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02-15-2016 -- [Many wakings, long dreams I can't remember, cool stuff I've lost, and then finally this dream with a lot missing, but also a lot of details I manage to remember. Vaguely nightmarish, and woke to even more nightmarish stuff.] There are these people on TV that are giving orders, and somehow there are hints that they can see the future or something, but there's something weird about them. I don't know what, but I can just kind of sense that something is a bit off.

As I really concentrate, and look, while watching them, I begin to kind of see it. In some way, over the TV, they are hiding their real faces, and they look perfectly normal, but when I really stare, I begin to see through that facade, and begin to barely catch a glimpse of their real faces. It isn't at all clear, at first, but I start to see square white patches where their eyes should be. And somehow for the moment, it is really spooky and creepy.

I come to know that they have had their eyes gouged out, which somehow allows them to see into another time or dimension or something, which may be helpful, and allow them to provide some good directions, but when you suddenly see through the disguises, it's also kind of spooky. The ones on TV are disguised really well, and it is really hard to see through it, but the ones around me in person are a lot easier, and moment by moment I can see through the disguises at a glance, and in a scene hugely reminiscent of 'They Live,' I'm walking down the street, pointing out people, going "You're normal." "You're OK." "Ewwww ... that's disgusting!" The ones who realize I can see through their disguises go running off in horror.

Anyway, one guy has given me instructions that I have to go see somebody in the hospital, and that it's vitally important that I talk to him and check on him ... then the guy goes running off. Another is to drive me there, and he must have had his eyes gouged out a long time ago, because he has done away with the linen bandages, and it looks like his eye sockets have almost entirely grown over, which is somehow less creepy ... until I remind myself that I am riding in the cab of a person who is blind.

Suddenly I find myself walking past a large, fading, decrepit old house, spooky, tall grass. I'm moving carefully, pushing branches out of the way, and trying to avoid the snakes I don't quite see, but know are there. I'm not me, but someone else that I'm just kind of watching over. He's gotten to the upper rear corner of the property, and is kind of hiding behind some rotting old steps, and he 'knows' the timing is just right for the summoning of a powerful, demonic 'god,' but doesn't really believe in such things, so he starts to chant the words he's been told to speak, the idiot.

So with a bang and a lot of brimstone, this huge, powerful demon appears, and stalks around pontificating about finally being free to terrorize, and tossing aside a basic 'thanks' to the idiot that summoned him, before he stalks off through the grass. Meanwhile I am with this thin, trembling scared teen who is more and more resembling Shaggy, who is done with this, and is about to bolt, but still reminds me I have to go see the kid in the hospital, which it turns out is the rotting, decrepit old building.

This isn't the guy who was driving me. He was older, a lot bigger, bulkier, and not nearly so terrified ... and yet, he might be the same guy, because it is weird and dreams are like that. I tear off the information about the person I am supposed to be seeing from out of the guy's notebook, and step through the rubble and debris as I start to make my way into the hospital, and the sound of me feet in the gravel are very loud and clear. In fact, they seem more real than anything else ... in fact ....

[I start to come awake in the real world, and can still clearly hear what are sounding like footprints in the gravel outside my windows, like somebody is walking around just outside. I lay in bed, motionless, just listening to the sound, and wondering what is going on, and as I come more awake, I realize I don't have any gravel outside by the windows, and I am starting to suspect another palmetto bug has gotten in, and is crawling around in the bits of paper on the floor, except as I shift and turn the light on, I can not hear anything moving around, even after several minutes, which seems very unlikely, and I'm eventually forced to conclude that I was lying is just the right position with my ears bent by my sleeping in just the right way that a sound of the pillow brushing against the headboard or something was producing a slight brushing sound that was amplified absurdly, combined with the nightmarish setting to wake me with heart palpitations. (Figuratively.)]

These are dreams of the past few days.

[SPOILER=spoiler to not crowd my dj page]Avatar shark croc against the stream downwards give up. i knew i was dreaming but not clearly, i could only spend extra effort and maybe only at the last moment.

in bus with selcuk dayi we crash. bear in car. ilknur tries to talk to me. huge beasts on road dayi says they should watch out. (rather than driving to the other side of the road to avoid them)

at school breakdance try to impress ym teacher with silly moves. Blac guys. i do turtle but have backpack so keep doing forward flip. take bag off do turtle then my elbow not touch belly so handstand. then dinner ready we hop skip over things because table is set and filled with foodplates.

here i have the lucid dream in which i did the totm.

standing guard. "you cant handle the truth" hearthstone. *wtf does this mean :P* it sounded exactly like this [URL="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9FnO3igOkOk&feature=youtu.be&t=44"]Youtube you cant handle the truth[/URL] i dont know why i heard this and what it has to do with hearthstone or standing guard

tall dutch girl 2.50 big chamber with statues. stairs. nose plug lucid. 1 min. float around cant land. help girl while worrying parents. airport. she needed help crossing street. duran abi gets close while driving by on motor. another car she almost didnt see.

