lucid

I was a thief... I lived in city that looked like ancient Bratislava... there were rails for wagons pulled by horses... Streets were made of coble stones... I had stolen things for living... small things. It wasn't comfortable life.
I seemed to like to provoke policemen to try to catch me. I liked those runs... feelings of danger... policemen didn't like me and they shout at me that they will catch me very soon. Yet, I was very fast. I was running and all but one young policeman were left far behind. I was running, my long hair was flowing behind me, fluttering because I ran so fast... then I started to wonder... how it is possible that I dont feel tired?
This is a dream! I enjoyed the run even more after that realization. That young raven haired policeman was very sympatic to me, I felt to be attracted to him (not sexually, I'm not bend that way, yet there was something on him...) I told him that there is a slope downwards, that we should accelerate our run... We laughed as we ran. But there was no slope downward. It was something like very deep water well... circular, with walls made from coble stones like the street. And we fell into it. A few tens of meters. As I was falling my legs were runing in the air, till I submerged into dirty water on the bottom of well. I surfaced right beside policeman. There was ladder close to me. I helped him to that ladder and we climb up. I waked up after that.

Remarks
It was very nice run. I felt so light...
I obtained lucidity in the middle of dream, yet I decided to run, since I liked it so much.
Dream looked like it was set into at least 100 years into past, maybe 150... but policemen had present time uniforms... but no weapons.

D1 - The person of my dreams is there again. Somebody else, who I know from work was starting to use the technique to get to the portal again to visit the other world but they lady said no. That no one but me was allowed to visit hahahahaa

D2 - Someone I know seems to be some kind of army ninja and is planning on killing three people who are standing in a line.
No one gets hurt but it seems its the beginning of a mission.

D3 - Continued from dream 2 We know we are being chased and must escape the island.
On an Island in a hot country, could be Greece idk, it is heavily wooded and fairly mountainous.
I need to get across a wide canyon. I can see the other side but the drop down from cliffs is way to high.
We are staying in an old manor house, white. We decide to make a break for it but don't know where the enemy is. Running down a steep road. which is cut into the mountain, we walk trying to take shelter from the mountain side, it is thickly forested higher up.
It has recently rained and the road is dark with water, still cloudy and overcast.
Shots are fired from out of nowhere, we are pinned down. But make a break for it again.
I close my eyes to use my powers to see what is ahead, at the bottom of the cliffs that we have to get too.
Sure enough, I see the cliffs and caves towering above and I am at the shoreline, with waves coming up to my ankles.
I see first one monster, green and round appear, then another. I was right there are many enemies around! Oo

I open my eyes, and wonder for a second what to do.
But only for a second as I feel something cool touching and slipping round to the front of my throat.

Spoiler for Tiny lucid:

Suddenly everything becomes super vibrant in the dream, I can feel the sensations super heightened,
Omg i'm dreaming, I need to get out of this dream, I think...
But then I am curious about my assaliant, I think they have a cool blade against my neck, ready to cut.
My every nerve ending is on edge, and I can feel the warm pulse in my neck.
I brace myself and try and arch back my neck to see my attacker.
My heart stops it is the woman from all my dreams, it was not a knife, but as feel and see it in my minds eye, it is her fingers on my neck. I arch back further to look at her more fully, her beautiful dark hair wet from the rain, her eyes so entrancing.
My heart quickens, and I reach further, she draws near, I can feel her breath and in this awkward position she covers my lips with my own straining ones and we kiss oh so breifly but
electricity shoots up my spine, turning my rigid, then a warm golden syrup energy envelopes me soaking down my body.
I am wrapped in her protecting energy.
I lose lucidity as we escape and the rest is kind of blurry. I wake up very quickly

I totally bliss out, and it is so warm and wonderful. Then I go back to sleep and wake up smiley and have a funny sync on waking.
The radio says my name, then cuts to another caller who says hello in a language she speaks. hahahahaa thank you universe I owe you one

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A big dream sign is kids from my class at school LMAO!!

I am in the bathroom of a small apartment looking into the mirror. My reflection is nearly a perfect recreation of my face in real life. However, my eyes have bigger pupils and silver/gray irises that have a slight glow. I realize that this can't be real, and I become lucid. I turn and make my way to the interior of the apartment. I enter a small corridor area which is the kitchen. Sunlight comes in through the windows in front of me. I make a right and continue down the narrow kitchen and turn left to head out the back door into a two story alley way outside. I end up on the orange awnings on either side of the alley way, making their way up each level to the roof. I reason that I may collapse the dream by entering a portal at this time, and decide to climb as I am having a bit restricted from flying. I begin climbing the awnings. I begin thinking about dream control, and some of the DV audio and posts. I feel the incredibly detailed ribbed texture of the awnings in order to stabilize the dream a bit more. I make my way to the roof level, climb up and look left. A brilliant white light begins small in the center of my vision and grows quickly. The void comes at this point and I decide that I'm going to do a zazen meditation as this state seems to resonate most with the voids I experience. I hold this state of conscentration for ~30-40 secons, then I wake up.

