memorable

I had a dream that I was walking around with a woman who looked exactly like me in appearance but totally opposite in personality. She had a cooler sense of style than me, seemed to have a lot of money, and she gave off the impression that she could take care of me. She was a lesbian, but somehow had a kid the same age as mine.

The woman and I went everywhere together. She was superior to me in a lot of ways, but I suspected her superiority was an act.
I was deep into a relationship with her, but it wasn't a typical romantic relationship. It wasn't love or attraction, just that she was taking care of me in life, financially and socially.

At a family gathering, she made sarcastic comments about the people I spoke to, and she groaned about my family. I tried to defend them to her. I even stopped talking to family members mid-conversation to defend them to her. My family didn't mind her comments, or even notice them. They were just confused about my sudden silence to them.
That's when I realized: nobody could see her except me.
I was struggling to maintain relationships because of her comments. Her whispers about how awful these people were paralyzed me from my normal life. Those same criticizing comments inflicted self doubt that prompted me to change a lot about my actions. From little things like how to dress, to big things like where to live.
She tried to make me move into a big house she chose and mocked me when I expressed that I love my current home. I almost forgot about my own home in the whole process and I nearly moved in to hers.

This woman was ruling my life and making it miserable, but I clung onto her because she was stronger than me and took care of me, and I needed that. I felt fragile and gullible. I felt I didn't know what was good for myself; she did. I felt safe with her. Even though I was miserable and isolated, I feared being without her. I viewed her criticism as honesty, something that's hard to come by.

As I became more aware throughout this dream, I realized:
She was me, and her kid was actually my kid.

More accurately, was another me. One half of me or maybe an alternate version of me. She was strong and emotionless, got shit done, and kept things together. Without her, I'm sensitive, overflowing with emotion, and a mess.

In waking life, I'm bisexual and a mix of all these things. It's as if I was split into two entire people in this dream.

Date of Dream: FRI 28 DEC - 2018



Dream No. 516 - The End Of The Beginning

The entire dream played out as a game, in first-person mode but I did or said nothing. It started off in this deep hole and the first character to be used was 18-Volt. He had a suitable and quite fascinating in-game appearance but nothing related to any of the WarioWare graphics, it’s like the dream had composed its own game graphics for him. There wasn’t much time with 18-Volt though and it seemed like you would only use him on the bottom floor.

To get out the cave, it was now switched to Murray who was in his Sly 4 appearance. The dream played out his scene for a lengthy amount of time as it showed him jumping and moving his way across various platforms. It almost felt like 18-Volt was the initial basics tutorial character and Murray was the extended tutorial character. Murray’s scene ended when he was reaching the top of the giant hole and now blue sky was shown.

The dream was now playing normally and from my perspective; I was the one moving around. It was this completely unknown area but from what I could see, it was a series of islands on high cliffs; the scenery was breathtaking. I ended up crossing over to another island by flying over some sort of white painted railway track. After that, I explored this other island for a little while and on it, I found this campus building that was claiming to be Deakin University.

I went over into the main courtyard and I could see WB talking to her friend Becky as well as some other girls, I have forgotten WB’s appearance though. Before I could even reach them though, WB saw me and so she got up and quickly walked off in a huff, looking extremely pissed off. She was too far away for me to ask what was wrong, because I didn’t know, and so the only way I could seem to communicate was with a facial expression. The dream played a close up of her and she quietly said angrily, “We’ve stopped talking”, making a gesture like she was declaring me to stop something.

I could actually feel my heart breaking in this dream as I tried to contain my external emotions. I felt that there was nothing else to do and so I left that island and went back to the island that I was previously on. When I got back there, I noticed the Sorceress from Spyro 3 flying around in her flying saucer and this dream added an extra creepy vibe to her as well, making her look super evil and menacing compared to her real life in-game portrayal. When I got close enough to the sorceress, the dream camera and the plot went back into game mode again.

The graphics of the intro were extremely blocky to start off with like the game was supposed to have been from the 90s. This made the sorceress look even more scary and the same trembly feeling could be felt like when WB had previously hurt my feelings. All of a sudden, the graphics went to a neater version, and so I felt like this was now a remaster comparison. I stated to myself that I preferred these graphics better. But then the dream went back to the old graphics and this time, I was more creeped out. I was begging for the dream to change to the newer graphics and it did, but only towards the end of the current scene.

I have forgotten the plot of this game intro but there was something else flying by the sorceress and she and this character were plotting their evil threat onto the land. I can then feel some energy radiating from somewhere else and so I find a while at the side of a hill. At first, there is nothing in the seemingly dark hole but it doesn’t take long before Murray and 18-Volt reveal themselves, having the same appearance as they did at the start of the dream. Both sticking their head out, Murray and 18-Volt are just staring at me, looking super concerned, their faces in some sort of grimacing position.

Shortly after a few seconds though, Murray gives 18-Volt a look as if he’s prompting 18-Volt to do something and take action. I am still standing far away from the cave entrance and so 18-Volt leans out a bit more and beckons with his hand for me to come to them quickly. Once I came close enough to the entrance of the cave, 18-Volt extended his arm out and helped me into the cave. Once I was safely in the cave with Murray and 18-Volt, the dream ended.



Dream 516: Results (Competition #9)
Competition Night: 23
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: Murray & 18-Volt
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 6.0
Calculation Details:
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)
- Have A Dream Guide Automatically Appear: Murray (0.5)
- Have A Dream Guide Automatically Appear: 18-Volt (0.5)
- Fly (1.0)
- 3-Day Recall Chain (3.0)

+ Previous Total: 121.5
Total Accumulated Points: 127.5



What's interesting is that at the end of the dream, it felt like it was actually going to loop! The fact that Murray and 18-Volt had gotten me into the cave and it was going to be those two as playable characters again.

