lucid

Semi-LD: I remember people were chasing me with syringes. I was semi Lucid so I did some minor dream interpretation on the spot. I was thinking it meant that I thought that people were always out to hurt me? Mistrust?

LD: This was interesting because I believe how I got lucid was a reaping of the awards of my new regular meditation practice. I got lucid because I was at my grandparents house and I remembered that I hadn't lived my grandparents for years. I give hightened self awareness the credit for that.

I am walking down a driveway and hear a man talking about the benefits of meditation - how it builds the power of 'analytical awareness' to super high levels, through stages. I think that his description sounds a bit like the analytical parts of vipassana. I then think about Zazen and consider this might be better for awareness I make my way to the street and toward a main road and it hits me: I'm dreaming! I instantly fly up above the road and soak in the realism of the dream scene. The trees, street, and cars, are all very vivid and realistic and I feel that I have solid mental presence in the dream.I look backwards toward a black car coming down the road with a female driver - she smiles up at me as she slow, seemingly amused by me flying. I fly backwards and extend my limbs. I then turn around, continue flying and consider some dream goals. I'm super happy and can't believe how vivid and stable this lucid feels. I look way down the road and see the road stretching out for miles into the far distance, massive green trees standing on either side. Cars make their way to what appears to be a coastline with several houses with light red roofs adjacent to the coast. Tree branches a few stories high partially block the view. I think back to one of my dream goals of visiting a 'Heaven Realm' and receiving an important teaching. I decide against it, and reason that this feels enough like a heaven realm. I then decide to shout to the dream for more clarity and focus to see what happens - the dream doesn't alter at all. I consider how stable it is then tell the dream authoritatively that it's going to last for an hour, feeling determined. I make my way down the road continuing toward the coast, and see a massive oak tree several stories tall with branches coming over the road. I head inside of the canopy and am amazed by the network of thick branches and begin to feel the incredibly realistic, gritty texture. I consider making a portal to my goal in one of the branches, but decide to head down the tree, and toward the lake at the base. I fly down bit by bit, feeling each branch then stop a few seconds on one branch. I suddenly think that I shouldn't stop too long or it may become unstable. The dream begins to fade a bit. I enter a void an resolve to stay in it, aware, as long as possible until a new dream forms. I have a short FA before the next dream.

I haven't been posting to my dream journal lately because I've been so busy and stressed out, but I'm going to try to resume. As a result of the craziness of the last month or so, I also stopped trying to lucid dream, but I did think about it often and perform a few reality checks. I had no time to, and I'd also given up on the technique I'd been trying, because every guided meditation I used either was nice but wouldn't put me to sleep, or put me to sleep and did nothing but cause more vivid dreams. Nothing close to lucidity. I'd begun to think I'd never achieve lucidity and maybe there was something wrong with me or I wasn't doing the meditations right. Anyways, I had a dream last night that I believe might have been a lucid dream.

I was at a school, walking around during after school hours when most of the teachers had already left. I wandered into a classroom where my brother's kindergarten teacher was grading papers at one of the students' desks. I walked over to her desk and looked at a paper, which had a list of names on it in a few colors. I have forgotten what they were, but I could read them clearly, and said to myself, "if I was dreaming, could I read this? I thought you couldn't read in dreams."
I decided I'd look away and see if the words changed, because I knew that they do that in dreams. I looked over at the teacher, who was still grading papers, and then looked back at the paper on the desk, and surprisingly, the words had changed.
At this point I said to myself calmly, "I'm dreaming."
Suddenly everything became very real and clear, and it felt like I truly was standing in that classroom. It was mind blowing. I was struggling not to get excited, so I rubbed my hands together, which I've heard helps, and stabilized the dream somewhat.
Then, I attempted to fly, which was probably not a good thing to attempt during my very first lucid dream. I had not expected to lucid dream last night nor had I figured out what I'd do if I achived lucidity, so I did the first thing that popped into my mind. I imagined myself as being lighter than air, and then stood on my tiptoes, lifting one leg up and pushing off the ground gently with the other. I floated up into the air slowly, and at this point I became so excited I either woke up or the dream ended, I can't remember which.

Was this a lucid dream? I'm just not sure.

I'm on a highway on a world that is about to be turned into that of Mad Max- series', because of some global disaster. Everything still seems normal, but it wouldn't last. I have a machine rifle on my hands and I'm shooting some bandits that are running across the street some 30 meters away. I manage to kill all three of them. I see a few cars that have been turned into the cars from Mad Max- series. Suddenly like a fortress-on-wheels comes to the road from an intersection on the right. Then a war-truck bursts from the left and the crew of both vehicles notice me. I run to these concrete barriers laid next to the road and take cover behind them. I "save" the "game" multiple times, because I'm in such a tight spot. The fortress-looking vehicle leaves the area, but I'm not going to go against the truck so I sneak to a facility building nearby. I drop 2-5 more bandits there with my gun. I enter the building and the inside is gloomy, rusty and dimly lit. There are 5 to 10 bandits on the other side behind the middle section and I see one walking towards my location. I save the game again somehow, just to be sure. I shoot. I miss the crucial first shots and the bandit notices me.

