non-lucid

Non-Lucid
Lucid
Missed Indicator ((I'm marking them this way because at those moments I felt like something was off but I couldn't grasp what it was.))
I'm going to call them fragments because while they are all in the same places with the same people, the pieces are not connected.
Fragment 1: My Brother and Work
I'm attending a work meeting. We've gathered at the end of one of the aisles. My brother arrives late, carrying a starbucks coffee cup. He doesn't look anything like my WL brother. I have a moment when I'm staring at him, that I'm trying to realize that. He smiles at me, I smile uncertainly. His eyes were blue instead of brown and his face shape was wrong. He stepped back and his elbow knocked over a row of pale purple gift bags stacked 4 deep in the bay. It pushed the ones stacked in the adjacent bay to the floor.
"Uh-oh." I said. We picked up the bags.
While I'm doing that I think that I should be paying attention to the meeting instead of picking up products, I can hear the manager holding the meeting say something like that to the group, but I don't stop what I'm doing and he sounds really far away.

Fragment 2: At Home with my Brother
Then I'm at home in the living room. My brother follows me down the hall. He's been sleeping on a mattress on the floor. I said something about finding him a real bed and he waves dismissively at me.
"Nah, this is fine."
He's still carrying the coffee cup.

Fragment 3: Girlfriend, Father Lives with Me, Ugly Creature
Now I'm in the bathroom. I have a girlfriend. Sometimes she looks regularly proportioned and sometimes her features are stretched, almost cartoonish. She's wearing a soft grey shirt and jeans. Her frame is too tiny to be normal, but I'm admiring her in comparison to my own more...average figure. She straddles my hips. Both the door to the hall and the door to the bedroom are open, I'm afraid my father will walk in on us.
She takes my hand and leads me into the living room. There's a mattress right next to the door. All the blinds are closed, the lights off, but it's day outside.
I kneel on the mattress and she bends her knees slightly, leaning down to talk to me.
"I'm going to turn into a cat!" She says.
"Go for it." I reply.
She looks exceptionally cute as her face scrunches up in concentration. A kitten bursts into existence in front of us. She frowns at it.
"Well...you didn't turn into a cat, but you certainly made one." I say, staring down at the kitten.
"What's wrong with it? It's kind of ugly."
The longer I look at it the more I realize how little it actually looks like a cat. For one, it's purple. Its fur is really short, almost just fuzz on the skin, its eyes are yellow and bulbous; its ears are large, pointed and bat-like. I try to scratch it between the ears but the ears are too close together. It has 4 articulated claws on each paw.
"I think it's kind of cute." We both know I'm just trying to make her feel bad about willing an extremely ugly creature into existence.

Fragment 4: Junk Day, Miniatures
I'm outside, standing at the end of my driveway, by the curb. I notice a patch of clover, it's pale red. I think "Wow, I've never seen red clover before."
Next to the clover are file crates full of junk. One of them is full of small rectangular white boxes with numbers written on them in black sharpie. There's box with a picture of a dwarf miniature. I see my boyfriend watching me from the house. He turns to go back inside and I rush to follow him.
"Hey, there's a box full of miniatures out there, do you want it?"
"Nah."
"...really?"
He just shrugs at me.

