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I wasn't part of my dream for the first part of it last night. It felt like I was spectating or watching a movie.
There were 3 ghetto as fuck black dudes. They entered and shot up a casino but didn't steal anything. Before the cops arrived, they went to the back of the building and hid from police. They tried getting on the roof with makeshift ladders but failed. An argument started between two of them. Guns were pulled and someone got shot.
I gave all 3 of them names but the only one I remember was Tyrone.
Next thing I remember is being offered a choice between scenarios. I chose the one of the black guys and I appear as the massacre finishes. We run to the back of the casino through the alleway and hide from police. After the cops leave our area, we manage to get on the roof and I enter the casino from the roof. Cops are investigating the scene and I pull out my knife, ready to drop on him and kill him. I know my objective is to kill everyone in the casino without being noticed. I notice the Mark of The outsider and I'm able to Blink around the building. The building seems to be retualistic with candles and skulls around the walls and floors.
I'm able to kill a few people when I notice the casino has turned into a prison filled with inmates and they converse with me. My objective still stands and I kill a few more people, a few times even leaving their bodies in positions that make them look asleep.

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I was swimming underwater thinking I was playing Super Mario. I was wearing the red plumber suit and hat. I remember an underwater temple and its ruins, along with mossy floating rocks in the area with objects on them. There was a big water snake that left its cave, took my hat, and retreated back inside the cave. I had to punch the snake to get my hat back. The last thing I remember was swimming to the surface where the sun was shining bright. A man was looking down on me, waiting.

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Last night, I dreamt that I was in a small room with a mirror on the right side of the wall and an oriental painting on the left. I was in between the mirror and painting looking away from the wall at something. I didn't show any emotion but I looked to be a young age.

This is the first dream I had when I started keeping a dream journal on 1/29/2014. I'll post a few per day until I reach the current date.

2.20.14

Last night bed at midnight - 7am

I have been remembering dreams every time I woke up at night, but didn't feel like I remembered enough to write it down. I know, that's a mistake.

1. [Non-Lucid]
I'm in some sort of cube thing in Minecraft, I keep falling from cube to cube, it hurts and takes half a heart every time, there are spiders and creepers around the place, I think I make it to the bottom, I say something but I forgot.
Someone (Lewis?) is chasing me as I'm trying to run away, he grabs me and I fall to the floor, I'm now laying on my back and hes now on top of me with a sharp razor-blade in hes right hand (his right), hes about to end me then...my alarm went off and I jolted awake.

2. [Non-Lucid]
I'm at the top of some stairs (1 step then turn right then stairs) I take a while to get down the step, I'm grabbing on the handrail to the left for dear life as im scared of falling down the stairs, I put my left foot forward ((I can actually see my leg)I think I'm wearing white socks), I'm really scared at this point it takes me at least 10 minutes to get down this step, I think I sit down and shuffle down the stairs.

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Possible dream signs:
Stairs, Lewis, Minecraft

I have a memory of intense dreaming last night, although I remember just a few things from before I woke up.

I know that the ambient in which I am now is my faculty (the building where I studied). I am seeing some familiar faces. Don't know actually what am I doing there, cause I've finished my education.
I am feeling, well not quite positive for some reason, like something is bugging me.
I really don't remember what was going on here I just know that I have to take a trip somewhere with someone to meet some Chinese woman. I am upset cause I won't see my boyfriend. I don't know when will I be coming back. I am sad, feeling this uncomfortable feeling of separation ... like a bad dream (heh!)

We have arrived to that woman's place. She doesn't really look like Chinese woman but the people she work with does. For some reason now I am more relaxed. I think I am seeing some interesting stuff iaround me. I remember I was curious and playful.

Now I am seeing some strange creature. I've heard that she has a monkey, but wow, that is not an ordinary monkey, and as I am looking him more I am thinking how he looks more like a Gargoyle - it has those "devilish" wings, and a pointy tail. It gets closer to me and it really is kinda scary creature.

