non-lucid

The dream begins inside my house, by the front door. I am scared to go outside, slightly apprehensive, but i long to feel the fresh cool air on my skin.

My blonde hair frames the scene, and i notice my sleeves and arms more than any other part of me, i appear to be wearing my turquoise H&M top. Eventually i slowly open the door and take a step outside into the cool early morning air. The door opens up to a sideroad very close by*, and i slowly begin to walk out into the twilight morning, slightly covered in mist, with a pale blue hue everywhere.



I move away from the house, never looking back, but i can feel water in my eyes welling up for some reason, so i search myself for some tissue, noticing that now i am wearing a completely different top but thinking to myself It's warmer than my other top. I am now wearing a black pvc blouse which i bought a while back for a photoshoot.

I forget the tissue and my eyes seem normal now, and i continue walking down that side road, looking to my right all the time, and noticing a nearby compost heap, which for some reason has smoke billowing from it, but the smoke never reaching very far up in the sky, it appears to fade mere feet above the compost heap, which now has flames and a few bits of wood as expected.

Suddenly i am behind some garages nearby, and i head to my garage where i keep my car and I find several garage doors open, as well as my own, but my car is in there, my old Nova**. Its doors are open and my clothing has been ransacked***!

I then notice a door which i had never seen before, at the back of the garage, through it i can see the inside of someones house.

Suddenly i am inside this house, looking out of the window at a scene unfamiliar to me, and it is night time, and there is someone standing under a street lamp with a bag in their hand. My perspective shifts and i am now viewing this from the other direction, and outside, and the house i was once in now appears to be a hospital, with a multi story carpark next to it. I know this place, it was the hospital i spent much time in as a child.

Now i am that person standing outside, and with me is a small tan coloured dog, not the dog from my childhood, but one very familiar, and sympathetic, as the dog looks up at me and wags his tail as his face forms that of a smile, reassuring and honest.

Nothing much after this aside from hazy memories of shopping, seeing my friend Stephen briefly, and being back home.

* In the dream the front of my house seemingly flipped 45 degrees facing west, and 100 feet down the road.

** The Nova was my first car and i locked it in these secure garages at night time, never once got broken into.

*** Before i came out, i kept female clothing in my car to change into and i was eternally worried that someone might break in and find them.

This dream occured about two weeks ago, worth mentioning if only for the personal insight it offers me of myself. Everything ties up here, though the compost heap thing is weird, its my second dream in as many weeks to feature a compost heap.

I thought i would create an image of the dream, crafted in photoshop of 3 seperate images, one i borrowed from the internets, and 2 of my own, the scene itself and me. I cannot possibly say if i wore high heels when outside, or inside, but i usually do in reality so i assume i do in dreamland.

apr.5 2014

last night bed 10 - 4:50

3 long and detailed dreams, yeeeey!

Woke up after them and quickly replayed in my mind before promptly falling asleep again.

DR 1
Friend of mine is studying bugs at school. She is all about bugs. She sais it's not so bad, all the do at school is eat them and learn about them.

She is showing them to me ALL the time. She has dead grasshoppers on a stick and she is like pretend tickling me or trying to scare me. I'm not scared of bugs. But having dead bugs all over me is something I don't appreciate. So I swat at them and then I looked and the green/yellow goo from them is smeared all over my sleeves. I'm mad. Then she makes me taste them. Don't taste good. It goes on and on and on.

DR2
I'm an astronaut with 2 others in the space station or shuttle. We are about to return to Earth. Dangerous manuever, and I think there is only place for 2, or 1 has to stay behind to push the button or something. We are all fighting over who is gonna do it, because we all wanna sacrifice ourselves.

We are about to put on our spacesuits hanging on a wall. I wanna use the potty real quick before I get dressed. I tell them "if you wanna lock me out and save me, while I go potty, well then, be stupid like that, you just gonna die".

I go to potty, which is on the end of a long and narrow tiled hallway. I'm doing my business, when I hear someone is using a stall in the adjacent room. I'm like "great, now they gonna see my ass".

DR3
kidnapped girl, shooting, older couple, shotgun - will finish after work.

