non-lucid

I think there was much more to the dream before this, and his was the tail end of a much longer story. Regardless, I remember looking at a map, trying to find the quickest way to Gulf Shores from York (which I was near, for some reason). York was pretty close to the coast, apparent, and gulf shores appeared to be south and west of it. As I was looking at the map, I noticed some coastal cities along the way, that I had never heard of before. One was just outside of York, apparently, in a fictional city called Roseton, or Basetown, or something like that?

Anyway, I headed towards it, and pulled up to fictional intersection that I've seen in my dreams before. There was a windmill there and gas station, which was normal. Part of the windmill (the topmost bladed part) fell off while I was waiting at the intersection. I then noticed that there was a brand new gas station underneath the windmill (beside it and beneath it, it wasn't part of the windmill), which was exciting, because there was usually just a run down, empty lot there. So, there were two brand new gas stations. We pulled into the one on the right, beneath the windmill. We stopped, and Katie Lewis was there. She got out, said hello. I introduced her to my girlfriend, and called her by Kaia's name, but she had apparently shapeshifted into Katelyn Rew. We then got back in the car, and I figured that introducing her with Kaia's name probably hadn't been the best faux pas, and decided to not to touch the subject.

We then took the road between the gas stations, and it led immediately to the coastal town. On my first visit, I noticed some fast food places and a walmart, and that it was directly on the coast (or a river?), and that there was ice all around. I left (I don't remember what I did during this absence, or any other absence, for that matter), and then returned. On the second venture, my family had come with me. My sister was pretty amazed that I had never noticed all of this was here before. The area had grown, and was now pretty populated with people. Also, you could apparently see Cuba from the coast? Like, close enough to swim to, very easily (not the city Cuba, the island nation). We went to a library, which was ok. I searched for Heretics of Dune, but couldn't find it (nothing but prequels, of course). We then left for a very brief period of time (again, no recollection of what I did, there honestly may have been no time shift, and my mind just made it seem like I had left in order to change the scene of the city) and returned.

This time, it was MASSIVE, and there was a clear eastern and western part to the city. All of it was floating on ice, though the bergs weren't really separated, they formed a large landmass, for the most part. It was also less immediately apparent, now, and required hopping over one or two small ice floes to reach the city proper. It felt like a WoW quest hub, honestly, and I remember someone doing some kind of rocket races or something? For some reason, my mind associated them with Goblins, but I don't think that they were actually Goblins. It was pointed out to me by a third party (it felt like Lindsey from Arrested Development was speaking into my mind) that the eastern (left, from my perspective) portion of the island was very politically liberal, while the western (right, from my perspective) portion of the island was very conservative.

So I went to the eastern part, which I hadn't been to yet. They also had a library, which was much better. While I was looking for the book I ran into someone who works there, I assume, as she was going to help me find what I was looking for. She was some weird mixture of Meghan A and Haley from Birmingham. I remember us stopping to talk, and her rubbing her toes against my foot in a weird, flirtatious way. I found the book, Heretics of Dune, thanked her, and left. At this point, I left the library, and was then woken up by my girlfriend, who wanted to go find breakfast. So now, we're gonna go find breakfast.

As a side note, every time I left the city and came back, I may have had a false awakening, because I seem to remember a sensation of relief each time I went back to the city, in that I was relieved it was still there, and perhaps that indicates that I suspected it was just a dream, due to a FA.

Dream 1

We were in France on a school trip, and we are pretty much allowed to do what we want to do during the day so me and one of my friends decide we are going to hire a bike a ride over the huge mountains they have in France. So we went and rented a bike each, and began to ride them. Before we even got to the mountain trail I had to go down a huge hill, it was verrrrry big. I was riding down going fast and it was now me and my sister. I was pretty scared we were going to crash. Then at the bottom we planned that we would ride to the top of mountain peak, enjoy the scenery and come back down the same way otherwise it would take us forever. Then the scene changed I'm in a small French town, still planning my bike trip, I had £13, I had £6 for lunch and £7 was for any emergencies that may arise, for lunch I went in a chip shop where the lunch was pie, but they hadn't made it yet.

July 14, 2014

3mg melatonin

Overall rating: 1/5
Vividness: 2/5
Plot: 2/5
Lucidity: 0/5

I cant remember much of my dream last night night. There was more but i lost it before i could recall all what happened. I just remember driving my truck, following my dad, kyle, and Tony. Once again at night.

Dream - Lucid


Something about two guys.

When I woke up, in the middle of the night, I told myself I'd remember this dream. I think it's time to start keeping a notebook beside me again to take brief notes between awakenings...