I take a look at my mobile phone and I realize it is turned off (same in reality, gets turned off by itself). I am upset cause maybe somebody called me, needed me. I turn it on and indeed I see a message from my boyfriend - from around 10 in the morning, saying something like: My love is a little wild animal (referring on me - cause in reality I was reading some horoscope and my asc. and venus are both in Leo (wild animal)). What you say on you runing with me? (like, while he is running I'll be talking on the phone with him)
I was kinda feeling bad cause I saw this message just now and is afternoon. I felt like I let him down by not keeping my mobile on. I was happy tho that I have received his message. That is all I remember- for now.
Anyhow, overall - bad feeling, don't like it.

Dream brings vision of this ^ (maroon) color in me for some reason.

1. [Non-Lucid] [Felt Aware Somewhat]
I'm in some place, the floor is made of dark old wood planks and seems wobbly.
I'm in my wheelchair and I became stuck because of 3 steps...so I thought screw it and jumped the steps, when I hit the floor my wheels felt like they buckled under the pressure , but they seemed fine as I drove away.

Side Notes:
In this dream I felt like I was actually there as if I had very low awareness, I don't think I had any control.

2. [Non-Lucid]
I think I'm in a game, something like GTA SA or IV, Me and 2 others are in this small compound, we have each picked a car.
Now we have to run away and not get caught, (It is night time, its quite dark) I decided to hide behind these houses I found so I turned my lights off and reversed out of sight.

3. [Non-Lucid]
I'm on a coach, I'm inspecting the seat in front of me (Its facing sideways, Its light gray, I take note that it has no armrests, I thought it would be cool to sit there to see better through the windscreen).

Not sure if its the same dream but, Me, Mum and a few others find a restaurant so we enter, upon entering I notice the carpet (Very faded, ^ shaped patterns colored various colors), We turn left and walk over to a low table and sit down.
We are eating something, I don't know what.

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Possible dream signs:
Mum, Stairs

1. [Non-Lucid]
Me and David are walking through a parking lot in the night, we end up at this silver car, we start touching it for some reason then Gabe Newell appears and says "Careful the alarm may go off", the car then let out a BLIP sound 3 times so we started running away and then the delayed alarm goes off and we laugh to each other.
We appear to be following Gabe down this narrow walkway with fencing on either side.

2. [Non-Lucid]
I'm in hospital, I think I'm having an operation or something, I seem really annoyed and angry.
I'm in the waiting room talking and I get shouted at so I shout back.
Now were in the car, I'm not sat right as I'm slouching so I ask David to push me back so I was sitting straight.

I'm with a doctor talking about my robotic hand (Its coloured white and light blue, Its awesome, I keep grabbing things n pulling things) with another guy who wants 1.

3. [What?!?!]
I'm in the back of a car laying down on my own, Its nigh and its dark, I'm scared I may fall off the seat when I'm Wilding (drinking a green bottle of bear randomly), this problem seems to have gone, So i close my eyes and im so happy I successfully Wilded so I sit up and think I should stabilize so I touch my knee and some other stuff around the car and then I wake up

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Possible dream signs:
David, Harness, Gabe Newell, Doctor

2.16.14 Sunday

last night 11p-5am

Another short night.

Again, I knew I had some long dreams, and I could almost recall it. So close, yet so far : (

I am not going to go into detail, just don't much feel like it.

First part of my dream occurred on a bus. I was talking to an old kid from public school and we kind of liked each other. Then he dated my old foster sister but he was rude to her but she loved him anyways.

Then I was in a an adult math class where we were learning basic math skills. Everyone was writing down notes but I was memorizing the lectures that were actually about how to be a waiter. The teacher was a lesbian and she was hitting on me but I didn't mind cause she gave me good marks.

There was a fragment about walking along a dark road with a ditch on the side, something about frogs I think.

2/15/14 saturday

last night, bed around midnight - 9am

Everytime I woke up, I knew I had a dream. But it seems like I'm missing the recall just by seconds. Like catching the "red wave" at traffic light, when it seems like you catch every red light as yo go. If only you drove few seconds faster, you could get out of it.

I'll do better tonight. Reading book about Cayce. It really is awesome. It makes me pause after almost every sentence to be able to absorb what it's saying. I'm very inspired by it.

