lucid

Had a nice sense of freedom in this one, which left me feeling liberated enough to do Basic Task of the Month. This one was light and fun the entire way through, and even my flight malfunctions didn't get me too upset.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #55: Number Games and Ninja

Wife and I are seated on the floor with a dozen or so small children. The kids are probably 5 or 6 years old, but for some reason we're all taking a Japanese class together. We're working on a craft project while some unseen teacher barks simple instructions which Wife and all of the little kids easily follow. Not me, though. I'm fumbling around trying to glue something onto a paper plate and looking like quite the idiot.

The kids titter at my ineptitude. Wife shoots me a look of disbelief. The unseen teacher bellows more instructions and again I'm the only one who's not getting it. It's all really embarrassing and I think, "Well, I'd better hope this is all a dream. Because otherwise, this is humiliating." I use the nose pinch RC and become lucid.

Wife seems to have vanished, so I walk out of the room while the class continues to work. I seem to be in some kind of apartment, and I turn down a short hallway into a semi-dark, rather sparse bedroom. My friend "Leroy" is wandering around in here and I say, "Hey, [Leroy]! It's another lucid dream!" He ignores me, though, and seems to be looking for something.

A large window overlooks a nighttime city scene. It looks like we're about 10 stories up. I phase through the glass and step out onto a ledge, preparing to fly. I leap away from the building, ready to take to the sky... and give a little yelp as I plummet to the street below. I land pretty softly, narrowly missing a parked car. I relax my mind for a moment and then take to the air again.

I'm flying over a huge, grassy field that I think is supposed to be this city's equivalent of Central Park. The grass is short and extremely well-manicured. Golf course grass. Even though it's night, the park itself is strangely well-lit, and a few DCs are wandering through it. I see a couple of fancy archways and a miniature replica of the Arc de Triomphe.

Most interestingly of all, I see a ninja crouched behind a boulder, hiding in the shadows. Perhaps another forty feet away, there's an Imperial Stormtrooper and a man dressed like a World War I-era pilot searching carefully around the park, presumably looking for the ninja.

I remember the Task of the Month -- have a DC guess a number between 1 and 100. I swoop down to where the ninja is hiding and say, "Hey! I'm thinking of a number from 1 to 100. Guess what it is." The ninja seems horrified to see me. He presses his palms to the sides of his head, in disbelief that I would so bumblingly blow his cover. He points excitedly behind me at the Stormtrooper and the pilot. Guess they really are looking for him. "Oh, I see!" I tell him. "Sorry about that. Let me ask them instead."

I'm worried that the Stormtrooper will sound too garbled, so I address the World War I-era pilot. "Hey! I'm thinking of a number from 1 to 100. What is it?"

He thinks for a moment. "22?"

It occurs to me that I didn't actually think of a number from 1 to 100. I feel like a bit of a dummy. Okay, 38. 38 38 38. "Hey, man, sorry about that. I forgot to think of a number before I asked. Will you guess again?"

He pauses. Then a slightly sheepish guess of "Uh... 23?"

"No, but that's okay. Thanks!" The pilot and the Stormtrooper move toward the boulder, but I see that the ninja is long gone. The Stormtrooper growls something angry and garbled and I think how glad I am that I didn't try to play the guessing game with him.

I wander the park a bit more. The sun has apparently started to rise because it looks like early morning now. The number of DCs has picked up. I know that there's something I should be doing in New York, but I can't remember the task. (Task I was trying to think of: Transform into King Kong, climb the Empire State Building, and battle the military.) I think it's Task of the Year, but I incorrectly believe that there's something I should be doing in Central Park. I turn a corner past a food vendor, and rub my hands together. It doesn't feel as real as I'd expect. Things feel like they're slipping and I wake up.

I dream't I was travelling to the airport with my sister and her children. I stopped by a supermarket to collect some cider.

I then proceeded to the car park where we had parked the car; it was next to a large swampy pool of water. On the edge of the swampy puddle was a pair of giant spiders, that had some features of a crab (like a crusty head and armoured legs). They were completely still, my sister said something I can't quite remember what and the spider on the right started to move and get up from its slumber it. Before now I had not properly realised what it was. Then it suddenly leaped toward me with fangs out. Just as it got half a meter away from me and it froze mid lunge, I could see it's fangs directed toward my leg.

I am not certain but I think that this shocked me so much that I stopped it from happening. I then woke up realising that I had frozen it because it was just a dream.

Feel free to comment your interpretations.

I am walking towards my workplace. It is a fast food restaurant, but I don't have my supplies. I am walking in a decent sized alleyway, big enough for a couple cars to fit in. It is behind the restaurant. I see a worker from somewhere else on the job maybe. I jack his cleaning spray bottle and his trash bag. I start walking into work. I remember I don't really work much. My grandma is there who plays in a band (IRL). She holds my guitar for me which I also play IRL. I play sometimes in the restaurant when I am taking a break. I remember her showing me around and we get to the front desk. There is a small tin can full of cannabis and there is keif (pure THC crystals) all over the the counter, literally covered. She tells me that it is keif and I get excited. I think I am supposed to clean it but we pass it up. Then somewhere near the end of my dream a couple guys who heard me play come up and talk to me. They want to offer me $2300 for a record deal. Another guy gets up from a table and offers me $2500. Another guy gets up wanting to offer me money. A shootout begins by one of them (who actually looks just like my friend Brandon who owns a lot of nice guns). I try to stop him but he runs backwards and shoots up my left hand side. One bullet hits me in the shoulder, another in the lower gut and one more in pelvic bone all on my left side. I wake up somewhere around there.

