lucid

5:15 I'm battling monsters, Orcs Must Die style. I'm fighting fire monsters and ice monsters. I'm able to cast a 'death hex'. I do this when I'm fighting many flying jellies. The UI turns purple and everything becomes very crazy looking. When I cast the death hex the monsters counteract and cast their own version of the hex, summoning a wraith.

Later in the night. I'm in a huge house. We(?) are planning to rent it. It's good for climbing, so I climb all over it, exploring every part of it. The house seems all open plan and doesn't seem to have doors. I think it's possible to have a view in most rooms from outside of them. Some women come in after a while to have a look at the house. I'm on the very top of the house climbing on some platforms. After a while we decide not to rent the house and go outside. I see the house's exterior. It seems quite normal and uninteresting.

8:59 DILD I'm drifting in and out of consciousness and decide to become present. A bar comes into sharp focus. Wow, it feels like this is actually my reality, but I realise I'm dreaming. I'm aware of my surroundings -- I'm sat on a leather sofa in a dimly lit bar with some drink in front of me on a coffee table. I'm peripherally aware of my friends somewhere to the right by some stools. I think about manifesting a girl next to me but I start becoming aware of my real body in bed. The dreams fades quickly. I try to hold on by visualising the bar, but I've lost it and I'm back in bed.

I don't remember any of the visual content of this dream (though it was there), only thought and tactile sensations. Actually, I remember white light like a bright overcast morning, but none of the details. Then I remember 'becoming lucid' and beginning to shout 'increase lucidity', 'increase vividness', etc. which seems to work now, and then seeming to get some sort of response from the dream. But I can't remember the sense of 'wow, this is so real' that I take as the litmus test for lucidity. Notably, at some point in the dream I recall trying to strip naked, which suggests I wasn't fully lucid. If I were ever lucid in this dream, even semi-lucid, it would be an encouraging sign because unlike most I have, it happened during the night without ever waking up.

I think there was another dream that involved something about high-speed trains (my oldest dreamsign, going back to 2011 or earlier, is railway tracks).

Dream #1: non-lucid- All the details were very vivid in this dream. All the way down to cups & silverware & blankets & furniture etc. Jason & I were at college & were dating but then he turned in Bobby. We were hanging out on campus & doing normal college like stuff like eating together & romantic stuff. But then last nights dream guy became my new guy somehow & we were beginning a new romance & kissing & taking walks. I was staying in a rental w/ some other people now off campus & we were getting tired so I told him he could crash there with me. There was some weird reunion of people at my house & then the lights went dark & I sat on him.


Jason & Bobby were childhood friends of mine. The dream guy from the night before was weird.



Dream #2: non-lucid & lucid- I was at Richie's farm. But it only had very few details of the original. We were having a family reunion where I had become a permanent part of the family. There were a good 80 people or so there in the big farm house & outside. Lots of cars & trucks & other things that are normally on the farm. (Became Lucid) The details were intensely realistic & normal. Real things such as knickknacks everywhere. Everyone knew who I was & they were telling me who had had kids & married such & such & pulling out photo albums left & right. Lots of memories were going along with all of these things. This was extremely elaborate & there was a futuristic field they were showing me across the street where life had changed for all of us. It was elaborate with technologies that we don't have now for everyday life. A whole new system of farming & hovering crafts for water system & flying machines running the farm.... At this point I felt I was supposed to go back to my original families house but I was torn & really didn't want to go because of how all that turned out for me before.

Richie & her husband were one of my foster families. I was actually lived there twice. The first time I was going to go home to try & reintegrate me w/ my real family but it didn't work. I won't elaborate on that right now. I then came back after a few months but eventually I broke the rules of prom by leaving w/ my prom date from the after party. We still left amicably. I really loved them. They were good people. I even got a tattoo from one of my foster sisters (actually I put them on myself with her stuff & she gave me a dot on my shoulder to always remember here) & we went to high school for a while together in a whole other town.

