non-lucid

I am playing Megaman X, I notice powers that I have never seen in the game before:

Shield -puts up a defensive steel barrier between you and your enemy, it can be suspended in the air.

The hover ability has been improved, now it's more of a rocket boot that enables flight.

"Volcano" -did not get a chance to use this ability, sounds devastating...

Speed up -my running speed is dramatically increased, used during the boss fight.

Multiple different colored shots fired in many different directions (unnamed?)

Warp drive -I warp in rapid succession, skipping points in space, making it incredibly difficult to hit me.

Bow -launches an arrow

as well as some of the abilities from the game

Electric Spark -shoots a ball of electricity, can be charged to create a shockwave

Shotgun ice -Shoots a large, spiked chunk of ice, shatters when hitting a wall or enemy and rockets multiple shards of ice in the opposite direction, causing damage to anything except me standing in the way.

Flamethrower -self explanatory
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I make my way through the level, the enemies provide little challenge, my main interest is to test out some of my weapons, I notice that the weapon selection grid is packed with more powers than normal, normally it's 5X5, there appear to be at least double that now, as well as the ability to use two shots at the same time.

I reach the boss room, the wall drops, and shuts me in. the boss is a giant metal plant. I test out a few more of my powers, mostly the evasive ones. I take a few shots at the enemy, but since I'm focusing more on evading attacks, I don't do a lot of damage to the boss, it whittles down my health little by little here and there, until I wake up.

Notes Non-Lucid Lucid

Me, my brother, and my friend Austin were at some place. We were walking past some cars in a parking lot. Suddenly, I spot Austin's car right beside us and say something like "You might want to move this." So, he moves it out of the parking lot, goes down the road a little, and parks it into some grass that was between the highways. Suddenly, a meter maid comes out of nowhere and points out that he had a ticket. Although, the "ticket" was a big sticker plastered on the side of his car showing how much money a certain amount costs. (i.e. 2 tickets is $1000, 3 tickets is $1500.) Austin just knelt down and stared at it blankly. I said "Wow, that's a lot of money..." Then the dream skips a few seconds. And now, Austin is the meter maid for some reason. Me and my brother are still there, but some woman is now following us. Anyways, he says "And now I've spotted another violation." All three of us are trying to persuade him not to give her the ticket. I said "Why can't you let us off? I've seen other people do it!" He says "Well, I'm not other people." It is taking us forever to get to the car. Even though it wasn't that far away from us to begin with. Soon, he gets annoyed at us and screams "Arghhh!" The "camera" then zooms into his face to show he had no pupils. The background behind his face is fiery and such. He starts screaming gibberish and starts chasing after me and my brother. (Don't know where the woman went.) I look like back at Austin. He has his fist raised in the air and still screaming. I notice that his whole right arm is looks robotic. Then, it seems like I was confused on why his land looked that why. I became lucid. Almost immediately, I changed his hand back to normal somehow. After that, I sighed and told my bro "Just run..." I suddenly started running extremely fast; jumping over building and such. And then, a search box appeared in front of my eyes. It had google.com about to be searched. I thought "What if this messes up my dream?" (The reason I thought that is because I thought that if it started doing things without me doing so, I would lose lucidity. Which, now, I realise that's not entirely true.) So, I quickly changed it to google.net.

Then, I woke up. As soon as I woke up, I remembered to try to do a DIELD. Although, I failed because I wasn't sleepy enough. That, and that my mom was making to much noise. Agh!

1. I was in a hospital to visit a sick friend. A small red snake was terrorizing the hospital so I took it upon myself to catch it. In the process I was bitten 3 times, once on the hand, once on the pinky finger and once on the ankle. I handed off the snake and it was killed. No one cared that I was poisoned.

2. A storm swept in at night. Whenever the lightning flashed the room was illuminated in a creepy red glow. I had the feeling that the end of the world was near. I just waited for it to come. Others were running around the house looking for places to hide.

3. The buildings in the city were old and crumbling. I felt this place was familiar though I was entirely lost. I kept walking. Sooner or later, I believed, something would look familiar and I could find my way back home.

non-lucid - Notes - lucid

01-09-11 We are going to the family reunion. Besides the family there are a lot of other characters attending as well and rather than the first week of September it is for an entire week.

