given that comps don't happen all the time.) Though I've always felt comps were destructive to those who don't do well. Lucid dreaming relies a lot on your confidence level and if your confidence is flattened by seeing lucid dreamers that vastly outperform you (especially those who put in a lot less work.) Heck, when I did particpate in comps, I did pretty well, but in the intermediate league, there were always one or two dreamers light years ahead of the pack, and I still felt like I was a failure.

Maybe comps are a bad idea because (as a kid this wasn't a problem for me.) But I've become the type of person who internally set the bar for myself very high. I don't have to be the best at something, but I have to be pretty damn good in order for me to be satisfied with myself. I'm sometimes tempted to say that every comp had something unfortunate that impacted my results. (In one comp, I fell ill the first week, in another, my dad had a kidney stone the day the comp started and we spent two nights in the hospital with him, and in yet another the day the comp began coincided with a family vacation that led to more disrupted sleep and little time for RCs.) And this is what tempts me to want to try just one more time.

Also who's to say that by participating in dreamviews at all I'm not putting myself into that kind of environment. After all even if I'm not entered into a comp, I'm still exposed to other dreamer's stories of success and failure, and many of them are much more skilled than I, and I've managed to not let competitiveness decay my motives. (Or perhaps I have and I'm just not able to admit that to myself yet.)

Though I want to try one more time, for the sake of having a goal set for myself. I want to participate in spell's summer comp (too late for the current one, and I don't feel like starting in the second week.) I want to get 'in shape' first, charge in and dominate the comp. That would be a good goal to set for myself. But I don't want to become the demoralizing villain that dominates the intermediate league. Perhaps a goal to set to motivate and center myself on lucid dreaming would be to participate in the summer comp, but build myself up to the point that I could be confident in my ability participate in the expert league. I wouldn't demoralize any less experienced intermediates and the simple confidence booster of being able to call myself an 'expert league participant' would be nice. I'm guessing I will not be at one lucid a night, after three months of work, but I will probably be doing pretty good, and this comp will be a nice stepping stone to my final goal, if all goes well. Of course the option to abort and reconsider is always on the table.

I just need a direction to go.

So let's start getting in shape; well after exams, of course.

(I had more I wanted to say about what went through my head during this meditation, but my mom's cat is making dough on my sweater and typing has become awkward.)

I dreamed semi lucidly that I was going for a jog. It was summertime and very warm and sunny outside and I was jogging through an area that I have never seen before IWL. There was an asphalt bike path that I followed through first a park area with a playground and a some slides. It then took me by a river with some large willow trees growing by the water and some tall pagoda-like houses across the way. The path made a left and went alongside a railroad track and an abandoned warehouse with piles of scrap metal and broken concrete in its front yard.

I view myself in third person and notice that I am in my dream avatar body. This causes me to become more lucid. I begin flying on fire jets above the path and getting a view of the area. Nowhere nearby do I recognize any landmarks. I do see an elderly man driving a large red tractor/ATV type vehicle down the path a ways ahead of me. He attempts to go around a sharp turn too fast (maybe 40 miles per hour) and crashes into a metal telephone pole. The crash looks pretty bad and wreck rolls over the man into a ditch.

At first I don't even want to look at the crash for fear of what I might see, but my continence/semi lucidity kicks in and with only vague and confused awareness that it is a dream character and that I don't really have a reason to go help. I consider calling 911 but then consider again how annoying and unreliable dream phones often are. So I turn around and land. The crash is every bit as grizzly as I expected and the elderly man's legs and lower body are completely gone and his guts are hanging out. But somehow he's still alive, and everything above his bellybutton is completely unharmed. He's in a lot of pain and screaming in pain but I can tell he's fading fast.

I talked in my previous rant about how I haven't come up with any new dream control spells and have confirmed that all of my original ones work. I figure I can still use my three pillars of dream control and just plain English. My first priority is to put him out of his pain. I raise my hand to the man laying in the heap.

"Anesthesia."

The man stops screaming and is knocked out. I then point at him with two fingers, presumably to represent the arteries that carry blood away from the heart and the veins that carry the blood back.

"Stop bleeding."

All the blood disappears and stops coming out of him. I think some other bits of his lower body that were lying around disappeared too. I spread my hands apart wide and try to imagine completing his skeleton. I closed them in together.