Date of Dream: FRI 21 DEC - 2018



Dream No. 512 - The Real Sneaky Gamer
Lucid Dream 32

I don’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, I was in a bedroom that seemed to actually be the realistic version of Sneaky Gamer from Warioware! In the first scene, there was supposedly something that was about to happen and Bentley was hiding under a table, shaking and tucked away into his shell. I forgot what else happened in this scene.

The dream then decided to replay the scene but then the events in this scene were also different. The bedroom had the appearance half way between the Sneaky Gamer bedroom and my own bedroom. The walls of the room were green and it was a double panel window but the bed and window were in the same position as they would be in my own room. All furniture had the appearance of Sneaky Gamer but were in the positions like in my real life bedroom.

I looked at the clock in there once and there was nothing odd, the time was 6:11. I looked back at the clock though and noticed that the time had changed without even a minute passing by, even if it was just a subtle time change to 6:14. I looked at the clock again and it kept variating slightly between all these 6:-- times. But after a looking a few times, some of the lights were not working and so the numbers weren’t whole anymore. I now realised that this was a dream.

As I now had an extra awareness about me, the scene now felt real and like I was actually in Sneaky Gamer myself. Even the noises were playing like in the game with 5-Volt would be approaching. I felt extremely scared but felt I couldn’t call for 18-Volt or I may be heard by 5-Volt. It seems that just being really scared and showing the raw emotion was enough for 18-Volt to quietly come into the room (in his WarioWare Gold appearance). And as he sat on the foot of the bed, extending his arm out towards me, I woke up.



Dream 512: Results (Competition #9)
Competition Night: 16
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Lucid
Dream Guide: 18-Volt
Emergency Team: Bentley
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 30.0
Calculation Details:
- First Lucid of The Night (10.0)
- Was Introduced via DILD (5.0)
- Old Personal Goal: Personally witness Sneaky Gamer yourself (10.0)
- Have A Dream Guide Automatically Appear: 18-Volt (5.0)

+ Previous Total: 80.5
Total Accumulated Points: 110.5

Today i took a nap and i dreamt i was on rocket but i wasn't in space, i was in some planet's stratosphere. I assume it was a large planet because we were travelling around it rather than out of it. It was also cloudy, so i could sense the rocket actually moving and travelling. I don't know at which speed we travelled but it was pretty fast. The rocket was also big. It was like a space station but in the shape of a rocket. Actually various rockets assembled to a big one.

I noticed in our tripulation there was a weird guy that never slept. Then i spied his room when it was sleeping time and i saw he was frozen inside. He changed his appearence and that way i noticed. He was like a white walker from game of thrones. But to me in that context, he was a dangerous ALIEN. After that he changed into his 'original form': it was actually 4 big alien worms disguised into this person (they were bonded with magic i believe). After they separated they all went to the ventilation system. So we tried to isolate the parts of the rocket-ship we thought they were in. However this caused some failures. When we were doing this i was sitting in the captain's cabin driving the rocket, with a seatbelt and everything and i had a window to my right side where i could see other parts of the rocket. As the failures started i could hear like some engines stopping and then i could see things exploding. Those things were like 20-50 meters away from me, and the part of the rocket-ship where i was wasnt exploding yet, but i knew these were fatal failures and i would either explode or the ship would crash, and i also knew that there was no way out of it. I couldn't use a parachute or anything, because it was going so fast that i would die anyway. So i was sitting there thinking, "Omg, im going to die. I wish this was a dream and not reality. But i know this is reality and im done." I was scared and i didn't want to die, but i accepted it. I closed my eyes because there wasn't anything i could do to save myself, so i just waited till the moment i'd die. I was so nervous, because i didn't know how it'd happen, and i wondered what would happen after that. 'Would i still be thinking like i am now?', 'Would the impact (explosion or crash) affect my thoughts right in the moment of death?' 'Would i wake up to some other reality after i die?'. I had my eyes closed and i couldn't calm, thinking that my life was over and that it was my real life. A few moments after i woke up, still like a rock, with my eyes still closed, and no impact ever happened in the dream. Still i woke up scared, but also rested, and i knew it was a dream death and not a real one but i still take it as an experience because the fear was real.

I once had a dream of my friend crying. And not the small, soft crying— he was heaving and sobbing and bawling his eyes out. In my dream, I walked towards him and placed my hand on his shoulder, and asked, "What happened? Why are you crying?"

He looked up at me looking devastated and replied, "Jane (another friend of mine, not her real name) has cancer."

And then I woke up.

I didn't think much of it then. I've had loads of weird-ass dreams. It was months later when I brought it up to Jane, laughing, thinking it was one big joke that I managed to dream up something like that.

To my surprise, she didn't think it was funny. She then told me that a few years ago, another friend of ours (let's call him John) told her he dreamed that she had breast cancer.

We were both shocked and scared, if you can imagine.

Date of Dream: WED 19 DEC - 2018



Dream No. 510 - Separated Sections

Dream 510 A - Baby School Boy
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, it was a distorted version of CP (who is deceased in real life). The only thing that was an accurate size was his but the rest of him was tiny, like the size of a newborn baby. His mum was also there, standing on the sidelines (she is a teacher at my primary school in real life) but I forgot what she was doing. CP was trying to communicate with me but I couldn’t make out what he was trying to say. I ended up picking him up and carrying him around like he was an actual baby. That’s all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 510 B - Scary Volt (Lucid Dream 31)
I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was in a completely unknown area. I ended up coming across JSc and her friend BBe. I didn’t really do much with BBe but when it came to JSc, although she was quite cold in this dream, I felt a sort of dream guide energy coming off her and I whispered to myself how I seemed to feel safe around her.

Both her and BBe had just randomly set themselves up to lie down on the ground. I decided to go over and lay next to JSc. I made another comment but I forgot what it was exactly. I stated at the end of it though, “I declare this a lucid dream!”. I then asked everyone under the sun, including both JSc and BBe, if they knew where 18-Volt. The dream was rushing through this metal tunnel and at the end of it was supposedly 18-Volt… But the figure looked nothing like him. It was a creepy white man with red glowing eyes and this forced me awake.