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I was swimming in an in-ground pool with my friend Courtney S. It was sunny and beautiful outside.

I then remember thinking about my wedding photos, and whether or not they were edited yet. I was in line to speak with my photographer, who had just gotten back from vacation. When I saw her at the front of the line, we were inside and she was sitting behind this counter/podium. I said hello to her, and something about the photos. She smiled and was excited when she responded, but I don't remember exactly what her response was, though I feel as if I misunderstood her, thinking that she had finished editing the photos. I saw her handling photos, many of me when I was a child. I "remembered" them being in an album at my wedding for the guests to look at, but I did not see any photos from the wedding itself.

I remember doing more things involving my wedding, though I can't remember much of the specifics. My old work friend Nicole may have been there at some point.

Then, I was hanging out with someone I knew when I was in elementary school, Alex H. We were having fun, I don't remember what we were doing, we may have been swimming. I had a feeling he was ready to leave. I asked him if he wanted to stay longer, but he said he had to go. I understood. We had a good time, and I was not disappointed that he wanted to leave.

I then was waiting in line to ride some really fast indoor roller coaster with some friends, though the only one I remember knowing was Courtney S. It was a ride that usually had a very long wait time. I remember the colors being shades of purple and blue with dim lighting. The ride had something to do with the photographer/photography, though I couldn't tell you what the connection was, other than the photographer was the ride operator. Though this photographer was not my original one, but she was someone that my wedding photographer had hired. It was a woman around my age (25) or maybe a bit younger, and she looked very bland; her face had a blank, dull look to it. I remember hearing an old woman asking her a question, and her responding with a quick "No". The woman asked her another question, and received the same response. I walked away before I could hear any more of the conversation.

Anyway, the negative photographer (ha, see what I did there? ) was standing behind a podium, though this time it was a roller coaster operating panel. We did not wait as long as I had remembered waiting for the ride before. At the end of the ride, you would win a lot of coins, mostly silver coins like quarters and such, because it was apparently also some sort of race. One of my friends in the dream, a short, chubby girl about my age with a dirty blonde ponytail and round glasses who resembles Kristin, a girl I met at at my old job IWL, said that if you were on the last cart on the roller coaster, and you finished last, somehow cheating the system, you would win double the amount of coins as the winner.

We were then boarding the coaster. I got on the last car on the train. The shoulder straps came down, and the train started to move up. The chubby girl then jumped from somewhere on my right into my car with me. She was trying to cheat the system to get more coins.
"Get off!" I said to her, more than once. I was concerned about her safety.
She finally jumped off as the train was moving towards the main track. She jumped onto the last bit of floor left beside the car. When she jumped, the train was moving a little faster, so she had to run a little after she landed, and came very close to falling off the edge.

The ride was very fast, but very short. I had remembered it being a longer ride, and then I figured out why: The photographer who had run it the last time was the main photographer, the one who shot my wedding. This other girl was just trying to get us in and out of there as quickly as possible.

I then was at a machine that was dispensing the coins to those who won. I cupped my hands under the dispenser, and it started to pour coins out. I had quite a few, just enough to overflow my hands a bit.

I remember the chubby girl had gotten on a car behind me so she could cheat the system.

Remembered much more from last night than the past few. Just goes to show how journaling your dreams really aids in the recall of them. Hoping to step back into lucidity more often again, especially with the new mindsets that I've adopted. I'll keep you guys posted.

2:00-6:35

I was with Will Ferrell and that old woman he had sex with in the movie Granny's Boy. I was trying to get into a mine, and I had a sniper rifle. Ferrell and her friend were supposed to help me with that, but most of the time they kept having sex. I killed a few guys in a field, then I set up a trap for some Norse guards. I placed a mine around a bunch of explosive stuff, and then tricked them into going over there somehow. I remember a camera panning from them to the mine, which activated at that second.

The old woman said, "Maybe we should move up." Will said, "Naw, let's just keep doing it, baby." And they kept doing it...

I moved up to the now-unguarded mine, and went in. I think I was looking for diamonds or some mineral. I saw some monsters patrolling the mines. They weren't scary, but they were in my way. I killed a few of them. The dream ended before I could get to my objective.

I know my posts are getting shorter and shorter. My dream recall is getting worse from not practicing. :/

Me and Niki were in my front yard at night time and we watched as a plane flew across the sky. For some reason, I had a bad feeling. But it passed over us and I let out a sigh of relief, when, it turned around and headed straight for us. I shouted, "I love you best friend!" and next thing I know Niki is dead and I'm still alive.