There is a shootout on the street. The shooter escapes into the house. A clack girl is kidnapped. I go inside after her. I'm sneaking through the backyard. I see the bad guy through some vines and bushes. He is sitting on a chair at an outdoor table.He is looking around and I duck so he can't see me. There is danger in the air, but i'm not scared.

I find the girl and help her go across this low concrete fence. I tell her to crowl. She throws herself to the ground and starts to "crawl" 2 feet of the ground, as if swimming. I'm thinking "not THAT crawl".

We make it out of there. Back in safety, I realize that the older couple in the house must have also been taken hostage. So I take a shotgun and go get them.

Here we go... it was a month without this nightmare showing up....

I'm ready for jogging.
It's evening and, as I'm starting to run, I think I have to go faster, as that THING could find me.
After a little while it starts to rain. It's a light rain, so I decide to go on.
I'm going up a hill now, it rains stronger and I start to be scared as I feel something is following me.
I can't see anything behind me, but I know IT hides itself behind trees and shadows.
I'm totally soaked. I see a house and I think I would gain some time running through that house, so I step in through an open window.
The room is a kind of Library, but as soon as my feet touch the ground, I notice it is flooded.
The water reaches my knee and it's hard to run there.
I think I can't die now, as I'm supposed to read all the books in that room.
That though makes me stronger and I keep running.
I keep opening doors and doors. The rooms are all the same, sort of Libraries, but every room is more flooded than the previous one.
Now water reached my hips and there are some creatures swimming around me.
Also I heard something stepped on from the window I came in, and I'm sure IT is closer now.
I start to panic but I can't run faster, as water reduces my speed.
Also there are those creatures, kind of alive seaweeds and big fishes, wrapping and brushing my legs.
I'm horrorized every time they touch me, but finally I'm able to get out of that house through another window.
It rains really strongly now, I can't see where I'm going, and that THING almost reached me.
I feel IT one step behind me. I can't stop and I'm panicking more, and I feel IT is going to catch me.
IT is a kind of enormous sheet. Floating in the air and trying to wrapping me.
As soon as he gets closer, I feel IT touching my legs and arms, and every time it envelops me more.
At the end IT is all around me. No rain anymore, but the wind blows between the sheet, preventing me to run without stumbling.
There's nothing else than that sheet around me, IT slams and bangs and beats and flaps all around me.
I feel frightful and run faster, but it is so awful and apaling and I'm so damn tired that all I want is surrender.

I always wake up in the same way, sitting in my bed, totally sweat, with goosebumps, and with my hand on my heart pounding like crazy.
I always wake up when I feel like surrender, but I never saw the end of the nightmare.

1. [Non-Lucid] [False Awakening]
Before I fell asleep I thought to myself I'm going to go look at my phone, I fall asleep before I get the chance, then in a dream I pick up my phone and use it...I wake up so confused then proceed to actually use my phone.

2. [Non-Lucid]
I'm laying in my bed and I open my eyes, theirs a guy in my room doing something, wasn't scared of him as he seemed friendly...for some reason I'm laying on bags of sweets like Haribo or something.

3. [Non-Lucid]
I was in like a sewer system or something with other people and we may be looking for a way out...there are overhead signs telling us what's where, we find a gate with stairs going up behind it, i go open it and some guy opens fire with a machine gun, I quickly get out of the way intact.

04.04.2014

The Guy with the Axe and Gun (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I wake up, and found myself in an environment that looks exactly like the area I'm currently residing in waking life. Green walls, a bed that's slightly elevated more than usual, and the same material of dark gray carpet.

I'm gradually becoming more aware that this is a dream, feeling the slight blurry echo effects as I'm moving about inside the house. I hear footsteps coming near the house's entrance, and I immediately motioned myself near it.

I peek through the hole, and I see a Caucasian male that has dark brown hair, is wearing a yellow polo shirt that's untucked, along with regular blue worker jeans. He's wielding an axe with his right hand I believe, and he's knocking on the door, and spends a few seconds waiting before knocking again.

I quickly turn in the other direction, wondering where I could find a weapon in case this guy has ill intentions in mind. I decided I should check the other bedroom diagonally to the left of me for something. I hear the knocking, but I try to not let it intimidate me since they couldn't possibly come in.

Completely wrong.

