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November 2, 2012

No aids, No WBTB

I took allergy meds and a little DayQuil so I was pretty zonked. I gave myself a break from inducing lucidity because I was not feeling well.

Party 5:21AM

I am parting with my cousin from Texas. There is pot everywhere. There was something about being stuck in a cage.

November 3, 2012

3MG Melatonin, 200MG B6, SSILD

11:22PM
I was camping with V and S. I read V's Facebook status about ready to break camp but there is a picture of her being home. S's says something about their kids.

12:33AM
I am playing Sega Genesis Shadowrun but its on XBOX Kinects. I do hand gestures to attack.

WBTB, 400MG B6, SSILD WILD

I can't focus much on SSILD and pass out rather quickly. I think next time I feel so sleepy I will just do a more traditional WILD tech. That or try to stay awake longer. The problem was I knew that I didn't have much time once I finally woke up for WBTB. I still feel pretty tired and lack sleep time.

4:46AM
Long dream about playing someones old Atari. The game turns into a real life adventure. I am attacking inanimate objects that are coming to life. I completely smash a broom stick and thought I won. I realized it was more about climbing levels and turning of the power.
I quit the game and hand the joystick back to a guy at looks like Leo (That '70s Show).

4:49AM
I wake up from a dream and My wife and I are at my ex's parents house. My wife's mom and my ex's mom leave to go shopping. My ex wife goes with them. I am sitting on the cough with my wife trying to remember if my ex just kissed me goodbye or not. I think she did and can't believe she would do that especially in front of my wife. My wife is not freaking out so I wonder. I feel really confused.

6:16AM
There is a horde of old people from the nursing home coming over a grassy hilltop. I notice they are all zombies. They begin to shoot rockets out of their eyes at me.

Last night was filled with many dreams.


1. I was watching a movie about this guy who had jumped out of an airplane in outer space to skydive to another planet. Then the rest of his team followed him and they all began freefalling down this very long chasm and then just kind of hovered near the bottom. THen they all of a sudden they got bound by these mystical ring things that wouldnt let them go, and then out of no where a bunch of tentacle things broke through the wall, impaled everyone, and then ripped them apart. I remember in the dream though saying the special affects were horrible. Anyways, then there was the main landing party on the surface and they suddenly heard static over the radio. Then the creatures broke through the surface of the planet and grabbed everyone else and smashed / ripped them as well. Weirdly, there was this one lady though who had pepper spray and this for some reason warded off the aliens when nothing else would.
The aliens were really wierd cause they were these fat women, but they could run really fast. Annyways, they kept chasing this one lady until she went and hid under a truck or something and one of the aliens had sympathy and guarded her.

2. Someone wanted to watch this zombie movie so I went and started it for them.

3. Another video game dream with Sonic and Eggman in it. Can't remember what was going on

4. I was at a Runza restaraunt. I finished eating and went outside. Then this really wierd guy with a backpack started trying to open my trunk when I got in and jack my car or something. I immediately started it and backed up, sending him flying. Then I drove out of the parking lot and began merging onto the highway and calling the police.

5. I had been invited to a friend's birthday party through Steam and we were all gonna go to a disco thing, although that is the LAST place I would imagine my actual friends going. Anyways, then about 10 random friends came online and then another one invited me to thier birthday party. We all went to the second friends house and then I was holding this foam thing and they were all throwing baseballs at it. Then we were all randomly at this park and there was a big cannon in the middle shooting HUGE lacrosse balls at everyone.

6. I was checking the job opportunities for Sega of America website, and they had filled 3 of ther 7 open positions overnight.

This means normal dream
This means lucid dream
This means I'm loosing my lucidity
This means non-dream notes
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I can not remember all of the dream. But, what I remember is worth putting in because I remember this parts vividly.

