non-lucid

Entry 6: June 2009

Mini Horse & Being Portuguese

I was at my old middle school but it was really rundown looking. I went to my locker while chatting with a friend and opened the locker with the combination 3,6,9. While talking to my friend Katie we discussed being portuguese. When I opened my locker I recalled putting a mini-horse and a snake in there(living ones). I decided to kill the snake because I could not keep track of where he kept hiding in my locker. But I took the little horse, about the size of a human hand, out for a walk on a leash. It was a chesnut horse with one white sock on its hind leg.

'APPMS' & 'Caroline'

It was my last day of school at college and I was packing up my things in my dorm. Oddly I lived with like five other people in one tiny dorm room. I was walking back to my room and to get there, I had take this old rickety stair case that ran underground alongside dark water. Some parts were wooden and others metal like a fire escape. I got back to my room and a friend had left me a birthday present. I got a My Little Pony and a Transformer [odd...]. My other friend got some poker chips and cards.

Then we finished packing to go home. I miraculously crammed everything into my backpack then said bye to my roommates. I started to walk out when this kid came up to me and asked for my number so we could keep in touch. I said okay, then he kept telling me to dial "APPMS" as his contact name in cell phone. He also told me he was on a break dance team for our college, and that his friend was mad that some great dance got out of prison recently and joined the dance team of their arch rivals.

After that I continued on my way to leave and I had to take the same weird wooden/metal stairs and walkway that goes along the water underground. A bunch of people are all leaving the school so the walks were pretty crowded. Everyone I went to school with was afraid of going through the underground walkways thought because they kept telling me to look out for 'Caroline'.

Then all of the sudden everyone was dressed up like Halloween while we were walking along underground. A red headed boy is in front of me with elf ears on and a cape. He turns around and roars at me but then one of his elf ears fell off. He then grabbed it and ran away.

-The End-

Tale of The Terrible Camp!

Entry 4: May 2009

I was at a camp that I was attending and had to spend nights there as well. I arrived and was walking through a crowd of people also checking in. Just then I caught the eye of a young boy about thirteen I'd say. He was completely bald and shirtless, with wolverine type claws coming from his knuckles. He looked somewhat scared, so I said "Hello" to him. Then I moved on towards the girls dorms. I walked in and they were wicked gross and dirty. They were like, tiny cubicles with a little bathing area inside the little room. All of the rooms were an ugly olive green with dirty white bathroom tiles.

Two girls and I found open rooms way in the back where it was kind of creepy. We put out stuff down and then we all started talking about how were being kept in the crap part of the camp, the good camp was across the river. I also remembered things I had forgotten and wrote a letter to my mother so she could send them to me. . Then I decided to tell off one of the staff members because we were in dirty rooms.

The staff wore red Adidas jump suits with yellow stripes. I yelled at this balding guy who then decided I had to be punished for acting up. He got a flat wooden stick to beat me with so I ran for it! I saw the boy with claws again and he told me where to hide. I hid behind a cubicle and could only see the staff guy's feet moving towards me. He had on Adidas sandals with blue stripes. [IDK what is with all the adidas!]. The boy told me when to move so I would not get caught. Then the staff guy realized we kept watching his feet so he changed into red heels to try and trick us. That's when I stood up and ran for it again. Then the boy with claws fought off the staff guy so I could escape.

I made it out but some staff person tried to stop me. I ran by him and he kept yelling after me "You have to sign out!!!" [lol!] I just ran until I crossed a smal bridge to get to the other side of the river. I made it but there was a steep incline to get to the 'good camp' and everything was covered in snow. I ended up seeing a bus going up the mountain side to the Chi Pine Lodge, so I got on. We drove up the mountain and arrived in the new camp. The new camp had restaurants, lodges, and horse barns.

-The End-

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Entry 3: May 2009

I fed some fish that I knew had been stuck in a building for 100 years with these two girls. I knew they were sisters. Then it flashed into a different scene. I was on a farm and could hear the thoughts of this dog. The dog's thoughts informed me that the farm took in kids without homes. Also he informed he the farm had recently adopted two pigs. Then there was another flash and I was at my elementary school getting a blood sample taken.