I seem to be packing quite a lot and spending time in the bath room.

Skip.

on day 3-4 everyone is getting tired of it. In particular Minka, who has made an arrangement to drive home with her parents (this is odd, since she they aren't the family). She leaves for a while and comes back dressed in a short pink dress and she looks an awful lot like Paris Hilton fashion wise.

It is raining however, so she looks kinda sad about this since it will mean changing outfit again, but she seems packed and ready to go.

I see her mother dancing down the hallway and they are the first family to have proclaimed that they are leaving.

The younger crew of the various families within family seems to be getting reckless and I decide to go and pack up so we can go quickly if my parents decide to bail.

The rest of the young crew are lying around either in the hallway or in rooms. There is a general consensus to go to the bar on the opposite side of the road, but no one seems to be taking initiative.

Skip.

I am talking to my cousin about something related to leaving.

My sister is talking, she doesn't want to be their either but she explains that it is nice to see the family join up together setting aside selfish consideration to see her daughter.
…

I am at an airbase watching Stoffer fly around in a fighter jet. The plane is completely white. He has rented it with a mate for a day as it is the cheapest of the planes available.

I am going up there with him and he is explaining that he intends to do a loop, which I am looking forward to.

As he is coming in for landing and driving towards the spot where he has to pick me up, he makes a weird turn that almost tips over the plane and make the wings hit the ground. He asks his mate to check if something happened, but it seems fine.

He gestures me to get in and I am getting in next to him. I tell him that I find that rather weird as normally I would sit behind him (yeah my plane knowledge is lame ^^)

We start driving around and to be frank all I really remember is driving the plane through something like a race course. At one point we come up to two rocks and Stoffer tries frantically to turn it into the larger gap and I scream at him to take the smaller to avoid making the wings tip towards the ground and potentially hit the larger rock.

We make it to the air though I think, but I only remember pulling back up to the base and getting out asking Stoffer if he really did the loop with me.

“Yes” he replies.

Rasmus SL gets in the plane and I think I spend some time talking to Kasper.
…

I wake up.

I am in Germany at the camping grounds where my grand parents live part times of the year. It is dark early morning on a Sunday and I think about hitting the golf course a few holes in so I wouldn't have to pay the green fee.

I am speaking to a pro who is talking about hitting the course early and I reconsider maybe only hitting the approach/putting green instead.

I sense something is up pretty much from the start and as I am walking towards the lake in the camping grounds/golf course I decide to look at my hand. It doesn't look weird at first, but I decide to keep looking and all of a sudden half of my pinky disappears and reappear almost immediately.

I think about what to do and I have been trying too hard to get to Chichén Itzá maybe. Maybe people would get tired of me filling up the journal with crap on non-attempt nights.

So I decide to fool around. Well I could justify my efforts as trying to master a petite form of shape shifting, at least in the beginning of the dream.

I take off into flight and at the same time trying to imagine myself engulfed in flames. The idea is to create a hybrid between the human torch and a phoenix. This particular shape is then to be used with its inherent capability of scorching the area it flies over. In other words I am trying to become a fiery tool for laying waste.

It doesn't go too well. There is no fire appearing and I don't sense a temperature increase, but the first minute or more is spent just flying around trying to think of fire and how it would be looking out from the inside of a fire.

The closest I get is at one point where in my left field of vision a red glowing metal string appear (like the ones in a bread toaster). After this I give up.

I land and start walking around thinking about what to do. I walk across a road and a car is speeding towards me. I just plant my feet in front of it and decide to stand my ground. The car hits me, though it seems to do so very slowly. It's rear starts lifting off the ground until it moves in an arch above me and land on the ground.

I decide to hone my telekinetic abilities a bit and pick up the car mentally and throw it away. In the direction I threw it there is a shop with quite a lot of cars parked outside. I pick up two of these, one on either side of me and hold them spinning slowly in mid air before I throw them through the shop windows pretty controlled. Check, first time for holding two objects at the same time in opposite ends of my field of vision.

I pick up another two cars and pull them towards me mentally and grab them in my hands when they get close and slam them together.

