lucid

I have never had a dream so real before, i've had vivid dreams and lucid dreams but usually there are tell tale signs so I tell its a dream, the dream world doesn't usually seem or look right. This was all too real, I have never experienced anything like it.

I woke up in the dream, like an obe I guess. I looked around it was morning and I was in bed. The room felt stuffy and I shifted on the cotton sheets slowly waking. I was not in my own room, I could make out the bed in the darkness and vague shapes, tiny slits of light were coming in from the shutters on a window.
So I got out of bed and went over, I pulled the shutters open and was blinded for a second by the light from outside.
As my eyes adjusted, I was taken aback as I looked around in wonder, wt..
I was in a dream clearly, but everything was so real, I could feel the heat in the room, see dust in the air, the cold of the stone floor under my feet, and the view through the now open window.
Outside I could see the wall of a house it was two storey and white, clearly not a modern house. I looked around the room, there was a table and a chair, I could not make out much else.
I felt a strong urge to go out to find someone who kept appearing in my mind, I wasn't sure who it was but they felt like someone I was supposed to meet.
Going out of the front door, I entered the street, and saw a street leading down between large white washed buildings. The sun was blinding, and I could already feel it was getting hot, although it seemed like early morning.
I could hear the noise of people who were already up, and see an old woman of dark complexion.
Feeling drawn I walked quickly down the dusty street, looking around as I walked. The houses had a strange architecture, with lots of balconies and chipped paintwork.
following my instincts, I headed off down alleyway after alleyway until I reached a rough path with very thick vegetation on either side.
Large palms and tall grasses where everywhere and there was a pleasant earthy smell in the air as I tramped along.
As I came to the bottom of an incline my heart began to race, and as I reached the bottom a river came into view. I could hear the water running and stopped near the shore which was muddy.
There by the river was a young woman, I was breathless as I approached, but seem to know her as I uttered her name.
She turned and looked up from her washing at the sound of my voice, her smile radiant. My heart gave a little jump.
We sat and talked I know not the exact details as the words that I uttered were not english. But I could tell
the gist as I had images jumbling in my head of us and people I didn't know and then a church. I think it was maybe spanish , but accent so thick I couldn't tell. My mind might have created another language or made it sound like something similar idk.
There was also a feeling of sorrow at one point. I could tell that the two or I and her were in love.
I stole a kiss and my heart was singing as I left her and walked back up the slope.
Returning to the house the way I came, I saw and met people again I didn't know but seemed clearly to know me and greet me warmly.
I was overcome with the warmth of the people, it felt like everyone knew everyone and it was one big family of people.
A few said my name, but the accent was so thick that I had trouble identifiying the word, it was musical and I felt I enjoyed the exchanges.
People were filling the street now, and I felt an urgency again as I heard the loud clanging of church bells beginning to ring out.
I felt my feet guide me be returning to the house again. When inside I looked down at my self for the first time, wondering what I was wearing and infact who I was.
I looked quite presentable all my clothing was of a thin cotton and felt nice against my skin. I searched the room for more clothes and something to wash with.
My stomach actually started to feel hungry but I had no idea were anything was in this house and did not want to leave the dream before I found out what would happen next.
I flung on the clothers feeling my face and wondering what to do about the stubble I felt on my face. I felt a blade by a large bowl of water and proceeded to try and shave, suprisingly it seemed to come as second nature so I did not kill myself.
Leaving the house at a trott and joined the throng heading for the church, again many people acosted me.
I made it slowly up the steps of the church and imposing white building with twin towers and a cross.
Inside was dark, filled with a pungent smell of incense, the pews were of a dark wood, and as people packed in I looked around for a moment and noticed stained glass windows and figuerines.
I felt the presence of the young woman and looked and saw her wearing a beautiful white and red dress. She was at the other side of the church and I went to get up to go over to her but my arm was grabbed and I was forced down again.
Anger flooded me, and I wanted to rage, images flooded my head of her with another man.
Then as she looked over at me, and the vision of her face filled with a soft gentle love fixed on me.
I stopped dead, her attention made me feel like we were the only two in the world and the sounds of the church became muffled and distant.
It came to my mind that it was not destined to be and her family had arranged for her to marry another.
At this moment the vision of someone I know became superimposed over the womans face, in my mind it was as though the two people were one and the same. And as I looked at her, my heart became steady and it didn't matter what was happening then, now or any place in time.
She loved me in that moment and that was all that mattered, what happens in this life is not always in our control,
sometimes there is happiness sometimes sorrow. We have to be happy for the blessings that we are given.