Dream 510 C - The Dodgy Phone
I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, my family and I were seemingly coming back from Geelong but it was night time. The way we came back made it so we would go through Glen Waverley but I asked my parents why we didn’t come back the way we normally would; I don’t remember their response.

We ended up in the area around Brandon Park shopping centre but I was now by myself. Especially because it was dark, the streets around me felt very unsafe, so I felt like I needed a dream guide. This time I was hesitant to call for 18-Volt as I had actively remembered how the dream screwed me over for the past two times in a row. I was thankful thought that this time, Dreamy WB appeared. She was wearing some skin toned jacket with a yellow and black chequered vest on top and on the bottom were plain greyish-black jeans and white sneakers. Her hair was in the style of long, skinny braids.

After a short while of talking to her, I realised that I was cold and so she gave me her vest. She didn’t look happy about it though as the jacket she was wearing underneath was very thin that it could almost make for a shirt instead. As we got further away from the shopping centre and more into the suburban streets, I stated to her that I felt unsafe in the area. Although she had a bit more a cold, stern energy in this dream, she offered me her hand in which we ultimately ended up linking arms.

She mentioned to me about getting my phone out and trying to call 18-Volt that way. I pulled my phone out of my pocket but it was easy to get access to the home page. It was three step lock and I had to pass all three stages to get in with no troubles. The first time I slid the dots, two stages were red and one was yellow, so I was denied. The second time, two stages were green but one stage was yellow, so I was allowed access but with a complication.

The complication was something along the lines of that if I spent over 0000 credits, something would happen. There were two options on the lock screen. One was to cancel access or the second option was about the 0000 thing. Before I had a chance to think, Dreamy WB tapped the 0000 option. I became really freaked out and panicked but Dreamy WB reassured me that it was over zero credits, so if I didn’t spend anything, I would be fine. I got led to doing other things on my phone though and didn’t end up calling 18-Volt at all. That’s all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 510 D - The Sweetest Burger
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, my dad and I were in a completely unknown area. We were mentioning about how my mum replicates some restaurant burgers for dinner sometimes and so he was telling me what kind of burger he would like. His idea was some sort of berry jam, brie cheese and marshmellows. At first, I thought he didn’t like marshmellows but then I realised that it was only my mum that didn’t like marshmellows.

Later on in the dream, my grandma and I were at a distorted version of Waverley Gardens shopping centre but I forgot what we were doing there. A lot of the corridors were very skinny and more of the shops were closed off with construction plaster and so there was almost nothing open. That’s all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 510 E - School Orchestra
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was in this massive unknown room which had a few rises for an orchestra. The orchestra was being led by my grade four teacher Mrs. Br who was really strict in this dream. There were members from my primary school and high school in this dream.

For some unknown reason, JSe came up to me, took my music sheets off me, and scrunched them up in a rage. Mrs. Br then said something like “If anyone else loses their music sheets and asks for another one, I will be putting them on the internet trash archive because I will not be printing anymore copies!”. I started to feel slightly upset and didn’t know what to do because JSe took mine. I heard him heavily sigh in the background as he came to me to give mine back, unscrunching the sheets but now they looked really ugly.

Mrs. Br had asked what instrument I was playing and I said I was a vocalist. She said that she would move the vocalists into the middle at the back. I didn’t agree though because that means that the vocalists would be drowned out by all the loud instruments. The dream ended there.



Dream 510: Results (Competition #9)

510 A
Competition Night: 14
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

510 B
Competition Night: 14
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Lucid
Dream Guide: JSc
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

510 C
Competition Night: 14
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: Dreamy WB
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

510 D
Competition Night: 14
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

510 E
Competition Night: 14
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 18.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment x2 (1.0)
- Full Non-Lucid Dream x2 (2.0)
- First Lucid Of The Night (10.0)
- Was introduced by DILD (5.0)
- Have A Dream Guide Automatically Appear: Dreamy WB (0.5)

+ Previous Total: 57.5
Total Accumulated Points: 76.0

Date of Dream: SAT 15 DEC - 2018



Dream No. 507 - Separated Sections

Dream 507 A - Powerful Volt
I don’t remember much about this dream at all. The family was there of the deceased neighbour, just like in Dream 506 A but it wasn’t the same setting or event. Also, the dream was playing from my perspective but I didn’t seem to be in it. JM, RM and CM seemed to have been shrunken down in size and were in some plastic household storage container. 18-Volt was about twice the size of them and he was floating outside the box in a hologram of his WarioWare Gold appearance, also having some vivid gold sparkling aura around him. That’s all I can remember for this dream.

Dream 507 B - Endless Queue
I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was at Waverley Gardens shopping centre. I was just in the front entrance at the foot of the escalators when 18-Volt came through the doors, I don’t remember whether I called him or he just appeared. He was in his Warioware Gold appearance. Just like Dreamy WB, he got into a hovering, sitting position and signalled for me to climb up onto him. As I got myself comfortable on his lap, he locked his arms around me and flew me up the direction of the escalator, travelling slightly faster than it.

On the second floor, I saw this massive line of people, coming all the way from the toilets corridor, proceeding to take the downwards escalator. I now wanted to go down myself but at the same time, I didn’t want to join that gigantic line. 18-Volt came down from the roof into a hovering position again and invited me onto him. This time, the dream slowed down and showed more of how I got onto him. This part of the dream was also playing in third-person mode but close-up, so every little cuddly detail was shown.

Once again, he had his arms locked around me and this time, I looked up to talk to him. It was a joke I made but I forgot in what context. I said something along the lines of “going up!” while pointing upwards and 18-Volt gave a small but hearty chuckle. I think I was insinuating that I felt like I was using him like an elevator, but one that I didn’t have a phobia of. After that, he moved off passed the massive line and although the escalator was going up, he managed to go down. I can’t remember what else happened in this dream.