I look up and see elevated train tracks. There is a train coming in fast on this meandering track and I decide to try getting on it. I sort of know it is a dream and I could just fly, but I do something else. I throw the first car up in the air over a sign (made of concrete and fairly tall). I jump onto the sign and as the first car is almost at the ground now I throw the other one up above me and jump onto it and immediately jumping off it again so I get to the train and manage to grab hold of an edge on it's roof.

I swing myself up on the train, which obviously is moving at tremendous speed. I jump onto it and start surfing it towards the train station (I somehow get a feeling that I have already been there). Towards the station there is a sharp turn and the train has to go into a tunnel. Although I am tempted to jump off not to get smashed I hold my grounds and follow the train a bit into the tunnel before jumping off.

I fall down and grab hold of a metal rod running along the tunnel. and start swinging along it as a monkey. Then I land on the ground and starts walking outside when I see a black man with two children walking down towards me. One of the children is walking on his right hand side and the other is in a child carrier.

I struggle a bit getting past them without running into them. I think it is funny I am considering their well being although I know I am dreaming.
...

Night time mentation: The Lucid is the first dream I recall from the night. When I then try and fall back to sleep after the dream there is this notion that I am experiencing the world from 6 different caskets, with six different names.

Sometimes I get pulled back to a central POV, but it is somehow different. Though I know I am lying with my head up against the wall I feel my consciousness reaching out in a huge bubble around me through the walls and bed.

Then I would feel the six caskets again and while my awareness either dwell on these or is transitioning between them I sense a powerful feeling of being loved. As if someone “else” is in these caskets sending positive vibes towards and through me.

[COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="royalblue"]Semi-Lucid (I'll erase this one)[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]Dream[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]Thoughts[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I decided to try to become lucid without any reality check at all, but that was a stupid idea because I got lots of false awakenings so I could have become lucid much earlier. So tomorrow I will use visualisations as a reality check.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="red"]But on one of the awakenings I started to visualise that I went out of my bed, but in the visualisation I lost myself!
I started to dream very vivid, but ignored that I was lucid even if I was, but when I come out to the yard and saw a really hot girl walking by I remembered that I was lucid. I have never had lucid dream sex, so I wanted to try.
So I flew over to her looked her in the eye and well we did it on the grass. This sex lasted for 40 seconds or so, so yeah a quick one,[/COLOR][COLOR="silver"] but the next alarm woke me up. I am going to continue to use these alarms to see if it's 100 % sure to become lucid with them, one downside is that I only lucid dream for a short period of time, until the alarm wakes me up.[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]So if it really is a 100 % sure way to lucid dream, I am going to make the alarms longer.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I just want you to be aware of that a dream is a thought! At first it feels like a visualisation, then it becomes vivid and then it's a dream the trick is to stay aware long enough to experience the switch between these two, but with the timer method it's like a DEILD so it only takes a few seconds, but if I am lazy and fail the DEILD attempt the dream is still so vivid that I might become lucid in the dream. I will call the inductions different names depending on how I become lucid, but it's basically all EILDS, because I am doing nothning, but the alarms does everything. But I am going to start reality checking on every awakening to notice my FA:s.[/COLOR]

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i was breaking into the reaklly expensive looking mansion
there was a mote around it and armed guards walking around the perimeter
i think i was with larry david?
we came to this little point out of view
he planted his own security camera above our heads for no apparent reason
wae waited for the guard to look away and swam through the dark section of the water
we made it across and now could see this enormous large rectangular pool
to the right of it was white steps that led to the mansion and a white cement or maybe ceramic gazebo like thing with an arch
up ahead were some children running towards our direction
larry told me to use these red things that had handles on the bottom and swim underneath holding them pretending like they were RC boats
for some reason this seemed like a good idea to me and went along with it
i was swimming and i had to breathe (stupid me i couldve become lucid at this point
i went up and thought the kids saw me and ducked under again
i recognized one of them from my school
i tried to get them too look away by mooning them but it didnt work
so we kept swimming and than ran into a public restroom at the end
there was some guy taking a leak in one of the urinals and everyone with me told me to get out
and the guy farted or something when i got out
now there where two people with me
they were dressed in koala mascots with gangster clothing on?
one of the kids ran up and said they knew they werent koalas
than i woke up
weird dream?