"i am not your leader" necropost fa

basketball cant drible. breakdance impress people

swimming pool. jumping on top of the water without sinking. making front flip but theres no room coz too many kids. lot sof kids sleeping by the pool. another but on a beach. serkan on a boat. same dream? i ask if 3 meters is deep enough to dive. he says in the wedstrijdbad (with the duikplank) it is enough so its enough here.

at guney or enes. then i go away on bike. lars house is far. hes there smoking weed. i see daniek from tbl

i did the (nose plug) rc but nothing happened i did it multiple times and mentioned it. failed rc lars said do it again and i did and got lucid. mom in room, room is dark, i get a slight notion of maybe this is scary and she closes in on me with a slightly croaky voice and i get scared. i say "but i love you" maybe twice and the dream ends.

hearthstone. playing wolf team with david out and serdar, david has stronger armor but not to cheat us he just happened to have it. guney bora huseying amca. and guney abi and a girl in love.

rekt as priest in tavern brawl (where you create your deck by discovering and you get chickens and spare parts). someone house is turning inside. rotating and changing. david en mischa? turkey. middle part unchanging. im sleepy thinking is hard. im home late in köy.

on yt, saw daniela andrade (who was actually victoria justice from victorious) it said "voice demoted" kid says "i wasnt after the fuck" kripp says he should believe in himself and gets 4 random minions in a generals game and theyre tanks. kills 2 enemy tanks and goes on to destroy a building.[/SPOILER]

2 paper dj entries.

[SPOILER=number 8]fighting dad and protecting bro after fighting bro after he did something to me and i kicked his knee.

girl singing to me. she had light brown sweater. i was djing. it was hey there delilahs tune but different words. i think she was singing about what i was writing (asking what i was writing). it was beautiful. (now i just listened to it and the song sounds like crap, but when i woke up i had the impression that that was the music) occasionally we looekd into each others eyes and i looked into her eyes almost all the time. near the end i saw my dad there and i felt awkward by being touched by the music and expressing such enjoyment.

naruto fighting someone (i called hi naruto but hes a random here) fights then forgives him then cages him then takes his powers away (like avatar). both had spiderman powers. i found it cool and rewinded it/watched it/experienced it again. now im looking at it from a few meters away. kind old lady with sweet voice "why dont you take that lady out" and that was my mom. so i go with her and shes annoying and angry and isnt waiting for me to catch up. were both on the bicycle.[/SPOILER]


[SPOILER=number 7]this is all 1 dream with multiple paragraphs.
standing around near the house or walking outside, try to amuse kids by pulling something out of my pocket (by summoning) but hands are empty). friend told me about the prostitute graves, he went there and looked around (he wasnt interested in 96 past the hour) even when lucid i spent some tiem trying to cheer up my gf. she was disappointed or sad or angry at me about something. (not a waking life gf, only in this particular dream) her gf was there too. this was inside. my friend had dark hair. gf brown or dark.

when walking outside i thought i should summarize the dream so its easy to remember because lots of things happened. if i had remembered what happened inside and thought about it i would have remembered it after i woke up.

dojo. i suck and get owned they mistake me for one of them. (im not a martial artist).

i go outside and rub my hands a lot it really works feeling the dream and watching my hands

went outside with a friend and said "look my phone says its 96 past the hour but thats imposible, theres only 60 minutes in an hour" but he didnt care.

this is enough. typing is tiring and i just hope i wont lose the paper. this lucid was ~15 minutes.[/SPOILER]

I was with some actors and one of the actors was driving some other actors and i just entered his violet car with no reason. But he was driving so slow and i said to my self "Man, i wish i could drive this car." Then i remembered a video i saw about LDs and the video maker said that he was driving a car but the dream went unstable and blah blah. So that reminded me of LDs and i said "Oh, it's a dream. I don't even know where i am at or what i'm doing with the actors" And rubbed my hands together, touched trees, even though it was in the middle of the street, and the car was gone. Then i said to my dream "Show me something hilarious!" Then, a giant, eagle-like bird came out the horizon and flew just above me. It wasn't hilarious but really awesome :O Then i woke up. O_O

I was with some actors and one of the actors was driving some other actors and i just entered his violet car with no reason. But he was driving so slow and i said to my self "Man, i wish i could drive this car." Then i remembered a video i saw about LDs and the video maker said that he was driving a car but the dream went unstable and blah blah. So that reminded me of LDs and i said "Oh, it's a dream. I don't even know where i am at or what i'm doing with the actors" And rubbed my hands together, touched trees, even though it was in the middle of the street, and the car was gone. Then i said to my dream "Show me something hilarious!" Then, a giant, eagle-like bird came out the horizon and flew just above me. It wasn't hilarious but really awesome :O Then i woke up. O_O

fuzzy part: there was a box that was evil, I knew it was evil by nature of how it made me feel when I neared it. It was attracting something in a large herd and they were mindlessly following it.