Dream 507 C - The Clean Up
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I can remember, I was in my bedroom sorting some clothes and my mum comes in and says something to me. I forgot specifically what though. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



Dream 507: Results (Competition #9)

507 A
Competition Night: 10
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: 18-Volt
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

507 B
Competition Night: 10
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: 18-Volt
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

507 C
Competition Night: 10
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 6.0
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- Have A Dream Guide Automatically Appear: 18-Volt (0.5)
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)
- New Personal Goal - NL: Witness lap travel on 18-Volt's lap (3.0)
- Have A Dream Guide Automatically Appear: 18-Volt (0.5)
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)

+ Previous Total: 31.5
Total Accumulated Points: 37.5

Date of Dream: FRI 14 DEC - 2018



Dream No. 506 - Separated Sections

Dream 506 A - Family Meeting
I don’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, I was in the front room of my house. Also in there was JM, RM and CM and 18-Volt was also in there with us in his WarioWare gold appearance. JM was sitting on the ottoman, RM and CM were on the floor, I was kneeling on the floor and 18-Volt was standing near me but closer to the fireplace. That’s all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 506 B - A Strained Friendship
I don’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, the day was fast-forwarded to where I was supposed to be seeing my friend JH at the shops. When we met up though, it was some completely unknown outdoor urban area, not the shops at all. I asked her something but I forgot what it was exactly; it was something about LA. She answered, “Nah, I don’t hang out with her anymore because she’s a bit weird. There was also mention of JH’s boyfriend but I forgot what she said. That’s all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 506 C - Christmas Shopping
I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, my mum and I were going to Knox shopping centre. I tried to get the car into a parking space but the car would not go straight. Rather, it was very wonky and was much closer to one line than the other. My mum and I then discussed arrangements about separating in the shopping centre to each do our own shopping. The dream showed my mum and I walking in but then she went into the supermarket while I continued through the corridors.

When I was by myself, I realised that I had taken my purse but forgot to get some money from my mum, so I had none. I actually said to myself, “Damn it! I can’t buy anything now!”. I then felt some energy behind me and so I turned around; 18-Volt appeared and he was in his realistic Game & Wario cover art appearance, in his singlet and shorts. He said to me, “Why don’t you choose something that you like and I’ll buy it for you as a Christmas present?”.

He followed me as I went into a shop that was supposedly called “Colette Accessories” but at the same time, it didn’t look like any of the Colette Accessories stores in real life. This shop was full of solely bags and purses. I saw a purse for $49.95 AUD but then I thought it would be too expensive and I would be ripping 18-Volt off, so I kept looking. I found all the purses in this shop to be too expensive for me and later on, decided that I didn’t like any of their designs either.

18-Volt grabbed my attention at the front of the store and asked me to show him my purse. I held it out in front of him and spoke about some of the design features and colours on it. The front was black, white and coral, and the back of the purse was this solid pine green. I told 18-Volt that I wouldn’t mind one in a similar design and that I had got my current one for $29.95 AUD. I added that I got it from the “Bath and Body Shop” at The Glen. I said to him “and now the bath and body shop sells purses” as I shrugged my shoulders. Just as we were about to head off for the Bath and Body Shop, I woke up.



Dream 506: Results (Competition #9)

506 A
Competition Night: 9
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: 18-Volt
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

506 B
Competition Night: 9
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

506 C
Competition Night: 9
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: 18-Volt
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 3.0
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- Have A Dream Guide Automatically Appear: 18-Volt (0.5)
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)
- Have A Dream Guide Automatically Appear: 18-Volt (0.5)

+ Previous Total: 28.5
Total Accumulated Points: 31.5



In regards to Dream 506 A, this is based on a true story. The guy labelled JM, who lives a couple of doors from me in real life, passed away on 6/12/2018 and his funeral was on 13/12/2018. So fitting that the dream would happen on 14/12/2018.

I also find Dream 506 C as a really nice, spontaneous tribute to Christmas <3

At morning I was really cozy in bed ,so I thought I'll just attempt a wild and try to find that sweet point of balance between consciousness and relaxation...
And somehow I found that goldilocks zone of WILD.
I observed that when I fall asleep it feels like if my eyeballs get under a gentle pressure ,and it feels like I'm focusing into the far horizon of space... and thats when things start to form, and then suddenly I found myself in an empty room.
The dream was lackey still butI didnt care, I called out for N ...repeated her name a few times , thought of her, and then the dream dissolved and I floated up into this kinda fog, void...and started to see a picture...of a room, a messy one, and a door infront opening to another room...and then something else I don't remember... And then I found myself again in an empty house, I went out and found myself in a suburban neighborhood situationed on the lower part of a hill, mountain.
It looked nice , but it was made of the same kind of buildings that are in my neighborhood so I realized that I'm still in my dream... and then I woke up

Dream: In restaurant, maybe FL or Outback. I've asked them to let me use their kitchen to prepare a meal for F, they agreed. I'm cooking a Ruth's Chris-sized steak and while I'm busying myself with everything else (sides, table prep) it burns on the bottom. I flip it and quickly go to serve it. But it turns out they gave me a shitty table, and I know how F likes booths. So I try to move but all they can give me is a less shitty table. So I pick up the drinks and food and move them, I have to get the assistance of one of the waitresses to get it all, then F arrives and the waitress is sitting with us now. Suddenly a boy joins us to get with the waitress, and it's a very convoulted version of the dance episode from "My So-Called Life" which F was watching last night. The steak tastes amazing despite being "well and good" or some other variation of the phrase "well done" that one of the DCs said. It was really juicy, nicely but minimally seasoned, tasted like a solid Medium although it looked black on the bottom.