"Reconstruct Skeleton."

There was a bed of gravel to my right, by the side of the trail. Hundreds of small white stones came alive from the gravel and rolled together forming the rest of his spine and the bones in his upper legs. I had to repeat the command and hand motion four or five times before his skeleton was actually complete. The dream began fading out here but I was so intensely focused on my dream control that I tried to ignore it and hurry up to finish before I ran out of time.

I wondered how I would get flesh to cover the lower half of his skeleton once more and decided to pull and stretch the part of his body that was covered in flesh and imagine it growing to restore him fully. I began doing so psychically, manipulating his body to grow and stretch over the new bones. I lost the dream and woke up.

I was trying to fall back asleep when a force lifted my off my bed, took me in to the bathroom, threw me in the toilet and flushed it. As I was going down the drain I looked up and saw the skeleton ghost that did this laughing. I was teleported to a dry, open underground maze. with some people walking around. I approached some them and focused on trying to banish them by telling them to go away and turning my back on them. A couple of guys laughed at me when I turned back around to see if they were gone. I woke up.

Morning of 17/4/2017 6- 7.30am
Typical motorbike dream, riding along country lanes. A guy rides past in the other direction with his jacket open and one of those modular helmets where the whole front panel flips up - also fully open. I continue riding but the motorbike is misbehaving. There isn't much power at all.

I stop in a small village and see a black and blue sports bike in a car park. It is parked slightly on a slope. My own bike has vanished so I just climb onto the new one. First I have to sort out my helmet, which in the dream is a bright sky blue and has a sort of 'ninja mask' section at the bottom making the visor tiny, barely large enough to see through.

This motorbike must be electric or something... the engine is completely quiet. Just up the road there is a crashed police motorbike and trailer. I pull over and spot the police officer in the middle of a field talking to a couple more people. They all seem fine and the officer waves that everything is okay.

I start riding again and go around a corner, trying to shift up through the gears but finding the sensation really off. Wait. Well, this is a dream. I knew it already, but it suddenly occurs to me that I need to earn some points. But what was the next one in my 3 step task? Can't recall.

I do some fast flying down the road to get into a town. There is a junction and a high street. People are walking along the pavements and next to a shop there is a small long haired dog tied to a lamp post. Recalling my previous failed attemtps at the TOTM I untie the dog and ask it to fetch. This time I keep talking to the dog - "fetch, c'mon, good dog, fetch it." The dog vanishes amongst the legs of the crowd but then returns. There is clearly something in it's mouth but it doesn't want to give it up. I have to hold the dog and try and gently open the jaws. A circular white thing, like an LED light, drops out.

The nearby building seems to have a party going on inside. I decide to take a look and see people dancing. A girl starts pulling off her trousers and getting changed in the middle of the room. I stop and stare then try and make a move on her. She doesn't seem up for it. "Just a kiss then?" She stretches up and kisses me but doesn't really seem in the mood so I let her go.

I try to think of other tasks and recall the bonus TOTM about flying into space and through a black hole. After phasing out through the wall I try to get to the sky, but it keeps being obscured by large plastic shapes. It starts to piss me off, so I start shouting at the dream about how easy it is to get to space. Why is the dream making this so difficult? Then straight away I am teleported into space. It is freezing cold. :shiver:

It feels like being plunged into ice water. Well, I am only wearing boxers! Still, I try to tough it out, shivering, but trying to convince myself it is a dream and it is not cold at all. Instead I just close my eyes to end the scene and end up back on Earth.

I recall my personal goal to try and split the sky to reveal the night. The sky is cloudy. Not that it matters. A woman with golden hair descends out of the thick clouds. She is holding what looks like an unconsious woman in her arms. Cool. "Hey, can you help me fly into space? Just hold on. One sec."

Focusing on my goal I point a finger at the horizon and then lift it up, cutting through the sky. It dutifully splits the clouds and reveals the blackness of space and the stars. The two halves of the cloudy sky fall down to just above the horizon, so it is a mix of day and night at the same time.

The golden haired woman takes my hand and we fly up towards the stars. It looks really cool. "Look for a black hole."