Clearer part: I was running down the street of a city that was deserted and grey, I heard the music of the box again and it was plaid and colorful and evil, all of the sudden B-12 flying fortresses were coming down to earth and shrinking as they came. by the time they hit the ground they were just the size of a small drone and they were headed on wheels to the evil box. It reminds me of the monkeys in Zombies of COD

+ [EPIC!] "Sand Castle" farm

standing in fields, looking in to the main building, I choose 2nd floor office with great view of the fields as my office.

officers come by, they run off to catch a deer, they identify its breed

walk into office, odd lock on door, ceiling falling in sharp heavy glass everywhere, very dangerous almost trapped and cut to shreds. Boy this place needs work, extremely shabby. We spent over $300,000 on this place.

wake up in bed, my body is covered with red spots like mosquito bites. This place is infested obviously.

The place is called Sand Castle by the locals in a derogatory way, because the soil is poor and sandy. If it was put on the market, it would get no offers for months. We won't get our money back.

we become a couple's destination retreat for gay black men speed-walking marathoners. There's a competition held, it involves a huge slide on the course and someone must judge, I jump down this slide and end up by the pool. see couples walking, tents all around the place. This is how we're going to save the farm, and I tell somebody about this.

pool: I see fish in the clear water [DREAM SIGN!], an owl dives in to pick up and eat a dead pigeon lying on the right side of the pool. There's a salt-water flatfish (like a sole) on the bottom, who put that there? There are other fish around. My work manager set up a low sun-blocking shade on the left back corner of the pool area.

go investigate the land, craggy and rocky, tall excavated almost-cave. Inside smaller cave, there is an ancient line marking the passage of the sun. pick up the fence, looks better now. I find the spoon from my boy scout fork/spoon/knife kit, but a small boy wants it and takes it.

the passport inspectors come and my sister and brother in law watch how the immigration officers in this country check out my passport and residency document
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wake, amazed at this long vivid epic dream. recall it for a while. eventually gather the will to apply my "fall asleep fast" approach. more dreams follow

+ mini-car
There is a small red sports car, a man is driving it. He is a jerk, he's knocking people out of his way on the path, he's zipping around twisting mountainous paths. On the back of the car are the words written "range; 10 minutes on a charge." I think that's a pretty useless electric range and say so, have a discussion about how this could be used: maybe it'll help you reach the gas station if you're out of gas, or maybe if you take this little car with you on a road trip on a tailer (it's really small, so that's quite possible), it's enough of a charge to get you to a store and back. It's practically the size of a child's push-pedal car.

+ garden bees
Down on the steps leading to my childhood home's back yard, I see that there are about 6 large circular planters arranged on the left side of the garden by the fish pond. I'm looking at them and I see that they're messing up the grass. I'm walking among them, and I think that they've been put over the place where I had planted mint [false] last year, I can't find the mind, there are some leafy plants growing, though. I should have put stakes where I planted the mint so I'd know where to look. I'm lying now on the grass with my head towards the right end of the yard, looking at the various flowering bushes growing on the left edge. One bush has a few grapes growing on it, "good, I could eat those before they're gone" I think. There are bees buzzing all around the flowery bush with the grapes. Some of them are on my shirt, a few on my stomach and a few on my chest. I brush them away but am concerned that they'll get aggressive. One of them flies into my ear and starts buzzing like crazy and I start shaking my head like crazy to get it out and I wake up.

+ waffle wrap
I'm with my wife outside on a sidewalk doing something. I "remember" [false] inside there are tasty marzipan cakes available at a counter. I go inside and ask the girl at the counter but there are no more left. There is a man at the counter perpendicular to hers who starts offering me things. I have trouble understanding him perfectly, he's speaking a foreign language. He switches to English, and this surprises me [missed it!]. My wife is offended at his speaking English and leaves me on my own. I wonder how I'll get the order right myself. One of the things he offers is a waffle wrap with syrup, and sun-dried tomatoes on the inside. I decide I might as well get this.

+ boy with the hair, deja vu
I'm in some public place and spot a boy I recognize. He has blonde and multi-colored dyed hair. He tells me about the situation he witnessed with me and some friends before, where one guy behaved very badly. I "remember" the scenario [false, probably]. Something with my wife correcting my pronunciation.

+ LD#174 Tsunami / call another planet ToTM Feb 2016 Advanced (i)
In my childhood home, looking out at the view of the bay below. The water is in very close. All of a sudden, the water pulls far back very quickly. I recognize this as the sign of an approaching tsunami. I go running around the house screaming for my family to all get out immediately, stop what you're doing and run out and let's drive away! I'm running around and go up to the 2nd floor, into my old bedroom and look out the window. The scene is quiet and tranquil, the city lights are flickering in the distance and everything looks normal. Hmm. Is everything OK now, or is the tsunami still coming? I decide to fly out to sea and check if I can see a tsunami coming.

I wonder if I'll be able to fly. I'll try to fly out the window to make sure. Maybe I'll just fall flat on my face. But if I can fly, I'll be dreaming. I feel entirely awake but am open to the possibility that I can fly [DREAM SIGN]. I take a few steps back and do a quick running take-off. Am I going to fall on my face? No, I'm floating towards the window now, slowly. I pull myself through the blinds and continue flying, slowly, I do a "superman with a go-pro" first-thrust to gain speed.