At some point I go back to sleep into this same restaurant dream scene. I am sitting at a table and I look down at this bag that has these shoes that I remember jacking from the first part of the dream that I can't remember now. I now realize that it is a dream and become lucid. I get up from the table and hear a couple of kids screaming about a car jacking going on out side. I look and see it happen and they drive off. I continue to walk around the restaurant to look around. I see employees walking around. I walk to the back and see a kids toy dispenser. It kind of reminds me of a real life fast food place. I walk over to the counter and check behind and see everybody working. I decide to go outside and check it out. I see a bunch of kids all beside the restaurant who are dressed up in costumes. It is night time and there is a lot of kids. I decide to go back into the restaurant when I wake up sometime around there. I wish I would've tried to do more.

1/11/13

DILD

I am in some apartment that I believe to be Mohammed's. I am trying to WILD but I keep getting disturbed. I eventually realize that this isn't Mohammed's so it must be a dream.The next time I am roused I RC. I was able to breathe through my nose, but it took me a little longer than normal to realize that is the dream response. I head downstairs, trying to decide what to do.

I head to an enclosed front porch area, and I see someone sitting in a chair. I decide I want to ask him some deep questions. He is sitting next to a TV, which I don't pay any attention to. He had short dark hair and was sitting cross legged. He seemed fairly intelligent. I get halfway through my first question when I realize he is gone. I look over to the TV and he is on it! He is a field goal kicker, going for a last second win. He shanks the kick pretty badly and they lose. Ethan shows up and is complaining because he had that guy in fantasy. I head towards the back door. The walls are made of wood and are covered in pictures.

The dream restarts and I am in a pool. It is fairly crowded. I had remembered my last dream where I went to do something real in the dream, so I thought it would be okay for me to look for a girl now. I go over to the edge and there is a girl and her sister. I say she looks very cute, and she says my neck looks cute. They continue the conversation as I poke her under the water with my Poseidon Staff. She quietly nods to me. I start playing with her underwater, trying to appear normal above water. A waitress comes over and asks if we want anything. She starts ordering as I am still playing with her. She is trying (poorly) to hold back pleasure-faces while speaking to the waitress.

I FA in a bed in some weird studio flat. I am trying to write down my past two dreams in my DJ. My mom keeps interrupting and talking about some travel books that are laying next to the bed also. There is a TV on the other side of my. Colbert has the Gorillaz as a musical guest. O' Green World starts playing, and my mom keeps talking over it. I get upset with her.

1/11/13

WILD

The sensation during transition was slightly different than normal. More adrenaline than vibrations. Solely in core of body. (Possible false-WILD but failed test.) I had been reading on consciousness/awareness that day so I was prepared for it.

I was laying on my side. I felt pretty focused, so when I felt some strange lightness, it didn't phase me. It was kind of like an adrenaline feeling in the chest. I tried to merely be an observer of my body state. After it faded, I didn't feel anything abnormal. I tried to make my body float without moving. It didn't work. The lightness returned for another round and I continued to wait.

I was suddenly on the street outside of Connor's house. The dream was pretty unstable so I sat down in some grass and felt it for a second. I reached into my pocket, looking for a lucid pill. I pulled out a dead leaf (I had taken a dead leaf off one of our plants IRL that day). I reached in again and found an oddly shaped pill. It had a bit of an abscess, making it lop-sided. I broke it open and took it. My vision cleared up a bit. I reached in for another. It felt normal this time. I broke it open and took it. My vision cleared up pretty good. I stood up and turned around in the street. I remember walking forward and having some goal in mind. I am not sure how far I got toward that goal because I lost memory of it.

The dream restarts in the same place. I had remembered my "real" goal in the previous dream so I thought it would be okay to try and find a girl. I see someone lounging on the stoop of some house. I go over and we fool around.

I was driving in a car, I'm not sure what kind, down a large hill on a long, winding road. There were a few cars coming from the other direction and for some reason I thought there wasn't many for this time of day, it must've been rush hour or something. As I came to a bend in the road I looked over the guard rail overlooking a large cliff with a huge city in the valley below. I turned to my sister who was in the passenger seat and said, "We're almost there." We must've been going to whatever city that was. As we turned the corner I noticed temporary dividers in the middle of the road, like they would put down for construction, but nobody was working on the road. There weren't even any vehicles. As we continued down the road I noticed that there seemed to be an awful lot of police cars, the majority of whom were pulling people over. I wasn't speeding so I thought I was fine.

I distinctly remember passing a small, deep purple sedan with a cop standing next to the door. He was leaning into the car trying to reach something in the passenger seat. I didn't know what it was or why he was doing it but I continued on driving glad it wasn't me pulled over. Right as I thought this I saw blinking lights in my rear-view mirror; Damn, why me!? I continued around the next curve and pulled over to the side of the road. The officer got out of his car and had a very large hat on, much like troopers often wear but much bigger. He started walking towards our car and I began to get nervous. When he got to our car he didn't stop, he just kept on walking past us. He went around the next bend and when I looked behind me the cop car was gone. I looked over the edge of the cliff that the road weaved down and could see the officer standing at the bottom looking up at me. He winked.