Dream #3: Non-Lucid-Nightmare- I was in this house behind mine which is now a bunch of apartments. People busted in while my daughters house & these people were stealing all her shit. More very detailed stuff in it. I pulled out my phone to call the police & at some point I had to put it back cuz they almost caught me trying to call on them & they were an unsavory bunch. At the end I pulled it out & this woman just laughed at me & said "Good luck with that". Somehow she had magically took my phone which was now in her hands & fake phone was in mine. They tore out of there at that point & I woke up.

Recently I've tried not to interfere when I become lucid to work on noticing details. Apparently it's working. I've always noticed that when you try to change your dreams when you become lucid you take a big risk of losing a lot of details so I'm working on mastering details more lately.


Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Explanation of details-Blue
Side Notes-Purple
Astral Projection/AP-Brown

25.06.2016

(WILD/SSILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I woke up 4.25 hours after going to bed. I remembered right away that it was time to attempt SSILD; I got out of bed and felt extremely tired. I stayed inside my room, just walking around and staring at things. After 5 minutes I went back to bed and laid on my back. I did 4 shorts cycles, but kept getting distracted by toughts; instead of worrying about these thoughts I just let them pass by and got back to the cycles. Then I started doing the long cycles, I probably went through 1 or 2 until I noticed I was falling asleep. I switched positions to my sleeping position (laying on my stomach) and focused on hearing my sleep fan. I don't know how much time passed or whether I fell asleep and then woke up, but I started hearing the buzzing that I am all too familiar with from my WILD experiences. I started feeling the tingling in my legs, and the sound coming and going. I waited a minute or so, and then stood up from my bed.

I was in my room, it was dark and things were not arranged as they actually are. I looked at the window and was tempted to jump out and start flying but decided not to, afraid I would wake myself up. "It has been a while" I thought to my self; I opened the door and walked down the stairs. It was bit lighter downstairs. I opened the backyard door and sat on the patio couch; It was dawn and the sky had all kinds of vanilla and purple clouds. It was so mesmerizing I thought I should take a picture of it, but then realized I wouldn't have it by the time I woke up. The dream was a little bit unstable, my vision was starting to get blurry so I started rubbing my hands together. I tried to remember other stabilizing techniques but I couldn't remember any, again, "it has been a while" I thought. I decided to just observe my surroundings and everything became really sharp. I was amazed at how surreal everything looked, and caught myself laughing out of pure enjoyment. I saw my dad driving around the corner and he asked me to help him with something. I leaped over the fence and we went to the garage. I opened the garage door with Telekinesis... We started cutting lumbers and I drifted into the dream.

I had another dream after this one, and when I woke up this morning I was disappointed because I thought SSILD hadn't worked, then I realized I did have SP during the night and that helped me remember most of the dream. Since I literally got back into lucid dreaming yesterday, this is a huge success and I know I need to build up by recall, as well as review other skills such as dream stabilization, dream recall, and dream control.

I make my way out of the garage of my childhood home at night with a younger girl who is tagging along with me. We head through the open garage doors, out onto the driveway. The entire scene is covered in a light layer of snow, and the driveway is slightly iced over. The scene is at night time. We begin to slide down, yet I simply decide to fly down the slope toward the street and explain that it's easier. As I'm gliding it occurs to me, and I state that I'm dreaming. I float to the middle of the road and decide to rub hands to stabilize and focus on increasing vividness. I decide against flying again as I want to try to prolong the dream and feel flying may de-stabilize. I turn to my left and begin considering some goals to keep me anchored. I run my memory and suddenly remember my pre-bed intent to meet up with the druid guides in this dream area. I turn right once again in the area that I previously met the druids at. I spot a large house at the other side of the street and begin to head toward it. I'm interested to see who is inside, and to speak with them. I work my way across the front lawn and toward the large structure which appears a bit more like a small mansion, with slight purple coloring on the outside. I approach the massive black metal Gothic looking doors, and enter into the dark mansion. It is difficult to see, but I make out a small balcony across the way on the second story. I look up and see a small poster which appears to be colored crayons in a row. It appears very empty with limited visibility so I decide to enter back out through where I came. I keep making my way, but black walls keep reappearing, and I'm unable to exit. I transition back to my body with small vibrations.