I realize I'm dreaming, and I can do anything. There are people floating in the sky with me. I do a quick "B.E. S.T.R.O.N.G." just-got-lucid ritual, really rushing and missing most, remembering goals. Remember ToTM and call another planet, I decide to do this one.

I decide I will summon my phone by doing by feel-only all the same gestures I perform in waking life: I reach down with my hands and lift up the flap of the pocket in my waist bag where I keep my phone. I pull the zipper open. I reach in with my thumb and forefinger expecting to feel the side of my phone, and I do! It feels completely like how it feels when I take out my phone when awake. I bring it up before my face and tap/push the button on it. Beforehand I decided I'd use an imaginary "voice activated calling" feature to avoid troubles with dream-dialing. "Call to another planet!" Just a ring or two and then an answer. I say "Hello! Please tell me your name and the name of your planet!". I hear the guy's voice clearly. Sounds like a young man, early 20's, with a wise-ass sarcastic tone. I understand him perfectly, he's speaking clear English. The planet was named (memory not perfect here) "Abbu Wabbe" or "Arab World", and his name was "Defeated Terrorist." He apparently really hated Arabs. At this point I was flying over the bridge and looked down and said "well, I bet there were Arabs on the bridge when the tsunami hit it, you're probably happy about that?" I then saw a replay of the tsunami hitting the bridge, it was just tall enough to hit the roadway, I thought it would be taller. It really smacked in hard and knocked everything/everybody off. I wanted to confirm the planet name and the guy's name, so I called back again using voice activation. I say "Hey, it's me again. Did you say your name was Defeated Terrorist of Defeater of Terrorists?" Another guy says "Oh, sorry, he went to lunch."
At this point I'm probably losing lucidity, and see the remains of a nice-looking lunch of some acquaintences seated at the table next to me, some young boys who say "I hope he calls again." I pick up a single small bit of bacon from his plate and eat it, it's delicious...and wake up

rough notes for now, wanted to get them down before I forgot them.

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2016-02-13:

obama (signature, mom loved him) putin "tried to kill" sharp bbs (bat them away) he looks angry ("didn't I try to kill you?") poured 1-inch of scotch, "thank you, vladimir vladimirovich " (shake hands) for this awesome party

cousins, secret KFC taste small piece on tongs tastes really good and beefy, put the piece back, cousins (Karen?) with red marks on skin. talking about the green path through the low school buildings

sliding down the road/path on snow, running competition with guy who pulls ahead (replay?), pile of things in the way
in area climbing over fences with girl, get frisky with her "No, I've never done that before!" she says

Indoors and old woman starts wheezing in a really weird way, she collapses to the floor her legs splay all over the place she's practically naked

Christmas tree, turn it around this is the brown side, it's in the way so we push it up against the wall

PZ is dead in a body bag, returned to the house we're going to have to do the rest of the burial ourselves, my wife is mourning, but I see movement and realize PZ is not dead, and keep waiting for my wife to notice

At TZ's birthday party. In a room of a house, close the opening because the little girl is scared?

I create a computer animation of patterns on a screen, I step back to watch it it's amazing, I start seeing things appear like breasts and phalluses and faces in the patterns.


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2016-02-14

bridge, PaJe and drunken wife, in car at top of Mar. with Gal. driving car gets in accident, group says luckily nobody got hurt

bus to work

visit friends house large house open fields, fawcet, offer work, decline, give lunch, it's a watery bowl of "soup" with one tiny piece of rubbery liverwurst,
go to restaurant "why? because you gave me a bowl of water"
walk through several Mexican places, think "I've had enough of this, I should get pad thai"
but go into another mexican place with chili and order some

driving somewhere it all goes dark, look back behind me for the entrance, confused, how did I get here, I feel myself pulled into the side of the darkness
wake in bed with two girls: SB, and another one. Get up, open the doors to the next room, 3 kittens run in and hop on the bed, one jumps up at least 1 meter in the air with splayed legs and plops on the bed, I must have been feeling cats in the bed in that dark place earlier.
SB asks me about work again, I say I can only contribute on weekends, she gets upset and says that's not good enough, she may have to hire "Luke".
outside, SB and I have made love (details forgotten), I see 2nd girl walking suggestively on her hands and knees away from me in a skin-tight leotard looking amazingly hot, especially her a$$. I follow her and we're then lying on the sand naked and I'm getting a BJ from her and I move to get into a 69 and the scene transitions?
Now I have both girls smitten with me, this will be trouble. I see 2nd girl again, she is holding a bottle of wine and smiling at me, saying "This is for later." What shall I say? I don't want to hurt her, so I say "that's great!" I see SB watching us through an opening in the wall.
SB is mad, we're moving to sit down on a bench outdoors, I lean forwards and look back at the bench I'm about to sit on through my legs, and I see up SB's skirt while she sits down. I sit down and put my arm around her.
Back in SB's bedroom, we're getting up from bed and I tell her "you should go ahead and just hire Luke." We're throwing the blankets back on the bed. She has a buddhist shrine across from her bed. I display my "yoga sklils" and am trying to do some odd position which is like a half-handstand with my head down, hands on floor, arms bend 90 degrees at elbow, and I'm trying to place my knees on top of my arms (the part which is horizontal to the floor). I'm looking for a good spot to do this, I see a corner on the wall but I don't want to fall into the wall. The floor is carpeted.