Fragment 5: Rollerblades, Jean Grey, Cyclops, Flying
I'm outside on my driveway, wearing rollerblades. I'm carrying a white trash bag full of junk. I can't seem to stop myself from rolling. The driveway is more sloped than I'm used to. I drop the bag with the junk at the curb and skate back to the house.
I frown, trying to figure out why there's a giant truck parked in our yard and another parked where my car should be. I move toward the garage and see that my car has been crushed into the garage door.
"Stupid rollerblades! I just wanna stop moving!"
I manage to stop. Upon thinking how annoying the skates are, the next step I take does not send me gliding forward. It is a regular step.
"Huh." I say, reaching down and lifting my heel to my hand. The heel of my shoe is flat and wide. "I must be dreaming."
I tilt my head back and scan the sky. Everything is sharp and feels real. The sky is black, broken by tiny pinpoints of light. There is a cluster of 6 stars directly overhead. I know exactly how to test it. The shoe wasn't enough, apparently. I leap into the sky, when I start to descend I flap my arms like a bird. As I lose momentum I notice that Superman is flying around above me, he extends his hand and wills me to fly to him. I attempt to do so, resisting the urge to flap my arms, since I know I don't need to.
I don't reach his hand, he lands. The scene is no longer my driveway but a mall. I'm on a balcony, looking down at him. I see myself from the outside, I'm Jean Grey. When Superman shifts his position a little he changes into cyclops, except that he's wearing red and yellow. And, because my subconscious is hopeless, his hair is red. I jump off the balcony and glide down next to him. I offer him my hand and he takes it, but his arm remains stiff, keeping me at arms length, effectively stopping me from stepping in to kiss him.
Just by keeping that resistance between us, he is gently reminding me that I should be at my post. It will happen soon.
He points me toward the escalator and I take it down to the floor below. I can see him from there, and the balcony overhead.

Date: 23 May

Total sleep time: 7.5 hrs, deep sleep

Fragment1: I am in my school

Fragment2: An Australian girl in a swimming pool

Fragment3: I see a green parrot inside a room. Soon two more mini parrots escape the room, I try to bring them back

Fragment4: An evil female DC has some claims, we are fighting for a long time.

So now i have competition related dreams, haha.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was playing some video game, 3D platformer.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was with gab visiting other people's dreams using some technique or machine to teleport into dreams, we were verifying what score dreamers got for the competition. At one point we were in some sunny grassland place watching someone doing dream control from the distance, and we had a discussion whether it worth 10 points or not.
I count it as non-lucid for now though since fragmented recall(I generally remember my lucid dreams accurately) plus i didn't really knew that i was dreaming, since according to dream, i got into a dream by some kind of other means which i can't exactly recall.

I wanted/was to kayak down across the sea in my dream and as I made it to the other side the wind got extremely strong and I was having trouble walking along the coast. I spotted a woman walking towards me with a blue coat by the looks of it, so once I got up to the person I asked them if they lived around here for some reason(Can't remember why, maybe for directions) and a guys voice replied with "No.." and then there was a sort of group of these people with this tattoo of a triangle on the backs of their heads and most of them were bald and I didn't know who they were.

I remember being cautious of them.

End of fragment,

5/23/13

Last night bed 12:30 - 5:56

I watched the movie 300 day before yesterday. And this is what I got.

DR - I'm in hills. Doing a search mission. With group of people, coming to the top of the hill and looking down at some greek ruins. Somebody tries to deface them and break them down I threaten to write him up and report to authorities. I'm saying "How would you like it if people before you had done it. Then you and your kids would not be able to see it today".

I have two ampules of blood. One has 1 dose and it's number is 1261. The other ampule has 2 doses and number is 1262.

I find some artifacts with V symbol. I'm told that it's a symbol for a blade. (During the movie 300 IWL, I was wondering what the V symbol on their shields and pins meant.)

I remember doing something with a group of people. Maybe some sort of competition or something. Whenever it was over, I hopped on a bicycle and road it to a red traffic light. There a woman on a motorcycle in front of me. I really wanted to have a conversation with her, but....oh wait. She's on a bicycle just like me. We're talking, and she asks me if I ever show up to a particular auto parts store. I told her I've gone to it a few times.

Then she tells me about how her computer is messed up due to her ex-husband....she wants me to fix it or whatever. I'm weighing the possibility of hooking up with her versus, "I bet this lying bitch is still married".

a lage portion of the dream was spepnt at my house with matt jajeh trying to plan how we would both go to my house and his for thanks giving dinner

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1(fragments):

I was doing something with a table, but flies were distracting me. Then later i was watching new yogscast video and they were apparently making video of some lame doom mod... which was also apparently made by me according to dream( ). The mod was pretty low quality and featured one tiny map with a bunch of various enemies, sprites of which looked like they were made in mspaint. It was some kind of arena with blue walls. They have somehow triggered enemies too quickly which made boss enemy appear, but exit opened by itself for some reason, so they just ended the level.
After watching i was going to nap. As i was falling asleep there were some weird voices then i felt some presence behind and some female voice. The dream started fading out, which made me realize that i am dreaming, i was about to get up from the bed but i could not stop it.