We're on a large and empty parking lot with random people. I'm about to enter a bus and I ask a 50-year old bald driver if I could put my luggage into this small opening on the side of the bus. I try to fit it in, but it won't fit, so the driver tells me I can take it with me to the bus. There are mane youngsters my age inside. I sit down and we keeping switching seats a few times with the others for some reason, before I sit down for good. A fluffy haired, tanned girl behind me starts chatting with me and I turn around on my seat to look at her direction. She asks questions about my sexuality and about my sexual experiences, but I won't tell her. She is obviously attracted to me and my personality. She looks directly into my eyes and asks : " How much would it costs for you to give me a warm kiss?" I tell her : " I wouldn't sell it." The dream is absolutely life like and we look at each others eyes for few seconds. We then leave the bus and we're in a semi-Asian themed store-market- vendor street. There's now a rope on our waist and we walk in a line while being guided by someone around the place. Now I lead the line, but the theme of the dream changes.

I get surrounded by eight hooded and caped people with swords. I also have a sword in both of my hands. They charge me all at the same time and a quick sword fight begins. I redirect all of the incoming swings, two swords against eight. I'm a sword master. I then drop the swords and use only my fists and I somehow win the battle. I become lucid. I look at my right wrist and there's a bracelet on it. I raise my hand to take a closer look at it. It's made out of gold and it has hundreds of small, red and green crystals on it that are glimmering in the light. I think it's from ancient Egypt. I take a good look at the bracelet before moving on and creating a door. I enter it and I appear into a sandy landscape. There's an enormous, 20-meter tall green scorpion-spider creature walking towards me over a large object. Someone or something is riding on top of it.

The dream hops me close to highway at the lower side of our city. I take flight and glide over the traffic onto the other side of the road and I then land down again. I look up and there's power lines on the right. Without hesitation and doubt I go and extend my right arm towards them and it stretches and stretches to about twenty meters high. I go and grab the power line. I feel nothing, but I see blue and white electricity moving down on my arm and it hits my body. The energy makes me levitate and it is making my body buzz gently. I then let go and take flight again to a nearby small hill. My arm has instantly returned to it's usual length. As I land I think of something else to extend my arms towards. I look up to the sky and I separate the clouds by aiming my hands towards them and then stretching them apart. There's still a thin layer of clouds behind the bigger puffy clouds so I repeat the telekinesis. I can see the Moon and wait... there's another planet there as well it's ... it's Earth. And just like that I'm in space. I'm surprised but I don't think more of what the dream decided to do with it's self, and I start flying towards the Moon. I get there in ten seconds, and as I fly above the surface I see that the scenery feels a bit fake. Like a landscape out of a game with good graphics. I also can't take " a grip" of anything I see, as if the scenery was trying to evade my gaze.

I appear on top of an autumn forest near a small town and I see a river flowing through the forest. I get dropped from the air and I land on a pile of brown and soft leaves. I look behind me and there's the girl from the bus, smiling at me, on another pile of leaves. I ignore her and as she tries to follow me I vaporize her into the air with a swing of my arm. I appear into the middle of four apartment buildings. I remember. Battles! Suddenly a 3-meter long,black, worm-looking snake creature slithers in front of me. No, I'm not going to be fighting against something like that. As I'm getting more aware of my purpose why I'm there in the first place ( battles ), the sky begins to turn red and black. I then remember my idea of creating an empty room made out of titanium or steel where I could prepare for dream battles. I look behind me and there's an yellow wooden door. No, it needs to be red and have steel edges. I turn around again there's a light-red colored steel door. I enter and I almost succeed, I see the dream constructing the room in front of my eyes, but it turns into some empty office space on the edge of a city block.

I then begin to try and change the room into that which I wanted. I use telekinesis to bring the walls closer and I vaporize almost all of the items laying around. I say : " Concrete ( meant to say steel ), endless concrete." I feel the walls extending behind the walls and gaining weight. It's working a little. A black man comes to me and begins to complain about the changes I'm making so I vaporize him in to the air as well. I lose lucidity. A celebrity is driving away two other celebrities out of his home, the same place where I lost lucidity. The other two have been living there for some time and have no other place to go so he decides to give them farewell gifts. James McAVoy, one of the two other celebrities says sarcastically : " I bet it's a million for both." The man hands them two checks for both. They're all worth 3.5 million. Both of the become teary eyed and happy, but I have a feeling that they're faking it with their acting skills.

ceiling

I remember lots of stuff happened but the first thing that I really remember is being on a subway train and someone saying that there were vampires on-board. There was also something to do with angels that were supposed to be fighting them. I remember when I asked myself where the angels were I got a vision of them sitting on a cloud eating doughnuts and playing cards. I became lucid.