7/13/14* Awesome! Finally one of my recent vivid dreams became lucid! Similar calm, highly lucid, exploration like my grassy sea lucid and right after seeing the closest thing I have seen to a grassy sea: I just watched Gravity for the first time last night and there is a scene where you see a grassy vegetation growing up out of a large body of water. When I saw that scene in the movie IWL my heart fluttered emotionally with the memory of the wonderful lucid dream it so much reminded me of and it must have inspired another awesome LD. I think it solidified the point for me to slow down and explore all of the wonder right around you. I have also had similar experiences IWL.

One of my earlier dreams was very vivid. At the end there is a squirrel that got into a house with a gathering or party. After trying to lead him out an open door, I was able to catch it but it reached back and bit my hand. I moved my hands further up his body to the base of his head to keep him from biting me again. All I could see from the injury was what looked more like a bloody scratch. I woke with the thought that the squirrel biting me should have made me lucid.

I am on a trip again, a common theme. My family and I are heading to quarantine area where they are going to apply some treatment to everyone via spray in the room so that no one carries any diseases into this foreign country. In a seemingly semi lucid moment I put my arms around this beautiful woman who takes to it kindly at first but then pushes me away. I sit on the floor apparently wearing a baseball cap as my view is slightly obscured looking upwards. Two cute kids are playing with me as I sit there. My wife is sitting on a ledge above on the perimeter of the room and a guy next to her is apparently stinky and she makes a face. I asked my wife where our son is. She didn't seem sure and didn't seem worried. Doors to the room opened up to let everyone out and transport trolleys are coming in and I'm the last one still in there and the doors closed but I'm able to scurry my way to the door and open it and go out. It is a beautiful countryside with
green hills reminding me of where I was in 1993. Lots of people hanging around outside but no wife and son. I just wait knowing they would know where to find me. People are sitting at an outdoor table talking while most others mingling much like a party but it is daytime, outside and of course in the beautiful scenery. I see a group walking down the road maybe they are with them up that way. I pass a place that raises collies apparently, the dog breed. I strain my neck to see and a dog runs up to me to jump or bite me...ah dog dream sign (One of the dream signs I thought about during WBTB...I'm dreaming.. fades and I clench my eyes to try to reenter the dream. It probably never ended, probably just the void, it's hazy but I can see a little bit and I think of the task of the month and I start to visualize an elevator...nothing at first but then a big red button appears and I press it and at this point it is more like I am visualizing an elevator door opening and seeing the elevator car and stepping in.
I can feel myself going up up up in what feels more like an open-air elevator car and still hazy. I am not satisfied with experience due to the lack of visuals. I think that I wake up but wait remember always check when waking up. I do feel that I'm still in a dream, an FA, laying in bed. I get out of bed. I'm in a hotel room with strange striped wallpaper. I end up face down on the floor and struggle to crawl up to the wall to lift myself up. How tricky the transition is to an FA. Try to stick my finger through my palm and it indicates that I am awake. No! I am sure that I'm dreaming so I look at my left hand and there are five fingers. But, I have a small appendage or extra little finger sticking out to the right of my left index finger going out from a spot about 3/4 of an inch down my finger. I think again of the elevator task...a hotel should be perfect. I go through two sets of doors to exit my hotel room but before I close the door I take one
more look at my hand and it looks just like before surprisingly...five fingers with a little extra one. The hallway of the hotel is awesome it looks maybe 1920s!! The walls are adorned with a beautiful rich dark wood paneling up and down. I go down to one end of the hall and there's a short flight of stairs up straight ahead, maybe 5 stairs and I start to go up and I think this wouldn't be the way to an elevator but at the top I see there's a small opening or space and there is a small door not more than a foot and a half tall . I go back the other way down the hall past where I came out and circle around to the right and I see a man and a woman in an open area with curtains that are opened. It looks like an opium den and/or a brothel. I keep going then I come to an opening in the hall there is a weird creature or boy sitting on the floor with his back to me. I decide to turn my back to him...out of sight out of mind. I continue down another hall and
walk past this man who had first looks like a guy in a suit and tie. Still not seeing an elevator I decide to go back to the man who now looks more like a bellman , an old fashioned one. I asked him if there's an elevator here. He says that the elevator will be ready in 1 to 2 weeks. I then think perhaps I can teleport to one of the neighboring buildings it seems like I'm in a big city downtown with lots of buildings back at the early part of the century from everything I see in this hotel and the way that guy is dressed. I'm amazed how vivid this dream is and how beautiful everything is. I ask if there's another building around with an elevator. The guy says that actually I can ride their elevator but I just have to sign a waiver. I ask him where will it take me. He says it will take me up to the top. I ask him what is there? He says the tree. I say the tree? Is this construction, unfinished? No he says it is solid. It used to house our Communications
department(?). I follow him towards the elevator down the hall that looks like a maintenance corridor and I'm having trouble standing up straight. I am leaning heavily as if I will fall to my left down a stairwell but I am hanging on to some bars or pipes that line the right side. It seems like the guy I am following is growing impatient at how slow I am. I'm in a dilemma. I'm not sure if I should let go and have faith that I can walk straight or keep going while holding on. I think it's okay if I fall it is just a dream but I might lose the scene and my path to the elevator. I also I think that I could teleport. I got probably 20 feet down this hall hanging on before I finally woke up for real. Still very cool lucid scenes and I wake up smiling. My day practices up until yesterday were focusing on doing the elevator task next for whatever reason. Yesterday I thought I started incubating the idea that I should meet up with Dreamer first, but next need to incubate that a bit more. Might have gotten to that task if I had ever completed the elevator one! 173