Nap #2(fragments):

There were news about an update for some game, we were discussing the good and bad sides of this update with SilentEternity. Then there was some farmland area in that game that i was exploring.
Later there was some kind of story about some artists and there was a task to hide inside one of their houses and spy on them, but nobody was doing it. Then it ended up with a weird music/song mix.

All I remember is a fragment about dreams and scale from 1 to 10 and there may or may not have an elephant in this fragment as well.

Fragmented recall is fragmented.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some place that was partly indoors partly outdoors, then i was navigating through a maze of rocks towards some building. Then in that building it was foggy and i was talking with some people. Then i was searching through ruined part of that building and i have found someone in costume similar to Santa's(not sure) and there was some talk about some organization. I went back to maze and soon got to the end of it. There was a treasure and some agents were trying to stop me, but i have opened it. It triggered some kind of self-destruction mechanism that triggered some kind of cataclysm, and then dream ended.

Dream 2(fragment):

There was some discussion about lucid dreaming.

Date: 22 May

Total Sleep Time: 8 hrs

WBTB: 120 mg gingko

Dream quality and recall: dreams were vivid, but I was very sleepy today, I guess that has affected my recall. My prospective memory and concentration during the lucid were not at their best either.

Fragment1: the dream involved Xanos, no other memory

Dream2: A class meeting again. It is late at night and we are discussing with the girls where we are about to go. I feel like dancing so I am totally fine with any place they suggest. I notice that they have put on some weight. My dad is over-protective and follows me around. I arrange to secretly meet with my best school friend and take her to a concert. I will buy her the ticket. On what I think is the next day, we meet in the morning and take the subway. She has moved to my city, it seems.

Fragment3: We are eating some mix of bacon and cheese, tasted very realistic

Fragment4: the office is closed, my dad is looking for something

WBTB: Took gingko. Recalled dreams and did some dream incubation during which I have fallen asleep.

Dream5: I am watching some trees from above, and want to change their color. It feels a bit like I am observing using google map. Soon I am at the place of interest, in the middle of a lake. There is an old wood-made ship close to the also quite old and dusty quay. I have a game like attitude and want to rearrange the whole place. I succeed in making more space where I want to. Then I am in the water, swimming forward, but it is not very pleasant because this lake is a bit dirty. There is also a fish nearby, and I don’t like that.

Dream6: Instead of the normal section of a restaurant, I decide to follow a DC and go to another part. I am climbing some stairs to reach my destination, but the place is very hard to get to because the doors are smaller. I reach the third floor, where I talk to the waiter – a friend of mine. Three other DCs appear. One of them tells me that he has a Japanese geisha girlfriend and that they are in an open relationship, they are dating some other special girl. He shows me a brochure where all this is explained using some strange Japanese words. I think that he expects me to join their little arrangement, so I say no thanks.

Fragment7: I am in a car, and the waiter of another place we were in, is now John Malkovich. He comes in, bringing my favourite sandwiches. They are perfect.

Dream8 DILD: I am in an interesting looking town, but pay little attention to it at first. I am with four friends, one girl I clearly know, two DC friends in the background and another girl. The other girl is the girlfriend of a friend of mine, and she has come to meet me. At first, I don’t feel at ease with the two girls, even though they are friends, so I fly to the level of the first floor, and follow everybody as they are walking down the street, just above them. I think of why I am doing this and then fly back down. The new girl has brought me some presents – she hands me two notebooks, with school notes, chemistry and other stuff. Then another one with patriotic poems translated in a foreign language. Who would want to read something like that, I am thinking to myself.