The first vampire I saw was turned the other way, terrorizing some girl before he drank her blood. I pulled a wooden stake from hyperspace and impaled him.

I made my way back along the train. For some reason, I was just throwing the vampires out the window. It seemed like the easiest and quickest way to dispose of them. At some point I saw the master vampire, a female with two children, one male and one female. I remember she kept ordering the male child to drink the blood of different people while not allowing the female any. It was also at this point that the subway had become an above ground train. The male child complained that he was full.

For whatever reason, I felt like I needed help here. I turned and ran for a window before the male child could get me. I had some doubts that I could jump out the window and fly, but it seemed to work regardless. I remember I flew above the city we were passing through. I used the summoning command and when I did, I saw Manei in the backseat of a car. I pulled down next to her. The car was driving seemingly by itself. I opened the backdoor. I remember she was wearing some heavy jacket or hoodie that she wanted to take off before we went. I grabbed her hand.

"Are you ready"

"Yeah"

I pulled her up into the air. I tried to ignore the fact that I had a passenger, since that usually results in a quick and painful "Landing". I took her up. The city we were in wasn't very big. I was trying to find the train tracks again, but I didn't see them anywhere. I remember there was a single glass skyscraper. There was an open window near the top floor that I flew into, through the building and out the other side. She started screaming at this point. I couldn't tell if she was having fun or terrified. Probably somewhere inbetween.

I went down low over the street. A big semi was coming towards us and rolled out of the way. I started to go up again but she said something about my fire jets not being real. I think the conversation went something like this.

"You're not flying, silly. You're just going 'fwssh' with your mouth"

"Yes I am, I've used fire jets a couple of times..."

We got stuck in midair. I couldn't get the fire jets back on.

"Well at least we're not falling... "

Cartoon gravity proceeds to kick in and we smack into the middle of the street. We make a large crater but there were no cars. Fortunately she didn't seem irritated by the crash that she caused by making me lose confidence, but it doesn't seem like she appreciated my brand of flying. She said something about the vampires not mattering, apparently the lazy angels had finally gotten around to fighting them or it just wasn't worth chasing that train because it probably wasn't going to turn up again at this point anyway

Manei said something about going to subway. Apparently it was inspired by how me and S always like to go to subway together IWL. I opened the door of a random building (I think it was a church or some kind of house of worship) and expected there to be a subway. There was a fantastically gigantic line however. By swiping my hand over the crowd I was able to erase them and pretty much empty the store. (I think there was a few people left.) I rubbed my hands together, but it added no clarity to the dream.

I remember I jumped over all of the waiting line ropes (there were a lot of them.) She bought all the food though and said something about her mother working here. She seemed really proud of that fact, and I didn't want to rain on her little parade by telling her that working at subway isn't much of an accomplishment. We sat down at the table in the corner and she brought the food. I think she got a personal pizza for herself and a sub for me. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary. I figured she'd know my sub given that she is in essence just an aspect of me.

Everything seemed normal. While wrapped up the sub seemed normal sized but when I unwrapped it it was miniscule, like a little one or two bite sandwich. (I know I'm not a big eater IWL, but this is ridiculous.) I bit into it and it was particularly bland, even as far as dream food goes. She sensed my frustration and agreed to trade me the remainder of the tiny sub for some of her pizza (that was now like a full size pizza). But first she took a branch that I vaugely remember her picking just before we went inside and pulled off all the little pink flowers that were on it and put them on the pizza. I commented something about that not tasting good and she said that she would just have the whole pizza for herself then. I woke up.

Bed: ~23.30
Wake up: all the time, cause I'm taking care of my sick girlfriend
Now: 07.05

Dejavu
I'm in my old student home, on the top floor, together with my girlfriend. I'm just visiting I guess. For some reason I go downstairs. My old room is there, with two thrash bags in front of the door. Really? They [old housemates] put them there instead of just throwing them out. There are flies circling the bags. I go into the kitchen. There are several trash bags right in the middle. There are flies circling them and the number of flies increases quickly. I exit the kitchen and go back to the upper floor. I don't remember the transitions from second to first floor and back occurring (i.e. climbing the stairs).