Through visualizing and being very comfortable in bed, I watch as a long road in the countryside becomes a lucid dream. I float my hands in front of me and lose lucidity. I then focus again and re- emerge into another place, this time in New Zealand, with the beautiful Remarkables (mountains in South Island) right in front of me. We are in a hotel room, and my companion is also there. I tip the waiter 50 NZD. At the hotel room, I'm lying down on the hotel bed, pristine white sheets cover the bed. I have stabilized the dream. I do another reality check to be sure and confirm that I am dreaming. I then take a walk to the kitchen and feel like having some water. I drink some and it actually tastes quite nice. A little different, but nice. I then think of getting my magnetic card from my pocket "for the other planet" I say. Instead, I feel a white visiting card with some lettering on it that I don't remember anymore. Blue lettering on white.

Through another WILD entry, I enter a dream scene where I see lots of dream characters walking about in an observatory type dwelling. There's music playing. I meet an intelligent dream character, a woman about my age , short brown hair, and is wearing Jean shorts.
We talk.
"Where are are we"? I ask
I look outside, beautiful stars fill the sky. There's a red glow in the distance. It looks magical.
"Vancouver," she replies. "The Underground median link."
"What?", I ask.
You're from 2016 yeah? She asks.
Yes, but , which year are you and ....
"We're here after the last war broke out." she says.

Suddenly I find ourselves in a bus and another dream character from inside the bus says:
"We don't have humans on board do we?"
This remark is puzzling to me.
I hear the faint sounds of sirens.
I use dream control to make them go away. This works for a little bit.
A policeman runs up to the van and scans us over.
"You need to do your shit now, whatever it is you do" the dream character warns.
I exit.

cid;
At some point last night I woke up to hearing rain outside my window. It was coming down pretty hard ( my husband says it disn't rain last night though) When I fell back to sleep I realized I'd entered into a dream sequence and decided to go lucid. I was exhausted last night, I thought to wake myself up and write down the details but I chose not to. I just tried to recall the couple details that seemed worth remembering... But its still foggy, should have written it all down. I went lucid and flew out the bedroom window into the storm. Everything was black and white though I dream in colour most always. I entered a kind of town square where a large statue stood (the statue reminded me of a dream Id had back as a kid, it was also a storm and I was in a bedroom with bunkbeds but it was empty otherwise, the window had been open and the curtains blew in with the rain and wind. I looked out and with a flash of lightening saw a stone angel with a dagger in its hand in a garden) the statue wasn't really a focus for me because I was determined to continue my quest for a spirit guide. I didnt really speak my intentions out loud, just thought them and lightening struck. It was a bit scary actually and I said then out loud to whatever was there that it didn't have to show itself if it didn't want but what was it's name I asked. I got a name. I tried to repeat it in my head and remember it in my dream.. It was Pronounced Hi-dan.. Sounded like Hiedi but not Hiedi. I wondered if it was a feminine name or not because I'm pretty certain I feel a very masculine prescence. Anyway, then I'm in front of a turtle, and it's telling me that it's giving me this thing ( looked like an axe handle maybe but instead of an axe head it has like a cord wrapped around in a circle and there are two ends of the cord that cross at the bottom) and I'm told I can ask for something. So I asked to be successful and have a happy life. Then I think I hit deep sleep again

Strange thing happened. I was in a regular dream, and all of a sudden I was on the side of a lush green mountain with a breathtaking view of the ocean and cliffs below. I looked around and saw a bunch of my buddies from higschool, and immediately said "Guys, this is a lucid dream. We're all in a lucid dream right now. Everything you can taste, touch, smell, anything at all is not the real reality." They believed me after a little bit of protest. The weird thing is that I never did a reality check or anything, I just knew the second it began. I jumped off the cliff and flew down, guiding my friends. We landed at the bottom of the mountain where a gas station was, and I began trying things out. I did my classic tactic of screaming "lucidity boost!" but my dream characters started trying to cut me off from experimentation. A guy started flying down the road at me extremely fast as a joke but it broke my concentration and I slipped back into dream state.

This is my second entry today. First was night time, this one is morning nap.