I'm in a jail yard at night by some guards on the ground. Something begins to feel strange. I become lucid, and levitate upward ~50-60 feet and look down at the guards and to the right to see the two story concrete prison. The scene takes place in the middle of the night, and roughly a dozen guards are spread throughout the fenced-in entrace area. Concrete stairs lead up to the first floor of the prison. Protrusions of concrete surround the windows to each of the high windows. I think back to my induction technique, and decide to float back down to the ground. I tell the guards the won't be able to continue approaching me. I turn around and head toward the massive two story gate made out of chain link. As I approach the massive gate the dream becomes unstable, and I quickly wake up.

Ritual: WTB 1am, woke 8:30am after spontaneous DILD.

In the course of an NLD, I was changing clothes in my bedroom when I spontaneously realized I was dreaming. I decided I shouldn't waste any more time fussing with clothes and instead get to work on the next task I had prioritized: the Fairy Circle TOTY. Glancing at myself in the mirror, still partially undressed, I headed outside.

I wondered if the dream would let me pass through the sliding door to the patio without obstruction, but instead I found myself exerting what almost felt like a realistic level of force to open it. Once outside, I didn't want to get bogged down looking for a fairy circle, so I primed my expectations. The fairy circle, it was right over here... I've seen it before. I headed right and found a nice patch of soil like a garden plot. Just as I had "expected," I saw tiny plants like seedlings growing in a distinct circular ring about five feet in diameter. At first I didn't see any mushrooms, so I reminded myself: And there were mushrooms. Looking closer, I now observed a few small mushrooms interspersed among the plants. I also saw a few smooth, bulbous growths that reminded me of the "stone plants" that had fascinated me when I was a kid. I had forgotten those even existed!

Now that the circle was adequately established, I needed to summon fairies. I knelt down and focused on the center of the ring, where the soil was bare. I noticed faint movement in a spot slightly off-center, and then the loose earth began to fall inward, as though a hole were forming beneath it. I continued to concentrate on the summoning, and then an odd formation slowly rose out of the earth until it stood about two feet high. It resembled a candelabra with at least two tiers of arms in all four directions, except instead of candles, it held small figures that I presumed were the fairies. I reached out and grabbed the one from the very top of the arrangement. It was about eight inches tall and stiff like a statuette.

I looked closely at the small figure in my hand. She was dark-skinned with shoulder-length black hair, wearing a crimson dress with a dark green cape on her back. Her hat was the same crimson as her dress, but in form it resembled a Santa hat, with a white fuzzy brim and a white pompom at the end of the conical tip that draped behind her. Attached to the toes of her green shoes were round bells, both silver and green. I thought the overall impression was really cheesy, not at all how I would have preferred to imagine a fairy! There was one more incongruous detail: her face was contorted with an expression of unmistakable anger.

I was tempted to ask her name, but remembered how pointless and distracting this line of questioning can become, so I should get straight to my real question: "What is your secret?"

Her response was both unexpected and chilling: "It is evil." She sounded as furious as she looked.

"What is?" I asked, utterly perplexed.

I can't recall her initial response, but it did not resolve my confusion. I decided to be more specific: "When you said, 'It is evil,' what did you mean by 'it'?"

She said a few more things that I don't recall, and then a line that struck me clearly: "The evil of a controlled substance is the substance."

This was even more confusing. I hardly ever use controlled substances, at least not illegal ones, so I didn't understand how this could be relevant. Moreover, I disagreed with her stated position: in my view, the main evil of a controlled substance is the social strictures that punish people for possessing or using it.

"Why did you bury amphetamines?" the fairy pressed.

What happened next was the clearest case of false memory that I've experienced to date. With what felt like a flash of insight, I suddenly realized the probable reason she was so angry. I "remembered" something about my fairy circle—something that I'm pretty sure had not come up in the dream until the point at which I now "remembered" it, but now seemed to explain everything. I recalled that at one point I had buried a bunch of drugs inside the fairy circle, mostly amphetamines, as part of my preparations for the ritual to lure or summon the fairies. It now occurred to me that this might have caused problems within fairy society, and I felt a twinge of guilt.

I didn't think I would get any more useful information from this fairy, so I put her aside and grabbed another, this time from the side of the candelabra-like arrangement.

This fairy didn't look human at all. It looked like... a turnip? Was that the right vegetable? The white round bulb with a blush of purplish-red at the top? Yes, a turnip. I was reminded of a photograph of a white radish by Edward Weston (1886–1958) that I had seen the day before in WL. This was clearly a turnip, not a radish, but it gave me a similarly vulgar impression. If this was a fairy, it was clearly not from the upper echelon of fairy society. Or could its abject appearance be the result of too many amphetamines?

Well, here goes.

"I have a question." I said, wondering if the turnip-fairy could understand me. "The question I've come to ask is: What is your secret?"

I was still rotating the turnip in my hands as I spoke to it, uncertain which side was the appropriate one to address. How do you talk to something with no face?

I heard a male voice, faint, with the accents of a yokel, like Cletus on The Simpsons. It responded to the question in my mind, not the one I had voiced: "There is a side that says: 'Look at me'."