I'm outside with my girlfriend. We're on our way to the city centre of my student city. She has something in mind and I have no clue what it is. We enter a weird looking subway station [that city doesn't have a subway]. We don't check in and I'm wondering if we should, to avoid a fine. There's someone up ahead checking if you checked in, but we take a left down a hallway. She's walking quite a bit in front of me, to my annoyance. I'm trying to ask her where we're going, but she's pretty much jut ignoring me. We're going up a set of stairs, I think with a purple railing. There are some people coming down as well. We're walking on the right side. I'm silently saying 'goddamnit' cause my girlfriend is way ahead and not letting me in on the plan. We arrive somewhere at a door. A white guy opens the door and tells us we need an invite [happened in the movie I was watching before going to bed]. I'm somehow allowed to enter. My girlfriend stays outside for a bit. The guy asks me a question (what I'm doing here I guess?) and I'm not sure. I decide to let my girlfriend in. When I open the door, immediately to the right there's a white couple making out. My girlfriend is the only other one standing there, not even a metre away from the couple. She comes inside. Apparently this is an apartment she came to check out. She'll be living with two white guys if she decides to take the room. The other guy is lying on the couch, talking in an eastern European sounding language on the phone. I look out of the window. I can see a lot of typical old Dutch buildings standing in a line. This place looks great and is in the city centre. I wish I had taken the effort to check around when I lived in this city. But then again, it would've been a waste of the fees I paid to change rooms. Suddenly my girlfriend is behind the other guy in terms of distance from me. I think she went into the room and I wonder how she did it so quickly. I see a door to my left. Then I realise that she is just also on the couch, or a similar object, but just further to the back. In the next moment, she is cuddling up with the guy. She's sitting on his lap. This is... weird. I had a dream just like this recently [no I didn't]. Dejavu moment. I realise this might be a dream and try to push my fingers through my palm. Success! Ok, take it easy. You should stabilise. I continue moving my fingers around in my hand a bit, while wondering what I should do with my lucidity. I consider tinkering with the gravity. Naaahh. My girlfriend comes standing next to me and starts trying to distract. I consider building a cell out of thin air to trap her in, so she won't distract me anymore.

Chicks with dicks
Had a weird dream where I was reading an article and there was a term in there I didn't know. I figured the term would be NSFW, so I went into private mode. I searched for it and I landed on a tube site. From the look of the previews, the term referred to women who have two penises. I scrolled through it a bit, in a sense of revulsion mixed with curiosity.

AP: We went to bed about 30 minutes early last night, about 9:30. So I tried a new technique of visualization. I laid down on my back keeping still, prayed, did a breathing exercise & used a protection of light all around my body. I changed the way I clear my chakra's by visualizing them spin & sent the negative energies away from my body w/ a stream of bright light, there's more to it than that but I'd have to use a diagram & I'm just not going to. I also added a visual walk through of a place that I would like to use in a lucid dream. I visualized the 9 & 3/4 challenge. I also asked in my head that I'd like to meet my spirit guides. Personally I think all of these things just prepare me for more lucid dreams..... With that being said I also did the mantra's like: I will have a lucid dream tonight. I will remember my lucid dreams tonight. I will astral project tonight. I will meet my spirit guides tonight. I will remember to ask for help from my spirit guide's in my dreams tonight. You get the idea. On week nights I usually stay up & read but my allergies were really bad last night & I felt a tingle on my lip & because I have an event soon, I took my meds to stave off any cold sores..... Ok, here's where things get weird. I frequently have my husband snore next to me when I'm trying to get into a state of paralysis & I'm always trying to telepathically tell him to stop before I actually bother him. I've been doing this for the last couple of months & also hoping maybe I can astral project w/ him even though he doesn't even practice lucid dreaming, because he gets about 4-5 hrs of sleep a night during the week. I have told him all of this so he won't be freaked out if this was to ever happen... It's just a quirky thing I do. But last night I was doing my meditation & it seemed like I irritated him, like he heard me twice in a row because he jumped & mumbled. After this I finished my routine & drifted into a dream, just a normal dream & woke up from it but my body started the vibrations & sound.I was in a state of sleep paralysis but I didn't realize I couldn't move yet, just that I wanted it to happen. My body started to vibrate w/ the normal hum & he started to snore again so I tried to telepathically tell him to stop twice & then I figured I might just be screwed because he wouldn't stop. So I reached over to touch him but it wasn't with my real hand but my astral hand. I reached over to find that I grabbed a cold small finger. It was above his stomach. It felt not wet exactly but like your hands feel when you get out the bathtub or pool kind of wet but really cold.... My brain reacted very fast, like my instincts & mind were trying to figure out what it was. It was like. Child, no, not child, definitely not my husband, alien, entity. I tried to yell his name twice but nothing came out. And then I was being pulled out of my bed & through my house by a force, not like hands or being grabbed. It pulled me through my bedroom, dining room & into my living room to the front door. My house is small so from my bed to the front door is about 40 feet.... Again my brain did the same thing as I can see I'm about to go through my glass front door. All at once I remembered my last astral experience & I knew if I put my hand on that door I would not go through it. So when I reached the door at a good speed, I put my hand on the glass & I felt it was cold & I put my feet down & whatever entity it was went through & away. I immediately was scared for my husband & I popped back in my body & sat up in bed. I was really pissed off. I had never thought about anything attacking my husband before but I sure did then & it pissed me off. I was gonna get back into that state & go looking for it! But my husband kept snoring again & I was too distracted. Finally, I got out my books & tried to find something similar to this but I haven't yet. But now I do understand it better. I don't think it was bothering him at all. It was just messing with me. And messing with me is okay. I can deal w/ that. And no I don't know what it looked like, I can only describe the finger. I also believe I was more vulnerable than usual. I don't drink or do drugs but I did take a medication that I don't take regularly which would make me very attractive to entities. It wasn't even a feel good med, lol.


Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Explanation of details-Blue
Side Notes-Purple
Astral Projection/AP-Brown

I am in a dark room, and I am thinking about lucidity. I check my hands and become lucid without checking thoroughly. I make my way down the hallway, and look out of a window with an arched top situated on the 2nd floor of a while wall. It is beginning to snow, and appears to be midnight outside. I consider what I should do as I take in the colors, looking over the banister. I wonder how long the dream will last. I glide over the reailing toward the 2nd story window. The moonlight and darkness come through. I phase partially throught the window, and partially through the white wall. The moonlight fills the outdoor area, providing a glow filled with very small snow flakes. A tree without leaves stands in front of me as I levitate in the air, taking in my surroundings. The dream begins to fade. I wake up

I completed two Tasks of the Month last night. My lucid moment was tucked in the middle of a bunch of other dreams and I don't remember what exactly lead up to lucidity or how it faded.


I do remember that I was lucid and wanting to do the Tasks. I thought of the one to taste in my mouth whatever I had eaten last. At first I didn't think I could do this since I didn't remember eating anything in the dream. But I tried anyway. I worked my tongue around in my mouth until I noticed that I had some crackers in my mouth...mostly in my teeth, as if I had just chewed one up and swallowed most of it. It tasted like a butter cracker, and what was left was kind of smooth and slippery.

Then I decided to do the other task which was to stretch your arms and seeing how far they could reach. I noticed I was on a road or alley. I could see walls on either side of the road. They were about 20 (or more) feet apart. I figured this would work nicely. I started with my right arm I reached out toward the wall. Since I had never tired this before I wasn't sure how easy or hard this would be. I just concentrated in my hand touching the wall. I could see it getting closer until finally I could feel the wall. I pressed my hand against the wall and then held out my left hand. I did the same thing, focusing on my hand touching the other wall. It didn't take long until that hand was pressed up against the wall as well.

It didn't really feel like I was stretching, but I could see both hands on the walls that were 20 or so feet apart. So I had accomplished the task. It was cool to know that I had the ability to do that.

I've gotten a little behind again. I've been having some pretty interesting dreams, but I haven't written most of them down, so they are pretty much gone now.

I do remember a lucid dream I had a few days ago. I did two of the Tasks of the Month...from last month. I hadn't gotten on and read the new tasks yet, so in my mind I was still thinking of the tasks I never completed last month.

Dream:

I don't remember what I was doing. I may have been flying or standing on something high. I suddenly knew I was dreaming so I swooped down flying and immediately thought about completing the tasks of the month that I had been wanting to do, which were to drain the color out of something and to eat something inedible.

I landed next to a table that reminded me a little of my dad's model train table when I was little. I saw a lot of plastic items on the table. I wasn't sure what they were, but that didn't matter--I was going to drain their color. I started by focusing on this smooth rounds red thing. In just a few seconds it had faded to grey. I had known this would be easy.

I then focused on a yellow item. Then blue. Each time willing them to lose their color. I was satisfied by that point.

I then decided to look for something inedible to eat. I saw a small empty soda can, the kind that is about half as tall as the regular ones. I stuffed the whole thing in my mouth. I was glad it was not the full sized can. It took some work to crush it with my teeth. I got it condensed down quite flat...as if I had stepped on it. I kept chewing. I wondered if it would ever get small enough for me to swallow it. I was pretty sure that was required to be able to count it.

At this point I noticed the dream fading. I couldn't let that happen. I'm not sure what I did but the dream came back. I still had the can in my mouth. I continued to chew. I was happy to notice that is was finally dissolving. I felt the metal pieces in my mouth get smaller and smaller until they were gone.

I may have been talking to someone next. I think I was telling them how I am good at changing things in my dreams. I had out my left arm. I said that I would make it big. I watched it grow until it was cartoonishly large. Next I made it skinny until it almost looked like a stick figure arm.

I felt satisfied at my accomplishments.

And that's all I remember.

My husband woke me up when he went to the bathroom around 3:15 am so since I had been up reading I had just been asleep about 30 minutes or so because I laid there trying to meditate & think about how to incorporate the TOTM into my dreams after reading some of "The Untethered Soul" by Michael A. Singer.