6:40 am - 2x300mg of Alpha GPC choline
7:14 am - 2x4mg of galantamine and went to lay on the sofa

This was second time that I used my new sleep mask. I have it on very loose so I barely feel it.

woke up at 9:21, but last dream was already non-lucid

I estimate the LD chain to be 40 min long


This is only second time I took this new GM. First time it was 4mgs and 900 of Alpha GPC and didn't feel a thing. I thought maybe GM was fake or something.

Having only 1 day a week to morning nap, I'm so happy finally everything clicked in place. My state of mind, sleepiness, no noise outside. And I kept my cat from my body by a rolled up blanket between us. The other cat climbes on me anyway, but that one is my lucky charm and doesn't bother me. So I didn't feel the first cat at all, the second came out of the closet the moment I settled down on my sofa. How does he know? But he didn't stay long, maybe 10 min, then he left.

So I'm falling asleep on the sofa comfortably, only to wake up 3 times to realize my mouth is open. I hear my watch's chime at 8am (45 min into attempt) when I lower my pillows a bit. But soon after that I decide to pretty much end it and I turned to my left side. I never had a lucid on my side since my first few 4 years ago. I realize that and I think "well, it will be what will be".

Next thing I know I realize I'm dreaming. I had a few things planned while I was falling asleep.

1. Attempting to go to the Moon again. I failed every time before, but I realized that I scored some pretty amazing lucids even if I never got to the Moon, just by wanting to go there and what happened on the way there.
2. Seeing Ophelia again
3. June TOTM
- pull something out of your butt
- erase a 3D objects while looking at it
- find crystal, animal or plant and ask someone what's it called
- jump in the dryer and discover where lost socks go

Next 40 min was a mix of LDs and me laying in bed after LD was over, thinking I'll just wait there for another one, keeping the TV on so when I see it I know I'm dreaming, realizing I can see and getting up from the sofa numerous times. (All this while asleep) I got out of my room throug window, door, window covered with mosquito net... I paused once to marvel at how my room looks the same as in waking life, even reflecting my latest rearangement of furniture. Ofc this turned out to be not the way it's in WL, haha. Most of the time I was aware of my head rush/cold spot on top back of my head that humms to life when I'm transitioning or in a WILD. I realized domewhere along the way that this is going on already for quite a while and that I'm not waking up, even when I kinda expected to. But I also know that I can have a long ones, so I was not worried.

I was doing these things, in no particular order

1. going to the Moon by flying vertically straight up, passing electrical wires, wanting to hop on a roof and use it as a launch pad, more electrical wires

2. another Moon attempt later on

3. flying through a distribution yard with crates and trucks full of vegetables
here is where I decided to try and erase a crate - I moved my arm like an erasor, but the damn thing would not budge.
I decided not to look for the washing machine or dryer, because didn't want to lose lucidity.

4. later on attempted to erase a whole truck pulling 2 trailers full of vegetable crates - I just wished it to disappear, but nothing

5. tried to pull something out of my butt, but all I managed to put in there was my thumb. I was thinking well how am I gonna pinch what I find to pull it out? Anyway, there was nothing to pinch. I was thinking "well at least that gross thing the other member pulled out". But no, not even that. Then I thought next time I need to use some tool, like kitchen tongues or something and I tried to figure out the logistics of it

6. I'm walking to the river near a place I used to live. I'm in a mood for some action, so I decide to take my top off. It comes of half way, then i can't take it off all the way. But I manage to take my bottoms off, after a brief struggle. I resolve to practice that in WL some more. Some girls come along and wouldn't mind, then some boys. Then a damn government drone shows up and everybody scatters. I sneak home hiding behind some flower and weed bushes.

Non lucid thought about OP and infinitelly sad that she left, when I realize another friend of mine left as well.

Bedtime:
10:00pm
WBTB:
4:00 am
Wakeup:
7:00am

Dream 1
I'm at my parent's house in my room (thought it looks different than IRL) and there is a bag with some stuff in it, looks like meat patties and potatoes, but when I open it up, there's a bunch of dead bats in it as well. These bats are huge, not just regular small bats. They spill out all over the floor, it's totally repulsive. I think there were some crazy weird beetles, too. I pick up the bats with something other than my hands, I can't remember what I was using, but I didn't want to touch them. I remember their wings were so strange. They were very large and the bones in the wings were as long as drumsticks. When I put them into a new garbage bag, the wings would poke out of the sides. It was a really disturbing image. Now that I'm awake, I feel bad for these little guys, but in the dream I was scared out of my mind.

