non-lucid

Disturbed WILD (WILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Not sure if this is a WILD or DILD, but anyway I am classing it as a WILD because it arose from me attempting a WILD in conjunction with some binaurals using sbagen. Just the binaurals and pink noise - I have found that if I try to mix binaurals with waterfall or river or wave sounds I just dream about water, and the mixes with music and verbal suggestions just seem to nag me out of sleep. So I have begun experimenting..

Things got a bit hazy while entering the dream, I may have been properly asleep for a minute or two (hence it being a possible DILD) but anyway I am in a room with some people I know from IWL, there is some kind of party and we are expecting more people to turn up. It is getting dark very quickly, like someone is turning the brightness down. I think "it worked I am dreaming", and I know that I will have to stabilise the dream because it is getting really dark now the visual environment is nearly gone. I try to spin but this seems to speed up the waking process. I try to touch something in my dream and connect to the dream envronment but I become aware of my waking hand. I think - I am going to have to open my eyes and do a RC to check for FA - which I do using my watch. It seems I am awake, I try to DEILD, and it is going well, I am drifting through HI and I can feel that "dreamspace" around me, some dream begins to form around me which is some kind of wide open space, but then there is a loud noise which pulls me back to waking. I try to drift back to the dream space and am having some success but the noises continue (someone outside). It is very distracting and frustrating. I decide to wake properly and do WBTB.

Two Adventure Dreams

Road Trip and Back Problems (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am at home (different home to In Waking Life) packing for a road trip. John drives round and picks me up. We load the car.
We are on our way. I don't notice at the time but even though it is a standard family hatchback there are at least five of us in there and there is somehow room to stand up and move around a bit.
There is myself and John (he is driving) and two or three girls (early 20's). John is concerned that he won't be able to drive anymore because he has hurt his back - a slipped disk or something. He takes his shirt off so I can try to manipulate it back into place. The girls take thier tops off too, which pleasantly surprises me.
Somebody notices the weather has changed and it is going to rain so we decide to go back to pack some rain-weather stuff. I am thinking that I left my umberella behind and I need to pick it up...

This dream has a similar feel to a dream I had last month, that for some reason I didn't post.... Here it is.


Weird Boat Adventure (Non-lucid)


I am buying fruit in an asian shop, there isn't much there worth buying it is all a bit rotten. I am buying it to help my friend (who looks a bit like PJ - an old friend I haven't seen for at least 20 years) he is weak from helping me from a long adventure and needs to eat some fruit.
The old asian shop lady is behaving strangely, she won't sell me the last pears, even though they are barely sellable anyway she seems to want to keep them.
In the adventure with 'PJ' at one point we were on a boat in a river (I think we had escaped from somewhere) It was a small speed boat sized boat that appeared to be made of brushed steel - very heavy. It was sinking but the river was turning into a path (small bricks like a driveway or pedestrianised road) We were then out of the boat exploring opposite sides of the river, which is like swamp/jungle/everglades. He finds something and throws it to me saying 'check this out' it is a clay snakes head that looks a bit like a stylised dragon head. he asks me if (on this planet) this is as big as they get. It was pretty normal sized for a snakes head so I say 'yeah', thinking that where he comes from they are probably much bigger, like dragons. Actually he reminds me of Kefl - another friend of mine with dreadlocks, or Cyote from the Red Mars books by KSR.

Musical Key Finding (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am in a room where there are a number of people listening to a 12ish year old girl playing a piano (I think this dream follows on from a previous piano dream). She is playing this really good little tune she has made up. Some of the other people there encourage her to submit it for something (a competition I think).
I help her by figuring out which key it is in (Dm) and we work together on this for a while.
A missed dreamsign here is that when I am trying to figure out the key it is very hard to do so. For some reason it is very hard to concentrate on the keys and see which ones are which. It takes a titanic effort to finally identify the D key and then work out that she is playing a minor scale from that, but when I figure it out all of a sudden the keyboard appears really clearly.

Pianos (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am in this room with lots of different pianos and keyboards. I get the feeling I have been invited to try them out. I play something classical on one of them. I try another and it sounds a bit like a honkey-tonk harpsichord (wtf? Nice sound though), it seems just right for some ragtime or boogie-woogie so I play some of that...
I am a much better player in my dream than In Waking Life. I start to pay more attention to which keys I am playing to see if it corresponds to how it would be IWL. I am playing quite fast and i am surprised that even though this is a dream it is so technically accurate. I am in no way lucid though.