For some reason this bumped me into lucidity. I'm not quite sure why but I didn't really question it; I was glad to have ended my dry spell and did a quick clock check for a RC. At first it said 3:17, pretty normal. I looked away and turned back to it. This time it said 9:62. Perfect, this was definitely a dream. I got out of the car and rubbed my hands together, not wanting to waste my first LD in a couple weeks. I asked my sister who was still sitting in the passenger seat and had been silent the whole time what I should do. She looked at me and said, "Weren't you asked to do some tasks or something?" Ah-ha! The TotY! The first one that came to mind was the Colosseum one but for whatever reason I decided against it. The next one that popped into my head was Africa, riding the great sphinx and fixing its nose.

I got back into the car and decided I would try a different way of getting there instead of just teleporting. I pushed a button that just appeared on the console and the car began to hover above the ground. I pulled back on the steering wheel which could now move like the controls of a plane and pushed the gas pedal. Away we went. I flew over the city, going quite fast since I figured we were in America and had to fly over the Atlantic. I looked down and couldn't quite tell what city it was but it was surrounded by desert and mountains beyond that. I figured either Las Vegas or Phoenix Arizona. It only took a few seconds to reach the mountain range and when we crossed it I could see the great pyramids over the other side. I opened the console of the car and found a staples button. Cheesy, I know, but I pressed it and a loud and, for some reason, female voice said, "that was easy."

I pushed down on the steering wheel and eased on the breaks. We landed about 200 yards from the sphinx and I knew I had to ride it up the pyramids but felt like something else was missing. Of course, the nose! As I looked it over I realized that its nose was completely intact; the whole thing looked like it had been completed just days earlier! What the heck, I was supposed to fix it . I figured since I had to fix it I might as well break it first. I flew up to its face and pulled my arm back, taking a good, solid swing at the nose. The tip fell off but I needed more, granted the whole thing was twice the size of me. I ran my hand along the bridge of the nose and then hovered over it and kicked down. The whole thing slowly slid down the face of the sphinx and it looked just like it did in the history books.

Now I had to undo what I just did. I was a little annoyed at it but hey, I want to get this done! I floated back to the ground and picked up the nose. Even though my arms couldn't reach all the way around it I was still able to somehow lift it. I flew back up to its face and set the nose in place. I then pushed it into the face and the whole thing fit like a key. Apparently this was indeed some sort of key, for the sphinx immediately began to move. Slowly but surely the whole thing stood up, looked around, and gave a long stretch and yawn. It then proceeded to lick itself, damn cat.

I hopped on its back and tried to get it to move, granted the thing's back was 25 feet wide, it wasn't a horse. I squeezed my legs like one would to get a horse to move but the sphinx just looked around and then laid back down. What the hell, this was supposed to be fairly straightforward! I thought for a moment while it started to drift off to sleep and then remember seeing cats chasing the little red dots that laser pointers create. I reached into my pocket and, sure enough, there was a laser pointer! I pointed it at the pyramid and could faintly see a little red dot, not nearly enough to get this thing's attention. I figured that, if it were a little bit darker out the light would be easier to see. I looked down at my wrist and found a watch. It said 4:00 P.M. so I pulled out the little time-set thing and changed it to 8:00. As the hands moved forward the sun went down and the moon came up. This was pretty cool, given that I had never really changed the time of day before.

As the sun went down I could feel the dream begin to fade. Damn, I haven't done this in a while! I quickly rubbed my hands together which stopped the fading and brought back some clarity but I knew that I didn't have much time left. I patted the sphinx on its back, which was still quietly laying there. It began to stir and I pointed the laser pointer at the ground in front of it; it was easy to see now! The sphinx's ears twitched and its head perked up, clearly noticing the little dot. I pointed at the pyramids which were about 400 yards away. The sphinx jumped up and immediately began to bound towards that light. I squeezed my legs as tight as I could just to stay on.

When it got close to the pyramid, the sphinx jumped, trying to pounce on the light. I quickly moved it up about halfway to the top of the pyramid, but it still ended up hitting the base and knocking some blocks off. C'mon, kitty, don't knock the thing down! It regained its awareness and found the dot again and immediately jumped up, running up the pyramid. This thing was steeper than I thought, it had to be at least a 40 degree angle (after googling it, the actual angle is almost 52 degrees). The sphinx stuttered on a few steps as blocks fell out from under it but it continued to climb up the top.