I hear the door open, and because I couldn't find something to protect myself, and because I was too fixated on the emotions of fear and panicking, I ended up making horrible decisions, and decided to try and hide under a bed.

Too bad the bottom of the bed barely had any space for me to hide under, and it would only be a matter of time for the person to find me there even if I could hide under there.

The individual is getting closer and closer, and he's raising his shoulders up while having his arms at a lop-sided "L" position with the axe, and a gun as well. My perspective starts getting a bit weird, and it feels like I'm seeing things at a slanted angle now, almost as if I'm about to fall down.

The guy is walking pretty slowly, and the blurry echoes become more prevalent, but I'm too bothered by what may happen rather than attempting to change the dream environment.

I wake up, because it doesn't seem anything was going to change at the time.

This one is pretty fuzzy, and I only remember a few flashes other than a part near the middle that I remember better. I remember something sexual towards the beginning of the dream, but only a few brief images. Then there was apparently some villain, but that's really all I remember.

Near the middle of the dream, I was in my house with a large fishtank in front of my fireplace. My cat Trixie was there, along with another cat we had gotten that looked identical. We apparently had just bought two more that ALSO looked the same, but these were specially bred "aquatic" cats. I picked them up out of the carrier they were in and put them into the full fishtank, where they started swimming around underwater, breathing just fine as if they were fish. Trixie and the other normal cat were curious and pawed at the glass. I eventually took the cats out and let them run around the house, but then I got confused and mixed up all the cats. To fix it, I just said Trixie's name and she meowed. My mom, my three little cousins and I just kinda hung out with the cats for a while, and we played with what I think was a remote control helicopter. That's about it.

Everybody has their off days, right? ;D

Dream - fricking titles how do they work
so let's see

I dreamed somethin' about Granny getting adjusted to bein' in an old folk's home, which is a IWL thing. Bummer, dude. But the interesting bits that I remember aaarreeee~

- reading the titles of books on a bookshelf, which is cool (indicates a good amount of detail)
- gettin' mad at my bro and calling something of his or maybe calling him a "stupid retard" or "stupid retarded" or idk, I felt bad right away and woke up feeling bad and then went OH WAIT I can just go in the other room and apologize in person! and then I was like wait, no, I can't ;-;

there was tons of other stuff but EH. lately my dreams haven't had as much uhh, presence? not so much me making the decisions. I wake up and don't even remember that I was in a dream, which is kinda sucky. geez, what do I call it. I've had dreams where I wasn't lucid but I was still present; maybe not enough to reason out or remember that I'm in a dream, but enough to carefully choose what I'll do next. and other dreams I'm just on auto-pilot and it's irritating. hrmph.

Time to catch my DV up. I gotta be more consistent

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2nd
Morning - Nothing to see here
Afternoon Nap - I was well hidden at the edge of a wheat field. This edge must have been at the top of an incline because I was able to peer out over top of the next area of crops. I felt as if I were waiting for someone/something to show. I definitely felt as though this was special ops stealth mission. (really seeing how the halo novels are seeping into my dreams).

3rd
Morning - Nothing to report

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4th
Morning - Another mission it seems. I had to diffuse a bomb. But in-order to do so I had to seek something out. My mode of transportation had been by helicopter. I can't remember much else.