We continue flying through space past galaxies and planets until a spinning circle of even darker black appears in front of us. We fly into the black hole and after passing through the stars around us are exploding like fireworks. Hanging in the blackness ahead of us is an enormous clear domino with the numbers one and seven on it's halves.

Was walking around my house and realised I was dreaming. Did the nosepinch RC and it checked out. However everything was dark and I didn't know what to do, so I kind of sat down and meditated. Nothing happened and I woke up

So it has been a while since I updated this. Dreaming kind of took a back seat to life, but I am hoping to get back into the swing of things!

Dream:

I have just fallen asleep. My medication allows for quick falling asleep and vivid dreams. It is overly dark. I keep getting flashes of people, and colors, and images, like pictures. It is hard to make sense of it. Everytime I try to focus on something it flashes away. I can hear voices. I think I'm in a sort of void, where nothing exists but me. Its hard to make sense of anything. The voices continue, compounded on each other and getting louder.

I am suddenly in a room with Kathryn Janeway. Her overshirt is off, and she is in just her pants and grey long sleeve shirt. She is sitting on a bench, with a light focused on her. She looks up at me. "Embrace the Dream." That was an odd thing to say.

I look up, Hermione Granger is laughing with me. I must have said something funny. We are in the Great Hall. She leans in close to me, whsipering in my ear. "Embrace the Dream." Huh. Didn't Janeway just say that. She shoves me back and I am falling, through the void.

I can see light, but I am moving away from it. It feels like I am falling back into something. I land with a thud and the light comes rushing at me. "Easy, easy now." I can hear Janet Fraiser saying. I carefully open my eyes. A pen light flashes across them. I am in biodome medical bay. I try to sit up. "Careful." I see Wasau there too. She helps me sit up. "Welcome back." She says then leaves. "Back?" Janet looks at me, scans me with a tricorder. "Yeah, its been a while." I think. "I thought I was back before, a few months ago?" Jaet pulls me into a hug. I kiss her. "Yeah, about that. A lot has changed here since then."

I look up at her questioningly. "What? Why? Were we attacked?" I know the biodome is a place for all dreamers to meet. "We weren't attacked." "What then?" I ask. "I think its better if I show you." We step out of the med bay and into a deserted hall. Its grey sleak walls seem a dull comfort, and unnerving at the same time. "Janet, what happened here?" No one is around. "Well, when you, and the others stopped coming... more like stopped dreaming, it all just fell to shit." I looked around again. We had made it all the way to the end of a hall. Janet was starting to put on a space suit. "You should do the same." I look at her. "If this is a dream I don't need to." She smiled at me. "Very good, but I still need to." I help her put it on.

We have to wait for the room to depressurize before opening the other door. There is no power and I equip myself with a flashlight. I change my clothes. I am wearing miltary style pants, a thigh holster with a gun, and plain shirt. I check the weapon. "How much time?" "2 hours, what's that?" Janet asks. "This?" I hold up the gun and she nods. "Its a plasma gun. Got it from... well I forget. You still didn't tell me what happened."

We are walking toward the emergency beacon. "When you stopped dreaming, more off on your own quest for things, people stopped coming." "Yeah, but the biodome was for anyone." "True, but without you, and Raven, well things went down hill. Stuff started breaking. You're the heart of this place Commander." I look at her startled. Only one other time has the biodome called me that, and I have never heard Janet call me that. "If I'm the heart that makes Raven the soul. But what about Nomad, and MoSh?" She looks at me and sighs. "They just helped build the thing, just like anyone else can. Really it's been linked mostly to you.."

I take a good look around. This place looks bad. I guess it makes sense. I have't been feeling the greatest about things, and apparently subconciously translated into the dream state. "Did you ever find your answer?" Janet asked me. "Well I claimed her, in a dream, if it wasn't a DC (dream character), and nothing happened in the waking world. That I can tell. But it sure does look like something happened here," I draw my gun. I feel like we are being watched. I tell Janet this. She smiles at me. "It's your dream, you make it what you want." I tell myself that there is nothing there. No enemy. Its the biodome anyway!