I pointed the light right at the very peak and, right as we got close to the top, the sphinx jumped again, this time overestimating the height and clearing the entire pyramid. We both fell down for a few hundred feet and when the sphinx finally landed it began to slide down the side of the pyramid. The ride was quite bumpy and I could feel the dream beginning to fade. We reached the bottom just a couple seconds afterwards and I immediately jumped off, rubbing my hands to try and stabilize but to no avail. I decided that, since the dream was pretty much over and I had accomplished what I wanted to do, I would give the sphinx a treat. I waved towards the distance, motioning for something to come towards me. While doing this I envisioned a giant fish coming out of the horizon towards the sphinx. I tried to reward it for its hard work but just as I though I saw the fish come over the horizon I woke up in my bed, my arm over my head in the same position I was waving in. The entertainment isn't confined to just the dreams

One down, six to go. Hopefully the next one won't take three weeks just to get lucid

This experience happened maybe a week or two ago, it is in my top 10 experiences because it seemed so real. I swear I traveled to some of my memories. I am in lucid dreaming mode where I can create where I want to go each time I wake up if I have not gotten full sleep yet, and continue into another lucid dream willingly, however many times I want. It happens to me a lot but not every night. I knew I was in LD mode because it was happening. First I want to go to my high school. I wake up in the middle of the floor in the junior high hallway. I was on the ground with just my pillow but no mattress. I had seen some of my classmates use this side so I am thinking I am in a my junior high years. I had already done this three times waking up in the same spot every time. I found my way around the school the first time, but i don't remember much. The last two times I made my way to the parking lot out front. The second time an old friend (around this time period actually) Colin was getting in the car with his mom who looked the same. The third time I went out he was fighting with his mom and he was crying. (When I say the third time I mean I had woke up to come back for the third time). I pass him and walk to Levi's ride which is a red van(I have yet to ask him about this). He told me about him playing football for the rest of the year and what position he played.(He did play football in junior high but I never asked him about it back then). I wasn't able to talk cause I woke up not long after.

I then tried to go to shelburn, town where my friend lives, but ended up in Terre Haute. I don't remember the first time, but I do remember it was in the exact same area. The second time was still next to highway 41 in front of the shops located in front of Wal-Mart. I woke up on my mattress but it appeared I was on a fountain built there, possibly the future. My whole mattress and some of my pillow was submerged in water and completely soaking wet lying in the middle of the fountain. I thought it might be a problem traveling with my bed in the water so I tried to lie back down on my wet mattress and wake up in my room again.

I tried traveling to a bigger place, I'm pretty sure it was Florida because I had been there recently. I had somehow appeared in the hood in Atlanta, Georgia. I had watched a documentary movie about the exact place I had appeared in. Now remember this was completely real to me and I was really scared. I knew where I was and I knew it was a very dangerous place for a normal looking white person such as myself. I got out off my mattress and I walked down the street observing some of the houses and realized the exactly where I was from the real Atlanta. I could see that every alleyway and street I went on there were black people hanging out( I'm not afraid of black people but some of these people would hold you at gun point and jack your shit if they had the chance as I had watched on the documentary). I did not want to fuck with anybody nor did i want them to fuck with me so I tried to hurry along without making eye contact. I came up to a point with a group of black people and made my way around and saw there were a couple white people. I still felt uncomfortable because I did not fit in like they did. I was still walking around everybody looking for a way to get the hell out of this city. I had to slip behind some people against a wall and accidentally steeped on the back of one of the white guy's shoes. I saw him look at me with an angry look. I continued on on and ignored it. I turned and looked again and he threw whatever he was carrying and hit me in the neck with it. I woke up not long after but not in my room as expected.

I am not sure how I got where I was, but instead of waking up in my bed I was in a room with different scenery and two beds. There was a poster on the wall I had never seen and the bed sheets were different. There was a room styled in pink across the hallway so I thought it was our sister's( I have a sister but not from my moms house). My brother Miles walked in and I was really excited about where I was. I told him I was in the future straight freaking the the fuck out because I couldn't believe it. He seemed to believe me and was yelling for mom also excited. I walked down the hallway and into the living room with him. I woke up not long after mom walked in. I was kind of disappointed that I didn't get to continue that one.

At this point I am getting close to fully waking up because I would close my eyes and try to go somewhere but would open them up still in my normal room. I then tried to go to the past sometime around 2005 I think. I didn't end up their, but somewhere weird as shit. It was literally a cartoon drawn room, completely white with black outlines for the doors and bed. I was kind of freaked out by it and woke up quickly. There were other things that happened in my travels but it's hard to recall some of the events because they all happened in the same morning in order.

I do remember one other place I traveled to by accident.I woke up in a shop without my mattress. I had to carry around my pillow in order to wake up in my room whenever I needed to. I was walking around some of the clothes looking around when a lady that worked there asked me about the pillow I was carrying. She wanted to know if I was going to buy it and I explained to her that it was mine so that she wouldn't take it, leaving me stuck there. That is pretty much all I remember from that morning. It is one of the most amazing things I had ever done with my abilities of using my mind to take control of dreaming. I had to write it down as soon as I woke up completely.

I have had a few naps while attempting WILDs, only one was successful.

Non-lucid nap #1:

I was going into some sort of building, some other people was following me and there was soldier squad as well. There was talk while we was walking through corridors that every new creature we encounter gets numbered and that we should do something with that(don't remember much). At some point in the room we have encountered those 'new creatures', soldiers killed them with shotguns and we have added them to the numbered 'list'(can't remember how they looked, i think number was around 350'ish).
Then we went to another room, there was pool and bunch of creatures different from previous ones, they were pink skinny things, had no eyes, tentacles instead of mouth and they had 2 chicken-like, but meaty, legs. Soldiers shotgun'd those too and we have added them to the 'list' as well, one of creatures fell into pool while dying and exploded upon contact with water. After a while, everyone suddenly started dissipating and the dream ended.