NOTES: I did not have very good recall for this group of dreams, they were all quite difficult to remember.

Tale of the Races

Entry 2: May 2009

I was in the wilderness with some old man who lived out there. There was a heavy snow storm coming down on us as well. We were not in any type of shelter, just standing in the forest. The old man and I were looking over some paperwork he had on the human body. Just then we noticed two horses racing down the mountainside. I realized it was my brother and my younger cousin. Then I magically knew there was a man at the top of the mountain you paid $79 to ride a horse. The horses were pounding down the mountainside seemingly out of control. One was a chestnut and the other was a bay...they both had rope halters on them. Then I noticed a herd of deer on the road side....

-The End-

Tale of The Cryon

Entry 1: May 2009

I was in a junkyard in this town called Broocli with a brown haired boy. He apparently wanted to get married, but I said no. Then I walked with my friend Bella to downtown Broocli, past the Brooklizi [a local pub], and down to the harbor. It was a small oceanside town. We walked on a tan brick walkway that wrapped around a building, and was almost level with the ocean. A white horse appeared and galloped around a corner so I ran after it. Bella said I was nuts. I followed the horse and found a dark skinned man with curly black hair, and two kids trying to catch it. Supposedly the horse belonged to a local Broocli farmer and was very expensive. The horse jumped in the water and refused to come out.

I kneeled down on the sidewalk and placed my hand on the side of the horse's face. I told it "everything is going to be okay, you're all right." Then it climbed out onto the walkway with water cascading off its coat. Then I jumped onto the horse's back. It jumped back into the ocean and I held onto its mane to stay on. We went underwater and 'galloped' through the ocean. I could breathe underwater too. We surfaced and Bella was with her boyfriend on the walkway nearby. She looked shocked and told me I better visit her because now I was the 'Cryon'. She explained that the Cryon was a mystical horse that takes only one rider, then it is up to the rider to care for the seas of Earth.

I rode through the oceans for months, taking care of things like pollution and such, always on the look out to help fellow sea creatures. Finally one day I made it back for a visit to Broocli. I went on land for the first time to visit Bella. I told her I was worried I wasn't doing enough, but she told me not to worry because without my work the Broocli harbor would still be gross.

-The End-

Notes: Broocli is not a real town that I am aware of, and neither is the Cryon myth my mind cooked up!

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Well I decided that if I was going to really forcus on having LD's it was about time I started my own dream journal. My memory is still pretty patchy but that's what I'm aiming to improve!

I was dreaming that there were 2 neds stood at my desk in work. The first had that "you've been tangoed" look, indicating her complete lack of basic makeup concepts, such as match your skin tone. Anyway, she had dark hair tied back in a ponytail and a white tracksuit on. I don't remember much about her friend, other than she was ginger or blonde.

The dark haired one was asking if there was anything else she could hand in other than a sick line to cover being out sick. I started to tell her that no, only a sick note would do, but Dawn interupted me and told her that yes there was something else.

Can't for the life of me remember what it was she told her though! That's all unfortunately

Aug 11-12: I don't remember much. I remember two or three different fragments.
1. I was swimming in crystal blue waters in the ocean worrying that sharks would get me.
2. I realized that I was dreaming and again tried rubbing my hands together. I checked the time in my dream for some reason, even though I already knew I was dreaming. The dream started to fade out so I tried dream spinning, but it still didn't work. I don't think that I can control what I'm doing while I'm trying to get a fully lucid dream, I think its just instinct to rub my hands together. That obviously doesn't work, so I need to try something else. I don't think I ever woke up, I just think it went on to another dream.
3. My room at my dad's house kept getting set on fire. I also remember some witch lady would chant and randomly set stuff on fire. (Why have all my dreams had fire in them lately?)