Dream: Dream revisits the same area as the last dream, I take F through to the other side of the building, it's a long hallway that reminds me for some reason of the first level map from SW: Dark Forces, while in reality it's just a long, wide white hallway with very tall ceilings and a cul-de-sac-ish area at the end.

Spoiler for potentially NSFW:

F and I are talking (sort of fighting?). I'm on top of her on the ground and we're making out and for some reason I slap her? I walk outside of the divider and see Ms. P, my babysitter from when I was a kid. It's this really awkward juxtoposition (I think I may have been naked?) and I'm trying to be nice to her while she's hugging me, and at the same time am feeling really guilty about F, and want to go apologize to her or something, but I'm still mad at her? It was just a huge jumble of emotions.

Fragment: F and I in an upstairs hallway like Laura Palmer's but reversed and open, hiding from someone?

Dream: FA where I wake up and feel neck-fuzzy and walk around the room clumsily.

Actual WBTB happens here.

Dream: I'm a superhero in a library area, my nemesis is Bullet, I have a female partner, at some point I hijack smokey van for a getaway (from a black patriarchal superhero gang/family of Bullet), I have invisibility powers, "NPCs" can't see me but will still avoid me -- thought that was an interesting caveat; an older woman superhero comes in and betrays my partner and is searching for me with the help of Bullet, I fly through paper separators, they won't kill me -- want me alive. Will edit to fill in details later. At some point I could read things consistently -- what did I read??

Dream: Lanes, bus, swerving. Bus is like 20 feet wide and 30 feet high and has to park outside of the overpass. Sunny day.

Lucid #81: Revisit table/desk area from Bullet dream. Spontaneously gain awareness but don't want to "cross the threshold" and become lucid. Linger for a second, playing with drawers, then say fuck it and ask "What is my path in life?" or something like that to my subconscious repeatedly. I don't get or feel a response, so I remember some old advice and look down and examine myself.

Spoiler for decidely NSFW:

I'm wearing a deep blue T-shirt, and for some reason, grey panties. I walk up to a mirror near the desk and check what's going on down there, and it's a pretty accurate depiction of the female anatomy. I'm kind of just checking it out when the realization hits that the dream is screwing with me and I'm about to wake up

Spoiler for decidely NSFW:

and then I do.

Tried Numi brand Guayusa tea last night (at bedtime, not WBTB, because I had no opportunity to steep tea for 8-10 minutes in the middle of the night). I half-expected it to keep me awake but in reality my thoughts were just so clear for the first time in a long time that I didn't want to go to sleep for around 30 minutes. Still had no problem relaxing with it overall, it just felt like a fog had been lifted from my brain. Highly recommend.

5x1+ 1x.5 + 10 (first lucid) + 5 (DILD) + 2 (WBTB) = +22.5 => 165

12-16

Nothing pre-WBTB
Dream: FA where red foxes come into the backyard, dog is scared, then more foxes come over hill covering fence.
Dream: FA where I'm rehearsing a lucid in bed - visualization skills were amazing because I was in a dream (I think).
Lucid #78: In 9 backyard, become lucid, run out towards birdhouse with dog, turn him into a fox from earlier dream, fly.
Lucid #79: In attic, become lucid, do weird finger-through-wood-through-finger RC, walk around, beginning of plot of #80 (grey hair black eyeliner pale woman is introduced as a revolutionary/collaborator?)
Lucid #80: In a modern-looking guggenheimish place, kept myself stable for a long time (maybe 5 mins total dream length?). Got lucid almost immediately but went with plot of lucid. I'm a woman in this one, running away and spying on behalf of the woman from before. I remember feeling my feet when I was running. I run through an atrium/lobby area while it's still empty and find a good place to duck behind (it's an attached area to the circular lobby and staircase that's recessed a few feet into the floor). When I climb/drop down into this small hiding place, I feel the gravity/physical sensations in vivid detail even though it's a movie-style acrobatic move. I duck pretty low (but not low enough) and watch as maybe a hundred people come down the staircase. I start looking at their faces and they're so detailed. They're all adults, most dressed in business clothes or their sunday best. Suddenly there are three or four older women and men wearing long powder blue robes and white hoods/masks, and they look right at me. I jump out of my hiding spot, across the staircase and to the lobby (where all of the people are now. I stand on a table and am soon followed by the pale white-haired black eyeliner girl, who starts monologing about why we're there. After a bit of this (I wish I remembered what she said) I wake up.
It was a long lucid chain so I had other lucids but don't remember enough to write them down or count them. Lucid fragment: transformed myself.
Fragment: Grandpa?
Dream: FA where I write down/tell all of my dreams

3x1 + 1x.5 +
10 (first lucid) + 5 (DILD) + 2 (WBTB) +
5 (RC) + 2x5 (other lucids)
= +35.5 => 138.5

12-17

Dream: Watching an RPG like Chrono Trigger or Oracle of Seasons (those eras) play out in front of me; it's taking place in a large castle with small raised platforms along the walls of an open section. At first there are people (sprites) there, but ss I approach each time they fade quickl. Possibly due to a curse? I think tomyself during the dream that the sprites sould be replaced with a "..."?
Fragment: Trying to find a shirt in the dryer for F's cousin, they're all too small though.
Fragment: Something about a carrot wrapped in plastic (Easter).
Dream: Overhead view of google maps/earth, I'm watching third-person my car drive down a road. I have to direct it with my touch/gestures from above, and it become a little unstable a few times. I am sort of an entity within the third-person camera doing the gestures, if that makes sense. Eventually I just start driving like crazy and crash into cars, hop over them, am kicking up dust. There's one section of the road that curves in two places, I have to zoom in to decide. Then I kick up dust all around and I'm pretty much just figure-8-ing the car around the desert. There's a humongous cardboard box which I run into.