Non-lucid nap #2:

I was in my room, watching something on the monitor, it was about discovery of the creatures #352, 353, 354, 355 and that they have lost contact with one of the teams(i guess my dreams were linked somehow). Then i went to different room and there was another video playing on monitor: basically there was a box with insects and such, and a bit of water. Miniature version of creature from previous dream was dropped into the box as well, it exploded after touching water and insects in the box started dissipating, dream ends.

WILD nap:

Starts with false awakening in my room, i immediately confirm that i am in dream due to stuff in the room being positioned completely differently. Mom was in the room and she was doing something with the windows. Suddenly part of the white window curtain separates and flies around like a butterfly! I look at it flying around for some time, and then suddenly mom asks: "Son?", in very very echoed deep voice. I try to respond: "What?", but apparently i can't manage to talk for some reason(probably because dream started fading). I attempt to stabilize it(should have done that earlier), but it's too late and i wake up.

I feel myself starting to become lucid. I try to focus, I see a tree branch covered in green leaves above me starting to form with the sky, but I try to change it to a city next to a beach. That has been my goal lately to walk around the beach and enjoy the scenery. I see a road forming through the darkness. It turns into a room and I am now lucid and find my way outside. I am floating which is a first for me, and try to gain full clarity. I am floating towards a few small buildings when I finally catch myself and start to walk like normal. I about run into the house in front of me because I am going pretty fast. I turn off to the left and walk down the side of the road where cars are passing by to find my way to the beach. I can see the water around the edges of the island and buildings as well. It is kinda dim so I try to make the sun come up more to make it really sunny. I start to lose focus so I try a stabilizing technique by rubbing my hands together while I am still walking. It starts to work but because I am still walking I lose my vision and concentration until I fully wake.

01/10/13

The Tower and the Templars
I am in my Fire Valkyrie heading for the moon. I land on the moon and spend some time looking around before I remember plans to meet up with MoSh in a Dark Tower dream. I decide to find a Dark Tower dream and then try to pull MoSh into it. I open a portal while focused on my intent. I go through the portal and find I have ended up in the right place. There is a field of red roses surrounding a tall tower.

Though it has been a long while since I have read the Dark Tower series I know I have ended up in the right place. Now to get MoSh here. I am about to focus on a portal to find MoSh when I realize I am not alone there. I see there is a group of people there with me, quite a few men are standing around wearing the symbol of the Templars from Assassin's Creed. Wtf? I ask one that looks like he's in charge what they are doing there. He says they have had enough of my interference and I am to stop interfering in their affairs immediately. I point at the tower and ask what the fuck he thinks that is. I tell him he is in the wrong dream, this is a Dark Tower dream, not an Assassin's Creed dream, so go away. He says they're going to make sure I don't interfere with them any more. I point at the tower again. Dark Tower dream. You know the poem, Child Roland to the Dark Tower Came? The Stephen King Dark Tower series? So unless the Crimson King is really a fucking Templar they need to just go away. I turn away from the Templars to focus on the Dark Tower dream I want to have. I need to summon MoSh. The Templars are making themselves really hard to ignore. One of them is right next to me talking in my ear practically. He is making threats, saying nothing good can come of interfering with them. I finally said ok, if they are so determined to have my attention… I open a portal and I see Roland of Gilead shooting bad guys with his two big revolvers.

I pull a surprised Roland through the portal, and it closes behind him. He stares at me, I just tell him I can help him, I just need his help first. I point at the Templars and says they are trying to keep him from the Tower. In case he didn't believe me, one of the Templars shoots at Roland with a wimpy gun. I summon up a revolver that is size appropriate to me, Roland and I start taking out Templars. Roland's guns sound like cannons. And it seems he can't miss the target. Templars fall one by one, I even manage to hit a few of them. Finally the Templars are gone. Roland looks like he is about to say something when he sees the tower and he is struck silent. I tell him I know what has been missing when he reaches the tower. I remember to summon MoSh. I open a portal with the intent to find MoSh. A portal opens and I see MoSh wandering around on the other side. I pull him through and point at the dark tower. Roland wants to know who I am and who MoSh is. I summon up a Horn of Eld.

I tell Roland to blow the horn when he gets to the top of the tower. He says there's still the Crimson King. Well then we'd best get moving. So MoSh, Roland, and I start heading for the Dark Tower. There are more Templars in the way. I tell them Stephen King did not write Templars into the Dark Tower series, so GET LOST! Roland doesn't bother with talking… he starts shooting. I toss MoSh a gun and tell him to shoot a Templar. I don't think he is lucid. I shoot a Templar, then he starts shooting Templars. Roland is by far the best shot of the three of us. Roland and MoSh are ready to continue to the tower, but I wake up.