I fell still, and awoke with the vision of her face still filling my mind.
It took a while for me to come out of the reverie. I was back in my own room I could tell, it was still dark.
I rested for a while filled with that peaceful feeling, smiling to myself.

[Comment]
I am still wondering if this was a past life memory or part of one, I have never been to that place but every detail was so real.
Also the dream went on for what felt like an hour or so.
The thing that most strongly makes me think it was something different was the feeling I had that I was in somebody else's body with someone else's thoughts.
Although I realise that I have the same repeating patterns in my own life that are counterproductive.
I know now that I must let go of those patterns, and this feeling of peace and unburdening I feel will help me do that.
Letting go will also improve the chances of what I would like to happen, actually happening as higher vibrations should attract better things

Oh it didn't seem relevant when I was dreaming, but there were no signs of modern living, no cars or electric lighting.

I had a non-lucid dream before this where I was being controlled by someone I was fearful of . I had to beg and do whatever they said. A nightmare.
I am quite clear this relates to a very controlling person in my life, and the need for me to get back my independence.

I have a feeling of being bummed that I'm not lucid while looking at statistics from a Dream Views monthly competition . I look at the screen and see line graphs in green corresponding to the time Sensei is lucid within dreams throughout each night.
I get the thought that I may actually be dreaming. Nose pinch lucid. I immediately leave the room and enter the main area of the structure. It resembles the main entryway at my childhood home. Beautiful rainbow light spills in the main area of the building through the arched window on the second story. I float down to the first floor, turn around and head down the hallway. As I walk down the hall, I look back to my first dream goal, and try to conjure a lucidity orb. My right hand comes out in front, but nothing appears. I then ask it to come to me in future dreams and make me lucid. I then ask for a dream character to appear in order to find me in future dreams and make me lucid. No response. I am in the kitchen area of the house at this point, but turn from this area, head back through the hall to the main area. I phase through the white front door and into the outdoor environment. The colors remain very bright and vivid. I gaze around at all the colorful bushes and trees and down the street, and wonder how long the dream will remain stable for. I move toward the street, and the dream fades a bit. I feel that I might be feeling my physical body. I begin to feel for gravity as my initial state test. I wake up.

I am in a dark room resembling my bedroom following a transition from a dream of driving a truck through corridors at a military base. I stand up but something feels strange. I go to look at my hands, but it's too dark to see anything. I decide to go with a nose-plug and breathe - success! I try to brighten things up so I shout out lantern, hoping to get a strong light effect from a lantern appearing in the room. I do this a few times, but don't get any results. I am still int he near pitch black room, and see a small bit of light coming through a door very far down a hallway. Instead of changing the dream scene, I decide to sit and meditate. Whin seconds, I get an incredible transcending experience with my mind, as though its being pulled up through my dream head and, and I begin to expereince a mild state of euphoria within a surrounding of dim golden light. After a few seconds, I return back to my meditating body and consider looking around the room. As I begin to open my eyes, I'm concerned it will be WL and become cautious. The dream begins to fade.

Bed: 23.30
Wake up: 08.20
Now: 08.20

Dealing
I'm at some guy's apartment. He's a drugsdealer and apparently a tad dangerous. My girlfriend is there as well. At some point he calls her a bitch. Not for having done anything wrong; that's just how he refers to all women it seems. I don't like the way he disrespects her. I take one of my soup bowls; white with grey and black flowery decal. I hit him over the head with it and he goes down. I keep smashing him, not sure what with at this point, but I make sure he's dead or else he'll kill me for this.

A bit later someone is at the door. A customer. I open up the door and I try to fake my way through it and start talking more roughly than I normally do. I throw in a 'motherfucker' every other sentence. I also start talking a lot of Surinam [a lot of Dutch slang comes from Surinam]. At some point the guy at the door starts talking about Sergio, an elementary school friend. I've seen him as an adult and he is quite a big guy. He's a few metres away and he's tiny and mentally disabled. I start asking the guy what happened to the motherfucker. He's got an "i know right" kinda attitude. It is something drugs related. I'm not sure what happened next, but shortly after there's another customer. I think at some point we're all in the house. Not sure what happened to the body though. I think I may have made up a horrible excuse. I remember that at the end of the dream the situation has evolved into a gun deal. Ok this is getting way out of hand.


I watched Drugs Inc. on NatGeo about an hour before I went to bed.