2x1 + 2x.5 = +3 => 141.5

12/15/18: Seeing that I was working on my writing project that has taken me 23 years (yes, 1995 at age nine) to get perfect after getting skills in 2003 and improving on them, the "writing-project-discussion" dreams returned after a seemingly long hiatus.

Saturday's dream was split into three parts, in which the other two didn't make much sense. The first part had me looking for what appeared to be journal pages just like one of the first drafts I tried to write when the main character I had, Number 25, was female. The dream took place in either Raleigh or Cary, North Carolina, leading me to believe it was the latter. Like dreams I had in 1993 in Maryland (age six or seven), late 1995 (age nine) and last year, the skies were overcast and took place either in the afternoon or evening, but there were no computer screens nearby. I did, however, see a girl with dark brown hair and brown eyes, though. I tried to wave at her, but she didn't pay attention.

I have a feeling this was the same girl in dreams I had between 1993 and 2015. Her last appearances before this were on October 8, 2012, March 14, 2013, November 2, 2014 and December 17, 2015. The one on March 14th, 2013 didn't make any sense, as she appeared near what appeared to be a malfunctioning waterfall (again, with overcast skies) with a cardboard sign above her head, in black ink and in sentence case, reading "James Lafferty". I think I got that dream as it may have been something I did online before going to bed that day at age 26 (I'm 32 now). Like the last four dreams before this one, she also had no spoken lines here, either.

The building was a cross between the top floor of one of the two story classrooms at Adams Elementary I remember going to in 1994-95, the final year for me to attend said school (sadly, nowadays, Adams is no longer a traditional school; instead, it has been converted to a year-round school) and the top floor of classrooms at Wake Technical Community College, where I went for class my first and second semesters (2005-07). All I remember was saying, "We don't call them that!", possibly in reference to the missing journal pages, which did something unremarkable like the Chaos Emeralds in the Sonic the Hedgehog series of games, usually found in Special Stages.

12/16/18: This time, I found myself at a house eerily resembling the one my late grandmother used to own in Magnolia, North Carolina in Duplin County before it was sold, that I last visited in 2011 on my 25th birthday.

I see a girl driving a BMW M3 convertible, chassis code E36, colored in a shade of blue trying to cut the grass before apparently speeding off, giving up. I see what appears to be a family of all girls, going inside to see a picture of a couple from Salinas, California after talking to a woman with green eyes and blonde hair, middle-aged, apparently talking to me about her daughters, who apparently were pretty attractive. I had a feeling they came to North Carolina from California, which is exactly what my parents did (returned) when they had me 32 years ago. Another girl tried to cut the grass with a bicycle, but punctured the big tire, which made no sense whatsoever.

I've been receiving writing project suggestion dreams since 2017, and some of them are helping while some just aren't. Either way, I'm going to be busy, as writing young adult fiction is no walk in the park. WM86/DFW signing off.

Date of Dream: WED 12 DEC - 2018



Dream No. 505 - The Uncrossable Road

I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was at Stud Park shopping centre but I forgot what I was doing there. I was walking back towards home with a small group of people that there was a giant obstruction on a big section of the major road. In-fact, it wasn’t even a road at all and was rather a huge area of coastal rock and rapidly moving water amongst it that was impossible to cross. I saw all the other people standing at the foot of the road break, looking worried, not knowing what to do.

I thought that I would summon on 18-Volt and get him to help me cross, not only that but to get my brother NB across as well. My mum came up to me and said she didn’t want me summoning him and he was just an example of spiritual propaganda. I ended up raising my voice at my mum in 18-Volt’s defence and told her straight out, “He is a dream guide!”, and I also mentioned, “And it’s not just me, I’m going to ask him to take NB across as well”.

My mum still didn’t seem convinced but I wasn’t going to put up with any of her negativity and instead, I was going to prove to her that my dream guides are the kind and loving sort. I walked further down the street, away from her, and proceeded to call for 18-Volt. I noticed that my brother was standing close by. It took a few attempts but eventually, 18-Volt was successfully summoned.

He appeared on the start of the coastal rock terrain and he was somewhat distorted, especially with his figure being slightly smaller than me in this dream. Still, the energy radiating off him suggested that this was 18-Volt and so I comfortably approached him. I asked him to take me across but then I added, “I want you to take my brother as well”. He didn’t talk in this dream but he nodded and quietly accepted my request.

The dream then showed me (still 1st person mode) locked in by 18-Volt’s left arm (he also didn’t seem to be distorted now; the arm and side of his body were of WarioWare Gold graphics). I couldn’t see my brother but there was this energy suggesting that he was locked in the same way, in 18-Volt’s right arm. Indeed, 18-Volt was the one to help us cross as he was able to land on each small rocky pedestal jutting out of the water by doing a long moon-jump motion. After he landed on a few of the little pedestals, the scene changed.

My brother and I were now back at home and the scene was showing him in his bedroom. He had some friends over and he was telling them about how he was saved earlier. I came down and said something to him, I forgot what it was, but he said not for me to tell mum. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



Dream 505: Results (Competition #9)
Competition Night: 7
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: 18-Volt
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 10.0
Calculation Details:
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)
- Summon A Dream Guide: 18-Volt (1.0)
- Help Someone In Need: My Brother (1.0)
- 7-Day Recall Chain (7.0)

+ Previous Total: 18.5
Total Accumulated Points: 28.5

Date of Dream: SUN 9 DEC - 2018



Dream No. 502 - Separated Sections

Dream 502 A - Easter All Year Round
I don’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, my mum and I were at a very distorted of Waverley Gardens shopping centre and we were looking to put together an Easter hamper to give to my two little cousins. We went into the sweet store and some of the Easter eggs I picked up felt like the chocolate had completely melted inside. That’s all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 502 B - Heavy Sleeper
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was in this unknown building and there seemed to be all these strangers around. I was calling out for 18-Volt and then I asked them, “does anyone know where 18-Volt is?”. A few people pointed in a certain direction and so I went that way. Apparently I went too far that way though as someone who was supposedly a distorted version of Dreamy WB pointed in the opposite direction. I looked absolutely confused for a second but soon, I discovered a door and so went backwards toward the door.