Dream 1
Recorded at 7.25am

I'm home with a few people I know, but not sure who they're.

People have been invited over and I skip or do some sort of excited jumping all the way to the door. I see a car with 2 girls and a guy. One of the guys is Lombard, who I haven't seen since high school.

A girl comes up to me, I recognise her face and she tells me, did you do that skipping thing to get a look at who was out the front of the house?

The fellas and myself are sitting at the bench when Lombard arrives. I greet him and notice he gets a bit freaked out by something on the bench top. I figure he's scared of spiders or something and tell him there's a huntsman spider behind him on the ceiling to see if I get a reaction. To my surprised I don't get much of a reaction from him.

Soon after 2 more people arrive. They're MMA fighters, Shaun McKorkle and Matt Mitrione. Mitrione has a strange looking nose which looks a little disfigured.

I can now see Stefan Struve, he's another MMA fighter. He's trying to prove that he's medical condition of an enlarged heart is no longer causing him issues, so he has a full contact striking match with Matt. They go back and fourth, striking blows and dazing one another. Now Stefan is fighting a pro boxer and is lighting him up and giving him a good old ass whooping.

I'm now on a couch with Josh, Cousin Trev and some girls.i don't think I'm at my house anymore as the surroundings don't look familiar. Everyone is being social and I'm smiling a lot but not doing much of the talking. According to Josh I got a kiss on the cheek by one of the girls because it was said that I don't get much love off of people. Josh says to go for girl, as she's keen on me. I take a good look at her and look her up and down. She's pretty good looking and love her style of blue sparkly tights. I see pictures of her as if I'm looking at her Facebook page.

I may be a little late on getting the girl on this one, as my cousin Trev is attempting to weave his game on her and I'm not too keen on spoiling his party.

Dream 2
Recorded at 9:17am

I walk into my lounge room and see that the cricket is being played. I ask Dad what we scored and he said 700. When I first heard it I was a little disappointed but then realised that's a unbelievable total.

Australia is bowling against an African team. Siddle claims a wicket with a slower ball. Things get heated and one of the black Australian players says something to the batsmen which went out. Batsmen gets in his face and Australian throws a couple punches. I think poorly of the act from the Australian, as it's unprofessional.

I tell Dad not to give me the batsmen score and I'll check the replay later.

I see one of the Australian outfielders take a awesome catch, but unfortunately it was over the line and given as six runs.

I had a dream before this one, but I woke up and soon forgot it, I think it was a more exciting one, but I don't know.

But when I went back to sleep, I had a dream where I went back to school, except it wasn't my high school, it was a completely different school and the classrooms were primary school-like. The rest of that part of the dream was a blur because it was so boring.

Next I was in the bedroom of my old house, but still in my current house (I wish I took notice and became lucid) and I began tidying up my room. Apparently I had tubs of medicine that I had stored because apparently I loved the taste (I don't).

I picked up a bunch of wrappers and uncovered a dead fly which I soon ignored and it must've disappeared or something. I picked more wrappers and a bee/wasp came flying out of it, I somehow teleported to my bed room door (of my current house) and the bee/wasp flew into my neck and had some kind of spasm (I hate things touching my neck) and thought I was going to get stung and woke up with my neck clamped to my shoulder and began cringing because I thought I could still feel it touching my neck.

Hi everyone! Last night, 4 dreams and I slept out in the morning after I felt too sleepy for SSILD, it just didn't work. Anyway, the weekend is over and that means I will be able to focus on a good sleeping shedule again.