Fragments
» I don't remember my surroundings. All I remember is one of my teeth being wobbly. Eventually I break off a piece of it, cause it's annoying the hell out of me. I can already see (don't know how actually) that there's another tooth inside this tooth, like a Russian nesting doll. I consider just removing the whole tooth and be done with it. I'm slightly worried that it might not be a good idea.

» I've taken a train. I'm supposed to get to my mom's city, but I can't get there directly. Instead, I take a detour. I have 2 options and both of them will bring me 2 stops away from my mom's city. Somehow I feel like things are not going my way.

» I'm playing football at first. This changes into korfbal and later into basketball.

» I'm sitting at a round table with my friend's mom and 2 of my friends. We're eating (dinner?).

» I'm just about exiting a subway station. I'm going down an escalator and I see Milad going up the escalator to my left. I think we say hi. After that I'm distracted, I think by my phone. I've been walking for a bit, but not getting anywhere. This escalator is suddenly going up. Wasn't this one going down. Whatever. I hop down a few times and I'm down.

Physical
I'm at what's supposed to be my physical therapist, but the building is vastly different. There's multiple storeys. I go into the basement to go to the toilet, which is way bigger than in reality. There's a row of at least 6 urinals and then there are stalls as well. There's an older man in one of the stalls. I take a urinal somewhere on the left. There's a glass wall so you can see into the garden it seems. There's an oddly shaped pool there. Makes sense I guess. Some people have injuries that require swimming. For some reason I decide to finish up at another urinal all the way to the right. I then have the issue of not knowing which urinals to flush. I decide to just flush em all and then make a run for it, before the older man comes out and identifies me.

Still in the same building. There are signs to public transportation on every floor. So convenient that you can just take the public transport from inside this building. At some point my friend Wina goes down some stairs. A white dude about my age is following her, or perhaps she's already blacked out and he's helping her down the stairs. Either way I know exactly what's going on. I go down the stairs, damn near action hero style and beat the guy up for trying to rape my friend.

Somewhere in this dream my physical therapist tells me I still have an appointment for next week. This confuses me, as I thought this was supposed to be our last session. I already moved out. Now I have to come back specially for this?


Magic
This is a Harry Potter dream it seems. I am Harry, or I am myself and have taken over the importance of Harry. I'm in what seems like the University Library, somewhere near the top floor. I think Dumbledore is also there. He has given me command of a sort of army of students. They are all walking down the stairs. I'm having a bit of fun translocating even for the smallest distances. I'm not aware that I'm dreaming, but I'm aware that I can make anything happen that I want to happen cause I'm a wizard. I make a joke that I should go check out my army, as there are a lot of girls in it. At some point I allow myself to fall flat onto the floor, wanting to translocate at the last second. I fail to do so, but I do manage to float just above the floor so I don't hurt myself.

Something else pops into my mind. I'm not sure if it's a thought. It seems more like a commercial. It's about Harry Potter or some other wizard and going on vacation. It's about him not having to go to the airport early, nor having to stand in line, as he just translocates there. Man that's stupid. Just translocate to your final destination.

I'm outside. It's night out, nearly pitch dark with just about no lights. It looks as if I'm standing on a miniature island shaped exactly like Africa. There's a very dark skinned woman swimming west to east the whole time, despite there being land. She's doing so around the longitude of where Cameroon should be. I go to talk to her. She's swimming around a little buoy or something alike on both sides and then goes back. She's supposed to make this trip perhaps once every X minutes or hours, but she is doing it on an endless loop. Eventually she comes out of the water and walks somewhere. Woow. Quite a big woman. She has a bit of a weepy story. At some point I don't really feel like listening anymore and I somehow sort of delegate this task to the dude that's with me. While walking, I spot two girls in the distance. One is a black girl with glasses that I've met at a language cafe in reality. I can't see any defining traits of the other girl, but I assume that to be the friend who was with her. I look the other way. I'm not feeling conversations right now.

I get a message on my phone. It seems like whatsapp. I'm tasked with babysitting the army right now and someone has gotten themselves into a situation. This person has sent a picture of what seems like 2 barrels near a beer place where they're trapped and there's fire or something like that. I ask the guy that's distracting the 'swimming woman' if he recognises this place. It's just down one of the side streets. That particular street is glowing with green light because there are several beer companies next to each other; at least Grolsch and Heineken. I go over and make a quick entry to the 2 barrels, which I immediately try to extinguish by conjuring up a big amount of water. There's no fire to be extinguished though and no water appears. Still I persist. I try to start with a droplet of water, which appears, and add more and more to it. I've got a little string of water going now. Suddenly it dawns onto me that I should try harder, cause things in dreams only happen if you believe in them. I'm now thinking about whether I should just continue the water or solidify the dream. I choose the latter and try to push my fingers through my hand because that will give me a sensation that the water won't. The RC fails. I know that I'm dreaming though. I just shouldn't let go of it. The dream slowly starts fading. I believe that my hearing starts being influenced by the real world, even though this is not true.