At some point which I cannot remember, I become lucid. I feel I have spent a long time exploring around. The next more clear lucid memory is me, still in that city, which looks like a medieval city, feeling happy and going for some tasks (which I don’t remember at all). Then I look around and enjoy the place, the walls of the houses around are made from a dark stone with a hint of green. It feels like an Italian city during Middle Ages. It also reminds me of a number of other dreams I had. One more recent one was in a modern Italian city. The Colosseum should be somewhere to my right, I am thinking and desire to go to that place. At the same time, I try to engage a few DCs to help me on my quest. I look ahead and see DCs passing by, I try to stop them, but they are moving really fast, strong momentum, so I cannot stop them. (The second time this has happened). I look at a DC in front of me and notice how beautiful, elaborate and medieval/renaissance-like her clothes are. I get closer to a DC woman that is not moving, she is some kind of monk, and ask her for help/directions, but she is not helpful at all (interact with DC).

I continue and find another male DC, a peasant, he looks a bit blurry. I know that this dream has been going on for really long, so to avoid it ending I come up with the idea to stabilize the dream by kissing him. He is not really ugly, I find him rather unpleasant, but still, I kiss him. I realize that I am doing something objectionable to me, yet I keep doing it. The dream feels much more stable (stabilize dream), but then someone tells me that as a result of my behaviour, I have now two children and that man is my husband. This place is my home now. It all suddenly feels so realistic to me that I lose my lucidity. I begin to fret about those responsibilities and that I won’t be able to leave the place now. At the same time, I know that this city is special and that there are wormholes appearing every now and then, so I can use one of them to escape. I look at a live city map, which shows the location of the currently active wormhole.

I continue sleeping and have another dream that I cannot recall. I wake up and feel frustrated because I have no memory of the last few dreams. Then fragments start to emerge.

Comment: Although I managed to recover some of the memory of that lucid, it is upsetting that once again I am unable to remember a part of the experience. And yet, it is much better than not remembering anything at all.

I'm getting chased by this car with blacked out windows, I go down streets then hop fences to other streets so the car will have to make u-turns to catch up, I run over this small grass hill that leads to another fence, I hop it and on the other side is more grass on flatland, it's grass like that in a old video game, all the blades of grass are rounded and blueish green. I sit in the grass and feel it. Then I realize a man is sitting on the edge of the fence, he tells me he's just crow, (crow is at cat I had for 16 or 17 years that died a few years back). Then he morphed into crow and I realize I must've entered a portal of sorts, I see a door across from us and run to it and open it and go through and am led to this old house with many doors of many sizes I know all of which are portals. I stick my head through a few but never go through because I want to go back to crow, I get interrupted by my half sister and her daughter, her daughter is being a brat so I go back out the door I came so I can pet crow, my half sister asks me where I'm going, I tell her crow is out there, she doesn't believe me and tells me to prove it, so I tell her to come with me through the portal and she does. When we're through i go on the grass and call out for crow, I don't know where he went, my half sister marvels at the grass and laughs at my calling for crow going ignored. Finally I see a paper towel to the right of us, I run and pick it up knowing it was crow, she laughs at me and says I've gone insane, but I ignore her and keep petting crow, then I stand up and water falls down I get confused and asked jokingly if my water broke, and My half sister says no crow just pissed on you, and I laugh because she just admitted the paper towel was crow. Then the men in the car return and hop the fence into the grass, they have two wolfs, me and my half sister panic and run for it. The two men inject the seemingly nice wolfs with something in the neck, then within a few minutes the wolf become evil and go after us, One catches up to me and bites me all over, I take out my stun gun and give him a jolt and he falls to the floor long enough for me to get my switchblade out and slit it's throat. The second wolf is going after my half sister so I tell her to cut it's throat so she does, she didn't get bit, I new In a little bit I'd probably turn out how the dogs were because I got bit, I see my half sister run into this crate looking place, it has hot dogs everywhere and it's like a steam room, there's kids and elders and they're all letting racoons, rabbits and other animals sweat it out, they tell me they had the poison but sweating it out takes it away, my half sister is sitting with people she tells me to sweat it out before I turn, so i get on the floor and pull out my stun gun again and tell her if i turn to zap me and she agrees, then I lay down face down, my body then begins to slide very very slowly back and forth as if i was on a rocky boat, I can hear all the people whispering in fear about me creeped out that I'm sliding, wondering if I'll change to monster or sweat it out in time, this seems to go on for several minutes, but then I sit up sloppily and dizzy and the people gasp, I grab a hot dog and eat it and mumble something to a kid, but then I feel something coming on so I run through the room and run out side and then these teeth like a mako shark come out of my mouth as I roar like a fuckin lion, i realize it didn't work but I didn't want to hurt them so I ran as far as I could before I lost all control. Then I go through this glass building getting darker an darker, I see this couple in a glass window shaped like and air balloon and they're enjoying themselves looking at a view of dark water. I go through these glass blinds and find these two girls in extravagant dresses and yell at them where are they going? then they yell at me to follow them, I thought they were leading me into the glass air balloon, but instead we go down glass mirror stairs that are so sleek and they go down in a circle swirl That we just slide fast down against the walls of it then we end up under all I saw and they go back up but I just hide under the stairs while girls in beautiful dresses go up the stairs.