Finally we come to a long set of stairs down. In the middle of a circle is a large machine going down into the Moon. I look at it. "Well, I guess we better start down." After the fifth story down Janet asks who built this. I tell her I did. She just looks at me. I suddenly understand her point. I close my eyes and will the machine to be smaller, and suddenly we are on the ground floor. I see the control pannel. I rip it off and start messing with the electric cords there. I am trying to get power back to the emergency beacon. "Shouldn't we have gotten the generators back up first?" Janet asks. "No, this is supposed to have an backup systen.Why its not working..." I shrug. I ask Janet for some tool and she get it for me. I stand up. "Thanks." She looks at me and shoves me. I fall down a long hole. "Embrace the Dream."

What the fuck? Is all I can think as I'm falling. I land with a thud, her words echoing in my mind. Embrace the Dream. Seems to be a pattern going on. I look up at the light, just a tiny pin prick. I hate wells, and why I think I'm in a well is beyond me. I will for a set of stairs to apppear. It does, on the side, but is more like a ladder. I climb out, and the hole vanishes. "What the hell? You have dream control?" I ask Janet. I'm not really mad at her. She is trying to teach me something. She smiles at me. "Only beacuse you let me. Lets finish up." I ask her how much time we have left for her oxygen. She says 1 hour. We finish working on the beacon, a bright white light shoots out of it and stays on. "Well, anyone that sees that should know we are in trouble. Now lets get the generators back on."

As we head up Janet says she doesn't have much time left. I tell her to go back to the waiting room. I can do this myself. She leaves and I head to the generators. Once there, its more like an engine room, I start my work. The main generator looks like the engine from Serenity, off of Firefly. I start messing around with it, trying to get it spinning again. I can hear Janet in my ear piece. Something went wrong, the room can't be pressurized back. And she can't get out of her suit. This makes me work faster. I can hear her laboured breathing. "How much time?" I ask. "Thirty mintues." Her suit beeps. "But only because you lowered the levels you're taking in?" Its less of a question as it is a statement. "Not the point." She replies. I see her slding the the wall before I am brought back to the engine room.

I start to work faster. Flipping switches. The engine begins to turn the stop. I take a large wrench and start banging on it. Dirt and rust and grime fall off. I flip the switches again. Again it starts then stops. I can hear Janet beginning to breath really heavy, like she is suffocating. I start kicking the engine. "Work damn it! Spin! Do something!" I leave the switch flipped up, and keep kicking the machine. Soon a large boom, happens and I fly back 20 feet. I am covered in dirt and grime. The engine kicks to life, and with it, the biodome begins to live again. No people, but its a start.

I walk to where I left Janet. Wasau is there, and is helping her. Janet has her helmet off. "I see you did it." I nod, still covered in dirt. "What happened?" "Exhuast port was jammed. Got it cleaned out." She laughs, "Looks like it did it kind of on its own." I smile and nod.

We head to the gardens. They look sad, and withered. I call out for Raven knowing she can help bring them back. "I hope she gets the message." I smile at Janet. "You did good. Just remember," everything is starting to fade. "Embrace the Dream." Everything goes to black.

I become lucid as some text morphing strangely. I say 'Abracadabra' to a passing DC. They look at me strangely, and they take me to a '2002' meter mountain. WOW
I wake up as the dream destabilizes.

I now WILD into another lucid. I form an imaginary instrument in my hands. I feel the haptic response of each note, and see orbs of colour float away. I impress a now huge audience. I play from my soul. Crazy!

This was a really vivid dream that turned into a nightmare. Maybe cause it was long it got pretty convincing. I was so observant in this dream too.

Hurrying Home

From what I can recall I was in a poor village near a dessert where a short hooded woman told the story of a boy/man who was neglected by them because he had something inside him that when let out would destroy you.Many of the people had already left the village for a chance to survive the war and poor amounts of food available. They didn't want another problem on their hands. As I looked at the clumped dishes in her tent than at the reddish stone floors, I found myself wanting to meet whoever it was that had the thing. "Maybe they could help me find my family?"I thought. I left after that and walked on a path that led me to observe a guy who was very tactile in hunting and climbing. His black furry animal robe and slightly tan skin caught my attention. "Did he come back from talking to the guy with the thing? He must be really brave". That's what came to mind before I think the guy with the thing came. Don't recall if much happened with them but next I recall walking into a football field.