1. I had just left some neighborhood park. It was nighttime and the sky was clear. I had been riding a scooter around the neighborhood park when I realized how late it was. I rode my scooter out of the park and found myself on a random street. All around me there were houses and cars in the driveways of these houses. It was completely silent all in this neighborhood, and everyone seemed to be asleep. I looked above me and saw a relatively bright orange street light, and these were all up and down the street I was on. I looked in front of me and noticed a bright white light. Seconds later I look down at the scooter I am on and realize that there is a flashlight installed into its frame.
Suddenly, two guys on bikes come from around the corner and ride over to me. They stop about 4 or 5 feet in front of me and start talking to me. I don't remember what they said, but I knew I had to be getting home right now. After we talked for a few minutes I looked behind me for some reason. As I did so I saw my bike and longboard just laying on the ground. I went over to them and picked them up, but I had no idea how I was going to bring them, and my scooter all home at the same time. I walk out onto the street and stop for a moment. "Could this be a dream?" I ask myself, "I heavily doubt it, but I'll do a reality check anyways." I counted my fingers, and something was wrong with my hand but I don't remember what. "Holy shit I am dreaming" I said out loud in a neutral voice. I then became lucid.
I hear someone approaching me from my left, and I as look over I see my friend Gigi walking towards me. She is wearing a pink tank top and pink short shorts along with white shoes. "Lets see if I can fly" she says. She then jumps up and starts flying on her stomach very low to the ground. She seemed to be only about 1 or 2 feet into the air. Seconds later she flies into a large open dark green shipping crate and I don't see her again. "Aright, time to check out my flying skills" I say out loud. I then ran and jumped into the air and immediately after that I found myself flying, however, I was flying really low to the ground just as Gigi was. I moved my hands a certain way and this instantly increased my altitude by launching me up into the sky at an extremely immense speed. I could feel the Positive G force acting on my body; it felt as though I was riding a roller coaster that was going straight up. Within seconds I found myself way up into the dark night sky. It was too high for my comfort at the moment so I lowered my altitude.
I remembered my dream plan; I knew what I had to do know. "I have to create a time dilation watch" I said to myself. With that I looked for the nearest house and started flying towards it. The first house I saw was a two story house made of mostly wood that was painted white. It looked like a normal house by all means. As I got up to the house I increased my speed and flew straight through one of its second story windows which caused the window to break. As I got up off of the floor that I had crash landed on inside, I looked around. This room had off-white walls with a thick curly brown carpet and dark brown furnishings everywhere. I remember the room fairly resembled my parents master bedroom in my waking life house.
This led me to believe this was my dads bedroom, but I was still lucid. "Aright, lets find one of dad's watches" I said to myself. I could've easily just manifested a watch or made one appear in the first drawer I opened, but instead I decided to look in all the drawers to find one, and so I did. I went through all of the drawers in one dresser, but found no watches, so I went to another dresser and opened 3 more. On the 3rd drawer I opened up, I found my dads old watch. "This would work, but I want one of his new watches" I said out loud. Just then I did something that caused the dream to destabilize and I woke up. I laid motionless and within seconds entered the exact same dream and am still lucid. I'm now in the same room as before, but I can see through the window I broke through that it is daylight outside now.
I looked behind me and the doors to the room were now open. "It's time to wake up!" I hear a man say from downstairs. I walk out of the bedroom and see a man of indian descent standing in the foyer downstairs. I turn back to go back into the room to find one of my dads new watches, and as I do so I notice that outside of the master bedroom I was in, the entire house closely resembles my waking life house. As I walk back into the room thinking about her(The DC girl I've been trying to find forever). I'm not sure if I saw her or what, but something happened that involved her.

Note: I made huge progress in this dream because I for once focused on creating a time dilation watch. In my next lucid, tonight, I will complete the watch. This has been one of my dream goals for over a year now. This will be the beginning of something huge.