I am in a mansion of some sorts in a large concrete pool. The walls are made of tiny white tiles and on each end of the pool there is an alcove, one is open air and the other is closed in and looks like a game room. I am a Vaporeon and am diving and twisting through the water, having fun on my own like I normally do in the pool. On the open alcove there is a trio of Pokemon in a triangular stance, a Gardivoir, a Zangoose, and a Swanna. They have their heads bowed and the Gardivoir looks like she is either praying or chanting and they have weird runes around them, like a power circle. I swim over to the closed alcove where a young man is typing on a laptop. I shake myself off and then, suddenly, a blast of power and floating runes knock me off of my feet. I look up and there are those three Pokemon, but they are not their normal colors, they are shades of deep purple. I realize that they are now dangerous, aggressive, Shadow Pokemon, like in Pokemon XD. I snarl at them, arching my back and making myself threatening and the Gardivoir motions for the Zangoose. The Zangoose lunges for me but I sidestep it and grab it by the scruff as it flys by and plunge into the water. I do an underwater corkscrew, feeling so fast and powerful as I glide through the water. The Zangoose slashes at me so I surge to the surface, push the Zangoose into the wall as hard as I can and hear a crack. It moves it's head, slow like it is sore and injured, and I see the tiles have cracked and are dripping with blood. The soaked and injured Zangoose paddles back to the closed alcove and as it climbs awkwardly to shore it and the other two Shadow Pokemon return to their normal colors. I pull myself up as well, panting and tired. The man looks to me and says, "What happend?" I walk up to him and whisper in his ear "I saw the Gardivoir chanting some runes. I think this was no accident."

End

The Night of November 2nd / The Morning of November 3rd

It's been awhile since my last entry, but here we go!

Pre-knowledge:

I was originally going to wake up at 9:30am this morning because I wanted to workout. But when my alarm went off, I just went back to bed. I'm going to label any violent parts with RED.

The Dream:
I was driving a huge ship in a very tropical-like scene. The ship was made of wood, and was gigantic. It didn't have sails. It was powered by motor. There were a couple people on the ship with me, wanting to anchor at a beach to relax. I was driving the ship, where normally, a ship as big as that couldn't go, because of the depth, but I didn't really pay attention to that.

We found a small mangrove beach, and I parked the boat parallel to shore. I anchored the back end of the boat, then got out to anchor the front. It turned out to be a major pain to anchor it. I anchored it really tightly, because nothing else worked. A few seconds later, the back end of the boat swung out into the channel, because the anchor came undone. The boat started drifting away.

Luckily, one of the people was still on it, and I told her to drive. I sprinted along the beach, then dove into the water to catch up to the boat. I got on the back, but the girl was not good at driving. I was hanging onto the back end of the boat, as the girl was speeding around turns and rivers. I moved to the side of the boat, which was worse, because I kept getting thrown around. We eventually stopped.

It was just me and the girl. I seemed to be a much older, more powerful figure. I'm 18, I seemed to be in my late 20s/early 30s. The girl looked to be around 20ish. We were in a town. It was late afternoon, so the sun was setting, and it lit the town up with an orange tint. We were walking along an alley, which was actually kind of like a lowered sidewalk. Our shoulders were level with the road. There was also a triangular roof above us.

The girl was talking to someone on level with the road. She was questioning him about a man. I don't really remember who. Things were getting sketchier the longer we walked in this alley. People were open wielding guns, pressuring us to buy things, etc. One guy, who seemed really small (like midget size) bumped into me. He was carrying a brown paper bag. I saw a gun in the bag and I assumed he was part of a pickpocket group.

I grabbed his head, and thrust it into the wall. His head exploded everywhere. Someone on street level, outside the alleyway, started yelling something at us. The girl seemed to be disappointed that I did that. I don't remember why, but we started running. The lowered sidewalk turned into an actual alleyway. We couldn't see the street anymore and the roof was still above us. The buildings got smaller, and seemed to be made of clay.

It was sunset, and we ran to the end of the alley. The darkness parted, and I was kind of blinded by the sunlight. We were standing in an old playground I think. There was a broken, rusty swing set, and we were standing on mulch. There were black plastic barriers surrounding the area that were about waist high. It was completely silent. The swing set consisted of two swings. One of them was missing. The other, creaking gently as the wind played with it.