It starts out mysterious like, as if it were actually an episode of Doctor Who (Google it). Charlie Sheen is in a straight jacket, several knifes barely sticking into is left shoulder. He gets pushed back towards this wall that opens up and tentacles come flailing out. Large metal spikes impale him. (Needless to say this is the last I saw of him.) I talk to my brother and we're both disappointed that Charlie Sheen was on Doctor. Suddenly we are actually in the show, inside of the TARDIS. I pick out some apple juice from the fridge. The Doctor goes investigating why the people in the town are acting strange. He hides in a ditch but gets caught. He's told that if they do something bad then they will get "fed" to something and if even one person leaves, the whole town and a three mile radius around it will fall into the ground. (There are no cars.) There are only 266 people living in the town so they can all fit in the TARDIS so the town wouldn't fall (logic- there is none). My best friend and I get trapped in a room full of tiny aliens like the one that killed Charlie Sheen. We're tied to a spinny chair, me sitting, her tied to the back. The tentacles are grabbing at us and I keep moving the chair so they won't stab us with their spikes. My main focus is to save her. The TARDIS arrives in the room and saves us from the tiny aliens.

There's not really an ending. I woke up after that and got a huge cramp in my leg.

31.08.2011

(DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream Fragment 1 - I was playing basketball at my old high school gym. I think it was also a high school reunion. I also remember talking to some people.

Dream Fragment 2 - I at my college. I remember walking around and going into a health clinic. It changes to a reunion with my old classmates from HS. One trying to arouse me by squeezing her boobs together while she was following me to the bathroom. I do a RC and it fails. I get lucid for a while but the dream ends when i try to leave.

Full Dream 1 - I start off driving in a car at on a street near where i live. People on bicycles start to ride on my side of the road making them susceptible to getting hit by me. My car transforms into a motorcycle but i don't notice it. So I ride past these weird people on bicycles going past me. I ride home and go into my dad's store (i live in a apartment on top of the store). I go inside and see a old friend of mine. We talk and i say something that angers him a bit so he starts to pull my legs(literally). Some people pull him off me, he lets go and i go down the basement to my bike away. When i go back there's this old guy telling me that he had a bomb in his head and told me to save my brothers in the apartment upstairs. I run ouside with my keys in hand. The door to go in the apartment IRL has moved to back of the building. When i got to the door i had trouble putting the key in the key hole, I kept missing it for a few seconds. I run upstairs but it takes me to the roof. When i get their i see alot of doors with large sized room numbers on top of them. I look around but I can't seem to find. This seemed odd to me then i suddenly got lucid. I Still try to find the door but I can't find the right one. After much struggle i hear a explosion. It's not as loud as i thought it would be but i still feel bad that i didn't make it time (I have very little skills with dream control, so I couldn't teleport or make a portal) but i knew it wasn't real. I walk up to the edge of the roof and see a very detailed view of city night life across a river. There was a bridge that looked like the george washington bridge to the left of me. I try to fly so i jump off the roof but my feet gets caught on the ledge so I fall off the roof. Good news is that I float to the bottom, but the bad news is that the dream ends.

DEILD - I wake up in my room but there are a lot of different things about it. There is a huge painting of a sunset, a tank poster and a picture of my brothers on the walls. I try to leave but the dreams ends immediately without anytime for stabilization.

2 dreams

1. Was in a Grand theft auto like video game. I was the main character and I was given a mission to kill someone...I remember that I screwed up and my boss was angry at me...I may have killed him in the end.

2. Was with my cousin...Over the course of several days I had hurt him several times accidentally...Eventually we were in a fight (not with fists but he pushed me and yelled at me) and I kicked and it hurt him badly...he started crying and was so upset that he flew all the way back to Idaho

Two non-lucids I thought were quite funny.

Inside my brain
I'm lost.
The place I'm in is not very well lit. There are tube like things going everywhere and they look sort of organic.
Between them a wooden bridge is spanned.
It is rather shakey, but I'm walking it since I have nowhere else to go.

Then I reach some sort of intersection, a spot with solid ground with bridges leaving into all directions.
There's a man in the middle of it, standing in front of multiple monitors and a ludicrous amount of switches and buttons.
He's wearing a smoking, a top hat and a monocle... classy!