Before going to sleep I heard a deep vibration or buzzing in my ear, it lasted for about 10 seconds and then stopped completely. It was extremely loud. Anyways my dream was that of a spinning ring, at first it was spinning in the air attached to some sort of leather cord, then it was on a table (no leather cord) being spun by the guy who appears in most of my dreams. The ring also changed in details, at first it was simple, looked as if made of silver or white gold, with some sort of tribal design. Then the ring became ornate, with a rainbow stone in the center amd smaller stones going around the band (smaller stones were of different colors).

P.S. no explanation of a spinning ring in dream dictionary

14/2/16: A lot of dreams on an otherwise not great night.

Dream 1: It was my brother and I's birthday, and we were at home when we received presents from a friend. The presents were magic the gathering cards in both physical and digital formats (idk lol). These seemed like pretty cool presents, so I was set to play but I got a reminder that it was another friend I have's birthday too. I quickly rushed over to meet him, only realizing one I arrived that I had forgotten a present for him. He said it was ok, and we went to this really long, muddy trench. There were tons of people there as an Elephant was being raced down the trench.

Dream 2: I was part of a debating team of three people. We travelled to a beach where we took on another team of 3 with someone there to adjudicate. Our first person won, then our second person lost to some underhand tactics, but I won in the third position so our team won.

Dream 3: There was some sort of criminal conspiracy theory involving Paul Sturgess. He was part of some youth basketball training camp and every morning while still dark they went out for a jog. Standing at 7 foot 8 he was head and shoulders above everyone else and stood out like a sore thumb. Anyway every morning there ended up being someone killed at a time where the other people in the camp didn't see him. I got tasked as a sort of PI on the case and was watching his movements through binoculars.

Dream 4: I was watching a video about the WWE which showcased a lot of horrible botches and some trade secrets. I saw how the people had flesh coloured shin guards which could pop up or down to protect them. There were also a few horrible botches with one woman stuffing up a move so her foot got twisted around nearly 180 degrees. She was just sitting there screaming her head off as the other person froze.

Dream 5: A friend I had made a video detailing how Asian people view cricket. He talked a bit about the game and then set up a miniature cricket pitch game (like the Test Match cricket tabletop game) in his house and played with that for a while.

Dream 6: In a hurry I chose the wrong quest in Spellweaver, missing out on getting a quest for 540,000 gold, and I was super annoyed with myself for that.

Awakening and going back to sleep.

Dream 7: I had a shower and then went on Facebook. I had received a message from someone and was replying to them.

During my nap today, I had a dream I was somewhere in a field. Suddenly, I was struck by lightning, and the force knocked me to the ground. I could feel the tingling sensation throughout my entire body as the blue energy raced across my skin. Whenever I opened my eyes (as if I was peering into a mirror) I could see the blue light radiating from inside. Physically, I was in no pain, I felt the tingling but it was faint and not painful at all. Mentally, I was calm, gazing at the sky overhead, completely aware I was going through a very peculieur change. Then I woke up.

P.S. According to a dream dictionary lightning eyes is a symbol of a supernatural being, lightning itself is a symbol of prosperity or good luck, also it is a symbol of strong feelings for someone.

What an awesome dream to have on my 200th DJ, it was really stable and quite long. I entered that old 'cave-man mode' once I couldn't think of anything to really do.