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In my first dream I was a test subject for GladOs in an Aperture Science lab. I was going through all kinds of trials and tests. Suddenly I see Desirae and I know I'm getting rescued. Glados gets disabled and we think we won. Suddenly, she starts getting her control over the facility back. I started telling Desirae to hurry up and to help me pack. We went to the elevator where we would escape but rooms started changing and the room that we came from became some stairs. I ran into the elevator and Desirae was still packing stuff I told her it's now or never and she was still closing the last briefcase so I grabbed her hair and pulled her in right before the elevator doors closed and we started descending.
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I was in Belen running back home. I was running pretty fast. I was roomates with Katey. She went off to work and I was with a few animals and had found my laptop. I went to sleep and had a dream that I was lucid dreaming. In the dream, I was in an arid desert as a young deer or elk. I started hearing more elks appearing and I suddenly know I'm in the death realm.I hear someone say Cesar is coming and I think it's my uncle. I see another elk and ask why he's here and he doesn't wanna answer. I ask again and he gets mad. I say sorry it's my first time doing this and they tell me I can't be looking so young and so they transform me into a bigger elk. I ask something else and wake up to my dream. I rush to my laptop to write my dream down but there's animals all over my backpack where my laptop is so I yell at them and they move. There's someone at the door and I answer. Suddenly Lieutenants and Captains are doing inspections of the house. It's pretty dirty. The Captain then turns into an elk and starts mowing the front lawn with his antlers. All I care about is remembering the dream so I could write it down.
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I was in my house and talking to Desirae. I ask her if she wants to have sex but she says no that she's gonna go have sex with someone else. I get mad and ask her what she means. She says that she doesn't want to have sex with me but instead wants to go to someone else's house and have sex with them. I get even more upset and tell her to leave and I'll have sex with someone else too. I leave and go to a lake on some plains. I see on the news that there's going to be a meteor falling and a news agency from Venezuela is going to record it. I go along with the news agency and we hop on a homemade boat. We go into a place where there's a lot of shanty homes and downed planes that say something about Atlantis on them. We see a plane take off from under water. We sail around waiting and looking for when the meteor is going to fall. I was with a fat lady and the news reporter. I remember the water splashing on us and it tasted gross. Suddenly, we see the meteor coming in. We record it and it lands and we see it glow as it enters the water. I say it's probably about 20 feet or around 35/40 meters. We go towards where it landed and then the fat lady jumps in and grabs the meteor. It turns out it's bones of a small animal. The bones run away and jump into the water so I grab them again. We decide to head back so we park the boat near one of the planes and start climbing up the shanty houses. The bones suddenly turn into a white rat and Shaniqua. I put shaniqua into a container so I can throw the white rat to the house I need to jump to, where a few people are waiting. When I get back to Shaniqua, I find out I microwaved her for a few seconds. She seems confused and stupid.

I fell back asleep around 8:30 am. And I had a dream that I was seemingly no longer an alcoholic but able to have fun and party if I wanted too. Then the dream spun into a divergence of reality and obvious non reality- my hallway filled up with water and the bottom dropped out to make it a short pool. I stood looking at the water, feeling a negative presence. I looked up and saw a demon that had black eyes and tried to say something to me but in anger that I was being deceived I yelled at it to go away. "You are a deceiver!, You have no control over me! Get OUT GET OUT GET OUT!" "YOU are Simply a thing of my mind- NOW DISAPPEAR!" And I blew it into dust with my mouth. I then wanting to prove to my self the utter silliness of the situation belly flopped into the pool, and the water felt like condensed air but not wet like water and I levitated myself a few inches from it. I realized the significance of the dream- that I could speak out, when before my voice would become muted and I couldn't hear my self shout. I gained some sort of power this way, mental or spiritual in some way. Between this and the next dream sequence I tried to wake my self up but I couldn't pull myself through to consciences and saw my physical body trying to separate from my spiritual body. It was not going to happen so I let myself slip back into dreaming. Next I remember realizing that I had been on some sort of wild drug and alcohol binge that I could not remember. I had sewed the sides of my arms like I had been sutured for a wound. I realized that this was bad, that I had been completely gone mentally when this happened. I went to my husband and said I know something happened but I cannot remember using or what I did what did I do? He explained to me that at first I was happy and energetic, almost crazy- thinking I could fly and making sounds like a jet engine, then it turned dark. I closed my eyes and I could see flashes of memory almost like circus posters first of the fun and manic episode and then the darkness that took over. He shivered and said that it was something special I could do that. He then said he would remove the stitches from my arm- my father called and I woke up.

I was tossed head long back into the insanity of a nonsensical dream seemingly out of nowhere.

4.4.14 Friday

Last night, bed 10:30 - 7:10

Miserable last 2 days IWL. It showed in my dreams on those days. Proly worst dreams ever.

1. My dad is trying to rape me. He gives me a big wet kiss and he holds it forever. I finally break free. My mom is asking what's the matter. I'm so mad, I can't even talk. I finaly whisper it to her.

2. I'm back at home. My mom has a stroke. I wanna call 911, but I know their emergency numbers a fucked up over there and i never know which one to call. Mom hands me a piece of paper with a phone number. She wants me to call an old coleague, who still works at the hospital. I call and get through and I'm telling this man to send an ambulance, mom had a stroke.