"Who are you? What are you doing here?"
"I'm sorry, I seem to be lost."
"What? Huh? It's you! You're inside of your brain! What are you doing here."

Seems logical...

"I'm checking on how things are running."
"Ah. I see. I wasn't aware you could do that."
"Well, things are running okay, you're really overusing the processing units at times, but we can manage."
"Uhuh... so... what's this over there?"

I point at the only location of interest. The tubes, which I now think are synapses are all sort of brown.
However in one location, there's a ton of them in vivid red.

"Erm... this part of the brain is dedicated to dirty thoughts sir."
"Ah....... okay..."

Spider
I'm in my bathroom, wanting to take piss when suddenly I spot a rather sizable spider in front of the toilet.
One of those with a fat body and thick hairy legs... ewwww. (I'm sort of arachnophobic)

"Go away!"

The spider clearly lifts its head up and looks at me.

"Nope!"

Huh? Spiders can talk? Well... I guess they can.

"Why? This is my bathroom. Go away!"
"Meh, not feeling it mate. Nice and warm in here, I'm going to stay."

The spider clearly has a British accent.

"Leave or I'll throw you out!"
"Nope. I think I'm gonna jump you."

The spider climbs up the toilet and stands on the closed lid.

"What? ..."
"I will jump you! I'm a superspider, I can jump this far!"

Fuck! I'm getting really scared.
But then memories of fighting with dragonic powers enter my head.
In panic I launch a massive fireball at the spider.

Spiders probably dead alright.
Unfortunately the toilet is missing, and so is most of the wall behind it.
Oops? A stranger outside walks by and looks at the massive hole in the room and scratches his head.

My mom storms into the room.

"What happened?!"
"It was an accident!"
"You accidentally blew a hole into your bathroom?"
"But... there was a spider on the toilet!"

I realize that this excuse makes no sense whatsoever and I'm lost as to how to explain this.

I looked out the window and up to the sky and there I saw a giant Yoda floating down from a huge white cloud. His skin was all shiny like he was made of plastic (looked like the Toy Story martians). I yell at T, "OMG! Yoda's here!" He laughed at me like it was a joke. Then I said, "No, I'm fucking serious. Look for yourself, Yoda's coming to the door." lol

Sure enough, Yoda knocked politely and suddenly my excitement vanished. I tried to push him out the door because he was really creepy in person. But he came inside all non-chalant and polite, like he was the pope.

Another dream:

My sister comes over and she accuses me of sleeping with her boyfriend. I say she's crazy and that I'm her sister, that she needs to believe me. T's in the bathroom. I thought my sister had left and I went into the bathroom to find them kissing. I'm enraged. I punch T in the face, pretty hard. Then I start yelling at my sister. I couldn't believe what she had done. She didn't care. I told her she needed to leave now. T starts to leave for work but he has my purse over his shoulder. I follow him out and keep telling him to give me my purse. Then I see that my sister was in the car that he was going for. I get angry again and say fuck it. I take off my engagement ring and throw it on the ground. Then I go inside.

Later on, I'm sitting in a church I used to go to with my parents when I was younger. My mom and dad are next to me but my mom keeps speaking over the pastor. That's when I realized she was drunk. My dad's scolding her and I tell mom we should go downstairs. Finally I get her to come with me and we go into a playroom. I had my son with me and I put him down and he started crawling all over playing with toys. There was a pool in the basement of the church, a really fancy pool, and my sister's there. She keeps leaving her cigarette underneath the table, like hiding it. I keep picking it up so it doesn't set fire. I realize that my sister's drunk too. We're sort of getting along for some reason.

Then there's some sort of graduation going on for a school choir. For some reason, I'm in their way and one of the people setting up the graduation keeps telling me to do things. I don't know why I was helping him but then I go to find whoever has my son. There's a ton of people around all of a sudden and I'm working my way through a crowd. Finally, I spot my son in this guy's arms that I used to work with. I freak out for a second cause the guy's kind of retarded and I didn't want him holding my son. I walk over to them, and he hands me my kid. Then I tell W, my son, that we're gonna go swimming. And I go into the pool with him in my arms.