Let It Snow
I am in my best friend's house. I have just spent the night and I am waking up in the morning on my air mattress. Alicia is over by the window and when she sees I am awake she gets my attention immediately. She says it snowed last night. I get out of bed and look out the window. Sure enough the entire neighborhood is blanketed in white. I get dressed quickly and then Alicia and I go outside to check it out. I am surprised at how much snow there is. I decide I need to take some photos of this, after all it isn't that often that Tucson, Arizona gets a significant amount of snow. Alicia wants to make a snowman. I look around at the snow covered trees. The snow has melted some and then frozen again, creating glistening icicles hanging from all the branches. The sun is reflecting off of the icicles creating prism rainbows. It is really very beautiful. I tell Alicia I'm going to take some photos. I head down the road, using my digital camera to take some still shots. I then take some short video clips so I can see the light reflecting off of the icicles. I am with Alicia when we go to a spot underneath an overpass. I am not sure why we are there but I see there is a small pond of water gathered there that has frozen over. Alicia starts ice skating on the pond. I look around the edge of the pond until I find a small trickle of flowing water. There is a fish. There isn't enough water for the fish to survive. It is flopping around a lot. I want to save the fish. I see the water is flowing down a storm drain where there is a considerable flow of water, so I pick up the fish gently and put it down the storm drain into the water. Alicia is still ice skating so I decide to go take some more photos and videos. I keep doing that until I wake up.

10.01.2013

Two Executioners After Me (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It's a Resident Evil 4 and 5 themed dream, and I believe I'm walking along with someone who's my partner. I ask them to be cautious of the Las Plagas enemies and any other random enemies; I even tell them that killing one enemy a certain way would be easier in the long run.

I believe it was the Las Plagas enemy in the game that wears a red robe, and he wasn't wearing the mask in the pic below:

I realized I'm all alone now, and I'm walking inside of a dark hallway with white floors and gray walls. It seems there was something in this hallway I was going to get, but I don't have really good recall of it.

The dream shifts where I decide to turn around and get out, and there's two Executioners in front of me that have mid-ranged weapons connected by chains.

The environment outside looks like a derived section of the Village section in Resident Evil 4, and the skies are dark brown with thunder randomly appearing. There are dark brown trees with no leaves whatsoever, and the surface is mixed with autumn leaves and a dirt trail in the middle.

I try to see what they're going to do, and it seems they're going to take turns in trying to kill me, so it's basically a 1 vs 1 encounter.

I don't know why the other one in the left is here, but I focus my attention on the one to the right because he flings things large metal start spiked object at me, and I'm deflecting it with something I can't recall too well.

I hear the metal clanks, and I can feel the aggressive force this executioner is exerting when using the chained weapon at me. I bounce back, and I'm honestly having a hard time, and since he has two of these weapons, I have to keep myself aware even after I deflect one weapon.

It took him maybe 2-3 seconds to chain the attacks together before taking a 4 second break to prepare for another chain, and there were two moments where I almost got injured.

I keep deflecting the attacks, literally on my toes having to spatially expand my awareness. I don't know what I do next, but I get used to his attacks and I presume that I would make a final kill somehow before I have to deal with the one on the left.

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10.01.2013

Cowboy Bebop Final Episode Simulation (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember being at an elevator, pressing the up or down button on the glossed dark brown panel.

The elevator dings, and random men in black suits start aiming their guns at me from both elevator doors.

I duck for cover somehow and kill them off, and I can't really feel myself being injured or anything like that. I try to press the button several times after dealing with this onslaught, and it just keeps going and going maybe 2-3 times....I can't remember anything after that.

This was an incredible experience. I have always had other sleeping problems but never anything like this. I am at some point asleep. I then am trying to get up from my bed and it is extremely difficult to move. I wake up and then go right back into it. I am getting up from my bed but I can barely hold myself up I feel so heavy, almost dizzy. I make it to the door grabbing onto the wall to hold myself up. I wake again and go in for a third time. This time get up almost with ease and start heading out for my adventure, completely aware I am in a dream. I make my way through my house which is a bit different in some parts of it. I walk though my room into the back room and make my way through the kitchen. I go though the dining room into the living room where I open the front door and walk outside. I am on a sidewalk that is floating over nothing and I look to my right. I see street lights and a tree or two along the sidewalk and can see my house which resemble my friends brick apartment. The sidewalk also resembles his place. I look to my left and I can see over a fence where this almost like a sky abyss of nothing but blue. There is also a huge ball of light which is the sun but looks like it is almost too close to where I was standing. I am afraid of huge planet sized objects or anything really fucking big. I decide to go back inside because it was weird outside and I am in a different house. I don't remember any features but I find my way through several rooms to my Mom's room. She is sitting on her bed with her boyfriend and they said something and I replied but I don't remember much from there. After I fully awoke I was completely amazed by the experience and told both of my brothers which have a hard time believing me when it comes to this sort of thing. That was my first ever experience being lucid. Didn't do any preparing of any sort, it just happened and I nearly shit my pants afterwards.

8-5-11

I had a dream last night that I hugged God. I was dreaming something, I can’t remember what now, when I suddenly found myself at the entrance to this grand room and I just knew that I was dreaming. I started to think about what I should do but I had this feeling of a presence there that couldn’t be ignored. It swelled within me, this energetic enveloping within, and I knew that God was there.

I started to walk forward and I called out, “Father?” The room was very large and round. It had a very high ceiling (I couldn’t actually see the ceiling). There was a warm light all around (not bright or dim), and I was slightly aware of designs or balconies or something along the walls, but I didn’t look too closely. My attention was focused on this raised platform in the middle of the floor. It was round like the room and took up most of the room; there was almost just a walkway around it.