Dream 2
I spent the night in a backyard (not sure who's house it was), in this weird metal spacecraft looking thing. The whole night I was drifting in and out of sleep, and in between sleeps I was listening to the Beatles on an iPod, but they were old songs I've never heard before. Finally, around 5am, I woke up and ran into the house. I think I can remember my mom saying I needed to drive to her house, so I did.

WBTB: I didn't attempt to WILD, but I did do a bit of positive thinking and mental prep for a MILD. It worked!!

Dream 3
I am in a restaurant, and there's all these really hot guys there. We're all eating together, and then the next thing I know we're all lying down on the table, and it feels like an orgy is happening but everyone has their clothes on. I'm not really participating, but someone is holding my hand. The next thing I remember, I'm standing up and I hold my hands out with my palms facing down and push, which causes me to levitate. I'm not lucid, but I think I must have been sort of semi lucid, because I remember thinking "is this going to work?" and it worked very well. Everyone was staring at me floating there in the middle of the room.
Then there is a break in the dream where I can't remember what happened, but the next thing I know, everyone including me are wearing tuxedos and we're running through the mall (this restaurant was in the mall). I'm with this one guy and we're trying to find a place to "be alone" , while everyone else is running for different reasons I think. We find a gymnasium full of guys playing basketball, and I tell the one I'm with that I'm going to use a Jedi mind trick to make them all leave. In my head I'm not sure if it will really work, but we get in there and I snap my fingers. The guys all start to leave but they're giving me dirty looks. I turn to the guy I'm with and all of a sudden he looks completely different. He's like this small mousey kid and he also looks mad at me and runs away. I run back out into the mall and meet up with another one of the guys from the restaurant. I tell him I can levitate, and I try it again but it doesn't work. He says, "Try looking up at the sky when you do it," I try this and it works for a few seconds. Then we reach these glass doors guarded by two guys (who are also in tuxedos), and they say we have to wait 20 minutes before we can go through. I tell one of the guards he needs a haircut. Somehow they get distracted and we run through the doors. The guards start chasing us. I'm with a larger group of people now, and we're running toward these huge marble columns. I know my best option is to slide down them. I reach the columns and look down. It's a 3 story drop, and I say to myself "I can't do this, I can't do this..." I remember thinking I could try to manifest a feather bed at the bottom, but I know I could still get hurt. Then out of nowhere, I become lucid. Like completely full on lucid. I say "I'm dreaming! This is a dream!" I grab onto the marble column and prepare to slide down. I notice how real everything feels. It really was just like waking life. I realize I haven't done a reality check, and sliding down a marble column could be a really dangerous way to figure out if I'm dreaming, but I really felt that it was a dream and I didn't have time to check so I began my descent. There were little decorative holes in the column that I used to quickly scale down, and everyone followed me. Once we reached the bottom I almost punched one of the guards in the face, but since I was dreaming I decided what's the point. I was so excited to be lucid, but everything started to fade to black. I reached out my hands to touch something but it was too late.

I was in this black void. I tried to open my eyes but they were like glued shut. So I kept them shut and tried to stay very still. I felt still very connected to the dream world. But nothing was manifesting so I opened them, and I was in my room. I should have done a RC, because this turned out to be a FA, but I wasn't lucid anymore and was just so excited, I remember jumping up and down on my bed and clapping my hands. Then I woke up IRL and tagged it all in my DJ.

Dream 4
I was going to the mall with my sister. We pulled up to the front in the car, and there was a car in front of the door, but no one was in it. A little dog was sticking his head out of the driver side window, so I got out and pet his head while I waited. Then the driver, an angry transgendered woman, came out and glared at me. I told her I was sorry for touching her dog and she was really pissed. She dropped her scarf and I picked it up for her, and she was like "yeah..." like it was my fault she dropped it or something. Then she left and I dropped my sister off, then I parked the car. While inside, I saw my high school biology teacher, and we talked for a bit. Then my sister and I went to Sears and had all these coupons. There was a man who was following us and he kept taking our cart every time we'd step away to grab something. I needed new work shoes but couldn't find the ones I was looking for.