Date: 21 May

Pre bed: 120 mg gingko, WBTB: 2x peppermint oil capsules

Sleep quality, dream contents & recall: fantastic sleep quality, more or less realistic dreams with some exception, very positive mood upon wake, quite bad recall for the vividness.

Fragment1: Thinking of a friend

Fragment2: Received a text message from a relative I was recently thinking about

Fragment3: An actor that asks people about his origin, I am the only one to correctly guess it

Fragment4: With a classmate on a street in my hometown, she has a blue bike

Fragment5: I am on another street nearby, this time a dog transforms into some kind of mutant creature – a mix between a dog and hulk, dark grey bluish color and is after us. I decide to run towards school because there are more people there, so it will attack them first.

Fragment6: I am in a store I know, looking to buy some tea mugs, or dishes. It looks like the sale is over. The lady on the cashier gives me some stuff I have apparently purchased, including a jacket. Another DC woman takes the bag and I run after her, explaining those things are mine.

Dream7: I am in my hometown again, controlling the movement of trams. I am meeting my bf, so I direct the tram forwards, but then I go back again. I am then on the street, and it is extremely hot. I notice the way I am dressed, same as always, but my belt is about to fall and my jeans are a bit loose. It is so realistic that I struggle moving in this heat. I look to my side and see grandma, dressed the way she always did. Some feeling of lucidity that quickly evaporates. I pay attention to the shops nearby, there is one where they sell natural remedies and I see a huge pack of gingko biloba, I wonder if I should buy something from the shop. I continue on my way, a DC tells me that someone has died. The women have been dreaming about it and told him but he didn’t want to listen.

In this long and complicated dream I was somehow involved in politics of Poland (my country of origin, where I was born, but now I am a US citizen in real life).

There was this blond thin very pretty very charismatic woman who in my dream was in a position of power in Polish politics and was also a close family friend on my mother's side of my family.

She and a large group of people where house guests at my mother's home, and I was communicating with them mostly via phone and texting.

One time we arranged to meet. The setting was an outdoor cafe with the tables and chairs set up on a bridge for some reason. When I arrived, the important woman, a male assistant of hers, and a prisoner were already there. We were going to interview the prisoner to find out important information from him, but I do not know why he was a prisoner and what the important information was. There was no chair for me, so when I arrived, they first pulled several empty chairs from a neighboring table, and had to readjust it, so that there was only one empty chair for me. The prisoner's restraint had to be removed so that he could talk more freely. It turned out that he only had one restraint to begin with: a hair restraint, and so the assistant cut the restraint restraining the prisoner's hair. (How a hair restraint would suffice for a prisoner, and how it would prevent him from speaking freely - my dream did not explain any of that, nor did I question it.)