The first dream was Minecraft related. Strange, seeing as I don't play it much any more... I remember we had built a world and that there were a ton of monsters. One of them was buggy, and kept crashing the game. Although the dream was in the game, the scenery never changed too much, even if it was crashing. Not too much happened other than finding the buggy enemies and blowing them up with TNT.

The second dream was a bit different. The location was at home and it was nighttime. I remember seeing Travis, Mom, and Dad mostly. I do not remember too much of what happened, but here are the important events in order of least to most interesting. In the first event in this dream, I remember filling a bath tub to take a bath. Even if I like taking showers instead. And I remember our kittens jumping in the tub and playing underwater for some reason. I kept trying to get them out, but they kept jumping back in. It was kinda weird since it looked like they were trying to drown themselves.

The second event was that Mom and Dad had found a drawing on the back of one of their fans. It said: "I was here. M-a-d-n-e-s-s" with a drawing of a cartoon character underneath. The weird thing was that the drawing seemed familiar, as if I had drawn it in a previous dream a long time ago.

The last, and most important event took place in a dark room in the house. I remember hearing a voice compelling me to come in. Once I was in, I recall seeing a glowing clock in the room that was incomplete. I don't remember exactly what color, however. The voice guided me through the process of finishing the pendulum. Once I finished it and attached it, something was happening. Something important. But before I could figure it out, I got distracted by those cats jumping into the bath tub. I am starting to like these sort of dreams. Very strange, but feeling that the event taking place is important. Here's hoping to more dreams like this.

Forth DJ entry. I'm going to try to see if I can post everyday from now on. Its good to get into a habit.

Anyway, I haven't posted in quite a while and because of that I also haven't really ade much progress in my LDing. I guess I just need to try harder.

Some Things that I would like to implement regularly:

- Regular Schedualed Dream Journal + DJ post on DV.
- 3 types of Reality checks
- Meditation
- Vitamin B + Apple Juice (We'll see if this works )

Anyway I've got recall and my insomnia up to par so I'm good with that. Anyway, if anyone has any advice let me know.

That's it for news today!

- Cheers!

August 30 - 31, 2011 - Duck Duck Goose in a Pagoda?

Vividness: 5 / 10
Lucid?: No
# of Dreams: 1 (With 2 Different Segments)

Guide:

[-] Lucid
[-] Non - Lucid
[-] DC talk
[-] Notes

Basically its a dream about my old class from grade 10. Its pretty bizarre considering the fact the dream was totally cluttered with random segments that made little sense what so ever.

Segment 1
Hundreds of students were sitting under a hollow Asian style large Pagoda type of structure. The flooring was light hardwood and we all sat in a square like formation around the structure. Students were sitting on the floor and teachers were standing around in various places. The teachers told us to clap along with whatever clapping pattern they were doing. I was confused. I sat there and at first it seemed like the students refused such a dumb demand but as the clapping got louder (obviously more people joined in eventually), I realised that this wasn't a group clap but instead a giant game of duck duck goose only by pointing instead of touching someone. I sat behind S.D. and she was chosen. She then pointed at H.M. and he seemed to point at me but someone else got up and I became slightly embarrassed.

Segment 2
The next thing I remember was a yellow memo being handed out to our class from my grade 10 teacher. We were in class having a discussion about aliens and some people said they believed they existed so just before we left we were given this memo. On the third paragraph it said "Oh and by the way, if anyone still believes in aliens visit this YouTube video." It was a short video with what I believe to be Jim Carey in it for some reason.