Spoiler for Spoiler:

Dream #1- I tried again to go back to sleep & failed at the task but did have a non-lucid dream which was nice & vivid. I was in this house w/ high ceilings & was by the beach. It was a really BIG house! I was there with my grown kids & we were just hanging out. My husband was there too. It was really beautiful w/ the sun & waves rolling into the beach. We were walking on the beach & going in & out of the house like we were on vacation. We were getting all ready to go swimming & the winner of the show "The Voice" from last season was there which was weird. I told him to take his shirt off & he told me he only had 2 of them & that I had more. I told him most of my clothes don't fit me because women keep clothes from when they were really skinny just in case they lose weight. Then I realized it was weird I was asking him for the shirt & that he was actually taking his off, lol... I felt bad cuz he was a really heavy guy & probably didn't want to have it off at the beach which was why he was so hesitant. Then I realized I was dreaming & became lucid because Jordan was there & couldn't do anything to stabilize the dream because I had to pee in real life & it woke me completely up so my TOTM failed. But of course I still had to go back to sleep in order to attempt again.

Dream #2- I was dreaming this horrible dream so it may be almost classified as a nightmare in the beginning but changed later on. I was in this town but it wasn't a town, it was in this big place with the structure of isles like a "Sam's Club" so the shelves were warehouse style. There were so many people because like I said, it was like a whole town full of people in there. There were kids & parents & older people. Just all kinds of people! There were just so many of them! At some point I start to realize that the amount of people have diminished just a little bit & everyone there is still going about their lives like we were all little worker bees, so to speak. We are shelving things & pulling stuff off shelves to get them down for other people & families. It was like we were all now living in this "Sam's Club" store because something awful happened outside but I never saw any windows or cash registers. Suddenly I was noticing some jerky movements by some of the workers, kind of like when people in movies are doing shady stuff & they are looking around like they are trying to not get caught so I start to follow a couple of these people & see what is going on. When I get near them I realize that the job itself seemed to change. They were telling people to put these things in there mouths to keep them safe & someone recognizes me & tells me to put one in my mouth so I do. It's like some kind of breathing apparatus that filters stuff out of the air but you stick it in your mouth & it's about the size of a pacifier but it's a rectangle & it's yellow. But then I notice they are putting blue ones in other people's mouths & telling them the same thing but they are taking them into another room, like a storage room & the people aren't coming out. So, I look into one of these rooms & the people are dead! So I'm starting to panic but I realize I had the one that must filter stuff so I'm okay. There is a gas like substance in the air now but they are like clouds in the isles of this poisonous stuff like a fog. So I start looking for places where they have hidden these good breathing things on the shelves & it occurs to me that I'm dreaming because this is becoming all so weird, so now I'm lucid & instantly think that I'm tasting something in small doses. I start to look at my arms & realize I have got to stretch out my arms but I'm in this warehouse & I've already woke up once so I have to do the task in the warehouse for fear of waking up before I complete the task. So I do what I would do in real life if I could actually do this in this sort of situation. I start stretching my arms down the isles & I am reminded of those blow up things out in front of businesses that blown in the wind. It's a guy w/ floppy arms & legs & stuff so it briefly makes me laugh but then I see my arms are just like rubber & they don't hurt or anything but they can still detect these good breathing things some how & I pull my arm & hand back & I've got some in my hand so I go looking for people to give them too. As I'm giving them to some people I have to pull them down with me crouching on the floor because those guys who are killing people almost see me. So I give them the rest of what I have & tell them what I've saw & tell them to help other people & to try & find a safe place to hide. I then go back down a few more isles & realize there are becoming even less people in the store & there is more gas in the air now. I have to crouch down & hide behind things over & over because there are so many of these bad people killing people. Even though I'm lucid I'm thinking man this would be really bad if something like this really happened!. So I see a group of 5 people & they have a couple of little kids so I'm feeling like a super hero now with my long ass arms so I see how far I can reach without being seen. I held on to the end of an isle in case my arm does something weird & I get off balance but that didn't happen. I reached my long rubbery but light feeling arm down the isle picking up the breathing things on higher & lower shelves & I attempt to try to go to the next isle but I stop & pull my arm back. I start to think I have grabbed so many I'm going to drop them. So I pull my arm back & dispense to these people what I have start to look for more people but there are just not many people left but I do find a couple of them & explain all over again what is happening but by now they already knew & just wanted to breathe & get out of there so I stretched out my arm again but this time I made my hand larger because I was afraid this dream was going on for quite some time with me being lucid & it was starting get more foggy in there. It had a claustrophobic feeling now. But, this time since my hand was bigger I was able to hold more so I went all the way down the isle & around it & grabbed stuff off the next isle over first & then came back & grabbed from the isle I was in & I got a bigger handful this time. My arm felt different this time because it went around the corner it felt like it pulled on my shoulder more but more of an upward motion & my arm was kind of like if you had a really long ribbon but not quite that light, more like a kids lightweight jump rope but thicker & flatter. So I have these things in my hands & as I round the next corner I run right into those bad guys who are not so happy with me. But lucky for me, Meesha Cat woke me up & I didn't have to deal with them at all! Meesha is my real life Maine Coon kitty cat who likes to wake me up, each & every day except on the weekends where she wakes up my husband, lol. I also noticed that my mouth tasted like the smell of cockroach traps which was I guess how my brain computed the gas from in my dream so that's Basic Task #1 & Basic Task #2 Complete Complete!

Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Explanation of details-Blue
Side Notes-Purple

May LDs achieved / goal: 1 / 20

Most of my recall is from the time after WBTB. There was some vague stuff earlier but I did not focus on it.
edit: recalled earlier dream:
+(f) I'm in LL park (down the hill from CH, not my main park, went there rarely), and there are people there (hippies), and a sign up about how hippies created this park (and how it's for hippies?), they're talking about this

I woke around 5 hours (it was already pretty light) and had trouble returning to sleep: active mind, fantasizing, thinking about things. Started to feel a bit sorry for myself, but decided more wakefulness is good, that it leads to lucidity. All I had to do was return to sleep, and I'd get lucid. After a couple of stalled attempts at relaxation I finally dedicated myself to it and got back to sleep and dreamed.

+ I'm sitting in my CH living room on the floor in front of a chair. Long-time colleague MWP is here, and I feel a bit uncomfortable that I didn't invite him to my birthday party last time even though I usually invited him in the past [FALSE]. I turn to my left where an open camping backpack is and I deal out some cards for a game of solitaire. I have about a 4x4 grid of cards laid and and begin to "play" when all the cards lose their grip against the backpack material and all fall out of position down to the bottom of the pocket. "I hate solitaire" I say. I thumb through the cards and look at one in more detail, it is not right, I can't make out either the card's face or it's back. It becomes larger and more colorful, like a multi-colored stained glass "joker" card.

Then the scenario changes to a board game, with this large joker marker and a large ("Oscar" award-sized) statue and a narrator is describing the rules of the game "you have to guess who the (thief?) is"... (don't remember more, or transitions at this point).

+ A series of short scenes:

I'm outdoors and thinking about the experience of the athletes in the recent Russian winter Olympics and how they were saying they really enjoyed the snow, and I see some snowy hills. There are booths nearby, like for outdoor restaurant seating, and at one of them a woman has a scarf/coat draped over the back of her booth and it falls down and gets in my way, I pick it up and put it back on the booth back, she doesn't notice it, and a man (I think her husband?) also rearranges it.

Turkish car rental trick: a narrator is describing that the authorities will be notified: the trick is, if you rent a car in Turkey, you can enter other countries for just a few days for free without any visas. The tour operator is saying "it's the best deal, cheapest way to travel". I see a brochure that clearly has "Turkish" written on the cover along with some other stuff. But what people do instead is they overstay the allowed period, using the rental car policy as a way to illegally remain in a country.

Outdoors daylight at my childhood home (CH) bus stop a bunch of other people get off, including a girl in a short/tight dress and her younger brother, she has to maneuver one leg up and over a barrel and when she does I think I get a flash of her hairy pubic region. This gets my attention and my eyes follow her as she walks away down F towards the LH, I realize she's a bit chubbier than I like.

I'm walking back towards some people seated by the sliding glass door in my CH dining room. I'm specifically going to the dead woman who is seated there to thank her for her earlier assistance (!?!?). She is seated with crossed legs and her hands are folded on her legs in front of her. I lean down and put my hand on top of hers and say sincerely, "Thank you!". I'm a bit surprised when she stands up facing me very close. She's dead but I don't seem to mind, she has no eyes, basically empty brownish slits (or just very small eyes). I realize she's tall. She's as tall as I am or maybe a tad even taller. I say this. I reach up my hand and try to compare the tops of our heads to see who's taller. She's standing really close to me and is obviously interested, I'm feeling very turned on by this. I maneuver her towards the living room so I can grab her butt and pull her against me, it feels really good. I ask her in a sexy voice, "do you want to come outside with me?" She indicates yes. I then whisper some dirty talk into her ear about what I'm going to do to her.

I'm arriving at some registration place with my wife and kids. There are two places, and I remember [FALSE] that the 2nd place line is shorter and/or moves faster, so we go there. I end up needing to register by myself, and I realize I don't have all my documents with me. I need to write (or I see) a driver's license number that I think I recognize as my new driver's license number, a string of letters and digits starting with "C" (at least one 4 in there). I'm moving back to my (wife?) who's at the counters and as I do I realize my shorts have severely bunched up in my butt crack and I'm trying to to the "shaking side step" and reaching back there to pull them out but nothing I do helps they stay wedged in there. I end up leaving the place riding away looking backwards behind me in a speed boat with some hot girls around me.