0:45 bedtime
2:00 still awake, take 2mg melatonin

+ (f, vague, impression) football?

+ read address outside home (3615), happy that now I finally have the address of my old school BF, I try to read address again and it is fuzzy I cannot see any digits. Closeup of some meat dish cooking in a brown sauce. I'm looking at it for some while. Some part of this is from McDonald's and I'm surprised because my friend is a gourmet.

+(f) with a guy in a garage looking at toys/games/objects?

+ baby, laugh/tickle, dogs nuzzle faces unknown pug and old dog L (CH kitchen?), rash on baby, I get rash on hands, to go mirror, friend in the way, "I'm waiting for the sink!" he has cross/chains in hand?, look in mirror, face wrong/puffy, upset that nobody told me I had a puffy face, my eyes are too squinted/closed, I try to pry them open back to regular shape [DAY RESIDUE, mirror dream yoga exercise]

wake, can't believe I missed the mirror scenario, BTS

+ LD#190 mirror [first LD from mirror check!]. I'm walking quickly through a garage heading for the door to the kitchen, I do a sudden double-take (I walked by a mirror?), stop and look at my face in a mirror with my left hand grasping the door frame into the kitchen, see my face is like the previous dream (wrong face/puffy), and get lucid. I walk into the kitchen, there's a girl there. I do a short pat-down lucid ritual, then I immediately hold out my hand to blast her with lightning (yay!). At first nothing comes out but then some tendrils/tube of energy forms from my hand running towards her. She sends a blast back at me (?) and they meet in the middle (?). Another girl and an older woman enter the kitchen, I try to ignore them. I then approach the woman/girl, getting a quick kiss from the first girl as I walk by her. Then I'm trying to rip the clothes off one of the girls with TK with my "be naked" gesture. It doesn't work, I try it repeatedly. The original girl is naked then and I approach
and the dream fades

+ couch, blankets, construction, folding and unfolding couch, talking about it

+ I'm walking through the lobby of some hotel heading for an upper floor. There are various female clerks behind counters. I'm heading for the stairs, then "remember" [FALSE] that there are elevators around a corner through a hallway. I head to there but the walls of the corridor narrow to about 1/2 a person's width [DREAM SIGN], I can't get through so return. I'm looking for another elevator when a female staff member says I do not have access?

+ hot MILF doubletake (boobs), cloth/rope ladder (will it take my weight?) to 2nd floor of shop, stuck on ladder, stuck getting out finally claw my way out with help of (hot MILF?)

I wake up in my bed early in the morning.....or rather, I think I wake up in my bed. I decide to do a reality check on my RC tattoo on my arm before going back to sleep (it did not occur to me that it was dark and I wouldn't be able to see it). When I look at my arm, my tattoo is glowing and does not say "Dream" like it's supposed to. I am shocked to realize this is a false awakening and I am now fully lucid! Excited to be in my real bedroom, I carefully climb out of bed trying not to wake myself up. I decide to exit out my bedroom window to go explore.

Outside, the scene is clear and gorgeous! The sky is lit up with swirling stars and colors, and I see fish swimming in the air. I feel awestruck by how beautiful it is. I remember that I set a goal last night to stop and sit down in my next lucid dream (I usually can't seem to stop myself from moving forward constantly when lucid). I find a log to sit down on, feeling confident in my ability to relax and fully enjoy the beauty around me. One of the fish approaches me and I hold out my hand to greet it. It lands in the palm of my hand. It is large, black and brown, and has large, expressive lips. I say hello and it says hello back. I am thrilled by the idea of taking to a flying fish, but I suddenly wake up before the conversation can go further.

Dream 1: Non-lucid, then Lucid- I was in an Aldis store but instead of it being just isles like the grocery store only it had storage spaces, elevators & escalators. The parking lot was really vast & had valet's & a parking garage. My oldest friend Christian was there & I was so surprised that he was there.. I became lucid because there was no way any of this was possible. I knew he lives so far away & that this Aldis was some kind of futuristic thing. It all screamed technology that just isn't there yet. I didn't have enough money for the valet & he saved me from the embarrassment & paid the valet. Then the dream turned into a birthday party for Christian (not the one I really attended as a child but very very close) & then I woke up. Then the chaining began.