I was in this house with a man I wasn't married too but we had a bunch of kids. The house was all kinds of wrong which is a common thing for me in my dreams. A was tucking a couple of the kids into bed & the room wall all tilted to where there were slanting windows at the foot of their bed. Like they could fall right through the window in the middle of the night. I spent a lot of time in this house & became lucid do to the increasing oddness of this house. I would walk down halls that were like a fun house, all slanted & not normal by any means. Outside didn't seem much better. We were near exaggerated slanting hillsides.... Meesha woke me up first so I kept my eyes mostly closed & gave her some food & peed & went back to bed to try & get back into the dream. I slipped back in pretty easily but now the kids wanted us to get married so we were making preparations for this & my parents came for the wedding. Right after they showed up, my real life husband woke up & it made me realize I needed to pee again. So back I went into the bathroom w/ my eyes only slightly open & managed yet again to get back in. This time the setting for the wedding had changed into a cemetery & the wedding process began, right there in the cemetery. It was all gloomy & weird while we mingled & talked in the cemetery. It was just as if it was a funeral setting not any kind of beverages or food, just milling about & talking. I was still lucid during these dreams & I could also simultaneously tell my husband was awake in our real house because of the sounds. I had to get up at this point because of a previous engagement for today.

I know this is chaining so I guess you'd classify it as a kind of combo of a Deild & Wild which basically means chaining.

Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Explanation of details-Blue
Side Notes-Purple

This dream started out in a tall rickety wooden house. It was our house with the same rooms just different layout. We had a Halloween party, and people started sowing up in droves for it. After it got too big a security guard showed up and shut it down. People left, and I flew around a bit on the street but afterward I went back to find the party goers disassembling and stealing everything in the house. I decided to turn back time and try the party again, but even when only a few people got in the house at the end, they would still rob the place. So I restarted a third time, and at the end I stood outside the front door on the porch and started knocking out everyone who tried to get in. When they were finally all gone I crossed the road to see the dankerton extended family sitting outside in the sun, and Devon was there. I started telling him how great a day i t was, but when I went to explain how I turned back time I realized I was dreaming. I looked at my hands, one was normal and the other one was small and distorted like a cripples. I was so excited my heart started racing, and I couldn't look away from my hand, it was so interesting. Eventually everything but my hands went black as my dream slowly slipped away, so I kept staring at it until it all passed into nothingness.

Dreamsigns:
Dankertons
Devon
Party
Flying

I'm on campus, pretty, clear spring day. There are signups for summer classes (they start tomorrow) but there are also, more fun and pointless activities. I remember the author of Harry Potter was on campus and she was going to assign people to one of four dorms in the dorms that I stayed in last year, only they had been renamed to be the four Hogwarts houses. (Gryphindoor, Hufflepuff, Ravenclaw, Slytherin) This was supposedly a part of a role-play type thing to make college more fun. Also, if you signed up to live in these dorms, you could be a part of a quidditch team.

IWL or in dream, I've never been a huge fan of Harry Potter. (You may have noticed some butchered spellings.) But in dream there were a lot of HP fanboys and fangirls hanging around the table waiting. Don't remember why I was waiting there, I think I had some friends who were interested in signing up for the HP dorms.

I remember I got bored. There was a tree nearby so I figured I would climb it. A few other students were trying to climb it so they could sit on the branches and pretend they were flying on broomsticks. I betted that I could climb the tree easily. I ran up the trunk a couple steps and grabbed a low hanging branch, then pulled myself up gracefully to the top of the branch. The students were pretty impressed with my feat. (I wasn't even lucid) But a security guard showed up and told me to get down. So I jumped down.

I think one of the students asked what spell I was using. I was curious until I looked down and saw that I was floating about 3in off the ground. This caused me to RC and become lucid. I started flying off. At first I was flying really low, only a few feet off the ground. (Though it was still faster and more fun than walking.) I began making my way around campus when I noticed strong winds disrupting my flying. A few of them blew me into the sides of buildings. I remember at one point the wind blew me face first into a brick wall. It was the brick wall that broke and not my skull fortunately. My head was now sticking out of the wall of what looked like my high schools gymnasium, and there was a cheerleading class going on. Everyone looked on surprised and confused.

"Sorry!"

I figured if I could get higher, then I wouldn't have to worry about the winds blowing me into buildings. At this point I was flying down a narrow alley. I heard someone yell "Freeze" and saw the campus security guard along with several others. A mecha walked in behind them, pretty small and probably unmanned, but I still don't see why Campus Security needs a battle mech.