I slowly opened it as not to disturb anyone as it had led into a small office space. There were all these people sitting at desks, with their backs turned to me on entering. I went over to 18-Volt (a slightly distorted WarioWare Gold appearance) and even he had the professional mannerism, brushing me off and telling me to let me finish his work. It wasn’t long though before he had stopped what he was doing and turned his chair around, signalling that he could now talk to me.

Whereas 18-Volt was supposedly just expecting an informal greeting, I jumped up onto him and got myself comfortable on his lap, facing inwards towards him. In no time at all, I leaned my head into him, put my hands around his waist and fell asleep on while still on his lap. My eyes were shut but I had perceived this energy, telling me that he must have suddenly been startled to see that I had just helped myself to a nap without even saying anything to him first, thinking to himself “WTF?”.

After 18-Volt got startled, he eased up and was now trying to stay as still as possible so as not to startle me awake. I got so relaxed that I actually started to lose consciousness. In-fact, the eventual complete loss of consciousness led to the dream ending; I woke up.

Dream 502 C - All Aboard The Train
I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, my dad was taking me to some unknown doctor’s clinic for a consultation of some sort. When we got there, I find out that we were supposed to take some sort of train to another block of consulting rooms. We didn’t know where the train was though. My dad and I sat down in what was the apparent waiting room. After a little while of nothing, the seats actually started to move off! This was the train!

These belts came out of nowhere and I thought to myself, “That’s weird that the seat-belts just randomly came out like that”. At one point though, I complained to my dad that the seat-belt had tightened itself too hard and so now it was squashing me and almost suffocating me. The dream showed us riding through this cave on a set of high-up railway tracks. The place we ended up at was completely different and I have forgotten what the place actually looked like or what I was doing there.

On the way back, I wasn’t with my dad anymore and rather I was by myself. This time, it appeared to be a real train that I was boarding and all in the same carriage were all the members of the WarioWare crew. They all seemed distorted in some way except for 18-Volt who had a 100% accuracy to his WarioWare Gold appearance. I even saw Wario sitting more towards the back of the train. I was sitting at the very front, on the right side next a window. Across from me was 18-Volt, on the left side, next to a window and behind him was 9-Volt.

With my bags on the seat next to me, I looked to 18-Volt and with some hesitation, I said something like, “If it isn’t too much of a hassle, do you mind sitting next to me?”, then actually moving my bags and putting on the floor in front of me. 18-Volt didn’t speak but he seemed happy and he got up, came over and plonked himself onto the seat next to me. Then he spoke to me a bit but I forgot what he said. After that, 18-Volt placed his right arm around my neck and I placed my left one around him in return.

The dream then showed the train going back though a cave similar to the one I had travelled through with my dad. The differences were that the scenery was slightly different and there were no seat-belts. At one point, the dream made mention that the train was going to go extremely fast. Then the train did go really fast and it was rocking really badly from side to side if it wasn’t going in the straight direction. It was indeed scary but 18-Volt reassured me, saying something like, “I’ve got you”, as he pulled me closer into him and tightened his grip around my neck to keep me upright.

Near the end of the train ride, it was stated by the dream that I would be escorted by 18-Volt down the ramp as I passed by each of the other WarioWare employees. There was no ramp in the first part of the dream, so the area I returned to was not the same area I was in at the start. There was a large concrete ramp that was covered in yellow high-visibility paint. I was now walking down the ramp but I couldn’t see 18-Volt; the energy perception though suggested that he was following right behind me.

Just as the dream mentioned, distorted WarioWare employees were set up equally apart on sections of the ramp. Some of the hands I remember shaking were Dr. Crygor, Ashley, 9-Volt and Penny. I don’t have clear recall of the other characters although I do know that I shook all of their hands at some stage of the ramp walk. When I got to the bottom of the ramp, the dream ended.



Dream 502: Results (Competition #9)

502 A
Competition Night: 4
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

502 B
Competition Night: 4
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: Dreamy WB & 18-Volt
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

502 C
Competition Night: 4
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: 18-Volt
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 7.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)
- Have A Dream Guide Automatically Appear: Dreamy WB (0.5)
- Summon A Dream Guide: 18-Volt (1.0)
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)
- Have A Dream Guide Automatically Appear: 18-Volt (0.5)
- 3-Day Recall Chain (3.0)

+ Previous Total: 5.0
Total Accumulated Points: 12.5

12-13

Dream: In a forest with F and D. I'm laying treats along the right-side path for D to follow and go through. For some reason, it's a competition where I have to lead D through his path and then do my own path as well. Once I finish D's path with him (he isn't great at it) I go to a small dock/pavillion/gazebo where I guess I have to cross to get to my path. There are all of these fuzzy caterpillars arranged like spiders crawling over the area I have to duck under/back through to get to my path. I'm really grossed out but eventually forced to touch them and find out they're not the stinging kind (maybe F shows me?). I back through and wake up.

Dream: I'm in 9 with F's grandma (G) and little cousin (L), we're planning a party for L and I bought her a paintbrush. G is asking me to host a party or something in this room and I said fine and she said everyone else will have to pay $50 which is a great honor but I don't have to pay it. There's a big crooked cardboard pink box with a weird shape protruding from the top, which I assume is G's present for L sitting out in the open, unwrapped. L keeps asking what the logo for Walmart is, and I don't want to tell her because in the top-right corner of the box it's there, and I guess I don't want her to know her present came from walmart? Doesn't make a lot of sense because the other side says "Shipped from Walmart" in clear black Impact font letters, just upside down (maybe she can't read upside down).
Dream transition to the kitchen area and I notice a roach or two on the mantle. Then I realize they're everywhere. It was dark before but now it's morning. I try to find some shoes to kill them with and when I look down I realize there are roaches and beetles everywhere, on the floor, couch, etc. I ask my dad for his shoes as I back towards the garage door. He says I'll be fine, they can't hurt you. The smaller beetles are approaching me now, one of them the size of an adolescent turtle has a white spot where his shell by his face peeled off. There are now beetles the size of those old exercise platforms that you step on and step off from. They have two pincers and a protruding element. Each time I look away and look back, it looks more metal/mechanical. My dad is putting his foot and ankle in between the pincers and the protruding part and showing me that "they don't hurt you" but really he's just moving his ankle out of the way at the last second.