1. So quiet

I'm alone in a house which looks very white, the walls are white, the floor is mostly white and the sun weakly shines through some windows that have thin white curtains. I move around the house very silent and don't want anyone seeing me there, I'm not a burglar but I know I'm not allowed to be here. After some time I enter a small courtyard next to the house, the sky is grey and looks like it could start raining soon.

2. A good meal

I'm in some restaurant or maybe even my own house, somewhere in Antwerp on a place where I don't live. I'm eating a good meal of mashed potatoes, sausage and savoy cabbage, it tastes really nice but me and my family think of going to a real restaurant soon and my father opens the door which leads to the city center of Antwerp. I look out and it's a rainy late evening.

3. Middle of nowhere

I wake up in a small modern house that pretty much has one room, it's early morning and I think I'm just getting ready for school. I only see my father around, don't know what has happened in the past but I see this as perfectly normal. I exit the house and I'm somewhere on the countryside on a very long dirt road. There aren't any trees, just plaines and maybe 1 KM away I see a highway with cars driving on it. The weather is slightly grey but there's a small hole in the clouds which allows the sun to shine on and around the little house I came out.

4. The attack

I'm in a random house and know that a group of people have entered the house too somewhere and they're looking for me. I feel as if they want to kill me, there are some other people who I see as my friends but they get caught quiet fast and are escorted to a certain room where they're all being held hostage. I go upstairs and suddenly I'm in my own house's second floor. I know that a friend and an enemy are up here so I keep low profile and hide in the portal of my room which is right open to the landing of the stairs... GOOD HIDING SPOT! Anyway after several seconds I want to go further in my room and look for a better hiding spot but suddenly I feel just as tired as you are when your alarm goes of early in the morning and you have to get up for work. I could barely keep my eyes open, keep my balance and my vision was heavily impared cause my eyes were too tired to be controlled by myself. I'm stressed cause I'm pretty much paralysed inplace and someone could see me any moment, then I see a friend being escorted down stairs by a kid who looks really evil. They don't see me and I regain some energy again, enough to move around. I look down the stairway and there 3 burglars are standing, 2 are talking to each other and one looks straight at me with an angry expression, I make an expression back which pretty much says "Yeah you little fuck, I'll come for you later and you won't like it.". I'm very angry and I want to charge at him but I know I wouldn't win the fight with the two other burglars next to him. It's very quiet and that's because we are all wearing headphones, now this does make it so that you hear the slightest bump and thus they know where everyone is. I walk back to my parents bedroom and look at the window, I need to get out of here! I think about the one burglar that saw me, he hasn't alarmed the other yet, otherwise they would already be here. I have an aluminium spoon in my hand and plan on using it for my escape. I open my parent's bedroom window but there are two obstacles that I must first get past. First the mosquito window or what you call it and then the safety shutter. I start screwing the screws out of the mosquito window using the aluminium spoon, then after I manage to get 3 of the 4 screws out I decide to already open the safety shutter which makes a lot of noise but I want to get out of there as fast as I can. I get really stressed and start with the last screw but the dream ends.

Another lucid dream, once more proving to me at least some parts of me seem to be regenerating. Or not decaying further. Either way...

...the first part of the dream I can recall begins with me being in some kind of 'mall'. While it felt and was treated like a shopping mall, it much more looked like a home, that was maybe a little bigger than an average house. The interior was largely gray with some white, relatively normal I'd say, it didn't look fancy but acceptable by my standards. I remember the living room, there was someone I didn't know, a Playstation (1) and a staircase when walking through the room, which felt very spacious as it was connected to the other rooms, no doors or stuff that made you feel you changed the room.
I eventually walked up the stairs, and remember a more white kitchen like room, with an silver oven placed at an convenient height to work with. Somehow I felt and noticed that the dream played during a different time than reality, I was somewhat in the past, and first upon realizing that planned to make use of it to change things for the better.
I'm not quite sure what happened, or how, but then I'm standing on a small ledge, outside of a building, 20 m above the ground or something. The view I saw was... absolutely amazing, apocalyptic and dark. A feeling emerges I couldn't describe, a more valuable experience than I could ever get from watching even the most emotional movies in real life for hours. I'm falling down and I realize I'm dreaming, I feel relaxed and fine.
I'm in a big zone, I don't even know what it was, a train station, a building, maybe just an open place with some constructions. I was testing around with gravity, and again I also was flying a little. My girlfriend was there as well, she asked me if I was still dreaming, I did an reality check and replied that I was of course still dreaming. After some more time of being lucid but somehow doing nothing fancy I felt my focus fading for a moment, then I woke up.

Man, if just for once I would actually start doing something relevant upon becoming lucid...