Change of scene to a political rally. The important woman was talking and saying "... And that's why capitalism failed in Poland." I interjected, "Excuse me, but as a proponent of capitalism, I have to correct that capitalism did not fail in Poland, it was designed to fail. What those in power called capitalism was designed to be unacceptable to people, so that they would beg those in power to abolish Capitalism. Which is what those in power had wanted all along." While I was talking about begging, I enacted the gestures of putting my hands together in exaggerated begging, and my perspective changed so that the powerful woman was higher up and I was begging her from below.

I do not know what the consequence of my interjection was because I then woke up.

Fragment 1: about personal finances and 401k retirement plan.
Fragment 2: a fragment of a dream about my grandmother go alas is no longer alive. In my dream she was frail, so toward the end of her life.

Last night I kept having dreams that occurred in the same area, but different places around the area. I ended up getting lucid three times!
Lucid Non-Lucid

This is just a fragment of a dream. I was in my house. I became lucid, and RCed. I decided to go outside and fly around. I jumped off the deck, put my arms out, and imagined floating. I ended up gliding a bit, and then landing face-first on the ground. I got up, and tried to fly again, and this time I floated a bit.

I was in a large hotel which looked like a mansion with my entire school I went to last year. My friend and I went in the pool, but then this dark cloud appeared right over it in the corner. It formed into a tornado, so my friend and I ran inside to go hide. Another friend was in there, and he told us to come lie down by him. Then, the tornado came in, and a huge part of the building fell right where we were thinking about sitting before. After, everyone in the school got up, but then we all had swords, and everyone was trying to stab eachother. I stabbed a bunch of people, and then my little sister came up to me, swinging a mini-sword at my face. I grabbed her hand and told her to leave. After that, it was night, and I couldn't find my room at all. Every room I went into was wrong, and I kept going into the same rooms. Eventually, my teacher told me to sleep in this one room which was really big and dark. So I walked in, and the lights were by the door, so I had to walk to my bed in the dark. Then, this slenderman thing came up, and started following me. I woke up.

I went back to sleep, and ended up in the same room, non-lucid. This time, I was sitting on the counter by the stove with my computer, but it was daytime, and there was a large window in the room. I became aware that I was dreaming. I thought 'Oh crap, this is where I was before. I'm getting out of here. I grabbed my computer and jumped and smashed through the window. Luckily, there was a massive lake, so I landed in the lake instead of on the ground. I swam to the surface, but then I woke up.

I fell back asleep again, and ended up right outside in the front yard of the mansion. I could tell I was dreaming, so I thought of tasks for Checker's competition. I saw a really nice car, and I tried to teleport myself into the drivers seat, but whatever I was trying didn't work. Eventually, I ran up to the car, and tried to get in it, but the person inside drove away. Then, I ran down towards the lake I had jumped into before. There was a huge cliff in front of me (going down). I was going to try and fly into the lake, but then I decided not to. I saw some cheetahs (again?!? They were in an earlier LD), and decided to try transformation for on task. I got down on all four, and ran towards them. I could feel the transformation, but my clothing was still on. I reached them and woke up.

Then, I fell asleep and was back in the mansion, but in a different room. My dad and sisters were there. I became aware I was dreaming, and RCed. I went up to my dad and said, "Dad, you're dreaming! Here, plug your nose!" Then, I demonstrated flying to him. I jumped up and hovered a bit. Then I landed on the ground and looked at him. The scene went blurry for a second, then unblurry. I decided to stabilize, and rubbed the couch a bit. Then I showed him flying/floating again, and I woke up.

This is the last one I remember. I was in the mansion, and my friend and I had to stay the night. We went into the basement, and found a cookie factory! We crawled up into the machinery to sleep, but there were a bunch of other kids. Then, we got plastic containers full of cookies from the machine, and a worker said we could have as much as we want.


Four lucids in one night