As per class 2, prior to sleeping I spent most of my time imagining a forest. I pictured myself touching the bark of an old oak tree, feeling it a little, then shooting up through the branches and leaves into a vast expanse of trees. The forest forms an infinite valley of greenery, and I fly around it.

sadly, this didn't play out the was I envisioned, but the night was a success regardless!

I only recall few fragments from my first dream. I was being transported all over the world. All I remember is that the Worlds' climate was in danger, and I ended up in Australia. There was a giant yellow sign depicting all of the atrocities Australia was doing, and it was claiming they were using a fourth of the worlds resources.

I woke up early again. Probably about 6 AM again. Our cat was clawing at my backpack. Soon after I moved it, I decided to try to WILD, and realizing Alyssa's dad would be up for work soon, I decided I should use headphones to cancel out any sound. I listened to my binural beats track. About 1 hour after trying to sleep while relaxing, my eyes started flickering intensely and I felt my heart beating incredibly loud. This happened on my last time trying to WILD, but last time it was accompanied with visuals. I don't remember any clear visuals with this attempt, except at one point I was positive I was seeing blurry silhouettes of people. My left shoulder and right thigh started to feel weird, so I decided to snap out of it and just go to sleep normally. The whole time I was trying to WILD I was concentrating on the image of a forest.

The last dream I remember, I was in some sort of mansion of sorts. Filled with several different people. I remember the architecture of the building made no sense. I can't give any real specific examples, but there were only certain ways to get to certain rooms, hallways weren't really present. I recall having a FA into a room of the mansion that looked similar to the room in waking life that I was currently sleeping in. I thought it was a strange dream. Then I'm not sure what tipped me off, but something didn't feel right. I looked at my hand, but didn't see anything. I was positive it felt like I lifted my hand up, but I could only see my thumb. I put it back down, and tried my other hand. Again, I saw nothing. I came to the conclusion I was dreaming, and became lucid. I remember looking around the room, trying to take it what I could. I looked down at Alyssa and had the thought of waking her to talk to myself, but she was breathing in a strange way so I decided against it. I took a few steps towards an air hockey table that didn't exist in the waking world, and felt a vibration coming from my cellphone in my pocket. I went to grab it and answer it, but as I did, I woke up.

It wasn't the most amazing lucid, but it certainly beats my last record of becoming lucid and the dream exploding to white. Looking forward to my next lucid--hopefully to complete the task of the week!

Dalton Hall is the disgusting food cafeteria at my college that I swore never to eat at again.
I dreamt that I was there to eat and the layout was quite different, but it was certainly the same place. I had my food, but I needed to choose a place to sit down, I saw a group of people people that I knew from high school, but didn't want to sit with them, so I sat at a table with a group of black people. Shortly after I sat down, the black guy to my left said, "You can leave now." So I attempted to calmly and respectfully ask why, but he just got angry. At some point he either became a black female or she started yelling instead. My tray of food somehow managed to get smashed on the floor and I calmly left the table. A friend of mine, Alex, was now at that table with the black people. (She has a group of black friends in her hometown, but doesn't associate with blacks generally) I don't know if she was there the whole time, but that woul explain why I sat there. She yelled something about how she and I are supposed to have a conversation or something, whatever it was, it was friendly and not serious. I told her that she'll have to come sit with me because I'm not allowed to sit there. So for some reason I decided to take her to the table with my high school acquaintances. I think my dream skipped to a part where I'm wondering what to do about the tray, so I went up to where you usually pay for youe tray of food or whatever and told them that someone caused me to break my tray on the floor, but that I took responsibility. They seemed understanding about it.
Then I woke up.

I'm wondering if this is representing how I feel about typical black people. I feel like most of them are the stereotypical, scumbags that are often referred to as "niggas". Even when you treat them with respect and understanding, they just want to be angry at the white man.
Me trying to reason with them might represent how I wish I could reach them and make them understand and stop being so stupid.