I floated up to this platform and saw a man standing there. He was very attractive but not in a way that you’re physically attracted to someone. I guess I should say that while I didn’t feel any physical attraction to him, I could see that he was very attractive. He seemed about my age and almost looked like Jesus but different. He had shorter dark hair (not clean cut but not shaggy) and a form fitting dark beard (not long but fit his face) and dark eyes. He didn’t seem to radiate any emotion, he was just there.

He smiled and said something about how he was always listening to everyone or always with everyone. It felt like he was trying to explain why he wasn’t always “there.” Which meant he always was there, but almost like he was trying to give an explanation as to why he couldn’t really show himself to us? Not an apology but an explanation.
I asked him if I could have a hug (I was content and happy inside). He said, “Of course you can have a hug.” He opened his arms I walked into them. We hugged one arm up and one under the other. It began sort of awkward since I wasn’t sure how to hug him (arms above or below his) so I followed his example. He held me for a few moments and it was nice. It just felt like hugging any other man but I knew it was God.

I told him that I was sorry he was so busy with everyone all the time (not exact words but the gist). Somehow I knew he was ok with being the way he is though. We were the same height, so I wasn’t short or tall, we were just even. We just “were” together for a moment and it was nice. I didn’t feel anything spectacular, no big rush of energy, no big revelations or anything…just a moment hugging someone and I knew it was God.
That’s all I remember, but it was nice.

Note* I thought this was a strange dream to have since I'm not actually religious. I feel I'm a very spiritual person but I don't follow any one religion and don't know that I believe there is a God in the sens of there being one being. To me God is more a collection of awareness and energy that we're all a part of (if that makes sense). Anyway, I was aware of this in my dream as well, but I couldn't deny the presence before me.

I went to sleep saying the affirmation: I am free of my body, I remain aware while it is asleep, and I will remember.

I woke up a few minutes to 3:00 a.m. and got up to use the bathroom. I realized this is the optimal time for out of body or lucid dreaming. I went to bed and went through my affirmations again. I started on my back and then just decided to lay on my left side since I wasn’t falling asleep and about an hour had passed. I’d rather sleep than stay up all night trying.

As I started to fall asleep, I felt an intense vibration at the back up my neck rapidly spread through my head and upper body. I didn’t hear anything, I just felt this vibration, and I thought “something is happening.” I focused on staying calm and trying to increase this feeling. It wasn’t very long before I just felt like I was laying there with that vibration and that was as far as it was going to go. I remembered in the book he would declare what he wanted to happen, so I said “I float to the door.” I felt some movement, so I said it again and visualized rising up like a balloon and actually felt myself float up and out of my body. Instead of going toward the door, though, I ended up at the foot of my bed. I felt so REAL. It felt just like I would if this hadn’t happened.

I started to leave the room, and kind of felt along the wall to see what it would feel like (it felt like a wall), and then it dawned on me to look back at my body. I looked back and saw a lump under the blankets and I got excited and hopped up on the bed and crawled over to where I would be. Thinking now, I fell asleep with my head out of the covers (covers up to my neck) but I didn’t see my head. I crawled over Paul too and he kind of groaned and changed positions. I felt really heavy, like I would ordinarily, and felt bad that I was waking him up, so I got off the bed and went for the door.

I started to go toward the computer room, but felt drawn to the living room, so I went that way instead. I couldn’t get over how solid everything felt, like this hadn’t happened at all and I was just awake to go to the bathroom. I felt so in control. I went into the kitchen and was looking around and thought that I wanted to try to get in contact with my unborn daughter again, that’s what I was planning to do if I got this far. So I focused on that experience, and said out loud that I want to meet my unborn daughter. I whispered this so as to not wake up Paul (hee hee) but said it with conviction. Nothing happened, so I said it a few more times but changed it to say I wanted to go back to that dream and meet the little girl or something just in case she wasn’t really my daughter. Nothing happened. I was still in my kitchen. I thought, maybe the dream wasn’t what I thought it was, and maybe I would never have a daughter, so maybe I was asking for the wrong thing and that’s why nothing was happening.

I decided to ask to move inward as the book suggested, to move to your inner self. I whispered that with conviction, hands in loose fists in front of me, close my eyes and mean it….nothing happened. I was still standing by the fridge in front of the doorway to the kitchen. Now I’m disappointed. I go into the living room and decide to sit down and try to relax and figure out what to do. It crosses my mind to go outside, but it seems too big or something, so I just sit there on the carpet. Looking back, there was no furniture in my living room. I was wearing loose white pants and my long hair fell in front of me as I sat down cross legged on the floor. I thought how boring this was! I’d rather just be sleeping than feel awake and sitting in the living room all night just waiting to wake up!

I was looking at the bedroom door and started wondering how we slept with that much light in there. There was a dim pinkish glow coming from the room, with a little darker redish pink light pulsing over it (like something was on standby and blinking). I saw and heard Paul move around and change positions and wondered how it didn’t wake me up…maybe because I was out of body? I also realized I’d thought of my body and not woken up like the book suggested I would.