Spoiler for Mech looked like this, but painted white with police siren.:

I don't know what these guys want so I just figured I'd fly away. I tried to fly down the alley, but I saw Jack (OMG I thought you had left my dreams) with a giant fan that was creating the winds. Apparently he was a junior officer on Campus Security and he wanted to get me in trouble.

I finally managed to fly upward. I heard shooting but tried to ignore it, hoping that the dream would drop the plot of security trying to stop my LD. I managed to get away, flying in a spiral around a large skyscraper-ified version of the language building. I kept having to say "Faster, Faster, Come on!" As I got up, I saw a city (not there IWL). On the left were several rocket launch pads. Each one had one of these odd space shuttle looking craft on it. (I think the space shuttles had extended noses or something.) There was also a Washington monument type thing in the middle of a big hexagonal park and a huge cluster of tall buildings.

I decided to go and investigate the space shuttle pads. I remember it looked sort of like a cargo shipping dock. There were these big robot arms on tank tracks that would lift boxes of cargo into the shuttles, and they would take off and fly into space. There was also a giant field full of parked shuttles. Someone started explaining to me that "The Professor" had designed these for easy space travel. Now he was working on a space ambulance version that looked exactly the same, but with a red medical cross painted on it. He said that he wanted to do a space fire truck version but he couldn't because there was no oxygen for fires to happen in space.

Lost the dream and woke up.

Side Notes: Last night I made a goal of Manifesting Manei. Became lucid and seemingly completely forgotten about. I've gotten very good at this, becoming lucid and forgetting my goals. I need to figure out ways of better remembering my goals and staying focused.

My lucidity is almost to 1/night. Some nights I have two or three, balancing out the nights where I have none. (At least how its been for the past 3 weeks.) I think I've figured out how to have an acceptable quantity of LDs. Now it becomes about having good LD quality...

Not complaining about flying LD though.

I found myself in my old primary school, although the corridors were far grander in size and decoration than the real version. What happened at the beginning in the dream, I am not sure. I was working on fixing a tv for three of my teachers (who were all gathered in one room for some reason). The Tv only needed to be plugged in. Whilst moving to perform this task, lucidity hit me and, as a test of my dream control I decided to turn on the TV without plugging it in, by willing the current from the socket into the Tv. This worked and, satisfied, I left the teachers to watch what I believe was news.

Walking down the corridors, I came across two beautiful women in long, flowing, blue dresses who were apparently shooting an advert, despite the lack of cameras. Entranced by their beauty, I verbally beckoned one of them over and we both came the simultaneous realisation that we should have sex. This we did, but I woke up midway through.

I'm standing with [S] in the hallway talking about lucid dreaming. I look at my hands and realize I'm dreaming. I look up and take in how convincing S's face is. I ask her, "Why didn't you tell me I was dreaming?". She gives me a big grin, and turns her face to her left. We walk together down the hallway toward the far end. We are in my childhood home. I take the opportunity to ask her very specific questions we've been talking about in waking life. First, I ask "What is your main passion?". Next, I ask "What is the best way for me to become lucid". Finally, I ask "What's your favorite food?" (Not all that epic). We continue to walk down the hallway, and finally enter a room on the far end resembling my brother's. I look to the cabinet against the wall; it is 3 shelves wide with many glass windows. The cabinet contains many different interesting bottles with contents that seem equally as interesting. At one point I think something along the lines of 'wow... this is very realistic/stable. I consider going for one of the opaque creamy looking bottles to see what it is. I get a vague notion that it may help me with lucidity. I decide not to drink it, however. I don't see S for a short period and consider heading out of the window, yet she reappears in my vision very soon. I give her a kiss. The dream becomes a bit blurry, but I rub my dream body with strong intent and stabilize. I look on the bed and see a very small pile with some of her clothes. The dream ends shortly after and I wake up.

*I don't clearly remember her responses to the three questions due to moving my head a couple inches upon waking.

I'm in the hallway at my childhood house. My hands come out in front of we while in the hallway and I notice six fingers. I become lucid. I begin to walk down the hallway to where my parents' bedroom is located. I decide not to enter the room as I get the impression that interaction with them would possibly wake me. I head down to the other end of the hallway towards where my brother's room is located. Once in the room a gaze toward the window, and become very interested in heading through the window due to the surreal appearance. The dream begins to fade, yet my awareness increases a bit and I stay in a void state. I resolve that I will maintain awareness until another dream forms. This goes on for about a minute.