#200 - Telekinesis is a wonderful power
I was in a hallway during day time, I followed the hallway until it led me to the back entrance of the building I was in. Ahead of me was a kid, I don't think we were supposed to be there since there was a wedding event going on or something and only the staff were allowed back here. A waiter comes out the back in the standard dark trousers, dress shirt and lower waist apron. I wrap an invisibility cloak around me and the kid, the waiter is suspicious though and gets some dust to blow into the air. He's trying to detect us, we hold our breath until he gives up and leaves. Phew!
I talk to the kid a bit about how invisible people can be really difficult to fight, "I'll teach you a spell just incase you need to use it on invisible people" I say. I raise my wand (where did I get this?) "Ignitus!" I say with force, a bright blue flash radiates out in a delicate fashion, I show him twice I think. I talk about how invisibility is easily countered otherwise it'd be a real pain to deal with, many mages have come up with ways of dealing with people who use it, the spell I taught him is just one of many. I think I walk outside a bit and sit on the grass, there's a gravel driveway for cars to come up to the building nearby. I turn around and head up to the entrance to the building, as I go inside I notice that it's night time. I'm aware enough to become lucid and I turn around and head back outside. I'm in a botanical garden with the sky dark above me, there's some white-lighting from a lamp in the garden. I decide to give telekinesis a go for the dream challenge me and Emnition have going. I look to the side and see four chairs lined up (I assume they were for the aforementioned wedding gig), raising my hand I will them to lift up... Obediently they all fly up a metre of the ground, I'm a little amazed at how natural it feels and how stable the dream is. I swiftly swing my arm left, hurling the chairs with an intense force directly into the brick walls of the building I came from. Next I look at 2 nearby large green rubbish bins, raising both hands they rise before me.. I scrunch my hands into fists and the bins crumple and compact. I release them and they fall to the ground as a plastic heap .
Next I look at a wooden park bench + table nearby, once again I telekinetically lift the object. This time I want to rip it in half. Using both my hands I make a ripping motion, but instead of getting torn in two the bench has this strange glitch effect. The two halves I intended to split kind of rolled outwardly without separating or tearing in any fashion. Bah, whatever. I decide to move on from telekinesis and find something else to do in the dream, it's been going for at least a minute already and is quite stable, though not the most exceptionally vivid (still really good though). I decide to try summon my first ex girlfriend, intending to complete that old dream goal which I no longer care about (though at this point in time I thought I did). I call her name and walk around the edge of the botanical garden, I round a corner expecting her to be there but no luck. I try again, calling her name twice more before rounding the other corner. I see a figure up ahead, success! I run on up to her, her back is facing me. I swivel her around and start flirting + kissing, she's really receptive and things progress instantly Things got sexual pretty quick as cave-man mode consumed me, it was a little more vivid at this point which is great for obvious reasons unfortunately like in most sex-dreams I woke up before getting properly satisfied.

#201
Dream 1 - Candy store lucid
It's night time and I'm in a small well-lit candy store. I turn to my right to see my friend Daniel and his gf Josie bouncing around in an action that looks like they were having sex. They weren't, thankfully, otherwise I would have felt pretty awkward. Apparently it was some new dance craze O_O I head over and start talking with them, there's so much candy around us. I think Josie and Daniel both work here since they're behind the counter. I seem to realize that I'm dreaming, upon this realization the dreamscape changes dramatically but I don't even notice. The light in the room goes out and beside me is a cute chick but she isn't very busty. I'm pretty much in cave-man mode as I instantly decide that I want her, since it's a dream I decide to enhance her bust with my omnipotent dream potential, I place my right hand on her left breast and will it grow . Unfortunately the dream wasn't particularly vivid or stable, I had intended for both breasts to become really nice but instead only one grew... And pretty weirdly. It kind of just shot out, it was longer and harder than it should have been. I became aware of how dark the room actually was and looked up at the the girls face, she really is quite skinny. There's a certain evil feeling coming out of the dream that I tuned into."Ugh, well if I get her other boob to grow then take her shirt off I can just rely on the dream to correct the weirdness" is what I thought. But before I could give it a go I ended up 'waking up'. In real life I was lying on the couch and when I woke up I was the wrong way round, I had this feeling that I was drooling intensely and was slobbering everywhere. I then checked my phone and saw a message from my ex saying "Hey! Hows it going? I really love you and your fossilized wood stuff ..." there was more to the text but I can't remember it. I had told her about all the fossil wood and stuff I had found on my recent trip, which is actually true in real life. But I stopped as I read it and was like "Uhhh what?! O_O", I was confused about why she would say 'I love you' in that sentence and found it a little inappropriate. I had a feeling that she meant it as a friend but it still felt weird, I didn't manage to click to the fact that it was a dream.

Dream 2 - Baby crazy
I remember looking after my daughter, she was just wandering around in my parents house and it was when she was quite a bit younger than she is now. We entered the kitchen and I was practically hover handing to make sure she didn't fall over, she wandered into the kitchen cupboard and my mum came in and distracted me somehow. I was really annoyed because it was somehow inconsiderate and I wasn't able to talk with her because I had to look after my daughter. I turned back to look at my daughter but she was gone. I instantly freaked out and we started looking for her, at this point I looked around at my surroundings and saw my cat Peaches lounging around, as I looked around I kept seeing lots of her. I rounded the corner and looked down the stairs fearing that my daughter had fallen... I was really scared. I look down and saw at the bottom of the stairs... My cat peaches O_O. Lying on top of another Peaches, there were so versions of my cat.

I woke up and next to me was my cat sitting there sleeping...

Dream 3 - Old friend
I must have had a dream much earlier on in the night where I had discovered my friend Aaron, it was insinuated somehow that he was dead and I made a burial for him (thought there was no body I think).

I'm in an institute in what I think is post-apocalyptic (non-zombie, possibly nuclear). It was a concrete facility at the bottom of a deep crater. I have a feeling there was a water on one side. I can't recall what I did while I was inside this facility but I remember that there was a doctor who decided to break the rules and tell my I had to GTFO. He punched a button and sprinted, dragging me and throwing me through an opening outside, then jumped to follow. A door slammed down behind us and we high tailed the hell out of there, it was really intense. I think they were planning on capturing me unawares and using me as a guinea pig (I have a feeling they experimented on lots of animals too). We made it to the top of the crater and sat side by side... It was a calm moment, the person next to me was no longer that doctor, but instead it was Aaron. We talked, I hadn't seen him in so long. Then it dawned on me... And I punch him really hard. "I thought you were dead!!" Tears instantly start flowing and I'm consumed by this extreme sadness, I'm holding him with one hand while the other is on the ground keeping me stable during my emotional fit. I wake up, a little stunned by the intensity of the dream.