Then Paul suddenly got up and grabbed a Kleenex in the bedroom (we don’t have Kleenex in the bedroom) and raced for the bathroom. I thought he was going to throw up (had Kleenex to his mouth). He came back shortly after and I realized he just spit a loogy out or something. He started to go into the bedroom, then stopped and came into the living room and looked at the far wall. I thought “he can’t see me!” Then he looked down at me and asked what I was doing. My heart fell, and I said “you can see me?” He said of course he could see me and came over to hold out his hand and help me up off the floor.

We grasped hands and he helped me up and said we should go to bed. I asked if I was in bed and he said of course not. I went into the bedroom and the bed was empty. I was so disappointed. I said I swore I had had an out of body experience and he just acted like he didn’t want to talk about it, he was tired, didn’t say much and went to bed. I said, so you mean I just actually got up and was walking around and thought it was out of body? No comment from Paul. It felt as real as just waking up and walking around, so I believed that’s what it was. I just KNEW it had been an out of body! But that would explain why nothing else would happen. I felt so foolish.
This led into a non-lucid dream of Paul and me in our small bathroom in our apartment studying (me with my math book on floor, him on the toilet reading, not going to bathroom). We were listening to neighbor’s downstairs yell at their daughter again. I say I want to shout that he’s an asshole (girl’s dad) and Paul smiles and yells “Asshole!” To floor so the man will hear. I smile back at Paul; I hope the guy downstairs heard.

The dream wanders on and I eventually wake up around 4:30. It’s been about 40 min.
Was it an out of body turned to dream? Or was it just a dream after all? Do I have blocks I need to get over?

I also remember in the kitchen I asked for clarity now just to see what would happen, although I didn’t feel I needed any more clarity, everything felt solid and focused, but nothing happened then either.

I had a lucid dream last night. It’s December 09, 2010 (Thursday). I have to be quick since I have to go to work. I was walking on a path through the woods with some man, I think he was taking me somewhere. It was a dirt path, kind of a tanish color so not wet, dry clay like dirt. There were trees on the right, but not real close to the path. I think the left side dropped off a bit toward a type of gulley? I don’t remember water down there, but it dropped to something. I was looking at his face when I suddenly realized that I was dreaming.

He was very ugly, almost scary. I told him I was dreaming, and he didn’t believe me! I said that it didn’t mean he didn’t exist, maybe he did and we just met on this plane, but he just looked upset, almost angry and disbelieving, like I was crazy. I realized if I wasn’t dreaming, I would be afraid of this big, ugly man, but I wasn’t! I knew I wasn’t getting anywhere with him, he didn’t even believe me, so I walked past him down the path where I knew I had seen a younger man and someone else (not sure who now).

I found him and told him I was dreaming, and he instantly believed me. He had short dark hair and wasn’t much taller than me. He quickly directed me in a direction I should go, but I don’t remember him saying anything. The direction he pointed led me to the inside of a building (I don’t remember getting there, only that he pointed to a less visible trail leading off the one we were on).

Inside almost looked like a bar/reception building. There were a few people sitting at tables talking with drinks in front of them, but it wasn’t exactly a party atmosphere. I saw a woman and tried talking to her…everything was so real! I couldn’t believe I was really so aware again in a dream! This is where my memory starts to go in and out. I was standing talking to her, I was a little excited. I remember my Mom was there, which didn’t seem unusual, but she kind of came out of nowhere. I told this woman I was dreaming and that this had happened before. I told her about the dream where I met my unborn daughter and when I met myself. She just kept looking at me, she was middle aged, older than me, but maybe by 10 years? My Mom kept trying to talk to tell her about my dreams as well.

She told me this wasn’t surprising since I’ve done this in past lives as well. She said I’ve been able to do this in 7 of my past 8 lives. I was surprised. So I have had 8 past lives? She said yes. Then she kind of walked away and joined someone at another table. My Mom was upset, like how could she leave now? We were just getting started. I knew she was done talking, and at points I felt my awareness drift, and I knew I had to focus so I wouldn’t fade into a dream.

I tried to focus on who to meet next. I went up to someone to ask who to speak to, and I was standing in front, but between two people facing each other. I think they were men, but I don’t really remember them. Another man appeared, kind of through a fog, and I knew he just appeared because he was needed by me. He didn’t walk up, he just kind of formed there through the fog. He was wearing a suit with no jacket, and he was overweight. I think he may have been balding a bit too, not sure.
Anyway, he looked tired and I kind of laughed and told him so. He smiled and sighed and said he was. It was like he was appearing for work to work with me and I caught him on a tired day. He was sitting behind a wood desk in a swivel leather chair talking to me. I told him what the lady said about my past lives, and he looked surprised. He said “well if that’s the case, what does it take to get you to higher consciousness”? I said I had kind of wondered the same thing. I asked him what he felt I needed to do, did I need to do good deeds for other people or something?

And at this point, I don’t remember more! I do remember my Mom was talking real loud behind me trying to get in her two cents about all of this as well, although I don’t remember what she was saying. I wanted her to stop talking so I could concentrate and hear this man. I told her to be quite, meaning to stop talking, and she just kept talking but at a quieter level. I have the impression she was talking to someone else too, but not 100% about that either. I’m wondering if this may be when I started to lose focus and maybe started dreaming again since I don’t remember more? I don’t remember him answering me.