*There is a period of time before the next lucid which I cannot fully account for. Shifting upon waking from the second LD caused much of the memory from the first to get jumbled.

- I was with an old friend that I had a falling out with as a teenager. Someone began making fun of him for having a small penis, and he was deeply offended at it. He started getting depressed about it. We hadn't gotten along, and he kept being a complete jerk about it, mocking and teasing him. I had no issue with this guy making fun of him about that, and I thought it was good. I told my Mom about what happened. She had a very different view of it. She said that if it was me that was making fun of him, she wouldn't still be talking to me now. She said she'd have abandoned me and had nothing to do with me. I found this outrageous, but she stood strong in this, insisting that she would have had nothing to do with me and cut me out of her life.

- I went back to college, but it was just for a brief time. I walked around for a bit, excited about things. My parents were following me around, but I had the option to just go. I didn't though, until later on. Then, I began to realize this was merely a dream. I found some thing there that weren't there in real life, and I knew it was a dream. I went to this place where there were several girls from there. I attempted to have sex in this lucid dream, but my Mom was standing around...... and obviously the dream basically didn't let me, as she was just standing around. Later on, I wasn't really as lucid anymore. I was going to go to a symposium for something at school. A girl that I really liked from there was there. However, she had ditched me in real life. In this dream, I didn't even get a chance to talk to her, although other people were talking to her. Later on, there was a demon that was chasing me. Oddly enough, the energy of me began to shift from the demon and back. It was odd, like a cycle of possession and non-possession. At times, "I" was the demon. At other times, and then the demon became what used to be me. It was very strange, yet it almost illustrated that there was no demon. Instead, the demon always was what was different. Still, this was a very frightening dream.

🌹🌹🌹A group of short wild/deild after wbtb

After wbtb from about 4 till 4.30 am - had some short but sweet encounters with Lucidity that enabled me to try both the Basic tasks and have success with the stretchy arms Totm

I am lucid but things are dark, visuals are not clear so I remember the stretchy arm task and start to feel my arms stretching out and out and out and out and you guested it yes - out some more. I had imagined today I might stretch them so far they go around our planet earth so I was thinking I might see earth within my arms at some point...I didn't ...but soon a saw my two hands reach each other - miles and miles away in front of me ~ they clasped each other and it looked like they were wrapped around, engulfing a huge invisible planet in space ( as the visuals were still pretty dark and space like.


I then remember the taste in the mouth Totm and put my attention there trying to get something ...no ....no ...nothing except starting to wake up... Oh well. Will have to work on this one again ~ when I am Lucid again soooon

Some dreams🌸
Sexual encounters
DR walking into JH - he is skinny and shocked - when he sees me he walks away fast - he is very shocked to see me.
I am crying alot missing A very badly and telling people I cant believe he is gone

later Lucid 🌹
I am walking straight ...straight...straight...i know i am dreaming - the scene is darkish once more - i carry on pushing through walls and walking forwards. Everytime i push a wall through i see a flash of light and it feels good. i wonder if i can get some brightness into the dream and call out for light ...still walking ...i call out for a beach scene ...nothing. Still pushing walls i call out
" I am ready for the next level - now " a couple of times...
As i continue this activity i remember todays ponderings on " I am ✨" and self awareness and that they are one and the same. I ponder on my moments of self awareness during the day " I am" I repeat and feel apreciative of these pearls of wisdom dropping into my Lucid mindset at this very moment ✨

Soon waking 🌹

I remember I had to take care of my new youngest cousin. She was just a baby learning to walk and her name was 'Baby'. I remember thinking to myself how that name wouldn't make complete and total sense because when she got older she wouldn't be a baby anymore. She kept challenging me to races around the house and for someone who seemingly learned to walk yesterday boy was she fast. But I still beat her. She didn't get upset she just continually challenged me pointing out different courses we could take.

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More Lego Dreaming. Don't remember what it was about. (this is the 6th straight night there's been something Lego related.)

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I remember walking down a beach. I was with my family and cousins. (Different cousins, my mom's family cousins.) We were supposedly on holiday in northern Michigan. I remember we were staying in a beach town and visiting the beach. My aunt said something about people not agreeing if it was 60 degrees or 80 degrees.

I remember walking past these dream characters playing in the sand. One of them had this contraption that was making perfect ~6in sand cubes and sticking together like Minecraft blocks. He was making quite the sand castle, too.

I remember looking a ways down the beach and seeing that it got less crowded. I decided we should go there. But at some point before we reached our final site on the beach that I became lucid. I did a reality check, and laid down some stabilization by wiggling my toes in the sand.