I looked to the left, and there was a man standing there. He had a large staff, which was made of metal, was probably taller than he was, and had some kind of pressure systems on the ends. The girl and the man exchanged dialogue, of which I don't remember. Then the man took a fighting stance, and so did the girl. I figured now was the time to beat stuff up. We started fighting, and the girl seemed to stay out of it. I was wailing on the guy, but every single attack I launched at him, he blocked with his staff.

After a few minutes of fighting, I hit the end of his staff with my palm. From the other end of the staff, a white dove came out and flew away. The man started laughing. I kept hitting the end of the staff with all force. The doves didn't just fly out, they shot out, like a cannon, depending on how hard you hit the end. Every time I hit it, the guy seemed to giggle, as if it was his plan.

I then decided to hit the end lightly, and the dove only shot about 4 feet into the air above us. I yelled to the girl to hit it. The girl had some kind of weapon. I wasn't sure if it was a gun or a slingshot, but the bird exploded as she shot it. Some kind of droppings fell to the ground, like an owl pellet. I opened up the pellet, and inside was an egg with some feathers. I snatched the egg. The man with the staff seemed to have disappeared.

The girl helped me up. Suddenly a man with some serious five o' clock shadow appeared with a cigarette in his mouth. He congratulated us in getting the egg. He asked for a private word with me. He said something about someone being better than me, as if he was my boss or something. He plunged his lit cigarette into my cheek and I woke up.

[Saturday, November 3rd, 2012]
<I lied in my bed, after stretching and meditating for a good long time.
I told myself and whoever would help me, that I needed help having a meaningful dream. Or a lucid dream.
Falling asleep- I instantly began to have dreams, just cloudy ones. I woke up after some time. And re-thought my
intentions to wake up and not move to enter into a DEILD.>

The next time I wake up, completely still.
I feel my body frozen and numb.
I will myself up out of my bed towards the front end of it.
And find my back to the wall.
I repeated in my head-
"MAINTAIN CONTROL. MAINTAIN CONTROL."
But I struggled and got excited and woke up.
I rose my head out from the covers and thought-
"WAIT, THIS IS ANOTHER DREAM."
Suddenly, the darkness in front of me was transformed...
into odd colors and sounds. Spirals and fireworks.
The door had an outline of light that was separated from the door itself!
I got excited again and...

<Then I woke up for real.>
<Through my excitement, I still fell back asleep.>

I'm in a mix of Safeway and Target. I go back with Nathan and Alex to the back of the store. I find a dark corner
where no one goes and in the wall, there's a panel missing. I crawl into the panel and sit there for a moment in the
dusty old grey... and feel... a strange deja vu wipe over me. I find my old, golden, thin-frame glasses that my
Mom's been looking for over two years to find.

<fast forward in dream>

Scientists figure out how to create God, and the head of the company in charge is talking to the father of "Morel
Orel"'s Orel. They're in a dark room with a spot light on their wooden meeting table. Orel's Dad sat there in a dim
meeting room as one of his lead scientists said:

"We've been able to create women, doughnuts, nipples, cars...the whole works!"

Orel's Dad squinted his eyes and said, "Ooohkaayyy. Riiiight." In mocking disbelief.
The scientists went on to tell him that he was to receive cars and money and new technology.
He owned half the company apparently!

I remember a faint impression of being in Nevada or a desert area and I saw large satellite dishes.

<fast forward in dream>

My twin brother had a book that would allow him to have whatever he wanted.
He just had to write it in a blank page.
He was mad at me for some reason and was threatening to write me away.
I grabbed the book and held it shut, we both tried forcing the book out of each others hand.
He tried to cut my hair with a pair of scissors, but I got my head away.
I grabbed the scissors and pretended to cut his hair until he let go of the book.
Then I ran into the other room and hid the book.

Dream 1- I am laying down on a bed and it is dimly lit with just a single lamp on the right side. While laying on this bed I become lucid. I don't get up off the bed but I sit up. I then say that I want a man with a gun to come attack me and the door that I'm facing opens up and a man pokes his head in. I reach into my pocket expecting to feel a gun but it's empty. I panic and wake myself up.