My memory of the dream begins when I was walking to my garage when I realized I was dreaming. I managed to stabilize , which is usually a problem for me, then decided to try out a couple things I've never done in a dream.
I've always wanted to see what my reflection looked like in the mirror, so I walked into my bathroom where there was a large one. As I walked in, I saw a large orange spot on a contorted face in the mirror where my face should be, so I immediately got out and went back in to try again. This time, my face was normal, but it was hard to see so I moved a little closer. As I did, the mirror started pushing me away! I was rather flustered; it really wasn't something I was expecting. It was like I was fighting against an invisible magnetic force, but eventually I got close enough to see my face clearly. It looked absolutely normal. And when I reached out to touch the mirror, I felt nothing but the cool glass under my fingers. So that was anti-climatic.
After that, I decided to try the task of the month. I decided I'd need people around to try either giving my heart to someone or asking who my true love was, so I decided I wanted to go to my school. But I had no idea how to do it. I tried walking to my bedroom, closing the door and willing my school to be behind it, but when I opened it I saw nothing but the room that was already there. The dream went black soon after that and I woke up.
In hindsight, I really should have fought harder to get through the mirror, because that's something I've wanted to do for a while. I also should've continued into the garage after that; I saw an unusual amount of light coming through from behind it, and for all I know my school was behind it as I was planning on becoming lucid and going there the night before. Also, if there was just my neighborhood or the garage behind it, I could have easily just flown to school which is just 5 minutes away.

More fragments I really need to get my act together here!

1. I was in a studio space working on an art project when people started coming into the room. I was ticked off cause I thought I had the space to myself. I was trying to get out a rolled up piece of paper from a metal cylindrical container that had lots of meter sticks and rulers sticking out of it. I was flailing my arms, knocking over everything around me but I could not manage to get the paper out, then this guy I remember from highschool comes over and he is pissed because I was making so much noise. He takes the container from me and with ease pulls out the paper and gives it to me. I am so mad because I felt like they shouldn't be angry cause I was in their first and they chose to come in to the room.

2. Peter from family guy was in my house, maybe he was my dad but I don't think he was. Anyways he was angry cause someone ate his chocolate Popsicle and he was blaming it all on meg. I walked into the living room and told him that I ate it and tomorrow I would buy him another one. He went downstairs and I followed him. He was sitting on shelves and eating the Popsicles that he he hidden down there. I was like the son of a gun tricked me! And I confronted him and we had an eating competition. But I was eating something like a fruit roll up and we we're try to take the biggest bites to finish first. Peter won and I don't remember what happened after that.

3. I was apart of a class and we were talking to the professor in a forest. Some kid mentioned that the prof should put his lectures online and that he should also be online to answer question. The prof was like "ya maybe I should just give you all the answers" in a sarcastic tone.

1. [Non-Lucid]
I'm at a white round table with my dad, were talking about a photo that's on the table I think.
Now my sister Chloe is at the table drawing something.

2. [Non-Lucid]
I'm in some sort of 2D video game where we have to jump from platform to platform, I got to part of the level where there were spikes that I kept jumping onto them, was a difficult area, The platforms were coloured black and I think turn red when you land on them.

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Possible dream signs:
Dad, Chloe

Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid Waking life notes

February 14, 2014:

I am walking through a college campus. I suddenly become lucid, for no apparent reason, and look around. I enter a room full of people. I want to find a woman who was in a class with me earlier. She was nice, but I don't remember anything else about her, so no one can help me find her.

I go into a classroom. There is a class in cession. It looks to be about something very boring. The class filled with only men. I say to them something like "Why are you having this boring class? This is a dream!"
I try to prove it to them by making a desk chair float. I lift it and let go, but the chair simply falls to the floor. I then put the chair on a table, with some difficulty. I put another desk chair on top of it, but they both fall over.
I am annoyed and disappointed and say "Why does my dream have normal physics?!"


Now, hours later in the day, I am wondering, why did my lucid dream objects behave that way? For a long while now whenever I try most things in a lucid dream that I can't do in reality, it feels like I am only pretending to do it, no different than if I did it in waking life. Why is this? Is my imagination lacking, for some reason?