Dream: In 9 LR again at night, room is mostly empty and I'm working onn the floor with F on some christmas dioramas on construction paper platforms. I can't remember now what the first few were of, but after doing a few she's mad at me. I get up and get some wooden train tracks (the traditional kind that fit together) and a wooden train (which looks pretty beat up). Two of the four tracks are painted, one red, one blue. I offer to paint the other ones and she gets angrier. I close the drapes on the sliding glass door but she wants them open, and she opens them back up, although they part from the middle when she does it whereas in real life they all pull from one side. D is looking out the window. She's still very mad at me when I bring her some red corrugated construction paper for the last diorama.

Fragment: Hospital w/ F?
Fragment: 9 backyard? Serious w/ family?

Had a few near-WILD experiences during this period despite doing no daywork and no MILD, only did SSILD after the WBTB briefly. I did take a vitamin B12 before bed (around 10 but didn't fall asleep till 11). WBTB (where I actually got up and walked around) 5:30 till 6:30, woke for good at 7:35.

Lucid #73: I'm in a huge mall or college bookstore area, yellow light. The dream part went on for a while but at a certain point I round a corner and see F. She's wearing something low-cut and holding a book. I notice some freckles that aren't accurate and become lucid! The first thing I said, for some reason, was "this is our dream!" I don't remember why I did this, but it seemed to empower her as a DC to be happier/less distressed; maybe it was just my own perception of her informing this. In any case, we talk for a while, but because I kept diving in this lucid chain instead of writing these down in between, I don't remember now about what. Eventually I led her outside to a campus student union/cafeteria area. I picked her up in my arms and I told her I was taking her to my incubated dream world (I called it something weird which I wish I remembered now). I spun for maybe 10-20 seconds but it didn't help much except to stabilize a bit. I ended up just looking at her for a while, and she was just smiling so big. Probably the single most wholesomely gratifying LD experience so far.

Lucid #74: I'm in a small cramped room, blue light. I'm with F again, leading her by the hand. We pass through another room with clutter and junk all around and I see a medusa-like woman who's covered in snakes, all green-black. She starts to chase us but I become lucid and send her away from us, not via force push or anything, but just by will. She is moved (not pushed) back against the wall, and I will her to phase through/into the wall (I figured if I can do it, so can DCs). She does, and it looks super wobbly and cool. But now all of the sudden I can hear a heartbeat sound coming from the walls. I don't worry about it and remind myself that I'm in control. I take F upstairs and we sit on a strange chair in an 8-like living room. We talk again for a bit, more serious this time than joyous. I ask her what I should get her for christmas. She says the earrings I got her were good but I should "double down"? We talk about a few other things which I've forgotten now, and for some reason when we're talking she keeps switching sides and talking at my back; it's sort of like we're in back-to-back seats in a round booth, and I keep turning one way and she'll turn the other. The heartbeat is mostly faded but I woke anyway.

Lucid #75: This one was a DEILD. I "came to" standing over a bed in a dark attic room. There was another snakelike monster in the bed, this time smaller like a large-dog-sized roly poly I guess. Since I was instantly lucid I had no fear and came at the thing face first to watch it shrink away. It shrunk in size and kept backing up and I put my hand on it and transformed it into D, but a smaller version. Then I told D to follow me (he was grey in this version since he originated as a snake monster). I was trying to find F but couldn't. Something happened for a while in this one but I lost it.

Lucid #76: This one started as a DEILD but I guess I lost lucidity during the transition and it became a dream where I was being informed by detectives that my teenage daughter was murdered. They took me to the spot where she was murdered (the outside of my apartment where I walk my dog) and I became lucid. I forgot all about the plot and was just energized by the actions of my previous dreams where I talked to F, especially when I asked about the Christmas present -- it was just really exciting that I spontaneously did something like that. This is important for two reasons I can think of: I woke with an enormous sense of elation/gratitude, and also I remembered not only WL memories within this dream, but also dream memories from a previous dream! Anyway because of all of this I started running victoriously towards these humongous trees (they were more like tree-bark vines reaching up maybe 20 stories, like a skyscraper). I was so happy that when I felt the moisture on some of the leaves I thought of rain, and it started raining! It felt so real, it was amazing. At first I was lifting myself with my arms only, but then I thought about it and started using my legs too. I looked down and up at the huge expanse of the trees and the rain and it was just an exhilarating experience.

Lucid #77: Semi-DEILD. It wasn't instant but I did definitely "slip back" in a way. I tried to materialize something and eventually I got up very sloppily (my control was off due to awareness of WL body in a weird position). I walked to the bathroom and it reminded me of the opening scene of the 6th or 7th HP book with Harry's vision of Nagini biting the man in the room. There were two guys with country accents talking here. Woke up.

Lucid fragments: heard music at one point; felt grief? maybe there was at one point an older man giving me advice; possibly during #75 I turned a small square section of either a being (snake being) or a piece of wood (bedpost?) into a flashlight.

3x1 + 2x.5 +
10 (first LD) + 5 (DILD) + 2 (WBTB) + 4x5 (other LDs) +
15 (personal goal*)
= +56 => 99.5

Running total: 99.5

* Change the weather to make it rain while already lucid