Right, so I remember several dreams nearly every night, and they are always fairly involved, a lot of imagery and breaking down the happenings of the day. A lot of them have concerned me, and of course I take them all seriously, but I don't want everyone I know to have to hear about another, so here is a nightmare of sorts that I had.
(before sleeping i was insistent on keeping the kitchen light on in the apartment I live in, and slept on the sofa which is close to the kitchen light)
The Dream:
In my dream, I was in my old house which was recently sold. I lived there with my mother and father before their divorce, it was a very nice place, but sold as a result of the divorce. So a lot of karma and whatnot is related to it, plus, it is my quintessential home place.
I was in my parents' bedroom, but i was on a futon with a white down comforter and sleeping with a fluffy cat that would fuss in the covers. I fell asleep, with this really bright light on to keep safe. But I woke up when this uber bright incandescent yellow tinted orb (golf ball sized) when into me, under my skin, and started speaking to me creepily, but it was mostly the sensation I felt which was like it was a dark message, a dark bulb/light, and it really disturbed the muscles in my side where it was lodged.
I got up, and by the front door was my friend/ex-friend who was sleeping on the ground, and I lifted up my shirt from the area on my right abdomen where this orb thing was, (I felt like a message was carved) and he said something along the lines of "you should look at this in the mirror" and then my dad was there and he looked at it too and said "you should really take a look at this, it says ''you are (nothing more than) a worthless human grave" or something like that.
(Then I woke up, turned off the kitchen light because it was a lot like light in my dream, went back to bed)
Now in my next dream I was at the house my mother now lives/works at, sleeping on her couch (maybe parallel to fact I was sleeping on apartment couch) and it was dark, but not scary. Then, I got a picture text on my clunky cell phone of some (plastic/decorative/holiday) of some skulls from my old sold house, as if to reiterate the message of dying/grave/whatever.

I also half remember seeing these two little girls that I know in real life, who have huge eyes, they have showed up in my dreams sometimes. I used to be/am still timid of them. they were in the kitchen in my mom's current residence

My thoughts/information to reader: I have had a lot that I'm keeping secret lately, and had some bad eating habits and have just checked out socially. I've also been paranoid about my ears and neck. I've been feeling very emotionally dead in terms of happy feelings.
I would like some help. What in the fuck could this mean? I think it has to do with me going uphill from my downhill lifestyle lately, or maybe I am just going down some more. (I've had full blown precognitive dreams before, or just intuitive/informational ones about people and places and what they are related to me. So maybe I am going to through something tough? Or through rebirth? or should i be concerned?)

thank you

31-08-11 Weeds: With the Weeds family. We are in a small forest like area close to the ocean. We are there to look at a house to live in, but as we approach it becomes clear that it is not suitable for that.

The trees are fairly tall, though they allow for ample light to pass through and at the time I would think the lighting match a noon of a summer day. The house itself is made of wood, and fairly crooked in particular in one corner of the above ground level terrace, that is hanging quite a bit.

There is a woman there, she is blonde and not that tall. Andy and her decides to have sex. I think I observe this from a distance and potentially through a window or similar.

I do see him pulling out of her, as she is bent over a washing machine and the size of Andy's penis (somewhere between an arm's length and a stinger missile) ruins whatever sexually arousing potential the imagery might have had.

Skip.

There are two rooms in the house and Shane is in one of them with the doors closed, there seems to be a consensus that he is probably masturbating. At one point we open the doors (it is a sliding door) and I think Steve Perry comes out and tells us to leave them/him alone. This is weird, and feels so, but doesn't seem to further impact the dream.

There is a fart, I actually remember the sound of it quite well, when Nancy is in the bathroom and Silas and I can't really decide if it came from the bathroom or Shane's room, but we call out for people to come out and talk about it.

I sort of want to engage the girl there in a sexual arrangement, but she seems to mainly be interested in Andy. Instead Nancy comes over and sit in my lab and I experience a loving feeling towards and reassures her of her maternal skills. I don't feel attracted to her, but I do feel love.

There is a small baby that might be Shane, and he is dressed in gangster clothes. He has recently learned how to speak, though he seems more proficient at speaking than walking or keeping his balance in general.

Me and a girl tickles him and he drops some of the stuff he has been carrying in his pockets. He is crying and laughing at the same time, but he does seem generally sad that the girl teasingly has taken his stuff away from him, which breaks my heart and I feel sorry for him.

Skip.

I am talking to Nancy, it is clear that we are not going to buy the house for living, but I point out that it is a perfect grow house. It is far away from civilisation, which should discourage authorities from coming snooping around. It takes a bit of convincing, but she finally comes around.

I look outside during this and there is a man sitting in a sun chair looking out over the ocean and he isn't wearing a shirt. He doesn't seem to pay any attention to what is going on in the house though I get the feeling he lives there.