The sky was gray and there seemed to be a storm starting as people left quickly. Mostly family from students who wanted to join the school team. Trying to get my phone so i could call home, I opened my bag but seeing my money about to fly out cause of the harsh winds I had to regain stability at a wooden square table. There a little blonde girl and her friends were talking about how they needed a metro card for one of them so they could get home to their family. After they pointed out my money with a "Oo! Look Money!" I decided to buy the girl a ten dollar MetroCard to help her out. There was two subways nearby. I entered one with the crowd thinking that the girls were around but I lost track of them.

However, I ended up finding the small little blonde girl again. We just got on a high escalator before the crowd pushed us off it. As I held onto the little girl who seemed to be pushed off too I did my best to keep a tight grip on the metal handle as I slid down on my butt. An employee below saw when we landed and called out we were fine. I was thinking how we managed to pull it off but after putting the girl down I got on a line of people because I wanted to buy some candy before heading home.

After looking at the chocolate candy for a bit though I decided I was too distracted and needed to get home. Looking for my train I had a feeling the girls were already on their way home so I needed to pick up the pace. I exited the subway after seeing a group of drug attics roaming around too. Being outside didn't help though. There were guys, one of them with a small gray phone but with a red top, that tried asking me things and snapping a pic of me. I eventually got away hoping for even the wind to push me in the right direction but it was night now and there were others. I stopped a old guy from harassing a girl before I continued up. I felt so close to getting home that it seemed three blocks away. However, a guy around my age, wearing a black jacket, a blue cap, and gray sweater came up from behind and casually asked me to do it with him. I said he was very handsome so I could not anger him but I was cringing so bad from the thought of being raped. After he told his dad behind us to hold his jacket I became lucid.


I did a high jump onto a building ledge before jumping to another one higher to get away. "Aw man" he replied before telling his dad to hold his jacket so he could catch up with me. Pushing myself through the building wall I managed to get inside but than a scene appeared of his dad and him sitting in the living room. The dad was white and dressed as a doctor. He was about to put a needle into his son's arm. I thought it was a drug needle.

So they wouldn't pop out of the scene I thought of not being visible to their eyes. It worked to have it in mind since they just continued talking and the son who had a darker complexion told his dad that he wasn't sure why a girl he liked didn't seem on point with him, that he had a rich dad who was a doctor and etc. The dad just laughed and told him something along the lines like their better than most. Woke up after that



Just Walking Around

I was laying on a bed that had a red and blue blanket and slowly felt myself separate.I became semi lucid thinking I had an OBE and that the room I was in was mine but even though it had a. similar space most of the stuff appeared to be from a kid wooden bedroom set. Leaving the room though I saw the living room like my current house living room except emptier and understood that I made a mistake.

Now aware of how things were in reality I took notice of a shorter version of Dawn sitting at a round white table. "Oh, no you don't" I said than walked into the bathroom and closed it. I told myself that I wasn't going to see Dawn anymore so I wasn't going to even look or talk to him. Looking at the sink now I pondered what to do next. I than got the idea to see how it feels to shower in a dream again. I turned the shower on and water began pouring out of the shower head.I wet my hair a bit than turned it off."Never mind"I thought than exited the bathroom. I felt like it would just be a waste of time.

Out of the blue Eye came up to me with a plastic bag filled with orange gummy sugar citrus candies. Something I use to eat a long time ago. "Here!" He shouted playfully than stuffed a candy into my mouth. "mmm...It's supposed to be sour? Or sweet? "I pondered than took the bag."This helps me out for the SpellBee competition but what do I really wanna do?". As I kept thinking the candy dissipated in my mouth. I ate another before the dream shifted and I appeared laying on a bed again.

The setting was mostly yellow and black. "I wanna go somewhere interesting" I thought. After a few secs I appeared in a building with yellow carpeting and red wood walls. There was a man behind the receptionist desk talking to a kid. As I looked around them I saw cash on the floor. "I don't have to do this but I'm just gonna leave this here"I said putting the cash where the receptionist guy was. After walking away a dc came up to me and whispered that someone was watching me from a distance. "Really?"I said to humor the dc."Yeah, follow me if you want me to show you" they replied. I wasn't sure what it was that I really wanted to do so I just followed the dc.