+ LD #183
I arrive outside CH at night on the street, I'm standing by the stairs to the front door, I see down to my left that there is a car in the garage. In the sky I see bright stars and constellations [completely "normal", nothing spinning or moving like sometimes happens], and I get a sinking feeling when I realize that I came home without my car, that I left it at the registration place. (If my wife learns that I came home without the car I think will realize I left with the girls?).
I'll just have to go back and get it I decide. I can fly there. I wonder if I can fly and I take off flying and
realize I'm dreaming. I see my dream arms stretching out in front of me and notice the perspective is a bit odd. I'm flying up the hill and want more speed and will myself to fly faster but do not go faster. I'm flying over the driveway to some house heading for trees and the owners turn in to their driveway behind me (see the headlights on the trees?) and I resolve to fly faster. I do a "flap" with my arms as against water doing the breaststroke and this propels me faster through the air. OK, if that 's what it takes. I flap a few more times and this gets me going at medium speed which is much more to my liking. I'm expecting to see the former registration area (in the park?) up ahead and indeed there it is. There is a guy sitting at a picnic table slumped over my backpack and I pull it away from him anticipating a fight but he doesn't start one.

Spoiler for sexy time, explicit:

I sit on the picnic table and direct a nearby DC to come and give me a BJ. I spend a bit of time trying to balance attention between the action and the dream, and things stay stable but it's not all that great, so I move on. At another table I find a female toy/doll about the size of a pez dispenser and start getting a BJ from that. It's way too small (and alive? I think it said something) so I reach down and stretch it in order to make it larger and it works and now its mouth can fit over my (ahem). I notice there are some "real" girls sitting at the table leaning over and watching, there hands are stretched out reaching to me and I think woohoo here we go and I move to them and reach to them to bring them to me and

my wife wakes me up IWL so we can get ready. Argh!

Slept in a different place than usual as I was saying. This is a very good place for dreaming and lucidity. My mind did not shift into dreams at all. When I was asleep it just held the same place as I was when I awake. I was very still. I was nervous about relaxing and going of into dream cause it was a new place and I also had a killer headache all night which helped me focus my attention on the present. There were a couple of times when I knew I was asleep but was still I in the same place that I fell asleep in FA and so could have gone off into dream and explored whatever. However I was very happy just to be there and on retrospect this was very helpful. I am always saying how dreaming is not dreaming it is lucidity and here I really experienced that and I am working towards a dream goal of meditating when becoming lucid because I know all the adventures to be pointless, from a dream yoga point of view, and just reinforce bad worldly habits. The next time I am going to trust the lucidity more and do some meditation methods. Looking forward to snuggling up in my new spot again soon. And the stary sky that you and patience were talking about. TOTALLY know what you mean it is like the roof comes of my head and there is so much space and the place where I am sleeping becomes totally safe. Happy Days

I have a FA following a void state from my previous dream. I head to [S] as she gets ready in the morning. Her face looks very real, but I just got up, and something doesn't feel right, so I hand RC. My hands look fine, but something still feels strange, so I nose plug and become lucid. I turn around and decide to head to a brighter environment. I look through the blinds and think "Marlboro...again". The colors are incredibly bright and vivid. The brilliant green and perfection of the grass fascinates me. I see the stone diving board on the edge of what resembles a body of water/simming pool. This area is right up against the grass. I jump out of the window and slowly glide out into the environment. I decide to shift focus to a dream goal. I try to conjure a 'lucidity orb'. No luck, and I'm on the ground at this point. I then try to conjure a stability orb to see if it could help stabilize the dream. No luck with this either. I decide to hold off on other dream goals as I feel teleporting/phasing may make the dream unstable. I want to see how long I can stay in the environment. I have the thought that it's amazing how natural LDers could experience this on many nights. I then think I can't wait to tell my brother about this one. I make my way back up into the air to get a more aerial view - the yard is very expansive. I make my way around a group of trees to the left. The yellows and pinks are simply amazing and appear as vivid as real life. I see a tall black light on the edge of the grass near the trees which is extremely realistic and similar to the one in WL. As I fly my way around these trees I repeat "You've got to be kidding me" as everything appears so super-real. In the moment I find it hard to believe this state exists. The dream feel very stable. I see a shed structure with two trees off in the distance, and I fly in this general direction. The shed structure is a light brown color. Around this point the dream feels as though it is beginning to fade. I quickly come back to WL and do a quick state check for gravity before adjusting anything. It feels like I'm truly awake so I open my eyes and hand RC. I turn to my dog, laughing, and say "You've got to be kidding me, Maya" .

I have a FA and something feels strange. I can't see my hands well, so I nose plug and I'm lucid. The room is very dark, so I continue on to the next. I see that there is a small riffle in the covers of the bed in the next room, as though someone small may be lying there. I become curious to see who is there and pull the sheets back. I don't see a head, and see small clothing, but cannot tell if there is a body inside. I turn away from the bed and head to the window to change the scene. I jump through and fall into a void/blackness which leads to a period of simply holding awareness before the dream fades. There is a strange void transition period I vaguely remember before another FA occurs.