I realized the turnip must be trying to help me orient it properly, so I turned it until I found a round black label with white block lettering that, sure enough, said "LOOK AT ME." It was hard to make out—I missed it at first—because the label was embedded in a scene featuring the stylized profile of a man in a black cloak.

"It would be a lot easier to see if there was some white space around it," I commented about the label.

The turnip-fairy took my suggestion and the surrounding scene promptly faded, leaving the round black label with its white letters clearly discernible. I reminded the turnip that I had come to ask its secret.

I don't recall its initial answer, but I do remember my skepticism. Whatever he had said had sounded as unconvincing as the response I had gotten from the first fairy, and I assumed that he, too, might be pursuring an agenda that involved concealing the truth.

"I don't think that's your secret." I said doubtfully. "Tell me your real secret."

The tone of his response implied that I was wilfully ignoring the obvious: "Oh come on, we can't tell you that."

Even before his sentence had concluded, I was ejected from the scene and found myself standing in my bathroom. I felt like I had woken up, but wasn't sure. I briefly considered going back outside and attempting to continue the scenario, but realized I should promptly write down what had already happened. I grabbed my notepad from the bedside table, and after a bit of trouble with the pen—which I recognized as another dream sign—I started writing down what had happened. Although I realized I was probably not yet awake, I figured that even while still dreaming it could be useful to write down some initial recollections while they were fresh, and it might help me remember them better when I did wake up.

However, I hadn't gotten more than a few sentences into it when dream-writing began to feel tedious, and I was afraid I would get distracted, fall into an NLD, and lose the memories entirely, so I forced myself awake. But as soon as I grabbed my actual notepad to begin writing in WL, I realized my mistake: merely transitioning to wakefulness had dulled the memories of the dream that had been so crystal clear just before I had woken up. I wrote down everything I could still recall, but unfortunately some details of the conversations were lost.

Non-Lucid Lucid Semi-lucid

24th April 2016
I'm going to try to get back to posting my DJ's at least occasionally. No frills, just raw from my DJ (but with sexual spoilers and color added). Reverse order memory/recall (from end of experience, working backwards for transitions). End: I recite my full name and address with so much ease that I think for a second could I be awake in bed...no, I can still see the store I'm robbing. I do think for a second earlier in this scene, is there any way that because my dream image might look quite a bit like my waking self that someone in the store could report me, thinking along the lines of how Robert Waggoner believes that there may be other people in your dreams but I quickly dismiss that and it's a dream anyway so who would report something done in a dream especially something that causes no harm in the (real) world. Obviously I was getting a little bit off track and my lucidity was being challenged a little bit. Rob store, closing, darkish. So when I first was kind of pulled towards the store after flying outside in the rain at night I see at the store is somewhat dark like they're getting ready to close and I get the idea to see what it feels like to rob the store and I summon a gun and say give me all the money and there are two different cash registers counting money and they start piling the money up on the counter. It's not as fun as I thought it could be but of course I knew it was a dream and the money is meaningless. It went rather slow and boring, they put the money together matter-of-factly and I asked for a bag to put it in and I got one of those plastic grocery bags. I thought about summoning a big canvas bag but lost interest. Prior: Flying outside in the rain!! with 2 ladies. I think about how I hardly ever experienced rain in my lucid dreams and I relish the fact but I wouldn't say that the rain felt super realistic. I definitely got the sound and the visuals very realistically but not so much the water patterning off my skin. Dream pulling me where to fly. Prior: Left 3 story bank building party. Russian lady please choose a lady to come with us… chooses Shirley, Asian somewhat nerdy but cute 30 year old as I was thinking she should choose (mind suggest to her maybe). Russian best dream

Spoiler for sexual content:

bj

ever! When I fly up to the Russian looking lady with dirty blonde hair, but more blonde than not, I look into her beautiful eyes, somewhat blue and probably inspired by the beautiful young lady sitting in front of me last night iwl at the musical. I see she wants my

Spoiler for sexual content:

**** in her mouth and she is very skillful and as she continues I think this is the best BJ I've ever gotten

in Dreamland. I am so infatuated by her that I pull her face up to mine and I kiss her passionately . She has strawberry taste in her mouth probably inspired by the strawberry soap sniffed strongly while washing my hands IWL while repeating my mantra to get Lucid tonight.

Spoiler for sexual content:

Many bj's. Shirley or one of the many others I told to take a bite!..and as I stick it in I thought careful the language I use, brain's interpretation, but I quickly correct calmly and mentally with confidence, she knows to lick and suck. A young lady among many bj's gives some nice licks.

After void and attempting beach and getting some ocean water floating I see myself in a mirror across the bare room as a sexy woman in a white short simple dress. I walk up to the mirror and want to see her/me naked so

Spoiler for sexual content:

I pull up the dress to reveal white panties and then pull the dress all the way off to reveal smaller but perfect perky breasts. I pull off the panties and sit down in front of the mirror and start fingering myself which was mostly for the visual experience in the mirror. However, I then decide I want to experiment with what it feels like from the woman's perspective for intercourse and I summon a guy faceless and mostly without a body, seems midsection and penis only and I went with a size I'm familiar with, my own. It was quite pleasurable and I thought of what I was reading about full body orgasm and the experience transformed from a reverse male feeling of intercourse, the smooth wet friction of sliding in and out.