So another dream fragment last night. This time I was in some sort of concrete tunnel, and it was GURGANTUAN. An I was just sitting there minding my own business in the middle of this huge, dark tunnel. The weird thing is I was totally calm, siiting with my legs crossed just chillin. Weird right? Never to mind that I could see the walls of the tunnel, as if there was a light somewhere.

P.S. according to a dream dictionary this means my subconscious is trying to show me that I am in a state of transition, or that this tunnel leads to my innermost feelings and thoughts.

I did not MILD last night or the night before as I was taking a break.

In conclusion, very vivid. I am surprised that I did not RC at any time during that. Especially at the end. Well, there's always tomorrow.

2/14/2016

I was at school talking to someone in the front office. I do not know what, but then I realise that I have to walk to college soon. It’s time to go. I tell them that I might be late and they chuckle. I start to walk out and on my way to college. While walking, someone from school catches up to me and their friend as well. We start to walk wherever we might go. Suddenly, I am not walking to school anymore, but somewhere else. I do not consciously realise this, but I am fine with it apparently. We are now in a wooded area with a road next to us. We are talking about random things. One of the people that I am walking with has a large shotgun. I am not worried because I trust him with it and he knows what he’s doing. I no longer realise that we are no longer on the way to our original destination. He was shooting random things with his gun, along with a bird that we walk by after he shot. We would have to hide the gun everytime that someone went by in a car. So we wouldn’t get caught. At one point I was ahold of the gun and there was a State Trooper ahead and I was worried that we’d get caught. We didn’t but it was close. Then, I realise that I need to turn around to get to college. I tell them and they are cool with it, they will no longer follow me as they are going somewhere unknown to me. I start to run as not to be late and I am now running towards this mass of interstates. I mean like 5, 6-lane interstates, huge. I am now running up this incline that is muddy and I realise that I have 3 knives in my hand. I throw them down farther in the ditch and I slip in the mud and end up with a lot of mud on my hands. I am at this point not thinking about going to college, but I know very unhappy and getting so dirty. There is a State Trooper, Crown Vic sitting there facing the other way as though they might catch someone speeding. I run by them and they ask if I need a ride. I walk up to the drivers door and open saying I don’t want to drive. They ask if I want to drive, but I say no as I might crash it. There are 3 women in the car, all State Troopers. They seem nice and, of course, they are state troopers so they are safe. There is no real exchange as to where I need to go but they start to drive in the opposite direction of traffic. Then, dreamlike magically, the flow of traffic changes so we don’t die. No one is talking accept the driver of the Crown Vic. They are watching traffic for lawbreakers and troublemakers. I was thinking that it would be really cool to be in some form of a chase, and soon enough, there is someone in a small transporting truck that is speeding and driving erratically. The trooper notices it and starts to chase. We weave through traffic as the truck driver realises that he was caught. He speeds astronomically up and gets away from us for a while. We enter a tunnel of some sort and the driver does not seem worried. They know what to do and are calm. We wait for the truck driver to come back out the way, which he does. We chase him back out of the tunnel, now he comes back and we manage to get him. The driver or the other two troopers have not called for backup. So we are alone on this interstate in this dimly lit tunnel with a crazy driver and many people walking around and other cars. It seems as though there is a mall here. We don’t want to hit someone. The driver has now crashed and the driver of our car is out of the car shouting orders at the truck driver. He complies. Then, all of the sudden, he starts to get beaten to a pulp by my driver. Except that my driver is still a good 50 feet away from the truck driver. I am displeased by this and know that it’s not real (RC right now DAMNIT) but I see this guy get killed right there. The job is done. Everyone returns to normal. It ends.

No LD’s tonight.

I'm in a rainforest, everything is dark green, from the foilage to the moss-covered trunks, the trees high enough that the sky is reduced to small swatch of grey between the branchs. There are grooves on the ground, incovering dark, red-tinged dirt. The path I'm walking on is narrow, cramped by the flora. It smells cold, like frozen stones and wet dirt. At the end of the path I find a clearing, with a herd of baie horses. There's lots of them, enough that the clearing feels overcrowned, claustrophobic. They aren't big or tall horses; I would call them ponies, but they don't have that king of build. I feel uneasy in the middle of them, nervous and restless.

Spoiler for you are what you eat:

I still walk in a little deeper in the herd, and I find a foal, that seem to be grazing. I look down and it's not grazing; it's nimbling on a horse leg, the bone at the top gleaming in the gray light, the flesh very red and wet with blood. The foal have sharp, flat teeths, and its tongue makes a grinding sound on the skin of the leg. Its nimbling makes the leg move at the joints, the hoof twitching. Looking around, I an see the dead horse it belongs to, a baie one. It's partially eviscerated, other horses eating off the carcass, ripping pieces of flesh and slowly masticating, big dark eyes waiting.