Singed Eyebrows (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am sitting in a large room - like the reception room of a mansion. People begin entering the room , putting on coats and leaving the building, saying goodbyes and see you laters and stuff.
People are leaving because it is the end of a Dharma study group but all different people to In Waking Life (I don't notice this at the time) I do notice that the teacher is new - A large man. He comes in and I ask him how it went, I also remark on how lucky he is to be teaching such a bunch of sincere practitioners. He is not really paying any attention to me.
Alex, A friend IWL enters the room and is about to leave. He is looking for a pen and I offer him mine, but it appears he has this really nice pen and lighter set. Looks like gold.
He notices me admiring it and begins to demonstrate the lighter to me. It is one of those wind-proof turbo lighters with a flame like a rocket engine. This one seems to get more elaborate the more I examine it. I give it a try and singe my eyebrows and hair.

Band Practice (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am walking up some stairs in a house. It is not decorated and there is no carpet so my footsteps are very noisy on the wooden stairs.
I have a small drum im my hands. I enter a room and there is my girlfriend with the guitarist of a local band we sometimes help out with In Waking Life. I get the feeling there is supposed to be a practice but there is no-one else there. I do not play in this band IWL and I don't feel as if I do in the dream, anyway he starts to play the guitar and I think that seeing as I have this drum I may as well join in and try to complement his playing. It is all improvised and is sounding good.
I notice out of the window (which is quite high up) that it looks as if the local football (soccer) stadium is on fire. I say something like "hey the stadium's on fire" and we stop playing. We all look out of the window and it now looks like there is just some pyrotechnics display there and it is not on fire at all.

Forgotten Joke (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am in this huge waiting room - Like at a large airport but quite sparse. I am sitting on those waiting room type chairs in a row.
There is a young girl (15 or so) sitting next to me. She strikes me as being homeless or traveling. She is very unhappy so I tell her this really funny joke which we laugh at together quite a lot. Many people in the huge room seem to notice this and appreciate it. I think that I really must remember this joke when I wake up (I am not lucid) a short while later I do wake up.

Covert Op Weirdness (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am walking around in a town or city (picture UK city, not US) with an empty attache case hidden in my coat like it contains something. A guy is following me - I am on my way somewhere and I walk down a quiet area behind some buildings. The guy confronts me and demands the case and pulls it from me. I run off, looking back I can see him opening it and discovering he has been tricked.
I get to a friend's house (John C) As he lets me in I talk normally to him but I write on a piece of tissue paper that I think I am bugged. He doesn't get what I mean, thinking I have an illness type bug or something.
I am worried he will say something we don't want picked up on the bug. I am not sure I am bugged but I can't take the risk that the guy earlier didn't slip some kind of bug on me.
I write on another piece of tissue paper 'I am bugged - you know wired' or something. I think he gets it as he starts to talk joining in my innocent sounding BS for the sake of any secret listeners.
I notice there is lots of snot that has been coming out of my nose and I think that is what you get for thinking about bugs in a dream - but I am not lucid. I wake up.
It is a strange dream, John and myself are conspirators and yet we are not - kind of making it up as we go along like a game.
This is near the end of my last REM of the night and I feel a lot happened in this dream previously and it was linked to previous dreams but I only remember fragments. I have not been getting much sleep lately and I think it is affecting my recall and I feel too tired in dreams to put effort in to lucidity. May try WILDing more.

False Awakening (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

went to sleep with earbuds in with 6 hour delayed lucidremix.mp3 but I woke before it went off, remembered following dream.
I am lying in bed, False awakening. I have dreamed that I heard the mp3 and it made me lucid and I have woken up (I am not lucid) My girlfriend is there and she is afraid.


Attempted WILD in nap (Non-lucid)

Trying to WILD in the afternoon... surfing the border for a while but then begin to dream non-lucidly
In an apartment with girlfriend in dream. I fiddle with the controls of an audio hi-fi but it is not working properly. I try to talk to my GF I think I am close to becoming lucid, but sleep paralysis (more accurately - some awareness leaking in to my dream of REM atonia) gets me so I am struggling to speak (I hate it when that happens) so I wake up fully.
Should have tried to DEILD right then but maybe next time...

Just a couple of Non-Lucids (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dreamed of being at a Dharma study group I go to. Venue is different (Dreamsign) also some students are different. Teacher was same. My girlfriend was there (she goes in Waking Life). She was talking about some work some builders had been doing (from previous dream (Dreamsign)).
An old lady student challenged My GF saying that it is meaningless what My GF is saying. My GF gets defensive and comes up with some defense that is pretty lame but a good effort - she is upset and I get the impression that people want me to take her side - but the old lady is right and she made some good points in the argument. I talk Dharma with the old lady for a bit. She is very sincere and determined, she challenged my GF out of compassion it is clear but she doesn't say so.
I go into another room and notice that my hair (which is quite long) is very wet and dripping with water (Dreamsign). I try to dry and tidy it but I have no towel - I do find a mirror, nothing odd about the reflection but I am concentrating on my hair. I do something else and my dream changes....