Dream 2: non-lucid, then lucid- I went to the bathroom & came back & laid back down & started with Christian being there & then he was gone & I was on this sailboat. It was so detailed! It was glamorous & the guy on the boat was not someone from my real life. I was trying to take a bath but he kept wanting to know what was taking so long. I was trying to masturbate, lol. In real life I would never try to do this in the bathtub cuz it just isn't comfortable, lol. But in dreams I frequently have pent up sexual energy. Then I was lucid cuz I new the scenario was crazy. Finally I came out & we were just living a life on the boat. We were sailing along like this was just an every day thing in this glamorous lifestyle. I awoke again & went straight into the next dream.


Dream 3: Non-lucid, then lucid- I was on our main street drag here in my town but it had different things from different places I've lived in. I had 3 kids & we were enjoying the day because there were vendors & a couple of rides like a small carnival was going on. It was extremely vivid. Then I realized the guy I was with took my kids & I was frantically asking people from the booths to help me. First they finally gave me an old rotary dial phone but it wouldn't call anyone. Then some of the people thought I was crazy. I realized that about half a mile away up a hill that actually looked like our main street here that there was a bigger carnival going on. I became lucid (DILD) & wasn't upset about the kids like before. Instead I started walking towards the carnival with curiosity because it looked so pretty. I went & walked around the fair grounds & just enjoyed the place with all of it's rides. I was noticing that some of it reminded me of a lucid dream I had had a crazy long time ago when I was in middle school. It reminded me yet again that I had spent so many hours as a kid sleeping. I used to sleep to escape my real world where so many things had gone wrong. My happy family wasn't happy anymore & I was acting out. I loved to be up at night & sleep after school & have these amazing lucid dreams. Everyone said I was sleeping because I was depressed & it used to drive my mom crazy. I was depressed but the dreams were a really great escape & now I understand them better.




Yesterday was a long hard day which left me worried for my mother n law. We had to go one town over because she is just so confused about her thermostat & had it on 45 & is froze up. It could actually catch on fire. I know this cuz my own house caught on fire a few years ago because of my Central Air Unit & I just recently got the air back. Was only able to afford the heat at first. Anyway I'm worried she's gonna burn down her house in an array of possible ways. Dreading going back today because I'm going to need to break down & call my sister n law & initiate a conversation about what the next step is with her. I have a heavy heart right now. It's my husband's mom but since his dad died around 10 or 11 yrs ago he's rather indifferent to the whole thing.


When I first tried to go to sleep I tried to go to sleep listening to a new lucid dream binaural beats from YouTube. Waste of time & sleep. So when my husband woke up at 2:13 I just sat up & started surfing the net on my phone reading random article's that I hadn't come across before & when he went to work I went to sleep which attributed to today's list of dreams.



Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Explanation of details-Blue
Side Notes-Purple
Astral Projection/AP-Brown

I'm sitting across from a DC at a desk. The character is a female and appears to be an office worker of some sort. We don't talk at this point, but something starts to feel strange, and I say "I'm dreaming" as my awareness comes through. Simultaneously, my visuals begin to deteriorate to very blurry, then to void. However, I maintain my tactile sense in the dream by sticking my hand out and feeling the DC's face as the visuals wane. I maintain stability in the dream scene, feeling the shape and texture. At this time, something strange occurs that hasn't happened to me before: I feel as though my mind is divided between the dream I'm exiting, and either waking life, FA, or void (difficult to tell). I get the vague sense that I'm beginning to feel a body in another location simultaneously. I lose my awareness, and can't account for the following scene.

Bed: 23.00
Wake up: ~07.40 (and several times in the night and morning)
Now: 07.55

Lucid vacuum
I had a lucid that was very similar to my previous one. I remember absolutely nothing about the context. As far as I can recall, I'm in a white vacuum. I push my fingers through my hand to verify that I'm dreaming and it succeeds. There's a tingling sensation. Next I want to stabilise the dream, but I have my eyes closed. There are no details whatsoever to ground myself in. I try to rotate, to get some sensation going. I think I also try to open my eyes. With both of those moves I wonder how this is currently affecting my real body in bed. I wonder if I'm now raising my arm or something like that and whether if I try to open my eyes in the dream, I will open them in reality and wake up.