July 13, 2014

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Bikeride

I was with my family, and we were coming back home from yet another vacation (my subconscious seems pretty fixated right now). Mom and dad drove in the car, but my brothers and I all took bikes. So we left a lot earlier than mom and dad. We rode through a park, but that's all I remember.




Some Famous Pool

I was with my bothers again, plus a few of my friends (Zukin was there). We were all visiting this famous pool. There were all sorts of protocols we had to go through before we were allowed to enter the pool; we had to shower like three times, get tests done, and I think there was some anti-radiation chamber we had to go in, too. When we got out to the pool, it was crowded, but we found a spot in a corner of it, near a section that had been roped off for a reserved party of people.




Military Training

I was with Zukin, taking a tour of some military training camp for teens. We entered a huge gym from a courtyard... In the center of the huge gym was a climbing tower that looked like a crane or something, at a slight angle. Teens were climbing up it on all four sides. They didn't have harnesses or anything.




Shit that's a BEAR!

I was with my family, somewhere in the mountains. We had been visiting with my grandpa, who happened to have a cottage in some small mountain town (I think my dream grandpa has houses all over the place lol)

My dad and brothers and I go on a hike through the mountains, and we take along a special phone that will track our progress and time how long it took us to get to certain parts of the trail and back home. The plan was for mom and her group to do the same thing, but they forgot to turn it on when they went.

On the last day of our stay there, we all went for one last hike. We took the car to the starting point of the hike, and on the way, I saw a male and female wild boar, rummaging in the grass for bugs or whatever it is they eat. Then, we passed a vegetable field, and I noticed a male wild boar. Then I saw a man in the field, and I was thinking, Oh, shit, that guy must be terrified... run, guy, run!

And then the boar saw the man, and started charging him. I was scared for the man, but instead of running, he just stands there. Or so it seems. I soon see him lifting up in the air, and I 'realize he's using his feet against two sturdy poles to climb upwards, to a height where the boar can't reach him. Then, it got amazing: He got higher, and I noticed a trolly-type handle, which he grabbed, and zoomed across the field, toward the road where we were driving. He jumped from the first trolly to another one that ran along the road, and zoomed right beside our car. He looked in and winked at us, and I noticed he was wearing patchy clothing, but didn't realize it was The Face until I woke up later (I really should know I'm dreaming whenever I see him, by now. Goodness).

I was amazed by all this, and turned to my brothers, asking if they had gotten it on video so we could put it on yuotube, because I knew no one would believe me if I just told them what happened. But nobody had caught it on tape, and I was sad.

When we parked by the trailhead, we got out of the car and wandered up the trail a bit to a spot overlooking the road, near a stream. The trail continued into a heavily forested area, Lots of pine trees and some birch and maple and ash trees, too. It was an odd mixture of all sorts of trees. We all stopped here to gather our supplies and set a schedule and get ready, but dad forgot something in the car, and left, saying he'd be right back. I wandered a bit, looking at the small things like plants and bugs and tree bark. I stood for a while on a large, flat, rocky area at the bank of the stream (which may have been more like a small river, actually). There were some boulders and one tree to my right as I faced the water, and the forest and the mountain to my left. I heard mom and my little brother talking, and went to see what they were looking at:

"Look, it's a rabbit!" said my mom. I looked and saw what she must have been talking about: There was a rustling in some bushes below us, and It did look like it could be a rabbit, but something was off. I saw spiny things, and thought maybe it was a porcupine, but when I looked closer, I realized it was a baby bear.

"Oh shit, that's a BEAR!" I whispered as frantically as I could. I looked around, and saw the mother nearby, closer to us than the baby bear was. I pulled them back slowly. My big brother was saying, "To the river, to the river...!" But I was thinking that if bears fished in rivers like these, would we really be any safer there? We looked around for dad, but we couldn't see him, and I hoped he was still at the car. Then there was a strange, repeated noise that I can't even describe. It continued until I woke up a few seconds later, and I could still hear it when I opened my eyes.