Dream 2- I am in an amusement park and I am trying to get on this red train but it's unstable and I keep flipping off and when I almost make it on the person driving it starts moving and I start to trip. When I finally do get on the train I become lucid and the first thing I do is wake myself up. For what reason I don't know.

Dream 3- I'm in an amusement park on a spooky ride which goes slow but it's supposed to be scary. If I look behind us there's is someone on a wagon cart trying to catch up to us which I beleive to have been snoopy.

The first time I have ever been lucid twice in one night (besides my first Deild) and all I did was waste it for whatever reason.

Dream 1- After some of this dream has passed I am standing in a bright city around some other people and we get into a helicopter and fly a little ways away. We land in front of a graveyard which is in the city but has a fence around it. We go in and there is this spirt there and we start to fight it.

Fragment 1- I am looking at a map and we are trying to get to a center are which is in a square and had a stairway going up each side of it.

Dream 2- I am in the cafeteria with my friends and we are trying to Wild in the middle of lunch. We all close are eyes on three and just sit there trying to Wild but it doesn't succeed.

Dream 3- I am in my house and my parents are in the middle of fighting. I threaten my dad that if he touches my mom I'm going to slam this metal flowerpot into his nuts

Dream 4- I am in the hallway walking to my classroom and I stop and talk to a few people that I know. I then enter class and my mom is there and for some reason I now have a my sleeping bag and a pillow. The teacher turns off the lights and we all start to watch a movie on the smart board. After a little while I become the character in the movie.

Some dream about minecraft that was very stable and vivid. I can't really remember much more than digging around in this cave and finding a bunch of diamonds.
Eventually I came back to the surface and the minecraft appearance of the dream changed to realistic. I was in a swamp.

Something about Lia Manei (My dream guide) appearing agian.

I can hardly remember much, but I saw a real-life zigzagoon, I had this animal/human companion/bodyguard thing that would make a log of everything that was said around her, I had to listen to this audiobook story thing for homework that was either horror or smut, I went to a class that taught how to make Apple products because I accidentally lied about signing up for it.

Dream - Lucid

I was in a room with many other people. There were tables and chairs. I was trying to get all these teenage girls who were addicted to drugs to go to rehab. I was one of many people doing this. We would grab the teenage girls, accuse them of being addicted to cocaine or some other hard drug, and drag them off to a rehab center. We took them in and into a big, spacious room. Many would sneakily escape, so we'd have to go back out and find them again.

There was one girl I found sitting at a table in the room from the beginning of the dream. She had light brown skin. I accused her of doing "blow", then I took her with me. She was not happy about it, and was resisting quite a bit. Then, as I was leading her, we came across a hole in the ground. The bottom was lit up with artificial light, so it must have been some sort of tunnel. There were some stairs that led down, and the drop wasn't too bad. The girl then fell into the hole, and out of my sight as she hit the bottom.

At first, I thought she may be dead, and I was panicking. I then heard her moaning in pain, so I ran down the stairs and to her side. She couldn't get up; I think her hip may have been broken. I looked up and saw a woman standing next to us. I shouted
"Call 911!!" even though I had my own phone to do so.
She got out her phone and dialed 911.

I don't really remember any more of that dream.

Modesty (6:57)

I've stayed the night at an acquaintance's house, but we're not exactly friends. In the morning, I'm looking for a bathroom when I pass a room where he's talking with some friends. They see me. I'm not wearing a shirt at the moment, and I hope they don't think that's rude of me.

Challenge Level (6:57)

I and a friend have decided to play the challenge dungeon in this game. It's the sort of freakishly difficult level that's unlockable at the end of a game in order to get the player to put in a few more hours playing it. So my friend and I are running around this dungeon, working together to kill monsters. So far, it's only been one monster at a time, albeit tough ones. Then we run around a corner and I accidentally step in a shallow pool of lava. I jump out again quickly. Then we're attacked by a Charizard. It almost kills us before we hide behind a corner. I charge up my breath attack, then step around the corner to hit the Charizard with it. It takes two shots, but finally, we succeed. Then there's a cutscene showing about a dozen monsters marching in formation down the hallway towards us. No more of this one-at-a-time business, apparently. This must be where the dungeon gets freakishly difficult. My friend and I share a laugh, accepting that this is probably the end of our playing today.