...Sometime later I am eating outside in some kind of large park-like area (Dreamsign). I am sharing food with a companion. There is a group of (other homeless people (Dreamsign)) some distance away I am looking at them accross a lawn. They seem to be inviting/challenging us to join them but I don't want to. My companion communicates with them and there is some interaction between all of us - I get drawn in to some interaction, people are curious about me and asking questions. I give short answers and try to make it clear I am being solitary. Some of them are more challenging than others but I manage to be friendly and they seem to get the idea I am ok but just want to be left alone.
A tall smiley loud Irishman who looks a bit like Johnny-Jack from the last series of Sapphire and Steel(TV) but genuinely charismatic and open - he is their leader - tries to draw me into thier group quite aggressively but also being friendly. He is testing me - asking me to do some makework/meaningless/menial task for him (something to do with pulling up grass?(wtf?)). I say no, he says why?(pushing). I look at him straight in the eye and put on a strong Irish accent and say 'Because I am not fecking Irish!'
He gets the idea and we have a fight. No-one is hurt and there is much amusing mutual piss-taking.
It seems we are more of a group now that we have established where we are with each other. We all share food. I am still being solitary but it is accepted now there is mutual respect.
I wake up.

Short DILD with some missed dreamsigns (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Was sharing a room with a one-armed man (left arm missing) like the guy from Twin Peaks(TV). For some reason I felt oppressed by him, but then he was prety weird. Anyway I was being polite. I remember that in a previous dream that led to this one I was involved in some major building construction/demolition (common in my dreams - a dreamsign but I missed it this time)
I took some laundry to the laundrette and put it in the washer. My mother was there advising me about soap powder (another dreamsign I missed - she has been dead for years).
While leaving the launderette I was walking very fast and I had to step aside to avoid a young woman coming the other way, I think this made me more aware. As I was walking down the street I started to pay attention to my footsteps - they were a bit lighter and longer than usual (another of my dreamsigns) - I checked them more closely and decided they were pretty normal and I was not dreaming but then I decided to try to extend them in a floaty way and it then became obvious that I was dreaming. I flew up into the air to prove it.
I then proceeded to explore the dream world but I was not careful to increase lucidity and stabilise the dream, and after a short dream walk through some kind of festival I lost it and woke up.

Was with baron riding a car with family. My other family member had a dog who had to go to the hospital so we scrolled buy to drop it off. There was a massive earthquake and everything was falling apart. I held on to baron. I kept him safe. We kept driving to some place with water. We were supposed to meet people *by the way was clogged. Eventually we had to travel by foot. There was supposed to be another massive earthquake that would rattle the world. I was scared for baron. I kept him close as we took a shortcut to our destination. I felt the second one coming so I jumped and ran *to some temple. There was a couple hiding and I went outside farther away into a murky pit. It happened. Rocks were falling from the sky and I dodged them. Baron was ok. The couple was knocked unconscious but ended up being fine. *

There was a giant party at some baseball players house hosted by a friend of mine. The first party was huge. There was alchohol on the floor and everyone kept sliding around. I broke a few things. The baseball player came was disappointed. It was too fancy and not his style. After the party he got in a fight with his wife and my mom and her went to talk all night. In the morning he wanted to throw a party that night but less fancy with a bang. I was gonna spin fire later. My mom final calmed the wife down and we tried to squeeze in the car to go home. I came back that night and began to spin. The fire went out and the staff always too small. The girl with the dragon tattoo came over to spin her staff. It was much better. She helped me by telling me which staff I should get. I helped her prepare her staff. It was time for her to spin. One of her staff ends needed to be filled so I ran to fill it with gasoline. I could tell she liked me and there was something pure about her. She was about to begin for real. She took a few hits from a j. Right as she was about to spin my alarm went off

For some reason 2 Mexicans were trying to kill me. We had a long showdown with guns and all. Eventually after many complicated moves I disarmed both of them and had millions of dollars in cash. I gave them a few thousand and we became friends I said I *would take them to america and get them jobs. We got stopped at border control because of the money. We took lie detector tests and passed. They let me keep the money. I somehow because some sports legend and got the best office in some building. I was running through the building trying to get the china packages that I was gonna sell. I did this for a while until I woke.*

Home Components Equal Music

Someone had explained to me, and then I was trying to explain to someone else, how different parts of a home correlated to parts of a symphony.