..it transformed into a ecstatic state that took me into the void again, this void felt like I wanted to stay there in the simple enjoyment for a while. (To bank party). The ocean movement void came from



**spoiler for minor schema poisoning, read at your own schema's risk:

Spoiler for minor schema poisoning, read at your own schema's risk:

flying up out of house and thinking oh the ceiling again, set my expectation and got it (used to fly through ceiling as if it weren't even there without void)

but despite feeling some weak attempts from my brain to tell me that I'm waking and feeling parts of my bed, I say not so fast and immediately feel my feet dragging along and then lifting off the bed. I knew it!...and felt a little pride. Before the ceiling phase through which seems most like it was involuntarily, I caught two FA's in my bedroom. One involved dream recall and pulling out my earplugs and noticing my ears still feel plugged and after at first thinking my ear plugs did my ears some harm thus still feeling plugged, then found that I could pull out another pair of earplugs and realized I was dreaming. And the other false Awakening I walked up to my sink and open the drawer to get a Q-tip and found that the drawer was completely empty and realized I was dreaming again. <<Beginning of Lucid period for night.


26th April 2016
Shorter LD where I am in a lady's locker room and I am basically invisible through expectation that I won't get any reaction. I create a soft pad of grass (maybe not entirely intentionally and maybe why it worked so well) to lay on inside the locker room and just relax and enjoy the beauty and variety of the female form.

I remember some things. But I mainly remember looking up at the night sky up into space thinking I wanted to go there but at the same time I didn't want to.

Preface:
I do not smoke marijuana. However, I attended a concert the night before, and almost the entire crowd was smoking. My sister and I were exposed to the second hand smoke, so I guess it was a contact high, although I didn't feel high. However, when I got home around midnight I was really hungry, lol. I had a very peaceful sleep and a lucid dream. I was pleasantly surprised. This is the longest lucid dream I've had in a long time, and though people are saying that marijuana doesn't aid in dream work, I think I might actually have to disagree. Let me reiterate that I don't smoke mj and am by no means an advocate, so you can see how this is honestly puzzling to me. I also have very conservative beliefs when it comes to drugs and things that alter reality or control- although i do not judge others or hold them to my beliefs.


DR 1
I was in a large house, moving around from room to room. There were things I had to do- errands, chores, find things, put thins in their place. When I was done, I started looking for more things to do, making up things as I went along. It seemed like the dream was repeating itself, only it was me- going in a circle, creating a cycle. Upon completing the last cycle, I realized- "hey! I don't have anything else to do because this is a dream!"
And in that instant I was lucid. I decided to jump through the floor to get to the level below. I expected it to happen fast- but it wasn't like anything I expected. I jumped on the floor kind of hard (or so I thought it was) but I landed super soft and kind of melted or floated down through the floor, landing very softly. That was totally unexpected.
I began to get really excited. I saw some windows in front of me on the lower level and I approached them. Green, green grass was outside- a huge lawn. No people were there, until I thought of them. When I thought of people they appeared, passing by, and I began making crazy gestures for them to see me, to make sure they saw me, acting crazy because I knew it was a dream and I had control of it.

AP Experience: During the day I decided to try & visualize an AP by starting in my bed & going street by street & house by house to arrive inside my husbands work area so that if I ever was to achieve AP I'd know where I was going in a real time way. I kept telling myself all evening that I would have an AP & LD tonight & I would remember my dreams. I laid down at 2:00 am & kept my eyes closed. I did my meditation by relaxing my body & when I did my breathing exercise I did something different. As I breathed in I said to myself that when I breathe in I'm breathing in AP & LD's & when I breathe out I'm breathing out fear. I'd hold my breath in between. No-one told me to do it this way, I just decided to try it. I kept my eyes closed the whole time & visualized the trip again in my head from my bed all the way to my husbands job & into his work area. My husbands alarm went off at 3:15 & I got up to pee & tried to keep my eyes mostly closed & didn't talk & went straight back to bed. My bathroom is about 10 feet from my side of the bed so it didn't take long. I laid back down & started the exercises over & over & ignoring my husband. Meesha cat has been in our bed all night, even when I was reading before I went to sleep. She was in the middle of the bed. At 4:10 or 4:15 I heard my husbands keys & so did Meesha cuz she went to follow him & then she came back to bed & laid down. (I didn't look at the clock, I asked my husband today what time he left) I just kept on with what I was doing & decided that my husband was no longer a distraction & Meesha seemed all settled so I attempted to bump up my vibrations. And they went from zero to 1000! My whole body vibrated like I had some high tech vibration machine going through my body. It feel like every cell & atom in my body was moving & the sound was a really loud humming & air kind of sound, a whirring sound. Other people describe it as the sound a plane makes. Well, I've only heard that sound on tv but I'd say it was very accurate. It's like my body was going to take off, literally! It was maybe 30 seconds of this & I knew what what was happening. I wasn't afraid & I did not see any entities or anything. I tried to move & couldn't but it was only on my first try. After that I was able to lift my left arm & feel it come up & I could see I had 2 kinds of arms & I could feel the difference so I just went for it & tried to roll off the side of my bed. I immediately remembered I didn't want to go through the floor but briefly it felt like I went down but willed myself back up. It was like the bottom part of me started to go down through the floor but not all of me. I was next to my bed but I didn't feel the floor & I could tell that I couldn't feel things but I'm a well trained monkey & I was afraid of bumping into my bed & in a split second I consciously wanted to float around my bed to get out of my room. But before I did this I looked on my bed to see if Meesha was freaking out or anything but she was just laying there right where she was sound asleep. So I floated around my bed & through my dining room & over my couch & love seat a few times just trying to see the room & feel what was happening. I wanted to go through the door so I could make the journey to my husbands job. But when I got in front of the door I wan't sure if I should try & walk through it or run through it. So I tried to run but I panicked & everything went black for what seemed to be quite a while. I felt disoriented & couldn't figure out where I was. I was so tired but so excited at the same time. I guess I popped back in & then I started a Lucid dream..