Open window
I'm going to the toilet/shower, which turns out to be quite disgusting. I decide I don't want to shower right now. I'll wait until the other shower is free. I walk back to my room. It's an attic room it seems. There's a window open that's near to the ground. If you fall out, which is very possible, you drop perhaps 10 metres down, into the neighbour's garden. There's some stuff dangerously close to the edge. My Mac, my girlfriend's Mac and some papers and I think her sweater. I start moving stuff away from the edge. Suddenly, it all just starts moving towards the edge. Fuck fuck fuck. I start pushing everything back with my foot, while simultaneously trying to not fall out myself. There's too much stuff, I can't handle it. I shout for help. My voice is quite hoarse. I think a guy comes to help me in the end.

Tipsy
I enter a cafe that's under construction, at least the terrace outside seems to be. There are 6 tables. At the far end I spot either the singer Ras Muhamad, my friend Tim T. or my dreadlock guy. I think it alternates a bit who's sitting there. I walk up the stairs instead, going to the 1st floor terrace. It's a bit awkward, cause I'm not sure whether I should acknowledge my friend. In the end, I decide to wait halfway up the winding stairs to see if he follows. I start seeing his feet, so I go up to grab what is supposed to be my beer and come down again. Probably not wise to drink beer out in the open during Ramadhan. It's in a Cola glass though. Plus.. this is not beer I guess. What is it? It has alcohol in it for sure. Just after standing on the ground, so after stepping off the stairs, I wobble a bit. I can feel that I'm tipsy. We sit down at another table that's occupied by a white Dutch guy and someone else. He says he remembers me from somewhere. Yeah.. we met yesterday evening, that's why.


Fragments
» I'm at what seems to be the Indonesian embassy with my aunt. She wants to go to Indonesia. I've already gotten my visa arranged. I tell her a bit about how it works. Then I ask her what she wants to do in Indonesia. She tells me that she wants to go snorkelling or diving. I react surprised. Her? Anyways, if she intends to stay for just one month or less she doesn't even need a visa.

» I'm at a food vendor's stall. He's pouring some soup into a bowl for me. He asks me whether I want bakso or tahu. I think about it for a while and then answer with bakso. I consider it a weird question.

» I met up with my friend Sat. Later on I'm driving a motor and it is just so incredibly slow. Then I realise that Sat and I switched bikes. Damnit. He must be enjoying himself right now. I want to switch asap.

» At first I'm with a number of people. Eventually I'm just with the little sister (~20) of a friend of mine [he doesn't have a little sister]. We take either an angkot or a taxi to wherever it is we're going. She tries to make a move on me, first being subtle and eventually placing her hand on my crotch. I refuse to give in the whole time, as she is my friend's little sister. She's making it difficult for me to resist once she places her hand on my crotch though.

» I'm with a group of friends and we decide to go bowling. We're at the bowling alley and one of us has a coupon card that will allow us to play for free. That person tries to scan it, but the card is refused. Apparently it won't work because it's already past 21:00. I see a black analogue clock somewhere, indicating the same. The card is valid for 2 hours, so there's not enough time for us to use all the credit. I consider whether it would work if we would split the credit over 2 lanes, considering that we're with a group of 10 orso people.

» I just went to the dentist, who in reality was my physical therapist. When I look into the mirror, I see that he has placed a humongous thing on one of my upper front teeth. What the hell. After a while it comes off and I go back to ask him about it. Apparently it was supposed to stick for 9,5 hours. Well.. that didn't happen. In the mean time a black woman is arguing in the office with.. the white, female assistant? It's about the expenses of her son's upcoming treatment, which she can't afford. It's turned into a shouting match.

» I'm walking on the street and meet a girl I went out with twice, several years ago. She's the centre of attention of 3 or so guys and she is willingly handing out her number. I make a comment about her being easy about it. Eventually we talk a short bit, and we decide we need to exchange numbers. She still has mine. Perfect.