Spoiler for sexual content:

Now the camera switches to the inside of the next room. Sort of a sneak peek at what's waiting for us there if we get through the monsters. There's a naked woman having a conversation with some other people. She's distressed about something; something related to living in a dungeon. I'm impressed by the realism of the graphics for her body. It's definitely sexy. Another naked woman comes into the room, and to demonstrate her point about everyone always wanting her around just to be sexy, the first woman says, "Everyone always wants me to do this:" And then she and the other woman get on the floor and start grinding. A couple moments later, I wake up for the predictable reason.

AME

Two nights ago I dreamed of AME. She had on shiny, thin-framed, black-rimmed glasses which she did not wear IWL. She also had on another...something, that had the same type of frame as the glasses, but it was worn below her glasses. It was clearly a dream apparatus.

Her hair was just as I remember it--silky, short, and black. She was beautiful.

Graveyard Seance

OK, so it was a false memory, but I was looking at a plot in a graveyard and remembering that I had done some kind of seance there.

I don't think that I really conjured anything, but it was odd that I was then asleep, woke to hear someone come in the house, and I couldn't open my eyes because I was...sleeping. I used my dream hands to open my eyes.

As I opened my eyes, they were extremely open. It was like a cartoon. They were SUPER open. I was afraid of what the person was doing there because nobody was supposed to be able to get in.

It was then actually, that I woke up to see the grave site that I remembered doing something in. Time kind of wrapped around itself. Very odd.

Vote

I dreamed that I missed my opportunity to vote. Someone told me they had voted for Gary Johnson and I started thinking about if I could still vote or not.

BTW, yes, I am voting Gary Johnson IWL.

Wokefrom this. 8pm Sat 3-Nov-22

I'm sitting in an old living room of old, kind, people who offered me accomodation. Suddenly I go to the bedroom that they said I could rent. I begin cleaning it. It wasn't dirty but the shelves and mantle place was really full of nicknacks.

I am using a straw broom to sweep the nice nicknacks off the shelves.

They gasp.

I am saying to these kind folk "I won't break anything and I will wash, dry and box all these lovely nicknacks, for you."

They, a married couple, relax.

I continue sweeping off the nicknacks. Most were figurines of about 10 centermeters (4"). Some are cute toddler figurines.

I wake. It's 8pm

So I have been keeping a log of my dreams for a while now on my phone and I figured I would put the interesting/very vivid ones on here.
6/27/2012
1st
Riding in a car with my friends when thousands of white birds begin circling the car. It suddenly takes a turn for the worst and they all smash through the car's windshield. Killing everyone else but me.

2nd
Flying a plane. For some reason I'm teaching kids to fly. I have to use a lighter to start the plane for some reason. Also when I am flying I have to keep a mickey mouse mousepad over a hole in the plane to keep flames from burning up my legs. Kids are screaming. I do an emergency landing and everyone is alright/

3rd.
I have some lucid dreams where I am gliding across the ground. Not exactly flying but more like floating. Gonna keep working on that.

I put an alarm 4 hours i went to bed to do a WILD technique, I have just started attempting to have a normal sleep schedule again so all my dreams are hazy and only seem only a few seconds long. I have one dream where i just see a text of my friend caitlyn that i haven't talked to in years and she just texted hey, whatsup? I was kind of dissapointed to wake up and check my phone that I had no such text message lol. I had a few other dreams where I was with my cousins in this weird building with bright colors and the walls inside the building were made of glass and we were playing some sort of bowling game on the first floor. I also had another dream where My family and I were staying in this very large haunted house with old furniture. The rooms were very big. I should take notice as a recurring element in all my dreams is the weird architecture.