August 12:
Dream phase 1: I was out in the back of a tall white mansion that had a few upper level patios. I was on lower level ground. The ground had level had a bit of overgrowth over it. The concrete also looked aged.( maybe because it was also slightly dark outside.) there were hedges that formed an L in front of my view( L might be a dream sign) I was in a hot tub that had an appearance of a artsy fountain( made with a sub section for water and it had a statue above) a old middleschool crush of mine Ashley mcgill was also there. Apparently we talked for a little and then I made a move on her and went in for a kiss but as a few seconds passed she got up and said something like I can't do this then she left. The dream phase faded as well.

Phase2: I was in an apartment complex. I was inside first. It was very cluttered messy and all connected. I remember seein sean mcloraine. I can't remember dialogue but that was majority of the dream. Then the women got mad at one point and demanded "rights" my mom was leading so I followed outside we protested and marched down a street in front that curved around. It had a few trees and it was dark out( dream sign) then the dream soon faded.

Well, my crazy summer is finally over, and I have the time and motivation to get back into lucid dreaming. I'll be doing reality checks all day long and thinking up new goals to get me motivated, and hopefully they'll work out here real soon

But of course one of the most important parts of all this is...my DJ! Gotta start recording those dreams again so I can get my recall back up...so without further ado, here is what little I remember of last nights dream.

I was in California with a friend from real life that I presently only know through Skype. We spent a lot of time planning how to rebuild our website and add new features, and then we got down to actually building it...physically. We went into her room and cleared it out to make room for work. I began by setting a huge PC monitor in the middle of a long desk that ran from one end of the room to the other. I never connected a computer to the screen, or used a mouse or keyboard to navigate to the website on the monitor, but this didn't make me go lucid. I just kind of thought of what I wanted to have happen on the screen and it did.

Once the website was called up, we started to build stuff on the desk all around the monitor. It was a bunch of random stuff...inhumanly big boots, picture frames, food, and even Legos! But as we built all around the monitor, the website was built on the screen. We were just about finished when there was a knock on the bedroom door. My friend opened it and her brother was waiting. He saw the desk covered with stuff and looked horrified.

"What are you doing, sis? I need to sleep there. I'm dead tired!"

He walked over and cleared the desk of all our work and handed me the monitor. Then he pulled a mattress out of nowhere, put it on the desk, and went to sleep on it.

"Oh well." I said.

We did some other weird stuff like that afterwords, but I can't really remember anything else in detail.

Okies so,

This is the first entry for me here so be gentle, should probably work on shorting down the descriptions a bit, but as I am only getting back into dreamworks (clever ey!) I find it helpful to increase the level of detail I notice, I might start shorting down the forum posts and keep the detailed descriptions to a private journal.