I take a small step back, and suddently I'm surrounded with other horses; they are taller, with a more heavy build; golden palomino, with a bleached blond mane and light gold pelt; event their hooves are light-colored. The one closer to me stomps the ground, and I can feel it shake; the baie horses nicker and steps back, shaking their heads. I can feel the heat radiating from the golden horses, engulfing me. The one closer to me is holding its head at eyes level with me; it's eyes are black, fringed with almost white lashes.
I am holding a silver thing that looks like a big spoon or a laddle. I bang it against a nearby trunk; it makes the same kind of sound that the hoof stomping, but mutch deeper, the vibration rippling through me and the clearing. The baie horses step sharply back, shaking their heads and tails as if bothered by flies. I do it again, and they flee. The golden horses flood the clearing, and the light sees to be a little clearer.

I'm in a house overlooking the forest, with a woman and her very young daughter. The little girl starts complaining about tummy aches, before blunting out "I'm having twins!" the mother freaks out, but I somehow know that the one having twins is one of the golden mares. It seem to calm down the woman, and get go downstairs. The kitchen is flush with the forest, and there are horses wairing for us. I search the frige and get two apples out, handing the biggest one to the woman. She's nervous, afraid that the mare will chomp her fingers. I show her how to give them the fruit, making my hand nice and flat with the apple in my palm. The horse I'm offering it to take a big bite out of it, chew a little then come back for the rest, its nose soft and velvety. I hear the loud craking sound of the apple being chewed up and there's some crumbs in my hand. I brushes them off and see that the woman managed to give her apple to the other horse just fine.
We mash somes medicinals herbs and clay together and looks for the pregnant mare. It turned into a young woman, and her belly is so huge she can't move from the bed she's sitting on. I give her the mix, and she start covering her swollen stomatch with it, sighing in relief. Her skin is so streched I can see her veins running under, and the pulse of the blood in it.

I took dream leaf again, the alternative method really seems to work for me. Take a red pill the previous night and then the next night (which was last night) take the blue pill right before bed and then dream. I had a series of dreams, some of them repeated but there was something a little different each time so here we go.

1st dream: I hanged out with a childhood friend named Jet and another friend (who I knew in the dream world but not in the real world) we were kid of offroading with a jeep somewhere out in the boonies and it lasting long enough for day to turn to night, around night time I pulled out my phone and explained I wanted to record what we were doing and we came across this large mountain, it was sitll in the distance but it turns out to be a Volcano and it erupted and large amounts of black smoke and very hot stones poured out of it and they kept we kept driving toward it and a very hot rock landed on my stomach and it burned and I said to turn around and we did. We had to do something and take a drug test later the next day but we decided to get really really high anyway (weed people calm down) and so we went for the drug test still very high and there were a lot of people who had to do it but this test was different then normal drug tests we had to sit at a desk and spit into a test tube but not only that we had to put a manikin arm in the tube and it would change colors depending on if we were high or not and also it would inscribe in the arm our names and birthdays. For some reason it enscribed the wrong birthday (my real birthday is Jan 16th 1996, but it said Jan 16th 1949) and trust me, in my dream I was still my young self. The guy next to me was for some reason FaZe Apex and we talked a little bit and my arm started to change colors very fast and it was like neon weird colors and Apex said "this guy is still really high wtf" and it got to a point where everyone was trying to take the test tube away because I was sitting there staring at the changing colors for a long time, I said hold on and I put it down and my dream ended.

I had two lucid dreams but neither of them lasted very long, for some reason I would realize I am dreaming but before I could change anything I would wake up in a different dream and the thing that makes it even more weird is I was thinking about lucid dreaming WHILE I WAS DREAMING and I didn't recognize that I was dreaming in most of my dreams.

1st dream repeat: This one was about going offroading again in the open jeep but instead of my childhood friend it was one of my current best friends (lets call him Alex) and the other dude was the same, I didn't know his name but somehow we were friends. We had to run down this large hill to get to the jeep and it turned into a race so what I did was I jumped off part of the cliff instead and I had that suit that can make a person glide down, it had like flying squirl arms and legs and I flew over Alex and I was like "I am winning!" Both of my friends said I was nuts but I pulled the parachute last minute and landed perfectly next to the Jeep. I got in the passenger and Alex got in the back we drove around a lot and as day turned into night I started recording on my phone again, this time there was no Volcano but we got into a clearing in a wooded area and we stopped, at this point I realized I was dreaming and I just said "You know, you guys are my best friends." I didn't get a response because when I turned around they were gone and I was alone by myself and Darkness started to envelope my world and my dream ended. I think the part of me that is so very alone started to kick in once I realized I was dreaming and it took away my friends and said "you don't deserve to be happy, you don't deserve to be with friends."

2nd dream, it was very short, I woke up and I was a kid sitting in a bus with other kids and we were going on a field trip, I talked about my dreams but every other kid was mean and was a bully to me. I didn't let it bother me and I just woke up in a different dream. which was another repeat of dream 1.