LD: 1 I was asking these women in a college for help. I was explaining all of what just happened to me & asked them if they were lucid dreamers & they said they were & I asked them if they new anything about AP but they didn't answer. I walked around & looked for things that could help me understand where I was. They told me I was in some college in Illinois. I told them I didn't think that this place really exists. I found some brochures that said it was in Illinois & it was a college but the name still made no sense to me. I wish I could remember. The stairways there were really wide & the hallways really tall & long & detailed & everyone was friendly & then one woman was trying to get a little too friendly when we turned a corner & there was a hot tub. I got in it with her but when she leaned in to kiss me I went under the water which woke me right up.... I sat up in bed & remembered everything so I tried to text my husband at work. It was 5:04 am. I ended up talking to my husband & telling him all about the AP & this LD.

LD 2: I was in an art college of some kind. I was talking to various people. We were sitting in this neat little place where you step down a couple of steps to get to individual tables & from multiple sides you had to step up each way to get out of it. We were discussing art & since I was enjoying this I didn't try to change the scene, I just tried to take in all the things they were talking about & looking at their art and ideas.
WILD

LD 3: I was outside in this vast area where there was just grass seeming to go on forever & there was this thing that I really can't describe accurately but I'll try. It looked like a small hill where a tight low gully was. It was about the size and shape of a small train trestle & you are looking at it from the side & where the track would be there was a space filled with a multidimensional space where artists were creating computer art that went from one side to the other. The goal was to make something unique fill that space. Each piece started from the left & pix elated across to the other side. Like I said it's hard to describe because it was very complicated. I didn't want to try to change the scene yet again because this just seemed more cool than something I could create. It was so colorful. It was like a big computer program that displayed art. DILD

Explanation of Details- I had some other dream fragments but I let them go because I seem to be so overwhelmed w/ the AP experience.... Quite a while back I used to be terrified by SP & I saw entities. I used to pray every night because I was being attacked in my sleep but I didn't know anything about LD's or AP back then. I wish I had so I wouldn't have been afraid. Eventually they stopped & I stumbled upon LD'ing later. Therefore I wasn't afraid when I had this experience today. It was definitely not something that a person could experience in any kind of a dream. No way. Not possible. This was a real time event.


Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Explanation of details-Blue
Side Notes-Purple
Astral Projection/AP-Brown

+In a large house for part of what feels like a movie trailer. A girl says, “If I didn’t know any better, I would think this was a dream!” So I did the nose pinch RC and I could breathe 3 times. I was surprised because I really thought I was awake, but I realized I must be dreaming. I set out to find some people to play spin the bottle with for the TOTM. Somehow I ended up in a small storage closet area with my husband and some random guy. I invited them to play the spin the bottle and we just magically had a bottle. There wasn’t enough room for us to place the bottle so it was on an uneven surface and hitting our feet. I spun it but my husband’s phone rang, which he answered, and the other guy lost interest. I tried! I should have stabilized better.
+I got a job in a fish market/butcher/factory place. I end up falling in love with the man training me. Sometimes he looks like Ragnar Lothbrok and sometimes he looks and acts like my husband, very affectionate and loving. Supposedly I look like his ex-wife, Siggy. At different points I do his laundry, climb trees, text, and search the first aid room for alcohol to clean up the fish smell. One day I go into the room where he’s sorting fish and try to help him. He doesn’t want help. He’s depressed because he really wants to be a chef. He wants to show people his broth soup. I tell him I love soup and he should bring some for me to try. It makes him happy. In a meeting there’s a proud coworker who likes to be the best at everything and likes to do it all himself. I volunteer for all the odd jobs during the meeting to peeve him and my lover and I get a good laugh out of it. There’s lots of controversy surrounding our relationship, which is becoming more and more apparent to everyone. I’m the only woman working in that place and everyone, including my beau, are concerned it will just turn into a fling and I will be hurt in the end. I think about getting a different job since this job is far from where I live (they recently moved the factory to Kilauea). But the only other option is selling blow-up mattresses. I used divination to examine it closer and the results were: Screw, nail, nail (x3). Somehow it means that it would be wise to be in a place away from children and that in the end I’ve found my match and it will help me develop the personality traits I need to be successful in this life. In the back of my mind I was worried that meant my husband and I had to divorce, that we weren’t meant to be. My older sister was jealous.
+My mom was hanging out with Sadie, who was larger and had a huge bump on her head. My mom showed me this chocolate fountain thing she made. At one point she said, “don’t even think about it.” and I said, “I’ll think about whatever I want.”