3. I'm visiting at home. I came for only a few days, which I only now realized. My best friend is visiting. We spend whole days together. But there is a drama at home. No clue what about. But it made me forget that I have to go back. I'm looking at the plane ticket and I think the flight was today. Turns out it's tomorrow, but I'm not sure, because can't find out what the date is. I feel like shit because I don't want to leave my friend again.


Last night:

DR
I'm on a bus flying very high up in the air. We watch some birds flying around. One looks like like a large black crow. The other one is very similar. Bit larger, skinier, and feathers in wings have wider gaps. I think it's maybe a Thunderbird.

Somehow I have him on a leash, or he gets snagged on some rope and I end up with the other end in my hand. I pulling him gently closer to the open doors of the bus, so we all can get a better look. I don't feel right about doing it.

As he gets closer to the door, he pulls stronger. He gets close the white curtain that's in the door. I want to let him go and I hope he will not get tangled in the curtain. As I let go, the curtain wraps around and the bird is falling. I can hear his screach all the way down. I hope he will not hit the ground.

Little while later, I see something in white wedding dress, that looks like the curtain. It's the bird getting merried. They wave to us and we wave back.

DR
I'm in a camp. Lots of kids. I'm one of the adult councelors. We are deciding what to do for the evening. I suggest hod dogs, beer and a movie. The like the idea.

I have been drinking Kava at night for about 3 months. It blocks alcohol cravings which is wonderful. It also blocks lucidity it seems. Last night I had a dream about my ex Mother -in-Law who takes care of my son most of the time (ugly ex story when I was too young to figure out how to advocate for my rights as a mother) It was most definitely a stress dream, not a lucid. I found out she decided not to bring him for his yearly month long visit and was beyond angry. Where I told her that she had made the wrong choice and I was going to talk to my lawyer and have him reinstated to me. She then disappeared and I couldn't find him and she was no longer a person but some sort of a shriveled up, sick spirit hiding from me. I never got the issue resolved in my dream.

I'm in a train station. I need to reach an unknown town.
I'm supposed to reach my mum who travels with my little nephew.
I have two possibilities. I could take a direct train, but it is always so crowded (and I hate crowded places), or a little train who brings to an intermediate station where I need to take another train.
Of course I take the little train. It follows a weird way, kind of avenue along the sea. Really stunning panorama.
Someone is trying to steal my purse, but I make him noticed that his attempt was not professional. And I teach him how to steal an iphone without being caught! He is happy and goes away trying to steal around. He didn't know I stole his iphone!!
The train reaches the new train station and I get off and start to walk towards the next train. There are not sidewalks, just flowers and blue butterflies.
The new train is not nice like the one before. I'm aware there are thieves, but they are real criminals, killers, so I need to be careful.
Finally we get the main station where I'm supposed to meet my mum and nephew.
I look at the board and then go to the right platform. I suddenly see my mum, but something is wrong, as I notice the absence of my nephew.
My mum says she forgot the little kid on the train. I'm desperate and I go up in the train. Everyone is still getting off, so it's so hard to progress. At once I kneel and after a while I identify a little girl, looking for someone.
When I almost reach her, a bearded man takes in arm my nephew. I inmediately recognise Red John (the torturer serial killer in the police television series The Mentalist).
He informs everyone the kid is his daughter.
My nephew starts to cry and I call her. She looks at me, and she smiles between the tears and pulls her arms towards me. But the criminal holds on her and he says that I AM the criminal, torturing and killing a lot of PAPER as I write with a QUIL. ''Who can be so bad to write with a quil??? Just a criminal like me!'' he tells everyone!
Everyone looks bad at me and I know I have a single shot to win the war with him.
So I assert that he is DEAD, as the Mentalist killed him in the last episode. BUT he cannot know it, as the episode broadcasts just in United States!!!! So smart of ME!!!
He is confused and I know I won and I slowly get close and take the girl and I start to sing a lullaby to calm her down.
My nephew touches my face and I wake up.