Non-ludic
Ludic
Notes/reflections

12-08-10 Attained lucidity after waking from a dream within a dream. In the first dream I was hearing routine scraping sounds from my living room and I feared these a bit. In fact i feared them so much that I would not go to the kitchen in order to get some water or milk (I knew I had no milk). I decided instead to go to the toilet which was a hotel style toilet (even though it was right next to my room and I have no such toilet I didn't spot the hint) I was sitting in this toilet looking at the details noticing the increased space, but also that there was a sign right next to the toilet that explained what it was in different languages. I returned to my bed and noticed that my duvet was a bit too small that I could somewhat not fit under it and hide from the ghosts of my flat. At this point I woke up (within the dream) and the scraping sound was now louder from the room next door, but this time it was accompanied with a whisper clear in my head and I looked around and saw a transparent face. Now I suspected I was dreaming so got up, confronted the ghost and told him ”you are a spirit, I am dreaming” he tried to talk me out of it, but I tested my thesis by trying to fly, successfully. I landed snapped my fingers and said ”I am dreaming” I awaited a bit to see if the excitement would wake me up, but this waiting a bit seemed to stabilise the dream. I made the face my spirit friend and told him to come along for the ride, saying ”you are created by me”. I went to the corridor of my flat and tried to fly straight through the door, but everything became black as I tried to do so and after another unsuccessful attempt I decided to try the window instead. Here at first I banged my entire body against the glass (without it breaking) and I took a step back, focused and flew straight through the glass without breaking it. My spirit friend was at this point a bit behind me, but since he wouldn't keep up (or I couldn't be bothered keeping creating him) I flew high and low and saw some people on a spot of grass, and landed in front of them. I told them I was dreaming and that they were projected by me and that we should relish the chance to have a party. The scraping sounds had now turned into a full on funky house background theme song that stayed till the end of the dream. I flew down towards the university and a mass of people where gathering, again I told them they were just in my head and they accepted this and things turned riot like, in a good way. A car with some people in it and an angry driver Jacob Kliver, an old football coach of mine approached. He looked angrily at the people in front of him so I flew straight towards the car (to give him the surprise of his life ^^) put my feet first and kicked the window (without breaking it. The car emptied and I picked it up, to the amusement of the crew around me and tried to throw it in a top floor window, I couldn't quite get it to fit although I tried 3 times, but they seemed happy enough that I could throw a car around. However determined to prove that I could achieve some proper stuff I summoned a leather/metal sofa (now getting reminded that telekinesis was also within the realms of reality) picked it up with my mind and planted it halfway through the top window of the building across the road. I flew onwards and decided that I wanted some sexual/romantic action too and wanted to kiss the first girl that turned up, which happened to be a delicate good looking friend of mine reminding me of Sarah. I kissed her, but it was just too wet and I had some fun explaining to the girl that it was probably because I was kissing myself and in an attempt to stick my own tongue down my throat I was drooling all over the place. So I wiped my mouth and flew on without much happening till I got to a night club where I saw Sarah and a guy that had been on a street earlier. The funky house music was now coming from the speakers of the club and we decided to hang out a while. The guy I decided was a pain in the ass and I wanted to erase him, which I couldn't. I had a conversation with the guy about it saying it was funny that I couldn't because in reality he was a projection of my mind (not sure he thought it was funny) they left, after I insisted on getting his name, which he had to tell me twice (Jay 100) and I went to the window and decided to do a full on telekinetic exit I shattered the glass outwards with my mind (explosion style!!) jumped from the window in a huge arc and landed on a radiator on the outside of an adjacent building, to great amusement of some random people passing by (yes it seemed perfectly logical that a radiator would be placed on the outside of a building, at least at the time!). I decided to practice a few dancing moves, but at this point I had some trouble breathing. I took some time to focus and regain my breath, which I did (although I have no idea as to how, when I woke up later I was face down in my pillow). I danced a bit and did some heavenly parcour (spelling?) until I had some trouble breathing again. At this point I became scared thinking I might not wake up even if I was dying because my conscience was not with my body. I demanded to wake up without success, until I decided to close my eyes and focus on my breath (I have only recently tried WILD techniques, unsuccessfully, but apparently they are great for stopping a no longer wanted dream too =P) and woke up, drawing a deep, DEEP breath (after having pulled my face out the pillow).

Notes: This is the second time the presence of a ghost gives me the hint of the fact I am dreaming. This was in fact a wake back to bed attempt as I had been sleeping most of the day after not having slept much yesterday and getting called to work this morning by my dad.

Regarding the content of my dream, the meanings can be interpreted in a standard Freudian manner about desires, fears etc.

Also at some point there were some old school knee pad protectors (brown and fluffy) and I somehow knew I would need them, although they don't figure in the later stages of the dream(s). However I am not sure what dream they figure in.