Only one dream I remember from last night. I'm at my house watching some NFL with a black friend of mine (though I've never seen them before in real life). Apparently we're good enough friends that we can make black jokes with each other. He made one about how black people's lips take up half of their faces (does it mean I'm racist if he's the one who started it?).

After church and lunch, I came back for a nap.

I have another Splinter Cell-inspired dream (I just recently got into that series, and I love it a lot, so it's snuck into my dreams quite a bit). I'm in a huge warehouse, where there's this game going on kinda like the Hunger Games, where you have to kill off all your competitors in order to win. I'm not actually in the competition - I've been hired as a "Motivator". Because there are so many competitors and the map is so large, the Motivators hunt down some of the lone competitors and kill them off, "motivating" them to form partnerships to stay safe, leading to more potential teammate backstabbing and more entertaining television. So I have to use all my sneaky-stealthy moves to sneak up on people to take them out.

My alarm goes off, and since I really don't want to get up, I fall back asleep. I'm in my dorm room, but a bunch of friends from high school are there. In addition to the main door in my room that leads to the main hall, there's a second screen door on the other side that leads to a back yard with a shed, it actually reminds me of my aunt's house in Alabama. Still though, it strikes me odd that there's a back yard out there - after all, we are on the third floor. I plug my nose and find that I'm dreaming. I for some reason at this moment realize I'm naked, but I know it's a dream, so I'm not as disturbed by it. I walk out into my hall, where there's a bunch of guys standing in a circle. They seem to be unphased by my nakedness (even though one of them is naked as well). I just ignore them and walk down to the other end of the hall.

I am somehow teleported back to my room, so I walk back out onto the hall, but I'm teleported back again. Fine, I'll just do it myself. I decide to teleport myself outside of the building. There's a white flash, and next thing I know I'm at my old high school on the football bleachers. The only thing is that I'm like 2 inches tall. I consider it kinda weird, but I easily make myself return to normal size, thankfully before the ants nearby on the bleachers can notice my small size and run towards me. Apparently on the football field is some kind of military training grounds. One of the generals walks over to me and asks if I want to join the airborne division. Before I can ask why, he injects me with some kind of serum. Suddenly, four pairs of purple, feathery wings grow out of my back. They start flapping out of control, and two other soldiers have to hold me down to keep me from flying away. The wings finally calm down, and the soldiers help me to my feet. The general gives me a bit of a rundown on how they work - apparently the wings weight too much by themselves for me to get much lift, so I have to concentrate on making them weightless before I can get off the ground. I kinda ignore what he says at first, and instead just take off. However, the wings feel incredibly unbalanced on my back, and making 4 pairs of them synchronize is quite a challenge, so I end up faceplanting a few feet away.

The general gives me the same lecture, but I interrupt him. "With all due respect, general, I think it'd be a lot easier with just one set of these wings." I put focus onto my back, and several of the wings fall away, leaving one set of fairly huge white wings on my back. I take off again. This time I get about 15 feet off the ground, but then the weight of the wings starts to kick in, and I slowly descend back to the ground (this time without crash landing). I try a few more times before I finally take the general's advice. I focus on the wings themselves, making them turn nearly transparent like glass, with a yellowish-white glow around where they were. I get off the ground with a bit of a shaky start, but once I get the hang of it I take off with much greater speed. It feels incredible - even better than any other time I've flown in a lucid. I also have a ton of control over it, so I keep sending myself higher and higher. I fly over this huge forest and admire the detail of the ground and trees beneath me. I fly in between two trees and decide to do a barrel roll, but once I get upside down I black out.

I'm now in an elementary school, in an army uniform. I'm not lucid, though I definitely recall still having my wings at this point. The general walks in, and everyone goes to attention, so I do the same. Behind the general are a few small kids that look like they're in about 3rd grade. The teacher comes in behind them, and once everyone is in the room, she starts presenting some awards to the kids. Apparently these kids just won the state spelling bee, and this was their award ceremony (why it was in front of a ton of soldiers is beyond me though). The only name I remember was this one girl whose name was "Auburn Auburn", and I remember thinking how terrible their parents had to be to do that to their child. I woke up soon after this.