My bf woke me up touching my face as I was babbling... .
To notice: 1) the train stations are always the same ones since a lifetime, but I think they exist only in my dreams. I never was there! 2) I never saw one whole episode of The Mentalist, but I read the plot and I saw the web video where the hero killed Red John. 3) I really can't remember the Red John face, and I dunno why I dream about a bearded man! 4) I don't write with a quil!! .

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

I fell asleep slowly, keeping my awareness, and the plunge was so subtle, that I wasn't sure when I was already asleep or not and both worlds overlapped for a while. I was clearly already visioning a dream world, but every time I moved my hands to do a RC, I was still moving my "real" hands and not the dream hands. It took me a while to finalize the transition. And when I did, I still wasn't sure in what level of reality I was, because I got up from my dream bed and went to a balcony and clearly the world outside was a very large city and not my hometown, but it was so realistic in all its details and sensations, that I chickened at the thought of flying away from the balcony. I decided to do one more RC just to be on the safe side and not kill myself.
When I was absolutely sure, then I flew away over a 10-lane highway and for fun, landed on top of a big truck and surfed it.
I had no clear goal with the dream, so I let the story unfold.
My stunts attract some attention and I gather a group of misfits and adventurers who follow me as their leader. We become a rebel group on this futuristic mad max style world. Some day I meet a guy I don't fully trust, but he is a bad-ass with some skills and I spend some time with him, to see if he fits in our group. We hijack trucks with materials we can use, but we never hurt anybody. But he attacks a truck with a family and kills the parents of a kid and almost shoots the kid. Needless to say, I kick his ass and make sure he never hurts anyone again. Then I adopt the scared kid and take him to our base. We live in a semi-underground tunnel complex on the outskirts of the suburbs. I love this kid very much and make sure he grows up nicely and in a peaceful environment.
I guess he brings me into maternal mode, because I do much less adventures outside and have become more home-based. I even have a date with a guy and a friend helps me pick up a dress to go out that evening. I leave the kid with a lady who is not human. Her head is hairless and instead is covered in a thick brownish skin with round protuberances of different sizes. But she is the most trustworthy person around, very calm and serene.
This guy I'm going out with, he's like the Hulk, big and green. The babysitter suggest I should wear a green outfit to match, but I disagree, he might think I'm mocking him.