There was a large home, and a symphony playing in the background. I was trying to explain how if you took the columns away from the home (huge columns, though the house was really just a model), a certain section of the symphony wouldn't be heard anymore. The columns then floated away from the model, and one section of the band was no longer heard.

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I was in the military in a truck of sorts. I was standing between the drivers seat and a seat behind me. The two seats were so close together, that I was squeezed tight. This helped me with the next part of my dream.

I was holding on to an ovular ring on the ceiling of the truck with two fingers. I intended for it to look like I was holding up the weight of my body with two fingers, but in fact I'm pretty tall, and the seats being so tight held me up, and I could just reach up to the ring.

Other's looked at me in amazement that I could hold up my bodyweight with 2 fingers. A short, fat guy tried to jump up and grab a ring, but he couldn't even reach it. Then it came into question how I could really hold on with just two fingers.

I was going to have some kind of test about it now, and I wanted to explain how I couldn't really have held up my body weight, but I couldn't explain it because my dream slowed me and my reactions down.

I ended up being thrown under the truck with another person. It was easy enough to stay out from under the wheels, and I was thinking of rolling out from under the truck.

Later, I was talking to my commanding officer. I was nervous about telling him the deal with the truck.

06.01.2012

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1:

I didn't realize until later in the dream that I had both versions of Paper Mario. The original I bought for the virtual console shop for the Wii and the other for the Gamecube.
I'm inside of a large store. It looks like a bookstore since I saw books all of the place, but they also sold used video games. I had a weird urge to buy Paper Mario, the one for the N64, but apparently it was on the Gamecube in the dream.



The Used Games were on shelves and jumbled up near those huge containers where they would sell cheap old movies. I search the shelves first for it, and saw some weird titles. I saw "Okami" and another one too but it had some long name next to it for the Gamecube, versions of Avatar The Last Airbender etc.



I find Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door, but I was looking for Paper Mario. When I was looking for the game, I saw one familiar DC, let's call him William. He looked oddly familiar to the William I knew IRL that I had a few AP classes with for a while as a Junior and Senior in High School.

He was looking around in the used game sections too and then randomly searched for books. He was looking at a book and just holding his thumb on the side to let the pages fly by quickly.

I turn my attention back to finding Paper Mario, so I go to the area where all the cases were mixed with other used games in a container. I eventually find it, open the case, and there was no CD, just the instruction manual and some other booklets about game safety etc.

I believe it cost $19.99, and for a game that cheap to have an instruction manual, it had to be the best used game I could get from the rest in the pile.

I can't remember what I did after that.

Dream 2:

I'm in some library, and I'm paying attention to this dude who is Caucasian and has dirty blonde hair and he's with some girl that looks like another person I knew IRL.

Let's nickname her "Yvon." (yeah you say it like Yeeee von) The guy who was with Yvon had his parents with him, and I was walking around for something, but I can't remember what.

It seemed that I tried to get closer to her, but I wanted to avoid her at the same time because I was worried what the other dude would think about me looking at his girlfriend weirdly.

So instead of coming in contact with the girl who is headed right to my direction, I go left and walk near the dude. He looks at me like anyone else would if someone comes close to them and them look away going back to whatever it is they're doing, and then I continue walking forward.

(If you were me, you would be facing the screen and the girl is going the opposite direction; not that would matter of course, it just felt like an awkward dream because I think it was projection on how I'm usually afraid to look at a girl for too long if she's obviously with a partner. I'm not the type of guy to just look at women and try to piss off their boyfriends mind you, it's just another flaw I've realized about myself.

I can't remember anything after I past the guy in the dream.

Dream 3:

This dream is weird, I'm still questioning if I'm really lucid or not, but I didn't have thoughts saying "Am I dreaming" or anything like that. It was sort of a second nature nonverbal questioning.

I wake up and get off my bed, I think my father is giving me gifts that other people he knew sent to me. He gave some kind of gray vest with the words "Hollister" on it in white text, and some other random crap.

Then out of no where he gives me a vibrator, like the one shaped like a bean. (I think this is just my subconscious of laughing at me here because I stopped using my Blackberry Curve's vibration app for an anchor for WILDs)

I was kind of shocked because I didn't really have a need for it, and it seemed it was fit more for female use and male use.

After he leaves, I believe I did a nose RC, I'm breathing through my nose, and continue doing so for a while, but I still questioned if my mind was playing tricks on me.

(I don't know why I would questioned the fact that I breathed through my nose even though that's a clear sign that I'm dreaming, but I'll just think of it as being lucid for a while because the whole experience changes when I do realize I'm dreaming).