3 NLDs - 2 pts
1 DILD - 10 pts
RC - 1 pt
Teleport - 10 pts
Unspecified (size change) - 5 pts
Partial Transformation (wings) - 5 pts
Flying - 5 pts
Night 14 Total - 38 pts

Dream 1 - Train crash
There was a bit more to this dream but I'll start from where I can remember clearly.. It was snowing outside, nearby was an old run down rail track with a shitty small train. I had a little white dog with me, he had cute curly hair and resembled my friends dog from when I was at uni. I got into the train, the driver is an old man and I see him get on the train and we start driving. My dog is on the ground somewhere near the entrance. There's a big crash nearby and a bit of shaking goes on. The train stops and the driver comes back to check everything is okay, the sound came from where my dog is. He picks up a large metal bell that had apparently fallen off, my dog jumps up on me and I'm relieved he's ok. The driver continues driving, there's a few missing pieces in the rail track and the train goes 'off-road' in a sense as it goes between these gaps. There's a gap that's a bit bent and the train ends up capsizing, I hold onto my dog as things get momentarily fucked up. I hop out of the train, OH GOD. The drivers legs are sticking out underneath some snow, his top half completely covered.. H- help! Help! I try brush some snow away, I see a person nearby that's walking towards the direction we came from. He's an old man with a strangely expressionless face. Hey, you! Help! He continues walking on, I chase after him as he rounds the corner.. He's peddling along a vending machine that has a dead man attached and I think that he must be a murderer that is trying to get away. I turn around and head back to the crash site, I see a car in the distance and think I may be able to get help from them.

Dream 2 - Casino lucid
I realized I was lucid pretty randomly, I was in a casino like building that had a lot of people in it. I distinctly remember a blue haired girl sitting on a catch to my right. I continued walking forward past everything without doing any RC's, kind of not tuned in or understanding the significance of being lucid. Nothing really happens from what I can remember, eventually I have a FA and recall typing my dream up on DV and sending a message to my dream buddy.

To preface this, my work is closing down, so I will be out of a job, so this isn't a completely random topic to dream about. This dream is also quite short in terms of what happened, but the detail I remember is immense, which is why I found it important to record.

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A coworker of mine told me that he knew of a job I'd be able to do in order to earn some money while I look for a new job. I'd be employed mentoring kids. The reason that he came to me with this was due to the fact that he felt as though he would not be capable of handling it by himself.

I first arrived at the workplace, and it was like a massive school campground, with a bunch of cabins, rooms, shower-blocks, etc, very stereotypical. By the time I was there, it was night and I actually got myself lost along the way. I asked for directions and someone kindly led me to where I needed to be. I was at the doors of a large amphitheater style lecture hall where my colleague was standing up the front ready to give a speech. The audience had a lot of people that I actually knew personally in it, and one friend from Canada that I met while on a trip over there. My coworker and I gave a talk and hung around there for a while.

We must have been allocated individual kids at first because the next and last scene I remember was a little one-on-one session with someone. The very strange thing about this scene was that it was set entirely in my girlfriends room. I remember the bookshelves, the small stool she has that she uses as a table, even her bedside table complete with mini chest of drawers. I could also look out through the hallway and see her brother's room, and the hallway connecting them.

I think the person I was mentoring had some form of mental disability, they were actually older than the rest in around their mid to late 20s. They had light brown hair, a thick mustache, beady eyes and big thick rimmed glasses. He told me that he loved magic and I told him that I did as well. He decided that he wanted to show me a magic trick and said he would also show me his favourite and most treasured deck of cards. What he pulled out was a really awkward looking and feeling deck of cards, a lot of them were red and they were all mismatched, cut to varying sizes and with different patterns and faces. It felt absolutely horrible to hold, very uncomfortable. The trick that he showed me involved me choosing a random card, he then stabbed a different card with a pencil, then ripped it off which changed it to my card. Doesn't really make sense but, hey, what do you expect?

I decided that I would show him a deck of mine, and I opened my bag to pull one out. I distinctly remember the bag because it was exactly the backpack that I sometimes carry with me, down to each of the pockets being the same size and in the same position. Even some of the regular contents were in the bottom, which at the present time are a cream and bandage to help manage my eczema. I pulled out a big shrink wrapped package which was filled with 6 decks of playing cards made by a brand called Bicycle, but they are not the standard ones, they are of a slightly different design. There are two designs, one which was predominantly a deeper, darker red than normal and one that was more of a metallic blue. There were three decks of each colour in the packet. I spent a moment trying to decide which one to open and then decided to open a blue one as I had a lot of currently open red ones. At this point I did not do anything with the cards.

I classify this as a lucid as I am fairly certain I became self aware. I had asked the guy's name multiple times in this session, and then my coworker messages me so I could log my progress to him and he asked me which person I was with and I could not at all remember his name. I realised that this is very unlike me, and I started to question whether I was dreaming before I immediately woke.

Again, I should have checked for a false awakening but I have no memory of what happened after I woke.

Dream: I was playing dodgeball soccer in high school gym class. If you were on your own side of the gym, you were allowed to throw the ball and get people out. You could also throw for the soccer net at either end and score that way. If any ball went into the soccer net the other team instantly won.

You could cross the center line, and if you were on the other side, nobody could get you out by throwing the ball at you. Then the game became like soccer. You had to kick the ball into the goal.

I just remember that I went across the line and tried to kick the ball into the goal a couple times, but it kept rolling away/losing control. At some point I wound up bunny-hopping my way around the gym holding the ball between my ankles. I actually managed to score that time.