Date: 4/4/14 (Thu)
Total sleep: 6.5 Hours
Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Text Search
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization
Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
Dream 1 Title: Aimless wandering
Dream 1: I am walking up a low grassy hill with my wife. We are walking to the mall together. I am wearing a long black trench coat. **Jump** I am at the mall and I am in the kitchen area of a restaurant. Lisa from work is there. She asks me if I need help with anything and I say no. There are stainless steel cabinets and counters all around me. They are covered of boxes, cans, bottles and kitchen utensils. There is a large gray plastic trash bin, with wheels, right in front of me. I look in. There are a few boxes, and beneath them are a bunch of cookies. I see some cookie that are cupped, and in the depression is yellow filling. I know they are lemon and really want to eat some. I reach in to take some, but realize they are in the trash and that would be disgusting. I walk out thought a set of swinging doors and find myself in a local mall. I walk to my left, not paying too much attention to anything. There are people all around. I notice a pretty woman pushing a baby carriage and stop to look at the baby. She gives me a dirty look. I feel embarrassed. I quickly turn away and walk into the store to my right. Then I realize this isn’t a store but a daycare center. I know I shouldn’t be in there because you have to sign in before entering for security reasons. I quickly leave. **Jump** I am sitting in the sand of a beach, but I can’t see, hear or smell the ocean. It feels like I’m on a movie set. But, the sand feels nice. It is warm and very dry. Then I notice a bundle of sticks sticking out of the sand to my right. They are sticks which would be used for beef and chicken skewers at a Chinese restaurant. Then I see pieces of meat clinging to the sticks. I am disgusted. I look around and there are many more around me, sticking out of the sand. I realize I am sitting in the middle of a garbage dump. I jump to my feet and begin to walk away. The dream fades and I awake.
Dream 2 Title: Sleeping in a warehouse (**Lucid**)
Dream 2: I am in some kind of small warehouse. The floors and walls are cement. There are tables and chairs set up. There is a small stage. There are miscellaneous items (boxes, bins, boards, etc) that you may find in a warehouse pushed up against the walls. My wife and daughter are there. We find seats at a large round table (seats about 8 people) as more people start to come into the room. Everyone starts to take their seats. A woman comes in and goes up to the mic on the small stage. I realize she is a comedian. She walks out into the audience and is talking but I can’t make out what she is saying. She walks to our table and put’s her hand on my daughter’s shoulder. She gets up from her seat and walks with the woman. I assume she is going to go up on stage as part of the act, but instead the woman escorts her to another table. I’m confused by this. I realize I am sitting on a couch and I lay down on my side because I’m feeling tired. I see my wife get up, walk over to the table where my daughter is now sitting and sit next to her. Things start to fade out as I feel I am falling asleep. I open my eyes and the show is over. I am still lying down with a coat covering me. I look over my right shoulder and see Maggie (a woman I used to work with over 10 yrs ago). I say hi to her. She says Hi back but is looking at me funny because I am sleeping during a show. I sit up and look for my wife and daughter, but I realize I am now shirtless and only wearing athletic shorts. I see my wife and daughter about 20 feet away, they have their backs to me. I notice my daughter has much more hair than in RL, it is up in a ponytail and hangs to the back of her legs. Someone behind me playfully wraps his or her arms around my neck. I don’t know who it is. I move toward my wife and daughter and the person continues to hang on. My wife turns and smiles. The person lets go and I turn around. It is a young man who I don’t recognize (in the dream or RL). He is about my daughter’s age, with short red curly hair and lots of freckles on his face. Behind him a see a large metal sliding door which I know leads out of the building. Something is feeling strange about this situation. I walk to the door. Suddenly I have a shirt on. I know I was shirtless seconds ago, and I know something isn’t right. Then I remember I was awake in my bed just a little while ago, and having a lot of trouble falling back to sleep. I am lucid without doing a reality check. Everything around me, colors and details, become more vivid. I am surprisingly calm. (I completely forgot to stabilize) I grab the handle of the door and slid it open. There is an alley before me with a one story brick building to the left and a wooden stockade fence to the right. I walk out into the ally. About 20 feet down the alley is a maroon dumpster and standing hear it is a woman. She is taller than me (probably 6 ‘6”) with dark black wavy hair that falls below her shoulders. She is wearing a puffy white long sleeve shirt, a long black skirt, and tall black boots. She reminds me of a gypsy. I walk towards her. She turns and smiles at me. I smile back. I say, “I’m dreaming!” She continues to look at me but her face morphs. Her cheek bones and jaw become more pronounce and the shadow of beard stubble appears. She is now a man dressed like a woman. I ignore this change knowing this is just a dream. I decide to jump over the six foot fence to my right. As I jump I remember my goal, and drop back to the ground. I know I want to fly into space and view the earth from orbit. I look up at the sky, which is brilliantly blue with no clouds. I turn back to the man/woman and say “Do you want to see something amazing?” He/she nods. I look back to the sky and it has changed. It is a swirling mass of deep purple and blue with millions of stars and galaxies. I pause for a moment to stare at this amazing sight. Then I squat down a bit and give a tremendous leap…but my real life legs respond and jerk which immediately wakes me up.
Awake:: 4:00 am then dozed back off around 5 am and awoke at 5:15 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 6; D2 = before lucid 8, after lucid 13
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 4; D2 before lucid 8 then Lucid
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 20 min; D2 10 min
Emotions: Disappointment, Fear, Embarrassment; Disgust; Happiness
Dream Signs: In strange places (restaurant kitchen, day care center, warehouse, beach, etc), person from my past, daughter with long hair, some kid I don’t know hugging me from behind)
Notes: I woke up after Dream 1 just before 4 am. I have pain in my neck. I lay there recalling my dream for a few minutes. I make mental tags. But then I realize I’m probably not going to be able to fall back to sleep. I then jot my tags down on my notebook and lay there thinking about my dream and trying to remember previous dreams from earlier that night. I glance at the clock at 4:32 am. I start meditating (breathing, clearing my mind) in the hope of falling back to sleep. I glace at the clock at 4:53 am. Then I ended up in Dream 2, but it was a very light sleep right on the verge of waking up. In the dream I completely forgot to stabilize. I’m sure that would have helped.