I was in a gloomy and snowy place, and was following a group of kids who were sledding down a snowy hill. They were following a snowy road. It was cold and everything seemed as though it was covered in snow, and it was still snowing lightly. Anyways, I got a sled and followed the kids, quickly I noticed that a tall white, evil looking elf dude was also on the childrens tail. As I got closer to them and finally right up on them, we started turning a corner. The Tall elf guy pushed one of the kids and ended up killing him. I remember thinking "my god what the hell is going on" as the kid and his sled flew directly past my face. A deep curiosity filled me and I continued following the children. As the road straightened back out I some how lost my balance, and seeing that I was about to fall off my sled I slowed down and regained the balance I lost. Right in front of me I noticed that the Elf was nearly stopped. I decided to help him out and I shot some sort of fire at the back of his sled and it fueled him and he went foward. Seeing that I helped him, the elf helped me and made me go faster. Soon I was quickly nearing a water puddle, but near the water puddle was tile, like the type on kitchen floors. And to get to the puddle you had to cross a thin beam on your sled, it was like an obstacle course. I gained alot of distance between myself and the elf and with caution crossed over the beam. After I crossed it my sled landed in the water puddle. I went to go pick it up, but it disappeared, "it was just there", I thought, "where did it go". I frantically searched for it, but it was gone. I looked back and saw that the elf had fell off the cross beam and he had start over the entire obstacle course. Upon his return he came back and started shooting arrows at me. Frightened, I hid behind a door, but it was see through. He shot at me and the arrows would go through the door but would stop halfway in. Somebody saw what was going on and killed the Elf. I was safe for now. I was in some sort of hallway, but it wasnt complete, it was only a small hallway in the middle of a snowy wonderland. I decided to go check out the Elf's body and when I got to him I noticed his head fell off. I picked it up and it started talking. I told him he was going to go to hell or something like that and he disagreed. He said he wasnt going to suffer. Right after he said that though some sort of helmet type thing covered his skull and it started turning bright orange, and it looked like he was literally burning up inside. I could tell that he started suffering and something inside of me told me he was going to hell. At this point the dream became a nightmare. I turned around and walked through the hallway and saw "satan" himself behind me. I got a little scared, I didnt want to go to hell(I dont believe in it in real life, it was just in this dream). I acted like an evil person around him so he wouldnt think I was some good guy and so he wouldnt kill me or anything. Just then a huge soldier dude came by and it was either me or him, but one of us asked satan if he could give us a pair of headphones that had 4 headphones instead of two, and that they would have the greatest bass ever. Satan came up to the soldier and put some head phones in his ears, and I remember him putting some in my ears as well. I listened to a short song and that was it.

2. False Awakening- I woke up out of my bed, got up and looked in the mirror(as usual). I turned around to see what time it was and my digital clock had the word "no" on its screen. I turned around and saw another digital clock with the letters "THC" or "HTC" across it, I dont remember which one. Here I am, looking at 2 digital clocks, and both arent working and I dont become lucid. A missed oppurtunity. After that I woke up for real and noticed what had just happened.

3. I was in a them park along the coast with my family. I was wearing shorts, a shirt, and a snapback. I had on no shoes or socks, I just walked around barefooted. Me and my dad were looking for my sister and my mom because they had walked off without telling us where they were going. We spotted them in the distance and walked toward them. We caught up to them and my dad asked them what they were doing and then we all turned around and went to the middle of the theme park. When we got there my sister wanted to ride this Water Log ride where it just swings you around in a log on the water. My parents said ok, so I had to go as well. Another family wanted to ride it as well, they were mexican. Luckily there were 2 of these logs so each family could get in each. My sister got in the opposite log while me, my mom, and my dad got in the other one. I asked her what she was doing, and she simply said "getting in for the ride". I got my phone out of my pocket because this was a wet watery ride. I asked the manager of the ride what we do with our electronics. She said to put them in the container next to me. I turned around and sure enough there was a drawer with some shelfs and was about to put it in there, but the lady corrected me and told me to put my stuff in the top container, which was a really small plastic container. I put my ipod, headphones, and two cellphones that I had in my pocket. I noticed that I only had 1 cell phone so why did I have two now? And the other phone wasnt even the type of phone I really owned. I soon realized that I had my sisters phone(even though it really wasnt hers) and just put it in the container along with mine. With all of my stuff in the container there was no room left for my moms phone, and so we couldnt fit it in. Thats all I remember of that dream.

4. My entire nuclear family was in my room with me. My dad was going around my room taking pictures( I thought he was doing this because he was trying to sell the house). Upon noticing what he was doing, I decided to fix my bed so it would look nice, and my mom decided to help me. I straightened up the sheets and my mom ended up messing it up by making it hugely uneven. And I also noticed how extremely small my bed was. It was only about 1 foot in length, but I thought nothing of it because I thought it was always that way.

5. Me and my friend dylan were in school. [small fragment]

6. I was in a car and I think my grandma was driving. We were near her house and out of no where a blue insect/worm got in the car. I watched it and it started laying eggs in its own body and half of the eggs it was laying were missing the insects pouch and falling onto the ground. After it finished laying its eggs, it went into its own body like a hermit crab and stayed there. I looked at my sister and suddenly she had a huge spider on her head and also a centipede. I told her and she quickly tried shaking them off. I told her not to get them on me. The spider flew onto her leg, and the centipede disappeared. As we continued driving me and my sister saw more of those blue worm things and decided to smash them because they were really gross. We did so and we killed 3 or 4 of them.