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I remember I lived in a minecraft cave base with someone. (Or actually I think it was three or four people.) But we were perpetually getting overrun by big groups of monsters. Not minecraft monsters, just big hordes of random monster beings. (I guess if I had to describe them they were like gray humanoids exaggerated in various ways, like some were overly tall and skinny. Others were large, fat and extremely strong and tough.)

I remember we were fighting them and trying to block off the entrances that they were coming in from, but they kept coming through in new ways. I remember at one point, my friends died, and I tried to flee the underground and get back to the surface. I was running out of the main room of the cave base and there were a big group of them right behind me. One of them said to send in eggman's robots.

I went around the corner and there were two pairs of robots, a smaller pair in front and a larger pair in back. They looked a little bit like star wars battle droids and super battle droids respectively only they were painted black and red.

I wasn't lucid, but I knew that I could use earthbending or that that was important somehow. God dangit, so close! (I guess it was pretty easy to visualize earthbending in Minecraft nonetheless) and I threw stone blocks at the robots. I think I managed to get past them but some of the monsters grabbed me from behind and I lost the dream.

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It was at this point I woke up for an ever so brief amount of time. I don't think I opened my eyes even. I remember thinking that I wanted to go back into the dream and start over. I could still feel the connection to the dreamworld so I let myself slide back in sideways. Literally it felt like I was moving to the right and the dreamworld was forming around me. I don't think I got excited about the fact that I was WILDing since I didn't realize what was happening.

I arrived on a beach setting. At the same time it was very vivid but kind of dark, as a proto-dream should be. On my left were a bunch of palm trees and a beach cottage. (It looked like one of those old Hawaiian houses or something.) And on my right was the ocean. I remember the sensations started coming in. The sound of the waves, and the wind from the sea. I could swear I was right on the edge of being awake because I could feel my dream body and my waking body.

I thought of Manei (I was thinking about her before I drifted off to sleep last night) and she began to manifest. She manifested feet first, up to her head, as she manifested the missing parts of her were a black outline. I could also swear there was like a computer loading bar in the corner of my vision... She was laying on her back in a beach chair when I was finished. But she wasn't awake/alive at first, but she started to come to her senses.

Just as I was about to say something, I lost the dream and woke up almost instantly. I really tried to go back, but couldn't. Too awake...

NLD (x2=2)
WILD (x1=10)
Advanced Summoning (x1=15, Dream guide)

Night Total: 27

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10 different people/different entries. =3 points.

Thanks Spock and DreamCafe11 in particular.

7.30-9.15am
Medium LD #399
I am at a LAN party. Someone pulls my screen around and starts asking why I'm searching for darkus something. The page looks like an guild site for an online game. Everyone in the guild has dog avatars. Under the browser window is what looks like World of Warcraft (haven't played in 5 years).

Hitting the space bar brings up a search box, but I hide it and start moving through the world using the keyboard to control it. At some point the dream drags me into the game so I am playing in first person rather than controlling a character.

The game is taking place in a Hogwarts style castle filled with students. AB is with me. Although the whole place still has a sort of Warcraft vibe, the students are human. Maybe this is Stormwind. We head up a circular set of steps in a tower, heading to the top. There are students on the stairs having a lesson.

The steps end in a blank wall. Wait, no, there is a narrow staircase leading up to a hatch in the roof. At the top is a partially obscured sign that says slip, or is it sleep? This makes me lucid.

We run up the staircase and emerge onto the top of the tower. The dream still is formed of very basic almost cartoon style graphics. This is a dream, I tell AB, and start floating around trying to encourage AB to join me in flight. AB then makes a joke about rocket fuel and farts. This makes me laugh.

"You're so immature..." And then I think, wait, this is my dream, which means it's me being immature. Ah nuts.

I make AB float and try to encourage her to fly higher but she doesn't want to.

The tower is perched on the edge of a canyon made from red stone. Possibly some mix of the Grand Canyon mixed with Thousand Needles, from Warcraft, which is still the basis for this dreamscape. Standing at the edge looking down over a 200+ ft drop gives me a twinge of vertigo, and that inexplicable desire to jump...

Only one thing for it... I throw myself off the edge and start to plummet, feeling the wind rushing past me. Before hitting the ground I throw my arms out as wings. The air catches the feathered wings and allows me to glide on the thermals. :wings:

At the bottom of the canyon are a few cartoon sheep. I point at one and transform it into a goat. It turns black and kind of demonic-goat looking with horns and hoofs. Before being able to transform it into a Chimera for the TOTY, it lets out a demonic roar and runs off. Hmm so much for that plan.

I start to walk through the canyon and see a large crowd of people walking in another direction. Thinking that maybe I could combine my goal of turning a DC into an animal to kick start another TOTY attempt, I pick a red haired woman out of the group and lead her to one side.

"Okay, weird request. I need to turn you into a Chimera, which will be awesome fun, but first I have to turn you into a goat..."

The woman gives me a look like, you're insane, but whatever... Before I can do anything else though, the scene fades and despite clinging on for a false awakening, I wake up.