(But if I knew I was dreaming, I knew I would've escaped this dream scene and head to some random area and ask my subconscious to create Eva from Metal Gear Solid 3 for me since I've met her a few times in prior dreams....eh whatever).

The dream keeps changing into other events. One that I remember is a friend of my father coming and I greeted him, then it changes to where he's showing me something and asking if everything is all right with college I think. I say "Yes, I'm doing all right" like I normally do for every response in real life too.

Next scene, there's a group of DCs laughing and talking with each other.

Next scene, I'm with my mother and she's marveling on how close some school is compared to some other school.

She asked me some random question, and I was annoyed by it because it was a petty question, but I responded, but I can't remember what.

Then I see my father eating Fried Rice with Tortilla Chips (lol que??).

That's all I remember for that one.

Dream 4:

I'm walking in a random room, and I see some object that looks like a deformed Jack-in-a-Box toy. I think it was talking to me and wanting me to smash it.



I think I was jumping on an exercise ball when I smashed it. The ground starts to shake, and I'm wondering what the hell is going. To the right of me, there were mid-cooked pieces of chicken tenders inside a foil tray. And under that was some type of floor grill.



Then I realize I wanted to cook the food, and also realized the ground shaking was just to turn on this oddly-placed grill. I quickly search for something with water in it (why would I choose water?? At least go for cooking oil or something) and then I slowly pour it inside the base of the grill, and it starts to boil faster.

Then as I'm cooking the meat, Riley from "The Boondocks" is near me asking "Aren't you going to clean the grill?" or something like that.



I don't turn my head to look at him, I knew it had to be him by his voice, and I was annoyed by him questioning my cooking. But I responded, "Yes I'll clean it after I wash the chicken again..."

Then he was like "Okaaaay..." I knew he wanted to say something else, but I think he knew he was acting like a nosy bitch and stopped asking me irrelevant questions.
All I remember for that one.

Dream 5:

A DC that looks like Leonardo Dicaprio apparently is trying to save a group of people who are prisoners in some kind of military base look alike. So he disguises himself as a Chef so that he can find a way to help them escape.



I think he had to save a blonde lady, but I'm not sure if she wanted to be saved in the first place. The dream was like watching a trailer where they would pan over to the next scene, and some general looking dude was talking about how they will feed their prisoners with oxen because apparently it was the worse type of meat they could give them.

(But the meat looked like cooked quail or really half-assed quality meat)



I think the kitchen was above where the general was sitting talking to the rest of the guards. I think he questioned what is taking so long in there.

Then for some reason I grab this huge chain of the meat and start offering them to random prisoners.

After that, I put back the empty link that hooked the meat together, turn around, and see some DC that looks like he's helping Leonardo (but I didn't really seen Leonardo at the time)

The new DC was eating some buttered toast, and there were more on the pan being grilled, and it looked pretty buttery to me that I wanted to grab one quickly and nomnomnomnomnomnonom all over it.



I do so, and then the DC talks for a while and reveals that he was pretending to help Leonardo and is in fact a part of the General looking guy's posse.

Then suddenly it's back to my perspective and run like hell to the nearest elevator. It closes pretty quickly thankfully, and then I realized I had to press buttons of course, so I start spamming down the button (I had to press the down button while inside the elevator to see the numbers go down instead of having all of them at once).



I keep doing so until I pressed the lowest level possible. While I waited for the elevator to reach to the first floor, I was kind of worried of what would be out there. But it ends up being the exit to get out of the place.

I tried to play it off like I'm part of the group, and I see a random DC near a desk, and said "Hi" to him. (it goes from military base to a corporate building when I leave the elevator)

But I think he ignores me and he probably pressed the alert button hidden under the desk. There wasn't a lot of security in the area probably because most were meeting with the General looking guy.

So I dash like hell to the exit, and I see a REALLY huge DC (probably 8-9 feet), and he was wearing a fancy black corporate attire with a white dress shirt and a tie.

I think he was after me and I tried to avoid him, but he catches him I think.

But then the dream restarts with me back at the first floor (kind of like in those games like Uncharted 3 where if you're running from someone and they catch you, you go back to the nearest checkpoint).

So instead of running like a mad man outside, I hide behind some gray marble stones to avoid the big guy again.



Once he passes, I run forward, and I think I said "Teleport!!!!!" or something like that. And I probably did.

That's all I remember for that one.

I'm watching the US presidential elections on a Risk like map of the United States. Ron Paul seems sure to win until there his a hiccup in one state and Ron Paul loses in that state. This creates a panicked reactionary effect that spreads out from that state, infecting the other states like a virus spreading to a cell. What was a sure victory becomes a massive loss as people vote not on the best candidate, but vote in response to how everyone else is voting.