For some reason I remember messing with the colors of the dreamworld. It was kind of like adjusting things in Photoshop where you can make the colors extremely vivid or something. Eventually the setting that I decided upon was slightly more vivid than it was before. It was pretty, though. I also managed to change the temperature in the dream world to be warmer.

I began walking back up into the town. I just remember the town had this row of white buildings on a slight hill, then a road, then a large plaza-like area where I was standing. The town also had a train station and a bakery. The bakery was a very small building with a glass storefront close to the beach where we had been earlier. There was also a massage center next to it... Interesting choice of buildings...

I remembered one of JustMe13's challenges. (Actually I think it was a false memory.) I remembered that I wanted to experiment with food in a dream. I reached into hyperspace (behind me) and pulled, well it looked like a muffin or a small pie. I bit off part of the top. It had flavor and texture, that was a lot like eating corn bread or a nut muffin or something. Not super strong, discernible flavor, but reasonably strong.

I then realized that I've had food before in a dream. Now here's where I can take it to the next level. I need a second food item. I want to see if I can get something that tastes different. I think to go into the bakery, but when I do, it turns out the bakery was a much bigger building on the inside than it was on the outside, and there was a gigantic line of DCs. I remember right in front of me were five or six tall black men with spears and loin cloths. Some kind of tribesmen. I didn't want to pick a fight, so I just figured I'd reach into hyperspace again and hope for something different.

This time I got a chocolate frosted plain doughnut. I started to make my way back outside. I sampled the doughnut. Different texture, softer. Different flavor, could taste the frosting. Back to the muffin. Kept going back and fourth between the two, until I'd eaten them both.

I somehow wound up wandering into the train station while I was distracted. A security guard grabbed me and another guard told her to 'put me with all the other weird ones'. She locked me in the second story room of the train station. I remember there were some brains sitting out on the table. There was also this guy with long blonde hair. He had a viking helmet on and looked to be about 20. (Also he was a disembodied head nailed to the bulletin board, must not forget that small detail.) He smiled at me and said that the brains I saw sitting on the table were from people that had lost their minds. Apparently this room was essentially the Train Station's lost-and-found.

But that didn't change the fact that I was waiting for the guards to figure out what they were supposed to do with me. There was one window in the room, but I didn't feel like breaking it or squeezing out. I figured I'd teleport somewhere else, or at least try. I felt like I'd already been in an LD for several minutes, so if I woke myself up trying to teleport, I'm not wasting the whole dream.

I remember I put my hands together and did like that ninjitzu thing.

"Tesseract-A-Beach"

I was very surprised when the dream actually changed to a beach setting. It wasn't the one from before. I remember seeing the ocean with waves rolling in and the white sand. (Granted I had been on a beach earlier in the dream, maybe that's why I had success.) There was a single palm tree and a cluster of fern like plants. The sky was clear with only a few clouds.

I've had many a failure with teleportation in the past, so my first instinct was a celebration. I think I jumped up and down and shouted "WA-HOO! I TELEPORTED!" I noticed that the dream was getting dark. I knelt down and felt the sand trying to hang on, as the dream was starting to become unstable. "I TELEPORTED! I'M PROBABLY GOING TO WAKE UP NOW, BUT I TELEPORTED!" [Does a little happy dance.]

Yeah I did end up waking up a little bit later. There might have been a false awakening that I forgot.

I didn't log my first dream because I'm still sick but I did end up taking a nap after listening to some LD stuff on YouTube... So my dream was started by going into what looked like a car wash but it was actually some cleaver entrance (became lucid right here) into a place w/ booths that looked liked dressing rooms but actually was where you could pick out themes for kids birthday parties. In real life my husband came home from work in the middle of all of this but I didn't open my eyes & instead just let myself stay in my dream because I was now lucid.... I kept walking around inside this place & was looking for something to use to help me trigger the TOTY but I was still stuck in where I was because I could hear my husband taking a shower & my cat meowing so the real world wouldn't let me create a place outside of where I was.

I'm sure the birthday thing is because I will be at my son's Bachelor's degree graduation & I'm conflicted about it because my I'll be gone for my grandson's 5th birthday & his dad was just sentenced to 20 yrs in prison. I know I have to go to the graduation but it's important that we help our daughter w/ her kids as role models even more than usual because of this situation.

Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Explanation of details-Blue
Side Notes-Purple
Astral Projection/AP-Brown