12-08-10 Fragmented series of dreams. I was somewhere with some friends of mine Kaiser was there. As the end of the trip approached he told me he was looking forward to going to a long planned event with me that I had totally forgotten. Even as he reminded me of the contents of this event I had no recollection of what happened and how I got involved. He later tried to sway me me by having Dukakis on a call and a friend of Duki's asked what and what was happening to me, I believe the place I was supposed to go was Bulgaria. Later on I even took out my calendar flipped through the filled out pages (I should kill myself for not realising this was a dream here, as I oppose diaries and calendars with a passion) and did indeed find the date in mention with a note called “focus fuck” referring to my intentions of participating in this event. I still couldn't remember a damn thing, and although now I was actually getting convinced I had agreed to it, I was sure I hadn't agreed to anything that took place foreignly. When I in the end refused to go, Kaiser was severely disappointed, in fact he was in tears and this touched me. We departed at the train station, actually a hell of a lot of train travelling took place, and I ended up in bulgaria although Kaiser and Duki were not part of this segment of the dream. I met a girl, not a very attractive girl (in fact with a female mustache) but I felt connected to her and I liked her in a non-sexual fashion. We were not able to communicate a lot and therefore we decided to attend a language school together and at this language school the teacher asked who was serious and actually intended on learning something rather than being there to get credits for something. Both her and I decided that we were going to learn the common means of communication. However this never occurred as a demonic (seemed goblin like) police officer turned up in a car outside. He shot the girl in the throat, a fatal wound, and I never managed to catch up with him. I returned to the home of the girl and decided to remain a little longer in the company of her brother. Her brother introduced me to an older brother of his, who had experience and an underground network of people, in fighting supernatural beings. One of these ended up being a warewolf, also a police officer and I was riding a bike with this older brother who told me the gun I had was loaded with silver bullets. I shot this man who was chasing us from the back of the bike, I hit him in the shoulder, but because of the silver bullets this was enough to kill him. As he was dying I noticed that he started to shift (he grew a mean ass set of teeth!) and I also noticed that from the bullet wound a silver coating appeared engulfing the man's shoulder starting from deep within his veins. We returned to the house of the siblings and we went to a field to play some football the two brothers and I (after having ventured on yet another train travel). I somehow had a ticket that would allow me free roaming transport on any train, after having checked this with a controller. In the end I departed and explained to the younger brother of the girl that despite the tragic circumstances I was glad to have gotten to know him better and had a good time. I woke up.

Notes: This is not the first time I have experienced (and missed) trains as a clear dream sign.

I'm really just so confused.

I drempt I was playing a basketball game, as a cheerleader. I can't remember too many details, but this was fucking weird. I don't understand it at all. All I can remember is having the ball, and my ears getting ripped off by these two kids. Then coach said not to hurt them.
Thats ALL i can remember.

What the hell's happening to me... i'm losing my ability to go lucid.. ugh.

Date: August 12, 2010
Non-Lucid
Duration: Medium - Long

I was in a shopping centre with some friends of mine and with my dad. I don't remember what we were doing there... We were already leaving and we headed to the elevators. I stopped mine, because I waited for my dad, he was there just looking at me. Then he entered the elevator. Then we headed for our car. The car was an awesome grey lotus elise.

Then appeared a friend of mine (Tiago) who needed a ride home because his parents were too busy to give him a ride. We said that we could give him a ride to his house. We phoned his parents and they accepted. He said that his parents had a car stand and a glasses store, so they havent time for him.

In the Highway we saw a military jetplane flying over us, very close passing by. Then we see three cars going very fast with jet planes transforming on their backs (transformers style). Each icar had 2 jet planes and the car was a jet plane itself. When they were completely transformed they jumped off the car to the road, accelerated very fast and they started flying. I was and am amazed by the vividness of the planes and its design!

Then we saw that there was a jetplane behind us accelerating very fast in our direction! We quickly turned and then I saw a 3rd person view (burnout style) of the plane colliding to my car. It did almost nothing, just turned off the car's lights. And I saw that I looked like a kid of the SIMS with camo on my face.

Then it started becoming confusing. We stopped near the sea looking for a plane to get out of there (Tiago wasnt there anymore) because our plane was destroyed by someone that was on a montain near us. Luckilly he died because a jet plane fired a missile to that mountain, destroying it completely...

The I see an orange helicopter toy and we had to put inide it some small toys (they were us) in order to escape, but they fell to the sea... Some were floating and some disapeared...

This was one of the best non-lucid dreams I had!