We were now in a living room that was big, spacious and had red wood flooring. The dc shape shifted into a woman now and began whispering to me "You know your great grandmother. Before she died I watched her stitch the thread together before she fell on it and it impaled her in the heart". Seeing her chuckle about that I decided to change her through song. I wanted her to be more positive but after she changed into a purple arrow she became a dragon like creature and bit on my head. She was as big as a komodo dragon. I just kept singing to calm her and the scene began to change into a castle now where a girl was dancing in a yellow dress. Holding onto that scene I began thinking of it expanding and another castle appeared but in the other direction. It was accompanied by fireworks(Not very flashy in daylight) and a huge rainbow that vanished. I sang thinking of the rainbow again and it appeared. I wasn't sure if it would count for advance summoning but at least it was something. Feeling the dc still on my head I just kept on singing till the dream brought in a voice that wasn't mine and continued.
I woke up after that. It wasn't really what I wanted to do in a lucid but at least I did something. ^^"



Competition Points

Remember A Full Non Lucid Dream 1
First Dild Of the Night 10
Second Dild 5
Interact With A Dream Character 2
Eat Something 5
Gain Invulnerability 5
(The dc bit my head and didn't manage to crush it)
Basic Summoning 5
(Made another castle appear)
Invisibility
(DC son and father didn't see me and jump at me)
Unspecified Dream Control 5
(High jumped onto the ledge of the building)
Practicing a waking life Hobby 5
(Singing)

Complete tasks

1) Go through big solid object 5
(The building in the first dream)
2)Interact with a dream character 10
3) Mind Control 15
(Made the violent dc calm)

Personal Goal
1) Change setting to a place you've never been before 15
( Place changed to somewhere new and somewhat interesting through intent)
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88 Points Total

2017, 04-14

MoSh’s Inner World

I am in a place I don’t immediately recognize. I look around to see where I am. I am in a green field that stretches out quite some distance in all directions. I head in one direction, the direction that feels right. After I walk for a while I see there is a house up ahead. I hurry up to reach the house quicker. It seems to take forever to get there, it seems that the distance expands as I try to reach the house. I start running and it seems the house is still moving away from me even faster than ever, I can’t figure out what is happening. I stop moving and the house stops moving away from me. The only way this is even possible is if I am dreaming, so I pinch my nose and try to breathe. I am able to breathe with my nose pinched so I know now that I am dreaming. I still want to reach the house in the distance so I run towards it again… and it resumes moving away from me. I jump into the air and start flying and that seems to do the trick, the house stops retreating and I am able to approach it and land on the porch.

I go over to the door and a woman opens it. It is a Japanese woman in a pretty kimono. I am struck by how beautiful she is in her kimono, and I blurt out that her kimono is beautiful. She smiles and invites me into the house so I go inside. The smell of fresh cookies comes to my nose, she has been baking cookies! She has a pan with some fresh cookies on it and she brings it over and offers me a cookie. I am thinking that is perfect because in a dream there is no calories or fat in a cookie. So I take a cookie and eat it and I can’t get over how delicious the cookie is. I tell the woman how much I like the cookie and she says to go ahead and have another. I thank her many times and take another cookie. She says MoSh is in the other room. She says Vegeta already showed up, and he is with MoSh. I hear the name MoSh and it finally gets through my thick head where I am. That isn’t some random woman in a kimono, that’s Asuka, does this mean I have finally made it into MoSh’s inner world? I’m not sure why that has been so difficult for me lately, but here I am finally.

I go into the other room and I see Data working on a computer terminal with some pretty complex diagrams and equations on the screen. I look closer and it looks like diagrams of a shield system, so I figure he is working with the shield protecting MoSh’s inner world. I look at the other end of the room and I see MoSh sitting on a couch with Vegeta and they are talking about something. When I get closer I can hear Vegeta saying something about creating a powerful vortex that will gather in all of the dirt and particles in the area, crush them down into a fine sane, and create a tornado out of it. I go over to them, but they seem to be ignoring me completely, they’re completely focused on what they’re doing. Vegeta says he can take MoSh out to a training area to try out the new techniques. MoSh seems agreeable to that, and they get up and leave through the front door without even noticing me. Asuka comes into the room and says she thought MoSh was in here. I tell her that he was, but he just left. She says he’ll be back, have another cookie. I tell her I’d better not. I am feeling a bit odd, and then I wake up.