July 13, 2014
10:00 AM

Overall rating: 3/5
Vividness: 3/5
Plot: 2/5
Lucidity: 0/5

3mg melatonin before bed

I had 2 dreams but i can not remember the first one but i knew it was good, i recalled it when i woke once in the morning but fell back asleep and forgot.

As for dream 2, me, Bill, Kyle, and dad were walking into a big harbor area with a lot of boats, long docks, and fishing crews. When we forst arrived, it was night time, and we were outside a big walled and gated area. When we walked up to the big doors, they opened up for us showing the harbor. There was a lot of people walking around, shipping containers, and cranes. Most of the floor was wood laid down over the main ground, and over the sea wall and down to ships as docks. We walked straight across from the doorway to the end of the docks where we could see the water 50ft below us as well as some ships getting prepared to go. They looked like fisherman/navy boats but they had huge masts too. We turned right from where we were looking over the docks down a narrower path into a restaurant. I noticed there was a guy working on the mast right next to me at about the same height up. Before we went in i looked down into the water and it was dark, relatively calm, and i could see the boat the guy was standing on. Inside the restaurant, the floor was the same as the docks and there was finally light. We had a waiter bring us to a table. Me and kyle were supposed to get pictures taken there for some reason so we moved over to a fish tank thing to do it.

Dream went kinda blank then

Then we were back at the house, except my friend danny was there too. We were standing on the basememt stairs when i heard my dad and brother get back and then Bill shut the door and locked it in front of us, me and danny were locked in the basement. I told him i knew another way out. We went down the stairs tothe basement floor. It was a finished basement. The carpet on te stairs and floor was white, the walls were white too. And there was relatively bright lights on the ceiling making it light enough to see things well. There was some clutter here and there but not much. My running shoes were on the floor and i asked danny if he needed to borrow them but he said he did not. I was about to open a door into another room but then i was woken up.

Notes:
first dream I had about the ocean since I was on vacation, also the first day I went actually swimming in the ocean, tho i saw it once before. Not only did i swim but i took a moment become aware of everything, close my eyes and feel free floating. Noticed its almost always night time in my dreams. Since i have been on vacation, I've seen the family i have been with a lot in my dreams that i am with on vacation.

Reoccurring elements:
Night time

07.13.2014

Of Sleep Paralysis, Molestation, and Demons (SP)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This is a jumbled mess in my mind, but I'll try to draw some sense out of it. I normally consider my SP episodes lucid, but I was so confused that I thought all of this was actually happening because of demons instead of SP.

After some kind of parade involving Sam and Dean Winchester, I find myself in sleep paralysis, entirely unable to move. I don't know where I am, but I'm not in bed. There is a sharp pain in my hips as if someone is pushing my legs up towards my chest--- as I am not flexible at all, this is quite painful. Despite the pain, I am inexplicably somewhat aroused. I keep expecting something sexual to happen, but it doesn't.

I open my eyes when I feel someone grab my wrist forcefully. It is my grandfather, who's a preacher, performing an exorcism over me while shaking a bible. I notice that no one is actually moving my legs--- they are flailing around on their own accord. I am quite calm and not freaked out at all. Simply confused.

I manage to break out of whatever spell I'm in and pull away from him. He explains that a demon is after me, but I don't listen. I think that I'm late for a class and have to go get ready.

I end up at my friend Jake's house where I ask to take a shower. For some reason they have this large bathhouse outside that has locker-room style showers. There are other people in here at first, but after I start my shower everyone else leaves. I had been told by my grandfather not to enter here, because this is "where the Fallen Angel landed when he fell."

In the midst of my shower, I somehow end up flat on my back as the water splashes down on my face. I can't get up, or even move. My vision is confused because I'm seeing the dream shower as well as flashes from my actual bedroom (so I assume my eyes were at least partially open during this time). I hear an old-fashioned radio announcer ardently reading some apocalyptic sounding text, though I can make no sense of what he's saying. There is a high pitched screeching in my head.

Now starting to get a little freaked out, I use my normal foot-shaking technique to wake myself up.

I wake up, but don't move and instantly go back into it. I'm now thinking of turning this into a WILD, but I still think I'm lying down in the shower and I'm really concerned about either the demon coming back or someone wondering why I'm just lying here, so I wake myself up again.

By the time I realize I'm not really in the shower, I'm too awake to get back into SP.